Thread: Lucifer's Angel [ Fieryangel and Terucin ]

The pirate captain raised an eyebrow once more at the maddeningly confusing creature before him though he help no concept of what she really was in all truth. All he knew is that she was as tireless as he was in this little dance that they had entered, and he hadn't had such fun in a very long time. The questions she asked, and the fashion in which she presented them and herself, was most likely intended to strike him to his very soul and who he was. However, here he thought he had an advantage. He had viewed his life over and over again several times and had reached a state of acceptance. He wasn't burdened by thoughts of why he was or if what he did was aligned one way or another, they simply were. He wasn't bothered by killing a person because it was just an act of taking a life, and if that was deemed cruel and evil, then it was simply so. If he chose to spare a village because he had no wish to visit it or destroy it, then it was an act of passing by and if that in turn was deemed good, then it simply was so for him. It was the truth that vastly more of his actions were deemed cruel and evil, so he had accepted this as a simple fact, and in turn referred to himself as evil as that was what he had been branded. This Annalie had no power over him because no past or future action of his would phase hm, cause him to wonder at what he was or who he was. Should she bring up the death of his sister, he would view it just as much a part of his life as if she tried to scold him from killing a man in front of her. It was just another fact of his life, good or bad. He didn't feel remorse at the death or harm of others, just as he had been shown none as a kid. However, he also felt no pleasure from it, so he did not revel in the memories and actions that brought ill onto others.He would let her have her piece, say her part, examine his life and actions and motivations with a fine tooth comb as often as she wished, but he didn't believe that that it would make a single wit of a difference, for either of them. And when she had finally exhausted all her weapons and abilities upon him, had given up on him, he would know that he had won. He was damned anyway, so things could only improve from here, or stay the same. With a steady hand, Sverdar firmly, but not harshly, gripped Annalie's hand with the barest traces of a grin at the very edges of his lips. Agreed. Should you win, you are free to do as you please, go where you will. Should I win, I do with you as I please. After that, he sat back once more, taking another drink from his flask, examining the female in front of him. Now, I believe that I have not introduced myself properly. My name is Sverdar Al'Verth, but I get the feeling that you seem to know me rather well for being a stranger to me. Despite all of that, you seem to misunderstand my motivations. Yes, I have felt a loss in my life, it is true. From my sister to many ideals and an innocence I once held. However what I do is not to spread any ideology, or to inflict pain upon others in retribution for my life, as that isn't how I work. I am not afraid of being hurt anymore because there are none who will grow close to me. Perhaps my actions leading up to this point are to do just that so as to prevent the pain, but that takes many years of cultivation that I just do not care to try and tend to. Instead I am who I am, and have come to realize that no one will like me for who I am. Rather than change, I have merely accepted this fact and kept moving on in my life. That is all. I do not hold others accountable for my actions or what has happened to me before. If I harm, it is not because I was harmed, or to keep myself from being harmed. It is simply because harming one in front of me is the easiest solution available to me in most situations. I could just ask for handouts, but then I rely on the charity of others rather than myself, and that is not something I can afford. There are many good people out there, but not as many as you might think. I am also not one to lend a hand to others so that we might mutually survive and prosper, so settling down in a town won't help either. If I need a drink, I could ask for one. But some form of compensation is often needing, from monetary compensation to work offered for the drink or many other forms. Very very rare is it that one could live their life just from asking others to feed and clothe them. Instead, I would need to get a job to provide for myself in a form, whether from what I craft or in the form of being paid with the coin. Well then I need to do so much more in order to get this drink that I desire, and it takes a lot of time and effort. Instead, if I simply take from the person with the drink I desire or kill them to take it, then I have the drink far easier, and can continue on to what I next want or desire. I wanted a ship so I took one. I wanted a crew, so I found men to crew my ship with. That is all. Very evil, very bad, but it is often the simplest path, and I am but a simple in life, a slight shrug punctuated his words as he took another drink. Oh, and I was not lecturing you before about good and evil. I was merely answering a question you asked, of why good people bear the responsibility of my actions, and how it wasn't greedy. If this wager of our is to work, you can't go around berating me for answering a question that you pose.