Question: Can you describe situations where you felt a strong need to prevent someone from leaving you, either physically or emotionally? Have you felt this need often?
Answer: These kinda situations are pathetic, I always used to blame myself when one of my friends would be a little late replying to my texts or they used to ignore my text despite being online. That's the reason I always keep my active status turned off, cause it prevents me from seeing others "last seen", and helps me not to " over think ". I hate having the thought that they're going to leave me

Question: Do you feel that your interpersonal relationships with those you are close to are unstable? Have you experienced patterns where you alternate between seeing someone as wonderful and then seeing them as terrible?
Answer: Yeah, this happens so frequently, kind of on daily basis, For example, there's this guy, 50% of the time I spent my time thinking about him, and also keep idolizing him all the time, he seems like he's "the perfect one" and the most wonderful, kind hearted, decent, candid and honest guy I've ever seen. But sometimes his presence disgusts me a lot. He had said some hurtful things in the past days, and I still couldn't forget those words. He apologized to me several times, but I hate him the most in this entire universe, his presence is an utterly ridiculous, but I also can't restrain myself from talking to him.

Question: Can you talk about how you see yourself? Does your perception of yourself (how you view yourself) change frequently?
Answer: I'm an addicted person currently in my opinion, I developed severe mobile addiction for the last 2 years, I hate myself for my "careless and carefree" attitude, I dream of a stable career for me but I hardly engage myself in taking some actions to mould myself for my future. That makes me feel worthless and totally useless. I also always fail to fulfill my commitments and those constant self harm thoughts really prevent me from focusing on my daily activities . I just don't know why I'm living my life like a complete piece of shit or why I'm not ending my life for good.

Question: Can you describe any impulsive and potentially self-damaging behaviors you engage in, such as spending money irresponsibly, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, or binge eating?
Answer: I never learned to save money like others, whenever I got some cash I end up buying unnecessary things or gifting some thankless friends of mine with that money. And yeah always watch something on YouTube that will distort my mental health more and will make me feel more despicable to me. In terms of relationships, I always see myself as a "people pleaser", I have always that intrusive thought that, if I ever reply late to their texts or doesn't help them they will leave me

Question: Can you describe any incidents where you engaged in self-harm or made repeated suicide attempts?
Answer: Yeah, several times, I took an drug overdose twice to kill myself, I tried to hang myself once, also tried to cut my wrist more than 10 times, there are several cut marks in my hands, sometimes I also think of jumping in front of the train, and though I have acrophobia, once I had planned to jump off from heights

Question: Does your mood change frequently throughout the day? Are there times when you feel intensely happy, sad, anxious or irritated for no apparent reason?
Answer: Yes, this happens so frequently, I experience complete change in my mood within an hour and sometimes within minutes. I am also diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and currently under going psychotherapy.

Question: Have you experienced chronic or constant feelings of emptiness?
Answer: I usually spend hours scrolling social media or watching meaningless videos on YouTube and Instagram when this feeling occurs

Question: Can you share any experiences where you felt extremely angry or found it hard to control your temper? Have you experienced frequent displays of temper, constant anger, verbal outbursts, or recurrent physical fights?
Answer: It happens very often. I have severe anger issues and I end up breaking things or throwing objects to others. It happens mostly when someone taunt me regarding something or blame me with some false allegations

Question: Can you describe experiences where you felt intensely suspicious of others (for example, believing people wanted to harm you) or disconnected from reality, especially during stressful times?
Answer: Yes, I'm always over suspicious of other people, this damages my relationship dynamics and friendships a lot. I also have a hard time trusting my own parents. And I'm always thinking everyone is lying to me all the time. During stressful times, these feelings increase