Thread: The Lambs lament  (Dox and Zero)

To Dox, the feeling he was experiencing was something again to falling but within. Like something fell away and when it did hit it thrashed until it was still to curl up on itself and grieve. At first his soul felt relieved, but then her hesitation, the way she moved back from him and those words... even though she hadn't said a thing he knew what she wanted to say even if she couldn't finish it. He didn't want her to go away, he didn't want to feel the warmth he had known for but a moment pass away but it was his own fault for that feeling of loneliness and pain. It never occurred to him to think about what any woman he chose to be close to would have to go through to keep his secret. How she would be hunted if he was found out and she for harboring him from the packs, and it was his own damn fault for being selfish in the first place. For the barest of moments, Dox dipped his head to rest one of his limp soft ears against her head sadly. He took one final whiff of her scent to remember her by, and hugged her once more to savor the warmth he knew he would never again attempt to find. Reluctantly, Dox lifted her off of him and set her down on the couch before resting his forehead against hers with his eyes closed in sadly. It's ok Rae, I understand. You can leave and forget you ever knew a stupid little lamb. His right hand came up to stroke her cheek softly before he stood and walked to door with his head hug and an odd twitching running through his body. He simply left without another word, slinking away down the hallway and out down the stairs. Years of instincts guided his movements perfectly as no one knew of his passing while he moved farther and farther away towards the coastal cliffs that were but a few hundred yards away. He found the spot he had always sat on the edge but this time wrapped his arms around his legs to rest his head on his knees. For all his size had done for him, he felt tiny knowing now that it wasn't fear that kept him away from woman, it was the bounty on his hide that endangered all around him and ultimately just like with Rae, keep him from finding a loved one. He wanted to grieve, hell he wanted to cry but the only thing that he could think about were the wolfs. They put the bounty on his head, and it was there fault he couldn't be with Rae. His depression began brooding as he sat there, and slowly his disdain turned to anger. If he turned himself in it could mean his death, but if he had to live like someone being hunted why try? How many years had he been hiding and isolated himself out of fear of other predators? And why did he have to try so hard just to go unnoticed? If he confronted them then he may find his freedom but something clawed at the back of his mind. The phobia seemed so very tiny now compared to the warmth he felt from Rae, but he couldn't be with her or it would endanger her so with his head hung his clenched and ground his teeth. Tomorrow was the summer full moon festival, and there all the wolf packs would be present to play, feast, and even gather members for their packs but the coastal pack would be present, and the current alpha female who still had the bounty available would be there too. An insane smile curled split his face as he laughed at the lunacy of it all. So it would come down to confronting an Alpha just like whatever black lamb who used to roam about had done but what else could he do?