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Thread: Sexual Star, Amateur at Love (Javorcek X ClearSight)

Elle come on! Youre not even trying! Alex laughed as she pulled a piece of popcorn out of her hair. It was movie night, but her and Elle had long since forgotten the video on the TV. Now they were chucking pieces at popcorn at one another, trying to get it into each others mouths. Alex had gotten pretty close a couple of times, but now Elle seemed content to just wing the pieces of popcorn at Alex to try to take one of her eyes out and screw up the brunettes depth perception so that she couldnt shoot. I am too trying! You just keep moving. Elle giggled and chucked another piece of popcorn at her. Alex had known it was a mistake to give her the bowl to hold onto! Shed given her lover an unlimited supply of ammunition and was now at the mercy of her girlfriends bad aim. Gah, Elle! You got butter on my shirt! Alex pouted, though not really mad, it would just come out in the wash anyways. But still, it was a good reason to switch gears from ranged combat to something more hand to hand. Grrraawwwrrrr!!! Youre in trouble now!!!! Alex gave her best play roar before lunging across the couch. She pounced ontop of Elle, a smug grin on her face because she knew she was much stronger than her girlfriend. Really she had meant to try to retrieve the popcorn bowl and then settle down to finish the movie they rented but after pressing her body up against Elles, she immediately began to-- --- Mrrrmph Alex growled, could be a real bear when she was woken up abruptly. She had a couple of anger issues that were usually fully taken care of with her outlets in painting and running. But sometimes, like now as she growled and grit her teeth in response to something hit her face while she slept, a little bit of her temper could be seen. She was about ready to chew out whoever the hell had thought it was funny to throw something at her before her gaze settled upon Elle, whose grey eyes were open and looking right at her. Elle! All the irritation was immediately washed away by a sense of relief. Elle was awake! She was going to be fine. Well, more fine than unconscious body, which was good, because Alex had to see her have one more seizure shed probably have a break down. Geezeyou scared the shit out of me Im glad youre awake though. Alex yawned and stretched, flinching a little bit because her awful position in the chair had given her a crick in her neck. Howre you feeling? Are you in pain? Want me to get the nurse?
Thread: Sexual Star, Amateur at Love (Javorcek X ClearSight)

Watching Alex wake was similar to watching a predator disturbed by some soon to be prey, a growl and look of fury as she roused herself, body slowly waking. Still, while Alex could be aggressive upon waking Elle knew she was a softy inside, she wouldn't be made once she gained her senses, hopefully that was. It was a relief to see all that anger wash away and a look of joy cross Alex's face, not just because she had chosen the crude object in the face approach to waking her lover, but because she seemed so happy Elle was awake and to be near her. It didn't mean they were fine, even in her fogged state she didn't delude herself in to thinking that, but anything was okay with Elle, as long as it meant Alex hadn't completely given up on her. She had known all along that Alex wasn't that type of person. Still, it was nice to have confirmed. She must have really been scared though because how quickly she began tossing out questions was overwhelming, especially because she had no damn clue what had happened. Elle just laughed though, smiling gently over at Alex with love in her eyes. I'm feeling foggy, and there is definitely some pain, but I don't think I need the nurse, it's not that bad... She could guess why, the grogginess was most likely due to a mix of her injury and some serious medication, because she felt the tingle and numb sensation of being drugged up, and it was one she was not entirely use to. Really I'm curious what happened more than anything... I just remember driving, and next thing I know I'm waking up here... And you're here... And... She paused, voice choking up but she held herself together, being helped out in no small thanks to a throbbing headache that exceeded her emotional side. Do you know what happened Alex? And how long have I been out? It's all so confusing. She sighed, leaning back on her remaining pillows and looking over at Alex, and in that moment she really did seem weak, the toll of the accident showing in subtle ways, such as how her breath was already labored from sitting up and moving around a bit, part of the toll the accident and surgery took on her. For Elle though none of that mattered, Alex being with her made anything seem alright, and that was the feeling she was so damn scared of losing, the strength she always felt with her lover by her side. She didn't bring it up though, even if it was more pressing on her mind than what had happened, she kept it to herself and had no intention of bringing it up, not after what had happened the last time she tried to talk about it.
Thread: Sexual Star, Amateur at Love (Javorcek X ClearSight)

