Thread: The Tome - [Seiken's Journal]

The thought has come around to when I find myself wanting to write down exactly what I want instead of things I feel obliged to. For example I like to write what's going on in my life, what I do on my sparetime, at work and whatnot, but there are several details I feel leaving out. Like... dating life and my darkest thoughts This is after all a site for mainly roleplay and fun, and everyone can really see what I write regardless. But to start with one thing, I just had two days off. It was a couple of... interesting days to say the least as I managed to do what I always do on my days off Not relax. I work a great deal during the weeks, so the few times I get a day off, I feel like I need to overcompensate for the times I work by relaxing too much and thus it becomes a burden instead. For example Gaming. I'm a hardcore gamer and could be gaming far into the night, just cause I wouldn't be able to on a regular worknight. Although, none of that happened these 2 past days. I went to a party on Saturday with some friends of mine which turned out to be... rather interesting. Now, I know I said I wouldn't write about my dating life and such but guess what! I changed my mind, and given this is my thread - I can write what I want Ahem, but I brought a date to the party and kiiiiiiinda brought a different one with me home. To clarify The one I brought had a good time and all, but she was working in the morning. I already knew this and we was ok with her leaving early. The other one told me we should go to my place after talking for a while and shrugging, I decided to agree to that. I was drunk and my judgement wasn't my greatest when it came to saying no to bring anyone home. Either way, we get home, talk for a little while and we pass out on the sofa. Or, at least I did. I was alone in the morning after. So, waking up, I found some messages on my phone. One thanking me for an awesome night, one thanking me for an awesome night and that she was looking forward to see me at work later on, and one asking me out for a date. So... Apparently I need to get drunk more often, haha! Either way, I want to make it clear to my readers I'm not one to lead people on for nothing. Like, the one I brought to me to the party already knew it was just as friendsco-workers with mutual interests in both social surroundings and personal interests. The one I brought with me home knew I am often around for just fun and that I let them know whenever I don't want anything serious. However, the girl that poked me the day after, asking me out for a date is an uncertain end. I will need to go to the date to see what she wants first. I barely know her, but I will admit that I am a bit nervous. I haven't been nervous for quite many months so it's kinda nice. So lately my head has been swarmed with thoughts. We're apparently going to be at my place and I can't help but wonder what we are going to do. Should I prepare dinner, or a light dessert? Should I serve drinks, or should I just put a movie on with some snacks with? Is she a soda-person, or does she enjoy wine? I don't think I've ever been on a such date as this before... I really find it exhilarating and new as most of the other dates I've had has been initiated and executed in... well, different ways where the agenda pretty much has been planned already. Sometimes, I question the members of this site. Having spoken with perhaps.. 10 of you aside from the RP-ad I've been having about, people seem to stop.. replying. Not as in disappearing, but really going quiet. We could be having a nice conversation in PMs, and suddenly nothing more from their site. It kinda leaves one to ponder if you are a boring person to talk with and the other part goes Nope, do not want anymore! and then doesn't reply even though my last PM contained questions, suggestions or perhaps even a longer message which was upon request elaborated around a topic. But what can I say We're all humans. I bet some of them even haven't noticed they've gotten a PM or thought they replied, or thought they didn't get a reply. I like to believe the latter. Right now, I have a beard. It's not a huge beard, but it's a beard to be proud of. I'm contemplating if I should shave or not. Being a hardcore gamer, I often stream the games I play, and even got a HD-webcam that runs like liquid for when I do. Although, not that I think it would make a big impact or not, but I wonder if I would be the type to look good as I currently am without a beard. Or if I would freak too many people out. Haha, I've had people nuzzle it while they've been falling asleep before, so I guess someone likes it, but... I feel like I'm left to wonder. Perhaps I'll find out after the date. Oh, by the way. I know at least one of you have asked me about what my thought process is to reply to RPs, and I thought I'd share it with all of you! First off, it's reading what my partner wrote. Reading to understand. Secondly, it's imagening the scene out of what my partner wrote. Third, it's all about imagening how I would react in personor as the character I write as would react and behave to all of this before the last fourth step is to put it down on the paper. This process allows me to get creative and detailed. When reading my partner's answer and placing me in the scene, I try to catch up all the small details. Where am I? What have I Done to get here? Where am I going? Who's with me? What are they doing? Where are they going and where are they from? - It's all there and I try to take the most essential details with me to create a good story in both quality and quantity. But don't get me wrong I could make huge texts about next to nothing. It's something I feel many authors does... But that's when I always go Quality of quantity. I feel like this post got a bit weird and unorganized. But then again aren't they all? Hehe, well, if anyone have suggestions about the date and agenda, do give me a poke. However, I'm not worrying too much. By just being myself, I've traveled the world several times, and I don't plan on stopping being myself just yet to get what I want. I hope my PMs gets replied soon, but I'm not going to sit idle by. My RP partner has replied to our RP and I will get back into replying there in quality as my hand has made a nice recovery.