childhood sexual trauma and orientation confusion? Between the ages of 6 and 10 I was repeatedly molested and physically abused (burned with cigarettes mostly, at least that's where I got most of my scars) by close relative.  Now that I'm older I'm very confused about my sexual preferences (or more accurately, lack thereof).  I understand that my past has a significant impact on this, but is it a good idea to find out how much of an effect it had?  The only time I've ever had sex with someone I felt anything for was with another guy (who, a few weeks after branding his name into me, told me he didn't want to see again).  With everyone else I've pretty much a passive, unemotional object (girls or boys), and I do understand that aspect stems from my childhood.  But what does it mean if I turn out gay or straight or anything else?  Should it matter that the only reason I'm capable of feeling anything close to love for another male is because I was tied down, raped, and tortured so often I'm incapable of understanding gender roles, etc?

Summarized question: What is the relationship between childhood sexual trauma and sexual preferences?