this video is brought to you by curiositystream get a full year of curiosity stream as well as my streaming service nebula by using the link in the description sometimes life gets a bit out of hand this video was supposed to be something different it wasn't supposed to be like this i never really saw it going this way and yet here we are for those who don't know for the past five months or so of my life i've been working on a video regarding the angry video game nerd and the current cinemasquare backlash that it's been going on explaining everything that happened going through the controversies and giving my takes on it it's been something that i kept saying was going to be the next video that's going to be the next video i'll get it done and then it's going to be the next video if you've been watching my channel then you probably already caught on in the last two vids that i had post credit gags teasing the abgn video mcu style i was dead set on getting this thing out there and yet every time i sat down to work on it things kept happening happening in the story happening in cinemaskerr happening in my life it was this huge PROFANITY_TOKEN of content and creation and drama and suspense and this video before i knew it became this huge sisyphusian task of routinely trying to work on something and yet feeling like i was continuously starting back over again that's not to say that there was no progress being made on the video no all contrary in fact the video is scripted and has been recorded i've managed to turn out a NUMBER_TOKEN NUMBER_TOKEN word script for a roughly two hour long video give or take a bit because as everyone who complains in the comments section knows i talk really really fast i put in a lot of effort to make this a thorough all-encompassing video that would approach as many angles as possible and give as much thorough analysis towards the subject matter and the issues as much as i possibly could it was in-depth it was substantive it was all setting out to be my most ambitious video ever and as i sat down editing it i realized something i was PROFANITY_TOKEN miserable there's this thing where you stare at the abyss for too long where the abyss not only stares back at you but you suddenly realize that the abyss PROFANITY_TOKEN sucks this is something that i think happens in basically every creative project there's a point where you've been working on something for so long that everything you do starts to look like PROFANITY_TOKEN everything you're talking about seems so uninteresting and basic long and meandering and you're just asking yourself why am i doing this why am i spending months of my life stressing and beating myself up over trying to make a feature-length video about the angry video game nerd and yeah why why do any of this as i sit here and write this and read this and edit this and publish this that's the thing that keeps going through my head especially because at one point in time i was so strongly against the idea of doing an avgn video back in august i made this thread on twitter in which i talked about how i would get requests to cover avgn on the channel and saying that i didn't want to do it or didn't really see any real story there
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