C-PTSD: Lessons learn from Grief
Channel: Culture Closer
Date: 05/02/2019

You probably started following me when I first played the piano and harp many years ago, didn't you?

Well, it isn't too long ago that I finally found words to put my music into words.

I am an empath, or what some people call Highly Sensitive Person (HSP), which is perhaps what you saw in my early performances.

You see, in addition to losing my husband, I also lost my only support who helped me cope with my Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs).

My ACEs made me a very sensitive individual. I get easily anxious around loud sounds such as women talking loudly, people arguing, door slamming and glass breaking; and people misquoting the bible for the wrong reasons.

As a child, I had learned to channel all my emotions into my music-playing. In other words, music helped me regulate my emotions to cope with life.

I migrated twice; first from Malaysia to Singapore, and then from Singapore to the US.

With the generosity of Creative Technology and Mr. Sim Wong Hoo, I eventually earned a Bachelors of Music in Music Synthesis from Berklee College of Music.

Ever since, I have been a musician, an engineer, a salesperson and a US Army veteran.

I got married to a fellow artist while I served in the US Army. 6 months after we were married, my partner was diagnosed with cancer. 

In our 4.5 years journey as a caregiver, I coped with being the main wage earner while still earned my Masters of Science in Computer Information Systems from Boston University.

However, it took my husband's death for me to finally face my biggest fear - to be a purpose-driven musician.

So I quit my corporate job.

In the last 2 years, I was healing from years of burnout, including being a caregiver to my husband who succumbed to cancer. 

Last year, I was made aware of my Complex-PTSD.

This year, I realize that my Complex-PTSD is my strength and I want to share my fearless journey with you.

If you want to learn how I do this using music, subscribe to my channel!

What is ACEs:
https://youtu.be/XHgLYI9KZ-A

How practicing regulates emotions:
https://youtu.be/cpR9Ft0R_9M

How to find congruence in life. 
**This program is only recommended for specific personality. If you think you qualify, reach out to me**:
https://bit.ly/2D82fuO

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