Why I have been inactive, and what my mental health has to do with both present and past situations.
Channel: VicPariah
Date: 2024-04-07

I started to record this video late this morning, wrapped it up this afternoon just before I was scheduled to leave for my shift, and then started writing the original description of this video during my lunch break at my shift.  Then, I realized that I needed to add more to the video!  So, there's a little introduction at the beginning, starring "Future Me."

This video talks about a few different things, including:

1. Why I have been away from making videos since last year,
2. Gives an example from my own past of why bad coping strategies is not healthy (a story of Discord public servers, the ones with lots and lots of random people), and how I rectified the situation,
3. How and what I have been doing, financially-wise, mental-health wise, and vocational-wise.

Hope you enjoy and get to learn from this story!

The only detail I would want to add in the description of my story is that, usually, in my antics on Discord I would hop on, almost immediately put on my webcam just like I did for this video, say very few words to the group and stream my video game with a hotkey.  Basically, attention-stealing.

Mostly, it was about just baiting negative conversations about my own poor self-image to try and be made fun of.  Remember: this happened immediately following the Discord Among Us server craze, in which waves of people were introduced to public VC.

So, this was seldom about being inappropriate - except for one particular story, which I will go over in this video.  No part of my communication strategy was a positive one at any time, regardless of how I said or acted at people per se; that is, until after I had this experience and had to repair a broken reputation on these types of Discord servers.

Now, I do ask:

Please refrain from making accusatory comments; if you wish to be investigative in any way, shape, or form, please do it with due diligence,  It's generally intrusive to the point of the story to want to try investigating the validity of what may or may not have happened.

After all, Discord servers DO have rules set for a reason!  However, there certainly is merit in having the forethought to check for those watching this that are troubled by this story.  I implore you to, instead, try to be proactive in today's Discord servers that you frequent to help those who are hurt by people.

Certainly, I have been gradually taking steps to improve my well-being and I am advocating for a positive community space.  Being a person with mental health issues, a positive community space for people not to be judged by their mental health is extremely important to me.  To that end, I wish you to keep that in mind if you add your own experiences in the comments or try to piece together mine based on this story alone.

You guys are awesome and again, thank you for taking the time to watch this!  This one does hit close to the chest, so hopefully you will find something positive from the entirety of this video.