you know that feeling when loneliness just hits you in the gut? i hate that. i have to remember the bad things that i lived with so i can make that feeling stop.
you sound like you have dealt with more hardship than the average person. i wish i could empathize with you, but i have been lucky to avoid that kind of thing recently. but i do hope things will turn out differently for you soon. if anything, these things will make you more resilient than the average person, too. that is not worth nothing.
i do not really lol! i have been through a lot of trauma the past year and i only like people around i trust no drama! which is very few. as you get older..you realize you just want peace and people you love and who love you around that is it! we can die at any minute..and i have lost many this past year..it makes you realize how short life is! thank you for your kind words! it is always good to see other perspectives that help us feel appreciative of what we have being grateful is the key to a happy life. thanks for your kind words again!