Finely 3 Fu×××d years an then some.I'm here back at the beginning What the f××k waa happin?-Godzilla
Channel: James, Brian Hope
Date: 2017-10-24

My new apartment after 3 years I will never fucking forget oh my God yeah hopefully I will forget. Thank God it's over thank you Mary mom,Janet , Rudy, friends. All my friends that helped me.Jimmy my brother, Rudy everybody that helped me thank you . Carol and Gary you're Mad. I lov you I always will pray for you always.could have been two and a half years longer if it wasn't for you omg. I'll Always Love You and I'll pay it forward someday. I know I will. In your name I'm going to do that. Please try and forgive me im sorry it didnt work out like it coul have.sry.
My hero sister Mary who spent just tons of money I can't believe what she did to get me set back on life's path not becom a homeless bum,or a convict killed in prison. It's not someplace I could live anymore or ever.It's been the most trying 3 yrs of my life.I thought getting Michael straightened out well-adjusted human being after what his mom did to him. he doesn't really remember anymore thank God for that. I thought that was going to be the most trying time. My stepdaughter  and she hates me still I'm hoping she'll figure it out someday that 14 years of life would have been without me in the picture was one good thing her mom did do for her. Im sure she will figure it out someday(I hope) she knows I love her. she is matue in many ways. But untill she puts the mean things sed in gargled text msg. An from me a veryl mad man Paula put in the midle of. Paula could not do anything for her self ever. I love you Ashley yes you have to help your mom. That dosent mean you dont have to keep this wall up btween us you have a hart i know u do.
I could hve homeless for 3 years insted of  6 month.Thanks to friends that let me stay over.
To allfthose fucs that stoled my stuff motels throws my shit away overcharged me overdraw my account and just sucked ass the whole time suck me dry and to my bank (Fuck you)!I! Not going to say who the bank is but WF
I love you Mom I always have so much respect for you. DAd quit tearin Mama apart let her see her kids she enjoys seeing us. calling her whenever she's not around you . 99% of her attention you already get. Let her time for her kids that she loves and we love her I love you too Dad.
  im me because i listen to how everything u did because of you talkin about in front of me my whole life.Meny frieds famiy that helped me Pat,Rudy,Mom( Janet will be fine i lov u) Mary,Jimmy. Jimmy thank you much im an amazing ass hole.You got to remember what it's like to have your heart broken.you had it  twice. U were my model of morality when I came to what i would go though for a or wife's,or how much I was willing to let them get away with. Paula suck me dry of money, lying about everything else. O ya cheeting almost forgot that part. Not!! I just got tired of her stressing me out bullshit SHIM.Starving while she horder 4 a mntfood $while were on the road.I'm back now 100%.Going to be happy thanks to everyone who helped me an espeshily to ones haveing to put up with me.I love you all so much. Thank you all so much.I am going to send this video out to anybody I felt helped me as a thank you and let you know that I made it to the other side  I'm on dry land standing up straight ,intact mostly 68% at least I'll get there ATW.
 thanks to all you GOOD PEOPLE helpnig me see ya soon. Rudy,your only old friend i care about.Theres real friends and bloodsucker friends and your fake friends are all around you a lot more lately than the ones that were around you before. When  I first started seeing you again.My oldest friend my last old  friend I give a shit about. Go ! Run back to Nancy. Your bringing me down. She an U  need to get control of your fucking life Rudy. In yours an her"s house, Nacy will know who to toss an who's real. You don't need that shit  in your life Rudy ever your usely smarter. You know I can read body language you know I do. They're only there because your a have and an there R have nots.knot heads .
 Stranger"s to me,stand there an make jokes on me u forget the whole A.D.D THING.No matter how i talk they would not like me what so ever.(NEVER) We were like bfothers in our long youths remember days,weeks,years,we talked we partied, the day long discussion's so fucking many days wtf. I had to tell you what I knew about that what happened in jail with Mike an I. Couldn't,not tell you I know you were still seeing her probably. I expected that you were you know i knew.I know you need to go back with her(u love her)teh.Just I don't know keep an eye out and make sure she's not telling lies but no creepy shit.she's good for you. I see Mike one of these days and mother fu¿wait,wait nevermind skip that wht I was about to say is against the law. Not doing that one over. I don't break the laws. I was trapped,set up for the last law I allegedly  broke stupid thinking.Rudy you an I are old friends,and that's why they don't want somebody like me around there afraid of me. Its sales tactick Keep your attiontion me.them.Get it WTF