Since i was 12, i lived with my granny.My cousins hated me, they made me feel worthless and the only person who was there to keep me going was my granny.I was also struggling emotionally, i wanted a friend and soon after putting my wants and needs in prayer a friend came along.I was so happy that i could experience life, love and care out of the hate i lived with.Everything was perfect until he left i was left alone, and that's when i realized that i had developed attachment issues.Since then every guy that comes to my life never seems to understand me, i always expect more because to me i still yearn that love and affection.I always scare them away.If i can remember all 7 guys always seem to go and am left alone to cry and fix myself.I don't know what to do anymore, i have prayed and asked God but he never seems to listen so i stopped praying and just let whatever he wants to, to happen.I don't want a boyfriend just a friend one who could handle me.I feel that am unfortunate and not good enough.Even if God is protecting me, i just don't like it, i want to live like a normal teenager.Am soo miserable.