scatterzone - abilify (full ep)
Channel: policeman planet
Date: 21/11/2018

please please please buy a copy: 
https://scatterzone.bandcamp.com/album/abilify

with scatterzone's blessing, I was able to upload this emotional storm of an EP. in fact, its my favorite EP of 2018 (and perhaps even 2019). Every detail, every lyric, every syllable is felt, heard, smelled, and distinguished by color and aura. This aural-audio masterpiece of sorts is something to be loved in your heart forever by.  

lyrics: 

"the big tear jerker"
please dont hit me 
please dont hit me 
not again 
not again 
please dont hit me 
please dont hit me 
not again 
not again

"the metronome song"
i dont want your touch, no, not on me 
i dont want to feel you, not there 

i need anything to, get out of here 

i just left my body, far behind 
i am floating now, way far away 

feel my carcass, it is yours now 
i cant hear or see you, no longer 

rape me rape me again and again, just keep going

"boy misfit"
there is no one here or out there 
all these toys are piling with dust 

all my friends are in my head 
all my foes are in my head 

i havent left my room in three days 
no ones worried, who even would be 
crying on the floor right underneath me 
my ceiling is now talking to me 

all my friends are in my head 
all my foes are in my head 
all my friends are in my head 
all my foes are in my head 

i thought hurting myself would help but 
nothing i feel is ever really real 
im just another one of those day dreams 
one of those hundreds i keep replaying 

all my friends are in my head 
all my foes are in my head 

no one has ever asked me how i felt 
so i dont know how to describe this 
all these feelings inside my heart but 
my heart feels its dying or blackening 
i feel like im going to explode if 
i dont say hi to you in like... 

all my friends are in my head 
all my foes are in my head 
all my friends are in my head 
all my foes are in my head

"i am not living"
i am losing hope 
i am losing faith 

i am still post-poning 
i am still worrying 
i am still self-hating

liner notes: 

"im uploading this at 4 in the morning 

my first ep made with my korg volca fm and sample 
its full of problems, like my singing, its horrible 
ive only been doing this (music) for a few months 
im trying 

this is more of a much needing vent outlet 
it is riddled with negative narcissism 
i hope maybe you like it

released July 17, 2018"