Thread: [KylarStern & Tortoise] Dancing With Myself;;

Despite his own misgivings, and conscious attempts at keeping things as formal as possible between then, he found he was failing. He felt himself relaxing in her presence and the smiles were returning. His yearning heart was slowly slipping back to a better time, when things were so different between them. It was tough trying to be formal with the woman you had shared your life with. They knew each other so well, the good and the bad, the cutes and the quirks... He was also conscious of it, every time she seemed to lean a little heavily on him. He wasn??t fool enough to think anything else of the action. Her leg must??ve been hurting something fierce and she was still trying to keep a straight face. He wished there was something he could do to alleviate her discomfort. He had always had a hard time seeing her hurt. Even if it was something as silly as their team losing a game of football, he could never see the funny side of how she would bawl like a baby at it. She had just laughed at that little wayward comment about her looks and he had grinned both in relief and in genuine happiness that things weren??t awkward between them. They could still share a laugh and say stupid things to each other, without having to worry about offending anyone. Well, at least in the sillier things anyway. That touch, when she patted his arm so casually, felt a little too good though. She felt good. She was even prettier than he remembered her and he felt his attraction surge anew. He was treading dangerous ground now, he knew. But it was hard to be cautious, when all he wanted just then was to grab her and crush her to his chest like he??d never let go. It almost hurt physically, just trying not to! He too couldn??t help stealing a look at her every now and then, and he??d noticed how her face fell when he??d sidestepped the question of how he was doing. She could tell he wasn??t being completely honest, but was perceptive enough not to press the matter. He didn??t want to talk about it. And he sure as hell didn??t want her knowing. At some point, it was also because he knew it would make her feel guilty and sad? and he just couldn??t let that happen. It was also one of the reasons why he never tried too hard to contact her. He had believed she??d be happier without him in her life. But what really shook him, was the off hand manner in which she had said that her marriage was in a couple months. She didn??t seem very excited about it. That was so unlike her? she always threw herself completely into anything she did. Just like dancing was her whole life, she was passionate about each and everything that she did. At their wedding, she was so excited that she almost single handedly planned and organized the whole thing. It was impossible to imagine her letting someone else do the planning, and that too, from the sound of it, with little or no participation from her. She was making it sound like she didn??t really care at all about it. He wondered what was wrong. Was she not happy to be marrying the guy? Did something go wrong? Was it the accident? So many questions flooded his brain, itching to break out of him. But he wasn??t sure if it would be appropriate to bring it up right now. Plus, he was afraid he wouldn??t be able to muster enough concern in his voice. It wouldn??t do to sound pleased about it! He blinked and forced a smile when she commented on the lack of a ring on his own finger. He looked at his hand for a minute with a rueful smile. The long spate of meaningless relationships he??d been in and out of, rushed through his mind. He looked at her with a strange smile. Fact was, he did have a ring? their ring. And though he had stopped wearing it on his finger as it raised too many questions, it was still always with him. He was also glad she couldn??t see it. It would have been a little too embarrassing, had she known? that on a silver chain round his neck, there hung a tiny band of gold? one that he had vowed over, to hold and to have her, for better or for worse? till death did them part. His smile only broadened a little as he looked at her and simply said, ??What can I say, it??s been hard finding someone. You are a hard act to follow!?