Review: No words are good enough
Rating: 5 out of 5
Date: 09 7, 2013
I am dying. My heart is broken, my soul is in shreds, and I am positive that I am dying. Mia Asher just killed me. Somehow I have to find a way to breathe again. You know, a lot of us readers do so to escape reality. We crack open a book and are transported to other lives and other lands, instantly removed from whatever our personal reality is. Not with this book.Sometimes, life is ugly. Love is ugly. Sometimes love doesn't feel good at all, it is the most gut wrenching, soul crushing pain imaginable. Part of me loves this book. The ability to write in a way that the words incite such fierce emotional turmoil deserves to be celebrated. The emotional wreck this book left me in just ticked me off. I'm writing this review and I'm still crying!!! I'm rating this book 5 stars because it's absolutely deserving, but I'm giving the stink eye while I do. I am not even kidding you, Arsen wore me out. I had to take a nap in the middle of writing this review!**Please note that I am not in any way happy with this review. After hours, I still can't find the right words to describe this book or convey how I feel. This review is a lame attempt at describing a book that is it's own entity. For that I apologize to you, the reader, and to the author for not being able to do the book justice.Ok enough about my meltdown; about the book:It is told in multiple POVs: past, present, and later on some from Ben and Arsen.Cathy has what seems to be the perfect life. She's got a great job, is wealthy, and has a husband who is madly in love with her. Their love story is one for the history books; a chance meeting in the rain, an impulsive kiss, a magical first date, and later on strong and beautiful love. Ben is everything little girls dream of their first love being. He's funny, sexy, loving, kind, gentle, and sweet. Their love heals each other from their painful pasts."Love can destroy you.Love can erase you.Love can heal you.Love can reinvent you,And, if you are lucky enough,Love can make you whole again.That's what Cathy has done to me."Present day, Ben and Cathy have built a happy life together. They're both professionals and have made a comfortable life for themselves. Starting a family hasn't come so easy and Cathy is losing herself after three miscarriages. She's terrified to try again, terrified to lose again. She can't tell any of this to Ben because he's always the optimist, always perfection. Cathy begins resenting Ben for always being perfect and for not allowing her to share her deepest fears.Enter Arsen, the son of her new boss. He's twenty-four, disgustingly wealthy, and ungodly gorgeous. And he knows it. Arsen is use to getting what, and who, he wants when he wants it. Cathy, however isn't taking the bait, and earns his respect. They have a casual, flirtatious, friendship and Cathy comes to confide in him and rely on him when she finds herself pregnant again and scared to death.Then Cathy comes undone. She's numb. She's broken. She no longer cares about Ben, work, herself, nothing. She's desperate, and loses herself in Arsen. He makes her feel, but forget. He lights her on fire and snuffs out her pain. She can't get enough of it. She knows it's wrong but she can't stop herself."Sometimes not being in control, not being able to think, just losing yourself in the moment, is the greatest feeling in the world.  It's liberating.  It's addicting.  It's the most powerful high you'll ever get.  It's a kind of freedom that tastes so sweet on your palate that you can't help but want more each time you have it.""He's the beautiful painkiller that my broken body and my shattered heart demand to stop hurting."This book is a hard one because you can imagine how intense Cathy's pain is from losing her babies and can see why she makes the choices she does. You want to hate her, but it's hard to. The same with Arsen. As much as he is poison to Cathy, he helps her in ways. But my gosh poor Ben! The way she throws everything away instead of turning to him is awful! One thing that becomes very apparent early on is that Cathy needs help. Instead, she finds Arsen.This book will make you burn with anger, swoon with love, and break from pain. You will be livid, and you will cry. You'll want to throw your Kindle, yet be desperate to find out what happens next. The synopsis warns that Arsen is a broken love story, and it's telling the truth.