Renai Decision (2018)
Channel: soraxvi
Date: 10/12/2021

It's been three years and no artwork will ever fit this piece.

I heard from a stranger say along the lines "Love is a decision. It's a very important one because when you love someone, you wouldn't say "Suddenly, I don't love you anymore.'" And it touched my heart so deeply, emotionally, and sorrowfully. I wanted to express everything it made me feel into a song. It took a few weeks to complete as I tried to finalize it. It was missing something.

During the creative process, I finally had the courage to confess to my best friend. It was scary, I didn't want to lose you. 

It went well.

Days afterwards, I expressed happiness through a violin, and it completed the song.

Happy Anniversary, for our first relationship and our marriage. I could'nt have a better friend and love in the whole universe. ♥


Kantera's Clinic from End Roll was another inspiration, a game we both love and played as friends! They don't sound remotely similar. lol
This is my first ever full length song, too. It's very special and carries so much meaning. Within sorrow, something warm and beautiful bloomed.

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This is the first time working with patterns. The export was difficult for the percussions, needing to manually place the pattern on Audacity. They have a noticeable chirp towards the end, sorry! Didn't catch that sooner. The PC used at the time didn't have a good audio card for speakers or headphones.

The music's composition is repetitive rhythm of comforting auditory stimming. Game soundtracks for the most part are designed to be repetitive for endless looping and playback, specially if you have a favorite track!

The instruments chosen for this piece had and still have a positive stimming effect, at least for what tickles my auditory perception.

A wind instrument plays once at 0:44 right after the violin is first introduced. The violin stands for love and the flute commences its bloom and understanding making the choice to and build upon it.

The piece ends with the plucked instrument isolated accompanied with a "bell"-like instrument at the last seconds for the finale, a serene conclusion of a mutual decision.

The grand moon in the sky, gibbous and ice.