Thread: Autism Support

Pretty simple. Figured if YOU happen to fall somewhere on this lovely spectrum they like to call autism yes, this includes all Aspies...or, more precisely, those with Asperger's OR are friends with andor related to someone on spectrum or hell...you just plain wanted to up your awareness...then this is the thread for that. Basically, life has been tough and getting tougher for me both as an Aspie and mom of an Aspie. So yeah. I wanted to reach out and find support. It's hard to come by and I'll take what I can get plus I do know that some of you lovely people are much like me, hehe, so why not take advantage in a safe place?. I thought it might do all of us some good to help each other and possibly raise awareness. I'll get the ball rolling with an incident that just happened today. See more It was pretty classic, at least for me. We went out for a quick breakfast at McDonald's with the kids because we've been packing. They found it a treat. I didn't sleep well last night even on my anxiety meds. I had a lot of paper work to do and I've got heaps on my mind. That right there is going to have me off in its own right. Hell, it would have anyone off. So we go and my husband asks me to open my daughter's chocolate milk. Or......that's what I heard...... Now, my daughter was playing in the chair and my son was making siren sounds. I was trying to set things down at the table. I...was overwhelmed and trying not to be. . Anyway, I go to pick up my daughter's chocolate milk and immediately shake it because....you know, to mix it. XX The cap was loosened and milk spilled ALL over me. I was wet, sticky and my white shirt covered with chocolate milk. I.....lost it. I started to cry, to curse, I yelled that there weren't enough napkins and I yelled that I should've been told that the milk was opened NOT closed like I'd thought. My husband got angry and embarrassed. He told me to stop yelling, to calm down. He told me that he DID tell me, that he said that the cap was loose.......but I didn't remember it that way. XX I stormed off to the bathroom, banged my head against the wall when I saw that they had no paper towels and only a hand dryer. I then walked out and spouted things as I made my way back to my seat. I made a flipping off gesture to no one in particular, just looking off into space. My husband thought I did all that.......to him. TT His anger, embarrassment and frustration heightened all the more. I sat down, quiet...knowing I could not speak because it would come out wrong. But that made my husband more upset. So I started to respond. But then he said my tone didn't match. That led to confusion and I started to cry again. He threatened to walk out of the restaurant and told me to stop rocking. I hadn't realized I'd started. I stopped and then my leg started shaking. I pulled it together just enough to finish eating and then he had to go out for a drive for a little while. This.....happens sometimes and right now due to the stress of our move things can get to an all time high. So frustrating. People think they know what they're getting into. They think you will change or grow out of it. The answer is always the same. No. We change for no one. Not even those we love most dearly. TT