Review: I didn't have tears to cry, just pain.
Rating: 5 out of 5
Date: 11 19, 2012
Probably this is one of the saddest book I ever read in my life, but I didn't drop neither one tear. Why?I didn't have tears to cry, just pain.I must start saying it's not a book for everyone. This story will talk not just about rape, and the horrible consequences of it. It's worst... it's about two boys, that went through the unthinkable... child abuse.It's a dark, but a "MUST read" romance for the follow reasons:*Pretend it's not happening in the real world will not make this crime disappear. This story is brutal, but also full of hope and love. Jamie and Tammy, from childhood to adulthood, fighting to survive and pretend they are ok. But they aren't... their scars are so deep, so hard to hide. Can love heal both? There is hope, even in such desperate cases?*It's also a story about unconditional love. Jamie want to love and be loved. He can't imagine Tammy, the school stud, not just is also attracted to him, but know what it to have the childhood interrupted by a sick adult. Jamie and Tammy love story is far from boring or a cliché. They are in love, and nothing, neither their hard past can stop both to try to be a couple.*It's also a story about something unusual in a gay romance, it's also about God.Jamie is a religious person. He believe in God, and he love Him/Her. For him God is what save him, gave him a loving foster father, gave him his beloved Tammy. There is a lot of religion in his narration, but don't worry, he is not trying to convert you to his religion... he is telling you, showing you why he is still alive, and why he believe and love God, even if he had all the reasons to never believe in Him/Her.*Both will narrate the story, and it will give you a double dose of pain. As I said, I couldn't cry. I was numb, with so much pain and hate. I ache for them, and hate each time they cry. Even now, after I finish it I will hate everything both went through. I hate it is happening right now, while I'm writing this review somewhere in the world it's happening right now, to a very real person, not a fictional character as Jamie or Tammy.I almost took one star because of the both point of view. Many chapters are the "repetition" of acts, but from different point of view. I said "almost" but as you may see I didn't took it out. The repetition is not a real copy and paste... many times, it was necessary, to show you how much they where in pain/joy, at the same moment. I notice I was having problem reading when both were sad, in pain, not while it was the narration of a happy moment. THAT was the moment I got it... it was really necessary! There is NO repetition, but an urge to show you, stress some points, to make you FEEL their pain/happiness.I can't give less than 5 stars to this book and I must admit I wish I could reread it, but I can't. Maybe someday I will brave enough, but now I just.. can't.