Reflection on Abortion & Euthanasia, Take 3, P10: Where I compare EMS badgering to rape
Channel: Ari R pronouns she or they
Date: 2021-07-20

Is YouTube going to let me save these descriptions?YouTube let me save this description, but not one for my RDR2 fanfic remix song. Cool. I guess I'll add that reflection here instead. No one needs to hear me sing the damned thing anyway.Reflection from the deleted Carmela "La Muñeca" Montez video:Inspired nearly life-long by parody music adaptations (most notably Weird Al's), I didn't try writing any until delving into a Dota 2 podcast for the dissertation I failed to finish.Original YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1z-Hy9WQlgVQiYg1qW0P-gRebranded channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCW2NOXbujybzWHrJUEAXk8QKudos for only rambling off-script enough to cut two sentences. I'll include the script here since I talked and sang through my mask and it may be a while before I edit the transcript. For poor timing resulting in not reading the conclusion aloud, I AM sorry, Sir Oliver!Video script:This is a super-shitty baseline vocal recording of Carmela "La Muñeca" Montez, a fanfiction poem I wrote adapting the lyrics of Harvey Danger's "Carlotta Valdez," which is "a fairly literal description of Alfred Hitchcock's 1958 film Vertigo" using the actor's names as referents instead of character names (genius.com, link below). I plan to record a follow-up after a couple weeks of revisiting vocal warm-ups and practicing the timing, etc., but this may be the only video recording of the song I publish based on how previous projects have gone.My goal was to write a sort of lesbian power ballad from the perspective of Marston, who watches Sadie lust after Carmela as they chase her and encourages her to run off with Carmela instead of turning her in for the bounty. I originally shared this as a Twitter poem you can find here: https://twitter.com/ladychris42/status/1337044303135305731The song started playing in my head as soon as I saw her name on the poster, and imagining Sadie and Marston [here's that sentence I didn't finish!]--.Red Dead Redemption 2 character name and bounty poster that inspired the piece: Carmela "La Muñeca" Montez [Lyrics removed for text space. Click the Twitter link if you want to read the lyrics.]Sourceshttps://nursingclio.org/2019/03/12/mange-morphine-and-deadly-disease-medicine-and-public-health-in-red-dead-redemption-2/https://jeanropke.github.io/RDOMap/https://i.ytimg.com/vi/cRoLSYlt1mM/maxresdefault.jpghttps://genius.com/Harvey-danger-carlotta-valdez-lyricshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_vdCOqlaAAhttps://screenrant.com/find-capture-carmela-montez-red-dead-online-legendary-bounties/Notes
*I did research on rhetoric and communication within and surrounding video games. And as previously noted, I did such a shitty job that I failed out.
On revising into a song:In the Twitter poem draft, I accidentally omitted "her" in Verse 1, line 1 [2!], which I noticed singing through the song to prepare for this recording.The chorus originally read "I will take you in," and as I sang the line, it felt utterly wrong as "I" following both verses. At first, I changed it to "she" meaning Sadie, but as the speaker repeats the name of the woman to whom he's speaking 3 times directly before the line, that seemed like a poor choice. "We" works best as they're riding as a team.An intent I'm not sure how to communicate in the song itself but that I hope people would imagine on their own is the transition in meaning between the first instance of "we will take you in" and the second: Following verse 1, the bounty hunters are still hunting La Muñeca for the bounty, but by the end of the song, the same phrase can be interpreted to mean accepting her as part of their crew (and as a potential intimate partner for Sadie). As I practiced, varying emphatic tone seems potentially effective.On first names/surnames:Clearly, I take issue with people abusing authority, and one of the ways I have historically demonstrated that is by avoiding the use of surnames. Since watching a video of House Representative Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez remind herself to "put some respect on" Vice President Kamala Harris's name, I have been trying to remind myself that this strategy can be particularly offensive to People of Color, especially coming from an angry White woman. I feel very familiar with these characters, and I would prefer to use their first names, which is why I use Sadie to refer to Sadie Adler (although imagining her the grandmother or great grandmother of Lou Adler gives me giddy pleasure). However, having been verbally abused by 2 men who share his first name (one an intimate partner 20+ years ago and one a supervisor 2 years ago), I try to no longer type it unless I am describing my trauma to someone who needs clarification of the name. Sorry not sorry, Sir Oliver of Last Week Tonight!