have you had any work done personally if you feel comfortable talking about it i have to say that if i ever found someone that i trusted enough which very unlikely because i have major trust issues but if i did find someone that i trusted enough to you know improve my face or just change it a little bit i would definitely consider it i don't think it's anything shameful i don't think that it's anti-feminist to get plastic surgery done especially if you're doing it being completely aware of why you're doing it if you know the why then i think it's it's the healthiest way to do it so for me my why would be definitely my job i've been doing youtube for the last six years and that means you have to sit down for hours upon hours and edit videos which means you know looking at myself for an unreasonable amount of time for the last six years which i definitely don't think it's normal for any human to be exposed to their reflection for such a long time and either my appearance is getting worse or i'm becoming increasingly intolerant of it but i've reached the point where like i've created a lot of videos edited them and just simply not posted them because of how uncomfortable my appearance in them makes me so for me personally i would like to have more control over my appearance to the point where it doesn't sabotage my job and i would also definitely like to feel more confident about it because trying to work on it is not really working and getting work done is so much cheaper than getting therapy for it you know and the only thing that has prevented me personally from taking action and actually like helping myself mentally because this really is more for my mental health than it is for my physical appearance has been the stigma that is attached to plastic surgery and for me it's not about catering to white supremacist beauty ideals or patriarchal beauty ideals for me it's just literally like fixing the things that bother me for me i never get scrutinized for my appearance online and anytime that that has happened it's actually been pretty funny and it's never really genuinely bothered me it's exclusively something that i want to do for myself in order to make this job easier for me because i don't want to stop doing youtube i just want to be able to cope with the side effects that come along with just having to look at your face for such a huge amount of time and you could say you could just get a video editor kristin and again plastic surgery is cheaper than a video editor also this is me with the finished blouse that i sewed it's a very crappy job i haven't grabbed a sewing machine in a really really long time but i'm really happy i did because after that i just could not stop sewing i went on and on for like two days uh anyways yeah thanks so much for watching if you want you can like this video comment below share and that's it bye
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