Thread: The Darker Side of Life (LadyYunaFFX2 & littlerooster's 1x1)

Ethan had managed somehow to get home, his eyes were streaming with tears as he negotiated the busy highway that led to his home on the outer suburbs of town. He had been at work and his online love Laura had just dumped him, it was long distance and they had never met, this didn't make it any less real for Ethan, to Ethan it was as real as any love he ever had, of course he had only ever had one real girlfriend, she cheated on him after 2 weeks, it took him a lot to open up to a woman and when she cheated he retreated right back inside his mind where he dwelled quite happily. Ethan had grown up with rather peculiar over protective parents, over protective in the sense that they protected him from the outside world but not themselves. They were abusive in their own way and he never really did develop that social instinct that most of us seem to have. Sure, he could function well enough but in terms of getting close and developing relationships, well it just wasn't going to happen for Ethan the way it did for anyone else. He would watch others while he was growing up and just be astounded at how fluid they made it all appear, he couldn't do that, even when he would try and be like them, there was always some block, some wall that prevented him from really connecting, he forever felt like an outsider. His teachers and relatives would tell him to just be yourself, the trouble was, he was being himself when he was quiet and insular and no one seemed to like that. He felt it could only be that he was different in some way, so alone at home he started to lift weights, makeshift ones at first, bricks and whatnot, but as he got older he started using real ones and became quite strong muscular. This attracted women of course but his insular nature prevented him from having great success, he seemed to like keeping that wall up, of course there was good reason for that, having been beaten as a child for talking and emotionally abused for showing emotions he was in permanent lock down mode. He did crave company though albeit at a distance and having spent so much time alone reading books and dreaming he was quite good at creating personas and stories to go with them. He wasn't very ethical at first, he would join online dating sites, he loved the story of Cyrano De Bergarac, the man who felt different due to his nose so he had a better look man recite poetry to his the woman he loved in the hopes that she would see him somehow as more than a man with a big nose but rather as one who could create great romance. So he joined these sites and posted fake photos, now Ethan was a good looking guy, but the fake photos further helped to insulate him and as he chatted to these women he could be braver, if they rejected him, it wasn't really him, it was this fake persona, he liked the power this gave him, the protection it afforded him. The problem was it never lasted long, sooner or later these women wanted to meet and he was never able to without revealing his lie, well, a couple of times he was honest with them and they, despite admitting they had great chats with him still rejected him because he didn't appeal to their tastes in appearance or something. Seriously! What these women want???!! Laura was different though, he started with a lie to her as well, but he felt a real connection with her and yes, she was in another country and yes they may never meet but that was hardly the point, and yet it was the whole point, he liked the connection at a distance feeling, the way they could chat so freely and openly. He came clean to her after a couple of weeks and she forgave him, she got him and they were an online couple for 2 years, but then even she grew impatient, she wanted physicality, she wanted sex and to hold him and to be held and she had ended it. For a couple of weeks Ethan moped about, surfing the net, looking at porn and then he stumbled on it, Online Role Play! The more he read the more intrigued he became, like these people wanted him to lie! They wanted him to create alternate personas! That was the whole point! He signed up, not knowing what to expect. So, you place a request thread, sure he could do that. Looking for PsychologicallyRole Plays, any topic considered. PM me to chat He didn't know what else to write and he wanted to keep it open, he looked about the site and noticed a thread also from a newbie, Shania, she looked nervous, Ethan had a funny way of detecting people's feelings via the net, he did it better through a screen than he did in reality. He sent her a PM, Hi Shania, I'm new here too! Would love to chat with you about doing a RP! Let me know! That would do, it's a start anyway he thought and he went off to do some weights and hoped for the best.