Thread: [KylarStern & Tortoise] Dancing With Myself;;

Where was the line? The question spun in Desiree??s head over and over again. Her attempts to find it were growing desperate. At first, she was convinced that the fine line they were not supposed to cross would be obvious, that once they were near a discomfort would surge. Instead, there was nothing. She didn??t feel wrong from being next to him, from being alone or occasionally pressing up against him when the pain and pressure on her leg grew too hard. Giving up, she decided that things would end up working out just fine. They always seemed to. She smiled to herself as she mused about fate. Only a day earlier she was cursing destiny for being so cruel with her, for stealing the only thing she had left after she made the mistake of leaving Nathan. Then, all of a sudden, she was walking next to him on a cozy, beautiful campus where she was a teacher. Perhaps it was for the best. She could retire without having made a single mistake in her career, with her head held high as her fire burnt out with passion instead of slowly fading away until people grew tired of hearing about her and moved on to younger people. Hearing Nathan??s comment, she laughed in her melodious voice, sounding genuinely happy to be with him. Every few steps she turned her head to steal a subtle glance upon him. He was hard not to look at. ??Yes, I have been working out,? she grinned, wiggling her eyebrows. ??Don??t worry, Nathan,? she murmured softly, her free hand pressing against the side of his arm briefly in a reassuring manner. When he spoke about himself, however, concern and guilt came over her face. What were you doing before? She wanted to ask him yet didn??t. Knowing that she made him suffer only to be able to pursue her career was ridiculous. Over time she realized that while career was important, it was hardly worth giving up certain things for. There were far too many of her acquaintances that retired and all of a sudden had nothing worth living for. While work was there, things were well yet once it was gone there was nothing left. James should have changed that, made her feel like she had something worth living for. Instead, there was nothing but a void in her. She told herself that it was just the stress, oh how she tried to convince herself that she truly loved him, yet it didn??t seem to work all that well. She dismissed the thoughts about him, along with the guilt she suddenly felt for leaving her phone in her office to avoid his calls. And so, she didn??t say a word about the past years. It would probably hurt his pride, and it was too early to open up old wounds. Oddly enough, when he changed the topic and started speaking about the marriage, the song that played at their one filled her mind. She had to fight not to hum it out loudly it wasn??t the most appropriate thing considering the situation. ??Oh, it??s in?two months or something,? she shrugged casually, the realization that she really didn??t care hitting her like a bucket of cold water on a winter morning. After the words came out, she figured that he would realize it as well. When he proposed to her, she was the happiest woman in the world. Happiness and love were oozing out of her pores, contagious to those around her. The planning was something she took over completely ?? her personality allowed her to get quite a lot done at a fairly low cost. She went around the entire town in search for something that would be inexpensive yet at the same classy and beautiful. Although everything went wrong right before the wedding, in the end it was a wonderful ceremony. It was, without doubt, the most wonderful day of her life. She only realized it when it was far too late, of course. ??I think James is taking care of it,? she sighed, looking away briefly. She wanted to tell him that she didn??t want to get married, to tell him everything she never told anyone yet it was impossible. So, she tried to smile yet it came out looking very wrong, almost as though someone was forcing her to grin. ??What about you? I haven??t noticed any rings,? she wondered, curious.