Review: Angst, Love, and Heartbreak
Rating: 4 out of 5
Date: 09 24, 2013
The choices you make throughout your life can shape your path in drastic ways.  Big decisions like who to give your heart too can bring you so much love into your life or leave you shattered and broken if you make the wrong decision.  It's never easy making choices especially not knowing the outcome and sometimes you gamble with your choices in life and in love.  You only get 1 life and sometimes it's hard to make certain choices but we make them everyday sometimes they are the right ones sometimes we find out too late that it was the wrong choice but either way we make them every day.  Some are easy and some are hard, some will leave you smiling, and some may leave you broken.  But everything happens for a reason every choice we make today will affect us tomorrow.  This is Quincy's story and about her life and choices she made while living it.Choices is Sydney Lane's debut novel and I have to say I think she did a wonderful job.  I love a good love triangle and she didn't disappoint with that triangle.  How is one girl supposed to choose between two different men but different men that have wonderful things to offer her?  In the beginning I had already picked my guy and nothing that happened throughout this book made me second guess my choice.  From the first moment he walked into this story he had me feeling like I wanted to be naughty and a little bad.I liked Quincy I really did but sometimes with the choices she made I find myself feeling very....I wanted to reach through my kindle and smack the crap out of her.  Her childhood was not always roses and sunshine and her family had their problems so I know she tried to make everyone around her happy and she was so scared of upsetting or hurting anyone but I found myself wanting her to just make a decision and stick with it."Yeah, and you were gone the next morning, with not so much as a goodbye, see you later, or thanks for last night.  So you have no right to be pissed at me."He steps into me, backing me up against the wall. "That's what this is about?  I went hiking, and you know what I thought about the whole time? You.  It was you, Quince. Every step I took, I remembered the way your body felt against mine.  I watched you sleeping, and it took everything I had to walk out of that room.  But I did it for you.  I was protecting you.  But the next time you're in my bed, no one will be leaving.  Not until I'm so exhausted I can't move another inch."Now let's talk about Brody - shall we?  OMG he made me want to jump his bones from the first moment his eyes landed on Quincy.  He is like sex on a stick and I wanted to climb and rub all over that stick. Yummy.  Dark, mysterious, and a whole lot of bad boy wrapped up in one delicious package that needs to be unwrapped.  He will pull you in and you will luck him suck you dry because that is just how smoking hot he is.  Everything from who he is to the words that come out of that wonderful looking mouth of his called my name and I wanted him very very badly.When I feel him against me, I tense.  "Baby, relax.  I'm going to take it slow.  Open your legs for me."(Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm okay - opening legs NOW)Oh and then there is Declan.  He is sweet and kind and caring and so very much the boy next door and he truly adores Quincy.  Quincy has strong feelings for Declan because she knows that he is everything she should want for her future.  She is torn between her head and her heart and both these boys don't make it easy on her because they are both wonderful."Quincy, I get it.  I finally get it." My heart breaks when I see his decision on his face. "All of this time, I just wanted to be the person who takes care of you.  But I think I finally realized that needing me is not the same as loving me."Quincy is certain that needing him could one day turn into falling in love with him.  She loves Declan and she knows in her heart that he is exactly who she needs.  But is he who she truly wants?There is so much that happens in Choices, not only Quincy's love life but her family life as well.  She has always stayed hidden in the shadows at home, having an older sister who suffers from mental illness and needs the constant attention of her parents Quincy has grown up knowing that they truly do love her but their focus and attention needs to be on Katie.  Quincy loves her sister but the roller coaster of emotions that she goes through while loving her sister is anything but easy.  She shows just how strong of a person she is while dealing with Katie and I was in awe of her for that.My heart exploded for Brody because he truly did care for Quincy and he wanted to be her everything but with decisions unmade on her part she just wasn't sure if Brody was good for her heart.  Anytime something happened she ran to Declan - he was her rock and she could tell him things that she couldn't tell anyone else.  Of course that broke my heart for Brody because I could tell throughout the story that he truly was trying to be the person that Quincy deserved."Please! Please listen to me.  You've never given me the chance to say anything, and now you are going to listen."  His voice penetrates the fog surrounding me.  "Quince, I want to be the person you run to.  I want to be the one you trust when the darkness falls.  I want to know your dreams, and I want to breathe the air you breathe.  I want to be the one who makes you smile.  I just want to be with you."  He takes a deep, ragged breath.  "Just trust me, Quince!  Trust me enough to be with me.  Let me love you every day for the rest of your life."(squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my heart just melted again)Overall I think Sydney did a beautiful job of bringing us a story that is more than just a love triangle.  It's not only a story of making choices with your heart, but it's making choices in your life in general.  Sometimes life isn't fair and some of the choices you make are difficult but they don't have to define you are.  They simple are just choices we all make them every day.  You can't be afraid to make the wrong choice because we all do from time to time, but you have to learn how to make that choice and live with the outcome of it.--We are survivors.  We have regrets.  We have questions.  And the pain never fully fades away.  But we go on.  Because we have to.