when my brother got out of college he had a job and a car and was doing so fucking great for himself. everything was lined up and he was ready to take off in the world. the moment i graduated college i have nothing that i can do. i took the same degree but that year gap has led me to have nothing compared to him.
i do my best but sometimes that is super hard. i guess that is just one of those things everyone got to deal with.
man, that is gotta be a horrible feeling. i think it would help if you try not to compare yourself to others.