Thread: What Lies In A Heart Of Darkness (10/2 Entry)

RE What Lies In A Heart Of Darkness You know what? I said I'm gonna try and do these journals a bit more regularly, and yet here I am, making my second entry almost a year after my first one. I kinda feel like an asshole. Oh well, it's kinda who I am, so I'm use to it. Anyways, a lot has happened recently. Some good, some bad, some meh. My job at the airport has gone to hell. The company I work for lost it's contract for the airport, so it'll be shutting down by the end of October. I've been spending the past few months trying to look for a new place to work, but a lot of people aren't hiring, so it's been difficult. I can always go to the new company that's taking over, but I don't really care for their policies, I've got to fucking pay for my parking pass, I have to pay to fucking come to work, hell no. So things have been a bit rough on that end, and I'm aware that this is very stressful, so I'd like to apologize. I'd like to apologize in advance, I'm sorry if I may seem depressing or if it sounds like I'm venting on you, I really don't mean to do so. I'd also like to apologize to those that I might've already done that to. While I'm trying to avoid pushing my life issues on someone, sometimes it comes out. So for that, I'm very sorry not sure if I should go ahead and actually put names. If they want me to remove the names, I will edit this Candira, Wingshadow, and messylips. I'm very happy to have you as roleplaying partners, and I'm sorry if I've troubled you or made you uncomfortable with my life problems. That being said, it's not all that bad. During my time off, I tend to go out more, meet up with friends, see family, anything to get out of the house. It's a nice change of pace compared to how I use to live, locking myself in my room and not coming out unless I absolutely had to. I'm still not very sociable, I guess some things never change, although it's just kinda hard to have a better view on people after working a job where you see the worst of them. There are times where I try to lighten up, being kind to random strangers, and then there's that one asshole that'll I'll cross by and he'll remind me why I stopped socializing with random people. But oh well, I usually try to at least stay polite when I pass by people, and I've got plenty of friends to talk to. Lately I've been getting back into watching anime, and I've started watching it while it's in syndication. I'm hooked on Akame ga Kill although the manga is much better and I absolutely loved watching Stardust Crusaders. And now the fall season is starting up, and I'm excited for quite a few shows. Unlimited Blade Works begins on Saturday, and the Garo anime begins as well. There's also the new seasons of Log Horizon and Chaika. So this season of anime will hopefully be exciting. As for games, I've been playing a lot on my Vita and PS4, although lately I've been doing quite a bit of PC gaming. I've been playing a lot of RPG-Maker horror games, which are actually pretty scary compared to a lot of the horror games that come out. I've always found them to be quite interesting, watching playthroughs of them online, but now I've decided to play a few of them myself. While some games like Misao are kinda dumb and goofy for the ridiculous death scenes although it has a really dark twist near the end, games like Ib are very well written and set up a great creepy atmosphere I also cried at one of the endings. Recently I've been playing The Crooked Man, and it reminds me a lot of the old Silent Hill games with disturbing images, depressing characters, and how events in the game symbolize aspects of the main character's life. It's great at setting up a dark and creepy mood, making me think that I'll get attacked at any moment. It's creeped me out so much that I've had difficulty going to sleep for the past few days, but I don't want to put the game down. I do think that I'm nearing the end of it, so hopefully I'll be able to sleep again, at least until I play the next game that scares me. Well, I should probably end this here for now. Hopefully I'll try to actually keep this one up to date and not write my next entry almost a year later again. Thanks for reading.