Thread: St. Marriott's (ClearSight & SomethingEsoteric)

Heidi winced at the word bitches , even though she may have been inclined to agree and even though it was them who had made an attempt at slighting Heidi in this mood with her best thinking and actions she wouldnt call them bitches, she wouldnt call them anything, just girls girls trying to get a rise, misguided and probably beyond the veil they were upset and hurt and guilty and more self-conscious than Heidi that was what it was with Tamera at least, she knew that, while it hurt just the same when her old best friend did what she did and said what she said she knew that at the end of it all when the smoke cleared and they walked out of this building, reminded life did not end at these four walls she would be able to walk the high road with her head just the same and those girls who hurt her and those girls who enjoyed hurting others well, she didnt know what was in store for them but she could only imagine life wouldnt be quite as kind when there werent spades of victims walking around for them to sink their teeth into. She hoped Sera would be okay, she hoped Tamera would be okay, she hoped they all would but that wasnt a crippling hope, that was a genuinely moral hope to have and something not selfish or self-serving enough for Heidi to be crippled by, she wouldnt lose sleep if most of them died in a fire, she wouldnt even know really. -she may obsess and be crippled by the guilt of wishing death on someone if it was more than subconscious speculation. While she didnt subscribe herself to slighting the girls who slighted her she agreed with the rest, that may have been part of why she was standing where she was. Kat didnt exactly have the most inviting sort of air to her between the tattoos and piercings but Heidi didnt much care what images and generalizations told her to look out for. She saw something more than ink and steel on a pretty face when she saw Kat and she didnt even know her yet, from what shed known so far she could see more and more and it made her beam. Thanks. She replied gingerly with a nod of her head, not to either piece in particular, she was both thankful for her not believing everything she heard and thankful for the advice she didnt necessarily intend to take, didnt necessarily need to take since she already had her own way of dealing with the bitches . And thanks also. She added just to be sure the clear air remained that way. Heidi listened intently to her dates thoughts on what they could do and smiled wistfully, she could already taste the caramel on the tip of her tongue she loved sweets of all variety, loved coffee flavoured sweets especially even if after one too many she could find herself in very scattered places the taste was far too desirable for her to consider the consiquences any less than entirely worth it. still though, intimate as a coffee date could be it wouldnt do her much good in the conquest she was on, friends went on coffee dates, friends went for food together, did friends take long walks through peaceful thickets? not that she could think of, maybe jogs or runs but not walks with the attachment of date upon the name. It seemed like her best chance for something more than just a nice time, not that she would be any less than thrilled if by the end of tonight, because she decided tonight was the night several steps back, the time together could be considered nice. Ill show you through the greens then. the greens being a common slang term for the web-work of paths that surrounded the school almost on all sides save where the road cut through toward the entrance of the grounds and one service road that cut through the property on the back intercepted the otherwise sprawling maze. There would be no fifteen minutes of silence to crop whatever they could weave together. I do have a question for you Heidi, Heidi paused, it seemed too sudden and strong to just be a passing thought or wave of her hand usually the tone and structure was a preamble for something close to serious and the second statement of how flattered she was-was even more damning. Heidi knew a thing or two about a thing or two and one of those things she knew was that prefixes of that nature usually betrayed themselves, I dont mean to be rude, but, excuse me while I be rude. I dont mean to pry, but, excuse me while I invade your personal headspace. I dont mean any disrespect, but, and the list of fun just kept rolling through the back of her mind as her expression turned slightly with worry, eyebrows curling upward, tongue gliding along the back of her clenched teeth and pursed lips while she waited whatever followed her honest flattery . shed braced for impact, only to smile slightly when it was rather soft. I believe you. She warbled in her morning-jay way before taking on a bit of a bashfully esoteric expression. Well, like she was preparing a list worth a readying breath she begun as such, first off, youre really very pretty which I definitely like in women? right? also, youre free. like I think so, maybe you care a lot or something but like I feel like you maybe dont, cause of the tattoos n piercings like whats important to you is more important that what is important to other people for you. youre your own. These of course speculations and ones she presented as such with her tone she didnt want to say these things like they were facts but rather her ideas of Kat. While she spoke she seemed to wander off course, her voice dipping in and out and her eyes drifting to the side, squinting, then shooting back to Kat to grin, she was so excitable, so distractible, so darn scattered but all the same she seemed to at least have her chaos somewhat organized and clear knowledge of what she wanted and how Kat fit into that set of wants at a glance Youre tall, she looked up and then raised her hand a bit toward her own head, gesturing to each of their heights playfully, she liked women taller than her, they werent hard to find of course but the feeling of being wrapped in a hug by someone who could just as easily toss her being encompassed , it felt nice and reassuring to Heidi. I like tall. but like I guess thats mostly just the superficial kinda stuff? because of course, there was more and Heidi didnt stop at superficial, if she just wanted any girl on looks and looks alone hexes, potions and charms could provide. I guess that I like, saw you a bunch of times? in the hall, cause we go to the same school and while there are a lot of us it really is a little world. and like yer kinda well, neither of us are the prize pick or a part of in air quotes before a little gesture toward the direction their mutual teasing had come from, -but like even though nobody is with you and nobody was bending over to talk to you or console you or I yjus you were smiling sometimes. Strong smile. Not a big smile, but a smile that was strong and brave and and Im not the bravest and Im not always the biggest and I just I want that in my life. so I thought I should try to be brave too. a little giggle and Heidi rolled her eyes, she was more brave than she gave herself credit for. -and maybe someone told me they thought you were gay and I should get my hands on you before someone else did. Her last statement taking on a slightly rueful sort of amusement without the proper inflection like she was telling the punch line of a joke before the rest had left