i no longer want a soulmate in fact i don't even think soul mates exist and no this isn't a new phenomenon it's not like soul mates used to exist and modern dating ruined the possibility of that ever happening i just don't think they ever existed and trying to chase and find a soulmate is trying to chase an illusion growing up i was always intrigued by the type of romance that was portrayed in movies when i was in middle school my friend group consisted of both girls and guys and within that friend group were always various crushes between different people that led to my guy friends dating some of my friends that were girls and unfortunately sometimes those were girls that i secretly had a crush on a pretty common activity back then was to watch movies late at night on the weekend we'd almost always go over this one girl's house who had a massive tv and living room just so we could fit all of us in the same room and because it was her house she and the other girls were usually the ones to pick the movie so we inevitably watched many many romantic comedies also known as rom-coms and honestly i secretly enjoyed these because i liked the way that these movies made relationships seem and how they made me feel guy meets girl he's not supposed to have feelings for and slowly develop feelings towards each other something bad happens and they stop talking then they realize they're actually meant for each other and are each other's soulmates and get back together in a climactic kiss ending as a result of watching so many of these movies and not having any guidance or research on how relationships actually are these movies shaped the way that i viewed relationships when i was young and i was pretty quick to fall in love with women back then practically every time a girl showed me any sort of affection i would be like damn is this the one this mindset led me to ask out two girls that i would frequently hang with and in incredibly cringy fashion the first girl that i asked out was the one whose house we would all watch movies at and i did it through text while i was sitting behind her on the bus back from ski club yes it is as bad as it sounds i asked her to go out with me while i was sitting behind her through text it's safe to say that i didn't have a clue on how to get out of the friend zone back then and the second girl was again through text and when she responded wait what i made up an excuse by saying that my friends stole my phone and sent that i know it was awful you'd think after that i'd learned my lesson but no i was still in this fantasy realm of finding the one for me and trying to find them in the worst of worst of ways speaking of rom-coms i also love to watch anime many animes that i enjoy are unfortunately not available in the united states in the streaming services that i use but luckily i can use nordvpn to access them nordvpn is an extremely fast easy to use vpn service that has NUMBER_TOKEN plus different servers in NUMBER_TOKEN countries it's really easy to set up and connect to a different region just by using one click and it's available on android ios mac windows and all other platforms i think everybody should be using a vpn when they browse the internet for several reasons the first being that you can hide your online identity by keeping a vpn on
START_SPONSOR_TOKEN luckily i can use nordvpn to access them nordvpn is an extremely fast easy to use vpn service that has NUMBER_TOKEN plus different servers in NUMBER_TOKEN countries it's really easy to set up and connect to a different region just by using one click and it's available on android ios mac windows and all other platforms i think everybody should be using a vpn when they browse the internet for several reasons the first being that you can hide your online identity by keeping a vpn on END_SPONSOR_TOKEN