02 - Book Of Changes - Organic Machine TLe1
Channel: Spirit Level Studios
Date: 2020-07-30

This is track 2 from the album Mental Stillness And The Rest Of Life, by Book Of Changes, which was produced and released in 2013 via Ektoplazm: 
https://ektoplazm.com/free-music/book-of-changes-mental-st-illness-and-the-rest-of-life
Soundcloud:
https://soundcloud.com/spiritlevel-studios/sets/book-of-changes-mental-st
Bandcamp:
https://spiritlevelstudios.bandcamp.com/album/book-of-changes-mental-st-illness-and-the-rest-of-life

Attribution-ShareAlike  (CC BY-SA 3.0) - https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/

(Tempo = 100 BPM) This is the darkest track on this release. It's essentially a sonic machine for processing heavy emotions experienced during an unhealthy and doomed relationship. It's rather haunting and still serves as an accurate depiction of my state of being at that time in my life. It's also the distant relative of an earlier track called TLe1 (renamed for privacy) released in 2008 under another alias; Oblivious Wisdom.

If you've ever been mixed up with a person who has BPD, you'd know it's a real mine field. I often questioned my own sanity. I really wanted to help, but I am not sure that I ever came close to doing so. The longer I stayed, the more I suffered through mistreatment and a lack of empathy and understanding. In the end I had to walk away and focus on rebuilding my own health and strength.

Peace ☺