Thread: Personal Journal

Today seems like much a repeat of yesterday. Again the lectures to Bigfoot over why he can't worry more about dating rather than colecting money. A twist to this was when he saw me coming back in with a few hundred in my pocket he had the nerve to ask for some so he could get high. I asked him 'Do you have money to pay off your fine?' Answer No. 'Do you have enough to pay the electricity bill?' Answer No. 'Do you have enough to pay your insurance, truck payment, groceries, gas for truck, part money for truck, or even enough to get some chicken Mcnuggets? Answer No. Response Then you answered your own initial question. He then decided to tell me that I really had no use for the money. Not that I was going to get a date or do anything worthwhile. True enough really. Then again why would I want to? Speaking of that little lass told me more about her family and that she wanted yet another picture of me. To ensure I would she sent me one of her in advance. Still cute, but this time with a little rugpuppy looking thing. I would say it is a dog, but past its nose and furry mop I could not make out much more. Picture, okay that's fine. Told me I to her look like the devil in the omen movies. I 'think' that is a compliment. Her asking me not to talk to any other females and be with 'just her'? That is not gonna happen. Sure I have male friends I could converse with. Well a couple at least. But to cut contact with any and all females? Belches aloud the words hell no! I have yet to meet this gal face to furry face and she is already telling her mother about me. I truly despise things like that. The things I write here are for me. Sure anyone on this site can read them, but they do not know me. Hell only three people on this site have ever seen me and that was limited to Skype, and I sure as hades left nut kept everything on surface level with them. Sure I was close to them but that was even before many of the folks here changed out for the most part and that was years and years ago. So no offense to anyone whom ever happens upon this but folks here are just not that important in the grand scheme of my life. I put all this down for myself to make sense, not another.. Sure as hell not going to open up like I do to real people. And everything I have said to her she just passes like water down a drain to her mother? If she thinks I will soften over time about something like that? She is madder than a hatter! She could spread those legs like a warmed knife through butter a million times for me and my stance would never change. When someone tells me something I keep it to myself. Expecting less from others? Nah. Told her that in our last set of Emails.. She thought I was kidding due to the fact that it was her mother of all things. What she does not get is I will not be pressed by another woman again. Put up with that from Nessie and even the crazy chick to some extent. Not gonna happen. But I digress. I enjoy chatting with her, even talkng about our very different views on religion.. But not going any further on anything more personal than what I did that day work wise, or maybe what I am wearing. Bigfoot wants a gal then he can find one of his own, OR stick with the pill whore, OR the religious freak that strings him along just so he will go to her church. As for me.. I have PT in the morn and a doctors visit on the 14th. Get to have tests to see hwow much worse I have gotten physically. Not that it matters. I am therefore I do and all that jazz. Still well enough to write and work and live and all those things a soul should enjoy. Tis what matters right?