Thread: Ov Becometh Thine Scyle

videoyoutube Honestly, what do you do when you feel like there's nothing worth living for? Do you did he died? Do you break down and cry like a little bitch? You know what I do? I sit here and wonder where the fuck the wrong is going to, has gone, is coming, is there. Truly, I am befuddled. I've never been the overly successful person but when I tried I seen results. Now? I don't see shit. I honestly don't see a damn thing. I come off as smart, handsome, funny, and unique. True to myself even. Yet no matter how hard I try, how many things I got going for me, I cannot seem to find inner peace and happiness. My happiest place is in front of my TV soaked into my fantasy realms. Do you know who I blame word? I blame you . BAHAHAHA SYCLE U CUNT BLAEM N E 1 ELSE ALL UR FAULT!!11 Well retarded 3rd person self, I blame others because well... How many people have worked for me? My mom? My Schnookumz? That's it. Everyone else is like Fuck you, all about me. Literally, even my mom tends to be an unbearable cunt. I mean I love her but seriously she's a bitch. Even Taylor Schnookumz can be bad every now and then but nothing like the rest of the world. I can't trust anyone. I don't. I don't rely on anyone but myself because well... I'm the only person who hasn't betrayed me. Cynical shit right? Exactly. All my friends I thought I had have abandoned me because they're fucking douche bags. Like 99 of the women I've dated especially fallen deep for have broke my heart. It's to the point where I can't even begin to like anyone without feeling deep seeded fear and shit. Want to know what happened to the last person I tried to trust 100? Bitch broke my fucking heart. Yeah in the most fucked up of ways too. Why did she break up with me? Am I somehow a self absorbed conceited asshole? Heh, not even close. So why did she? I miss Insert piece of shit ex-boyfriend here. Seriously, the guy neglected the fuck out of her and even abused her physically AND emotionally Then she also wants to break up because I'm not talking to her every second of my life? I literally didn't go 5 minutes without talking to her and she wants to break up because I was acting cold? HAHAHAHA UR STOOPID. QUIT TAKIN SH!T SEW SRSLY You're just far too annoying there kiddo... Regardless what happens when life tears you down repeatedly like that? I was once a strong, healthy person. Now? Look at me. Pasty white skin, thin as a skeleton, manic depressive, and my life includes simulating sex through words and being immersed in lies. Bit fucking morbid but in solid reality that IS it. I'm failing college. I failed high school. Can't get a job. No friends. No lover. Little family. No money. No car. Nothing. People have told me how good I have life. Parents feed me the same bullshit line Well if you lived like me blah blahdick. And? If I lived like you I'd grow up the same piece of shit you are. That shit doesn't make success, it makes fuck ups. My mom has cheated on the best majority of men she's been with, including my father. My father is currently dating his cousin's wife who mothered my best friend. You know how awks THAT shit is?! My supposed best friends aside from Daniel and Taylor have literally dropped me. They claim they want to hang out but when I do it feels awkward as fuck so I don't even bother. And the worst part? I work to attempt to fix all of it. Stupid as I am to try to fix something that keeps breaking. Anything that goes wrong I try to improve but somehow things get worse even if I do improve. So what do you do when you really have no reason to live? Well... I just sit there...