Question: Can you describe situations where you felt a strong need to prevent someone from leaving you, either physically or emotionally? Have you felt this need often?
Answer: Yes I felt. But it was necessary to leave that person because the effort was not the same. Though the profession field seems the same but the age gap forced us to drive our relationship from us and at that moment I felt the necessity to prevent her departure. But, I guess I was tired to argue with her and allowed her to do whatever she wants.

Question: Do you feel that your interpersonal relationships with those you are close to are unstable? Have you experienced patterns where you alternate between seeing someone as wonderful and then seeing them as terrible?
Answer: Yeah. After talking with them for over some long period of time the emotion fades. The sparks are gone. And it feels like there is nothing more to discuss. The feelings get numb and that’s when we feel that.

Question: Can you talk about how you see yourself? Does your perception of yourself (how you view yourself) change frequently?
Answer: I see myself a quite generous guy but being a good person doesn’t bring anything but hardships. Just tired with everything to be honest.

Question: Can you describe any impulsive and potentially self-damaging behaviors you engage in, such as spending money irresponsibly, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, or binge eating?
Answer: Yeah I impulsively self-damaged myself and am still damaging myself. Like- spending money irresponsibly, substance inhale but not abuse, reckless driving but keep myself deprived of sleep if I am sad.

Question: Can you describe any incidents where you engaged in self-harm or made repeated suicide attempts?
Answer: Not suicide attempts but thought of it. The urgency of nicotine consumption every now and then and being aroused all the time and this physical necessity is killing me. Though it was not like this earlier but this recent scenarios seeing people together hurts me so much. Why not me?!

Question: Does your mood change frequently throughout the day? Are there times when you feel intensely happy, sad, anxious or irritated for no apparent reason?
Answer: Doesn’t change actually. Don’t care about what anybody thinks of myself. Just I miss my old self that’s it.

Question: Have you experienced chronic or constant feelings of emptiness?
Answer: I do all the timese. I don’t cope with it tbh. Just text with people on reddits. Anonymous talking is the best.

Question: Can you share any experiences where you felt extremely angry or found it hard to control your temper? Have you experienced frequent displays of temper, constant anger, verbal outbursts, or recurrent physical fights?
Answer: The stress of studying freaks me out. Can’t tolerate this. I can function well very well if I am alone. Even the Phoenix grows in silence but this dorm facility is killing me.

Question: Can you describe experiences where you felt intensely suspicious of others (for example, believing people wanted to harm you) or disconnected from reality, especially during stressful times?
Answer: I just feel disconnected from outside world. I miss my old friends and feel sad and depressed whenever i go and meet them.