"Vain"  - Visual Poetry Video ||  lajennvee
Channel: Jennifer Vignali
Date: 16/02/2016

For the past couple of years I've made the conscious effort to love myself more. It's been a journey... quite the journey to say the least. I wrote this poem after noticing that I catch myself in the mirror often and I had to ask, "Am I being vain?" ... if self love is vanity then I am guilty and not sorry. I'm proud of this mess of a human for how far she's come and I'm so excited for where's she's going.

Also, in deciding to put this together and while editing, I learned some last minute lessons I'd like to share with you:
First, I have a new affirmation for myself: I am worth Love. I am worth Loving. (Stop reading and say that out-loud, right now, to yourself, and slowly...) 
Second, I guess this poem makes up the reasons for why I'm worth loving and the reasons for which I hope someone else will love me.
Lastly, I guess I've always struggled to find "Love" because I had been craving my partners to love me the way I always wanted to love me - with patience, acceptance and unconditionally. In finally acknowledging that I love myself, I now can recognize when I am not loved... So much more I'd like to say about that lesson but who's reading this anyway?!?! haha... 

Much, Much Love. Ciou.

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© "Vain" dedicated to me

Written by Jenn Vee
Self directed and self produced
Audio sound by Jenn Vee
Filmed by Jenn Vee, Huy Doan Photography, Akaro Photography, Gustavo Lomas
Colored and edited by Jenn Vee


"She was the type of girl that took no shit.
Never accepted a 'no' for an answer
Stubborn to the core!
And I admired her for every ounce of strength she exerted 
that I was never capable of
But it wasn't until I saw her compassion that actually started to like her.
Her ability to forgive and forget
and carry no weight of regret on her shoulders;
that she could see the good in people
and point it out to them
even when they were blind to it.
She is about the only person I know who
will point out the lush flowers during a storm
the seedling nestled in a mud-pie
The queen of silver lining has never been crowned but
perhaps it's because she has no competition to run against her for it.
Yes, I liked the positivity in her smile,
the hope in her eyes,
the understanding in her touch,
yet evenso, I couldn't like her that much.
I started to fall in love when I saw her vulnerability
When I saw past the positivity on her crows feet 
and dove soul first into her brown fields of golden green hazes, 
hazeled eyes, that reached into me so far deep,
without hardly any effort,
that I wonder if she felt the journey at all.
There's sadness, and fear, and hidden insecurities in her eyes,
There's pride and playful innocence in her smile
I catch her reflection every time I get the chance now
because I am so proud to have known her 
to fall in love with someone so interesting and so captivating
and you could call me vain for wanting to stare at her
but you're not seeing what I see.
She's not her extremities. 
There's power in her sensitivity,
courage in her flaws
and it's not till you notice that
her heart is extended to the tip of her fingers that you see
she's walking through life inside-out.
I love her today more that I ever have my whole entire life
Our journey has just begun
and I know I'll be alright
so long as I have her
with me for the ride."

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SPECIAL THANK YOU (in order of assistance)::
Mimi V., Bryan W., and Mitchel R. for keeping me company while I went camera crazy. Thank you for your laughs, friendship and being down to explore
Huy Doan Photography, Akaro Photography, and Gustavo L. for shooting me. You three hold a special part in my heart. Thank you for being there.

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Background Music:
"Comfortable Mystery 2" Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com) 
Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 3.0
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