Question: Can you describe situations where you felt a strong need to prevent someone from leaving you, either physically or emotionally? Have you felt this need often?
Answer: If leaving means dying then yes. When my baby cousin died in accident, I felt a physical ache in my heart like it was breaking. I wanted to take her and not let her go

Question: Do you feel that your interpersonal relationships with those you are close to are unstable? Have you experienced patterns where you alternate between seeing someone as wonderful and then seeing them as terrible?
Answer: Yes. It happens frequently with me. At first when I meet someone, I feel drawn to them cause they are new. But when their other parts are shown to me, I get hurt by some and then think they are terrible. If I forgive them and they act nice to me regarding something then they become wonderful to me again

Question: Can you talk about how you see yourself? Does your perception of yourself (how you view yourself) change frequently?
Answer: I see myself as a broken person and a strong person at the same time. My mental state is not stable. Insecurities, low self esteem, low self respect, low self confidence, feeling like a failure in this competitive society is my daily thinking. While at the same time, I fight these negative views, try to work on me everyday and move in life which makes me strong everyday

Question: Can you describe any impulsive and potentially self-damaging behaviors you engage in, such as spending money irresponsibly, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, or binge eating?
Answer: Yes. One would be eating a lot which is binge eating cause of stress, anxiety. This makes me feel more worse mentally, physically. Sometimes I puke, sometimes my sleeping increases. Another would be scrolling endlessly cause I am extremely stressed about something. Rather than doing that task I keep wasting time cause that's easier than tackling that task, but it makes everything more worse

Question: Can you describe any incidents of self-harm or repeated suicide attempts?
Answer: No. Alhamdulillah never. I have never thought of that cause of Allah. This body, soul is His. I would never try to do that to my lord and also the punishment for suicide is hell, so that's also a reason

Question: Does your mood change frequently throughout the day? Are there times when you feel intensely happy, sad, anxious or irritated for no apparent reason?
Answer: All the time. My mood mainly changes based on other people's behavior with me weirdly. I have thought about it actually, and I think this is because I am an emotional and empathetic person. I also have a bad habit of people pleasing. Which makes me want to please everyone and have a nice assertive relationship with everyone. But unfortunately this single thing makes my mood change if I face conflict or someone behaves rudely with me. This might be all their fault, but I am the one feeling guilty, sad. Other stuff will be self deprecating thoughts. I am a failure, I don't deserve anything, I am not worth anything, I have no skills etc

Question: Have you experienced chronic or constant feelings of emptiness?
Answer: I feel this everyday. I don't like this world..this world has no purpose it seems to me. I just want to leave everything and sit in darkness forever

Question: Can you share any experiences where you felt extremely angry or found it hard to control your temper? Have you experienced frequent displays of temper, constant anger, verbal outbursts, or recurrent physical fights?
Answer: Yes. Mostly disrespect makes me angry. Also irresponsibility, inconsideration, rude behavior from my close people towards me or other close people also makes me extremely angry. If you don't know how to talk ,don't. If you have a fault, accept it

Question: Can you describe experiences where you felt intensely suspicious of others (for example, believing people wanted to harm you) or disconnected from reality, especially during stressful times?
Answer: Yes. Mostly let's say in exams. Where I panic and become anxious that there's so many marks I won't get and I don't know the correct answer. I just want to leave reality and never come back