Of late I've not been myself but suicide has never crossed my mind. I just feel so useless and worthless, I live by the grace of God. My parents are too judgemental and inconsiderate. At some point I vowed never to visit or call any of them and I was Comfortable like that until when I thought that what if something bad happens to any of them, is God okay with my decision 🤔. This has really affected me such that I don't trust anyone except for my two babies, I don't trust even their father who's my husband. This whole situation has started to make me see and feel the  bad things in my hubby. He's a good man though not financially capable. Do I have a spirit of rejection in me or maybe I'm just as useless?