Thread: Beautiful Disaster [[Writer & AshlinnRose]]

There was nothing in the world at all that she possibly could have hated more, in that moment, than her sudden and incredible lack of confidence. Never had she allowed herself to be vulnerable, or weak, or scared, or anything really indicative of what she was truly going through, and now... Now... Well. This was different, a lot different really, because this was Ash, someone who had managed to slip through every single defense wall and barrier with minimal effort, if any at all. And now, she found herself looking deep into those incredible, dark blue eyes, and her will-power was sinking to its knees, as was her subconscious. Ash had spoken, gently and reassuringly, with utmost care and affection, and her words absorbed slowly, being heavily considered and contemplated. Her lips parted just slightly as Jai prepared to attempt to respond, and at the same time Ash's exploring fingers traced over one of the scars on her back. Her vision went black, eyelids fluttering closed as a shiver made its way up and down her spine, having never had anyone, even herself, pay such careful and affectionate attention toward her scars in her life, and suddenly her lips found occupation, sealing off her ability to both think and respond. It was a soft kiss, light, gentle, and it ended far faster than Jai would have imagined, because it had felt like there was a burning desire behind the action, like there was something that the other woman was holding back from her, and Jai found herself frowning just slightly as opened her eyes once more and allowed her head to tilt to the right. Ash had one hand on her back, and way her fingers continued to caress and trace over her skin had Jai biting back on small noise of content, swallowing hard instead as she searched the woman's gaze in the dark room. Trust... The word repeated into her mind in a soft whisper, and Jaime tucked her lower lip between her teeth for what had to have been the tenth time that night, heavy contemplation going on in her mind for what felt like centuries, but was only about a minute or so as she thought in complete silence. Trust. A soft sigh left her lips, and slowly, Jaime nodded in reply as she leaned back and removed her left hand from Ash's shoulder, reaching her arm out to find a lamp on a small table that sat beside the arm of the couch. Her fingers slid over the cool metal base of the object until finding the switch and giving it a firm 'click'. Light flooded over the area they were occupying, the sudden brightness causing Jai to squeeze her eyes shut. Holysh- She breathed as she removed her other hand from Ash's shoulder and ducked her head. A slow, deep breath entered her lungs through her lips, and Jai reached up behind her neck to tug one of the straps of the halter she was wearing, allowing it to untie and slip from her skin, the top pooling at her hips. A strapless, black, push-up bra was all that was left covering her upper body, though it was clear in the newly shed light that it didn't shield any of the laceration scars that marred her skin. One was just below her rib-cage on the right side, another near her diaphragm, one on the lower, left-half of her toned, slim abdomen, and a final just below the base of her left breast. It was that one in particular she was most sensitive about, and with her gaze diverted from Ash's, she found herself observing it with a shiver. He missed... She found herself admitting softly as she slowly looked up to meet Ash's eyes over the lids of her own. My heart... by a quarter inch.