Chasing Happiness – What Makes Me Happy | Cancer Project
Channel: ZebraInParadise
Date: 05/09/2018

I was watching Casey Neistat’s latest video (linked below) and he spoke briefly about happiness. It made me stop and think for a moment about my own happiness, since I haven’t been very happy lately. I have my moments but overall, I’ve been in a deep funk, depressed and wanting things to change but, other than more money, not really knowing what changes will make me happy. This made me delve a little deeper into my psyche to figure out what I need to be happy.

The very first thing I thought of was to have my daughter and two grandkids move to Oahu. That would make me so very, very happy and I think it would just take a load of stress off of me just by them being here. However, that’s something outside of my control so I put that aside. I’m still working on them, though.

The next thing is my job. I need to change something about that situation, whether it’s a new employer or a new position within the company. I’m burning out on what I’m doing right now. My job hasn’t changed much and the company I work for has taken away a lot of the control I had with the previous company. I thought I would learn more with this new company and I have learned some, but not to the degree I thought I would. 

And of course, money. However, if I do change employers, I can change the income situation. I’m also working on paying off bills and I’ve reduced my spending (which is really no fun for a minor shopaholic), but it’s going to take years to get back to where I was prior to the cancer.

I didn’t even consider health in this equation. Would I be happier if I didn’t have cancer? Sure. Would I be happier if I didn’t have the lymphedema? Definitely! But I can’t make them disappear. I’m still doing the research for the lymphedema so I have a thread of hope that I can find something, somewhere.

So this is my goal for now – To find the things that will make me happier on a daily basis, that will make my life easier to deal with, and will make me not dread the day each morning I wake up.


Casey Neistat video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=txvX4aSuEWY
(Go to 2:10 for the happiness 

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