口from E.M.Forster _Howards End_「(￢ 111(ヽ 1ヽ

viCヽ V,and

latcr On thcy said it.But thcy had othcr(11lC.StiOns bclbrc thcm no、 v.

̀1)o yOu lll()an to(cll mc tllat Paul―

warning is allthc othcr way.ヽ 4y niccc has bccn very foolish,'

But shc dici nOt likc llis vO,cc.Hc soundcd as if hc、 vas
talking to a portcr,and,ccrtain that hc had dcccivcd hcr at
thc statiOn,shc t00 grc、 v angry.
̀1)o you rncan to tcH lη c that Paul and your niccc―
ヽ4rsヽ /1unt― sucll is human llaturc― dctcrllnincd that she、vould cllampion tllc lovcrs.Shc、 vas not goilng to be l〕 ullicd
by a scvcrc young inan.̀Ycs,tllcy care fbr onc anothcr vcry
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(lccd,'shc said.̀I darc say thcy、 vill tcll yOu about itby and by:Wc llcard this morning.'
And Charlcs clcnchcd his nst and cricd,̀The idiot,thc
idiot,thc littic fool l'ルlrs 1/1unt tricd to divcst hcrsclf｀ of hcr rugs。 ̀If that is
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alk.'
your attitudc,Ⅳ frやVilcox,I Prcrcr t。 、̀I bcg yott will do nO such thing. I take you up thismonlcnt tO thc housc.Lct rnc tcll you thc thing's impossiblc,

and must bc stoppcd.'
ルfrs NIIunt did not oftcn losc hcr tempcr,and when she
did it was Only to protcct thosc whorn shc lovcd.()n thisoccasion shc blazcd out. ̀I quitc agrcc, sir. Thc thingお/1y niccc is a
illlPossiblc,and I″ ′ノ
ιcon■ c up and stop it. ヽvcry cxccptional Pcrson,and l anl not inclincd to sit still
vhilc shc thrOvvs hcrsclfa、 vay on thosc、 vho、 vill not apprcci‐、
atc hcr.'Charlcs workcd his iaws.
̀Considcring shc has only kno、

̀I warn you:Paul hasn't a pcnny;it's usclcss.'
̀No nced to warn us, ヽ江r WVilcox, I assurc you. The
and l shall give hcr a good scolding and takc hcr back tO
LOndon with mc。
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̀Hc hasto makc his、 vay out in Nigcria.Hc couldn't think
Ofrnarrying lor ycars,and、 vhcn hc docsitrnust bc a、 voman、
vhO can stand thc clilnate, and is in othcr、vays― WVhy
hasn't hc told us?く Df coursc hc's ashamcd.Hc knOws he'sbccn a fool.And so hc has― a damncd fool。
Shc grcw fttrious.
'̀マ

Vhcrcasヽ liss Schlcgcl has 10st nO tirnc in publishing thene、vs.'

̀Ifl wcrc a man,L/1r Wilcox,for that last rcmark I'd box
your cars.You'rc not it tO cican my nicce's boots,to sit inthc samc room、 vith hcr,and you darc― you actually darc一I dcclinc tO arguc、 vith such a pcrson.'̀All l knolv is,shc's sprcad thc thing and hc hasn't,and

my fathcr's away and I―'

̀And an that l kno、 v is―̀ル Iight l flnish lny scntcncc,pleascP'
̀No.''Charlcs cicnchcd his tccth and scnt thc rnOtOr swcrving all

ovcr thc lanc.

Shc screamcd.
So thcy playcd thc gamc ofCapping Fallnilics,a round of、vhich is al、 vays playcd、 νhcn lovc、 vOuld unitc two rncmbcrs

WVcdncsday,and only lnct your hthcr and lll■ othcr at a stray

Of Our race.But thcy playcd it、 vith unusual vigour,statingin sO lrl■ any words that Schlcgcls wcrc bcttcr than WVi19oxcs,

hotcl一VVilcoxcs bctter than Schlcgcls.Thcy flung dccency asidc.

n your brothcr sincc^′'

̀Could you possibly lowcr your voicc P「 Fhc shop‐ Inan、 vill

Thc lnan was young,the woman dccply stirrcd;in both a

Ovcrhcar.

vcin Of cOarsencss was latcnt.Thcir quarrcl、 vas nO moreasへ′
̀Esprit dc classc'一 if One nlay coin thc Phrase一 、
unt.Shc sat quivering、vhilc a nlcmbcr Of
strong inル Irs Ⅳ【thc lo■ ,cr ordcrs dcpositcd a lmctal ftlnncl,a sauccpan andsurprising than arc mOst quarrcls― incvitablc at thc tilnc,
incrcdiblc artcrwards.But itャ vas morc than usually ftltilc.

a gardcn squirt bcside thc roll of oilcloth.
̀忠 tight bchind P'

up at IIowards End,and Hclcn,looking vcry palc,ran out̀ヽ

ycs,sir。 'And thc lowcr ordcrs vantthcd in a cloud Of

Aた w minutcs,and thcy wcrc cnlightcncd.Thc motor drc、
to lncet hcr aunt.

̀AuntJuley,I havejust had a tclcgram from NIlargareti
I― I Incant to stop your corningo ltisn't―

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llc clirnax was too much for Mrs Munto Shc buttt intO

'1｀t(lars.

̀AuntJulCy dCaF,dOn't.Don't lct thcl■

know I've bccn sosilly.It、 vasn't anything.1)o bcar upお r mysakc.'

̀Paul,'cricd Charlcs IVilcox,pulling his glovcs oE
̀DOn't lct thclln kno、 ν.Thcy arc ncvcr to know。 '̀Oh,Iny darling Hclcn―、
vithout saying a word turned away from hiln to、vards her
vcrs.
n。 、

̀RIother,'he callcd, ̀are you aware that Paul has bcen
pllI:I「

1:11:l『:搬 ;電 FttLIを any bng針 ,f yoùreir h putぬ 江'̀Paull Paul!'
A vcry young lllan camc out Ofthc housc。
̀Paul,is thcrc any truth in thisP'̀l didn't一 I don't―̀ヽ:}:i[Fhcy havc bFOken Or thc cngagC‐忌
亀mcnt.'、
vay,'said Rllrs lVilcox,stooping do、vn to smcn a rosc,'ycs or no, lllan, Plain qucstion,plain ans,vcr.Did or

didn'tヽ liss Schicgcl―

IV'̀Charlcs dcar,'Said a vOicc fl・ om thc gardcn. ̀Charlcs,
dcar Charlcs,Onc dOcsn't ask plain qucstions.Thcrc arcn't

HELEN and her aunt rcturncd to WVickharll Place in a state
Ofcollapsc,and lor a little tillncル rargarct had threc invalids

such things.'

on her hands.h/1rs hllunt soon rccovCrcd,Shc posscsSCd tO aThcy wcrc ali silcnt.It was NIrsヽ Vilcox.
Shc apprOachcd just as IIclcn's lcttcr had dcscribcd hcr,
tralling n9isclcssly ovcr thc lawn,and thcrc was actually a、visP Of hay in hcr hands.Shc sccmcd to belong not to theyoung pcoplc and thcir F120tOr,but to thc housc,and to thc/cr Of distorting the past, andrcmarkablc dcgrcc thc po、 へ
beforc many days ャvcre ovcr shc had forgottcn the parttrcc that ovcrshadowcd it.Onc kncw thatshc、 vorshipptd

intòIt had to bc gonc through by somcone,'、 vhich in its[1鵬 照TTttl勝 嵐
麓猟llttl∬ :組蹴∬savcd this!'which during thc journcy to London cvolvcd

thc Past,and that thc instinctivc、 へ/isdom the past can alone

had dcsccndcd upOn hcr― that、 へ′
isdom to which、 vc
c thc clulnsy namc of aristOcracy,High‐ born shc llnight
not bc.But assurcdly shc carcd about her anccstors,and lct
bcstov′gil・

thcln hclp hcr.Whcn shcsaw Charlcs angry,Paul frightcncd
and ヽIrs A/1unt in tcars, shc hcard hcr anccstors say:
̀Scparatc thosc human bcings、 vhO will hurt cach othcr
most.Thc rcst can wait.'SO shc did not ask qucstions.Stilllcss did shc prctcnd that nOthing had happcned,as a coln‐
pctcnt socicty hostcss 、
vould havc donc. She said: ̀ゝ /fissSchlcgcl,、 vOuld you takc your aunt up to your room or to

my roonl, whichcvcr you think bcst. Paul, do flnd Evic,
and tcll hcr lunch fOr sEく ,but l'lll not surc、 vhcthcr wc shan
all bc do、 vnstairs fbr it.'And、 vhcn thcy had obeycd hcr shc
turncd to hcr cldcr sOn,〜 vhO still stood in thc throbbing,ャvith tcndcrncss, andStinking car, and slllilcd at hiln

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upOn hcr likc a thundcrclap, and by thcm and by thcir
revcrberations shc had bccn stunncd.
Thc trllth、 vas that shc had fallcn in love,nOt、
individual,but、 vith a falnily.

vith anBcforc Paul arrivcd shc had,as it、 vcrc,bccn tuncd up intO守鷺∬舞lyl器撃請 :露:鳳 脚Ⅷ謙.等

bc an day With them in the opcn air,to slccP at night undcr

thcir r00t had SCCmcd the suprcttcjOy oflifc,and had lcd
tO that abandonmcnt ofpcrsonality thatis a possible prcludc
ん′グgiving in to■ llr Wilcox,Or Evic,orグ
t01ovc.Shc had ιvcrc
ιι〃bcing t01d that her notions ofliた 、Charlcs;shc had′ 力
shcltcrcd or acadclnic;that Equalitywas nonscttc,Votcs for

