Question: Can you describe situations where you felt a strong need to prevent someone from leaving you, either physically or emotionally? Have you felt this need often?
Answer: When my friends become busy, I feel like they are creating distance from me. At that time, it feels like I will lose them. I feel desperation, and send them texts or memes to feel connected again

Question: Do you feel that your interpersonal relationships with those you are close to are unstable? Have you experienced patterns where you alternate between seeing someone as wonderful and then seeing them as terrible?
Answer: Yes. When I start to know someone or I know very little about them, they seem all wonderful but gradually with time, the admiration wears off. I do not see them as terrible but I fail to see the wow factor. But again, no one is perfect. It's the imperfections that make human beings perfect. Though in some cases, I wish I did not have to see the ugly sides of people. They looked very nice from afar.

Question: Can you talk about how you see yourself? Does your perception of yourself (how you view yourself) change frequently?
Answer: I view myself as a person who has been blessed with a perfect life but is a total loser who fails to give back anything. And quite irresponsible. My perception of myself does not change frequently.

Question: Can you describe any impulsive and potentially self-damaging behaviors you engage in, such as spending money irresponsibly, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, or binge eating?
Answer: My spending habits are very bad. If I have money with me, it is bound to be spent on unnecessary things mostly. I cannot control my desire to buy something when I like it. I always act in an impulsive manner. Too much overreacting even before realizing what I've done. Worst temper. I drive recklessly too i guess

Question: Can you describe any incidents of self-harm or repeated suicide attempts?
Answer: Sometimes I think it'd be better if I died. But then it appears very selfish to me because I have a family and friends who don't want me to be gone. So the thoughts go away just like they came. But there have been situations where I see something very unjust happening and I feel the impulse to sacrifice myself and blame it on the oppressors because no one cares until somebody dies. But suicide is haram so I never act on these thoughts.

Question: Does your mood change frequently throughout the day? Are there times when you feel intensely happy, sad, anxious or irritated for no apparent reason?
Answer: This happens sometimes. One moment, I'm the happiest person in the world and the next moment, I'm crying like a baby over something very trivial. But I won't say this happens very often. Mood changes often when I'm outside. Mostly I feel irritated because I don't want to interact with people and just go home.

Question: Have you experienced chronic or constant feelings of emptiness?
Answer: I do not feel like this. Sometimes I think I should've achieved more in terms of academics and skills. My whole university life feels like a big void. But I believe life is much bigger than these. Even if I don't have any acievement, I still won't be a total waste. I can still be good person, I can still be a good Muslim. Even if I cannot make big differences, I can make small ones. I was never very ambitious. I think this helps.

Question: Can you share any experiences where you felt extremely angry or found it hard to control your temper? Have you experienced frequent displays of temper, constant anger, verbal outbursts, or recurrent physical fights?
Answer: I often feel very angry. Sometimes for valid reasons, sometimes for absolutely no reason at all. Injustices that are as clear as crystal being conducted and people with power not doing anything about it makes me extremely angry. I respond by praying to Allah for their downfall and punishment. I also found myself in a situation when I was so disappointed with many people and felt a burst of anger. I wanted to scream.

Question: Can you describe experiences where you felt intensely suspicious of others (for example, believing people wanted to harm you) or disconnected from reality, especially during stressful times?
Answer: Sometimes I do feel suspicious about people but I give them the benefit of doubt. I try to not believe anything bad about anyone just by hearing it from someone else. I do not feel disconnected