[7:40, 26/4/2023] I: I don't know I feel left out
[7:40, 26/4/2023] I: I don't like this at all, I don't like conflict and try to avoid it to not feel aabandoned
[7:40, 26/4/2023] I: I hate this feeling
[7:41, 26/4/2023] E: You feel left out from who
[7:41, 26/4/2023] E: Me?
[7:41, 26/4/2023] I: Sometimes you
[7:41, 26/4/2023] I: But not only you
[7:41, 26/4/2023] E: I see baby
[7:42, 26/4/2023] E: Well idk i talk to you a lot
[7:42, 26/4/2023] I: It's not about talking or not
[7:42, 26/4/2023] E: Whats it about
[7:45, 26/4/2023] I: It's a fear of getting abandoned if I interacted a lot
[7:45, 26/4/2023] I: Or showed a lot
[7:45, 26/4/2023] I: It will give more chances for conflicts
[7:45, 26/4/2023] I: I don't wanna be included in those overwhelmed feeling
[7:45, 26/4/2023] I: I would think over and over
[7:46, 26/4/2023] I: It's hard for me to get interact with others without feeling of leaving after
[7:48, 26/4/2023] E: Hmm i see
[7:49, 26/4/2023] E: We should ask advice from therapist gpt 4
[7:52, 26/4/2023] I: Even though I'm the one who mostly leave others
[7:52, 26/4/2023] E: Ler me give tou my view
[7:53, 26/4/2023] E: I already told you in primary school i got dumped
[7:53, 26/4/2023] E: And im a proud person so i am scared of being abandoned too
[7:53, 26/4/2023] I: Huh you didn't
[7:53, 26/4/2023] E: But i just reflect it by being careful of who i tall with and how much
[7:53, 26/4/2023] E: Talk
[7:54, 26/4/2023] E: In the end if someone wants to not talk to me its their problem
[7:54, 26/4/2023] I: I got dumbed by my parents
[7:54, 26/4/2023] I: It's not like this
[7:54, 26/4/2023] E: I know i am worthy of friends and i believe in that
[7:54, 26/4/2023] I: If someone doesn't want to talk that's ok
[7:54, 26/4/2023] I: I'm worried about conflicts
[7:55, 26/4/2023] I: I don't care if someone doesn't want to talk back I can go with it from the first day
[7:55, 26/4/2023] I: I'm worried about attachment then a problem came
[7:55, 26/4/2023] I: Then left out
[7:55, 26/4/2023] I: It feels like I'm the problem
[7:55, 26/4/2023] E: Wdym
[7:56, 26/4/2023] I: ?
[7:57, 26/4/2023] E: Hmm
[7:57, 26/4/2023] E: Let me think
[7:58, 26/4/2023] I: It's ok take your time
[8:05, 26/4/2023] E: i guess you mean when you think you have a bond with someone and then get abandoned
[8:05, 26/4/2023] E: thats the problem
[8:06, 26/4/2023] I: Yes
[8:06, 26/4/2023] I: I will translate every action to prove it
[8:07, 26/4/2023] I: Till they prove me wrong
[8:07, 26/4/2023] I: Still I would plan to leave before they even have the chance to prove me wrong
[8:07, 26/4/2023] E: Hmm i see, i apply this anyways
[8:08, 26/4/2023] E: The problem is just a thought in your mind that goes over and over from the trauma
[8:08, 26/4/2023] E: You should try to replace it with the other truth, and it's that you have a lot of value, and if someone doesn't want you then there will be millions of others that will
[8:09, 26/4/2023] I: Not only this
[8:09, 26/4/2023] I: I feel like everyone has something to hurt me after
[8:09, 26/4/2023] I: If I get closer to them
[8:09, 26/4/2023] I: I feel like there will be a day they'll try to destroy me
[8:09, 26/4/2023] E: well letting people get closer implies being more vulnerable
[8:10, 26/4/2023] I: I kept anxious about what I say and if they will use it against me one day
[8:12, 26/4/2023] I: I never wanted to say this
[8:12, 26/4/2023] I: But yes I'm worried about you as well
[8:12, 26/4/2023] I: That you will hurt me one day