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ヽ
V(,ぃ ●:,11(,い ●いヽ,S(,(lìllisln nonsense,Art and Literature,ヽ
(1'￨,t ヽ
Vil{:'(()● (l:!Civc tO strcngthcning thc charactcr,「,,1,1:■ (1い ( ()!1( l)y Onc thc Schlcgcl fctishes had becn Over‐llll()、 、
11, 11‖ (l, 11lough profcssing tO defcnd thcrn,shc hadi(￨()i(1(1. ヤ
Vhcn ルlr WVilcox sald that One sOund man Of
l,H■ 111(・ sヽ (lid mOrc good to the、 vOrld than a dozcn Of yourS()(liハ ! r()Ibrmcrs, shc had s、 ァ
a1lo、 vcd thc curiOus asscrtion、vi(1lout a gasP,and had lcant back luxuriOusly among thc

insular cynic and the insular lnoralist they onbr an equal()tiSlliOns Of his lnOtor― car.マ Vhcn Charlcs said,̀マVhy bc sO

this trivialsort thc doors ofheavcn may be shakcn open.To
Hclcn, at all cvcnts, her lifc was to bring nothing more
intcnsc than the embracc ofthis boy、 vho playcd no partin
it.Hc had dra、 vn her out ofthe housc,whcrc there wasdangcr of surprisc and light;hc had led her by a path hc
knc、v,until thcy stood undcr thc column ofthe vast、 vych―
cllln.A man in the darkncss,he had whispcred̀1 lovc you'(｀(・

politc tO scrvants P'「 hcy don't undcrstand it,'shc had nOt

givcn thc Schlcgcl rctOrt Of̀Ifthey dOn't undcrstand it,I

do.'No;shc had vO、 vcd to be less politc tO scrvants in thc
ftlture. ̀I am s、 vathcd in cant,' shc thOught, ̀and it isgood for rnc to bc strippcd Ofit.'ノ ヽnd all that shc thOught
or did Or brcathcd was a quict prcparation fOr Paul.Paul、vas incvitableo Charlcs 、
vas taken up with anothcr girl,ヽfr WVilcox 、
vas so old, Evic sO yOung, L̀郎 WVilcOx sO
difFcrent.Round thc abscnt brOthcr she bcgan tO thro、 v thc

halo OfROmancc,to irradiatc him with all the splcndOur Of

opportunity.It is so easy to talk of̀passing cmotion',and
to forget how vivid thc emotion was cre it paSsed。 (Durilnpulse tO snecr, to forget, is at rOot a good one. We
rccognize that emotion is not enOugh,and that men and wo̲
mcn arcpcrsonaliticscapable ofsustainedrelations,nOt mcre
opportunitics for an clcctrical dischargc. Yct wc rate theilnpulsc too highly.We do not adrnit that by collisions ofwhcn shc was dcsiring lovc.In tirnc his slcndcr pcrsOnality

fadcd, the scene that hc had cvoked cnduredo ln all thc
variablc ycars that followcd shc ncver saw the likc of itag]几

thosc happy days,to fcci thatin hiln she shOtlld dra、 v ncarcst

to thc robust idcal.Hc and shc werc abOut thc samc agc,
Evic said. ルlost peoplc thOught Paul handsOmer than his

brothcr.Hc、 vas ccrtainly a bettcF ShOt,thOugh notsO goodat goll And when Paul appcarcd,Ilushcd、 vith thc triumph
01・ gctting thrOugh an cxalninatOn,and ready tO nirt、 vith
any prctty girl,lЧ clcn lnct hilll halttvay,or lnore than half̲

way,and turned to、 vards hilll1 0n thc Sunday cvcning。
Hc had bccn talking of his approaching cxile in Nigcria,
and hc should have cOntinucd tO talk ol｀

it,and allowcd thcir

gucst to rccover.But thc hcave Of hcr bosom nattcred him.
PassiOn was possiblc,and he bccamc pass10nateo Dccp downin hilll something、vhispered:̀This girl wOuld let yOu kiss
hcr;yOu」 rnight not havc such a chancc again.'That 、vas ̀ho、 v it happcncd', Or, rathcr, hOw Hclen
dcscribcd it tO hcr sistcr,using tt70rds cvcn morc unsympa‐
thctic than lny o、 vn.But thc pOctry of that kiss,thc、 vOndcr
or it,thc magic that thcrc was in life fOr hours aftcr it―

ndtttand,'said Mattaret―

̀at hast,I undeぉ tandas lnuch as cvcr is undcrstoocl ofthCSC things.Telllnc now

what happcncd on thcヽ londay lnorning。

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̀It was over at oncc。 '̀How,IIclen P'
̀I、 vas still happy whilc l dresscd,but as l came down―
stairs l got ncrvous,and、 ″hen l wcntinto the dining¨ rooml kne、 v it was nO good.Therc、 vas Evic― I can't cxPlain―'
managing thc tca‐ urn,andヽ fr Wilcox rcading 7■ ′71鵞 。
̀∫Vas Paul thercP'ア
as talking to hiin about Stocks and̀取 cs;and Charics、 ″Sharcs,and he lookcd Iを ightencd.'
̀ヤ

11置 lilTIc躍 盤
記 冒 ∬ 群 Ъ灘
Hclcn's next rcmark did ttot 『surprisc her.
̀Somcho、 v,、vhcn that kind ofFnan 10oks fl・ ightcncd it is
too a、 vful.It is all right ibr us to bc fl・ ightencd,or lor trneno」 anothcr sort― fathcr,for instancc;but for incn likc that!

c謝 ぶ骰

whO can dcsc五 bc that?It is sO casy for an EnJishman t。
snccr at tllcse chance colllsiOns Of human beings.TO tlle

Whcn l saw an thc othcrs so placid,and Paul lllaad with

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I N thc lnOrning Gcrald、 vokc latc Hc had slcpt hcavily.Pussu...
was still aslccp,slccping childishly and pathcticaHy.「 Fhcrc wass(〕Incthing sman and curlcd up and dcfcncclcss about hcr,thatrouscd an unsatlsncd flamc of passlon in thc young man's
blood, a dcvouring avid pity. Hc lookcd at hcr again. But itwould bc too cruci to wakc hcr Hc subducd himsclt and wcnt
tlway.

Hcaring voiccs conling from thc sitting― roonl,Halliday talk―ing tO I´ ibidnikov,hc、 vcnt to thc door and glanccd in,knowing

hc might go about in this bachclor cstablishmcnt in his trouscrs
ttnd shirt.

To his surprisc hc saw thc two young mcn by thc nrc,starkllakcd I― Ialliday lookcd up,rathcr plcascd.

̀Crood― morning,'hc said. ̀Oh―

did you want towclsP'And、
tark nakcd hc、vcnt out into thc hall,striding a strangc,、 vhitc
rigurc bct、 vccn thc unliving ftlrniturc. Hc camc back、 vith thc
towcls, and took his liDrmcr position,crouching scatcd bcforc
tllc nrc on thc fcndcr.

̀「I｀l)cauty,whitc and lrm.Hc、 vas likc a Christ in a Pictう .19 Thc,ininlal was not thcrc at all,only thc hcavy,brOkCn bcautylヽnd Gcrald rcaliscd ho、 v HaHiday's cycs ttrcrc bcautiful too,sol,11lc and warln and confuscd,brOkcn also in thcir cxprcssion.

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̀DOn't you lovc to fccl thc Arc On your skinP'hc said.
̀It as・ rathcr plcasant,'said Gcrald.
̀Ho、 v pcrictly splcndid it inust bc to bc in a climatc whcrc
onc could do without clothing altogcthcr,'said IIalliday
いFcs,' said Gcrald, ̀if thcrc wcrcn't so many things that、ting and bitc.
hat's a disadvantagc,'murmurcd Ⅳlaxiin.
vith a slight rcvulsion saw thc
Gcrald lookcd at him, and 、
lurnan anirnal,goldcn skinncd and barc,somchow hunlilitlting.
ヽ[alliday 、vas diffcNrcnt. I― Ic had a rathcr hcavy, slack, brokcn

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CHAPTER VII︱

from D.H.Lawrence _Women in Love_

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hc Arc― glow n311。 n his hcavy,rathcr bowcd shouldcrs,hc sat

̀I say,Rupcrt!'
̀l1/hatP'Thc singlc whitc flgure appcarcd again,.l prcscncc

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S14tCkly crouched on thc Fcndcr,his ttcc was upliftcd,dcgcncr―

ln thc r00m

■tc,pcrhaps slightly disintcgratc,and yct with a moving bcautyof‐̀What do you think of that igこ lrc thcrcP I want to k■ ow,'

its own.

