Thread: The Asset - Avengers (Moon Struck Fox & Defiant)

Steve tensed a little when Bruce asked if Bucky remembered anything. He wasn't sure any of them where ready for this discussion. He knew that he hadn't wanted to talk about anything when he'd first woken up. He hadn't wanted to remember the crackle of the ice, or the pain of his back, broken from the crash, or the water creeping over him while his lungs burned for air. He shuddered violently and focused on his best friend again. Chair? Bucky remembered a chair? From the way the man said it, it wasn't the kind of chair Steve was thinking about. Wipe? Steve asked, sounding rather faint. They had used this chair to erase Bucky. He would find it, he would let Bucky completely destroy it. That would help right? Letting Bucky completely decimate the thing that had hurt him so badly? If anything, he could have Tony go at it and maybe find a way to reverse damages or effects from it's use. He had a feeling Bucky wasn't the only one who had sat in that 'chair' and had themselves completely erased. Shock? Steve managed to ask. Had they electrocuted Buck!? Those filthy bastards where going to wish they had never, ever been born! hey. Hey, Bucky. Easy. It's okay. Steve promised, trying to be as soft and calm and gentle as possible when Bucky jumped to his feet. Bruce isn't going to do anything. he promised. you don't have to talk about it. he turned to Bruce, his voice a little more stern. he doesn't have to talk about it. Sam had always said that forcing people to talk when they weren't ready, was just as damaging as what had happened in the first place. It wouldn't help, ever and would, in the end, only make things so much worse. He didn't want Bucky to get worse. Of course, now he was really worried about side effects. Really worried. i'll have him at the tower in two weeks at the latest. Will that be okay or does it need to be sooner? Steve asked, looking rather frantic to be honest. What if Bucky had a brain bleed? Or had scarring? or... other things that Steve didn't know about but where probably really bad? He grimaced when he realized Bucky was starting to panic and wondered how best to keep his best friend from having a flashback or worse. Steve had those sometimes, flashbacks, where he forgot who people where and where he was. He had nearly strangled Sam once because he was so convinced the man had been Zola. Which was why he was asking Bruce for the sedatives. He had donated pints upon galleons of blood for Bruce to work with to make medicine that worked with the Serum. Since his body processed normal drugs too fast to be of any use. Even Morphine had relatively no effect on Steve, other than making him sleepy for about an hour. When Steve got wrapped up in his memories, Sam just popped a tranquilizer into him and Steve dropped like a stone so he wouldn't accidentally hurt someone. It's okay. It's just too fresh for him right now. I understand you're worried. I'll make sure to keep a very close eye on him and call you if I see even the slightest thing that's odd. he promised. that... chair... whatever it is. It's clearly something that's lingered even when he can't even remember he's a person, let alone what his name is... Steve admitted, shaking his head. Hydra didn't care what damage they did to him. So long as he could do what they wanted him to. I'll make sure they never live to torment anther soul. I'll tear them apart bare handed if I have to. Disgusting bastards! Steve hissed, flexing his fingers. how could they do that to Bucky? he wondered, biting his lip before looking up at Bruce. If there's damage to the brain then he might never recover beyond this. Or he might get worse. Steve whispered. He knew enough about the brain to know that damage was, more often than not, permanent. it doesn't matter. He's my best friend. I'll take care of him by myself if it comes down to it. Steve said. I won't abandon him. I can't. he admitted, closing his eyes. he never gave up on me, even when they said i'd never make it past year fourteen. he stared at Bruce. i would have died if Bucky hadn't kept me going. Now, I have to be there for him. Bruce. I think your forgetting which of the people in this house recently tried to strangle Sam. It wasn't Bucky. he pointed out. he's not the only grenade around here. I know how to tiptoe. mostly. He gave Bruce a small smile. still, it's nice to know you won't try to mince the truth. Thanks for that at least. he admitted. i know you probably won't be able to fix any damage he has to the brain, but we should be able to manage most of what might happen right? Lot's of people have brain damage these days. There's all kinds of ways to help, medication and meditation and therapy and stuff... I'm going to do everything I can. I won't just give up just because he's a little more hurt than originally anticipated. he ran a hand through his hair, aggravated because he was upset and hadn't managed to make it to the gym today. Hadn't burnt off his anxious energy, hadn't drained himself. Like a hyper chipmunk or something. Thanks Bruce. Really. Your a great friend and i'm really lucky to have you. Steve admitted, smiling at him. try not to smash Tony okay? he asked with a smile, watching the other leave before taking a deep breath, trying to center himself. He had never really gotten the hang of that meditation crap. Steve smiled at Bucky when he walked into the room. Lesson One. It is never an 'over reaction'. Sam had told him that often enough. it's a panic attack. They can get bad. I nearly strangled Sam a few weeks ago because I was trapped in a memory. he admitted. i have real bad flashbacks sometimes, though they're getting a lot better. he admitted. i used to feel bad about 'over reacting' too until I realized that I just can't stop feeling panicked just because I want to. he admitted before smiling at Bucky. you where a man on the run, desperate for help and too scared to know who to turn to. That's all. he admitted. sure, you choked me a little bit, i've had worse you know. he admitted, flopping down onto the bed next to James. you don't have to talk about it. Someday, when you are ready, then you can tell me anything you want me to know. Or you can tell Sam, or Bruce, or Tony. Whoever you trust enough to tell. he admitted. if your never ready, then that's okay too. he admitted, looking at him. all of us are Grenades Bucky. You think any of my friends, us so called 'superheros' aren't all fucked up in the head? Bruce has MPD, Tony is nearly schizophrenic and possibly Bi-Polar. Natasha as an emotional detachment disorder. Clint has OCD and Phil has an obsessive complex. We're all pretty fucked up. That's the point though, who best to help you with your problems, then people who actually understand because they have problems too? he wondered with a smile. I'm with you Bucky. till the end of the line. i swear it.