You give love a bad name 1/2
Channel: Nadia Bet-Seber House of Hope
Date: 2019-04-17

I know, first of all let us start there, that God does not need us to defend His Name, He can do it all on His own, defend and protect His name, but this video is more a classical example of me pouring out my heart to God. I recently heard this story from someone posing as a perfect, head boy kind of Christian, he preaches to everyone, you know all the clichés walking around with the Bible underneath his arm, uses the Bible as a rod, says Praise God about 2,000times per day, but his actions does not follow his verbal diarrhea, causing everyone around him to dislike our faith. 
This is how I see Christianity – a church quote. We are not perfect yet, if I say I belief in God and I trust in God, it is purely because I daily come to the realization that I’m only human after all, like Paul said he is the chief sinner, the more I walk closer to God, the more I realize how human, how filled with mistakes I truly am, I need Him even more and more daily, sometimes it is because I blurted out something hurtful to a Princess and I feel guilty, so I ask Him please let she forget what I said, please heal her if I did offend her. 
I realize more and more I’m not the saviour of the world, I cannot help every one, only He can help everyone, then I pray more and more, touch this person or that person, I just become more dependant on Him, instead of more holier than thou, I preach less and less to people, I condemn people less daily, as I realize that I do have the big stalk in my own eye, I have more mistakes than my fellow princess, this is pouring out my heart, to say that I love God more daily, is because I realize daily that I have more and more shortcomings, and He is more and more perfect. Even after walking with Him intimately for almost five years now, even if I’m standing in full time ministry for three years now, I only realize more and more that rejection still hurts, for a brief period I still throw a pity party for one, for a brief period when someone has harmed me I still hope that the earth will swallow them up, I still get times when I wake up the next morning knowing that I drank too much wine, I’m only human after all, but still I love God more daily. I still sometimes feel that I have made my new boyfriend my idol and my king, then I repent, walking with God is not a Cinderella-fairy god-mother transformation, from slave to princess in seconds, no it is a journey, it takes time. 
But I’m also grateful for every single day God shows me His glory, just like Moses prayed on the mountain – show me Your glory, I pray this daily. On the same day I heard about the empty tap Christian, I see people operating in the religious spirits as empty, showcase taps, even the prettiest ones, the most expensive ones in CTM when you open the tap no water will come out, versus a true believer and beloved of God being a true tap, even if you open up a dirty, ugly old tap in the middle of Hammanskraal (international subscribers – Hammanskraal is one of the local communities in South Africa most well-known for the extreme poverty and rural conditions, most houses do not have running water or electricity, compare it to the slums in India) but even if you open up one of the worst taps in Hammanskraal you will have water, this is how I see the difference between true believers, the ones that are promised to be revealed in Romans 8, versus the ones operating in the religious spirit.