Ccrald askcd

̀Of coursc,'said Ⅳloxiin,̀you'vc bccn in hot cOuntrics whcrc

Birkin,、 ″hitc and strangcly prcsent,wcnt ovcr tO thc carvcd

thc pcoplc go about nakcd'

10h, rcally!'cxclaimcd Halliday ̀ヽ VhcrcP'

igurc Of thc ncgro wOman in labour. IIcr nudc, prOtubcrant
body crOuchcd in a strangc, clutchillg posturc, hcr hands

̀South Amcrica一 Amazon,'said Gcrald

gripping thc cnds of thc band,abovc hcr brcast'()h, but ho、 v pcrictly splcndid! It's onc of thc things I″putting
want nlost to do一 to livc■ om day to day withOut′ υι
on any sort or clothing Whatcvcr. If l could do that, I should̀It is art,'said Birkin

̀Vcry bcautifbl, it's vcry bcautiflll,'said thc Russian.

′fbcl l had livcd.'
̀131lt、vhvP' Said Gcrald ̀I can't scc that it makcs so muchI｀ihcy all drcw ncar to look Gcrald lookcd at thc grOup Of

nakcd mcn,thc Russian goldcn and likc a、

vatcr― plant,Haniday

diflbrcncc.'

tan and hcavily, brokcnly bcautiful, Birkin vcry whitc and↓̀Oh, I think it would bc pcrttctly splcndid I'm surc lifèwollld bc cntircly anothcr thing― cntircly dillbrcnt, and pcr― ￨fcctly wondcrful'!
̀But、 vhyP'askcd Gcrald.̀ヽ lrhy should itP'̀Oh― onc wOuldル ιノthings instcad of mcrcly lookillg at

inlmcdiatc,not to bc dcnncd,as hc 100kcd c10scly at thc carvcn
ヽ,Olllan, Strangcly clatcd,Clcrald also liftcd his cycs to thc ttcc

F thcm.I should ttbcl thc air lnovc against rnc,and fccl thc things

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鰐識騨戦津
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tttl掛墨｀that is cntircly wrOng.'

̀lFcs,that is truc,that is truc,'said thc Russian.

Gcrald glanccd at hilll, and saw him, his suavc, goldcn―
colourcd body with thc black hair growing inc and frccly,1lkc
tcndrils, and his lilnbs likc smooth plant― stcms. 111c was so
hcalthy and wcll― madc, why did hc makc onc ashamcd, why
did oncた cl repcllcdPヽ Vhy shollld Gcrald cvcn dislikc it,why
did it sccnl to hirn to dctract什 om his own dignityP Was thataH a human bcing amOuntcd toP So uninspircd! thought
Ccrald.
Birkin suddcnly appcarcd in thc doorway,also in a statc ofnudity, to、 vcl and siccPing suit ovcr his arm. Hc was vcry

narrow and white,and sOmchow aPart.
̀「ofthc woOdcn igurc. And his hcart cOntractcd.
Hc saw vividly with his spirit thc grcy,li3rward―

strctching faccof thc ncgro woman, African and tcnsc, abstractcd in uttcr
physical stl・ css lt

ヽvas a tcrriblc facc, void, pcakcd, abstractcd
almost into mcaningicssncss by thc wcight Of scnsation bcncath.

IIc saw thc Pussum in it.As in a drcanl,hc kncw hcr
̀WVhy is it artP'《 3crald askcd,shOckcd,rescntAll.

̀It convcys a complctc truth,' said Birkin, ̀It contains thc
wholc truth of that statc, whatcvcr you fccl about it'̀But you can't call it力 な力art,'said Gcrald

̀High! Thcrc arc ccnturics and hundrcds Of centurics of
dcvc10pmcnt in a straight line, bchind that carving; it is anawful pitCh Of culturc,of a dcinitc sOrt'
た̀ヽ ヽ
hat culturcP' Gcrald askcd, in oppOsition l― Ic hatcd the
shccr African thing.
̀Purc culturc in scnsatiOn,culturc in thc physical cOnscious―
ncss, rcaHy ultilnatc′ ″γS″ ′α′consciOusllcsS, mindlcss, uttcrly
sensual. It is so scnsual as to bc nnal,suprcmc.'

But Gcrald rcscntcd it. Hc wanted to kccP ccrtain illusiOns,
ccrtain idcas likc c10thing.

Fhcrc's thc bath― room nov/, if you want it,' hc said gcn―

crally,and was going away again,whcn Gcrald cancd:

yourscl■'Fou likc
thc wrong things,Rupcrt,'hc said,̀things abFainst'

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again at cvcning, thcy 、
vcrc all dining togcthcr, and hc had
bookcd scatsゃ r thC party,cxccpting Birkin,at a music― hall.
At night thcy cattc back to thc flat vcry late again, again
flushcd with drink. Again the man― scrvant― who invariably

̀Oh, I knOw, this isn't cvcrything,' Birkin rcplicd, movingaway.
ヽVhcn Gcrald wcnt back to his rOom fronl the bath,hc also
carricd his clothcs.It sccmcd bad forln in this housc,not to go
about nakcd.And aftcr all,it was rathcr nicc,thcrc″ αs a rcal

disappcarcd bct、 vccn thc hours of tcn and twclve at night―

siinplicity. Still, it was rathcr funny, cvcrybody bcing so

camc in silcntly and inscrutably with tca, bcnding in a s10M′

dclibcratcly nude.

strange,lcopard― likc fashion tO put thc tray softly on thc tablc.

Thc Pussunl lay in hcr bcd, motionless, her round, darkcycs,1lkc black,unhappy pools. Hc could only scc thc black,His Lcc was iinmutablc, aristOcratic‑looking, tingcd slightly

bottomlcss pools of hcr cycs.Pcrhaps shc suffcrcd.ThC SCnsa―

Birkin fclt a slight sickncss, loOking at hinl, and fccling thc
slight grcyncss as an ash or a corruption, in thc aristOcratic,with grcy undcr thc skin;hc was young and good‑looking.But

tion of hcr inchoatc suffcring rouscd thc old sharp namc ininscrutability of cxprcss10n a nauscating,bcstial stupidity.

him,a mordant pity,a passlon almOst of cruclty.
̀You arc awake now, hc sald to hcr.
̀ヽ Vhat tilnc is itP'camc hcr mutcd voicc.
Shc sccmcd to flow back, allnOst likc liquid, from his ap―

Again thcy talkcd cordially and rouscdly togcthcr. But
alrcady a ccrtain friability was coming Ovcr thc party, Birkin

was mad with irritatiOn, Haniday Was turning in an insanc
hatrcd against Gcrald, thc Pussum was becorlling hard andcold,likc a nint knifc,and Halliday was laying hilnsclf out to
hCF.And hcr intcntion,ultiinatcly,、 vas to capturc Halliday,tohavc conlplctc powcr ovcr him.
In thc inorning thcy an stalkcd and loungcd about again.But
Gcrald could fccl a strangc hostility tO himscll in thc air.It

roused his obstinacy,and hc stoOd up against it.Hc hung on
for two more days. Thc rcsult was a nasty and insanc sccnc
with Halliday on thc fourth cvening. Halliday turned withabsurd animosity,upon Gerald,in thc Ca.Thcrc was a row.

purc scparatlon bct、 vcCn thCm.

It was a quict and ordinary brcakttst,the four mcn alllook―ing vcry clcan and bathcd. CJcrald and the Russian wcrc both
20 in appcarancc and manncr,Birkin
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vas gaunt and sick,and lookcd a llilurc in his attcmpt to bc a
propcrly drcsscd man,likc Gcr.lld andⅣlaxiln Haniday WOrc
tヽ vccds and a grccn nanncl shirt,and a rag of a tic,、 vhich、 vas

Gcrald was On thc pOint of knOcking― in Halliday's icc; 、〃hcn

he was lllcd urith suddcn disgust and indiffcrcncc, and hc
lllcnt away, lcaving Halliday in a foolish statc of gloating tri―umph,thc Pussum hard and cstablished,andル laxiln standing,uSt rightぬ r him.Thc Hindu brought in a grcat dcal of soft
toast,and lookcd cxactly thc samc as hc had lookcd thc nightclcar.Birkin、 vas absenti hc had gonc out of town again.

Gcrald was piqucd bccausc hc had lcft

bcforc, statically thc sannc.

´ At thc cnd ofthc brcakfast thc Pussum appcarcd,in a purplc

hcr moncy or not, and hc kncw it. But shc would havc bccn
glad Of tcn pounds,and hc lvould havc bccn υ glad to givc

silk、 vrap with a shiinmcring sash. Shc had rccOvcrcd hcrsclf

somcwhat,but was mutc and lifblcss still. It was a tormcnt to
hcr whcn anybody spokc to hcr I― Icr ttcc was likc a small,■ nc
mask, sinistcr too, maskcd with unwilling sul‐ fcring. It wasallllost lllidday. Gcrald rosc and wcnt away to his busincss,

̀りthcm to hcr. No、 v hc fclt in a nllsc pOSition. IIc wcnt a、 vay
chcwing his lips tO gct at thc cnds Of his short― clippcd mous―
tachc. IIc kncv7 thc Pussunl、 vas mcrcly glad to bc rid of him.
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glad to gct out.But hc had nOt inishcd.Hc was conling back、vithout giving thc

Pussum mOncy.It、 vas truc,shc did not carc whcthcr hc gavc

Shc had got hcr IIaHiday,whom shc wantcd.Shc wantcd hiln

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CHAPTER VIII
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BREADALBY WaS a Gcorgian housc with COrinthian pillars,
standing amOng thc softcr,grccncr hills of IDcrbyshirc,nOt far

lirom Cromford.11l liront,it lookcd ovcr a lawn,ovcr a fcw
trccs,down to a string Of flsh― ponds in thc hoHow ofthc silcnt

park. At thc back、 vcrc trccs,among、 vhich 、
vcrc to bc found

thc stablcs, and thc big kitchcn gardcn, bchind which was awood.
It was a vcry quict placc, somc nlilcs fronl thc high― road,back from thc Dcrwcnt Vallcy,outsidc thc show sccnCry.Silcnt.lnd forsakcn, thc goldcn stucco sho、 vcd bct、 vccn thc trccs, thc
hOusc― front lookcd down thc park, unchangcd and unchang―ing.

