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Channel: tonimartitonee
Date: 07/11/2022

written by tonimarti
produced by tonimarti
mixed by tonimarti

released january 24 2022

they say life goes on man this shit shouldve stopped
i don’t really remember when was last time we talked
all these dead memories floatin going belly up
you werent my first one but you were my first love
and shit i really fucked up
i put a frown on your pretty face
always held in alot of hate
i was on bullshit
those are times i could never change
i hate to say
but if you gave me another shot
you could see im not the same

ive tried fighting theses feelings
leaving blood all on the ring
wish we had better timing
i tried with everything i knew
ever since i left you
the sky has never been so blue
got a couple screws loose
i thought your love wasnt true
i couldnt look at myself
its hard for me to feel satisfied
all my pride is in pieces
late nights im staring at the ceiling
just hoping i wake up
if im dreaming of you and me i already know its made up

my insecurities made me envy
eventually id be the enemy
hit this whiskey till its empty
see the bottles reflecting
when you take a lot of losses
you often get reckless
i thought of you as nothin more
god i was blind from the blessings
god i was blind from the message
theres only wreckage left between us
no way we can build trust
i faced towards your direction as i attempted to self destruct
shit i still think about you while i be fucked up off the drugs

but you know i learned to love
i let go of my mental but im still holding on my heart
this is nothing but a song i have yet to play my part
let me know what you say, can we bring it back to the start

i could walk thru the Antarctic
and still bring you somethin warm
i been on bullshit here and before
but i promise you nevermore
ive seen the sun ive seen the days
ive seen the nights cant lose you twice
you got these eyes that hypnotize
its been like this since the first time
still i did what you’d expect
yea you could say what you want about me
you’re probably right
you’re the only one who’s ever really seen inside my mind
you’re the only one who could make everything feel alright

ive got all the words to say
just tell me what you want to hear
we can redo what went wrong
ill hold your heart a thousand years
a thousand tears couldnt bring you back
now all i do is laugh
you have my other half
nothing else seems to fit
i swear whenever it comes to you fuck i just cant quit
ill never leave from your side nevermore than an inch
ill sit with you every second we see the clock tick

or maybe this is all bullshit

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