Thread: BoundWing's Writings and Rantings :)

A few thoughts from the depth of my mind Just an FYI. This is going to be a long read. Not many people understand why I'm so driven to become a soldier, heck. Even I don't understand it sometimes. I have my own reasons, some of which are selfish, some of which are selfless. Many of you who know me, know I have a great love for the military, and that I feel it's the only thing in this life that I'm suited for. My family in general has been in almost every war the U.S has been in. From the American Revolution to the current war. My Cousin Kim is a Major at Walter Reid Army Hospital. I'm very proud of her. Anyways. I feel the need to carry on the tradition. Yes I know, war is dirty, and dangerous. There is no glory to be found in war. But I'm not about to go to war to find glory. I'm doing it to find myself, and before all of you start asking how are you trying to find yourself. Stop and think for a moment. For those of you who know me, and know me well. Have I ever seemed happy with the rigors of everyday life? With School, or normal work? For you who don't know me. That'd be a big no. I want to test the limits of who I truly am deep on the inside. I want to see if I can wake my true potential. Yes, I know there are those of you who are going to say things like I'm sure you can find yourself in other things, in other jobs. Yes, but only parts of myself. I want to drag out everything, living my life on the edge of a knife where death is a very deffinate reality. I believe, one can only truly be himself when his life is on the line, and everything, his or her world is about to end. When everything they were, everything they stood for is placed on the line, when death tries to take hold of them and the realize they might not exsist for much longer, that is when they can truly open their eyes to everything and wake within themselves. That's exactly what I'm looking for. In a sense, my life bores me at the moment. I feel like I'm not really what I could be, no matter if I did well academically, or socially, or anything like that. Many of you don't understand my idea of what war is. We as humans are a plague. Something that feeds off the troubles and pains of others. heck sometimes I think we thrive off of our own pain. Not to mention we destroy everything around us. We want what isn't ours and therefore use economic stress and troubles as a means to blame things on others and in turn have the same thing happen to us. War starts out of greed. However, it also does something that helps us in the long run. Just a forewarning, what I'm about to say is going to sound cruel, but it is something that happens if you look at it. War thins out our population. Major wars do even more. We destroy cities, towns and people. But we forget in the long run, the less people on the planet, the less stress on our resources and the planet. We always talk about ways to help the planet, to avoid catastophes. Ever stop to think that maybe we're the cause of all that? We shouldn't be trying to change natures course, because it's not ours to change. War is only part of human nature now. It has been for years, and that fact will never change. One man will hate another, for no reason other than the simple and strange fact that the other man is just simple there in being. I think war is a way for humanity to punish it's own stupidity and open the eyes to many of those involved. Then again there are those who are too blind and ignorant, or even too scared to look at the aspects of war. There's a thing to remember of war. No one, ever wins. Everyone looses something or someone. You can't put a guise or try to pretty up war. You can't justify it through religion or the suffering of one nation because of another. It's the simple fact that war is something people who want something start. Most who do want money, power, the death or suffering of one race or another. War starts because someone wants way too much. It's fine to want things yes, but it's another thing to drag those who have no need for the things that are wanted into it. People have forgotten to live out of neccesity, and not out of want. We all want things, but do we in all honesty really need them? We need the basics food, shelter, clothing. However, we strive for more things. Yes, wanting something has given our word many great things, like the drive to expand, the drive to make things better in life. However, want has done may terrible things. The robbing of life from the innocents, genocide, poverty, famine, disease. In general it makes people uncomfortable in life. though with this fact, we can really see how people should be. They realize just what is important. Needs need to be met before wants are even considered into the equation. People become less selfish and try to help their fellow man, knowing that if one falls, eventually all fall. The human heart makes exceptional changes during extreme trials of hardship. Showing throughout the strength that it can muster to keep it's bearers, and it's bearers loved ones alive. War is also for those who are slightly suicidal. For those who sign up, they know there is a chance of death. And for those of them who join because of the bonuses and the possibility of glory, they are normally rudely awakened when the first shots are fired. Death is the only real thing guaranteed in war. That and change. When war is started, or wehn the whispers of the prospect of war are uttered deep down in everyone's mind. They know change is wanted, and that change is soon to come in some way or another, for good or for ill. There are those who are against war and I do not support their opinion's on it. Respect them yes, but just because they fear for another. Even though most of them are ignorant of all the facts that are behind war. We must all be reminded, war is something that's going to happen regardless of what we want. Even if we take no action against others. There will always be someone who gets upset because we don't do something, or because we do something that doesn't match up with what they think is ideal. War is alos a way to defend ourselves and the comfort and freedom of being alive. It's a sacrifice, and a way to show our enemies that we don't lie down and die, and that we don't care what their ideals are. We are a people that thrives off the machine called War and it shows in everyday life. We idolize war. We make movies, write songs and books, we develope games all based on war.If war is so terrible how come we can't see to let it go? because of the simple fact we can't even if we wanted to. War will never vanish. No. I take that back. War will vanish when we as a species are no longer on this planet. Anyways, for those of you who have managed to read through this without having your head throb too much. Kudos to you. Feel free to post comments on what you think. Thanks