Subtle, yet real
I bought this in hopes that it would calm down my anxieties about school and work. My heart rate is typically about 100bpm, and whenever I go to the doctor my blood pressure is something like 140/90. I feel like I have a subconscious anxiety where I don't think or feel anxious, but the effects of anxiety are there in my body and the back of my mind.<br />Anyway, this arrived in my mailbox (get the larger size if you have prime) and I immediately mixed a shy half a tablespoonful with my hot chocolate. *Note: it doesn't mix with hot water. Only mix it with cold water or it'll lump up and you'll have to lick it off the spoon. It smells kinda sickly sweet, but also like juice at the same time. It does taste better than it smells. I did notice a mild numbing on the tip of my tongue, but as a redhead local/topical anesthetics don't work very well for us so it quickly subsided within 1 minute. I felt pretty ok, but not free of anxiety, and my muscles were still tense. I had another serving the same size a couple hours later. I felt the same with this serving as with the first one.<br />The next day (today) I had a whole spoonful of this stuff in some apple juice. I feel like the effects are so subtle that I've been dismissing them as placebo. The following are the effects I have noticed so far:<br />#1: I have difficulty after it kicks in to form mature adult-like thought patterns. Mostly I laugh as adult jokes when my parents are nearby, and I realize that &#34;oh, I shouldn't be laughing at that right now, dad's right there&#34;, but at the same time I don't care. You hear that, dad, I just don't care. I also enjoy myself a lot more watching funny/strange videos. Look up &#34;Berdthday boy&#34; (note the spelling) on youtube and you'll know what I'm talking about.<br />#2: I've been thinking some really strange thoughts and sentences, even the day after I drink my tea. One word in my head leads to the next and then I've got this image in my head of a moocow propelling itself through space with her farts. I wish I could text these thoughts to my girlfriend, but she's been really busy at school.<br />#3: English words are strange and it's weird to type sentences.<br />#4: I'm feelink (see, I thought &#34;g&#34; makes close to a &#34;k&#34; so I accidentally typed a k) a slight level relaxation right now, 8 hours after I had my tea, and I'm feeling #3 very much right now. It's 2:30am, but I'm cool with that and my back muscles aren't really tense at all<br />#5: Vivid dreams. I normally just black out and wake up the next day for school, even on the weekend. I largely attribute this to the brain's ability to determine if it wants to conserve energy by reducing throughput. I had a vivid dream for the first time in ever. Though it was partially about anxiety about getting something done for another person I don't care about (sounds like grading papers for my boss), I could recall feelings I had, places I was, objects I saw, I even had a dream that there were corn chips in my kitchen and I was disappointed tonight when I realized we don't actually have fritos.<br />#6: Insomnia is a choice for me right now. Usually I get in bed and stare at my eyelids for an hour. I didn't have trouble falling asleep yesterday, and I really feel like I could fall asleep no problem right now, and I should really go to sleep but it's winter break so HA!.<br /><br />I would imagine these effects would continue to build if I make tea tomorrow morning. Good thing I'm on winter break. I really needed this after an extremely stressful line of work I was trapped in for a year and a half there, and it's over now. I was going to drink to toast the end of it, but this is starting to feel like a much better alternative. I really feel like playing some great video games and just sprouting my couchpotato roots.
Rating: 5 stars