i always complain and treat my husband like crap, i need to change.
i know, and i know it can be really hard to deal with that guilt. you want to solve the problem though, and that is still worth something. being able to take the little victories will go a long way toward the goal you want in terms of how you treat your husband.
that is true but it is not much to be proud of. you say it is but i certainly do not feel that way.