Thread: Sexual Star, Amateur at Love (Javorcek X ClearSight)

Why do people always say that? 'Calm down'. Like reminding her that she is having a meltdown is going to make her any more calm. Elle wasn't helping her remain calm anyways not when she was talking about faking orgasms at least. The few climaxes that Alex had seen in videos had looked so real! And now Alex was afraid she was a bumbling nitwit that had never made her girlfriend orgasm once in their entire relationship. GahElle is too good of a liar Alex swiped at her tears and sniffled, willing her emotions to knock it the fuck off. It was a lottoo muchand she just wanted to go. Where? She didn't know, but anywhere would be better than here as long as all this emotional rollercoaster wasn't happening. From the lowest low, Elle was bringing her up to her highest high. She couldn't help but smile slightly as she remembered the memory that Elle was talking about. Though she remembered it from her own viewpoint of a terrified young artist hitting on a girl that was way out of her league. A programmer with the face and body of a model? Though it hadn't been Elle's body that had attracted Alex initiallyit had been her eyes. Those eyes that were so light that Alex kept glancing at Elle over and over again from across the bar to try to figure out what color they were. It had been nerve wracking to approach her just to find out Elle looked like the girl next door and Alex looked like the hoodlum getting arresting for breaking into the girl next door's house. But Elle had laughed at her dumb jokes, had smiled at her silly pick up lines, and had let Alex get her number for a real date later on. Don't say that shit about yourself! Alex snapped, suddenly looking very serious. Part of it was her inner teacher talkingthe part that did not approve of self doubt of self destruction. But most of it was her not wanting Elle to think that Alex thought she was disgusting or a used piece of meat. You are none of those things Elle You are wonderful You're so sweet and kind, patient and thoughtful But you don't know what I would have been like if you had told me the truth. Hell, I don't even know I probably would have thought it was hot or that you were pulling my leg. But it would have been better to know in the beginning than to get fucking blindsided by it now! Alex's anger was a little dulled by Elle being so very sweet. She hadn't known that she had made such an impact on her lover's life, but all the tender things her lover told her got her at least to stop yelling for a moment. in my experiencegirls cheat because I stop paying attention to them. I justget sidetracked with other stuff and forget that I'm in a relationship. So Alex had instilled 'date night' in their relationship. Every Saturday they'd go somewhere or do something. Alex could be a real dork about it too, actually asking Elle out and then telling her she'd pick her up at whatever time, even though the pair of them lived together. So she thought she'd been doing really good! But I don't get it I don't get why you do this stuff if I've been a decent girlfriend. And your parents know? Now Alex was -really- confused. Just sit down, please? You stubborn ass The insult was said in the same tone as an endearment. Alex stepped forward and very slowly wrapped her arms around her lover to help hold her up and pull her away from the wall. The doctor said you had to take it easyand we can fight some more on the couchyou can even handcuff me to it if you think I'm going to run out. Alex was only half teasing, because she was pretty sure she had a pair of old leather cuffs sitting in her secret suitcase of bondage gear. Alright, so they both had their secrets, but at least Alex hadn't slept with anyone else.