Thread: Break the Cycle: REJECT STYLE [BAB+Soubi]

Like his own personal rain cloud, Jinki stood underneath the shower head, the cold water doing nothing to make him feel better. He was a failure. Dysfunctional. Useless. Unfit. Inadequate. Whatever you wanted to call it, Jinki had once again failed. Why in the hell had he ever thought he was anything besides the eternal screw up of Mariposa? Hed allowed himself to hope. Stupid, stupid, stupid. He knocked his head into the tile wall, though it was a little late now to try and force some sense into his head. He stood there, naked with his forehead pressed to the shower wall, shoulders sagging, the water running down his body, trying to wash away the rejection. He really just wasnt cut out for this. Jinki looked down at his cock, which somehow still begged to differ. Somehow, part of him still had the audacity to think otherwise, because his pathetic penis still hadnt given up the hope that had sprung up from the excitement. Despite having ingested a new kind of vitamin today that had made him feel more confident then usual, Jinki was still plenty able to resist touching himself. Really, there was no desire to touch the body that even his last chance had been repulsed by. Hed thought that the cold water would help to calm down his erection, but apparently it was being stubborn and decided to stick around for a while. Whatever. It wasnt like ignoring his need was anything new to him. Ah, but how he wished it had worked out this time. Jinki had been introduced to three males before this, and as much as he would have liked any of them to bond with him, none of them had felt quite as right as this last one did. He was sure he could have gotten on with the rest of them alright, but this was the first time hed ever been hit so hard with desire for another man. There was no way to describe it than being bowled over, and he literally had been. Maybe it was weird for a supposed master to be happy about being toppled over, but honestly, Jinki hadnt had a more erratic flurry of butterflies in his stomach ever in his life. Someone wanted him. He would have been happy to die right then. Really, he wished he had died then. Keeled over and croaked, because just as he was allowing himself to hope, reality came back to haunt him. Why though? Why taunt him like this? It was just icing on the shit cake hed been served and happily eaten all his life. To feel such passion and fire, to have that desire burned into his skin, only to leave him trying to wash it away now in the cold shower. And the smell . Oh Goddess, the smell of that creature, so strong, so fierce, so fucking beautiful, and for him . Well, not for him actually, but for the faked version. So this was what it was like, this was what the rest of his lab mates got to experience. With their pheromones, this was what they were greeted with, this was what their excitement was returned with. At least hed gotten to experience a bit of it before they dumped him for good. Still, it would have been nice to not enter the breeder colony still a virgin. He couldnt really blame the women though, he was getting old. Twenty two and still no bond. Forget old, Jinki was fucking ancient. Theyd even him plenty of chances, he shouldnt be this upset, though, it was hard when the last male he was introduced to was just so perfect . Oh well. Jinki sighed and turned his face up into the stream of water. The temperature wasnt really registering on his skin, it was still almost feverish to the touch, something hed never experienced before. He recalled that the other males skin had been like that too, and like hed been infected Jinkis flesh had instantly heated as well. Hed been almost a rosy hue all over, the pet, his hair that shock of bright pink, and like the tint had melted into him, the almost pearlesque skin had been ever so faintly colored. His body was perfect, but Jinki had seen beautiful bodies before. The true beauty, the thing that had truly captured his attention had been the others eyes. Just thinking of all the depth of desire, trust, want, need there that had been for something that he was not, just recalling that hurt more than anything else. Jinki wanted that for himself, just once, hed even gone to the lengths of attempting to fool the other man. Though, once hed been found out, once hed seen the hurt hed caused in deceiving the other with those synthetic pheromones, Jinki couldnt bring himself to stay in the others presence. Hed been a cruel idiot to think that the other male wouldnt figure it out. Hed been selfish and only thinking of himself, thinking he was the only one who was clinging to this chance, but the other was probably just as hopeful as he. Who was he to lie to someone that he didnt know? Who was