Question: Can you describe situations where you felt a strong need to prevent someone from leaving you, either physically or emotionally? Have you felt this need often?
Answer: Yes, I have had this feeling since I was a teenager that I need to entertain/go out of my way to be friendly so that people wouldn't leave me. I don't naturally have what it takes for people's affection so I have to go the extra mile to make them stay.

Question: Do you feel that your interpersonal relationships with those you are close to are unstable? Have you experienced patterns where you alternate between seeing someone as wonderful and then seeing them as terrible?
Answer: Yes, I tend to be unsure of my feelings with everyone, including my family. I keep switching between loving people and disliking them in a very fluctuating manner and often times the emotion is on the extreme side. I cannot make up mind on what I truly feel.

Question: Can you talk about how you see yourself? Does your perception of yourself (how you view yourself) change frequently?
Answer: Yes, my perception of myself is rather unstable. Sometimes I view myself as a kind and generous soul whereas other times (more frequently) I feel like an empty shell with no personality. I hate every aspect of me in those situations and feel like an imposter trying to act like a good person. My interests and attributes keep shifting with time as well, I have a hard time holding onto things.

Question: Can you describe any impulsive and potentially self-damaging behaviors you engage in, such as spending money irresponsibly, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, or binge eating?
Answer: I am not as impulsive. I used to shop a lot online which I have been trying my best to keep under control. Other than that, i engage in habits sometimes that are not as substantial that I would consider those to be self harming. I used to poke the palm of my hand with safety pins when I was younger, I bit my tongue until it bled, i chew on the insides of my mouth till it puffs up and bleeds, i am harsh on my lips and I sometimes repeat actions that physically hurt which gives me pleasure (not enough to bleed or bruise). Other than these, I used to have very bad anger issues and I would act out a lot (throwing things, screaming really loud, hitting people etc) and I occasionally have the impulse to argue or ruin everyone's good time for no reason.

Question: Can you describe any incidents where you engaged in self-harm or made repeated suicide attempts?
Answer: Yes, I used to have these thoughts very often before. I never acted on them and have learned to deal with those in a healthy manner. They do resurface here and there still but I try my best to control them.

Question: Does your mood change frequently throughout the day? Are there times when you feel intensely happy, sad, anxious or irritated for no apparent reason?
Answer: My mood fluctuates a lot throughout the day. I can go from being incredibly happy to depressed, furious, anxious in hours. I also get depressive episodes every couple of weeks where I cannot function properly. These feelings sometimes have small triggers and sometimes come out of nowhere.

Question: Have you experienced chronic or constant feelings of emptiness?
Answer: I have felt empty most of the life in the sense that I cannot feel things. My coping mechanism is acting based on what I think my good persona would do.

Question: Can you share any experiences where you felt extremely angry or found it hard to control your temper? Have you experienced frequent displays of temper, constant anger, verbal outbursts, or recurrent physical fights?
Answer: I used to have these experiences a lot but now I try to manage those. I used have horrible anger issues that I have mentioned in a previous answer and most of the time it is triggered by my family or my failure in life.

Question: Can you describe experiences where you felt intensely suspicious of others (for example, believing people wanted to harm you) or disconnected from reality, especially during stressful times?
Answer: I often feel like people are friends with me or nice to me just out of generosity and no one actually finds me interesting. I also tend to disassociate when things are hard or too complex to deal with as a coping mechanism.