Even though Elle was awake now, Alex was still all sorts of worried. Now her worries shifted from if Elle would ever come out of her coma to if Elle was in a lot of pain or not. She really wanted to go get a nurse, just to be safe. But she didnt want to leave Elles side.... Fuck, it felt like they came into the damn room every 15 minutes to write crap on the white board by the door, but when you actually needed a nurse they were never around! It soothed Alex a little bit for her lover to say that the pain wasnt all that bad and she nodded a little bit. Alex heard the crack in Elles voice and was out of her chair in an instant. She neared the bed and reached for the closest piece of her girlfriend that wasnt stuck with needles or covered in bandages, her shoulder seemed safe enough. Even as she rubbed it gently though, Alex looked incredibly uncomfortable. It wasnt because she was mad at Elle, it was mostly because she had of her own body covered in tattoos but was still horribly afraid of needles. Plus she was scared of touching or moving anything and having all the machines start beeping angrily at her. Hey its okayIm right here She tried her best to sound brave though, mostly because she didnt want Elle to lose it and cry. Pleasedontcry.Pleasedontcry.Pleasedontcry. Youre fine babe... Everythings going to be okay now. Lie! Everything is not okay! Alright so maybe everything wasnt okay, but Elle was okay, and that was enough of everything for Alex for now. You were in an accidentdrunk driver blew through a red light and t-boned you. Alex frowned at the thought of a car barreling straight into Elles driver side door. But she supposed she was lucky, the other driver could have been a lot worse and Elle could have been a lot more injured. It was strange, she should be seething mad at Elle and not want to be in the same room as her. But seeing her lover so weak and vulnerable just made Alex want to stay and protect her as best she could. They could fight or break up or figure things out later, after Elle was better. Youve been out for two days you had a seizure last night Now it was Alexs turn for her voice to crack. She quickly looked down because she could feel her eyes begin to sting. Seeing Elle convulsing on the bed and hearing all the equipment she was hooked up to going off had been one of the scariest things Alex had ever seen. ImuhIm glad youre okay.
Thread: Sexual Star, Amateur at Love (Javorcek X ClearSight)

Usually the silences between them were not awkward or tense, but now all Alex wanted to do was duck out of the hospital room and take a shower at home if they were going to be in this silence for what felt like forever. Maybe it was because she didn't know what to say... Elle had said 'I love you', but Alex was reluctant to return the words that had come so easily between them in the past. How could she? How could she look at her cheating girlfriend and say 'I love you'. Hey...I don't mind taking care of you, don't worry about it. Really, Alex didn't mind taking care of Elle whenever she didn't feel well. Her girlfriend was probably much better at dealing with illness as Alex was. The brunette would always turn into a whiney, small child when she had a fever or a stomach ache. Elle was always easy to take care of, even now, Alex didn't mind that she was tired and achey from sleeping in a hospital chair. She was just happy to be by Elle and have her girlfriend be okay. Alex was quiet and out of the way as Elle and the nurse talked. She flinched slightly when the nurse moved some of the tubes and Alex could see the leads move a little bit so she turned her back on the pair and looked out the window while the nurse continued to poke and prod at Elle. When she was gone, Alex looked back at her lover, returning a little smile of her own. Yeah...fine...that's good. --- They were back at the apartment the next day. Alex had stayed with Elle the entire time. They'd spent most of that time in silence, just watching TV together, neither one really knowing what to say, and Alex being entirely content to avoid the problems just below the surface. Once the doctor cleared them, it was time to go. Elle was still on painkillers and not supposed to drive, so Alex would be her ride until she could ween herself off them. And because her girlfriend's arm was feeling funny, Alex would have to do little things for her that involved two hands and breakablesharp objects, such as cooking or washing the dishes. Not that she minded. So ah...want me to fix something up for you? Alex asked as she led Elle up the stairs and into the apartment, arm and arm because her girlfriend had seemed a little wobbly when she had gotten out of the car.
Thread: Sexual Star, Amateur at Love (Javorcek X ClearSight)

