Thread: Perception is Reality (ClearSight & SomethingEsoteric)

Shes like its like she has a rock in her shoe and she just cant take it out for the life of her. Its not serious, a mild irritation she says, yet she does nothing to remove herself. She doesnt grasp still Im here to help her. How can I make her see that? a perplexed sigh sputtered from her as she pinched the bridge of her nose only to wrinkle it once she looked up to her. A little fun? for all her intelligence so bold and robust her best was a little fun? and for that matter, Meghan knew well enough that the woman was already having more than just a little fun with her but at least she did say shed answer her question, for some reason or another Meghan took that as a small success for herself really, above all else, that had to be considered a small win for her patient, finally willing to open up and divulge something! that win of course short lived as she did not answer her question she began rationalizing this more and ever still she rationalized it as a no-win scenario! Im having trouble differentiating if the patient actually doesnt want to leave, is scared to leave or doesnt believe she can leave. I wouldnt expect such defeatist redirect from such a successful woman but that is how I take her words. Maybe- she stopped writing and almost glared, Well how could we ever possibly do that if you dont allow us? You dont understand Miranda that I cant possibly figure out if its a mistake if y-hauow? her pitch changed and riddled with confusion and surprise. Well, shed hit the nail on the head she did come from poverty and the look on her face appeared none too proud of it seemed there was more than just regret for destitution, the look of someone who many have been treated in a way that was far worse than starvation or humble beginnings might could be trauma of abuse? She looked down and to the left for a brief second before up with narrowed eyes a survivors sort of courage finding her face even though it was ill placed for the soft words that had come thus far. what followed was more reason for distress. I did, and yes it was h- Meghans face fell at the thoughts of her own now echoing back so severe, while she didnt look like shed been wounded she appeared to be in the shock previous to bleeding out, colour draining from her olive skin, lower lip hanging, big hazel eyes wide and wary. Had those not been the cruel thoughts shed put in her head not half an hour ago? That she wasnt intelligent or qualified near enough for this position but rather hired on her looks alone, on the fact Jacquelyn wanted her and why did it hurt so bad hearing she was married? Fuck how didnt she know she was married? more to the point, more than anything, hearing she wasnt the first hurt. How could she be so stupid? Her face literally twisted with the sting of those words. She may have been a psychologist but she was human too and she wasnt invulnerable when it came to the slings and arrows of emotional torment in fact, outside of the seat and without a note pad she wasnt even half as perceptive as she was capable of being. She should have known! It wasnt like Meghan went looking for wedding bands and engagement rings but she was sure Jacquelyn hadnt been wearing one during their interview and Dr. was shy Mrs Then Parker and her, the picture of them a horridly raw vulnerability in its own was dragged into the pile currently raging strong, flames licking at the ceiling of her emotional threshold all the way down here from the bottom of her spirits. She was injured, insulted, wounded, completely and entirely beat and broke sitting there in the chair that put her above her patient as she finally sat back down but not defeated, not destroyed, shed had worse than this. Much like Miranda, the past trials shed faced made this look like nothing even if it felt, very real, really very much felt like something. Her nostrils flared slightly as she set down the note pad in her lap and placed her pen atop it pausing for composure that did not want to come. Back in her mouth did her tongue curl, licking at the swollen and sore gums where her wisdom teeth still sat crowning, a small technique she sometimes used to ground her much like she could receive a slap or whack as a young girl when she wouldnt settle, much like Parker could be prone to such repercussions should she not receive her desired way. She shuttered with pain as she dug the tip of her tongue into the raw exposed nerves and receding gummy flesh before her eyes rolled back and forward to find Miranda staring at her so smugly through a mist of tears that never exactly welled up, that she didnt allow to fall. A small sniffle that whistled through her nose before she shook her head, These sessions arent about me Miranda, theyre about you. Meghan began. Not that it is any of your business Jacquelyn is a very charming woman, you I find insulting. Insulting is not a trait I find attractive even if you are physically and intellectually. youll just have to keep satisfying yourself Miranda. Why was she defending Jacquelyn? she was upset with her! and for that matter shed given Miranda a sharp backlash satisfy yourself go fuck yourself. Her lips pursed tightly before one brow quirked. Theyre all fair, lets move on. Meghan said calmly before scribbling away on her pad for much longer than she had before, it wasnt that she liked abuse and really here of all places she didnt deserve it and certainly wouldnt invite it but this right here she knew she was enabling Miranda to behave that way again if she didnt confront it. Meghan took a deep shaky breath and looked away again like she was getting over the last convulsion that had begged she cry, composure finally reaching her entirely when she understood she gave Miranda nothing more, when she removed the catalyst from the equation, decided to pick and choose her battles after all, this would be a long march no need for all answers right this second. Ill be your primary care giver so Ill be doing your rounds, recreation and taking other responsibilities of your orderly though youll still have the nursing staff for when Im not present and administering medication, et cetera, and other doctors should you need them Im still not decided if Ill be recommending one of my colleagues write you a prescription you wont be barred from group against the recommendation of my peers, also activities and other opportunities the centre offers like spa and holistic care. Mmmm Tennis? I might make a better match than that ball machine in the court. for rec Id like us to draft a recreational schedule together. You may not have many responsibilities here but I would like to start introducing some obligations and accountability to prepare you for discharge.