Thread: Entranced -- RPDan and whtbitch4u2own

It wasnt a sickness, no. It was rather a feeling, a nervous feeling that shed always felt brought on by some performance. No, she wasnt an introvert but the opposite. She was very much an outgoing person and she sure has changed a lot after she moved away from home when she went to college for her bachelors. In a way, it was her chance to live her life as shed imagined and wanted toaway from parents and all the things that had tied her down. Though she was miles away from her parents, the values and her culture in which she grew up had always been a part of her and would continue to do the job in place of her parents physical presence. There were times when she thought she wanted to do something but didnt because she wondered what her parents might think if they found out. If it wasnt that, it was a plain simple white or black in her eyes. Over the time, she learned to live in a grey area where she allowed herself to enjoy life like many other adults did while she held a bit of her culture and her parents teaching. She had been very young when her parents had moved to the states. They made sure to teach her the ways of their living and thinking, part of which blended into her and some of which she questioned and bent a few edges to make her more adaptable to it. Having gone to college and meet with people, she finally felt like a free bird to do as she pleased. She did date freely in college when she wasnt allowed to while she was in high school. Having met the guy she fell in love with, it was easy few years of college before she decided to say yes when he proposed to her. Two years after her graduation and her marriage, she was living her dream life. Having married earliest in her group of friends, she believed she had everything shed ever wished for a great job at a firm, a good husband and a perfect life. Speaking of her job, it was a dream job to work in a firm that carried a lot of weight with its name. She even had a great position in the department and made decent money. Having always been a fashionable chick, she tries to keep her looks casual and definitely less provocative since its a men dominant workplace. A cocktail party is where she was tonight. Having need to be present, she had no way out of it. Though, she was looking forward to meeting up with many other coworkers whom she doesnt work with directly but occasionally crosses path. This was a perfect way to catch on. Tonight was no different. She met with HR manager with whom she was sharing a drink with, going on about how she was a nervous cat when she first came in for an interview and the HR lady was the one who had received her, showed her around the place. They were just making small talks and thats when Priyanka spilled how she felt about a presentation that she has to do in near future, indulging the HR lady and telling her that she was still the same. It was then, she heard someone speak from behind and she turned to look at him over her shoulders. Her pert lips curling into a smile that slowly disappeared as her wavy hair just settled over her back. Listening to the man speak, he certainly held both ladies interest and when he offered the card, Priyanka took it while she shook her head, I dont think it will be necessary. I will just deal with it like I always do. She turned to smile at her coworker and glanced back at the man, Thank you though. She held his card up high to show that she would keep it for now. For a moment, she laughed it off while the HR lady announced that it might not be a bad thing to get some help. It would certainly make her stand out if she performed well and it would help her climb the corporate ladder, seeing she had potential since she did graduate with a fine GPA. A day or two later, she went about preparing a presentation and when done, she tried to do a mock presentation. It was pathetic and she was scared to death thinking if she was this bad now, how bad it would be in a room full of people whod have high expectations from her. Thats when she pounced forward for the psychologists business card that was inside her purse. After much debate, she finally called but found out that his office was closed for the day. Thinking it was a bad idea anyways, she put it back in her purse and went about her day. The next day, it was just as hard as she had the presentation finished but couldnt get herself to see herself perform. On her way home that evening, she decided to just stop by his office, which was surprisingly on her way home. Her husband usually came late so she wasnt in rush to get home either. She felt so odd entering his office, it almost made her feel as if she was sick. And she really wasnt. Somehow, she sat in the waiting area until it was her turn, desperately trying to seem normal.