Thread: Emoetry

Apathetic Synthetic Just so you all know I'm having quite a rough time right now. I'm about to flash, again. I wrote this poem in hope that my words would be understood. I wrote this poem as I listened to BfmV's album The Poison. The numbers at each passage are the tracks I wrote them to. If you want the full effect of this poem, do listen to the album with the music blaring right next to you. Darkness has risen and his name is Shadow. 2 I wait wait wearily for the day that you take me back. I was a fool. I realize that, but does that mean that I have no feelings. When I walk down the street and see couples holding hands and cuddling. It hurts, but it hurts to see you in the arms of another man. All I can do is sit here and suffer.... Apathetic.....My heart itself Synthetic. 2,3 I walk this path broken and lost, others come up to me and bid me to follow them, it doesn't feel right. So I flee, back into the darkness where I first met you, your radiance showing the way through the maze-like forest of concrete walls. I find myself in that dark hollow once again near that point of breaking. How can I find someone else when you hold my heart in your hands. If you drop it, the beating flesh will decay and rot. I gave it to you, yet you sit there Apathetic.... the heart you keep safe, you think Synthetic. 3I promised you one day I would come back a bigger man. The man you fell in love with all those years ago. It's a long time ago. You can't just sit there and pretend that none of it happened. To cast me into the wings like I'm one of your friends. I won't sit here Apathetic, MY HEART ISN'T SYNTHETIC!!!! 4Why don't you believe me when I say I'm sorry. It's not like I cheated or made you turn your back on family and friends. It's not like I lied when I said I loved you. You were my world..... Hell you still are my world, but what does it matter. I sit here in solitude hoping that you will once again wander the darkness, trying to save the soul that lies here forgotten in the deepest depths of the Abyss. I won't lie here on the floor apathetic. My love isn't synthetic. 4,5 What can I do to make you understand. I'm crazy when I am without you. I'm falling deeper into this darker delireum. Looking for a savior, a cure. Yet you continue to turn away. If only you knew the thoughts that ran through my mind. If you knew what my heart is telling me. It's not like I'm a lifeless mannequin. It's not that I'm feeling apathetic..... I am not synthetic. 5If you poke me I bleed. If you break my heart I cry. If you ignore me I wander off. I am a living being, and it feels as if I don't have a say in anything anymore. I can't control my emotions. Hell I can't even control the fact that you are everything I hold dear. You are my earth my sun and my moon. Without you I am just floating here in the void. Nothing to do, perhaps I am apathetic in the least, my soul is beginning to feel synthetic. 9 I sit here waiting for the end to come. I'm losing faith in everything. All my friends, and family. Transient..... Useless. Why do I even bother? Everything ends, sooner or later. I'm losing faith that you'll return to me. Why must it always end up being like this. Time after time. As cycles pass and Summerland lay just beyond my reach, I know that this might have been my only shot, So I sit here and watch as you lay there apathetic, my will Synthetic 5Last Entry.... I can't take it anymore. My heart and soul are gone. In this blanket of deepest despair I wrap myself in. I have grown about as cold and lifeless as those I mourn. If they were here now perhaps they would give me the answers I seek. I can't make heads or tails of anything anymore, so what makes you think I know which way to go? What to do. I sit here wating away my life fading before my eyes, longing for the warmth that you once brought into my life. Longing for the love that you had once enveloped me in to keep away the despair. My mind my body Apathetic, my heart now synthetic.