Scarecrow, Scared of the Crowd (Original)
Channel: Si - Sena
Date: 2020-02-19

#originalsong #piano #acousticlive

Who could have known that I would decide to publish this only to unpublish later and publish back again when my fears peaked? Cosmic coincidence :)  I have been in a mood which these words describe accurately, which I had written long ago: Scared. Smashed by obsessions.

In the first place, I wanted to narrate how I feel in a crowd. For example, I enjoy playing and singing for people, I love chatting with people but on the contrary when I find myself in a public place, just walking or even standing... I feel like I'm a scarecrow. Unsure of how to behave, how to organize my thoughts...  It always amazes me how humans exist with contradictions -in themselves! Maybe everything in this universe exists with their antis :) 

So here's to myself and for all those who can relate.

LYRICS
I'm a scarecrow, scared of the crowd when I'm all alone
Won't be right because I'm petrified

Don't get higher, higher
Don't no, no,no
It means "hayır, hayır" (no,no)
Don't want high things no more
You don't bother, bother
But I can hear my heart
"O bağırır, bağırır" (It screams, screams)
Yelling at me now

I suffocate
My hands' sweat
I don't know the name of my condition
Just know it's happenin'

I'm a scarecrow, scared of the crowd when I'm all alone
Won't be right because I'm petrified
Such a burden, so bad when I'm hurtin'
I just can't cope with all the stuff, I'm stressed out

I know that I'm a, I'm a disappointment sometimes
Oh but "ama, ama" (but, but), how can one be fearless?
Going for a, for a storm against me
Now "fora, fora" (unfurl, unfurl) sailing far away

I suffocate
My hands' sweat
I don't know the name of my condition
Just know it's happenin'

I'm a scarecrow, scared of the crowd when I'm all alone
Won't be right because I'm petrified
Such a burden, so bad when I'm hurtin'
I just can't cope with all the stuff, I'm stressed out
Just know it's happenin'