In Memory of Snowy 💙
Channel: Feather Beautiful
Date: 29/04/2020

I know some of you are new to my channel and don't even know who Snowy is. It's been exactly two years since the passing of my beautiful baby... I copy pasted Snowy's journey with me and cancer from one of my old videos. If you have time, you can read it down below 

"Snowy showed signs of a bad leg. Months later, my vet told her bad leg was actually a sign of bone cancer. I remember, clearly, walking out of the vets office crying. After coming home, I knew I couldn't sit down and simply accept the fact that my bird was going to die and I was going to watch it. After doing a few research, I bought knotgrass, Avivita high potency vitamin supplement, avi-immune immune support, Avibios - probiotic supplement, herb salad and bee pollen. 

Two weeks later, I was able to feel Snowy's keel bone. The keel runs lengthwise down the chest and belly. In a skinny (underweight) bird, the keel bone is very prominent and the edge of the bone feels very sharp. I remember crying, a lot, when I knew exactly what it meant. I knew, my baby girl, Snowy, was slowly dying. 

Snowy started mutilating  her cancerous lump. I knew, even before Snowy saw our avian vet, she was going to be euthanized. We had her under general anesthesia and the vet tech finally administered the last medication to stop her heart. I remember walking out of the vets office and crying. 

A middle aged man heard me cry and gave me $40 to buy another bird. He wouldn't allow me to leave so I accepted the money. Later on I donated that $40 dollars to Toronto Humane Society. 

I finally got home. I washed Snowy's white feathers. They were covered in blood due to her picking at her cancerous lump. I blow-dried her and gently put her inside the coffin I made for her. She was flimsy but she started turning blue and becoming more stiff. Just for the last time, just before having her placed in her grave, I opened her coffin and gave her my last kiss. 

Grief can be a hard thing and people often become uncomfortable with sharing their experiences. When someone is grieving, often friends and family don't know what to say. I remember, months after my birds passed away, a person I knew said "I wonder if you'd take care of your kids just as well as you did with your birds." Not only did I had a hard time understanding their mindset but later relived that they won't playing a part in my life anymore. 

Some people think long periods of grieving can be unhealthy but I like to differ. For some individuals it might take months and for some of us it can take years. Some people enjoy keeping memories of their pets around their house but for me and for my mental health, I decided to safely secure my memories in my USB. 

I blame myself for the deaths of my birds and cry not being able to save them. I know I did everything. I know I paid for the bills and medication. I know that they had a great diet. I know that there was nothing I can do but I still ask myself, "was there something you did in the past that bought these illnesses upon them?" It's been almost a year and i'm still struggling with the loss of my birds. I miss them and you can't stop me from loving them." 

🌸My Flock - Family Of Four🌸
💚 Kiwi ⇢ 17/11/2014
💜 Edward ⇢ 23/03/2017
💛 Blossom ⇢ 11/10/2018
💛 Muffin ⇢ 02/08/2019
🕊Snowy & Limon

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