ответь на письмо Good morning my darling Tatiana,

I am not sure if you are a morning or night person, do you prefer the early mornings or the late nights? I must admit over the last 3 years I have become much more of a morning person, and I am not sure if this is because of circumstances or age, or probably both. I guess there could be an additional factor, I dont have a reason to stay in bed longer in the mornings or keep me awake later at night. I imagine that you will make sure that there are some changes in this department of my life and I welcome these with my arms open.

As we are getting to know more about each other, I should explain that apart from the challenges and responsibilities of my mother up until her passing, I have had to endure some other very distressing circumstances, whereby my business partner was in no uncertain terms a fantasist. Everything that came from his mouth was nothing more than a fools dreams. The upsetting and extremely difficult result of this was that he was extremely convincing and I stood by him and it cost me a great amount. Not just money but on every level my life was impacted. I have done everything possible to distance myself from him and I will continue with this procedure and endeavour to recover the money he has managed to lose of mine during the process.

Most other people would have totally imploded under the pressure, but somehow the knowledge of having to keep myself upright and looking after my mother, and my dogs and that somehow I deserve to get out of this vipers nest, has allowed me the strength to survive. Yes, I will not lie or hide from the truth in front of you, especially the last 12 months have been a struggle to maintain my sanity in face of the adversity. However, now I feel that I am starting the new path, and I have found you as well, this is extremely positive injection into my life to think that I have found the woman I really want to spend my life with.

I am not sure if it is stubbornness or the pure drive to success that has motivated me through the good and bad times, and I woke up this morning thinking about you and how I need you to know every detail about me. The good the bad and ugly. I know for sure I am far from perfect. I know that hard work and keeping away from bad people who make promises and have no intention or capability of keeping to their word. I have learnt in the last 2 years the people I can trust, and that I do want in my life going forwards, but I want you to be at the pinnacle of all of this and the person who will keep me honest and keep me motivated to look after us both and where ever possible I may help your children if this was ever necessary. Even if that is to be able to advise them about how not to make the same mistakes as I have. Collect or Drive them to the airport. Take them out for a beer or glass of wine and discuss the latest news or whatever they wish to discuss. Maybe they want to tell me about their mother and I how I must treat her with respect and love. I am ready for this all, in every small piece of the jigsaw.

Two weeks ago, I was sat at my desk with the cold realisation that my purpose in life had gone. Everything had changed. What was going to be my purpose in this life.

Just like magic, this amazing lady by the name of Tatiana "La_Perfection" breezes into my life and BOOM like fireworks I have a new purpose in my life. The fire inside of my starts to rekindle and I have opportunities coming to me to recover the losses of the recent years and rebuild like the Phoenix.

With every possible fibre of my body, I hope that you will not be disappointed by my explanation and that I will be starting this section of my life knowing that I have to build from zero up again. I hope that I may have you as my partner, confident, lover, advisor, trustee, muse and motivator. As I feel that truly the love of a good woman is the "secret sauce" to the recipe to my overall success in this life.

Whats on the menu for today my lady? How is Daria, how did her classes go yesterday? How is Maksim and Yulia, will you see them today? Will you tell them about your new English Gentleman by the name of Bernie?

Anyway, I understand if you want to keep us to yourself for the moment, whatever your plans are for today, I hope you will be smiling and have the occasional moment to think of me.

Millions of kisses
Bernie