I'm Better On The Other Side - Da PrEAChEr 2023
Channel: Da PrEAChEr
Date: 2023-03-02

Title: I'm Better On The Other Side
Artist: Da PrEAChEr
Album: Diary Of A Deadman
Composer: Eleven Empire Beats

Lyrics:
A clean slate. I'm willing to take that and not see a mistake. Could this be just a break? Probably not.

 I mean 

You were so mean and so fake, eating your cake and not sharing? Not even a taste. Just a complaint, I guess your nick name is Karen. A sick game of parenting. What it ain't is beneficial for the children. No Saint Nick Crusade, keeping them away for a selfish game you want to control. Never want to console or even talk about what caused the whole problem. Admitting to how you actually started this all. I can admit, I forgot who I was after letting work consumed me for too long, trying to get us a better image from nothing to something and then I went beyond hoping to bank up the funds and have it put away so when the day came, we could buy a house to raise the family. Hard work and dedication. Patients and even remembering what we were when we were amazing.

 Together I was devoted to you and you know it. But you twist so many stories and act as if I was horrible and we never were perfect. I guess for the guys who keep flirting. Thinking I was giving up on you, but never was that my purpose. On the surface you couldn't tell how I was still nervous trying to make you happy even though you resented me for no reason and made me start to feel far from perfect. What really happened? Were you always acting? The back scratches and compliments on my lips and habits. Made me feel like I'm not allowed to do the one thing that was a compassion and it took me a few months to get over that sadness. But how did you try to get my attention? Remember? I know I do, not something that is easily to be forgetting. Suicide thoughts were you began mentioning and telling me about the same night you put the knife in your arm and now I question it. 


Was it how you said it was or was that some more make believe to get me to forgive you quicker and see if I still love you indefinitely? The talk about hanging yourself from the banister and your cloud of misery. Just before we went ahead with your suggestion when we couldn't get ectasy, asking for that meth instead. I fucking dreaded it. Punishment to me and non stop resentment for something I never did. Destroying our loving friendship, but blaming me. Never found anything to shame on me, blatantly, spent three months smearing my name publicly. Accusing me of being the cheater. Never ever would I have either. But you must have loved the attention you were getting. Started becoming more sneakier. Suddenly the phone has a new code.

 You start making claims I'm doing shit I never did and I started to feel the cold. Worrying everyday, wishing I'd just stay home but when I do, your attitude was always out of control. Talking down on me and saying its payback for what I did to you. This isn't true, left me feeling confused and never easily to defuse. Like who are you? I miss the woman I was with for quite a bit of our relationship. I admit, even when we first started that shit, that night we were so intimate, I can never forget. The perfect fit and I continued to listen harder to get you whatever you mentioned to be an interest. I cared deeply for you, and what else, I am a fool, know why? Because I still do. 

But you need to admit that you need the help to, get over the disorder you have and deny, so what, you're going to fuck a bunch of guys and cause problems by telling lies. I can forgive you and support and offer some help if you can admit to yourself, that you're done with lying to me and everyone else. Conditioned the kids to believe whatever you sell, manipulating them to be treating me like I was nobody but you know just as well, I was a great father before you made me quit my music shit. We learned from each other, so much, and even Layton won't forget, oh wait, by now he probably did, you drilled it in his head with a bunch of other lies. Why? Just once, I'd like to hear what's really on your mind? How and why you think punishing me to this extreme is the best thing you can do? Trying to resume in Ruining me.