Yeah. I tell myself all these stories. There's a story like I tell myself in my head of like who I am, and then there's stories I tell on podcasts or write in books. And then like that's a narrative that I've been telling myself for a long time. And is it true? Or is that just, is that my editor? You've told it so many times and you know it's gonna get a reaction. And your memory is really of the telling of the story and not of what actually happened. And my memory is horrible. (David and Rich laugh) My memory is very inaccurate and it's horrible. And I just remember being in so much pain, like it's both, right? I tend to be very binary. Life's awesome or life's the worst, but it was both. I remember having a very happy childhood at the same time being like just a lot of anxiety and pain all the time. And I got tired of people telling me I was such a good artist, like sometime in high school like when I was NUMBER_TOKEN, NUMBER_TOKEN, NUMBER_TOKEN around that age, and I was growing up in Los Angeles, I was introduced to graffiti. But I didn't know this at the time, but graffiti has a lot of rules. There's a lot of structure. There's like this neighborhood you can't paint in. And these kinds of letters and I'm like, I don't wanna be a Vandal so I could follow more rules. Right. yeah, it's ironic. You know the band Sound Garden? Mmh. So in the trifecta of grunge right there, it's usually Nirvana, Pearl Jam, and then Southern Gardens third. And so, I used to listen to more, it's probably say Nirvana, but then there's this song, Slaves and Bulldozers, which is like a really long, it's like seven or nine-minute song. And it's, Chris Cornell's sings in like every single octave in that song. He's like the lowest view. And I would just... I remember being at my house and playing it as loud as possible. I had my headphones and I had it on a, I think I had it on cassette or CD and I would just listen to it over and over. And I would start getting myself hyped up for going out to do graffiti. And I wasn't part of a gang or crew or anything. It was just me and some spray paint that I stole. And I would listen to that song. And there's a lyric in the song where he goes, "Now I know why you've been shaking." And I didn't know, I was NUMBER_TOKEN, I didn't know what that meant, but I loved that line and I would sing it back with him. And then I would start punching myself in the face soft at first and then like...
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