I am a bi- polar bulemic who has tried everything but keeps failing; HELP! Underneath it all I am still me!? it began as annorexia about two years ago and just as i was approaching full recovery I fell directly into the claws of bulemia. my parents have tried everything, my sister who I used to be so close to now cant stand me and shes going away to college this summer! I have been away to a residential center for eating disorders which helped for a whilebut as soon as i was freed up again I lost control.  my mom suffered from it a while ago and I think i am making her sick again, my dad doesnt understand and he is turning into an alchoholic because of me, they both think I am doing it to spite them and they feel like all of their money and dreams have been flushed down the toilet. I cant stand to see them like this but I  have no control over my actions, or so it feels. It seems like the only choice I have left is to die, for their sake. I dont want to die though!  Im young, attractive, smart, and artistic. Im so confused! Why cant I just stop,does any one out there feel my pain? HELP ME

Summarized question: What resources are available for people with bipolar and bulimia?