i thought that was okay and that was great because i contextualized it in spirituality which is what i which what i was taught so i think that you knew that my heart behind it i was in the right place and you were like but it was weird well it was kind of weird because i was like what is he attracted to me of course i of course i know he's attracted to me but he's just being really disciplined and really strong um and we're gonna be rewarded for this on our honeymoon night and if we would have stayed that chaste like as chased as we were up until our engagement that we didn't kiss or rarely hold hands or have a physical relationship i can only i mean i feel like our wedding night would have been it would have been it could have gone anyway it could have gone a lot of ways it didn't go right so well i mean how do you feel if you fast forward to that night how do you how did you feel going into it what do you remember well i remember like i had two i had two ladies like the week before kind of sit down and talk to me about the wedding night um and so i kind of knew what was gonna happen i wasn't really sure but like i was just gonna go with it but it it was really weird like i was excited but it was also just really really awkward because it was like some switch like you hear sometimes people like turn on turn them turn it off and on and switch right from nothing like we can't do anything and all of a sudden we can do everything um so that was just kind of that was just kind of hard for me we had a ramp up i mean our physical relationship really got going once we got engaged and so then there was like that i mean you kind of you know well i mean i've i've spoken about the the gene jamming thanks for speaking about that and not telling me that you're speaking about that i just did tell you that i did speak about it i mean so we had i mean there was no doubt that like the sparks were flying and that we were doing everything we could to not have intercourse until that night so it wasn't i mean there was and we had talked about how we were going to approach it right that we were going to ease into pray like we prayed what we prayed yes we did didn't we you forgot oh yes we played so we get you you're supposed to pray well honey wedding night on the wedding night it was a wedding night okay we weren't supposed to pray together before because it was too intimate that was the thing y'all were looking forward to is praying together we did didn't we like we got to the room let me tell you what we did we we knelt down beside the bed and held hands and we prayed together you don't remember this completely naked no i still had all my beautiful satin thingy that my mama bought me you we had you had on your lingerie and we got down on our knees and prayed yes babe we did that is awesome i love that you don't remember that i i remember it now but i i'd forgotten that we did that and then what the satin thingy came off it didn't come off enough and that that's enough to share about that had you seen a
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