doom like we're all gonna die and life is pointless and nothing makes sense and um and so like people always said like oh something happened to you when it was overcast in your childhood i'm like i can't think of any specific event that happened to me but like my therapist is like no it was just that general like i grew up in santa barbara and it's on by the beach and so that marine layer was always there like until the afternoon and it would burn off yeah and i was very lonely as a child like alone like NUMBER_TOKEN alone all the time in that way of like not alone but lonely like there's a difference because i like being alone but i don't like being lonely right and like it was like i want to interact with people and there's no one to interact with and like sometimes i would go home and feel like um like i could just disappear and nobody would notice and so like she's like that's that whole era of time comes back when it's overcast one event yeah and it's like this like pointless like what's the point of me being here because like nobody even knows like that i'm here i feel that way about night time like i get really depressed oh yeah yeah i could see that yeah nighttime feels does feel very lonely for me i'm like if it just rain like if you're going to rain rain if you're gonna be gloomy it's raining rain with winter gloom because it's winter and it's like holidays like holidays yeah you need to light a candle yeah yeah and like cozy when's that white sky where it's like reflective it's like a bounce board and it's like a fluorescent curtain
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