Review: Unbelievable 5 stars! You'll feel everything!!!
Rating: 5 out of 5
Date: 08 23, 2013
OH MY GOSH, this book takes you through the ringer.  You love it, hate it. You want to stop reading it b/c it's getting to you too much. You try. You put it down. You can't. You can't not pick it up and finish it.  You must finish this heartbreaking love story.  Story of love & pain & loss & heartache & fear & lust & faith & LOVE.Cathy is broken, so broken she truly believes she is a broken shell of a woman and doesn't believe she is enough.  She has a history of miscarriages and it just continues to break and destroy her & her marriage. Until Arsen.Until Arsen- she had a happy marriageUntil Arsen- she had BenUntil Arsen- she thought things were perfectUntil ArsenArsen...ARSEN....ugh........I want to like Arsen, I really do. I just don't.... I can't, it's not in me.I didn't want to like him and truly now I can not admit I like him.  Yes he is alph and yes he is hot...yes he is 24 years old.  At times I called him a whiney littls se* sissy who complained about his daddy and the pot full of money.  But as you read Arsen truly grows on you like wild fire.  He is there for Cathy at her darkest hour and even though I didn't want it, I prayed it would go another way.  Sometimes you need an outsider to come in and let you see the light.  Arsen was Cathy & Ben's light.  A beautiful heartbreaking light.......The things he says in front of Ben, I...Me...Megan wanted to go in the book and kick his balls; Which btw is exactly what I told Mia!!!!BenBen is perfectBen is wonderfulBen is swoonworthyBen is caringBen is devaststatedI must first show some MAJOR Ben LOVE.  He had my heart from the first time he spoke.  I am Team Ben all the way. He is a total gentlemen in public but heavens behind closed doors.... He has it going on.  He is so swoonworthy and loves Cathy so very much! I want to take him a fix him and rid him of all the heartache that has been placed on him.CathyCathy wants to be a motherCathy wants to be happyCathy wants to be lovedCathy wants to be repairCathy. OMG Cathy!!!!! I want to shake you so you wake up. Ben.  YOU HAVE BEN. Srew Arsen..ha yeah got that, right :)There are times I felt sorry for Cathy, I tried to understand where she was coming from.  Many times I couldn't stand her and MANY times I hated her. I don't like her choices.  I can't stand her for her choices.  But they are HER choices.  She will now have to live the life she has created.This book had me twisting and churning and squirming in my seat.  I was back and forth messaging with Mia and other readers.  I felt every emotion. I feel like i've been punched in the gut.  I'm hurling over trying to catch my breath.  At the end of the book I stated that I was going through the grief process.  And it is truly the perfect way to explain my feelings.  You have such happy memories of Ben & Cathy's relationship, you are on cloud nine.  Then a fire starts...perfectly named Arsen and kills those memories.  In which I turned to hate, hate for so many things said and done.  Next, Pissed PISSED for things that should have been said, PISSED for things that shouldn't have happened. I stayed pissed for the longest.  I am probably still pissed. Sorrow. Sorrow for the closure, for the loss, for the tears, Sorrow for the END.Mia's first book is to die for.  If you want to sit back, kick your feet up and read and not feel a thing, well this book is not for you.  Arsen will make you FEEL EVERYTHING. The Good. The Bad. The Ugly. It will make you want to scream and yell and want to fix it.  You can't. I tried.This is a hard story for anyone b/c it deals with miscarriages and failing marriages and cheating. It was extremely hard for me to process. I knew it was going to be a hard read, I KNEW IT.  I braced myself for it.  Well I thought I braced for the impact Arsen would give. I was soooo wrong. Beautiful job Mia. <3