I have two Children one is 7 and the other one is 5 years old . My marriage is almost 9 years . My husband lives in Japan . He come here very often. His behaviour with is very lovely and caring. One thing I need to share that he is good until you ask him not to hang out with other women. He is womaniser . If I caught him with other women he denied. After some days later he stopped support me with money and other expenses. He blocked me from everything. His behaviour with me like a devil monster. I can’t even explain. On the other hand he doesn’t want to divorce me . My financial condition is not strong that I can survive with my kids . He abused me when he is available in the house. After that his other family members are same like him , they are always on my bake with their big mouth. I can’t take this anymore. I want to live . I want to breathe. I want to be happy. I want to  smile with my kids . Before marriage I used to work as a cabin crew for 7 years . Now he is treating me like a slam god . His disrespectful behaviour in front of my kids and his other family members. I can’t even live my tow little kids . Last time when he came to house he beat me and broke my lower back bone spineL5 lamber . Now I can’t even move by my own . I can’t leave my kids or I can’t even suicide . I’m help less . Maybe Allah is giving me punishment. Until when I have to suffer or maybe if I will die this will stop . But what will be happen with my kids ?