Review: Beautifully heartbreaking
Rating: 5 out of 5
Date: 06 10, 2011
Don't get me wrong, I adored Matt, his compassion, support, delicacy, strength, but this is Nathan's book. He came alive in my hands and his struggle became real, his desperation was so raw you could almost touch it. He is depressed, he drinks too much and doesn't eat enough and he has a painful death wish. His sexuality is a burden. He is a good man - everyone in the book says so - but he is lonely, he sets himself apart, he feels flawed.In this book Nathan is one of the suspects of the murder of a rich man, who was blackmailing him - and many other people. As a reporter on the scene of the discovery of the corpse, he meets Lt. Mathew Spain, who is in charge of the investigation. The two of them exchange a glance and they recognize something in each other's eyes. Matt, who's a widower, is lonely too. His attraction to Nathan goes hand in hand with the extreme compassion he feels for a kindred and too sensitive soul.They both have a risk to take to be together, but they let themselves live their moment. Matt becomes Nathan's lifeline, the only person that can understand him and help him. In comparison to Nathan, Matt seems almost uncomplicated. He doesn't hide what he feels for the other man, Nathan happens and he embraces him, he embraces it with all the purity of his heart.Even if, probably because of his religious upbringing, Nathan feels his sexuality is something to be ashamed of, a flaw that should be fixed, what he feels and he needs is somehow pure. That's what I read in Matt and Nathan encounters: the distillation of love and need and desire. They are simply beautiful.I'm so glad this book will have a sequel. I'm looking forward to what Matt will bring into Nathan's life and to diving into their world again.