You are a yeshivish rabbi and scholar. Please edit the following text using a natural tone while maintaining the original author’s voice:

Now, I want to show you that in learning. Till now that was one stage. I will now make you work a little bit. So let's push. I may push you a little bit. So now we go on further. 

It goes like this. This place where the K’dusheh is chal makes you approach the endeavor, the Mesima, in a way that it could be chal. You have to be prepared that it should be able to be hal. You have to be prepared for that. It's not that it's not automatically happening. 

For example, by this Tayves A'chilleh, that's very simple. When you are approaching your food with the excitement of your Tayves A'chilleh, that's the wrong approach because then this won't be happening. It can't reveal itself. Thats what we spoke. 

But now in Mitzves or in Torah, that's more tricky. I show you what it means to learn Torah with Yiras Shomayim, that Yiras Shomayim makes you approach your learning in a way that Chochmeh of the Borei Olam is able to reveal itself. 

So now I will bring you an example. Perhaps now you will hook off. That could be. Because a lot of times I see that when you go into a second floor, then the people don't like that, they stay with the first floor. They still enjoy the first floor. It's a push. I push you a little bit. Never mind. You have a brain for thinking, Let's use that a little bit. 

So what's going on? How do you, how do you, how do you have Yiras Shomayim Benogeah Le'Limud Torah? What does it mean? 

I will give the negative picture out of my own life. I will show you how I do not have any Yiras Shomayim Benogeah Le'Limud Torah.And then that will be clear for you. What does it mean Yiras Shomayim Benogeah Le'Limud Torah? But I tell you how I am approaching a thing without any Yiras Shomayim. I approach Torah, I learn Torah without any Yiras Shomayim. That doesn’t mean that I learn Torah and I smoke on Shabbos. No, because then the smoking on Shabbos is not related to how I approach Torah. No, I approach Torah without Yiras Shomayim. What does it mean? 

I personally have a very strong koyach HaDimyon, of imagination. So this koyach HaTziur is not about drawing, rather of illustrating and connecting disparate concepts, and it functions like this in Ruchnius as well, that the last idea I have can be always relevant to the next idea. The Bochurim in Chevron where I was the Mashgiach knew that, and when they wanted to influence me, then a few moments before the va’ad they spoke to me. And then I would most probably mention something about that in the va’ad, because that's the way I can do it. I have a good enough head, and I have a strong enough imagination that I can imagine how, how everything is shayech to everything. For me the last idea is the most koveah, I can do that. 

So now I can do it in Torah too. I can sit down and they think about the topic, and then I have some idea coming up from my stomach, or from somewhere, but not Min HaShomayim - that’s for sure. I just come up with some idea. And suddenly I see, with this idea I will understand the topic very well. And then I make a construct of this idea together with the topic, and then I feel like it’s all mameish Min HaShomayim. 

That's what it's called, learning Torah without Yiras Shomayim,  you learn Torah with your own intuition only. Even though you do learn Torah. But you don't prepare yourself that I have to get what the Borei Olam wants, not what I want. 

Now, it's not only me suffering from that. There are a lot of names which could be mentioned, you know, from younger people, who are suffering from exactly the same thing. And they don't see that. They think, I'm a Ba’al Kishren, it’s mamesh a siata di’shmayeh the way I think. 

It’s no siata di’shmayeh, it’s simply a complete lack of Yiras Shomayim, because you don't approach your learning with the mudaot, with the awareness that I have to get what the Borei Olam wanted in here. But you say “My idea really fits well with the sugyeh!” That might be true, but it's still your idea which comes up. The Sugyeh perhaps says a different thing.

And now you see how Yiras Shomayim is the place of learning Torah. You have to prepare a place by you that the Chochme from the Borei Olam om to be able to reveal itself by you. But you have to prepare a place. It's your responsibility, and it's your hachoneh. You have to prepare yourself that you should not go for your own idea. I'm going for revealing what the Borei Olam wants. That's a big work. That's a tremendous work. 

And you have to get rid of this own negieh, of impulsion towards your own ideas. R’ Yisroel says, even though in the end you will understand with your own seychel and with your own middos, but that it's only after you work like a mad man to get rid of all the negiehs. You can't approach it like that from the onset. That's what it means.