Thread: A day in her life (momma X QB)

Trista gave him a small smile as he leaned towards her. She was glad of his being understanding and the way in which he went about everything. Most would probably fly off the hook at her but he didnt. She saw him control himself and she admired him all the more for it. However as he whispered into her ear she began to understand him more but in the same token she learned something that she hadnt realized yet. In his voice was an undercurrent, one of which she was familiar with. He had clearly been hurt in some form in the past and that made him weary of her. She could understand him wanting to keep a distance and not know how to love as she wanted now. It was when he pulled back slightly and their gazes met that she had her confirmation. There in the depths of his eyes hiding behind so much control and refinement of emotion was pain. The realization cut her like a knife. All this time she had always had him up on a pedestal in her mind because of how he treated her. She had never really stopped to realize that maybe he was able to help her so well because he had known what she felt in the past. She had just seen him as a kind, caring man who had pulled her away from an eerie fate and set her on the right path and who loved her in a strange regard as a daughter. But now she knew there was more to things then she knew. There was some reason why the mention of the toys in the basement affected him and why he was against the idea of BDSM with her. It was an unintentional trigger but one she would have to deal with in a manner of compassionate patience if she wanted this to work. She had been caught in the moment so lost in her thoughts that when he moved to brush his lips lightly against hers, if caught her off guard. It was a feather light kiss but a kiss none the less and it ended too soon. Seeing him pull back and be flustered as she went to respond to him she knew she was still dealing with something from his past that he couldnt fully deal with at this point in time. It made her want to press the issue and get him to talk about it but that would be unkind to do. Feeling slightly let down as he lied to her she quickly put her own emotions in check. She would not be a self centered brat like a few people she knew who would go about this situation in a whole other manner. She would handle this with the confident grace he had taught her over the years. After all over reacting had never done anyone any good. So she gave him a kind loving smile as he pulled away. However that didnt mean she was going to let him fully get away from her. Moving to cuddle up to him once more, wanting to give him comfort as he had always done for her, she glanced up to him with understanding in her eyes. I can tell you have been hurt, and Im sorry for that. I wont push you in the matter and Im not going to push you in this situation either. However if you want to talk about it Im here for you she told him nearly quoting what he had told her 3 years ago when they had met and she was afraid of him and everyone around her. As he slowly returned to some semblance of his usual self and unpaused the movie she sighed softly at his question of what had Alexis told her. Alexis had done a little more than tell her about BDSM, he just didnt know about it. A phantom of the past flashed in her eyes as she remembered the event a year ago when this all started. She had been at war with her emotions that summer and needed to get away form Nathan to clear her mind and get herself together. So she had asked him to let her go stay the weekend with Alexis. He had given in after some reluctance and parental worry of course but none the less she had gotten to go. That weekend she would never forget. They hadnt stayed at Alexis house all weekend and watched movies as she had told him they were going to do. Instead Alexis had dolled her up in a sexy outfit consisting of leather, silk, and lace that she was sure at the time Nathan would ground her for life over if he saw her, and they had met up with Alexis' Master and gone to a kinky club about 3 hours away from town. The club was called Dark Sanction. She hadnt totally known what to expect but Alexis and Azreal, her Master assured her it would be fun and that they would not leave her side as they would be her protector for the night. She hadnt understood that terminology fully until she got inside the club. Every where she looked there was girls and guys tied up in bondage or restaints all wearing in appropriate outfits. Some were being beat with a whip, others were being flogged, some played with fire, some played as pets, and some played with needles and knives. It had been a scene that triggered some bad things within Trista at the time and she had had nightmares for over a week afterward, especially after seeing one girl suspended from the ceiling with thick ropes and hooks in her skin. That had chilled Trista to the bone and added a twist to her usual nightmares. She never would tell Nathan back then of what had really upset her during that time frame, she simply lied and said she was having flash backs from her past and didnt know what was causing it other than possibly the time of the year. She had hated lying to him at the time and still she hated that she had lied to him, however she wasnt willing to tell him the truth back then and risk his anger towards her. However she had confided in Alexis afterward of what was going on with her. That was when Alexis had sat her down one day after school and explained her the truth of the lifestyle and proved to her that it looked and sounded allot worst than it really was. She had called Azreal and had him come over and bring his toy bag with him. He had also talked to her about it all and sincerely apologized for unintentionally upsetting her. But at that time he had not known of her past either, if he had of he never would have allowed her to go with them to the club that night. None the less he and Alexis had allowed her to see first hand the instruments used and allowed her to mess with them herself without their help. They understood her trust issues clearly and wasnt about to make her worry by putting her into a position to use anything on her. They did however, with her okaying the idea, do a short play scene in front of her and showed her it wasnt so bad. Though she had to hand it to Alexis, she was one cray freak but she still loved her. From that point on she ha been curious about BDSM but not trusting enough to attempt any of it. However finding the trunk earlier had triggered that curiosity in her once again. She did want to know what if felt like to be flogged and tied up for the reason of pleasure but there of course was only one person she trusted enough to do it. Which now led her to this moment. Letting out a long breath she hadnt realized she had even been holding as she was lost in thought, she suddenly brought her mind back to the question at hand. She wasnt sure how much she wanted to tell him just yet. She really didnt want to get into the details of her lie to him but knew if he pushed her she would spill her secret as she always did where he was concerned. What I know of it is basically text book knowledge really she told him starting off to solidify her claim that she had never done anything along those lines. Alexis has explained to me the safety rules and guidelines. She has warned me of the dangers involved in certain forms of play. She has explained to me of the different dynamics within the lifestyle and everyone is different depending on the people in the partnership and each has their own set of rules or protocols as she put it. She has explained to me the difference between a Dominant and a submissive person and the roles. I know basics I guess you could say and I know that it seems worst than it actually is. she told him being a little casual not wanting to tell him too much about Alexis unless he requested more about her and her Master. As far as the dedication, devotions, and submission you warn me of, I am not worried about that as I know I can do that. I am already devoted and dedicated to my career I can handle being that to you as well. As far as submission in some semblance I have already tiptoed on that line with you just not the in the same mannerism of BDSM. Ive submitted to your rules and listened to all that you have told me even if i didnt agree with it at the time. I believe i can do more. Also in a sense I already try to care for you as a slave would by helping take care of the house and cooking for you. This isnt something Ive taken without any consideration or research. she then added wanted to instill more faith in him that she knew what she was getting into as she tightened her inner resolve that she would save him in a similar manner that he had saved her. She would somehow help him through his past hurt and teach him how to love and trust again.