Thread: The Semminary- phtlc and Babygirl67

The way she looked at me was terrifying as though she had acquired some new asset. Who I was had been irrevocably changed. I was no longer a virgin, a chaste man. I had just had carnal relations with a woman outside of marriage and I had enjoyed it. She knew she had destroyed the part of me that was good, and that by doing so she was killing me and she loved it. I had lived my life in accordance with a specific set of values and yet when this woman aroused me I threw it aside in the blink of an eye, to satisfy my sinful instincts. I could see that she had been turned in by it after all. While the motive had been to destroy me, she had certainly enjoyed the sex. While I had no experience, her reactions as I climaxed told me that she had done so too. It was creepy that this woman was getting off on sex with someone my age, yet at the same time I couldnt deny htat she was one of the most sexually attractive women I had ever known. The fact that she made me notice that made me hate her more. I had never in my life been sexually attracted to a woman, but rather focused on my teachings of the church, yet she had perverted me and now she was taunting me saying this was somehow Gods will. This was in no way his will. This was two people giving in to their bodys urges at the defiance of Gods will. The weird thing was the maternal way in which she spoke to me. It was almost affectionate sounding, yet I knew she would enjoy hurting me. She did not see me as a young guy she wanted to help or mentor, but more as a pet and any affection was in that manner towards a beast of utility acquired for the purpose of serving her. Some people aquire horses for transport, and some people aquire dogs for racing. She had acquired me for sex. There was a ownerpet type affection there but it was clear that I was in no way her equal, but rather her subordinate, and part of our relationship would involve her deriving pleasure from hurting me. I was a mere asset, and no longer a human being. I felt my entire body shiver as her lips and tongue danced across my lips, yet I felt compelled to answer her question. I am upset at losing my virginity. I had planned on remaining celibate my whole life and now I am spoiled. God didnt make this happen, you and I did. I made this happen by acting like a cheap pervert outside that locker room and you made this happen by taking advantage of the situation. I might have prevented this but I lacked the guts to take responsibility for what I did, and instead like a coward agreed to be your., I couldnt finish the sentence I was so chocked up. The truth of what I had just said tortured me. I didnt have to lose my virginity, but gave it up because I was a coward. You are right though.this is my fault, as I hung my head in utter shame, unable to look her in the eyes. The worst part was that as much as I hated her, the sensation of her body still rubbing against mine drove me crazy. It was almost as though she knew exactly how to arouse every hidden desire, even those that I had no wish to explore. Every touch of her skin against mine sent shivers of arousal through every fiber of my being and drove me over the edge. My body wanted you. Stepping out I stood frozen as you toweled me off, running your hands all over me. As you lead me to the bedroom I felt like a condemned man heading to death row, yet I walked. Such was the control you had over me. Her reference to me being an angel was actually creepy, because given my behavior I was anything but. Nonetheless I felt as we walked into the bedroom, that things were going to take a turn for the worse.