Thread: Journal?! More like a Rantfest!

So, I've been writing a lesbian best friend first time bondage thing with Prince of Smut and our characters have finally said 'I love you'! Yay! And the kinda hilarious thing is that both girls are dressed in fetish-wear and mine has just been flogged into submission. Super romantic way to say 'I love you', right? This profession of love can be found here. But anyways...while it may not be the most romantic way to drop the line, it's definitely the most memorable. And I felt that the scene lent itself nicely to such an admission that can leave one feeling extremely vulnerable. Soooooo it just got me thinking of all the people I've said I love you to, and I was trying to recall how it happened. My list of 'I love you' declarations is pretty short. I'm very mindful of my words...at least...when it comes to emotional things. But what sort of weirded me out is that I couldn't remember how some of the 'I love you's happened! Serious Boyfriend 1 I haven't the slightest idea...but I know we said it. First Girlfriend She said it and I just sort of froze like a deer in the headlights. I remember not saying it back...I think I said 'Oh...' or something stupid...and then ran from the room and went home. But that same night she was really upset over the phone when I wished her goodnight and I was a nervous wreck from being suuuccchhhhh a screw up and saying Oh... after she had just bared her heart to me. ...So I drove to her house, threw rocks at her window because it was the middle of night and I didn't want to wake up her parents. And then when she came down to open the door, I told her I loved her. I remember it was really cold outside that night...I could see my breath...I think it was 11pm-ish because my parents flipped out that I wanted to borrow the car to go out so late. Serious Rebound Girlfriend I'm...pretty sure I was drunk for this one. Most of our relationship involved me being drunk. Semi-Serious Rebound of the Rebound Girlfriend Okay so...I'm not really proud of this one...but I remember we were fighting over the phone. And she was FREAKING out. Screaming, flipping a shit, I can't even remember what the hell we were fighting about. But I thought it would be a good idea to say I love you in order to diffuse the situation. Yanno what? It worked... Ugh...I still regret telling her I loved her when I really didn't... Love of my Life Girlfriend This is the girl I'm with now. And...I can't remember how we said 'I love you'. But I do remember...it was about 3 months into our relationship. We had AMAZING sex, the best sex of my life ever. And I was a little delirious. I remember feeling dizzy and fuzzy all over...and was panting and nuzzling her and just wanted to be held. And she asked 'Are you okay?' Annnnddddd I responded with Mhmm I just really lov- like you right now. I thought I was going to curl up and die. I've -never- blurted out I love you beforeduringafter sex. But with her...it just kinda came out a little bit before I attempted to fix it with a less serious I like you. So for a couple more months we just said I like you. Later when she said 'I love you' to me...I think it was at around 6 months into our relationship. She said she had been in love with me for quite awhile and called me a dork for making us say I like you for so long. Soooooooooooooooooo why bother writing about this? I dunno... I suppose I just think it's strange that people have these huge relationship milestones and can't recall how it went down. Or that a lot of people will just profess their love all willy nilly, to the point where it's something that isn't even memorable anymore.