Question: Can you describe situations where you felt a strong need to prevent someone from leaving you, either physically or emotionally? Have you felt this need often?
Answer: yes I broke up with my girlfriend months ago. it lasted for around 3 years so it was a committed and serious relationship with long term planning. during the breakup I begged her to stay but she left for various reasons. After the breakup I tried to make myself understand that she's gone and tried to move on but it's been 4 months and I still cant forget anything about us, the good moments of us still haunts me like hell, thats why I went back to beg her to come back but as usual she didnt come back. As the relationship contained physical intimacy it has been really hard to move on. At this point I cant even like any other girl no matter if the girl is 10x prettier than her. I want her back no matter what

Question: Do you feel that your interpersonal relationships with those you are close to are unstable? Have you experienced patterns where you alternate between seeing someone as wonderful and then seeing them as terrible?
Answer: I have close relationship with only my mum,sister and 2-3 of my friends thats it. I'll say there have been some certain traits in my friends which made me think differently of them than how I had already seen them but I wouldnt say that it was a complete shift from "wonderful" to "terrible".

Question: Can you talk about how you see yourself? Does your perception of yourself (how you view yourself) change frequently?
Answer: I think I lack talent at literally anything and Im not particularly very good at anything.Always very average on everything,like studies,looks,sports etc.No I dont view myself differently at any instance,I think lowly of myself since school.

Question: Can you describe any impulsive and potentially self-damaging behaviors you engage in, such as spending money irresponsibly, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, or binge eating?
Answer: I dont know if this is appropriate but I'll say. during any fights or arguments during my relationship,if we had a really bad argument we would just have very rough sex which later hurt her badly but I felt good doing it like I felt like punishing her for what she did.

Question: Can you describe any incidents of self-harm or repeated suicide attempts?
Answer: Yes I thought of running myself over a car a hundred times during my relationship but I never gathered the courage to perform.

Question: Does your mood change frequently throughout the day? Are there times when you feel intensely happy, sad, anxious or irritated for no apparent reason?
Answer: Umm it depends,If I have enough money then I'll be alright but if I dont I'll be pissed no matter what.

Question: Have you experienced chronic or constant feelings of emptiness?
Answer: Of course I do. after her being gone I just feel like there has been a huge void in my life no matter what I do I just can't fill up that void.it's like only she could be the missing piece of the puzzle from my life.usually when it becomes too much I smoke cigarette.

Question: Can you share any experiences where you felt extremely angry or found it hard to control your temper? Have you experienced frequent displays of temper, constant anger, verbal outbursts, or recurrent physical fights?
Answer: Of course I did,it was all about when we had bad arguments between us.It just felt like whenever she hurt me bad it would trigger these kind of uncontrolled temper.Also the problem of me not feeling enough always triggered me why I didnt get accepted into the university I wanted, was I not worthy enough? Did I not deserve the colorful life my friends are living? Usually these types of realization triggers extreme anger of shattering everything around me.

Question: Can you describe experiences where you felt intensely suspicious of others (for example, believing people wanted to harm you) or disconnected from reality, especially during stressful times?
Answer: I do disconnect from people in my life when I feel stressed. I feel like I'll interact when I am more free. But I am not suspicious of them or their intentions. I know they want my good.