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Her hands on his face brought a searing desire to the surface, but not like he had thought, it felt warm, kind and affectionate. He turned face slightly, his hand raising to her hold the backside of hers, kissing her palm and gently over her wrist, his eyes returning to hers as she spoke. He paused, blinking a few times thoughtfully and eventually looking away from her, knowing that the answer to her question was yes, and very much so. What kind of man wouldnt desire her? It was an almost asinine question. Yet he couldnt speak this answer to her, for if he did, she would refuse him, like those before her. He remained silent for a moment, trying to force the thought from his mind, battling with himself for an answer to her question. I I dont know why I drink like I do. He said vaguely, he had a pretty good idea why, but didnt quite feel like divulging that information yet. I guess I just enjoy not having to feel anything for a while. Not having to feel the loneliness, the betrayal and the pain that came with his life up until now. Now things werealtered. The girl he held in his armsneeded him. It had never been this way before, sure women had wanted something from him, or felt as though they needed him, for a while. But Pavla, she truly had no other place to go, no one else to defend her from a man who would, if given the chance, continue the tirade of violence and abuse where it left off. He resolved to protect her from him once again, silently, as if to reconfirm his commitment to her internally. Maybe He was not confident in his words then, debating whether or not they were best at that moment, but swallowing his pride, journeyed forward. Someday, we could be good for one another. If we can escape this place Dmitrys eyes returned to hers, a twinkle of something there that hadnt been visible since they met, and had disappeared altogether for longer than he could remember hope. We could run away together, Pavla. With you by my side, perhaps the outside world would be more accepting. We could save our earnings and one evening, slip away and never return. Something that resembled a smile tug at the corner of his lips, sheepishly looking away from her, as if surprised with himself that such a thought could pass his lips, clearly the booze hadnt left his system completely, he decided. The outside world called to him, he could sense the others, wondering where he was, and why he hadnt been out to assist with the days work. Truthfully, he had been getting up and getting drunk and passing out for so long the others did not usually come looking for him until mid-afternoon, but that time was soon approaching. He had no desire to leave her side at that moment, continuing to hold her against his form, deliberating over what she had said still, doubting she would be satisfied with his answer. But given her current state, and the turmoil she had been through not long before, he thought it best to keep himself at arms length, figuratively. Still, he thought some sign of their newly conceived union needed to be expressed. He couldnt bring himself to tell her directly that he desired her, desired her more than he had any girl before, so he remained silent, his fingers dipping beneath her chin and bringing her face up towards him in a gentle motion. Each time his eyes met with hers, there was such great longing, and he couldnt bring himself to fight it anymore. Dipping his head forward, his lips caressed hers, for only the second time since they married. A shiver ran down his spine as they connected, his hand slipping behind her neck, fingers running through her hair. I I do desire you He mumbled against her lips, reconnecting the kiss and wrapping his other arm around her waist, pulling her body against his as kissed her. Fire coursed through his veins, their small moment together having an undeniable effect on him. He prayed silently that she would not push him away.