Thread: The Musician's Overture [GGentleman x Soft Strokes]

Whether she wanted to be right, Vivian knew whatever she said, shed be wrong. What she did, even in her mind, was inexcusable. It wasnt as though she had something concrete to say that she had to leave everything shed ever known without even giving the girl a single note. She couldnt point to some massive career opportunity that would make her great enough to move along in the world and become a new powerhouse in the music industry. Violin itself was a very common instrument to play, and shed been rather narrow minded with her view of the industry at the time anyhow. So there was nothing that she could point to that would give solace to a girl seeking it, and as her harsh words once again cut her, she was again reminded of the situation that she was in. The coldness to her tone, however, was what sunk Vivians heart the most. Cecilia had never, ever been cold to anyone before she left. Perhaps if they were so cruel that Vivian forced her to confront them, but even then it wasnt cold and more forceful if anything. That force had returned, but with it a cold hearted slant that made her entire acceptance rather cold. Vivian didnt even know what she had expected in the first place, but this, this immediate anger and malice towards her wasnt it. And so when Vivian finally was said she could speak, it wasnt met with a cry of success or a smile on her face, but rather a solemn nod and a tiny whimper at just how distant the one she knew had become. Watching the interaction with the patron was brutal for her, if only to acknowledge again that everything had changed. The ol- no, she couldnt keep trying to identify her by her past self anymore. By that logic, the old Vivian had been the one to make that awful decision, and not present her. Trying to separate the two would only bring pain and misunderstanding to her and she already knew why she was doing it. After all, how easier was it to try and push ones problems off, rather than face them head on? While Vivian had brought a coat with her, seeing the wind and snow whipped face of Cecilia only made her want to hit herself over the head for this. Cecilia, this anger this, this just pure rage. She shouldnt dwell on it, she knew she shouldve left it alone, but she couldnt. It was just there, and she knew it was because of her. Shed been the one to bring this upon her long lost lover, and now if she tried to do anything that would make her try to act like the past woman she knew, shed only be steeping herself in selfishness. That being said, when the two entered into the apartment, suddenly all the hopes and dreams for their conversation plummeted. Cecilia hadnt lived like this the last time that shed been here the two had shared a small apartment, but one that was large, spacious and was almost big enough to be considered a small house. It was modest and beautiful, and Vivian had specifically prepped so that Cecilia would be able to afford the apartment if she kept working. Had, that meant that Cecilia had even lost the drive to work when she wasnt there? Zis is a vundervul place Vivian coughed as the two entered, that thought of her lover note even working Vivian didnt want to entertain that morbid thought. Instead, slowly, Vivian took a seat on the couch, looking forward at Cecilia before she curled up slightly, her muslces tensing like they were ready to spring back out as she tried to control her accent shed let run wild for the past year, hoping to reign in enough to speak. Alright Cece Gulping, Vivian sighed, Ze reason I vanted to see you vas vhen I saw you, again, it vas as though, Id seen a ghost. A ghost zat, Id forgotten, but not forgotten. One that Id pushed too far down, and it tore me apart. I couldnt perform any encores that night, and I varely made it through the second showing. I, had to see you, because I had to. I I know vhat, nothing I say tonight, is going to excuse vat I did Starting off firm, Vivians hands shook, You hafe efery single vight to hate me, you have efery right to say that you vant me to leave, right now. I did, a horrible thing, because of what I vanted and because, of vat I convinced myself, you wouldnt benefit from in following me with it. And, before I can say anythink, I know, eferything is on me. Cecilia Ceci. Vivian looked up, You can believe me about zis, or not, but zee night I levt you, was the hardest night of my entire life. I cwried myself to sleep, every night for so long, unable to contact you. But, I had to go forvard, and that meant I couldnt vook back. And, even now as Im sitting in front of you, I cant gife you the veesons youre looking for, for why its been so long since I sat vere but, please would you, visten to the reasons that I hafe? Shaking, Vivian gulped before averting her gaze, Ceci you vit vight in home here. You, you have such a vunderbul style of music, that blends, so wonderfully with zis place. But, every day I vas, here, I felt trapped. You learned the guitar, the keyboard, I couldnt learn zem. All I could do was play my my stupid violin. Her fingers shook, I loved my violin, but zat only made me hate it even more. I wanted to go somewhere with that but, I alzo knew, you loved vat you had here, you loved it and you didnt want it to fade. And efery day another letter of acceptance to a school turned out false, and false, until I couldnt take it anymore. I didnt vant to hurt anyone by leaving, but I knew Id hurt you the most. Itd hurt far less if I were to just leave, if I vere to give you, one last night of passion and love to show zat Id, never find another like you again. And thats what I did. You, you were my life Ceci, but, I had another life that was, calling me, that was dragging me away, and it hurt. It hurt because I vanted to go along both paths.. You vuldnt like it in the city, Vivian continued, I knew zat. I knew zat youre pretend to be happy with me, pretend to like it, but youd hate it, and youd feel like you were nowhere. You vuldnt want to be zere with me, and youd vant to go home, each and every day. Rather than, compile that torment, I left you here Im Im not, askink you, to forgife me Vivian gulped, But, please, I ask one thing of you even if I dont deserve zis, please understand why I did vhat I did. And please, just understand for me, and Ill, Ill. She gulped. She didnt want to finish, I-Ill never show my face to you again