Thread: And I'm supposed to be an adult?

Yes, pansexual, I'm in college, that means that I can safely experiment without my parents throwing a fit. Besides, I think my aunt is a lesbian but she refuses to admit it to herself and it old and sort of alone. The sort of is because she has a neighbor she is really close to and she helps raise her daughter. The neighbor is a single mother. Anyway's. Yay! Day two! Awful! Today started at 6am. I was up late last night talking to a friend of mine and I got to bed at 3am so I only had three hours of sleep. I wake up and I get dressed and ready and one of my three rings I wear as well as my watch was missing! I'm a creature of habit! I wear one necklace, always the same necklace, one pair of earings, recently changed but I'm consistently wearing the new ones three rings, always on the same fingers and a watch. I need to have them because I've got sort of a nervous tick where when I need to fidget I fidget with my jewelry. So I'm like flipping out because I'm going to be late and I can't find my things so then my mom starts yelling at me which is totally unfair! I realized rather recently how much I am like her and when I flip out it is exactly the way that she flips out and she yells at me for what I Do. And you know what happens when I point this out to her? She practically throws a temper tantrum! Do! We are not alike! Stop making excuses! When I was your age I was skinny! I had a job! I was productive! I had a boyfriend! I actually did things with my day! I had friends! and so on. Does she just sound like a wonderful person? One day I made the mistake of trying to explain basic psychology and how by acting the way she does I unconsciously learned to handle my emotions the way my mother the woman who raised me handled her emotions. And she flips and throws out lines like. Stop making excuses! Quit trying to blame me! I didn't teach you that! You control yourself! and I was like. Yes, I can change it but I've got you set as my default. then she throws a fit and turns on the music to end the conversation. Its really funny because she fumes for a while and when she has to blow off steam she will turn off the radio to make a comment then turn it back on after she is done. This usually happens about four times. So I get to class and find that my class is in the same building as my Heath class and even in the same hall. So I get there at the same time this cute guy was. He isn't cute by popular standards but I think he is cute. Something about the combination worked. He's got blonde hair, he's tall, lanky, tan. His nose is kind of big Think skinny jewish nose. and his face seems a bit concave but while I realize this doesn't sound like it I think he's attractive. Well, anyways, we stood outside the door looking in the window and saw the teacher in the class talking. So we looked at each other and wondered oiut loud what was going on. Sometimes I get there and the previous class hasn't let out yet so we were wondering of that was the case, then we checked out watches, I have a back up watch, it's got Tinkerbell on it - Real adult right dodgy and schedules and saw that class hadn't started yet so he was like. What do you do? and I told him. You go in and see what's up. and he responded with You want me to be the guinea pig? and I nodded enthusiastically. so he walks in and the teacher greats him, I hesitate in the doorway and he says. Yeah, I'm the guinea pig. and we both go in and sit with one chair between us. Wouldn't you notice this attractive girl sits in that seat! I was irritated . I mean, in high school I had a crush on this guy, we sat close to each other then this new girl came to class. She was beautiful, she had her hair straight and had really good taste in clothing. She was really nice. One day I left the class and cried in the bathroom because I was so frustrated and she came in to see if I was okay. I didn't even know her name. Well, anyways, as time went on I noticed her spending more and more time with the guy I liked until one day I saw them holding hands. Then this new girl that sat between us, also black, also attractive, though she wears her hair in long loose curls, comes and sits between us! The girl seems nice, in fact, I'm quite sure that she is. She has a visual impairment where she has to have every paper that the class gets handed in larger font. I've noticed people who have it harder tend to be nicer. We didn't talk much. The teacher was cool, a woman with three kids. The teacher had it hard going through college but not much interesting to say about her. I spoke to the girl behind me briefly a few times. She seems nice too. Status Day 2. No bitches. Anyways, when class ends I notice that my next class is in the same room. You'd think that would be cool but it means I have to sit for over two hours! I got up and got a snack. Miss Potential Boy Thief asked me where I got it and I directed her to the place, the teacher let her go because she was about to pass out without something to eat. Possible anorexic? She didn't seem skinny enough. So we get through the second class and I have never watched a clock closer! It is not that the teacher isn't nice it is that she reminds me of this girl I was friends with before she turned out to be a man stealing whore. No, that is not an insult, it is a fact. She enjoys sex with her boyfriends and does not care if she takes them form someone else. Last summer I got a call from her asking if she wanted to go on a trip to Disney with her, her boyfriend and his friends. You know, I knew this would be trouble, I really did, but I wanted to go to Disney. I should have listened to myself... Well, the trip was planned a month in advance. Lets play a game. I'm going to list everything that should have warned me before hand that this trip was going to end badly. Here is the first. Hint towards disaster 1 Her relationships usually last a week or two, sometimes they last longer if she is having sex with him. So when I go to meet them to set up the plans I notice that he is like a younger version of the last boy she tried to go out with. He turned her down. She had tried to steal him away while him and his girlfriend were having a fight. See? Not an insult, man stealing whore. So this guy she is dating is so much like the guy that turned her down I want to introduce them because I think they'd make good friends. That is really saying something considering the guy I'm comparing him to is an asshole and is hardly nice to anyone. Have you seen it yet? Hint towards disaster 2 The boy is way to much like the guy that turned her down. So I go there and the two of us share a room. Thank god this was before she started snoring. So Hint towards disaster 3 she was short with me the entire time we were alone together. But the parks were fun. Her boyfriend brought his two best friends. One of them was short and chunky and the other one was tall and cute. Naturally which one do I want to hang out with? But Hint towards disaster 4 every time I started to talk to one of the three guys she suddenly had something to say to them and would cut me off and get in between us. She seemed to be planning something Hint towards disaster 5 she kept trying to pair up me and her boyfriend ! Sure, under other circumstances I would have liked him but I am not a man stealing whore. It was awful! I mean, can you imagine you friend constantly choosing her boyfriend's best friend to pair with on the rides and then pairing you up with her boyfriend? I guess she was trying to fix us up so that she could date his friend but there were two problems with her plan. Even if I liked him he was dating someone and even if he liked me he was dating someone . All in all things ended poorly. Anyways. So this teacher reminds me of the man stealing whore, as nice as she seems it is going to be difficult to get past that. Well after class I met this girl who was an amazing artist, I started talking to her, she does realistic, I',m more of an anime person so it was kind of cool. I text my mom and tell her to take her time getting me because I had already called her. I wanted her to go do something while I made friends with this girl. New lost puppy at college, it's nice to have a friend. So I chat with her for nearly an hour when my mother walks in! Oh my god I was humiliated! I did my best not to let it show but wouldn't you know she has to come over and sit next to me? Now she gets me to leave and I get home, sleep for 5 hours and then chill. I'll say more later, bye for now -