Thread: Hyde and Seek [ Chai & Mr Quixotic ]

RE Hyde and Seek Ariamella Mr Quixotic Gerald rested his elbows on the desk when hed finished his appraisal, and maintained eye-contact with the actress, keen to appraise her reaction to his statements, deliberately constructed to appeal to Katrinas ego and self awareness. His lips curled up slightly at the corners, in what could be taken either as a smile or an expression of curiosity, and he attempted to gauge as much from her expression as the words she spoke. Of course, hed expected her to respond as she did in regards to her profession being a passion, however the actress still she didnt display any outward signs of great emotion, and to the Psychologist her demeanour appeared deliberately self-contained, and controlled. How was she in bed? The same? Words are easy, however, please recall that it wasnt your passion or an independent desire to hone your talent that led to you making an appointment to see me, but a perceived lack of both that caused you to be referred, and in the film Industry, perception is reality. The Doctor replied after his eyes had shifted over his shoulder to glance at the framed medical degree hung on the wall. Psychology had once been a passion for him, and had remained so for the first decade of practice, however his rich, privileged clients, whod listen to his advice, pay him 500 an hour, then go and do the exact opposite of what hed declared would be to their benefit had eventually led to cynicism, and a dislike of his own clients which bordered on hatred. If they wanted to ignore his advice, and continue to fuck themselves up on booze, drugs and affairs, why not help them along. Its where theyd all end up anyway. The difference between my occupation and yours, is that I am not paid to display myself to the world, and for a couple of hours, provide others the opportunity to escape their everyday lives, by believing what they see upon the screen is real. Or could be. You can either take on board what others view from the outside, or ignore their opinions and expertise, and continue to believe you exude what they think you do not. The Doctors voice had transformed from a soft, Fatherly timbre to one more blunt, and hed moved further forward on his chair to close the perceived distance between he and Katrina. What I sense in you is a controlled and emotionless young woman whose non-virginal status is irrelevant. Id be more surprised if you were one at your age, and, as to your statement that experience as a stripper isnt required in order to be able to portray one, that also works in reverse. A pole-dancer may not be able to portray a believable one on screen, and having had sex in reality does not mean that you can portray sensuality on film. That is a mental aptitude, mostly driven by the subconscious. If an actress believes that her characters actions are unethical or immoral and allows her personal views to bleed into her performance, the audience will see straight through it. Gerald shrugged as if to apologise for his directness, however his head didnt move, and his focus on Katrina remained unwavering. He wasnt in the least apologetic for anything he might say to upset the woman, and like Michael before him though unaware of the precedent he attempted to elicit a reaction. Im well aware of who your Mother is, and the irony is that whilst you declare that being able to handle Nicole indicates that youre an adult, simultaneously, what you words tell me is that its the fear of her, and her opinions of sexuality that are holding you back. Not what you may think, but what she, and by extension others who do not even know you, may think. And what is that? Without allowing the actress time to contemplate the question, Gerald went on to answer it himself. The man was on a roll. That Katrina Ellis possesses emotions and desires just as they do, that shes an independent sexual being, that shes human? However, your Mother couldnt allow that, could she, Katrina? Sex is bad, the root of all evil, and an act to be ashamed of. Hidden in the darkness, as should be your body, and causal encounters are the work of the Devil in disguise, offering the temptation of pleasure, but filled only with bad intent. Heres the proof, look what it did to my hopes, my dreams, my career. Sarcasm momentarily dripped from his tongue, before he managed to reign it back in. At twenty-one you should possess the maturity to have taken control of your own destiny and choices. You may consider that to be the case, but as I see it, it's Nicole Ellis who remains in charge of your moral views and sexual independence, and until you release yourself from her clutches, your emotions, sensuality and the real Katrina Ellis will never see the light of day. Neither will the Lily who Michael Rodriguez requires for his film. His throat parched from talking, Gerald paused to take a sip of water, but continued to maintain eye-contact with the actress. His dislike for her, increased by the egotistical remark in regards to being able to obtain adoration - narcissistic bitch - burned in his psyche, however his facial expressions remained neutral. You might be correct about Julia Roberts never having stripped, but are you aware of the research she put into that role? The time she spent with exotic dancers and high-class prostitutes in an attempt to understand the lifestyle, and get into their heads, so that when audiences viewed the film, they could believe she was Vivian Ward? Does consorting with such people make her immoral, Katrina, and lessen your respect for the woman, or does it simply make her an actress with a passion for her profession, who wished for nothing more than to provide the most realistic performance possible? Then came the kicker. As confident as you are that you can and will do the film, the decision is not yours to make. It is the Directors, and dependent on the faith he has in you to deliver the Lily he needs for the production to be a success. Can you deliver what he asks for, or will your career pan out the same as your Mothers, the woman you so rely upon to provide guidance and advice? Were only granted one life, Katrina, and should not allow someone else to live it for us, vicariously or otherwise, so grasp your own desires, and relish your sexual and emotional freedom, and Lily will relish hers. That's what being an adult is about. Finally finished, Gerald fell back and his seat, and stared at the actress with a raised brow, wondering if his words would have any effect, either then, or when she returned to the set.