Review: Oh My God!
Rating: 5 out of 5
Date: 07 16, 2014
What did I just read that has my heart hurting, the book is really good I am just so sad with the turn of events.  Olivia has written an engaging installment of the Rock Star's Seduction) but I am so upset with the direction she took with the h and H.  I was hoping Derek wound be my new Jake (from Weathering the Storm), but in the end he fell so drastically short there is no comparison.  There are spoilers in the remaining review so please don't read ahead if you have not read the book.You could see the events coming like a freight train...the warnings and signs were all there but Kaitlyn refused to see any of it.  Why didn't she walk away with her dignity while she could.Kaitlyn turned into a weak, insecure version of her former self.  There are no words for how Derek turned out besides a lying, cheating, shallow, egotistical jerk who could never love anyone else because he is so selfish.  I can't fathom how he made promises to Kaitlyn not even 10 hours before about not cheating and he managed to check into a hotel, find a groupie whore, and sleep with her without an ounce of concern or guilt for the woman he left across town (at least that is how it appears).  Or is Derek just misunderstood, a man who is holding on to a memory of young love; unable to admit that the fantasy is far greater than reality?  Shouldn't Derek be a big boy and be honest with Kaitlyn and himself rather than completely crush those memories by cheating?  Or is Derek that insecure that he needs the constant attention even though these women want him because he is famous - it took Ryan so little time to wake up and realize that - is it unfair to expect Derek to realize it too?  Does an honest, real relationship scare him that much that these empty flings can satisfy his insecurities - maybe he will always need his ego fed like this and he will miss out on a deeply loving relationship.  Or is he in love but can't help but ruin something so good because everyone who has loved him has pushed him away or abandoned him so he would rather hurt than be hurt by the person he loves?  I can almost accept things if he said, I thought I could do this but I am not a commitment kind of guy and I need the attention and variety.  Or maybe there is another theory, sometimes love isn't enough and two people are just not meant to be together, they want each other but are just better and stronger with other partners.  I would say Kaitlyn's insecurities are pretty justified, and Derek was pushing her away, but be honest with her rather than disrespectful and putting her down.  Kaitlyn was clinging to a memory and a fantasy of him and was clinging to a man Derek could never be.  I am team Ryan all the way, but not with Kaitlyn, he deserves more than Derek's sloppy seconds and to be a rebound for someone who doesn't really want him romantically.  He deserves his own HEA that loves him and only him and never gives his best friend the time of day!  Maybe he can find that on the break in South Dakota (please don't have him bring Kaitlyn with him, this man needs some peace).Honestly, the only way this story can redeem itself (for me) is if Kaitlyn goes off and finds success, outside of the article on Bigger.  This will help her find her mojo again, and she can also open her heart to a man that deserves her and doesn't belittle her for wanting love and trust and for being a grown-up sometimes.  Then I need for Derek to come groveling back, after he has lost all his mojo - I am talking can't eat, sleep, write songs, or get it up for another woman because he is too preoccupied with the one that got away again.  I hope Kaitlin slams the door in his face and never looks back leaving him in the dust.  Sometimes you really are better off wondering what could have been rather than watching it go down in flames.End of Spoilers....Oh Olivia, how are you going to make us feel better about all this in installment 3 - and how the heck am I going to be able to wait months to read it.  I have so many theories swimming around in my head and I so want Derek to redeem himself, I am almost afraid to hold onto that hope to be disappointed (like Kaitlyn) in book 3.  I thought I had found my new book boyfriend, but alas I will have to keep looking :) It was a great book and so worth reading, I just wished I could have loved the hero like I did Conner in the Billionaires Seduction books - even at his worst he was 1000 times better than DBag Derek.I am giving the book 5 stars because Olivia pulls you in and makes you feel love, hate, anger, sadness - all ranges of emotion.  I am also giving it 5 stars because I can't stop thinking about the book - even if I am angry for the way things turned out.  Read it and decide for yourself.  And if you haven't read her Billionaire Seduction books, please do because Lily and Connor are two people you should meet!