NeuroSoup Article 1 -- Uh Oh -I Think You Have a Brain Disease...
Channel: nednednerB the Schizophrenic
Date: 2009-09-02

Brenden MacDonald
NeuroSoup Article 1
August 29th, 2009
Uh Oh—Do You Have a Brain Disease You Didn't Know You Had?

So, I was diagnosed after an intense psychosis, after much self-admitted psychological deterioration and disordering with schizophrenia in 2002, re-hospitalized in 2006 after another acute psychosis. And, previously through 2000-2001, I was developing more and more acute chronic pain, given the cute moniker—in its being technically vague and similarly precise—Pain Amplification Syndrome. I have always wondered about following the traditional imbalance theory of psychology that my chemicals are all topsy-tipsy-turvy.  It is said I need pharmaceutical psychodecibel limiters and compressors to control these highly activated Dopamine, Tryptamine, and Substance P (for Pain) molecules that are imbalanced in my brain system of systems of genetic dispositions, supersaturated synaptic clefts, and axons and dendrites containing every variety of endogenous elixir all crammed into dense poly-flavored vesicle berries.

Well, I will have to wholeheartedly agree with these theories that my mental illness entails that my brain and extended metabolic structure is a warped mass of inappropriate, painful, often effectively antisocial surges of magnetic activity and chaotic nerve communication. I must embody a brain disease, come to think of it.  After all, I had a physics professor once who told me I had all my facts about quantum mechanics correct, but she interpreted the opposite of my interpretation and it treated the philosophy of mind and revealed to me that she actually believed in the mind-brain identity theory. What she said of her beliefs represented to me, in the words of philosopher David Armstrong, a feeling that science will eventually determine conscious life in all its multifaceted experiential essence to be nothing but a physico-chemical mechanism (p. 206 in Morton, Peter, Ed. A Historical Introduction to the Philosophy of Mind  Readings With Commentary).  

In my own words, if we take mainstream quantum and classical physics as well as psychology and philosophy for that matter on face value, we will actually conclude that psychological elements like effort and desire have absolutely no part or role in the actual causal mechanisms of, say, devious and mutual play or even lovemaking.  We must after that, to be logically coherent, go one step farther in the way we construct the language of our interconnected claims, whether they are made in physics or psychology, and therefore conclude that consciousness is the primary brain disease which underlies all of what we mistakenly call the willingness of humanity to put effort into ecological and social chaos. (Just look at the world, for one second. That's 'nuff said right thur 'bout all uh the pandemic uh cultural psychosis in these galactic parts, ya hear!). We may also safely conclude that schizophrenia and chronic pain are primarily nothing but more strange quantum physical mechanisms. Uh oh—do you have a brain disease you didn't know you had?  Like Robert Anton Wilson said, of course I'm crazy, but that doesn't mean I'm wrong.

Contemporary neurophysical psychodynamics leaves something to be begged for in this dismal state of (admittedly loose, but nonetheless perhaps compelling) logical implication, especially when global culture itself within a plethora of revolutionary-psychedelic-memetic and deep ecological theories is just completely bonkers. If normalcy is willful ignorance and denial that humanity is on a crash course of deep ecological, technological, and cognitive waste (think about interconnection  of TV with Earth and human mind, for instance), then every normal human being on earth has a severe neural imbalance. Of course, this wouldn't be on average like they use to gauge my schizo/pain imbalance compared to normal people (purely average individuals on an individual basis, not really possible, but whatever for my purposes). Instead, what I am calling cultural psychosis would be an imbalance in terms of sustainable ecology and peace. 'Nuff said: indeed I'm crazy, but doesn't mean you're not. __
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