Thread: What's on Haru-sama's Mind (Absense/Apologies/Writing Journal)

Just Coasting Along...... Not too much has changed since the last time I plotted down text to this thread. I DID finally beat that RPG I named, plus another one Radiata Stories . While it's not RPing, at least tackling a few titles in my insanely massive RPG backlog killed a bit of time that otherwise would have been done here. I'm still not sure what to do about the RPing side of my life though. I wonder what is so wrong with myself and or my ideas? I guess they are so far-reaching. It does NOT help what has become of the very two facets of my life where I get much of my story and entertainment from anime and RPGs, respectively, have been overrun by the annoying types of folk whom us more sane-minded folk really don't want to associate with. I've done my best to basically abandon both fandoms and go it alone, yet they are there, breathing down the neck, and it just doesn't look pretty to a mainstream general public. I've already put forth before....my likes and dislikes won't be changing anytime soon. Not that I'm unwilling to try other ideas, but I can't seem to find any point in adding more things to my already-insane list of things I wish to take up....be it one-shot gigs that only run a few sessions, or long stories that run for weeks or months for the rare few, a year or more at a time, and kinky-wise...well that's me, myself and I. We all have those 'things' that push the 'excitement' buttons...some more pedestrian, others way out there. That is why a place like Blue Moon exists....no? I think we can all agree that it's exactly why. To facilitate anything from the mainstream to the extreme, and all in-between. I don't know. Maybe I need outside critiquing and CONSTRUCTIVE criticism from others here. I need to be told, This is good not good Here's what will work not work. A majority of folks will play this but not this......damn it, I'd even expect a You're weirdcreepy. even though that's not a very constructive thing I admit to being severely jaded. Past RP partners who spoiled me rotten giving me any and every thing I craved even if they didn't know a damned thing about a character or person...they disappear, so I keep having to find someone new. Then my own limitations due to my sight reading is hard, so no novels here, not since 1996. I suppose it doesn't help either having blown, but wholly enjoyed over 12 years into anime, RPGs for almost 21, two absurdly niche entertainment mediums in visual and gaming entertainment as it is.....a lot of folks now even some former fans find both things complete rubbish nowadays..I'm down with that...to each their own. Meh, I think I've dug myself such a ditch that I can't pull myself out of. Request links are below. Constructive critiquing by my fellow RPers whether I've played along with you or not...most likely not, but no matter via PM would be a great help. Somehow I'd like to be able to whittle down some lists of mine. It may mean having to finally let go of some plots I've had in mind, and characters I wanted either in a canon setup, OC, or myself in pairing for years, but that's the way it goes sometimes. I spent last evening, seeing as it is technically Tuesday morning as I type this trying to put together my first new OC in over 5 years. Haruki Ryouichi, my Orient-like emperor, was my last one but then I just gave up trying since nothing up to and including him were catching interest. He's still in 'alpha' stage if you will.....I only have a race demonelf or demonhuman mix note w latter NOT a 'youkai' ala InuYasha....not a big fan of that series anyways , and here's a trend-bucking bit.....he's good-natured and kind. I know what you're thinking.... boring . No, just because he's kind, it doesn't mean he can't kick ass if the situation calls for it...he'd just be loyal to those he's close to. Other than that and a little bit of a basic family history, nothing else comes to me right now. Not even an image yet. I can't draw worth a damn, so I'd either have to type out the details tedious, plus finding someone to draw up an image for me would be a chore, or find an image that hasn't been overused to death by all the so-called 'weaboo' types out there....this is nothing short of like finding a needle in a haystack. Keep tuned and take care. - Matt Haru