Thread: Single Parents. x3 (PunkxZero!)

Anthony grinned, there was nothing quite so calming and relaxing as having a precious infant fall asleep on his chest. Wrapping a gentle arm around his son, his other gingerly pet the feather-soft hair on his head. He dipped his head to plant a kiss on it, and smell him. His heart was over flowing with joy at the moment, he couldn't believe this baby was partially his. Smiling, he watched Dai standing there with a blanket. Dai was amazing too, so strong, but so soft and willing to make someone else happy. He couldn't believe he did all of this alone, well he could, but what he meant was that it was amazing, and knew that it was something that he was incapable of. He gave up his son, and waited for Dai to come back. Upon hearing his lover's words, Anthony immediately leaned forward, sitting with his head in his hands, Oh Gpd, Dai. What are you talking about? He was so humiliated, how could Dai be the first to apologize? Because he was Dai, supernatural and beyond average in all aspects. It killed him, and he knew, ever since he'd met the dark haired angel that this is what people really meant by 'killing with kindness'. Dai and his mother did it to him, all the time. They were so good and kind and right, they made him feel like shit, like the worst scum on earth, like he was lower then low. How could anyone compete with someone like them? Or stand beside them, and not feel inadequate? But they weren't looking for competition, and definitely didn't mean to make anyone feel like shit, that's just they way they were, and they were blessing to those who could love them and try for them. If anyone felt like less then worthy it was their fault, and they must've been doing something wrong to feel guilty or ashamed to be around them because if they were right, by all means, they would feel nothing but loved. Sitting with his hands in his head, he shook it slightly and sighed. Don't apologize. He lifted his head to look at Dai in his face - in those gorgeous green eyes, Look,... It was so hard because he felt so ashamed of it, and he had never been good at admitting he was wrong. Slightly frustrated, he stood and walked over to Dai. Standing at six three, Anthony towered over Dai, and although his head only reached up to Anthony's chest, he could still easily smell that sweet scent he was so familiar and in love with. He had stood for a reason, but now being so close felt like he could suffocate, he had to touch him, it had been so long and hard without him. Wanting to pull the other's body to and against his, he extended a somewhat shaky hand to take Dai's, but only took it gently and led him back to the couch to sit with him. Dai I... You know me, more then anyone, I know, so... I'm not asking for you to forgive me, I'm just saying, you know how hard it is for me to say sorry, which is why was so stupid, and I didn't before...but I regret not doing it everyday because... He shook his head, then looked at the other in the face, Because I...He sighed, I love you Dai, I'm still in love with you, and I'm not asking for you to love me back, or fall in love with me. I'm just saying, He turned his face away, and covered his eyes with his other hand, Saying that I do, and that I love the baby, I'm so in love with the baby. He choked up, he was so full of regret for missing him grow and develop in his first precious months. He's an amazing, beautiful boy. He brought Dai's hand to his face and opened his palm against it so he could feel it's familiarity, then brought it to his lips to place a very soft, but thorough kiss in it's palm. I'm sorry babe, Dai. ... I didn't mean...well... I mean I was such an idiot! And I'm so sorry for putting you through everything I did, because I was too stupid and selfish and afraid. He shook his head and kissed Dai's palm again. Oh, how he wished he could rewind time.I'm so sorry, and I don't want you to feel sorry or responsible for any of it. It was my fault, Dai, not yours.