Princess in your arms
Channel: Ruangmeiluh
Date: 2023-11-10

[Background of the song]
This song is about the beautiful romantical moments with my first love. Fantasizing and wishing if we were those Princes and the Princesses of the romantic fairy tales. Life was unfair to our love’ life, nothing better than Romeo and Juliet, and the only difference is we don’t kill each other or ourselves. We couldn't live together because of the cruel decision of both our families' elders. We were forcefully divorced and torn apart. Therefore my broken heart always sings love songs of my fantasy which I couldn't have in my real life. So this song is one of my love songs I love most.

Introductory about me and my music in brief:
I was tremendously inspired to sing and started to dream to become a rockstar, when I was only eleven years old, by a rock band called “Cannibal” from Manipur. And I tried writing songs in my mother tongue and in English during my seventh and eight standard in school, but I got nothing in mind to write about. Finally, my broken love life makes my heart laments bitterly and makes me sing comforting my crying soul all alone. Then later, I started writing whichever my heart laments about. Now, for about 20 years, I keep writing whatever my heart and soul asks me to. And then all the tunes of my songs come from my inner soul which whispers to me. So all the 150 songs of mine so far and its lyrics are based on real life incidents, my dreams, my fantasies, and the gospel songs are mostly quoted from the Holy Bible. Though I never learned music in a formal way, I put it into words and sing songs about my life from my childhood to till today. Each and every song of mine is close and special to my heart and soul. I can say it is the only joys and treasures of my life I ever have.

I was forcefully divorced in the absence of my first husband Mr. Keithiuwang, by the elders of our families. Our lives were bluffed by them. My daughter grew up without her father’s love. It was too cruel to me and my daughter. My husband died after four years of his second marriage. I was told that he died of HIV. 
Again I married my second husband Mr. Mario Alphonsus D’souza, when my daughter was 17 years old. We lived together very shortly. He died again from lung cancer in 2018, 27-June. So I became a widow and poor and helpless. After his death, a few months later, I planned to record my two songs in the remembrances of my mother in law and my father, but I failed.
Finally, I did a pre- audio recording of 41 songs for making tracks, on 2nd to fourth october, 2022 in Chennai. But the sound engineer Mr Kunji, of that Don Bosco music studio said, it will be needed for instrumental music mixing per song, costing minimum of Rs. 50 thousands or more. I was shocked because it will cost many lakhs of Rupees according to him. And I don't have to pay at least for the cost of one song. So I couldn't go beyond the pre-audio recording. 
So I wrote about my personal life account, whatever comes to my mind in about 70 plus pages. But I can say it is not a complete memoir, because I didn't mention many more. I wrote it on my account, those incidents which I felt I must write about. And I also planned to find sponsors for my music project to complete it. But I failed to find it.

By God's grace, once I become a singing star of my own songs, then I would want to do something good for our North East regions, especially for the orphanages and rural poor childrens, and the same for our country too and beyond. Because there are many who cannot access basic education in our region in the North Eastern. I also wanted to involve myself in preserving our traditions and our food systems from extinction which we depend on from generation to generation eg., vegetables of the wild, fruits of the wild, all the plants and trees, lakes, rivers, streams and many more. 

PANTILIU RUANGMEILUH D’SOUZA