Thread: A Niche in Time

Hold your tongue Pazzo. A rp on hold, the one I mentioned above, has messaged me as he has made a post. Yay! So I have another rp to answer to. When I say I'm addicted, I seriously mean it. My rps can keep me up at night as I lay in my bed. There have been times where I have honestly gotten very angry with a partner after reading a post from them because my connection with my characters is so strong. If my character is in a certain situation, it can bother me, but yet, and this is what confuses me, certain other partners can say or do things and it doesn't bother me. I don't think it's just character connection. I think it's my partner as well. We Meet Again involves a lot of seriously messed up things happening to my character, Tessa. I read Adam's posts, and I am seriously rocked to the core at times. Still it's the shock value, the adrenaline rush I get that I'm so addicted to with that rp. No I don't get off on having my character violated with a toilet brush, but my heart racing as I felt the fear my character did, that's another story. It still wasn't an arousal but more along the lines of feeling alive. In Summer With Daddy, rped in PM, that same character was bound by her wrists and tied to a ceiling beam while her father watched, stroking himself through his jeans as his friend took advantage of her. My partner was literally in the doghouse on that one. I was so angry at how he was treating her, what he was doing, and his character's lack of involvement in the scene to help my character. I have to thank my partner. He toughed it out, and the rp has continued. We are nearing our one year anniversary on that rp this month. Yet if my character is in a sexual scene, I can feel aroused as well. A certain touch, the right words, and yeah I feel it. I'm so addicted because of the drama as well as the sexual nature of my rps. Sex is good. Sex is great! Who am I kidding, but it's not all there is. I like a rp where I have a chance to express my characters thoughts. We Meet Again offers that. There have been times where Tessa's thoughts were a large part of what I could convey. Certain rps are more intense. We Meet Again, certainly intense. Forbidden. Certainly intense. The Mages. Not so much. The Princess and Her Slave. A sweet, dramatic release. Unearthly Lust, an escape. The Farmslave. Intense, but in a tender way. Each one of my rps offers something so different, and in as diverse as they are, so are my partners. I know from Adam I'm going to a post that leaves me shocked. With Tyr I'm going to be wet or angry. lol. With Warmhartman, The Farmslave, I'm going to be glued to my screen literally feeling every touch, every emotion my character feels as he is a skilled artist at painting a vivid picture. I could go on and on with my rps and my partners. I truly do think I have the best that BMR has to offer with my partners. A very talented groups of guys that I am honored to work with. Even those from my past. DarkRoleplay is forever missed. I do enjoy that occasional chat with him on YIM. I understand why we don't rp anymore, and out of respect for my partner I will not elaborate on why he and I do not rp. Jason, my very first partner, is also missed. I have no idea what happened with him. Literally. I will always owe him a debt of thanks though for being my first partner and working me to better my rping. Last, but certainly not least, is Mr. Quixotic. Though he and I do not rp anymore, we still chat. Our rp ended, as they sometimes do, and I'm not angry towards him. I understand his reasons. He is my second partner here at BMR, and I value our time we spent together working on our rp. He is a wonderful man. Partners, rps, they all come and go, but connections, friendships made here on BMR are something to be treasured. I do treasure that with my partners. They are all amazing, and whether they are current or past, they all have a special place in my heart. Even you Pazzo. You adopted one of my favorite rps, and I'm anxious to see where it goes. We still have so much to explore with that and to get to know about each other. I look forward to both. So I'm crawling back into bed to rest my head and put my rps to sleep for the night. Take care BMR. Sleep well, work hard, wherever you are in your day.