Review: Not your Hearts and Flowers BDSM
Rating: 4 out of 5
Date: 04 26, 2013
"I want to know if this is real life.""Does that feel like a dream, bitch?""I think ....more like a nightmare."This book is kind of like that in a way. As you are reading you feel like you are in a nightmare but when you really stop and think about the relationship in the book you see it for what it is. This book was a true, raw look into the BDSM world and not the flowers and hearts one that Christian Grey gave us. This is a real Master/Slave relationship, true training and the passion, pain and pleasure these relationships give.This story starts in Dr. Juliana Sells office, she is a psychiatrist who specializes in helping women, even listening to this love of the BDSM world. She gives them advice, listens to them, and somewhere deep down she is curious about their lifestyle. But Juliana also donates time to the state for cops and fireman, mainly individuals that have had a traumatic experience and request therapy or in Derek's case are mandated. See where I'm going? Oh Derek , Mr Dominate, control freak, please spank my ass, WHAT THE HELL, back it up, never mind I think I LOVE HIM. Juliana has been seeing Derek as a shrink but during their last meeting before she releases him, he decides to give her an invitation, a key."Doctor Sells, assume the position," he snapped his fingers and pointed to his lap, "now.""Who do I think I am? I think I'm the kind of man you crave in your self-absorbed lonely life."I was all in at this point I was like oh I love this HOT, there are secrets, sign me up I want to join his club. Well, well just then M.J. Aleese flip the script that I am use to and she showed me the dark side, the real side to BDSM. One that I am not sure I could handle but I won't lie held my attention.The act of carrying her own instrument of pain for reprimand and presenting it to her abuser was both degrading and arousing. Consensual was the word her patient's used. Julia understood.As a psychologist Juliana had been taught to question. She had learned answers were present, she only needed to make the right enquiry, look for the right clue, or probe a little deeper. But as a slave, she'd been taught to graciously accept whatever came her way.This was a short novella that gave a amazing picture of the Master/Slave world. It was raw, there was humiliation, there was intense sex, but more than anything there was a need in Juliana to release this control to someone, to have someone have this power. It was a story of her finding a belonging, acceptance and love.Some of the scenes in this story are rough and a lot of individuals will not be able to handle. I won't lie certain scenes made me cringe inside but I also reminded myself in this relationship if at any time she wanted out there is always a safe word. The BDSM relationship is also consensual, I think that's what makes it so hard to understand. When you are reading and a women is tied, gagged and slapped as a person we automatically go to rape, dominance and torture. But that is not a true Sub/Dom relationship, a true Dom has love, respect and care for their partner. A true Sub/Slave wants the Dom/Master to have this control, she wants this "Tough Love". M.J. gave such a clear picture to this world and the realities of what is behind the door. She showed not only the rough humility but the softer side also. As you are reading you definitely are there in the world and at times you want to shake Juliana and say what the hell is wrong with you say the word and get out. But at the same time you understand that she needs this, she wants this with Derek."Do you have any more questions about what you have seen?"Julie shook her head, "I'm too confused to even know what to ask."I totally didn't think I belonged reading this book but something about it got me, intrigued me and has me opening the next book."But you don't belong here. Here's my number. Call anytime or text, just say this is crazy lady."Give me a number I think I need therapy!*I was given this book for review hopefully I did the author justice.