I AM DONE | Kamau Ngeche | Spoken | worth a look
Channel: Almasi Media
Date: 15/05/2020

I am done

So, getting home one day my daughter ran to me and told me about Jesus a Man she learned in Sunday, I remember looking into her eyes and felt envy, envy at her innocence, peaceful mind and doubtless faith, because I have doubted everything about my life. 

I have doubted my religion, 
I have mistrusted my friends and 
I have questioned my life,
But now I am done.

I am done living up to up to other people’s expectations and down with them. 
I am done following other people’s opinion on what is right for me how I should live my life 
I am done letting you take my smile away.
I am done seeking likes and share in the social media from “friends” who don’t even know my real name, 
I am done with friends without benefits, 
I am done with them that do not respect my identity and decisions, 
I am done with those that drain me spiritually, emotionally and mentally.

I am done letting society’s expectation and trends dictate my thoughts and actions.
I am done being a people pleaser, listening to people who don’t give a blank about me.
I am done with all the fear, fears of being lonely, fear of poverty, fear of being told No, fear of Change, fear of being labeled weak, a quitter, Fear of the Unknown.  

I am done with this man-made invention called religion receiving grace but giving none, 
an exhibition of good people and not a hospital for the broken, 
a social gathering and not a shelter for the homeless or a store for the hungry. 
I am done with you because if grace is water then the church should be an ocean. 

I am done with the act, hiding my failures and short comings yes painting a fake image of perfection 
I am not perfect and so are you.
I am done praying that Christ may come down as I strive to go Up, I want to be where he is. 
I am done taking a course of action that coincide with other peoples believe, 
I am done floating through life I will honestly live making an honest living. 
Like leaves on a tree I am done being pushed around. 
Like a gold fish in a jar I am done swimming in circles. 

I am done letting negative thoughts Crip in my mind, 
I am done forgiving everyone else but me. 
I am done fearing screenshots more than gun shots 
I am done being sick and tired because I am sick and tired of being sick and tired,
I am done being done.