Question: Can you describe situations where you felt a strong need to prevent someone from leaving you, either physically or emotionally? Have you felt this need often?
Answer: I grew up lonely. when I was 4 my older cousin who stayed with us up until that point graduated & left the city. With her I used to sleep, go to school & walk back home, walk around picking flowers in the morning & play with other kids on the evening. I used to cry and cling to her a lot whenever I saw her. There's also many of the girls who used to work in our house whom I got close to. I used to ask them for reassurances that they'd return after going for a vacation which most of the times they didn't. I think in my family I'm the one who was the closest to them, I always tried to accommodate their needs, consider their feelings and make them want our house to be somewhere they'd want to come back to. Sometimes they'd say they stayed for me for as long as they did.
In my friendships I'm usually the one who always put effort to make up after fights and prevent any conflict. I did that on my home too, maybe in a bit more subconscious level. Whatever emotional connection I got to have with my parents, I did everything they expected of me in order to keep them from taking that away from me. Regardless of my wishes, I always did a lot of chores, listened (or at least pretended to) to whatever my excessively controlling parents would ask me not to do and even ended up choosing the major they wanted me to choose despite how much I didn't want to. I don't think I've ever stood up for myself for anything. 
There's also the fact that I ended up staying very close friends with the person I had feelings for instead of just cutting off that person when a romantic relationship was not gonna work.
At this point in my life, I have gotten into the habit of distancing myself from people. If I'm detached enough, it wouldn't hurt that bad if they left.

Question: Do you feel that your interpersonal relationships with those you are close to are unstable? Have you experienced patterns where you alternate between seeing someone as wonderful and then seeing them as terrible?
Answer: I wouldn't say "terrible" but there's definitely a pattern of me finding people to be extraordinary & wonderful only to realize that they aren't as perfect as I made them out to be.

Question: Can you talk about how you see yourself? Does your perception of yourself (how you view yourself) change frequently?
Answer: I don't know. My perception of myself before I turned 14 was very different from how I begin to perceive myself after. Up until that age I used to have things that mattered the most to me and I was sure of that. I used to read story books like breathing, I used to find joy in studying (maths & language) and no matter how hard life was I used to have a positive outlook. I was very idealistic & dreamy. But after that I slowly started to doubt myself in everything, I grew a cynical attitude towards the world.  I started to lose my self identity. My beliefs on a lot of things changed completely. The more I learn about the ways of the world, the more I grow self aware and experience things, the more I doubt how I used to perceive myself.

Question: Can you describe any impulsive and potentially self-damaging behaviors you engage in, such as spending money irresponsibly, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, or binge eating?
Answer: Sometimes I do things that I know will be bad for me but it's not anything that extreme. Mostly it's staying up all night on workdays, eating things I know will not be good for my stomach etc.

Question: Can you describe any incidents where you engaged in self-harm or made repeated suicide attempts?
Answer: Once, before my exams. It was midnight and I still hadn't properly started studying. It was bengali, and as much as I loved bengali literature, I couldn't make myself read the proses I read once before. Sometimes repetition/the idea of repetition makes my brain completely incapable of focusing. It made me mad and also lose my mind a little. I couldn't understand what was wrong with me and why I couldn't study like any normal person. The pressure of it got to me. I used the blade we had for bio lab kit to scratch on my forearms, to just use the sting to come back to myself. For the next 24 hours I did not realize what I had done but after that I looked at the scratch marks and couldn't believe what possessed me to do something like that. I don't think I even did bad in that exam, it was more about not having control over myself, my own brain not cooperating that made me have a breakdown.

Question: Does your mood change frequently throughout the day? Are there times when you feel intensely happy, sad, anxious or irritated for no apparent reason?
Answer: It can change lot but oftentimes there's a reason for it. Something that might seem small and insignificant to others can be hard for me to move on from.there are days when all the emotions I repressed burst out and become overwhelming.

Question: Have you experienced chronic or constant feelings of emptiness?
Answer: Yes, very often actually. I try to make myself feel by finding something sad to read, listen to music etc when that doesn't work I find some fictional character/series to obsess over.

Question: Can you share any experiences where you felt extremely angry or found it hard to control your temper? Have you experienced frequent displays of temper, constant anger, verbal outbursts, or recurrent physical fights?
Answer: Yes. There's lots of things that triggers me but more than anything I hate it when people lie/manipulate a narrative/spread misinformation/make unwarranted remark or are just loud and wrong. Sometimes I spend a huge amount of time analysing the whole situation and collecting evidence to actually figure out things logically (a bit obsessively). Sometimes I get too emotional for that and cry/shut myself away from the world. Sometimes I just get cold, silent and sometimes I furrow my brows and glare at people accusingly. Sometimes I do get passive aggressive and express just what I think. I think I rarely allow myself to get outright aggressive because I'm scared of losing control more than anything, so I'd probably curse people privately and then go back trying to be normal.

Question: Can you describe experiences where you felt intensely suspicious of others (for example, believing people wanted to harm you) or disconnected from reality, especially during stressful times?
Answer: I don't know. I do suspect people hate me and may want to hurt me most of the time, even when it isn't true.