At the hospital it was easy enough to pretend the awkwardness felt was simply discomfort and a general dislike for hospitals, Elle blamed their environment for the seemingly empty space where conversation should have been at times. However when the stay in the hospital was over things didn't change and it became harder to ignore it. Hell, the doctor giving her permission to return home should have been a joyous event, but it didn't seem to carefree and jovial, not like it should have, it was all still off. Really Elle knew why, she knew Alex because loving someone for as long as she had loved Alex tended to lead to a certain understanding. So she knew things had not been resolved on the topic of her livelihood. She also knew Alex would never bring it up, she would just stay or leave with no verbal communication on the matter whatsoever. Now, while Elle had felt fine with that at the hospital, just happy to be alive and to find Alex next to her, when they arrived back home it was stagnant and suffocating. Sure, they were back at their place, but it didn't feel comfortable and relaxing as a home should, not when there were long durations of silence and unspoken problems. Oh how Elle wished she could be like Alex sometimes, able to ignore things and let it all happen in her head, ignoring the rest of the world when she had a problem she didn't feel like letting out in the open or discussing. She wasn't though, Elle was the type that needed to speak things out loud, even if it was something she knew wouldn't end well. So, with another one of those awkward days on the horizon Elle couldn't bottle it up any more, she allowed Alex to lead her in to the apartment, not wanting to make too big a scene, and then looked over at her with a serious and somewhat sad expression. Alex, I'm tired of this. I don't like being with you but feeling like there is this distance between us, the awkward silence is unbearable. So no, I don't want you to fix anything, I don't want you to be here as some sort of duty bound servant just because you're weak to people in need. Just stop being nice already, because I can get someone from work to take care of me if that's the only reason you are here. She paused, part of her knowing she would never ask anyone from work for help, she only knew a few of them well and was rather friendless truth be told. Hell Alex had only met one or two of her friends before and they were all from high school. So please let's talk about this... One way or another I need resolution, I need to know whether I should be smiling or crying, whether I should expect to have you around for the rest of my life like I had always wanted or simply for the next few weeks while I heal up... I need to know if my job is going to drive you away.
Thread: Sexual Star, Amateur at Love (Javorcek X ClearSight)

Alex couldn't help but return Elle's smile as her lover lit up with hope. Seeing her girlfriend happy, even a little bit, always got Alex out of a bad mood. You are an iddiioootttt. This is a baaddd ideeaaaaaa. The little voice in her head was right, she probably shouldn't be giving Elle another chance. She should still be mad, flipping-tables-over mad. And Alex -should- really just leave, walk out before it became too hard to do so. But she couldn't seem to stop herself, self-sacrifice and self-destruction were built into her personality. She worried about Elle and had been in love with this woman for so long... It was hard to imagine that her sweet, clumsy Elle was a porn star if she hadn't seen it with her own eyes, she never would have believed it. She'd just...give her this chance. Just this one chance... Dumbass! Aw I was going to put chicken on it and stuff... Alex's focus from her inner turmoil was rerouted towards her cooking skills and she pouted. In the beginning it had been hard to get Elle to eat something that wasn't fast food or stuffed with salt and preservatives, and Alex had had to resort to looking cute in order to get Elle to eat whatever weird healthy thing she was making. The broccoli and spinach smoothies hadn't quite caught on yet... But other than that, her lover had been eating much better than when they had first met. Elle did have a point she supposed... If they were going to go on a date, then it should be like a real date and they should go out. Alex liked a good burger herself, as long as it came from an actual restaurant McDonald's and Burger King didn't count! She had never really quite mastered making burgers and always had to go out if she wanted a good one. How about...we go to that bar where we first met? They have some really good food. No booze. Alex quickly added as she got up to stand. She could be a little bit of a mother hen sometimes. But Elle's medication seemed pretty strong and she didn't want her lover to get more woozy than she already was. Plus Alex was a very horny, handsy drunk, it would be better if they both didn't have a drop of alcohol on their new first date. Just...let me put the food away. And get your sneakers off the couch! Alex grumbled as she finally noticed that her girlfriend was still wearing shoes in the apartment. No shoes allowed in the house! Ever! And she hated when people complained that her floor was dirty. No, my floor is clean. Your dirty ass sneakers on my clean floor is what is making it dirty. Alex quickly went to work putting the chopped vegetables away. Then she took a Sharpie out to mark the date on the plastic baggie that she had stuffed the food in. Years of having odd jobs had included a few at different restaurants. Some weird habits came home with her, such as always labeling the prep date on the food. Once that was taken care off, she headed over to Elle to offer her hand and help her lover down the stairs and out to the beat up Honda Civic that Alex had been driving since she was 16.
Thread: Sexual Star, Amateur at Love (Javorcek X ClearSight)

