It was a. Shock because I had imagined a certain freedom of being the one behind the wheel, making the choices to go left or right 'cause even a child knows that looks like that the path is swathing left swathing, right, whatever it is and you you just go ahead and you're driving along and then one day and I remember doing this I got in the car. I just spun the wheel and it went around and around and around but nothing happened. It still followed the track. And then my mind was set on the next level of that Autopia where I can clearly see there was no track and I was very excited because. I did have. Control of the car on that track. It was always single file but I. Still had control. And then gradually, as the child begins to take in and understand his relationship, her relationship with their environment, then you begin to realize, yeah, I could still look steer the car, but I could only steer the car along a certain set of lines that were inherent in the walls of the track. I was on. So I still had to go where the track took me. And I don't know whether or not I've set. The stage well enough yet, but I'm going to just insert this here before I start giving you some examples to look at to help us see how this relates to our day-to-day existence. Dear God, we're not meant to live on a track. Our life isn't meant to be determined by a set of boundaries. That determine how far we can move this way or that way. Let alone where that track would take us. There is no known destination for a human being, at least that that human being with his mind as it presently is constituted, can determine by steering the wheel of thoughts and feelings so as to arrive at what they got into that life. That moment doing that car moment that I'm going to. Get to this destination where when I get there I'll have succeeded. I'll have left. Behind this and I'll have arrived at that. Failing to see that I can't even begin to think what it is that I want to arrive at. Without having set a track. Without having set a trap for myself without even knowing I've done it. Because even wanting just to get to the end of a difficult moment in your life. Sets you on a track. Sets you on a course that's been determined by a level of consciousness that wouldn't even imagine trying to get to the end of that unwanted moment. If first it hadn't been complicit in creating that unwanted moment by imagining some other place and time where it could. Arrive and finally. Be free of. Whatever it was that it felt was holding it. Back and holding it down. We just don't see the tracks. Just to break up some of the seriousness for a moment, my mind. Started singing Smokey Robinson's the tracks of my tears. How about the track of fear? Do you think to yourself that? You're on a track. When you when you look at the day ahead. And the next thing you know, your thoughts and feelings are firing off like this. Putting up red flags bridge out ahead. You won't get there from here. Now you have to get onto another track altogether. Find another guru, another God find another way to ingratiate yourself to other people. All of those are the tracks of thoughts. And all of those thoughts belong to the past. So what we are really running along all the time on what we believe is a life that we're choosing so that we can have a feeling of being a new human being. What we're actually experiencing without even knowing it 'cause? It's in the. Background we're asleep to our own mind. As it goes before us, laying track. And the track that it lays before us. That never delivers us to what is promised, as that track is being laid. What we never discover is that you can't have a track in front of you that didn't begin behind you. Meaning in the past. Let me know if you're still out there, will you? Anybody still listening? OK Claudia yeah, I can always count on you. I'm glad we had this time and I'm the 1st to tell you. How, how factually, in one respect. Difficult it is. To delve into. To bring light into a world that presently has no light in it at all. How many times would you get up in the morning? And Speaking of which. Did you ever do you know that that every that when you go to sleep at night and you wake up in the morning? When you open your eyes you you, for all intents and purposes, that that's a form of rebirth. At the simplest level. I was asleep, unconscious, had no awareness of myself off dreaming somewhere if I was dreaming or just in some new list, some no self. At all and. Then all of a sudden my eyes open. And overnight. By the grace of.