i thought i got quieter when i started youtube so so this is the thing like and i've had this and i see what you're saying in terms of like how you interpret yourself and how others interpret you can sometimes be two completely different things blew my mind so i've been perceived as like oh my god you're so confident so confident and then i've been met in real life and it's like who's this PROFANITY_TOKEN PROFANITY_TOKEN weller that that you're being and you're the you're acting like you are when you're not that and um you probably had it where you started getting anxious of going on nights out when people started recognizing you in clubs and whatnot around your uni time that made you probably feel a lot more self-conscious even though people may have been going oh theo you're you're making these videos you're a lot more confident you're a lot more this and that um it is quite a phenomenon it just blew my mind i always thought at school i was quite light i was friendly with everyone like i was friends of like all the groups but i didn't ever see myself as shy yeah i don't know i think i think there's the biggest thing for me that i've seen in you is your opinion you back yourself rather than like before it'd be like if i was like no theo you're wrong you'd be like oh okay whereas now you're like nah this is what i think and this is why powerful strong man be reading the book yeah you know i mean it's like i think you just back yourself a lot more but i think that sometimes can come with just growing up a bit a bit of life experience realizing when you prove yourself right that breeds confidence where if you doubt yourself and then you somehow accidentally even intentionally or unintentionally prove that doubt to be wrong and you're like oh yeah no i can do this that makes you feel like more believing in yourself so the trick is put yourself in situations where you prove yourself right where you think you might be wrong and see your progress occur jeez you're actually full of motivation today ah it's because i'm back in the gym and i feel PROFANITY_TOKEN great oh that's what it is i'll tell you what it is mate like for so long you know when i was fat chubby drunk hungover extra skinny well not even that nobody you know you know you know the second series right of waffling when i it was locked down and i was obviously having all these parts no no i was just drinking it i was getting smashed dj and all this stuff in the other i felt like PROFANITY_TOKEN obviously because whatever but i've realized the optimum weller like right now i could do anything and feel confident in it rather than doubting myself and the doubt comes when i'm not feeling my optimum and the optimum that i have to be in is a gym lad built like a brick i'm basically like kaku well that's that's in a similar vein to theo that's how you sort of became the confident guy at school yeah used to watch wrestling and i used to be like i want to be like john cena right you
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