Har har. Youre hilarious. Alex rolled her eyes and heaved an overdramatic sigh of irritation as Elle took her shoes back off. She wasnt actually mad, not by a long shot, she actually kind of liked Elles smartass-ness. Alex could be the same wayand it was nice to be dating someone that could go back and forth with her. Okay, okay, Im coming. She took the hint and hurried up, shutting the fridge and then heading towards Elle. Alex slipped on a comfy pair of Vans before offering her hand to her girlfriend so that she could help her down the stairs and to the car. Elledont be silly. Alex was tempted to brush off the comment from Elle, but knew that her lover would need some reassurance. So she stopped in the doorway, and turned to face Elle. Look, Im not tired of youand I dont think I ever will Alex smiled, a sad smile because she was majorly conflicted, but it was a smile nonetheless. Theyd been together for a little over a year and still, Elle made her laugh and kept her interested. And right now, yeah, you dont really deserve me. Buuuttthopefully youll make that up to me. Alex leaned forward and gave Elle a light kiss on the cheek. Her girlfriend wasnt totally out of the dog house yet, but there was still hope. Now that they were all set to leave, Alex locked the door behind them and escorted Elle through the hall, down the elevator, and out towards the car. She opened the door for Elle and helped her in before jogging over to her side to hop inside. Alex started up the car and then down to the Cock and Bull they went! It wasnt the most romantic of names, but if you wanted a mouthwatering burger or a delicious order of wings, the Cock and Bull was the place to be. And the best part was, the drinks werent outrageously priced and the bartenders had heavy hands with the liquor. Ah, probably the Bull Burger. Alex responded after a moment of thought. She loved the wings, but it was a little horrifying to watch her eat them and she would not subject Elle to such a view on their first date. What do you think youre getting, babe-Elle? Alex correct herself, vaguely aware that she should probably try to maintain some sort of distance between them she tried to bring herself to trust the woman sitting next to her once more.
Thread: Sexual Star, Amateur at Love (Javorcek X ClearSight)

