Review: A mother's raw emotional journal of the death of her infants
Rating: 4 out of 5
Date: 09 22, 2012
This book was painful to read. I cannot imagine having to live the experience. Jessica did a great job of honestly sharing the emotions she went through bearing a son and a daughter and losing them both to a genetic condition called EB. The book is bascially from the journal she kept during these times. She did not censor any of it. She wrote exactly what she was feeling. While that probably was theraputic, I'm sorry she didn't or wasn't able to get professional help, or at least a support group experienced in the death of children. She is consumed by rage and bitterness and lashes out at family and friends who try to help. (Not being judgemental....just wish she could have had more help). Frequent references about going to a bar and use of alcohol become a way to numb her pain. In one part of the journal, she is wanting to make an appointment to have a tubal ligation since she knows her genes predispose her to a more than 70% of delivering another baby with EB. Odds were against her with the birth of her second child who also died from EB. I have a difficult time understanding why, after two children dying, she would allow herself to become pregnant again. She had one tubal pregnancy and is again pregnant it the end of the book and closes with "keep your freakin fingers crossed". I also don't understand that she would chance condemning another infant to possibly the same painful, horrible death. I wish her the best. She deserves to be a "mom" as much as any other woman. I know she mentioned adoption. That would be an a win/win for everyone.