Review: Going into this book, I wasn't Toby's biggest fan
Rating: 5 out of 5
Date: 09 21, 2013
Be My Downfall is the third book in the Whitman University series and it is by far my favorite of the three for many reasons. As much as I loved getting to know the protagonists from the previous books, I formed an instant connection with Toby and Kennedy, almost as if I knew at first glance that theirs would be an unforgettable and compelling love story. These two individuals are lost and broken as a result of unfortunate circumstances and somehow manage to ease their pain by finding comfort in each other's arms. Their combined anguish is so consuming that it's nearly tangible, seeping through the pages of the story in never-ending waves of heartache.The Whitman University series isn't one to shy away from serious issues, and Be My Downfall is especially poignant for its frank dealings with substance abuse. Whether it is through personal experience or by extension, Toby and Kennedy are familiar with the dark side of addiction. Instead of facing their demons, both Toby and Kennedy practice their respective methods of avoidance, although Kennedy's self-destructive tendencies build an invisible wall between them for much of the story.The majority of the narrative is told through Toby's perspective with the addition of diary-like entries from Kennedy at the start of each chapter. These entries are written as though Kennedy was telling her life's story but has become so disconnected with her life that she seems to be talking about another person - one who is able to reveal the deepest and darkest secrets she makes a point to conceal in reality. Kennedy is very matter-of-fact in her personal assessments, and even though her narrative input is minor compared to Toby's, her character has just as much, if not more, emotional impact on me as a reader. These brief yet powerful insights into Kennedy's mind reveal all the heartbreaking details of her past and provide necessary background information as to her current state of mind.Before this book, I didn't really give much thought to Toby, dismissing him early in the series after his unsavory role in the Quinn fiasco. I was surprised by the strength of my attachment to his character, because I felt as though I bonded with him more than with Kennedy, which probably has something to do with the fact that this is the first book in the series largely told through the male protagonist's point-of-view. It was captivating to learn more about the vulnerable and conflicted man behind the polished facade of a wealthy senator's son. In terms of his feelings, Toby is an open book, whereas Kennedy always kept me guessing. At first glance they appear to be polar opposites but it's their fundamental similarities that make them such an interesting couple to get to know.