Question: Can you describe situations where you felt a strong need to prevent someone from leaving you, either physically or emotionally? Have you felt this need often?
Answer: Yes. I was extremely dependent on my ex partner, mostly because of the trauma bond that we had and it was my first real relationship ever. Although it was abusive, toxic and draining I kept trying to save the relationship and keep the person from leaving, even though it was only hurting me more.

Question: Do you feel that your interpersonal relationships with those you are close to are unstable? Have you experienced patterns where you alternate between seeing someone as wonderful and then seeing them as terrible?
Answer: Not really, unless they had done something to hurt me or if our perspectives on life and morality were extremely different, then yes.

Question: Can you talk about how you see yourself? Does your perception of yourself (how you view yourself) change frequently?
Answer: Yes it does. It’s always either between i'm unstoppable or everything has lost meaning and im weak- a failure almost.

Question: Can you describe any impulsive and potentially self-damaging behaviors you engage in, such as spending money irresponsibly, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, or binge eating?
Answer: I don’t anymore fortunately. However, when I was dependant on my ex partner the breakup had affected me negatively as well as the passing of a loved one at the same time and I engulfed myself in substance abuse and self harm until I reached a certain point of clarity to get myself to stop. The whole experience shattered a part of myself and caused me to mature a lot earlier than I should have

Question: Can you describe any incidents of self-harm or repeated suicide attempts?
Answer: Yes. Again, my past experiences had made me extremely impulsive and I would hurt myself in many ways and nearly ended my life unintentionally because of the negligence of substance abuse. I have dealt with mental health issues before as well when I was a lot younger and had a habit of self harming

Question: Does your mood change frequently throughout the day? Are there times when you feel intensely happy, sad, anxious or irritated for no apparent reason?
Answer: Yes. There are some days where I’m doing fairly well, content and throughout the week there will be sudden emotional changes that will result in me feeling more frail, agitated and anxious.

Question: Have you experienced chronic or constant feelings of emptiness?
Answer: I have felt like that when everything in my life went downhill, the toxic relationship, losing my grandmother, failing in academics and simply not having a sense of self. All of the pain combined together had caused me to detach myself from reality resulting in feeling empty. Unfortunately that is still a coping mechanism I still use and am currently using since I just lost somebody again and am going through a rough patch in life.

Question: Can you share any experiences where you felt extremely angry or found it hard to control your temper? Have you experienced frequent displays of temper, constant anger, verbal outbursts, or recurrent physical fights?
Answer: Yes. Disagreements. Not because I like having it my way but my past experiences had made me feel neglected and as if no one heard me so now, when someone disagrees with me or is not hearing me out I lose my temper quite a bit and can get slightly verbally abusive but not as vulgar as I used to be

Question: Can you describe experiences where you felt intensely suspicious of others (for example, believing people wanted to harm you) or disconnected from reality, especially during stressful times?
Answer: I can relate to being disconnected from reality. When I was younger my suppression of past trauma had resurfaced which for some reason turned on my fight or flight mode and I lived on autopilot for months on end, questioning if everything around me was real or if I was real, it drove me a bit insane. It still happens from time to time but I am better at coping now.