2018-05-18 NSDRM - Dream Exploration: JeffS
Channel: Pierre Grimes and the Noetic Society
Date: 19/05/2018

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 2018-05-18 NSDRM - Dream Exploration: JeffS

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 Sections: Dream Exploration: JeffSPierre helps JeffS explore a recent dream.Text of DreamJeffS's dream Fri May 18 2018[In reading this dream it's important to know that in waking life my mother had practiced pediatrics and later psychiatry.]1 I guess I'm helping my mom clean the house.  Or she's cleaning the house, and I'm assisting, or at least talking with her while she works.  And as the dream starts out, I have asked her what my problems could be owed to, or why I am having these.. symptoms.2 And she says, "Well, it looks like schizophrenia, doesn't it?"  (And as she says it, pretty matter-of-fact-ly, she has her back turned to me, still vacuuming and bending over, moving around, picking things up.)3 And this immediately gets my attention, and scares me, because before I had suffered "only" from depression and anxiety/panic/sleeplessness. But schizophrenia, (I think to myself), that's a whole different level of mental problem.  And, I think, it will only get worse with time.  Crap, if this is really what I'm looking at, then my future is not looking great, I think.4 And I say, "Oh! Schizophrenia! That doesn't make me very happy. Umm... Well, let's talk about that.  Why do you say, schizophrenia?  What symptoms?"5 And I think she gives an answer, but I don't remember it clearly.  Well, she gives an answer, and I can't remember what the name is, or the words are, but I think it has something to do with just, sleep, or panic, anxiety -- essentially all the symptoms I am having and am already aware of.  So I think to myself that she must be running down all these symptoms in her head, from the DSM-IV [the version of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual that psychiatrists used in her time]. I realize that while I had thought all these problems were separate from each other and owed to something else, she has seen all along that they are all, together, as a cluster, indicative of this one thing, schizophrenia, all of them listed as indications under that one diagnosis. I think that she must have known this earlier, but not told me up until now.6 So I accept that, and I say, "Well, what can be done about it?"7 At this point she has stopped working and is now standing straight up, focusing wholly on my question. But I am still seeing her from her side. And she says that ″You can do really well, or even completely recover, as long as you have family support.″8 And this surprises me, and I say, "Family support?!?!? What do you mean? What does that look like?"9 And she puts her hands together in the air in front of her, as if she were grasping a ball, or as if she were describing the dynamic activity of a unification of several parts into one. And she says, "You know, a bunch of, like all of us, you know, everybody coming together, and supporting the person."10 And I think about it for a second, and I get really upset. Something about that answer really bothers me. And I'm not sure (now, at transcription time) what it is that makes me so unhappy about it, but I take a rolling sommersault dive onto the couch and flip over (sort of playfully) and I start whining, or crying, or complaining, or really bumming out. Something about that solution/answer just seems so insufficient, or wrong, or hopeless, or ineffective. Like it won't really address the problem, and I hate it.More InfoPierre Grimes and Philosophical MidwiferyThe Noetic SocietyThe Pierre Grimes and the Noetic Society collection here on archive.org.