Thread: Why RP partners are so UNRELIABLE (a friendly rant about myself)

Great thread topic...I have to say I like where this is going and the things that have been brought up--AWARENESS! I like to think that despite some of my quirks--and I have many--that I'm fairly decent at communicating. Sure, I can get overwhelmed by things, but those who know me, know this and know that if I do go silent for a spell it's pretty much a result of stress and overwhelm and it will be short lived. I need to process, go through my steps and I WILL come back to you. Occasionally, I'll need nudges polite ones, but again...those who take the time to know me know this ahead of time. I tell them all up front so that these quirks don't blind side them. No, it's not flakiness or any kind of super secret. It has to do with other stuff. Stuff that's quite real and I speak about rather openly. Anyway, I do know what it's like to have people say you're unreliable in how you post. I've had people get upset that I don't post frequently enough or that I'll suddenly spend more time on another story as opposed to their own. I've had people set ultimatums on me post by this day or the RP is done. Thing is, with the way I function, process, etc. All of these passive aggressive behaviors cause one of two things with me--I either shut down or melt down. And sometimes I'll melt before going into shut down. And I'll tell you what...I HATE that. It exhausts me entirely and the reality of the matter is that causing me that will throw me off for days. Yes, days. Sometimes as long as a week. Now, some of you might be shaking your head going....is she for real? Why yes. Yes, I am. I am hardly exaggerating here. I wish that I truly was. But it's the truth of the matter. I get someone pestering me, bullying me, just whatever and then throw in a real life stressor...could be that a lot is going on that day with my family or that a lot is going on with my admin duties or that I've got multiple replies I'm mulling over...maybe my muse is really hot on one story, dying for me to write something for IT before I do elsewhere...shit happens, sorry...it is NOT personal and contrary to what my writing partners might think, I LOVE all my RPs...I wouldn't be involved in them if I didn't...hurr durr and my brain sort of switches off. It's like an overload. I'll feel like every fiber of my body is being shredded, torn in multiple directions while I'm being suffocated alive. I'll get agitated, emotionally distraught to the point I break down and cry. You think I joke? Ummm...no. I do not. Welcome to the autistic brain, people. Anyway, I could go on and on. But, point is this...if I say I'm enjoying the RP...I am. If I don't tell you I want to end it...I don't. My posting schedule can be erratic. I say this to all my writing partners straight off. I think some of them think that they'll be that special snowflake that will break through the barrier that is my brain. But guess what...no, you won't. My brain functions how it functions. No one is that special. I write how and when I write. It does not care who you are. shrugs The main thing to remember is that I love all my stories dearly. I value all my co-writers. If they cannot trust that........ Not my problem.