Thread: Deception  of Lust [Haruchai & Lila Lupin]

Hannah blushed as he stepped into her, unashamed of his obvious attraction to her. She relished the way he said her name. It made her feel wanted, and revered. A feeling she wasn't used to having. In her life, ever since her incident 8 years ago she had kept herself guarded, waiting for the right guy to come along, not wanting to make the same mistake again. She'd focused on her career, and forgone dating for quite sometime. Even when she had dated her relationships had never been this close, nor comfortable. She was always guarded, but now, in the arms of a man that was undeniably attracted to her, she felt wanted, and safe. The way he held her spoke in more ways than words ever could. It was as if he were making a silently proclaiming she was his, and he would have it no other way. The way he gazed at her, as if he could see her very soul, made her feel uneasy. She didn't want him to know her secret, but she also knew that he would find out eventually, and with the way he was touching her, and the way his body was obviously reacting, it seemed as though it would be happening sooner rather than later. She was about to open her mouth to speak as he kissed her once again. The passion in this kiss was much different than the one they had shared before, and despite how she wanted to keep herself in check, her body reacted quite differently. Her arms slowly snaked their way up to rest around his neck, one of her hands finding it's way into his silky blonde hair once again. She relished in the feeling as she had once before, and returned the kiss. She felt inadequate compared to his experience. That thought brought her back to her situation. She pulled away from him, her flushed face pointed downwards, but not in embarrassment this time. This time she hide her face in shame as she took a deep breath. She was trying to prepare herself, trying to figure out how to say this in the easiest way. Deluge. She looked at him as she said his name with that melodious voice of hers as she tried to gather her thoughts. The silence between them was nearly painful for her as she decided on how to explain this to him. I have a question. Have you ever been married before? She asked him with a sort of sadness in her eyes, She wasn't asking out of sheer curiosity, though she was most certainly curious, she was leading up to something. She averted her eyes and looked down once more as she continued. I ask because... She took in a deep breath before continuing, expecting shouting and anger from him when she was finished. I'm not a virgin. She took a deep breath, trying to keep her wits about her. I did not fully keep my end of the bargain, and I completely understand if this upsets you. My lack of knowledge of this arrangement is no excuse, but please do not blame my parents... Her voice was becoming shaky as she spoke, as if it were a difficult subject for her to touch on. They had no idea, and still don't. It was a mistake that I made a long time ago, and I understand if you no longer want me, but please, I'll do anything, just, please, don't punish my parents. She was pleading with him at this point, and she chanced a glance at him as she finished speaking. Her eyes held unshed tears in them as and showed her shame as she looked at him, hoping that he would not be too upset with her. Praying that if he was he that would take out his wrath on her, instead of her parents.