Of latc, howcvcr, Hcrntionc had livcd a good dcal at thc

housc.Shc had turncd away frOm London,away from Oxford,
towards thc silcncc of thc country. Hcr fathcr was mostly、
vith hcr
abscnt, abroad, shc was cithcr alonc in thc housc,
visitors, of、 vhom thcrc 、
vcrc always scvcral, or shc had withhcr hcr brothcr,a bachclor,and a Libcral mcmbcr Of Parlia―
incnt.Hc al、 vays camc down whcn thc HOusc was not sitting,、
ccmcd always to bc PrcsCnt in Brcadalby, although hc was
il10St COnScicntious in his attcndancc to duty.

Thc summcr was iust COming in whcn Ursula and Gudrun
wcnt to stay thc sccond tilllc、 vith Hcrlnionc.Colning along inlhc car,aftcr thcy had cntcrcd thc park,thcy lookcd acrOss thc
dip,、vhcrc thc nsh̲pOnds lay in silcncc,at thc plllarcd fl・ Ont Of

thc housc,sunny and sman likc an English drav/ing of thc old、chool,on thc brow of thc grccn hill,against thc trccs. Thcrc■lcrc sma11 lgurcs on thc grccn lawn,womcn in lavcndcr andycllow moving to thc shadc of thc cnormous, bcautifullybalanccd ccdar trcc.

̀Isn't it complctcl' said Gudrun. ̀It is as inal as an oldiquatint.'Shc spokc、vith somc rcsentment in hcr voicc,as if

11!lll￨ｌｌheavy brOad drag ofthe dialect― ■perhaps also in mockery,bccausc

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therc had been nO trace of dialect before.He might ahnOst bc aｌｌ

their way,as ifabOut tO attack tl

gentleman.Anyhow he was a curious,quick,separate fellow,a10neｌｌ

and was turning dOwnhill.It wa

but sure ofhimsellｌｌbark.A man with a gun strodesⅥ

menace.That was hOw she had seen hiin,like a sudden rush Of a
threat Out Ofnowherc.

dark hazel thicket.

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keeping invisible.He was inOder̀h
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chair,steadying it.He looked like a free soldier rather than a servant.

And something about him rerninded Connic ofTommy Dukes.
When they came to the hazel grOve Connie suddenly ran forward
and opened the gate into the park.As she stood holding it,the two
mcn looked at herin passing,Clifford critically,the other inan with acurious cool wonder:irnpersonally wanting to sce what she looked
like.And she saw in his blue,impersonal eyes a look ofsuffering anddetachment,yct a certain warmth.But why was he so alclol apartP
CHfford stopped the chair,Once thrcDugh the gate,and the mancame quickly,courteously,to closc it.
Why did you run tO openP"said(31ifFord,in his quict calin voicethat showed he was displcased.

Attdlors would have done it."I thought you could 80 Straight ahead,''said Connie.
And leave you to run after usP"said ClifFord.

remained fOr a mOment still with i

Oh wdl,I like to run scDmetin■ es!"

]But you've been here sOme tilne,haven't youP"COnnie said tO

him.

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̀̀And dO yOu lile itP"
She 100ked hiin in the eycs.IIis eyes narrOwed a little,with irony,perhaps with impudence.

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NIlenors took the chair again,looking perfectly unheeding.Yct
Connic felt he noted everything. As he pushed the chair up the
steepish rise of the knO■ in the park,he breathed rather quidtty
through parted lips.Hc was rather frail,rcally.Curiously full of
宙tality,but a little frail,and qucnched.Her woman's instinct sensed
Connie fell back,letthe chair go on.The day had greyed over:thesmali blue sky that had poised low on its drcular rims of haze wasdosed in again,the lid was down,there was a raw coldness.It was
gOing to snow.All grey,an grey!The world looked worn Out.

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then faded away and his face was expressionless.They went fairly
quickly down the s10pe,the man with his hand on the rail of the︱easicr,"said ClirOrd.

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Will you turn the chair rOund and get it started.That rnakes it

Ｉ
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gesture:a s01dier!

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The man faced lightly rOund,and saluted with a swift littlc

The spaniellooked at him and ttntly moved her tail.A little smile,Ｉ︱

The man glanced rOund fOr his dog a quick,thoughtful glance.

A4euors!"said CttffOrd.

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No!You'd better come along,for fear she sticks.The engine
isn't really strong enough ibr the uphill work."＝

going quickly downhill.

̀̀Is that all then,Sir CliffordP"said the man.

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湖Veteens ad ttters― the dd←wtt a d乱 鮒r島 罵oustache,and
distant eyes.Hc was＝

Clifford started the little engine, the man carefully turned thechair and setit nose‐ lbrwards to the indine that curved gently to the＝ｌｌhad■ ightened cOnnie,he scemed tO emerge with such a swi■

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Chatterley's Lover_動の Cttt"=り むιθ貿″Thechair waited atthetopofthe pink patho Clifford looked roundfor Connle.

̀̀Not tired,are youP"he asked.

Oh no!"she said.
But she was.A strange,weary ycarning,a dissatisfaction had
started in her.ClifFord did nOt notice:thcDSe Were not things he wasaware of Butthe stranger knew.To Connic,cverything in her world
and life s∝ med worn out,and her dissatisfaction was older than thehills.

They came to the housc,and round to the back,where there wereno steps, Clifford managed to swing hilnself over On to a low,wheded housc― chair:he was very strong and ag」 e with his arms.
Then Connie lifted his burden ofdead legs after hiln.

The keeper,waiting at attentlon to be dismissed,watched every―
thing narrowly,missing nothing.Hc went pale,with a sort of feaF,
when he saw Connielifting theinerticgs ofthe man in her arins,intO

the Other chair,Clifford p市 oting rolnd as she did so.He wastightened.
Thanks then for the help,Mdlors,''said ClifFord casually,as hebegan to wheel down the passage through the servants'quarters.
Nothing dse,SirP''came the neutral vOice,like one in a dream.
̀̀Nothingo Good mcDrning.'
Good― morning Sir."̀̀Good morning!It was kind of you to push the chair up thathill―一I

hope it wasn't heaw for you,"said Connie,looking back at

Clifford looked at Connie with his pale,slighdy pronlinent blucX憶撚 ,甜 乱も
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the keeper outside the door.

蘭 s eycs carne to hers in an instant,as ifhe wakened up.He was

So it was with ClifFOrd.Once he wasaware of her.

()h no,not heavy!''he said quickly.「 rhen his voice dropped
again into the brOad sound ofthe vemadar:
Good mOmin'tO yourladyship!"

Who is your gameleeperP"Connic askod at lunch.
Mdlors!You saw him,"said Clifford.

Yes!But where did he cme fromP"̀̀Nowhere!He was a Tevershall boy― on ofa collier,I believe."
And was he a collier hinlsdP''
Blacksllith on the pit―

bdieve."bank,I believe:overhead smith.But hewas keeper here for two ycars before the war―beforc he loined up.
My father always had a good opinion Ofhim,so when he came backand wenttothe pitfora blacksmith's,ob,I;ustt00k him back hereas

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wdl,''oncc he was back at

Wragby,and writing his stories and feeling sure oflife in spite ofall,

he scemod to forget,and to have recovered an his cquanimty.But
now,as the years went by,slowly,slowly Connie felt the bruise offear tt horor comng up and spreading m him.For a tmeit had

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dread,an emptiness,an indifference to everything gradually spreadin her soul.When Cnifford was roused,he could stul talk bruliantly

and,as■ were,command the future:as when,in the wood,he talked
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about hcr having a child and giving hiln an heir to Wragby.But the
day after,all the brilliant wOrds scemed like dead leaves,crumpling

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So it secmed to her everywhere.The colliers at Tevershall weretalking again ofa strikc.And itseemed to Connic there again,it was
not a rnanifestation ofenergy,it was the bruise ofthe war,that had
becn in abeyance,slowly rising to the surfacc and crting the grcat

ache ofunrest,the stupor ofdiscontent.The bruise was deep,deep,
deep― 二the bruise ofthe falsc and inhuman war.It would take manyycars lor the living blood ofthe generatiOns tO dissolve the vast black

dot of bruised blood, deep insidё their sOuls and bodies, And it

P∞ r Connic!As the years drew on,it was the fear ofnothingness
in her life that affected her.Clifford's mental life,and hers
gradually it began tO feel like nOthingness.Their marriage,theirintegrated life based on a habit of intirnacy,that he talked about:there were days when it all became utterly blank and nOthing.It waswords,;ust SO many words.The cDnly reality was nothingness,andover it,a hyp∝Hsy of words.
There was ClifFord's success:the bitch―goddess!It was truc,he

was alrnost famous,and his last book brought him in a thOusand

pounds.His photograph appeared everywhere.There was a bust of
him in one ofthe ganeries,and a portrait ofhiin in twO galleries.IIis

scemed the rnost inodenl ofrnodern voices,with his uncanny,lameinstinct for publicity he had become,in lour or ive ycars,one ofthe
best― known

ofthe young̀̀intellectuals."Where the intenect camein,Connie did not quite sec.(1lifford was really dever at that slightly

humorous analysis ofpeople and inOtives which icavcs everything inbits at the end.But it was rather like puppies tearing the sofa―

cushions to bits:except that it was not young and playful,but
curiously old,and almOst obscenely conccited.It was welrd:and it
was nothing.This was the feeling that echoed and re―ech∝ d at thebO,tOm Of cOnnie's soul:it was ali nothing,a wonderful display of山
山メ
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ご石6thingness.