her lips. I just thought that maybe we could be good together, if not, at least friends after? not to mention, the blood pact and the fact Heidi thought maybe Kat could be coaxed in with the same promises her and Sera received a stop to the hurt silly as it was she was sure without a reasonable doubt this time she could do it differently, either Kat would be different than Sera after a taste of power or Sera could be different once her power was taken away, whatever the case Heidi wasnt ready to start visualizing anything but success. I dont need to know why you agreed, Im pretty fucking excited you did though! the swear slipping out rather organically, just as organically as joy seemed to from the little manic pixie named Heidi Alvernah Pryzbylewski with that, back on their trek for the dorms and fresh clothes she went if Kat was not disagreeable to it. Then she paused, and nearly asked what she meant by a girl like herself and her mind backtracked further, a proper date, not what she expected, and and Heidi looked up with a bit of a perplexed, threatened little scrunch of her face -I think that maybe Im just lucky then. Her self-manipulation to spare her own feelings on all fronts for both their sakes. Every girl wants to get asked on a proper date, right? would be the closest thing to an explanation shed offer up for once. Maybe even by girls like myself. Women didnt act like Sera was on a whim, Tamera never had Sera and Tamera were similar in nature externally and Tamera knew that what was inside she had no idea. Tamera inside, beneath it all, as much as she fought tooth and nail to hide it knew she wasnt the girl she wanted to be, knew shed never get to be and eventually shed have to return back to the inglorious life she led back home, shed have to work hard and live hard and probably never get to be anything nearly as glamorous as she felt at St. Marriotts or as glamorous as the illusion of herself she created did that is. The Sera shed seen three years ago seemed less than this, the Sera standing before her however seemed without a single fault in her dangerously burred armour of shark-like grins and narrowed eyes, it would be impossible to claim honestly that she didnt feel immensely threatened, it even found its way on her face, a small twitch and a slightly bigger wince could be seen as she backed toward the lockers as if she thought a touch would be a singe she was after all a moth to flame when it came to power and it had become no secret as of late that Sera was about as powerful as university girls came. Her eyes flashed sideways to the arm now barring any escape she could have imagined olive cheeks taking a slightly ros hint to them as she let the breath vibrate her lips and shrink her otherwise ample chest. Each word felt like a stroke before a knife could be slipped into her back, she knew, Sera knew, Sera knew everything , why else would she speak like she had a royal flush close to her chest? that was what this was wasnt it? It had to be, Sera intended to finally flush her from her position in the running for Queen of St. Marriotts if there was such a thing. When the final push of her breath had escaped she felt Seras roll right back to replace it, tickle her flesh slightly tease it . It was impossible to deny both her power and her beauty and she wouldnt go comparing it to a rose with thorns Sera was more like a razorblade to the mentally unstable. She knew what else explanation was there? but she didnt intend to just blurt it. Why would she put on this show? Why would she try and make her squirm? Why would she play with her food first if she intended to gobble up her social life in one satisfying chomp? she wouldnt she was going to dangle it over her head and make her dance. How did Tamera know? because thats exactly what she herself would do if she had the desire and opportunity to truly cripple someone she felt deserving of it. With all her might she fought to put back up her otherwise impenetrable faade, smooth over the wrinkles in her veneer but even though she put on a slightly standoffish glare her nose was still wrinkled with worry and her lips were pursed anxiously really if anything, she looked like someone might when bracing themselves to dive into a dumpster and maybe felt that way also because this was sure to get putrid long before it got much of anything else. There wasnt much you could hurt Tamera with, her sexuality and her home life, her financials or lack thereof, her friends these were the collective lynchpins that could destroy her world and if any one of them were exposed to facts of the other surely they would all dissolve just as quickly as the last Heidi had the knowledge that could pull one and in turn all of them from place and that little fucking bitch had passed it on, she was sure of it. Instinctually she tried to see all angles, tried to find a way out, tried to decide just what she could do to cull this back down to manageable if not to blow it over all together it was sure to come to her eventually but for now all she could do was knot her stomach with distress and try to keep it off her face an uphill battle she was stumbling backwards through. She wouldnt be taking Sera with her to see any friends, that was danger too great to risk, she could dance around one lie here and a handfull there but too many too fast all at once was too damn dangerous and shed fought furiously to get herself here and god dammit nobody was going to take this from her! her face suddenly took on the strength shed been missing. Fuck this. Nobody could fuck with her, not Sera, not her friends, not her parents, not the head-mistress, this was her life and her choices and her show and it would go on regardless of what the bitch in front of her thought. Yeah, shed go up to her dorm, shed hear her out, shed let her think shed won maybe and then shed crush her, just like Sera was preparing to do to her. She was Tamera Ashley Ceghan and nobody fucked with her. Yeah, whatever Ill see you in a bit Sera. She huffed back, unimpressed and undeterred the insanity of her delusional self-confidence in full swing. This was nothing, Sera was nothing, no need to worry even if she did know something about anything shed tried to hide who the hell was going to believe her? Nobody, thats who. She truly believed those girls she thought were her friends would have her back, would trust her word, would stand by her side through whatever then she remembered last spring when Jessie Grassker, the old leader of their pack of bitches was found sucking off one of the janitors in the utility closet and her and the others practically burned her at the steak in front of the school was she really any better than Jessie? fuck. -she didnt know what to think, how to think it, how to twist this to her favour and blind denial alone wasnt enough to kill her paranoia and anxiety for long at a time. All she could do was absently go through the motions of texting her friends, dropping her things off at her room, checking facebook, emails and knocking out a schedule for the weekend before her legs carried her three flights up and across a hall for whatever it was Sera was to demand of her hear me out, she didnt have much choice in the matter now did she? Denying me could just as easily set your fragile little world on fire, shed felt heat without ignition since those words started knocking around her head.