I'm not doing so great... Third hernia, extreme overactive bladder...
Channel: Bradley Roderick
Date: 2020-03-07

There was a time where I thought my hernia nightmares were over. Finally, I could get back to me and my life pushing forward to what I wanted to do without the need to pause for my health… But I have to admit it was always very difficult to accept, it kind of felt like everything was going too perfect and felt quite fake like it was masking my true issues, especially as my issues seemed to vary from day to day after me having steroid injections to resolve the issues first thought was a third hernia, a dropping sensation, a horrible pressure in my groin and a dragging sensation… Nerve damage he said instead. 

Less than a year on from apparently resolving the issue after a short trip to the doctors after me being concerned over a strange array of symptoms and feelings I kept getting in my groin and straight away the doctor was concerned and explained she felt something immediately, I wasn’t really surprised if I am honest, which I know is strange. But I know my own body and things haven’t felt right for a very long time if I am honest. After all getting a dropping sensation when I sometimes put my foot to the ground and not in a heavy way, and something would move in my groin area, was certainly not normal and this happened lots. When I tackled the consultant about this, he was quick to suggest nerves… Now! I know different. I almost feel very disappointed, shocked and let down.

If I really take time to think about things, after my course of steroid injections things seemed okay, but often feeling strange and unnatural almost like a fake masking feeling of what was really going on there… If that makes sense, always having to be careful when bending, lifting or carrying something… For a short time, there were weeks possibly two maybe three short months at the very most. Things seemed settled but as time went on the effect kind of fell away leaving me in a position where my symptoms gradually seemed to become just that of a nightmare again, following steroid injections trying to resolve the issues highlighted not a hernia, really makes me think that it was a hernia indeed and that it just progressed from something small to a more bothersome and uncomfortable one to now quite a painful one at times. 

While the weeks have passed and continue to, the dreaded things come back, the groin pressure, weakness, a very uncomfortable dragging forcing me to adapt my walking slightly once again, causing me a whole host of issues. Good days, bad days alongside the extreme overactive bladder which has become more and more of an issue over the past year, which is strange as the problem is always bad when I have a hernia, for months they told me I didn’t, then to be told you have… My third, really? A scan confirming it in December of 2019 said so, Is that even possible! Sometimes I think is this all real?

Things are difficult and tough I try to stay positive but sometimes it’s easier said than done. I always try to remain in the mind frame of that someone is always worse off and I try to appreciate each day, after all none of us are promised a tomorrow. That usually what keeps me going when things are tough and uncomfortable. 

As I said in my title I'm not doing so great at the moment but I am staying positive... 

Best wishes to you,