Fantasy
Channel: Jim Banister Music
Date: 22/02/2019

photo: thedistanceisclose

Heaven help I'm hurting now
time will heal but not right now
seeking refuge in the sound
of fingers wrapped round bronze and steel bound.

And I catch myself again
a separate timeline in my head
some things that you never said
my mind is being led.
So desperate for your love
my bodies had enough
it builds a story out of dust
a spark of hope erupts.

Just as quickly I am back
a trickle colder gaze a blank
nothing left in the tank
hand to chest my heart is sank.
A twisted feature of the mind
to replay losses every time
over over till your tired
waves of anguish you will ride.

You can't catch it before it starts
the mold will fill its cast
how is hope s'posed to help you cope
it only drags out the lonely heart.
It doesn't me when I fall
it just tears me up some more
and its shakes me to the core
whats my body doing this for.

(Take it day by day
  just waiting for the pain to drain
  un-spinning webs of tales that kept you sane
  the name that brought spirit when it came.)