Thread: Sexual Star, Amateur at Love (Javorcek X ClearSight)

Alex was a little bit of a health nut. She wasnt crazy, organic, hippie lady, but one of the first things to go when her and Elle had moved in together were the frozen dinners and cans of SpaghettiOs, followed by any bags of chips that werent tortilla because salsa is delicious. After several failed attempts to get soda out of the apartment too, shed just given up on that front Elle had made so many other concessions in Alexs kitchen rampage that she let her keep those drinks. Alex hopped up off of the couch at Elles almost-permission to go cook lunch, and headed off towards the kitchen to start rifling through the fridge for something to cook. Yup. This was how Alex usually talked about her feelings. One word statements or silence all together. She had been doing better with Elle, forming whole sentences that were sometimes poorly structured, but still sentences at least. But now Alex had just sort of shut down, everything hurt too much, and she was content to relapse into single syllable words as long as it dulled the pain that Elles lie had caused. Besides, she might as well just agree, her lover had hit the nail right on the head Alex saw who Elle really was and truly did care for those parts of herbut now she couldnt trust the woman that sat on the couch. Alex was in the kitchen, chopping up vegetables, quietly doing the math in her head as she tried to figure out if her lover leaving her job was even possible. Elle made a lot-. A minimum wage job wasnt going to do and she would indeed need to work overtime. Alex had worked minimum wage jobs in college, shed worked herself to the bone, nearly getting burnt out in her senior year. She remembered how much it sucked to get home from one job, have to shower, change, and then go straight off to the other even when your feet hurt and you are tired as fuck. She didnt want that kind of life for Elle. If she crunched the numbers in her head, they could squeak by with Elle working one minimum wage job and Alex bringing home as much as she currently was But Alex didnt want to squeak byher and Elle would want to have kids eventually, theyd want to buy a house to raise those kids in. Donors and fertility treatments, hell, even adoption were all expensive as fuck. And what if another emergency happened? It would wipe out any sort of savings they could gather up for the down payment of a house. Besides its nearly impossible to save up for the unforeseen when living paycheck to paycheck. Car breaking down, medical bills, it all added up. Gahthis accident alone is going to set us back while we wait for the insurance company to get their shit together to sue the guy that had hit Elle. She could always ask her parents for money or for help? They sure as hell made enough. But Alex was stubborn, she wanted to do this on her own You cant quit your job Alex muttered after an extended silence as she stared down at the cutting board that was filled with the chopped makings of a salad. Having Elle say she would quit thoughit did pick up her spirits a little bit. I Alex sighed and paused. She set her chefs knife down and then moved to the sink to wash her hands before she came back out into the living room. Then she knelt down on the floor, next to Elle so that they could be eye level. Iwant to start over Her brow furrowed slightly as she tried to think of a way to explain what she wanted better. Everything I meanall of this I want to pretend this is our first date. And I want you to tell me about yourself and not lie to me. And thenwe can see if I still like you enough to spend the night. Deal?