｀ヽ一 Ⅳ́lichagis had scized uponthengureofClifFOrdas acentralflgure
for a pイ :Jrmdy hC hd sketched h the Jot,and written the■ rst
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of nothingness.It was the last bit of passion left in these men:the1驚載罵鳳 著器淵冨I職 器踊淵囲■驚‖
had never been pHmanly out for moner thOugh he madeit where he∞uld,for money is the seal and stamp ofsuccess.And success waswhat they wanted. They wanted, both of them,to make a real
″ display― man's own very display,of himsell that
display― r力 ′should capture for the tiine the vast populacc.

It was strang― the prostitution to the bitch― goddess.To Connie,
since she was really outside ofit and sinoe shc had grOwn ntunb to
the thrill ofit,it was again nothingness.Even the prOsdtudon to thebitch‐ goddess was nOthingness,though the men prostituted them…

selves innumerable times.Nothingness even that.
R4ichaelis wrote to Clifford about the play.Of course Connic
knew about it icDng agoo And Clifford was again thrilled.He was

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act.For Michaclis was even better than Clifford at=naking a display

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thrilled― thrilled to what bit ofmarrOw shc had left.And Michaclis,

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蹴ness of a race that can't be disillusioned any mOre, an extremc,
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from Kazuo Ishiguro _Remains of
the Day_
DAY ONE―EVENINGSALISBURY

this guest house this evening′ I glanced back over myshoulder on a number of occasions and was rnet each tirne
by a view ofthe sun setting behind that great spire.
And yettonight′ in the quiet ofthis room′ Ifind that what
reany remains with me froln this first day′ s travel is not
Salisbury Cathedral′ nor any ofthe other charFning sights ofthis city′

but rather that maⅣ ellous view encountered thisits sense of restraint.Itis as though the land knows ofits

own beauty′ of its own greatness′and feels no need toshout it.In comPa五 SOn′ the sorts of sights offered in such

PlaCeS as AfHca and Ame五 ca′ though undoubtedly very
exciung′ would′ I am sure′ strike the obieCt市 e viewer as

infeHor on account of their unseen■ ly demonstrativeness.
This whole question is very akin to the question that has

mon■ ing ofthe rolling English counヒ yside.Now lan■ quite
prepared to believe that other countries can offer morecaused much debate in our profession overthe years:whatis a′ great′ butler?I can recall many hours of enioyableobviously spectacular scenerァ . Indeed′ I have seen in:θ 4α ′
G̀θ grα ′llic Mα g′ z'71̀breath―enttC10pedias and the Nα ′takng photographs of Sights froln various corners of the
globe,magniAcent canyons and waterfalls′ raggedly beauti―

discussion on this toPiC arOund the fire ofthe seⅣ

fulrnountains.It has never′ of course′ been rny p五 vilege tohave seen such things at first hand′ but l wili neverthelesshazard this with some confidence:the English landscape atpossesses a
its finest一 such as l saw it this lnorning一

ants′

han

atthe end ofa day.You will notice l say′ what′ rather than′who′ is a great butler,for there was actuany no se五 。us
diSPute as to the identity ofthe men who setthe standards
amongst our generation.That is to say′ I am talking ofthe
likes of Mr Ⅳ【arsha1l ofく Ξharleville House′ or NIIr Lane of
B五 dewood.If you have eveF had the pHvilege of meetingsuch men′ you will no doubt know of the quahty they

however rnore
qualiけ that the landscapes of other nations′superficiany dramatic′ inevitably fail to POSSess. It is′ I

understand whatI Inean when l say itis not at an easy tO

believe′a quahty that wiH Fnark Out the English landscapeto any oblectiVe Observer as the most deeply satisfying indeine just what this quahty is.
InddentaⅡy′ now thatl come to think further aboutit′

the world′ and this quality is probably best surnlned up by

is not quite true to say there was no dispute as to ωたθ were

the terin′ greatness′ Foritis hue′ when lstood on that high

the great butlers,What l should have said was that there
was no se五 ous disPute among Professionals of quality who

ledge this morning and viewed the land before me′ I
distinctly felt that rare′ yet unlnistakable feehng 一 thefeeling that one is in the presence of greatness.We can thisland of ours Crar7r Britain′

and there may be those who

believe this a somewhat immodest practice. Yet l would

venture that the landscape of our county alone would
iusufy the use of this lofty adiecive・
And yet what precisely is this′ greatness′ ?Just Where′ orin what′ does it lie?I am quite aware it would take a far

wiser head than mine to answer such a question′

but if I

were forced to hazard a guess′ I would say thatitis the very
たof obvious drama or spectacle thatsetsthe beauty of our″εPOSSeSS tO Which l refer. But you will no doubt alsoit

had any discernment in such matters. Of course′ theseⅣ ants′ hall at Darungton Hall′ like any servants′ hau
anywhere′ was obliged to receive emPloyeeS Of Varylng
degrees ofinteuect and PerceptiOn′ and lrecan lnany a time
having to bite rny lip while some employee一 and attimes′ I
regret to say′ Inembers of rny own staff― excitedly eulo―
gized the likes ot Say′

眈 Jack Neighbours.

I have nothing against MrJack Neighbours′ who sadly′ I
understand′ was killed in the war.I mention hiln slrnPly
because his was a typlcal case.Fortwo orthree yearsin thernid― thirties′

Mr Neighbours′ s name seemed to donlinate

land aparto Whatis pertinentis the callnness ofthat beauty′

conversationsin every seⅣ ants′ hallin the land.Aslsay′ at

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DAY ONE―SALISBURYEVENING

those same gossipers will have found yet some other

Darlington Halltoo′ many a visiting employee would b五 ng
the latest tales of Mr Neighbours′ s achievements′ so thatI

newcomer about whom to enthuse.Visiting valets′ I haveand the likes of Mr Craham would have to share thefound′ are often the worst offenders′fmstrating expe五 ence of hea五 ng anecdote after anecdote

usually do to the position of butleF With Some urgency.

relating to hirn.And inostfrustrating of all would be having

They itis who tend to be always insisting this or thatfigureis the one to emulate′ or repeating what some particular

to witness at the conclusion of each such anecdote other―wise decent employees shaking their heads in wonder andutte五ng Phrases like:′ Thatヽ lr Neighbours′ he really is thebest.′

Now l do not doubt that Mr Neighbours had goodorganizational sk」 ls,he did′ I understand′ masternlind anumber oflarge occasions with consPicuouS Style.Butat nostage did he ever approach the status of a great butler.I

asPi五 ng as theyhoro is said to have pronounced upon professional matters.
Butthen′ ofcourse′ I hasten to add′ there are many valets
who would never drealln ofindulging in this sort of folly―
who are′ in fact′ PrOfessionals of the highest discemment.

Whenれ vo orthree such persons were gathered together at
our servants′ hall ― I mean of the calibre of′ say′ Mr
Graham′ with whoFn nOW′ sadly′ I seem to have losttouch

could have told you this atthe height of his reputation′ just― we would have some of the most stimulating andas l could have predicted his downfall after a few short

intelligent debates on every aspect of our vocation.Indeed′

years in the lilnelight.

today′How often have you known it for the butler who is on
everyone′ s lips one day as the greatest of his generation to

be proved demonstrably within a few years to have been
nothing of the sort?And yet those very same emPloyeeS

fl・

those evenings rank amongst my fondest memo五 es

om thOse dmes.
But let me rettrn to the question that is of genuine
this question we so enioyed debating when ourinterest′

who once heaped praise on hiin will be too busy eulogizing

evenings were not sPoilt by chatter from those who lacked
any fundamental understanding ofthe profession,thatis tosome new figure to stop and examine their sense ofsay′

the question′ υたαl is a great butler?′judgement.The obiect of thiS sort of servants′ hall talk isinvariably some butler who has come to the fore quite
suddenly through having been appointed by a prolninenthouse′ and who has perhaps lnanaged to pull off two or

To the best ofrny knowledge′ for all the talk this question
has engendered over the years′ there have been very few

three large occasions with some success.There vvillthen be
all sorts ofrumours buzZing thrOugh seⅣ ants′ halls up anddown the countty to the effectthat he has been aPproachedby this or that personage or that several of the highest

answer. The only instance that comes to ntind is theattempts within the profession to formulate an oficial

houses are competing for his sen4ces with wildly highattempt ofthe Hayes Society to de宙 se cHteria for member―ship.You may not be aware ofthe Hayes Society′ for few
talk of it these days. But in the twenties and the early
thirties′ it exerted a considerable influence over much ofwages.And what has happened befoFe a feW years haveLondon and the Home Counties. In fact′ many felt its

passed?This same invincible figure has been held respon―

POWer had become too great and thoughtit no bad thing
when it was forced to close′ I believe in■ 9320r■ 933・

sible for some blunder′ or has for some other reason fallenout of favour with his employers′ leaves the house where

he came to fame and is never heard of again.Meanwhile′30

The Hayes Society claimed to adlnit butlers of′only thevery first rank′ .Much ofthe power and PreStige it went on

