Song About Bipolar Depression... Mental Health - Must Watch: Bipolar Awaken [Live] [2020]
Channel: REALGroupStation
Date: 2020-08-02

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Trigger Warning: Dark Subject Matter and Suicide

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IMPORTANT UPDATE:

I didn't realize that I did NOT sync the lyrics with the instrumental in the first upload.  So that may be the reason why it sounded off.  Here is a reupload of the lyrics in sync with the instrumental.  I am so sorry.  How dumb of me.

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Song About Bipolar Depression... You Won't Believe It: Bipolar Awaken [RESYNC]

If you are in dire situation, please contact the:

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
1-800-273-8255

Or text 741741

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Download "Bipolar Awaken" here:

https://realgroupstation.bandcamp.com/track/bipolar-awaken

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Why are their bunnies in the cage?  It looks pretty ridiculous, I understand but you have to realize most people with bunnies do not understand how to raise them.  They are not meant to be caged like a human isn't meant to be caged.  They need freedom and would do better with more environmental space for them to run.  They should be treated like other pets, especially a dog.  Raising a rabbit is one of the hardest things to do because most people do not want to give them the space they need and cleaning up after them takes a lot of work and patience.  Please do not release your bunny in the wild!

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2014 was a troubling time for me.  I was incredibly suicidal.  That year, I was hospitalized twice and I was suffering from psychosis. It is worth mentioning I was with a psychiatrist that had absolutely no care of my mental wellbeing.  She was with me a year, and I was through the hospital, a three week day program partial hospitalization and a 90 day IRTS group home.  She finally gave up on me after a year, and refused to treat me anymore.  It is worth mentioning she hardly paid attention to my own interests.

I was for going on an antidepressant but she believed that all antidepressants cause mania.  I am so glad that I found my current psychiatrist, he was willing to put me on an antidepressant in addition to my antipsychotic and mood stabilzer.  This antidepressant saved me.  

I get it most people want to be independent away from their parents.  But an IRTS is only a short term goal.  I strongly believe it helped me at the time, but it is literally impossible to save any money.  90% of your SSDI is given to the IRTS.  You save maybe 100 dollars for essentials.

Anyways "Bipolar Awaken" is a poem I wrote in 2015 on my reflection of 2014.  As the year past, I became extremely bitter and resentful of my care, and was very angry about how she treated me, or lack thereof.  I was at the point of wanting to take a knife to cut but due to my resilence I refused to do it because I know I would permanently scar my skin and I did not really want that to happen.  This is one of my most darkest song yet and that is why I will not tag anyone for fear I will be judge for such a dark rap.  I am extremely proud of this rap because it was the hardest rap I have ever done.  It literally was a 3 and half week period of memorization.  At the time of 2014, I could not express anger only sadness, but deep inside I was screaming out that I am ready to take my life and end it all for a year straight.  I was so incredibly depressed and so incredibly suicidal, 2014 was my worst year that I ever have to live through with bipolar disorder 1.

In the end, truth is, I was saved by an antidepressant.  I can stay home, and save money, and still remain stable.  I put myself through a 6 month DBT program and working part time.  I strongly believe the antidepressant helped me manage a more satisfied life.  I am not against therapy, dbt, or group homes, but I feel the antidepressant made me not rely on any of them and still live a pretty satisfactory life.  I wouldn't count on that to save you alone if you have bipolar depression, but I can tell you an antidepressant worked better than anything out there.

I am happy to live now, and I am now ready to share my bipolar story.  Thank you for listening.  Cheers.

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