Review: An erotic Alice in Wonderland
Rating: 5 out of 5
Date: 06 18, 2011
This book was truly amazing!  Sara Desmaris takes us on an amazing, dramatic, romantic, and erotic trip down the rabbit hole, leading us from a very mild brush with his wife discovering the kind of erotic web sites he has been reading, and gradually turning his wildest fantasies into reality.Of course, John quickly discovers that he should be careful what he asks for, because he WILL get it, all of it, with his wife Sara often pushing the limits of his ability to accept fantasies turning into reality.This book is an epic, and truly has something for everyone.  For men and women into female domination in any form, the interplay between Sara as the dominatrix wife, and her husbands internal dialogue as both John and as Julie, the masculine and feminine, at war with each other, with Sara gradually guiding her husbands to fulfill his fantasies of becoming Julie, and being the loving and devoted slave, is intensely erotic.For men who have had fantasies of doing any of the things women do, the erotic and dramatic descriptions of John's gradual transformation into Julie are so vivid and intense you want to be having the same experiences.  And for women who have ever wondered what it would like to be a man, the dramatic inner conflicts between John and Julie provide amazing insights into how intensely men fight to keep their feminine side from being discovered.I must admit, there were sections that were almost painful to read.  One of the themes, cuckholding, having your wife have intense sex with another man, brought back bittersweet memories for me.  I dated a girl my sophomore year in College who enjoyed getting me motivated by telling me of her adventures with other men the night before, then meeting me right after dinner where I would bring her to numerous orgasms before letting her go find some man with the required 8 inches (on a good day, I had less than 4).  I was a virgin (from the waist down), and enjoyed giving her pleasure, but frustrated that I would always end up back in my room to take care of myself.The hardest part of cuckholding is that a man who wants to be the "Alpha Male" doesn't want to share "his woman" with another man, even an effeminate male.  He wants to possess her for himself.  Nearly all of my relationships ended with the woman I loved not only confirming the affair I suspected, but telling me that they had to break up with me so they could marry the other man.  The tragedy was that so often, once the possession was achieved, the challenge was gone, and the women were discarded, like used goods.Yet, painful as it was, at times, the intense blend of drama, erotica, and sometimes even clinical information in this unusually long novel made me want to go deeper into the rabbit hole, excited to see what would be next, when (not if) the next masculine barrier to femininity would give way to the intense psychological, sexual, and even pharmacological domination of his wife Sara, as she leads him places he knows Julie wants to go, but where his conditioning as John, the man, the male, has tried to train him that he should never go.Even the ending, while abrupt, leaving the reader with many unanswered questions, was erotic, dramatic, and romantic.Even as a reader, with experience in most of these areas, I could not tell you whether the writer was the man, the transgendered She-male, or the domineering wife.Probably one of the best books I've purchased for my kindle to date.  I can't wait to read more of Sara's books.