SALISBURYEVENINGDAY ONE―to gain derived from the fact that unlike other suchorganizations which have come and gone′ it managed tokeep its numbers extremely low′ thus giving this claiFnsome credibility.MembershiP′ it waS Said′ never at any
POint rOse above thirty and much of the tilne remained
closer to nine or ten This′ and the fact that the Hayes
lent it rnuch

Society tended to be a rather secretive body′
mystique for a time′ ensuttng that the pronouncements it

occasionally issued on ProfeSSiOnal lnatters were received
as though hewn on tablets of stone.
But one rnatter the Society resisted pronouncing on forsome time was the question ofits own c五 teHa for rnember―
ShiP・ Pressure to have these announced steadily lnounted′
4
and in resPonSe to a se五 es of letters published in ノ′αηs Gι ″オ
ル ′ the Society admittedオθγ
Jy/0ア ′乃Q夕 αγ"′
̀Gθ "Fr̀that a prerequisite for rnembership was that ran applicant′
be attached to a distinguished household′ . Though of′′this by itself is far fromly that in the view of the Society―bHefletter to A Q夕 ′″θγandl wll廿 y and quote accurately from memory― rthe most
crllcial crite五 on is that the applicant be possessed of adignity in keeping with his position, No applicant willsausfy requirements′ whatever his level of accOmPLsh―ments otherwise′ if seen to fan shortin this resPect.′
For all my lack of enthusiasm for the Hayes Society′

it is

my belief that this PartiCular pronouncement at least was
founded on a signincanttruth.If one looks atthese peFSOnS

we agree are ′great′ butlers′ if one looks at′

say′

Mr

Marshan or Mr Lane′ it does seenl to me that the factor
which distinguishes thenl frorn those butlers whO are
merely extremely competent is most closely captured bythis word′ dignity′.

Of course′ this rnerely begs the further question:of whatis′ dignity′

comp五 sed?And it was on this point that thelikes of Mr Craharn and l had some of our rnostinterestingsuficient to sausけ requirements.′ It was made clear′debates.Mr Grahaln would always take the view thatthis′
dignity′ was something like a woman′ s beauty and it was

did nOt regard the houses offurtherlnore′ that the Socieち ′thuS POintless to attemptto analyse it.I′

course′the Society went on′

businessinen or the′newly五 ch′ as′ distinguished′ ′and in

my opinion this PieCe of out― dated thinking crucially under―

on the other hand′

held the oPiniOn that to draw such a parallel tended todemean the′ dignity′ ofthelikes of Mr Marshall.Moreover′mined any se五 ous authoHty the SocietyIInay have achievedto arbitrate on standards in our profession.In resPonSe to

my main obieCaOn tO Mr craham′ s analogy was the

鯖 therletters in A Q夕 αrr̀γ ry′ the sOciety justified its stanceor did not by a fluke of nature,and if one did not self―

by saying that while it accepted some correspondents′e宙 dently have it′ to strive after it would be as futile as an

views that certain butlers of excellent quality were to be′found in the houses of businessmen′ the assumption had

ugly woman ttying to make herself beauaful.Now while I
would acceptthatthe maio五 ty Of butlers may well discover

to be that the houses of rr

ultimately thatthey do not have the capacity forit′ I believe

̀ladies and gentlemen would

not refrain long from acqulrmg the semces of any such
persons′ .One had to be guided by the ludgeinent of′ theme ladies and gentlemen′ ′argued the Society′ or else′ we
may as welladoptthe prOP五 etieS Of Bolshevik Russia′ .This
provoked further controversy′ and the pressure of letters
continued to build up urglng the Society to declare more

implicaion thatthis′ digl■ ity′ was something one possessedstrongly that this′ dignity′ is something one can meaning―fully strive for throughout one′ s career. Those ′great′
butlers like l√ r Marshan who haveit′ Iam sure′ acqu士 ed itover lrnany years of self― training and the careful absorbing
Of eXPe五 ence.In my宙 ew′ then′ it was rather defeatistfrom

fully its membershiP cHte五 a.In the end′ it was revealed in aa vocationalstandPointtO adopt a stance like Mr Craham′ s.
In any case′ for aH Mr Craharn′ s scepticism′ I can

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SALISBURYEVENINGDAY ONE―remember he and l sPending rnany evenings tting to put
our ingers on the constitution of this′dignlty′ .We

never

has been much too preoccuPied With the rtrilnlnings′ ′goodness knows how much time and energy has gone intohowcame to any agreement′ but l can say for my part that I

the Practising of accent and conllnand of language′

developed fairly■ .1ュ lideas of my own on the rnatter during
the course of such discussions′ and they are by and large

many hours spent studying encycloPedias and volumes ofthe beliefs l still hold today.I would like′say here what l think this rdignlty′

ifl may′ to憫 り and′Test Your Iく nowledge′ ′when the time should have beenspent maste五 ng the basic fundamentals,

Though we must be carefui not to attempt to deny the

to be.

You will not disPute′ I PreSume′ that Mr Marshall of

reSPOnsibility which ultimately lies with ourselves′ it has toCharleville House and NIIr Lane of B五 dewood have been thebe said that certain employers have done much to encour―
age these sorts of trends.I an■ sony to say this′ but there

h″ o great butlers of recent times. Perhaps you rnight bewould appear to have been a number of houses in recent
times′ some ofthe highest pedigree′ which have tended topersuaded that Mr Henderson of Branbury Castle also fansinto this rare category.But you rnay think me merely biased

if l say that my own father could in many ways betake a comPetitiVe attitude towards each other and have notconsidered to rank with such lnen′ and that his careeris the
one l have always scrutinized for a definition of′ dignity′

been above′ showing off′ to guests a butler′ s lnastery ofsuch trivial accomPlishments. I have heard of va五 ous

Yet it is lny fi...lconⅥ ction that at the peak of his career atinstances of a butler being disPlayed as a kind of perforln―
ing rnonkey ata house party.In one regrettable case′ which.

LoughborOugh IIouse′ my father was indeed the embodi―

normally exPect in a great butler. But those same absent

it had become an established sPort in
the house for guests to五 ng for the butler and Put tO him
random questions of the order of′ say′ who had won the
Derby in such and such a year′ rather as one IIught to a

attributes′ I would argue′ are every time those of a super―

Memory Man atthe rnusic hall.

ment of′ dignity′
I realize thatifonelooksatthematterobjectively′ one has.

to concede my father lacked va五 ous attributes one mayl rnyself witnessed′noMy father′ as lsay′ came ofa genera● on mercifully free of

doubt′ asicing on the cake′ but are not pertaining to whatis

such confusions of our professional values.And l would

really essential.I refer to things such as good accent andcominand of language′ general knowledge on wide― rang―
ing toPics suCh as falconing or newt― Inating一 attributes

maintain thatfor all hislimited command of English and his
lilnited general knowledge′ he not only knew allthere wasto know abouthow torun a house′ he didin his prime comenone of which iny father could have boasted.Furthe.1.lore′

to acquie that′ digFuty in keePing with his POSition′

it rnust be remembered that llny father was a butler of an
earlier generation who began his career ata time when such

Hayes Society puts it.If Iヒ

ficial and decorative order′ atibutes that are attractive′y′ then′ to′as thedesc五 beto you whatI

a butler.The obsessions with eloquence and general know―

believe made my father thus distinguished′ I Inay in thisway convey my idea of whatrdignity′ is.
There was a certain story my father was fond ofrepeating

ledge would appear to be ones that emerged with ouroverthe years.I recalllistening to him tellitto visitors when

attributes were not considered Proper′ let alone desirable ingeneration′ probably in the wake ofヽ 任 Marshall′when

l was a child′ and then later′ when l was starting out as alesser men り ing to emulate his greatness lnistook thefootlnan under his supervision.I remember hiln relating it

superficial for the essence.Itis my view that our generation

aga」 ■the first time l returned to see hirn after gaining my

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nlakc love.
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mental rcgulations Of thc country of origin

nloralistic. She is O■ cndcd by tourists who barc thcir breasts

Printcd and bound in(Dcrmany by
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Bccausc hc takes pleasurc in hcr, bccausc his plcasurc is
unlliling, an allcction has groマ vn up in hiln for hcr. To somc
degrcc, hc bclievcs, this at‐ fcction is rcciprocatcd. A■ cction may

abstract,rathcr dly,cvcn at its hottcst.

not be lovc,but it is at lcast its cousin Givcn their unpronlising

becolncs anothcr wOn■ an: ル ′οκbcginnings, thcy have becn lucky, the t、

vo o(｀ thenl: he to havc

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tcinpcran■ cnt hcr at‐flnity、 ″ith hin■ can surely not be■ igned.

hOugh by occupation she is a 100se wOl■ lan he trusts hcr,t)und her,shc to have found hilll｀― His scntinlcnts arc, hc is a、 varc, conlplaccllt, evcll uxorious.

within lilllits.Du五 1lg thcir scssions he spcaks to hcr、vith a certain

Ncvcrthclcss hc docs not ccasc to hold to thcn■

iccdonl,cven on occasiOn unburdens hiinscli Shc knOwsthc facts.

