forget jordan and and uh you know i i had to be like you know first just you know told him that you should probably ask him not me because i don't make decisions for him and and whatnot but really i knew in my heart i was like the main thing there is to set it all up and just tell him what time to show up and then yeah it's not a big deal but you can't have him have to work at it at all ouch i mean i don't mean that bad but it's just like you know you're you you enjoy a good thing you're like yeah sure i mean and honestly it's almost a it shows more of your affable nature where it's like you do something and and you know it's like if you can show up and not have to worry too much about it then yeah you're down like i don't mean that necessarily just because oh he's a lazy but but yeah you're willing to try stuff it's just you know you don't want to work too hard at it so basically here's here's the uh longer version of that is that it's like i i i have too many things on my schedule to the extent that if i don't have something i'm like very happy about it and i'm gonna take that opportunity to why are you like this i'm gonna no no no this thing acts like an anvil um and just dropped when i mined out a block under it i'm i'm in the uh underneath killing or farming chess what what why why are you mad at me anyway continue so it's like i have so many things all the time and so it means that if if i have a moment where i'm not uh in the middle of of i don't know saying yes to something someone has invited me to as far as recording goes i need that time in order to like figure out and plan and record a video of my own for like the main channel or something like that so that's why i'm not the one who's like going out of my way to set things up and reach out and it probably people think that i'm uninterested and it's not that at all it's that i have too many freaking things if i didn't have so many things which i would love by the way and i hope one day to be able to get back to the point that i was at like i feel like there was no better time than when i just moved to la and i like just dropped out of school and like all i did was just record videos all day and then i even had time to just play some like dota NUMBER_TOKEN after i was done uh in the evenings that was like the best time ever because i could if i wanted to i'd have time to reach out and say hey let's do this thing whereas now i don't and i don't like that and eventually i'd like to go to go back to it but i feel like no matter how hard i try i'm just stuck and i can't i can't go back to that carefree place there's too
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