Elle's confidence needed the slight boost Alex gave her with the kind words. She needed to hear that despite everything, their time together and the current situation, that Alex enjoyed being with her. Not that it could solve all their problems, Elle had fucked up and it was a big deal, but knowing that Alex loved her and wanted to be with her meant a lot, and it made that sparkle of hope feel a tad brighter. So she smiled, squeezing Alex's hand gently, and then started to walk with her, hand in hand, towards the car. Maybe if she was lucky she would trip and Alex would be forced to catch her, they could have a little body contact and she could feel the warmth she had been lacking for awhile. What a sad thought that was, and Elle almost laughed just thinking about it, the idea that risking her own safety, and possible dragging Alex to the ground with her, was a wonderful idea as long as she got to hold Alex, or be held which was more Elle's desire than anything. Fuck, she would be thrilled if things would just work out, she missed Alex in every conceivable way. Still, there was time left for that to happen and for the moment she took the small victories, such as holding hands or having Alex be so polite and open her door. That was something she had always loved about Alex, her charm and genuine thoughtfulness, it always made Elle smile, even after the time they had been together Every time Alex held a door open for her she smiled, it never wore out. Still, there was a lot that night meant and she was focused on what was ahead, including what she was going to get to eat, a question she only found an answer to when she was asked, and it was an answer she knew Alex was going to hate. I think I'll get myself the double bacon cheeseburger with a sprinkling of blue cheese crumbles and the spicy mayo. She grinned, it was a first date but there was more to it than that, she couldn't help but put on a mischievous look when she knew her health nut of a lover would forbid that choice other nights, especially the calorie loaded mayo and blue cheese crumble added to the mix. Sure, Alex's ideas for healthier meals had rubbed off on Elle, she even used avocado in place of mayo at times, but she still had her greasy and fatty desires. Of course she had noticed the babe slipping out as well, but she chose not to acknowledge that and instead leaned back in her seat and looked out the window as they drove, deciding to make some light conversation as they drove. So Alex, what do you do for fun? I mean, if you weren't out with me right now and just wanted to relax what would you do? She knew the answer but it was a first date, and truthfully a gentle reminder of the hobbies she tried to share with Alex was always nice, especially because with her long hours she often neglected to attempt the countless things Alex always tried to get her to do. Hell she could still remember the shitty vase she made... Alex probably still had it hidden from sight, knowing Elle would get rid of all the misshapen evidence otherwise.
Thread: Sexual Star, Amateur at Love (Javorcek X ClearSight)

Sounds good. Sounds horrifying! Was she supposed to still be polite even though mayonnaise and blue cheese have no business being on the same piece of food together?!?!? Blech Alex had been a pudgey little thing growing up and during high school when she had started to learn how to cook, shed changed her diet and the diet of her family entirely. But hell, even before then, she had thought mayonnaise was gross and had never really cared for bacon. Hmmwell for fun I like to hike, swim, maybe go out with my friends and do whatever. But when I want to relax, I guess I turn into sort of a shut in Alex liked to have fun, go out and party or be outdoorsy, but a lot of times she just liked to stay at home and play video games or settle down with a book or a movie. I rent some studio space in a building downtown so if I wasnt with you Id probably be out there. Alex smiled as she thought about one of the first times she had brought Elle down to the studio. One of her neighbors had seen them and offered to let them use his studio to throw some ceramic pots because, for whatever reason, everyone thinks throwing is like that scene from the movie Ghost . When, in reality, its more like clay and frustration everywhere. It had been a pretty fun date, even though it had ended up with Alex and Elle getting clay all over each other like two kids. Alex still had that little vase Elle had thrown, even though it was lumpy and looked like a 5th grader made it, she kept it, call her sentimental but she enjoyed the reminder from one of their first dates. Its pretty neatmy neighbors let me borrow their equipment sometimes. If painting isnt your thing, maybe we could mess around with the ceramics if you like me enough for a second date. The chit chat between them was the usual that people went through on dates. Alex told her about growing up in the Adirondacks of northern New York and getting into a sort of outdoorsy lifestyle out there. Then how she had traded freezing cold mountains for sandy beaches by moving to the much nicer and warmer state of California to get her M.F.A. in painting at the California Institute of the Arts. And then she had just sort of settled down here In reality Alex had been planning on moving to Pennsylvania after she had graduated, to be a part of the growing art scene out there and be closer to her family but after meeting Elle and falling in love with her, she had decided to stay in California. Alex asked a bunch of questions to Elle in turn, even though she knew the answers to them, she wanted to keep playing the role of new girlfriend. She asked Elle about her family, her friends, her hobbies, anything she could think of in order to pass the time in the car. It was a nice indulgencea good game of pretend. But still, her heart ached. It was evident that Alex was still lost somewhere in her own head even as she carried on polite conversation. She danced around the question of Elles profession as though she wasnt ready to hear the words yetmaybe later, after a little bit of food in her stomach shed be brave enough to ask.