For a nincty― n■ inutc sessi()1l hc pays hcr R400, Of which halfT｀of his lifc.Shc has hcard the stOrics Of his h″o marriages,knOws

gOcs tO Discreet Escorts̲ It sccl■ s a pity that l)iscrcct Escorts

about his dauglltcr and his daughter's ups and downs.She knows

should gct so much. But they own No. I13 and othcr nats innlany of his Opinions̲Windsor Mansions;in a scnsc thcy own Soraya too,thiS part of

Of hcr lift・Outsidc WindsOr Mansions SOraya rcveals nOthing

Soraya is nOt her rcal nallle,that hc is sure of Thcrc are signs shc

her,this function.

Hc has toycd、vith the idca Of asking hcr to sec hinl in hcr o、 vn

has borne a child, Or children. It inay bc that shc is nOt ac Hc、 vould likc to spend an cvcning、 vith hcr,pcrhaps cvcn a

prof3ssional at all.Shc lnayヽ ″ork for the agency ollly one Or t、 vo、
vholc night. But not thc ll■ orning atcr. He kno、 vs toO llluch

aiernoons a、 vcck,and晨 )r thc rest livc a rcsPcctable lifb in theabout himsclfto suttect hCr to a moming ancr,when hc will bc

subul‐ bs,incOld,surly,impaticnt to be alone.

Musliln,but all things are possiblc thcsc days.

til■

Thatis his tcnlperament His tcmperarncntis not going to changc,

Rメ andS Or Ath10ne.That wOuld bc unusual for a

AbOut his Own jOb hc says little,not wallting to borc hcr.He,お rmerly Capc

hc is too old ttbr that His tempcrarncnt is ttd,sct.Thc skull,fol―

earns his living at thc Cape Technical Universiりo hardcst parts ofthc bo(ンlowed by thc tcll■ pCrament thc赫 √Town Universiり Collegc.Oncc a profcssOr ofmodern languages,.

FoⅡ o、 v your tcn■ pcraincnt.Itis not a philosophy,he、 vould not

digni〜 it with that nan■ c.It is a rulc,likc thc Rulc of St Bcncdict

he has bccn, since Classics and MOdcrn Languages、

vcre closed

down as part of thc great rationalizatiOn,attunCt proissor of

Hc is in good hcalth,his l■ lind is clcar By profession he is,orCOlllnlunications.Likc all rationahzcd personllcl,hc is a1lowcd tO

has becn,a scholar,and scholarship still cngagcs,11ltcrll■ ittcntly,thcof偽 ■one spccial― tield cOurse a year, irrcspcctive of cnrollllent,core of hirn.He livcs、 vithin his inconle,v√ ithin his ten■ peramcnt,

because that is 30od fOr rnoralc.This year hc is ogering a course inwithin his cn■ otional ineans ls hc happyP By nlost n■ easurcmcnts,

the ROn■ antic Poets.For the rest he tcachcs Con■ycs, hc bclievcs hc is. Howcvcr, hC has not

おrgotten thc lastchorus of Oarf″ llS:Call no n■ an happy until hc is dead.
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flnds its first prc■ lisc,as cnunciated in thc COllall■

I:ltcrcoursc bctwccn Soraya and hin■ self lllust bc, hc inlagincs,

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intcntions to cach other.'IIis own opinion,which hc docs not air,

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is that thc ottgins of Spccch lic in song,and the origins ofsong inalso bccause it tcaches hirn hunllll,ァ ,b五 ngs it homc to hiln、 vho

the nced to f11l out with sound the overlargc and rather cn■

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human soul.

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rcfrigcrator holds a supply ofbottlcd watcr.In thc bathrooll■thcrc

On Byron. At flrst hc had thought it、 vould bc anothcr book,

is soap and a pilc oftowcls,illl the cupboard clcan bcdhncn.Soraya

another criti,al opus.But all his sallics at、 vriting it havc bogged

kccps her makeup ill an Overnight bag. A place of assignation,

do、 vn in tcdium.The truth is,he is tired ofcriticism,tired ofprosc

nothing rnOrc,inctional,clcan,wcll rcgulatcd.

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askcd herto wipc it oF Shc Obeycd,and has ncvcr、

chamber opera.
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nit phrascs,tuncs,tiagments Ot‐ Song froll■ thC unヽ vritten、 vork.Hc

has ncver becn l1luch of a tcacher;in this transfornled and,to his
IIllnd,elllasculated institution 6f lcarning he is lnore out of placethan ever. But thcn, so arc other of his colleagues■on■ thc olddays,burdcned with upb五 ngings inappropriatc to thc tasks they arc

vorn it since.

A ready learner,cOmpliant,pliant.

Hc hkcs giving her prcscnts. At Ncw Ycar hc gavc hcr an
cnamcllcd bracclct,at I]id a little lnalachitc heron that caught llis

eye in a curiO shOp. He clllJoyS hCr plcasurc, which is quite
unattctcd.
It surpriscs hiln that nincw nlinutes a 、voman's
veck of a 、company are enough to l■ akc hiln happy,、 vho uscd to think he

set to pcrforn■ ;clerks in a post― rcligious age.

Becausc he has no rcspect for thc ll■ atcrial he tcachcs,hc rnakcs

no inlpression on his studcnts.Thcy look through hiln when hc
spcaks,lo■ gct his nan■ e Theirindi(Rrcncc galls hin■Thc n.st time Soraya received him shc wOre vcnnilion llpstickand hea、 γ eyeShado、 v.Not liking the stickiness ofthe rnakeup,hen■ orethan hc

needcd a wife,a hOme,a marriage.His nceds turn out to be quite
light, aftcr all, light and flёёting, hkc thOse of a buttcr時 .No

emotion, or nonc but thc dcepcst, thc mOst unguesscd― ati a、vill adll■ it. Ncvcrthelcss he fulflls to the lctter his obligations

ground bass of contentedness,like the hull1 0f trat flc that lulls thetoward thcm,their parcnts,and the statc.Month aicr rnOnth hc

city― dwcller to slccp,orlikc thc silencc ofthc night to countFy会

scts, C01lCcts, ICadS, and annotatcs thcir assigninents, corrccting

lapses in punctuation, spelling and usagc, interrogating wcak)lk

Hc thinks of Emrna Bova■ ′,C01ning hOlllc satCd,glazcn― cycd,fron■

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Hc hill■ sclf has nO sOn His childh00d、 vas spcnt in a ttinily Of

To、 vl),he would bullg her alollg one Thursday a■ ernOon to sho、 v、
volncn As mother,aunts,sistcrs ttcll a、 vay,thcy wcrc rcplaced in

hcr what bliss can bei a llloderatc bliss,al■ odcrated bliss.

tluc cOursc by nlistrcsscs, wiVCs, a daughter.「 rhe con.pany ofTl■ cnonc Saturday n■ orning evcnrthing changes.Hc is in thc city

On busincss:hc is walkillg do、 vn St CJcorge's Strect whcn his cycs

M′omcn madc Of hin■ a 10vcr Of wOmcn and, tO an cxtcnt, a、vomanizcr. With his hcight, his goOd bOncs, his olivc skin, his■1l on a slim tigurc ahead of hirn in thc crowd. It is Soraya,

10wing hair,he cOuld always count on a dcgrcc Ofrnagnetisin.If

unmistakabり , nanked by two childrcn, two boys Thcy arc

hc 100kcd at a、 v01nan in a ccrtain、 vay,、vith a ccrtain intcnt,shewould rcturn his 100k,hc cOuld rcly On that That was hOw hecarrying parccls;thcy have bccn shopping.

Hc hesitatcs, thcn■ )1lo、 vs at a distance. Thcy disappcar into

livcd;fOr ycars,for dccadcs,that was thc backbOnc Ofl■

Captain Dorcgo's Fish lnn Thc boys havc Soraya's lustrous hairThcn Onc day it al cndcd. WithOut warlung lus po、is lifc.

vcs fled.

and dark cycs.Thcy can only bc hcrsOns.

Glanccsthat wOuld oncc havc rcspOndcd tO hisslid Ovcr,past,tlrOugll

Hc、 valks on,turns back,passes Captain Dorcgo's a sccond tilne.
The thrcc arc scatcd at a tablc in the、vindow. For an instant,him OvcrlllJlt he bCCamc a ghost.Ifhe wantcd a wOman hc had tO
leal■ ■tO

pulsuc her;Oftcn,in Onc、 vay or another,to buy hcr.

Hc cxistcd in an anxious■ ur7 of pr0111iscuity.Hc had aghirs

through the gass,soraya's eyes mcct his.
Hc has al、 vays becn a man ofthc city,at homc an■ id a flux ofbodies whcrc cros stalks and ganccs nash like arrows.But thiswith thc、 vives of c01lcagucs;he picked up tOu五 sts in bars on thc、
vatclfl‐ ont Or at thc Club ltalia;he slcpt with、 vhores.
His introduction tO SOraya tOok place in a dil■giancc bct、 vecn hinlself alld Soraya hc rcgrets at oncc.

litdc sitting̲At thcir rcndczvous the next Thursday neither nlcntions thcroon■ orthc■ 。nt omcc OfE)iscreet Escorts,withヽ renctian blinds

incident.NollcthCICSs,the rnen■ oぃ√hangs uncasily ovcr thcm.Hc

ovcr the windOws,pOt plants in thc cOrncrs,stalc smokc hanging

has nO、 ″ish to upsct、 vhat rnust bc,お r Soraya,a prccarious doublc

in thc air Shc was on thcir b00ks undcr̀Exotic'.Thc phOtOgraphlifb. Hc is all br double lives, t五 plc lives, livcs livcd in

shOwcd hcr with a red passiOn― f10wer il〕 her hair and thc faintcst

C011lpartn■ cnts.Indccd,llc feels,if anything,grcatcr tendcrncss foroflincs at thc corncrs ofher cycs.Thc entw said̀Aftcrn00ns only'.

hcr.bzrs̀ε だ′なsψ t47'rh′ ど,he would like to say.

