Thread: Flames and Lies (Kaname Takashi & BloodandChocolate)

I love you. Genesis hated seeing Zane cry. The pureblood had shed so many tears over his young life that the changeling never wanted him to have to do it again. He understood the younger males fears, but fear and doubt couldnt rule them. Those things made people miss out on the important things in life. But you forget, I cant recall my parents. Times were different than they are today and they lived so long ago I cant even remember what they looked like. I dont remember how my mother sounded or if my father ever raised a hand to me in discipline. He laughed a bit, trying to recall anything from that time period. And Bruce, he kind came pre-programmed, you know how teenagers areWhat does that say about me? Will I be a terrible parent? He leaned back slightly, so he butt rested against the hard wood of the dining room table. Thats the thing, everyone thinks theyll have parenting down pat, that theyll know what to do once their little guy or girl comes along, but realistically no one has any fucking clue how theyll react. His hands travelled down to rest on Zanes shoulders, gently kneading the tense muscles there. Kids are a learning curve. No one knows what theyre doing. Genesis remained quiet for a minute, trying to see where this conversation should go. What if Im the one who yells? Or worsewhat if I put our kid in danger He swallowed thickly. The hunger is always there Zane, what if I slip? A child wont be like you were, healthy and strong The changeling could feel his eyes becoming wet, but swallowed again to recompose himself. Or the politics, what if someone wants to get rid of me so badly that they come after our kid? Lets be real, I pose a much greater danger to any childs safety than you do. It was true, Zane with his pureblood heritage and powerful family name, had many fewer enemies than Genesis. Im scared too. It wasnt easy to admit, the changeling had always had to be strong throughout his life. Hed always had to keep his true feelings pushed to the back so he could survive. But I want forever with you and I want you to experience everything. Living is the scariest thing in the world, but that shouldnt stop us from experiencing new things. Once more he took a deep breath. Mistakes will be made, thats inevitable, but well learn. I trust you, but you have to remember that having a family with me doesnt mean itll be you versus me or us versus the kid or any combination. No ones alone and well develop our own rhythm and system that suits our family. We'll be there to keep each other in check. A small laugh escaped the changeling as he imagined the possibilities. Maybe youll be the discipliner, maybe youll be the one he or she goes to to confide their secrets, maybe youll wanna change every diaper and kiss every cut. We dont know, because no one knows what the future holds. You have so little faith in yourself. I remember you at one point thought youd be nothing more than a drug pushing, party going, womanizer. You thought youd never escape from underneath your fathers thumb. You thought youd never be able to paint for a living, but look at you now. Youre monogamous, with a another man, Alarick is dead, and youve developed and run one of the most influential art galleries in the city. That was all you, now matter what you think about me, all of those things are your accomplishments fears you overcame. You wont know anything unless you take a chance. Genesis looked down and sighed. This was something that Zane would have to face and overcome himself. There was nothing the changeling would be able to do to help if Zane let those fears control him. Justthink about itplease? There was an edge of sadness to the question. Leaning down Genesis kissed the top of his lovers head softly and nuzzled his nose against the soft hair. With that he would let the topic drop, slowly moving out of Zanes grip and picking up his glass of wine. He sipped from it as he made his way to one of the windows, leaning against the frame with slightly rounded shoulders. The breeze rolling in was cool and the salty scent of the ocean was somewhat comforting.