I Don’t Want to Be Alive Anymore (Sometimes): What Suicidal Thoughts Feel Like (And How to Help)
Channel: Footless Jo
Date: 23/06/2019

An honest talk about what suicidal thoughts look like for me when they come knocking. Depression is a horrific condition that does such a good job of lying to us. If you’ve ever felt them, please know you are not alone. You are not broken. And one day, I truly believe, we’ll see and find that light that seems so far away. Hang in there, my friend. 💜

Adorable Puppies: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mRf3-JkwqfU
My3App – Suicide Safety Plan/Prevention App: https://my3app.org

Crisis Text Line: https://www.crisistextline.org or text 741-741 in the U.S. 

List of international crisis lines: https://togetherweare-strong.tumblr.com/helpline

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OTHER VIDEOS //
Why Did I Lose My Leg? https://youtu.be/L98eS0xfZWc
How I Said Goodbye To My Leg: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WaIIu6bFKVo&t=12s
Seeing My Amputated Leg for the First Time: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h50Bjl5NIHw
Walking for the First Time: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kdq771rcOEs
Life Before Amputation – With My Fused Ankle: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f3b7vYql2o0&t=64s
Day in the Life of an Amputee: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0VJZLpqkZ-o&t=80s

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MUSIC //

The music contained in this video can be found at Artist.io - https://artlist.io/Jordan-293378 
The End Credit music is Summer Snow by Low Light/Nick Kingswell

INTRO //
 
Rick "Now Lets Draw" (who did my intro!) - contact him for amazing intros, artwork, editing, After Effects work, and more!: nowletsdraw@gmail.com

Caricatures of my dogs & I (shown in the intro) drawn by Ash Murdock! https://ash-murdocks-art.tumblr.com/

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Fourteen years of pain and failed ankle surgeries brought me to 2018, when I made the difficult decision to become a twenty-seven-year-old below-the-knee elective amputee. This channel is to document my journey of amputation surgery, recovery, and reclaiming my life.