I tried talking to friends family members none of that help I’m still in depth and people calling and texting and looking for me every time I have gone to the hospital for mental illness due to this but I’m still in a lot of trouble. My kids are suffering more from this. Mybe God really want me to live this way. You know I have also thought of killing my kids because who will be with them when I’m not around. I have been through alot. Thank you for the platform but I’m a lost case.