A Schizophrenic's Brief Account of a Vivid Hallucination ("Thou art God")
Channel: nednednerB the Schizophrenic
Date: 2010-01-25

The title basically describes it.  I run through a little story of an experience that took place a couple weeks before I was diagnosed, when I had traveled to Burning Man at the end of summer in 2002.  Hmm, due to a particular odd response that may arise, let me be clear: I did take LSD and magic mushrooms at some point during the week before the experience, and my otherwise sober hallucinatory experience was religiously/spiritually themed, but I was indeed psychotic.  Some people when they watch this may wrongly judge that I endorse drug use, but that is not true. I do not endorse for teenagers to take hallucinogens, in any way whatsoever. They were a very bad idea for me during that time

Incidentally, I diagnosed myself with schizophrenia more than half a year before doctors did or before I ever had a manifestation of distorting perception like this.  This video is meant to convey something about experiences and about the mechanisms of hallucinatory perception.

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I hope that you enjoyed this brief account and discussion and that you may have learned something or seen a bit of what it's like to be a schizophrenic. Hallucinations -seem- so totally real that it is hard to doubt their reality when they occur.  It's amazing what the human mind does. __
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