Internal Monologue
Channel: The Mind That Writes
Date: 2020-07-03

Internal Monologue

'Look at you, the king sitting on his throne
ruling over his kingdom of trash
unable to escape the stench you've left behind
pretending to be this gentle, kind, holy persona
the tormented genius, the eternal dreamer
the misunderstood romantic, the idea fanatic
static imagines that don't fit a reality that flows
a river of addiction glows like neon light
bright red in the 'happy' district where you go
to prostitute your thoughts for a bit of attention.
You seem to forget that I know you
I know what lies behind the masks
the chameleon facade, the carnival your mind displays
puts on a show to keep the front lobe occupied
distracted -

  How long did you think it would last
  before my inevitable return
  you can turn the pages back and forth
  as many times as you want
  you can't escape the epilogue - me -

  Call it whatever you want;
  internal monologue, a dialogue with the devil
  the integration of the shadow
  an infusion of your hollow, broken and filthy self
  into the image of balance
  the primal call of darkness, madness unleashed
  on a fragile psyche
  it's irrelevant whether I'm a revenant, a ghost
  just some words thrown together
  escape is not an option.

Go on, be my guest
continue on this wonderful journey of inward exploration
while ignoring the sensation that turns your stomach,
that doesn't want harmony, balance; happiness and joy
Go on, keep ignoring
the addict, the cheater, the liar, the deceiver
the degenerate, the monster, the idiot
the insatiable need to destroy everything you achieved
to satisfy the greed of the masochist -

  Don't you ever forget I'm not leaving
  I am here to stay - I will always find a way
  to cast some light on your day...'