That was、 vhat decided hinl:thc prOn■ ise Ofshuttcrcd roolns,c001

But neithcr hc nor shc can put aside what has happencd.Thc

shccts,stOlcn hours

tM/0 1ittlc boys bccornc prescnccs bet、 vccn thenl,playing quict as

FrOm thc bcginning it was satisttct07,just Whit he wanted A

shadows in a corncr of thc room v′ hcre their lllotller and thc

bull's cyc.In a ycar hc has not nccded tO go back tO the agcncy.

strangc ll■ an couple.In Soraya's arrns hc bccoll■es,■ cctingly,tlleir

thcr,step― fathcr,shadow― ither. Iン caving hcr bcd
fathcr:fOstcr̲丘 、
atcl、 vards,hc iccls thcir cyes flickcr Ovcr hilll coVCrtly,cu五His thougllts tunl,dcspite himscЦ

ously

to thC Othcr ttther,thc rcal

Thcn thc accidentin St Gcorgc's Strect,and thc strangcness thathas fbl10、 ved.ThOugh SOraya still keeps her appOintinents,he■ els

a growing co01ncss as shc transforn■ s hcrsclf intO just another
woman and him illtO just anothcr client.

Hc has a shre、 vd idca of ho、 v prostitutcs spcak al■ ong thcm―
vllo ■cqucnt thCm, the oldcr inen in
sclvcs about thc lllcn 、

particular.Thcy tcll stories,thcy laugh,but thcy shudder too,as
Onc shuddcrs at a cockroach in a、vashbasin in the ll■ iddlc of the、vhatcvcr tllc rights and wrOngs ofthc situation,at lcast yO、

l klle、 v、
vhcrc you、vcrc'

̀You pcoplc?'hc says.̀What PcoplCP'̀I mcan your gcncratioll Now pcoPIc just pick alld ch00sc

night Soon,dail■ tily,maliciously,hc、 vill bc shuddercd ovcr.It is、vhich la、 vs thcy、 汀allt to()bcy.It's allarchy 卜lo、v can yotl brillg up

aら tc he callnot cscapc.

children、 vhcn tilcrc's anarchy all arOundP'()n thc fourth Thursday aftcr thc incidcnt,as he is lcaving tllc
apartn■ cnt,Soraya l■ lakCS thc announcemcnt hc has bccn stccling

hiinsclfagainst ̀Myn■ othcr is ill l'll■ going to take a brcak to look
attcr hcr l won't bc llcre ncxtヽ vcek'″

̀Vも ill̀1'1■

Hcr nannc is Dawn.Tllc sccond tilllc llc takcs hcr Out thcy stopat llis h01lse and havc scx.It is a ttilurc.Btlckil)g and clav/ing,sllc｀

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irt∬ ∬ l燎 IКコヘncr tllat hc avoids her,taking carc tO skirt tllc o■

l scc you thCヽ VCck atcrP'

l not sllrc.It dcpcnds on llo、 v shc gcts on.You had bcttcr

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icc、 vhcl,c shc

Ⅵ√orks.In rcturn sllc givcs llil■ l a hurt10()k,tllcll snubs llilll.
Hc otlght to givc tlP, rctitC tlonl thc ganlc. At、 vhat agc, hc

phonc irst
̀I don't havc a nulllbcr.'、
vondcrs, did Origcn castl,atc hilnsclP Not thc l■ 10st gl‐ accft11 0f

̀Phonc thc agency ThCy'1l kno、 v.'

s01utiOns,but thcn agcillg is not a graccnll busillcss.A clcaling of

Hc、vaits a tc、v days,thcll tclCphOncs thc agency.Soraya?Soraya

thc dccks,at lcast,sO that onc can turn ollc'sn■ inct tO tllc prOpcr

haslcn us,sayS the nlan.No,、 vc CannOt put you in tollch with her,
that、 vould bc against housc rulcs.や Vould you likc an intrOduction
to another of our hostcsSCSP Lots of cxotics to ch00SC ■onl―

Malaysian,Thai,Chincsc,you na11■

Hc spcnds an cvcning

Might Onc approach a doctor alld ask for it?ノ ヽsilllplc cnoughopcration, surclyi thcy dO it to anil■lals evcw day, alld allllllals

sun′ ive wcn cnough,if onc igl■ orcs a ccrtaill rcsidtlc or sacincssc it

Ⅵたth anothcr Soraya

一 SOraya has

οlll rf̀̀ο ″becon■ c,it sccl■ lS,a popular″ ′"ll̀κ ̀ in a hOtcl room il■

orC than cightecn,unpractiscd,to hisLong Strcct.ThiS Onc is no l■ ■n■ indbusincss ot‐ thc oldi prcparillg to dic.

vhat do you do?' shc says as she slips ofl‐coarsc. ̀So 、

herclothcs ̀Export― inlport,'he says.=You don't say,'she says.
Thcrc is a llcv/ secrctar/ in hiS dCpartn■

cnt Hc takes hcr toluncll at a rcstaurallt a discrcct distancc iol■l thc campus andScvcrillg,ち ′11180■ 1ヽ vith 10cal anacstllctic alld a stcady hand alld al13odiculll of phlcgil1 01〕 c lllight cvcn dO it ollescll ollt of a

tcxtbOok.A ll■ an on a chair sllippillg a、 vay at hilllsclr all ugly sigllt,
but n0 1nOrc ugly,fl‐ onl a ccrtaill pOint ofvic、 v,tl131l thC salllc n■

excrcising hinlsclf On thc bOdy of a、

anvollヽ an.

Thcrc is still Soraya.Hc ollght to c10sc that chaptcr lnstea(1,hc
PayS a detcctivc agcncy to trtlck hcr cto、

7ithill days hc llas hcr
vn ヽヽlistcns、 vhilc, over shrilnp salad, shc con■ plains about her sOns'

rcal nanlc, hcr address, hcr tclcpholDc nunlbcr Hc tclcphollcs at

school.Drug― pcdlars hang around thc playing― ■elds,shc says,andllinc in thc lllorning,、 vllcn thc husbal〕 d al〕 dc‐ hildrcn、 vill be ollt.

thc policc do notlllllg For thc past thrcc ycars shc and hcr
husband havc had thcir nan■ c on a list at thc Nc、 v Zealand

you agail17'c()nsulatc, to cnligratc. ̀You peoplc had it Casicr. 1 lnean,

̀SorayaP'hc says. ̀This is l)avid.Ho、 v arc you?｀ 商Zhcn can l scc
A long silcncc bc長 )1・ c shc spcaks ̀I doll't knoヽ v、 vhO you arc,'

shc says ̀You arc harassing inc in lηy own hOusc.I dcmand you、
vill ncvcr phonc nlc hcrc agai11,ncvcr.
′
ll.Shc n■ cans̀ο llllll′ ll″ HCr Shrilll■ css Surprises hilni thcrc
D̀lll′ ″TW(Эhas bccn no intin■ ation of it bcbrc. Btlt thcn, what should apredator cxpect、 vhcn hc intrudcs into thc vixcn's llcst,into thc
honlc of hcr cubs?
Hc puts doヽ vn thc tclcphonc A shado、 v ofclnvy pc■ sscS OVCr hilln

hr thc husband hc lnas ncver sccn

Wl「FHOLII I｀ IIE Thursday intclludcs thc wcck is as fbaturclcss as a

dcscrt Tllcrc are days whcn hc dOcs nOt knOw、vhat tO dO withhilnsclf

IIe spcnds■ 10rc til■ c in thc univcrsity libra7,reading」 l hc can
ind on thc、 vidcr Byron circlc,adding to notcs that alrcady丘 11ぃ″0‐
ぬt nlcs.Hc ettOyS thC latc̲■ ■crnoOn quict ofthc rcading r00n■
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He is rcturning hon■ c Onc Friday cvenil〕 g,taking thc 10ng■ oute

thrOugh thc 01d c01lcgc gardcns, whcn hc nOtices Onc of his
studcnts On thc path ahead Of hin■ti・

Hcr namc is Mclanic lsaacs,

onl his Rol■ ■antlcs coursc.Notthc bcststudcnt but nOtthc、 vOrst

cithcr:clcvcr cllough,but uncngaged.
Shc is da、 vdling; hc s00n catchcs up with her. ̀「 lcl10,' hcsays.

Shc sllnilcs back,bObbing hcr head,hcr sIIlilc sly‐rathcr than slw.

She is sillall and thirl,with c10sc̲cropped black hair,、 vidc,alll■ ost

Chillcsc checkbOncs, largc, dark eyes. Hcr Outits arc always
striking. 110day sllc wcars a n■ aroon lnilliskirt 、
vitl■ a l■ ustard―
colourcd s、 veatcr and black tights; the g01d baublcs on hcr bcltl■■atch thc g01d balls Of hcr carrings.
Hc is nlildけ Snlittcll with hcr.It is llo grcat matter barcly a termII