Today is my 24th birthday. I left my country 5 years ago to try make myself a new life and finally try to suffer less...but after these 5 years it just seem that i was the cause of my suffering all along. I would just love to know what i should do to finally be happy or at least in peace. Sometimes i close myself in the bathroom and imagine that there was some kind of apocalypse and those are the few moments where i can actually feel peace