The Terror of the Schizoid Space | Undefined, Unexpressed, Torturous
Channel: Visceral Gravitas
Date: 22/04/2024

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transcript:
the earlier theory that schizoids are directing their counterwill against God 
and they're using each person as an individual proxy as a standin for fate 
then each person is a stand in for fate 
then each person could be a standin for bad God 
yeah 
so each person is a stand stand in for bad God 
that means each person can instantly turn into to a demon that destroys you 
that eats them 
that eats them yeah 

so then they have to map out this complex pankajism map of all these tools to navigate safety and danger 
because he's not using his body 
he's using the dominant frame the mental 
extreme mental space to try to map out safety and danger 
to express the paranoia

yeah this makes a lot of sense 

but that gets away from the 
underneath the paranoia is a lot of Terror 
so if they could express the terror 
or if I could try to find words to express the schizoid pure terror 
Wow 
then that would humanize them or maybe that would give voice to the terror 
so then they're they're paranoia would go down 
or maybe their inner piece 
they would have some inner piece 

maybe that's what I was missing from my mushroom trip or maybe a future one 

to try to get a taste of the schizoid inner nightmare 
that was sort of the Betrayal wound theory that I threw in the Discord 
that abuse isn't really the abuse 
abuse is getting you to self- betray yourself 
yeah 
and once you self betray yourself now you have your conscience that hates you 
so then you're just looking for distractions from self-hate 
from self betrayal 
so then this is a Warfare for 
spiritual warfare to try to save your soul 
save people's Souls 
falling for the path of Lucifer all the Christian pointers
you know better than God 
but then once you fall for that path 
you have that giant burden that's agonizing
wow 
so while I'm annoyed by schizoids 
somehow I'm probably trying to map out and try to have compassion for their lost souls or their tortured inner world 

yeah makes me feel sad 

and then yeah 
you can merge with that and just feel their their sadness 
yeah 
yeah I can do that 
I can feel their Terror too 

ah yes that's what we 
that's what needs to be mapped out 
wow that's a big thing 

the terror of the schizoid space