The Story and Stigma Of DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) with N0trixx
Channel: Thomas Henley
Date: 2023-03-26

Is Dissociative Identity Disorder real and can people fake it? How does DID develop? How is DID related to BPD and PTSD?

@N0trixx is a dark trap artist and music producer seeking to share her stories to contribute to awareness of Dissociative Identity Disorder and mental illness. With a multitude of different creative talents, N0trixx not only dabbles in the dark side of life, but she’s also experienced it, which is reflected in her modeling, graphics, and of course… her music.

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Thomas starts off the episode by sharing his experience of once believing he had multiple identities, something he later understood as a product of Autistic Alexithymia. N0trixx gives us a brief overview of how Dissociative Identity Disorder can occur, before diving into the more relatable aspect of DID… dissociation. Thomas explains the two types of dissociation which are depersonalisation and derealisation, something very common to the autistic experience of shutdowns and even during moments of alcohol intoxication.

N0trixx takes us through her DID journey, starting at the earliest traumatic event in her teenage hood, and how her emotionally repressed home environment forced her to bury her negative emotions away. Shifts between DID alters were initially a well-oiled machine, but after years of repression of her ‘dark’ alter another traumatic event triggered a full switch. N0trixx was the identity that took control for the first time in a long time.

Originally a pragmatic and conscientious Wall Street investment banker with a well-established social network and family… N0trixx soon found herself deep within another woman’s life. Finding passion and drive in creative writing and music, something contrary to her other alters personality and skills. Leaving her successful job due to lacking the skills/knowledge required, she pursued her creative endeavors and started the N0trixx project to raise awareness of DID.

Throughout numerous attempts by family and friends to remedy her situation and dismiss her diagnosis… specialists and Doctors only confirmed her diagnosis of DID. The two end on speaking about the stigma around DID as a diagnosis, mainstream representation in films like ‘Split’, cases of using DID to avoid criminal charges, and alleged online ‘fakers’.

If you believe people are faking DID online, it’s either likely that they are doing so for their own recovery journey, want to raise awareness or have a complex diagnosis of Munchausen’s Syndrome. It’s best not to air opinions on the legitimacy of their diagnosis unless you are a licensed professional with an awareness of their psychological records. You could be contributing towards a stigma that already impacts those with DID on daily basis, or be harassing someone with a variety of other complex issues and mental illness.

Whether you believe in DID or not, the two share some eye-opening facts and comparisons that may shift you to the former.

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