Question: Can you describe situations where you felt a strong need to prevent someone from leaving you, either physically or emotionally? Have you felt this need often?
Answer: Yes but it does not happen very often. once or twice in my life. i remember one time i was ready to do literally anything to stop a person from leaving me

Question: Do you feel that your interpersonal relationships with those you are close to are unstable? Have you experienced patterns where you alternate between seeing someone as wonderful and then seeing them as terrible?
Answer: i try not to get too much close to other people. no, my opinion about a person is very difficult to alter

Question: Can you talk about how you see yourself? Does your perception of yourself (how you view yourself) change frequently?
Answer: At most times, i view myself as a failure. I view myself being seen as a joke by my friends and people around me. This feeling sometimes change, then i see myself as a normal average person in society. No, it does not change frequently, the loser perception stays longer.

Question: Can you describe any impulsive and potentially self-damaging behaviors you engage in, such as spending money irresponsibly, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, or binge eating?
Answer: yes, i do a lot of self harming when i am feeling down. i used to do a lot of cutting on my skin, but they left hideous marks so i stopped. now i am into smoking cigarettes and occasionally starving myself. smoking has impacted my life a lot for obvious reasons most importantly the shame and guilt and the feeling of being an outsider.

Question: Can you describe any incidents of self-harm or repeated suicide attempts?
Answer: well like I said, yes, i do a lot of self harming when i am feeling down. i used to do a lot of cutting on my skin, but they left hideous marks so i stopped. i used to have a lot of suicidal thoughts back in 2019 2020, even now sometimes, but i know that I will never actually commit suicide.

Question: Does your mood change frequently throughout the day? Are there times when you feel intensely happy, sad, anxious or irritated for no apparent reason?
Answer: i mostly feel sad and down and irritated all the time. i am rarely happy. The changes occur over a long time though i have noticed

Question: Have you experienced chronic or constant feelings of emptiness?
Answer: yes i do feel like that very often. i just distract myself and deal with it.

Question: Can you share any experiences where you felt extremely angry or found it hard to control your temper? Have you experienced frequent displays of temper, constant anger, verbal outbursts, or recurrent physical fights?
Answer: i do sometimes get angry then i try to hurt the feeling of the other person to make myself feel better. I feel this anger a lot when someone ignores me or neglects me in any way

Question: Can you describe experiences where you felt intensely suspicious of others (for example, believing people wanted to harm you) or disconnected from reality, especially during stressful times?
Answer: yes whenever people act nice with me i get suspicious. like.. why would they be nice to me? what ulterior motives do they have? But I dont think they want anything bad for me, they just want good for themselves