i am afraid to leave my current job which i hate because i might not be able to find work that i enjoy that pays well enough to live on.
yes. and the tricky part is that you can choose to stay in the miserable job for financial life stability, and then be crabby and unhappy around your kids, or you can take the risk and maybe be in a worse financial place but be happier at home. it is tough.
i feel for you. my girlfriend is in the same position. luckily we do not have kids to complicate things, but her job wears her out and it does not seem like she can physically or mentally keep up with it. kids just make it so that you feel you have to do it until you die, no matter what.