sunday the first night i was so nervous and so anxious because you go up in ceremony and your the shamans come in and they they cleanse themselves and then you get served the ayah individually you go up they give it to you you can take your time and pray you can do whatever you want then you drink it i was so just like i got back to my mat and i sat there and i was like trying to keep it in but i could feel that like heat come from my toes all the way up and you're like your mouth starts to water my throat i'm gonna throw up and i looked over to griff and i looked at bishop and they're like swallow it and i was like okay and you can't talk or anything so i like my buddy um we call him the viking or soul viking he looks like a viking his head's tattooed he's he's been on the show he's so cool he's sitting directly across like you and i and he can see me he's looking at me and i'm throwing up and and i do it about three times and then the last time he just saw me i couldn't do it i just i threw it up and so i like to think that was her way of easing me in so i didn't get like a full punch to the face but i gotta let me take your hand and show you what i'm gonna show you we're gonna make you better we're gonna take the pain away aren't you supposed to eventually throw up no matter what it's not supposed to some people don't you purge yeah if something's happening you're going through something yeah you purge but it doesn't have to happen but this i mean within like the first NUMBER_TOKEN minutes no okay this takes like you got to sit and meditate for or sit still basically and meditate in the pitch black for about NUMBER_TOKEN minutes before the effects even before you even feel her so it's very so here she figured out the right dose you need well because i did the same dose as everyone else i think it was NUMBER_TOKEN mils which doesn't seem like a lot but when you've never done ayatus oh my god so um i felt like such a PROFANITY_TOKEN god i felt like such a PROFANITY_TOKEN okay that was the thought going through your mind oh you just PROFANITY_TOKEN it all up you ruined it you ruined this again you couldn't do this right yeah and so at that point um we we went through the meditation part and the shamans were they literally sing for like six hours straight so you said that you take it and then there's just you just you're quietly listening to them meditate and you wait and you wait and you're in pitch black like can't see this far in front of your face cool and you have a little puke bucket and then you have a little light that has a red filter on it you have to get up to go to the bathroom to get out of the you use that so you don't turn lights on and um me i brought like what no it's just a cool visual of just a puke bucket and a little light for the like i can imagine these like little lights going every once in a while
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