Am i just talking? Timothytrespas STORAGE LOCKER REFUGE thoughts
Channel: Timothytrespas
Date: 2013-10-14

In this video I am 'working' in a 24 hour access storage locker in Brooklyn while petra is at home
 I could not return home due to an order of protection taken against me after my arrest on false assault charges filed by the woman we rented a room from.
(they moved out of the apartment after a week or two passed but continued to return to attempt to 'catch' me there so they could have e arrested again, as well as to threaten petra and harass her and demand money from her.
I was terribly sick with some infection flu fever coughing phlegm pain weakness etc. hat I caught because of my being processed through the justice system where it is dirty and disease is everywhere (perhaps by design?)
cold alone afraid sick and under attack
this is exactly what the watchers desire to do to targets. destroy them. make the afraid so they have no idea what to do next
as messed up as this situation was, I am grateful to my creator for providing me with refuge, food, medicine, a way to communicate, a place to hide, sleep, attempt to heal, rest, pray and watching over me.
I do not always remember or feel that I a loved by God, and I desire to be closer to God. I try to remember and thank the lord for every blessing as it is easy for me to forget and get afraid and desperate and act again like a small child.
When afraid it is easy for me to forget my blessings and faith and act against my own best interest.
I have realized that I can not live my life alone with any success without the support love and protection of my creator.
It is frequently difficult to understand why we undergo such trials and suffering in this life, apparently sometimes regardless of how we live or think or what we do or desire
But I am beginning to believe that it is ALL controlled by the creator, and that somehow suffering is required. but it hurts. and we want it to stop. 
it makes me wonder how can God love me and allow me to suffer at the same time?
there are any things I realize I have no understanding of and wished somehow I could
This experience was a hard time in my mind and body
being locked up, stress, homeless, alone, afraid, sick, was a great deal to accept.
Thank you Lord for staying with me and guiding me and helping me even when I I did not believe you were there.
Thank you to those who cared and prayed and donated and left helpful kind comments.
It is together, under god, through the power of love and compassion, humanity will survive in peace and love





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