Thread: What's Within A Heart Of Darkness

I've never really made one of these, but I figured I'd try it out. At first, I've only been interested in the roleplaying when I first came to this site. I came here a couple of years ago, under the name SexyBeast or something like that, but I left due to personal reasons. When I came back, I couldn't remember my password, and the email address I used was no longer accessible. So I shrugged and decided to make a new account, which is the one you see today. Before, I was a little bit younger, only roleplaying with friends of mine, a little bit inexperienced. Now, I'm a little older, a little wiser. I've been out in the world, I've seen how nice a complete stranger can be to you, and I've seen how nasty a stranger can be to you. At my last job at working fast food, I was miserable. People were rude, the staff was incompetent, the hours were long, the pay was horrible, it was a nightmare. Now that I'm in a new job, I'm a little happier with my life, and I've begun opening up to more people. I've explored the site a little more, and I want to participate in some of the other things here. First off, before I do that though, I feel like I've angered a few people in the past, in this account, and my previous account. I want to apologize for anything I've done in the past. Candira, Pony of Death, and others, I'm very sorry for abandoning you during our roleplay. There was a mix of reasons as to why I didn't say anything before. First off, I've gotten a lot of PMs, I lost track and thought I responded ages ago. When I found out that it was my fault, I felt awkward and didn't want to say anything. It was a mix of the fact that I'm bad a confronting someone, and I also hate admitting that I was in the wrong. But it wasn't fair to any of you, I abandoned the roleplay, something I hate to have happen to me. It's frustrating, and cowardly. I feel awful for what I've done, and I hope you'll forgive me. Maybe we could give the roleplay another try, maybe do something different. If not, I hope you find another partner that is more suitable than I have been, and I hope things work you for you. I don't want any bad blood here, but I'd be lying if I said that there were a few people that didn't anger me. I won't name names, but I've had rude people here too. I like a little bit of manners here, but I'm also aware that this is the internet, so you won't always find a polite person everywhere you go. I understand there are a few times I deserved it, like when I accidentally controlled the partner's character, but there are times I'm yelled at for how I roleplay. I've been yelled at for being uncreative, boring, slow, and it's all just really rude. Seriously, it's just rude to be yelled at when you're just trying to have fun. It takes out all of the fun, and I feel like I'm working now. All I have to say for those people is that, I'm sorry I wasn't what you wanted, but we can't really roleplay in the future, we're just too different roleplayers. With that out of the way, I hope I can mend together broken bonds and get a little better known on the site, maybe make a few more friends. I'm happy to roleplay with other people whenever they ask. I'm pretty open to most things. I use to do mostly smut, but I wanted to try other things too. If you can't already tell by my other request threads, I'm a big fan of Castlevania. It was a game I played when I was a kid, and I grew up with the series. Whenever I make a roleplay that's supernatural, the monsters have some sort of aspects from that series. Is it fan based? Sure. Is it uncreative? Maybe, depending on how you take it. I like to insert my own characters in it, and leave out most of the characters from the series. Sure, Dracula and Death will probably have some sort of big role. The Belmont family might be around, but I'll put in my own Belmont. If not, my own vampire hunter. Just don't give me a hard time if you don't like the way I roleplay. What was I saying before? Oh right, being on the site more. When I'm not at work, I like to hang out with friends and come online. I spend a lot of time on the internet, and I like to come here to relax. I plan to be on the site more, participate in some of the activities other than just roleplays. Does that mean I want to be a moderator? No, not really. We already have a successful team of moderators already. If they plan to add more, I don't really want to be one myself, it's just not for me. Plus, I'm kind of unreliable at times, so I don't think they'd want a person like that. Well, that's all I have to say for now. I'll probably come back here to log about other events and general thoughts, and if I have to apologize to someone else. Now let's all dance!