Anyone here Anorexic? I go In-patient this week- scared to death!!!? Hi- I am 36 yrs old- and have been battling anorexia since I was about 5 or 6 years old- and this week I am going to an in patient treatment center to try to address some of these issues before this stupid disease or whatever it is kills me. The thinner I get- the thinner I want to be- need to be, it seems- like the "target" just keeps dropping, and I DON'T see that I am so emaciated thin and sick looking as EVERYONE I know tells me I am.. The internet says that's the scariest part, is that "victims" of this eating disorder don't see how thin they really are. God, I am so scared and really don't have any other option other than letting this thing "feed" off my soul, and starve me to death at the same time- I am not afraid to die- but I don't want to die- yet I don't want to live like this anymore... My husband of 17 years is terrified- yet so supportive- and at the same time- he just DOES NOT get it- and I shouldn't expect him to understand something I don't even understand,I need help

Summarized question: Are there resources for people going to in-patient treatment for anorexia?