Thread: Dark Dreams (A/A's and Journal)

May 1st, 2015 Holy sweet Dannu, I never thought I'd ever return here. To be quite honest, I never intended to return. But something about this place, it's people, keeps drawing me back. Maybe it's the fact that I missed people from here, and I am planning on doing a major overhaul on my PM system... Deleting anything that holds no relevance anymore. But I guess I'll just plop a journal, general talk stuff... in this thread. Whether people read it, or respond to it, I'm not particular caring about. But if anyone that remembers me wants to come in and drop a line, make a comment about something I said - feel free. Anyone is welcome, no matter our past. So long as you remain civil, I won't have any reason to be upset for you popping into my thread. To get things on track, it's been a long time since I was actually truly back in this place. I'd pop online every once in awhile, for sure, but I never actually sat down to write anything. I just didn't feel it worth the effort, not that BM isn't worth the effort, mentally I was just not prepared to bring myself back to a place that had such a pivotal impact on my growing adulthood. So many years, have passed, I remember coming here for the first time - strangely I remember it almost like it was yesterday... So many things happened in this place, good and bad.. Painful and happy... But these were all parts of my development as a human. I faced a lot of loss, a lot of heartache, and a lot of pain. Some my own fault, some from outside factors I wasn't capable of controlling at the time. So what has changed with TDM? Well for one I am happily married, and have a beautiful and amazing daughter that is a bit over a year old. My life changed, for the better, when I had her. I used to say I was not sure about having children, and at once point I didn't want any at all. But I love my daughter, she is the light in the darkness for me. I love my husband, and though he can be a bit eccentric, he's an absolute sweetheart. I now actively volunteer for conventions. This years Labor Day Weekend Con will be the 5th Year in a row I have held an Assistant ManagerHigh position in the convention. I found that the drive I get, the feeling I have, when I am volunteering and helping people - is unlike anything I have ever experienced. I was literally thrust into this world, and have never known what it was like to work a normal staff position - and my higher ups literally refuse to let me... XD I took a break from the Easter Weekend convention, this year only, and will probably be transfering to another department for a Coordinator position for next years Con. The two people that have replaced me in my positions are such amazing people that I have absolutely NO intention of ever replacing them. It would just be silly. So other than that... I am working on a novel for publication, I was selected to write within a universe of a previously published Author - and the Author and I are rather good friends. He loved my concept I came up with when I wanted to write a fanfiction for NaNoWriMo '14... and he went batshit... He's been helping me work on the story since than. What else, what else. Oh, I got a job. It's a simple job, part time, but then again I can only work when I have available childcare And trust me... I really am not interested in hunting for a daycare service. But the boss I will have is kick ass, and she is as big of a Whovian as I am. I'll be working Thurs-Sunday, which will be a bit strange. I'm going to try to swing for double shifts on Sundays so I can get 25 hours of work a week. Max is 28, but I'm not even sure HOW you would reach that point, ya know? The shifts are 5 hours at a time... so how in the diddly heck do you get to 28? XD Either way... I think I'll update as semi-regularly as possible. Depends on how things go with returning here... It'll be nice to have a place I can lay out my thoughts...