when i was in college i had a long distance relationship with a girl from the town i grew up in. i found out she cheated on me while i was gone. i immediately stopped answering her calls and never talked to her again.
it never gets too far out of your memory. but it will fade over time. i doubt you will still be feeling like this when you are in the nursing home.
about four years ago. i will never forget the feeling. it was like getting hit by a truck.