Love is Worth a Restraining Order - v1.0 [TOCMedia.org/me]
Channel: TOC Me
Date: 2019-01-10

I am crazy. I am obsessed. So get it. Go out to file a restraining order.

I am standing in front of you, with my hands down at my sides telling you to hit me where it hurts.

The reward is worth more than the risk. The reward of getting to hear from you again. I want to talk open and honestly. I want to know what happened for you on November 23rd, and, in landmark speak, what you took that to mean.

cuz i love you to the moon and back
when you visited I was so skinny, you called yourself fat,
and I played along with that, yup, I didn't know how to act
I didn't know what was real, because my world became surreal,
We thought we were playing in a movie, since we manifested something so truly,
awe inspiring yet unruly,
so when you brokeup with me I copied something from my favorite romance in
I would write you every day, and I did till you said "you win"
I was sooo happy to be in bliss again
but it only lasted; until your old life came back and, we both reacted
and pushed our feelings under the covers
flashback to the end of road trip part 1 where our feelings were first discovered
May 30th we planned to visit Tokyo some day, to dance in the rain,
exactly 3 months later we’re dancing on a most spectacular date
but I was stuck in my life; I never admitted I choose to love the world more than a wife
I didn’t know; until recently approaching the mic,
I became as vulnerable as I did on our spiritual wedding night
only you know what this precisely means.
I pledged to wait for you until a year, but now our relationship is obscene
June is 4 months away and I brokedown.
I can’t commit to you when your voice does not make one sound
for months I’ve tried to move on, I slowly felt that’s what you want;
or at least thats what we need, a break from the crazy overthinking hive of bees,
thats our thoughts, our hopes, our dreams – the world ain’t really what it seems.
So still I stay confused, I just cried and wrote the blues
‘cuz last night my mind was set; I was going to get a dating app
and then my heart just sank: “what, if she saw, she would think”
my soul was still with you; tell me if it is true,
[there’s a reason for everything]
why I wrote you a letter; and you just return to sender
if you opened you would see, I was trying to let you be.
I guess I need some closure; ‘cause every time I wrote ya,
I didn’t get a response. Last time this happened things worked out; non-chalant
I also wanted to send you a request for spiritual divorce;
but before it happened I broke our repore,
so tell it to me straight;
November 23rd did you fall out of love? Or just delay our fate

I think we’re all just looking to reconnect to the oneness,
you helped me reconnect to a trace of consciousness
falling into the deepest fires beneath,
just to ignite into a dragon, soaring above the trees

[PAUSE]
Love will not be silenced – peace & love – let’s unite, enjoy the ride, don’t it feel like a fight?

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