Thread: Perfect Storm

11416 Wow. Just looking back at this just makes me so sad. I wanted to start this up again because i need some way of getting my thoughts out. I feel like i wasted this whole year. I broke up with Brian back in December 2014. I pretty much ran away with a guy named Khayman, who is still my current love of my life. At first we were unsure about our love but i know its solid. If someone told to to put Love into words, it would be this Love is when you get upset and they know exactly how to calm you down. Love is accepting all of the faults and past demons. Love is when you are at the lowest point of your life and they are standing there right in front of you, holding your hand through all of it. Khayman has stressed me out alot. He can be lazy. He can be such a dumbass. He does not have alot money and it took him two years two find a job again while i supported him the whole time. If it one thing that he has never done...Its that he has never made me feel like less of a person. When i started to go out with Khayman, my main focus was to have alot sex with him, non stop, all the time but soon i realized, i was in a open relationship and i could also have sex with other people. i soon started to try to have sex with some of my friends but i'm a super picky person. I like shy nerd virgin boys....maybe even girls. i tried hooking up with quite a few people but it just didn't work out well. I went back to focusing on Khayman, mainly because i was stressed he didn't have a job but he has one now! so, no big deal. Once Khayman got a job and we were back on track, i wanted to try again. After starting this year off very broke. i mean barely 30 a week broke, i wanted something to make me happy. A new play person, i guess? i started flirting with all my nerdy friends and one that i thought was cute poped up. He was connected to my friends from a party, so i was unsure of starting the short term relationship. I hate being in drama and people gossiping about me. He had recently broke up with with his girlfriend and talked about how crazy drama filled she was. We started doing it, hanging out and such. Suddenly i find out one of my transgender friends started going out with his ex girlfriend. Well, that really made him mad and he already did't like my trans friend. i didn't know that. This is when the cluster fuck drama started. Me, my trans friend, the guy i was doing it with and his ex girlfriend, were all fighting. I was in the middle of it all. After a while i had to find a way out and i made him super upset to the point where he blocked me. i was so happy. All the drama was over. Everything went back to normal with me and Khayman. I soon started a second job at a seafood restaurant. I met a cute skinny nerdy 19 year old virgin guy. i soon learned that he liked anime like me and we had a bunch of random things in common. We hanged out, i flirted with him and i soon took his virginity in a hotel. After that we hanged out alot, had tons of car sex, and i even had him hang with my friends. He was the best hoe i have ever had. He was the perfect fetish of everything i wanted. A blushing overly pervy skinny nerdy boy. The only down side was that he was really bad at texting. I keep yelling at him about it. One day, i told him to come over to Khaymans house where it would be just me, him and khayman. We all got drunk, played games, ate pizza and i hardcore did it with him. The next day he seemed upset....He keep saying he was tired and hungry but even after i paid for his food, he just seemed off. We went to a park and he said that we should slow down with the sex. i got annoyed by how lame and mean he was acting then drove him to work. i slept in the car waiting for him then woke up to his face. i just got done having sex dreams, and that made my mood after better. I went to drive him home but i pulled over to do it with him. After that i barley got any texts messages from him. He was already bad at contacting me but he was straight up ignoring me. I was having a bad day and left him a bunch of nasty messages. I said that i wanted to end the relationship because he was very bad at contacting me....so much it stressed me out. The next day i said sorry. After not hearing anything from him for 3 days, i called him, asking what was wrong. He pretty much said he was jealous of khayman and no longer wanted to have sex with me. That was yesterday. i'm still reviewing all the great dates we went on. i was crying badly on my way home from work when he said that. i spent so much money on hotels and food on him and he just up and left me. It still hurts but i should have seen it coming.