Thread: Some of Treena's Old Poems

Thank you. Thank you for being there for me when I was at my lowest. Thank you for making feel like there was hope for me again. Thank you for pushing me away before I fell for you even more then I already have. Thank you for everything you mean to and have done for me. I think that I love you and before I got hurt you set me free. The Pain I Feel. The pain I feel is not your fault. The pain in my heart is my own doing. I know you need your time and I will wait. I just hurt knowing I will have to be so far away from you. The pain I feel I have been feeling for three years. You don't need to worry about me. I will be myself again in time. The pain will go away and I will heal. Randomness I sit here in the darkness waiting for you pull me back up into the light. I sit here in the darkness waiting for you to call me back into the light. I sit here in the darkness waiting for you to see me into the light. I sit here in the darkness waiting for you and the light that you bring. Pain, anger, broken heart, broken trust, and regret are the feeling I see and feel around me. I do not embrace them though, I fight to keep myself up, for I have friends who surround me with love abd compassion. I sit. Sitting in a corner is where I belong. I am self destructive, through and through. I thought for once that things would be differnt this time. Who was I fooling, not anyone it seems. I did what I am best at, I made you push. Now I sit in my corner, heart shattered and self destructive. Goodbye When I fell, you watched me. When I rose, you disappeared. When I was happy, you destroyed me. When I needed you, I could not find you. One time I loved you, but you took that for granted. Now all I want to do is tell you how much you disgust me. Never again will Ilook at you with loving eyes. Now all you get are eyes and words of hatred. Goodbye my former love. Purpose Some people say that everyone has a purpose in the world. A soldier says their purpose is to protect. A doctor would be to heal, a grocer would provide, an actor to entertain. When I heard this, I wondered why I was here. I don't have a purpose is what I thought, then I realized that I do have a purpose. I protect, I heal, I provide, and I entertain. I didn't know this until the people that I call my friends showed me. It seems that even though I didn't know it I serve a purpose for them when I am around them. No matter how I feel hurt or happy I still serve my purpose for them. That is my purpose in life and I wouldn't change a thing. No title. I walked through a ring of fire for you, I became a new person when I was with you. I smiled and was alive again, you cast a spell of love over my heart, then you took it back. I have died since then, never will I love again. The magic that held me together was you, and now that you have left me nothing but a shell, good bye my deartest for when you search for me I will be gone and then you will see just how much of impact you were to this empty shell. Why me? How can you love me so after all that I have done to you. I wasn't myself and I hurt you twice, and when I ask for redemption expecting you to turn me away, you suprise me and take me back. I just wish that the distance between us was shorter, that way I could hold you close to me. I am sorry for all the hurt I caused you, I just hope that this time will be better, that is why this time I will not say yes until I am sure.