Rogi's Vlog: Multiple Sclerosis?
Channel: Skeezix Chaco
Date: 2011-12-23

Numbness in both ears is a symptom of very serious, neurological conditions. The numbness in my ears is now traveling into the back of my throat.

Well, I've been jerked around by the medical industrial complex for a quarter of a century or more about "what's wrong with Rogi?"

I was told I have Lupus. Jesus!

Then, alcoholism. Well, given family history & how desperately I was trying to mask my dis-ease, yeah, I was damn CLOSE to being alcoholic and 3 years in AA didn't hurt me a bit, except for the slogans like, "Keep It Simple, Stupid" that stank of self hatred.

Then, it was multiple sclerosis, but nobody would do an MRI or CAT scan.

Then, it was fibromyalgia, which, in my skeptical, dark heart, I don't believe is real, anyway.

Then, it was brain injuries. THIS particular "diagnosis" has been the most useful: I've actually learned a LOT from the Brain Injury Association, etc., about coping with my challenges and "symptoms" (dizziness, vision & memory issues, partial paralysis, numbness, ears ringing, bad impulse control...blah blah)

So, I go to the clinic today to get a Dr. to approve an x ray, cuz of the whole hitting myself in the head with a board last week thing.

He asked re: symptoms. I said I have most he asked about, but have had them for years.

He has authorized an MRI. I called them today; the app't. is scheduled from Monday the 9th, in the afternoon.

The clinic had it set up for day after tomorrow, but there's a big storm heading in tomorrow night, I'd have to go through the Tijeras Pass (which is scary crazy dangerous on a good day) and besides, they closed the cross-continental interstate from Albuquerque to the Texas border over 6 inches of snow, yesterday! Those inches have barely melted; the ground's going to ice over and there's more snow coming. nope.

So, I'm going on the 9th cuz my food stamps come in on the 8th, so I can shop, too. The clinic already knows this is "weather permitting." They're used to that; they get lots of referrals from the East Mountains.

Fortunately, it's pretty much smack in the middle of the part of town I'd be in to shop, anyway.

So, now I'm back to researching MS.

I can NOT describe how I feel. Especially with that jerk, Michael Vigil (former "landlady's" daddy) treating me like a malingerer, accusing me of self-pity & laziness, forcing me to walk from his house to my house trailer on a rutted, gravel road while holding a large baking pan of hot pork chops I'd cooked in their oven, even though I kept telling him I couldn't see and was afraid I'd fall.

Merry freakin' xmas. I'll be in a better mood later. Right now, I just need to watch a movie and cry.

"The God Delusion" by Richard Dawkins arrived today. I'll read it, and "God is Not Great" by Hitchens, eat corn chips I got marked down very cheap...bought an entire case...and just be a vegetable.

I have plenty of bathing and drinking water, and am collecting snow to melt.

WHY can't I get any straight answers about my health?? WHY?

MS: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Multiple_sclerosis