2018-04-27 NSDRM - Dream Explorations: JeffS, Belinda, Regina, Eldar
Channel: Pierre Grimes and the Noetic Society
Date: 2018-05-19

2018-04-27 NSDRM - Dream Explorations: JeffS, Belinda, Regina, Eldar

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 Four of us explore our dreams with Pierre as midwife.Dream TextsJeffS's dream 4/27/2018----- Scene 1 -----1 I'm on a football field, in practice. This is my first year there. I'm in the first days in this new school. I guess it's college -- Dartmouth or something.2 There's this bigger Black guy (another team mate) who hits me from behind, for no reason. I turn around and try to tackle him too, but it doesn't have much effect. I can tell this guy just hates me, and I don't know why. And it's just going to be one of those situations where someone just doesn't like you, and they're going to keep coming after you, and there's nothing you can do about it, except fight them, or something.----- Scene 2 -----3 I'm walking across the street, and I'm looking over my shoulder, and I'm realizing that I'm going to have to live this way, always looking over my shoulder for him. And I realize that I've never had to live this way before -- at least, not except for brief periods. But most of my life I have not had to look over my shoulder. What will such a life be like?----- Scene 3 -----4 I'm in the cafeteria, and I see him again, and we fight again. But it doesn't resolve anything. And I think I try to push him from behind this time, or get him by surprise, but it doesn't really work, and just gets him madder. And maybe I push him over a table or something, backwards(?) And actually I feel like he is going to get me back worse, but he doesn't.----- Scene 4 -----5 In the next scene I'm walking to the library (or some room like that) and I run into another guy, who kind of looks like the first guy, and I'm confused: I think it might be him.  And he kind of looks.. he's got darker features, but looks more maybe Eastern European or something. And he's shorter than me. And I can't tell .. I think he was maybe a friend of the Black guy? or if he was the Black guy -- I'm confused, in the dream.6 And he says he's sorry. So I shake his hand, and pat his hand with my second hand, and say it's all right. And at first I had thought he was going to try and attack me. But I realize he's trying to make up. So I shake his hand. And it's really friendly, and I walk on.  But I'm still puzzling about whether that was the original guy, or just one of his cronies.----- Scene 5 -----7 In the next scene, I make it to the library, or wherever it is we're going, and I'm carrying around a microphone stand (like from here at the NS), and a bunch of other people are too (carrying their own microphone stands), along with musicians, guitarists, etc. It looks like everybody is going to be playing an instrument of some kind.  So I'm in the right place, I'm thinking. Although i can't figure out what my instrument is, just yet.8 And I see a bunch of people hanging out.  And this guy I just shook hands with, enters and goes over to them and they're hanging out.  And I'm trying to figure out if I should go over there. Or if.. well, not so much whether I should go over there.. I'm just trying.. (What am I trying figure out?) I'm trying to figure out maybe if I can trust them (now) or if the Black guy is with them or not.9 And just then the Black guy does walk in. And I realize the guy that I had just shaken hands with is not the leader, but had been only one of his followers.10 And the Black guy gives me a bad look, and so I try talking with him. And I hold out my hands, and say something along the lines of, "Dude, what the heck is going on? Why don't you like me?" or "What's your problem with me? Why can't we just get along?"11 And this goes on 2 or 3 times. And instead of answering me, each time he just mocks me, making fun of how I'm moving my hands. He just mimics the way I just held my hands.  And he's just making more and more fun each time of me.12 And finally he answers me, and he just says something like, "It's not you. It's your SMELL. I didn't like your smell the very first time I saw you. And it was the worst smell I'd ever smelled in my life." And as he says that, he just gives me the worst look, and just walks away.13 And I realize that based on what he just said, and the way he said it, there probably just isn't anything that I can do to get along with this guy. He's not going to explain what the real problem is. Or if that ('smell') really is the problem, there's just nothing I can do.  Because I am a clean person, so it's not like I am sweaty or unclean or don't shower for days or something. ----- Scene 6 -----14 I'm still in the same library/school/building, but now I'm in kind of an off-shoot room, and I'm sitting around with friends, in a circle -- some on the floor like me, and others in chairs.  One or two of these friends are from the NS, I think, and a bunch of other unknowns.15 And I guess they're commiserating with me and trying to support me.  And I'm sitting on the floor, and the group is getting larger and larger as more people come in.16 A