I Smile Back is a 2015 American drama film directed by Adam Salky and based on the 2008 novel of the same name by Amy Koppelman, who wrote the screenplay with Paige Dylan. The film stars Sarah Silverman as an upper-middle-class wife and mother struggling with mental illness and addiction. The film had its world premiere at the 2015 Sundance Film Festival on January 25, 2015.  It also screened at the Toronto International Film Festival on September 16, 2015.  The film was released in a limited release on October 23, 2015, by Broad Green Pictures.

Plot
In a nice home in suburban New York, homemaker Laney Brooks snorts cocaine in the bathroom wearing only her panties while her husband Bruce plays outside with their young children, Eli and Janey. Laney remembers arguing with Bruce about their new dog. Later, Eli wakes from a nightmare and Laney comforts him.

As Bruce gets ready for work in the morning, Laney eyes the bathroom medicine cabinet, then prepares the children's lunches. She drives them to school and has a confrontation with the traffic guard who refuses to let her double-park. She greets her friend Susan and is prevented from entering for not having her ID; the guard reprimands her for not reading the school's emails notifying her of the new security measures. She reluctantly waves goodbye to her children and drives away, mocking the school guard as she smokes a cigarette. 

At a hotel, she has sex with Susan's husband Donny, then chides him afterward for trying to show affection, telling him love means nothing. She showers as he sleeps and steals cash from his wallet to buy drugs. At dinner, Laney gets drunk sipping vodka and responds angrily when Eli relates a school friend's opinions. At bedtime she reminds Eli of his upcoming piano recital, then argues again with Bruce about their dog, dreading its eventual death. She phones Eli's friend's mother, curses at her, and hangs up, before drinking more vodka and swallowing some pills while snorting cocaine. She enters Janey's bedroom and uses a teddy bear to help her masturbate before starting to cry, crawling down the hall, and falling unconscious.

Bruce finds her and drives her to a rehabilitation facility, where she argues with the staff and dry heaves in the toilet. Later, her assigned physician, Dr. Page, notes that Janey has not taken her lithium prescription for months, which has worsened her addictions. She tells him of how her problems stem from childhood abandonment by her father, Roger. Laney's family visits her for lunch. She notices Eli has developed a tic, and she tries to confess and apologize to Bruce, but he rebuffs her. Later, she tells Dr. Page she wants to smile again. He tells her to take her medication and have faith in herself.

Home from rehab, Laney makes a cake with her family. The power goes out and they sing and dance by candlelight. Later, Laney and Bruce meet with a counselor regarding Eli's anxiety. Eli worries he too will have to go to rehab one day. Laney and Bruce later go to Donny's restaurant for a birthday dinner for Susan, who is now pregnant, where Laney insults another couple. She accompanies Bruce to a seminar in a hotel near Roger's home. While Bruce attends the conference, she secretly takes a cab to Roger's house, meeting her half-sister Daisy for the first time. She learns of her grandmother's untimely death. Roger only offers excuses for abandoning his family. Laney cries in the taxi back, calls Bruce, and gets no answer.  

Laney goes to a bar and spends the rest of the evening getting drunk. At the hotel, Bruce packs. Laney enters, apologizing for missing dinner. Tired of her lies, he pushes her against the wall and shouts at her. Leaving, he tells her that the children will continue staying with his sister as he doesn't trust her and that he will meet them all at Eli's recital. At the event, Eli begins playing the piano, hesitantly at first but more confidently as he continues. All applaud when he finishes. Back at home, Laney praises Eli, then retreats to the bathroom. She tries to snort cocaine, and her damaged nasal passages cause her to suffer a nosebleed. 

When her family discovers and confronts her, Laney gets in her SUV and tries to commit suicide by speeding through a busy intersection with her eyes closed. Emerging unscathed, she goes to see Donnie, but he refuses to help her and leaves to answer a phone call from Susan. Laney finds anti-anxiety pills in his desk and swallows them without thinking. She goes to another bar, drinks beer, and has drunken sex with a strange man in the basement. When she drunkenly taunts him, he slams her head twice into a stone wall and steals all the cash in her wallet. Later, she awakens caked in blood and takes a cab home. 

In the predawn glow, she prepares lunches, still battered and bloody. She hugs the whimpering dog and notices Bruce staring at her from the upstairs landing. Her face cracking, she shuffles out of the house and shuts the door.

Cast
Sarah Silverman as Elaine "Laney" Brooks
Josh Charles as Bruce Brooks
Thomas Sadoski as Donny
Mia Barron as Susan
Skylar Gaertner as Eli Brooks
Shayne Coleman as Janey Brooks
Sean Reda as Henry
Chris Sarandon as Roger
Billy Magnussen as Zach
Kristin Griffith as Nurse Pauline
Oona Laurence as Daisy
Clark Jackson as Mr. Odesky
Terry Kinney as Dr. Page

Release
The film had its world premiere at the Sundance Film Festival on January 25, 2015. Shortly after, Broad Green Pictures acquired distribution rights to the film. The film was selected to screen at the Jerusalem Film Festival on July 11, 2015. and the Deauville Film Festival on September 6, 2015, as well as the Toronto International Film Festival on September 16, 2015, the Oldenburg International Film Festival on September 19, 2015, and the Chicago International Film Festival on October 16, 2015. The film was released on October 23, 2015, in a limited release.

Home media
I Smile Back was released on DVD and Blu-ray in the United States on February 23, 2016.

Reception

Critical reception
I Smile Back received mixed reviews from critics, with universal praise for Silverman's performance. On Rotten Tomatoes, the film has a 49% approval rating, based on 71 reviews, with an average rating of 5.76/10. The website's critical consensus reads, "I Smile Back serves as a powerful showcase for Sarah Silverman's dramatic range, but fails to surround her committed performance with a movie worthy of its depth". On Metacritic, the film has a score of 59 out of 100, based on 19 critics, indicating "mixed or average reviews". IndieWire reviewer Katie Walsh gave strong praise to Silverman's performance in the film.

Accolades
Silverman was nominated for Screen Actors Guild Award for Outstanding Performance by a Female Actor in a Leading Role at the 22nd Screen Actors Guild Awards.

References

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2015 films
2015 drama films
2015 independent films
Adultery in films
American drama films
American independent films
Broad Green Pictures films
Films about addiction
Films about depression
Films about drugs
Films based on American novels
Films set in New Jersey
Films shot in New York (state)
2010s English-language films
Films directed by Adam Salky
2010s American films