Review: MESSED UP!!
Rating: 2 out of 5
Date: 12 14, 2012
I had a hard time with this one.  So you have a 35 year old female virgin, Savannah.  You have an alpha male, Matt, who is dominant sexually and who has been in love with Savannah.  Matt feels Savannah is in love with him too and wants him but has been repressed and damaged by her father.  So, what better way to get her to admit her feelings and relinquish control to Matt for him to love and care for her then binding her, hanging her from the ceiling videotaping it and letting each one of his business partners (four other men) have a go at her.  Oh, but there are rules...they can't penetrate her.  How generous of Matt.  One gives her oral sex, the other a device that penetrates her vaginally and anally), the other her breasts and the last her backside.  Each gives her gifts too, you know, because they care and love her.  She gets a sexual device, nipple clamps, pearls (that need to be cleaned because they were inserted into her rear!!) and a diamond engagement ring.  SERIOUSLY?!  Back to Savannah...she has never had sex (oral, vaginal, anal)let alone any BDSM.  They do this to her and at times in the book she says she wants to say no but she can't get the words out as if she is paralyzed.  She does so "no" and they still continue at one point.  So, just because her body is responding and they are the experts it is determined that she really doesn't mean "no."  Also, Matt is digging his fingernails into his hand and turning away at times when he allows these other men to do this to her.  At the ends he admits he it was too much and he wanted to stop it.  But, he doesn't.  It is not rape but what I got from it is that she was soo paralyzed by fear and the novelty and intensity of these sexual experiences, as her need to not fail at anything (including giving into Matt with this) that she was not in the right state of mind to make and VERBALIZE appropriate decisions.  Again, at times she did say "no" and "I can't take anymore."  Savannah didn't have a relationship with Matt that he could adequately judge her wants and needs and what was best for her.  This was a little disturbing.