Thread: RP: Revolve [ Horror_Show & last_true_romantic ]

Soon as he let her into the tree house she settled down opening her bottle water. He asked how work was and she took a big gulp shrugging, she wiped her mouth licking her chapped lips and stretched her legs out. Oh, you know, the usual. busy, a lot of college kids wanting really specific drinks, but I made pretty decent tips today, we all split tips at the end of the day. She said opening her pop tart package. It wasnt dinner, but it was would hold her over till she was able to get some actual food. Chase nodded and even gave a smile at her response. So, she started nibbling on the pop tart and looked up at him. Whats up? She asked, You hanging in there? She asked, knowing he was probably still having a difficult time dealing with Kate and the aftermath of the breakup. She was positive even though he kept his phone off, Kate was probably harassing him other ways. Instead she saw his facial expression change and he said he wanted to talk to her about some things, which normally meant they were important. Suddenly her eyes widened, and she chewed her food, she nodded and stayed quiet. She thought maybe it was more about Kate, more insight to his fucked-up relationship with her but as he started talking, it was about her. He had gotten on Facebook and discovered her YouTube which made her face blank. Apparently, he had watched quite a few of her videos if he knew about her editing and written songs, he seemed genuinely interested, proud, fascinated. She just kind of shrugged, taking larger bites of her remaining pop tart. She wasnt the best at taking compliments and was a little embarrassed but lightened up as he continued to talk to her about her work. He asked her about some of the equipment she used, how she saved up for it and working with Tessa. He didnt ask about the one song she had written that made him wonder who it was about, though he had a good idea now. There was some awkward silence. Sooum. She was trying to make more casual conversation, to direct the focus away from herself until he finally just blurted out going into her room, apologizing but finding some things that worried him. Suddenly her stomach dropped, and her face went white, her big brown eyes wide. She sat there watching him. Her first thought was the external drive, the fucking external drive. she had left that at her computer desk, that had everything . Her jaw clenched. Then to her dismay he kept going and finally answered her worst nightmare, he had commented about her therapy, the years of medication and her suicidal moments. She breathed out, and noticed even in the darkly lit tree-house, only illuminated by string lights his own eyes were glistening. He didnt mention specifics but if he had that external and knew about all those things, then he absolutely had to know about why. Her body tensed, and she started panicking internally. This was literally her worst fucking nightmare. Chase kept trying to talk, trying to find words, seeming upset but more at himself than her. He couldnt seem to figure out how to tell her his own thoughts. Fuck...I love you Charlotte. His last words caught her off guard, he breathed them out in distress and would meet her own swelling eyes. He would visibly be able to see her fear, her panic. She nervously rubbed her nose and eyes and randomly arched back, scooting backwards away from him as if an animal would be retreating, her eyes adverting from his as she was freaking out, mind racing. You shouldnt have...you shouldnt have looked. She barely got out, as her eyes darted around the room. Oh..god, She got out. By now her eyes were watering and silent tears were streaming down her flushed cheeks. Fuck. She breathed and got on her knees and crawled for the hatch, she wasnt really thinking clearly, realizing he could easily prevent her from leaving. As she tried to grab for the latch but felt him grab her shoulder, it wasnt hard but forceful enough to make her look at him as they were inches away. He would feel her trembling. Why does it matter? Im fucked up..I know this. I didnt tell you because who in their right mind would? She choked out, inhaling as more tears flooded, some of her pint up emotions, including anger were slightly showing. I did my best to deal with it. I went to therapy, I did medsI had some hard moments but I got through it.I wasnt going to tell you. Its wrong, its horrible and I am so sorry. maybe its because Im adopted or something or because I never got out enough to mentally focus on others.I dont know..you was with Kate and happy. I wasnt going ruin that. She got out sniffling, she used her free hand to wipe snot and tears from her face. Oh hey, your happy, starting college, found the supposed perfect girl.but Im mentally fucked up and disgusting, Im in love with you and find you attractive.so Ill just kill myself. Well I didn't.....I'm fine. She said sarcastically, he was hearing so many intense emotions and words, she even choked out looking away as she let those thoughts slip. So she just stayed there, looking away, ashamed, scared. videoyoutube Think I just remembered something I think I left the faucet running Now my words are filling up the tub Darling, you're just soaking in it But I know you'll get out the minute You notice all your fingers pruning up I'm tired of being careful, gentle, trying to keep the water warm Let me under your skin!!!!!!! Uh-oh, there it goes, I said too much, it overflowed Why do I always spill? I feel it coming out my throat Guess I better wash my mouth out with soap God, I wish I never spoke Now I gotta wash my mouth out with soap