he to assume that he had it worse off? Jinki didnt know the other males past, he couldnt just make assumptions. He was the bad guy here, he just hoped like hell that he wasnt sealing the others fate, because it really was a mystery to him how such a beautiful man could be in this situation. Hes too good for me anyways, Jinki muttered to himself. Maybe hed try to vouch for the other man, say it was his fault things didnt work out. He didnt want the other to be sent to a breeder colony just because of his own failure. Jinki spent quite some time in the shower, mulling over his own deficiencies. He waited until the heat in his skin finally seemed to evaporate, and his erection dying with the fire. He honestly couldnt have brought himself to jerk off in this situation, even though he probably should have considering that the women would come for him soon. He wouldnt be surprised if they were already there, seeing as how hed just gotten up and walked away from the pet, feeling too dejected to explain himself to that look of betrayal. Oh. No. What if they thought it was the pets fault? He, hed just left the other male there, alone. Jinki shut off the water frantically. He threw the shower door open and slipped as he started to rush out, just barely catching himself from falling on the unforgiving tile floor. He hardly stopped as he ran out of the bathroom, just grabbing a towel on the run. Dripping and flinging water everywhere off his body, Jinki threw the bathroom door open, but it didnt open all the way. There was a very audible smack followed by a string of colorful curses. Jinki went stock still, apparently the pet hadnt been taken away yet. Tentatively, hoping that he really hadnt hurt the other, Jinki moved his head around the door, keeping his naked body behind it. His face dropped, his brows furrowing in worry and biting his lower lip because the other male was crouched down, holding his head in his hands. Well, couldnt very well just stand there and ignore what hed done, as if the day really couldnt get any worse. Full knowing that he was probably the last person that should be comforting the pet, Jinki felt compelled to any ways. Modestly holding the towel in front of his manbits, Jinki moved from behind the door and crouched down next to the other male. Half out of guilt and concern, and half out of his own rather selfish little impulse, Jinki put a comforting hand on the sloping bare shoulder. Probably a bad idea, that contact, considering how much more he'd lack the feeling of touching once he had to let go again. Are, are you alright? Getting the words out properly had taken a lot more effort than he'd thought it would. Even though his skin was freezing now, Jinki couldn't help the warmth that seemed to spread through him at just being so near to the other. That warmth turned into something wild as the other turned his head up to look each other in the eye. Jinki's heartbeat soared dangerously, compelling him to hold tight to this one even if the other didn't want it. Jinki, no longer able to control himself, perhaps not really wanting to considering this might be his last, leaned closer. Despite his desire, Jinki was so careful, almost timid, because as he moved forward the other male froze, almost like he was getting ready to flee. Jinki leaned in, slowly, deliberately, careful to not make any sudden movements, to not give away the almost fearfully happy fluttering inside his chest. Only when his mouth a breath away did he close his eyes, pressing his lips gently into the almost heart shaped ones of the pet. If his lips hadn't been occupied, Jinki would have released a gasp of shock at the electric shock that passed through him. It was like the time he'd accidently dropped the violet wand on himself during training, only without the hurt, or the embarrassment. Jinki pulled away, just enough to breathe, though the breaths hardly came. When he made eye contact again, the other's eyes had taken a golden shine, and Jinki didn't even try to suppress his shiver of delight. Before he could allow himself a chance to reason a way out of this, as he knew he would if given even just a second of hesitation, Jinki leaned back in. He was more confident this time, more assured. Lips met and Jinki pressed closer. He wanted to touch, he wanted every inch of his skin coated with the other's, he wanted to immerse himself in the scent, the energy of this male. Jinki's hand slipped from its careful placement on the pet's shoulder, upward to grasp lightly at the base of the neck, smoothing along the other's skin. Jinki allowed himself to grow bolder, opening his mouth slightly and letting his tongue flick across the other's closed lips, asking for entrance. He didn't realize the effect that would have.