Review: Not what you would think...
Rating: 5 out of 5
Date: 10 22, 2013
'I don't belong anywhere.Doesn't matter where I go or who I am with, I am always alone'Oh now this story is absolutely stunning.  I am in love with this author.  His voice is so plaintive and self depreciating but his insights into the human psyche whether he is writing purely from instinct,which I kinda think is the majority of the time, are, to me, just genius.Kol Anderson's use of the journal entry is a wonderful way to highlight the underlying emotions and feelings that Jesse is going through even whilst he puts on a brave face for the rest of the world.  They also allow us to feel and understand the things we can't always articulate, the extremes we feel and can never express in a beige and politically correct world.  It turns a good read into a great read.  It is woven in so that when we read the end it all makes sense and presents us with a neatly tied package.'People are slaves aren't they.  To their jobs, to their partners, to their children, even to their lifestyles.We all have those little kinks that we don't tell anyone about, because we think we're going to be judged for them, and because we're slaves to society's rules.'Jesse is the most surprising character in this book, and I can't say much more than that without destroying the ending, whilst, for me at least, Matt takes the emotional and personal journey.  It has cheating in it, both on and off page,  that is why Matt and Jesse aren't together at the start.Matt has reverted back to his old ways and it kills Jesse every time he see's MAtt with a new partner.  And as far as Jesse's heart is concerned, whatever he does with Noah, a Dom that he picks out to give him what he needs to try and forget Matt and what they had,  is cheating, him cheating.  It is this that we get dropped into.I love it because most of us can identify with Matt or Jesse or at least a part of them, and again Kol Anderson shows how he can write in the voice that we hear in our heads.  Well mine at least..