Thread: Some days, I don't know myself

After reading your journal, I felt compelled to impart a few things on you if only to bring a measure of comfort 1. Live your life as YOU see fit. To hell what anyone else thinks or says about how you do things or why you do things. They aren't you and they don't know what it's like to be in your shoes..or webbed feet as the case is. Weak attempt at humor But seriously, you're around your feathered butt twenty-four hours a day, you've been with yourself since you were an egg waiting to be hatched and forever be a part of the mystery of which came first? Ducky or the egg? Wait..now I'm getting my fowl crossed. Whatever. 2. If you recognize that a relationship is toxic, be that smart kitten and avoid the antifreeze. Yes, it may try to coax you into thinking it's not lethal, but seldom is the case. I won't say it can't -not- be lethal...but in this Muse's humble opinion, why chance even an upset stomach or the runs for a pleasant taste of sugar when you can get it somewhere else? Somewhere that won't make you curl up in a tight ball and curse your feeling reciptors. Did I even spell that word right? Ah fuck, you know what I mean, yes? 3. Tough choices in life are ..well...tough. And if a person cares truly for you, they won't judge you by those choices that you were forced to make right or wrong. And honestly? I don't think any one human being or mortal creature, short of a few circumstances, has the right to tell another what IS right and wrong. When your back is against the wall, you do whatever you can to push away from that wall to avoid being crushed, yes, you may be forced to do things that others may not agree with but again as I stated before, it's YOUR life and no one else's. When they're in the exact same situation and it's all said and done, maybe then they've got a pot to piss in and a better understanding of the afformentioned pot's contents, until then be proud of the fact that you did what you felt was right even if it leaves you somewhat raw inside. Surviving isn't easy and living is even harder...sounds to me like you're more alive than you might realize, Dear. 4. Friends. Love to hate them and hate to love them sometimes. When a confidence is betrayed, it's hard to understand and cope with the fact you trusted them not to say something and then they run their mouth anyway. It's a catch twenty-two situation in which if you don't say anything, whatever the secret is will eat away at you and could cause you many a sleepless night. On the other hand, saying something puts you in a vulnerable position of having your confidence broken and realizing that your friend is a fallable creature who makes mistakes without intending to. Maybe they had their own motives and felt they were doing the right thing as well? Or maybe they had less than amicable intentions..I'm all for giving a person a chance and sometimes when that isn't enough, perhaps they aren't the friend you thought them to be. Now that I've climbed my soap box and prattled on, I hope there is at least something in my rant that will if nothing else, amuse you enough to crack a smile even though you and I haven't really talked much. I'm not even sure if any of that made any sense or if I'm coming off like one of those 'know-it-all' types..I guess all I can say is that I understand about at the very least, having to make some decisions that other people may not agree with. Their judgement hurt, but then I realized that it's my life and until they stepped foot in my shoes? Well, they could kiss my white and red ass.