Thread: Guardian(lady/moon)

Natalia had not had a very good life, anyone who knew what she had been through, even a part of what she'd been through, would have said she'd walked through hell twice. she had been trained in the Red Room since birth and had been forced to kill and murder the very girls she had thought of as sisters. it had taught her from a very young age that emotions where for children, love was a weakness, affection was a disability. bonds where to be formed one way and then exploited. it was a lesson that had stuck even now, though she would be the first to admit she did love the people she now lived with hung out with, protected. she allowed the weakness. especially in the case of Clint, Fury and Skye. she had become so attached to Skye, that she was actually teaching the young woman advanced Red Room techniques. Natasha wouldn't let the girl she'd practically adopted be helpless, ever. granted, she was much nicer to Skye than her own teachers had ever been and she certainly didn't expect Skye to kill anyone. Natasha had a hellish lfe and she was not about to submit that kind of hell onto Skye. Natalia's life had only gotten slightly better after being brought in to Shield by Clint. her mission had been a suicide. they all had known it, even her, but she had gone because at least she'd have peace in death. abandoned on the streets after her job was done, extracting the Winter Soldier from enemy territory and covering him while he escaped, Clint had decided to make a different Call and took her with him. she spent the next years 'coming down' as it where. retraining, learning how to be social, how to trust, how to ask first and then shoot. it had been hard and no one but Phil and Clint and Fur had trusted her. she had made it though, until that day when someone had kidnapped her. even after so much time had passed, she couldn't remember what happened. not really. she remembered the pain. she remembered screaming, she remembered the Torture. but certain things she couldn't recall at all. like the man she had supposedly been in love with, or the murders she had done while under the other's control. she knew that she had done unspeakable things, and that she was still too hard, too cold, too emotionless. it was like having to relearn being human all over again. it was only Phil, Clint, Melinda May and Skye that had managed to call Natasha back from being a mindless weapon. it was thanks to her that Phil's team and the Avengers got along so well, Skye. she was so bright and chirpy. i'm serious! Natasha admitted, looking very amused when James got close enough to hear them. he took one look at this absolutely adorable kitten and started screaming like the thing was a massive spider! she admitted with a laugh. it turns out the hallucinogenic gas he was working with had escaped and he was hallucinating! he reported later that he'd seen one of the beasts from the Cthulu book he'd just been reading. she laughed and Phil shook his head. i knew it was a mistake letting Bruce, Tony, Fitz and Simmons to meet. Phil admitted, sipping his coffee. you have to admit though,t he stuff they've been pumping out has been brilliant. Natasha admitted. just because we have to rebuild the lab every couple of weeks doesn't mean much.