Taisei Yamamoto - 1(NIT (KOSEN), Anan College)

Memories to Last a Lifetime
Taisei Yamamoto (NIT (KOSEN), Anan College)
Do you think about the death of your loved ones? What would you do if they
suddenly disappeared from our life? On the other hand, if you are given only a few times
to be together, what would you do with your loved one in that time? Everyone feels
regret when they fail or couldn’t achieve something. Similarly, when a loved one diesand becomes invisible, you immerse yourself in deep sorrow and regret. Then,repeatedly ask yourself, “Did I do something for them?” This may be especially true
now during the era of COVID-19. For a few years, I’ve been thinking about the death ofsomeone close to me.
My house is a fatherless family. My mother raised my sister and me up to now.
Though having a lot of hardships, my mom works so hard like a “workaholic”. Thensuddenly, she suffered from breast cancer. I couldn’t imagine such a tragedy suffer forus. While my mom was in the hospital and struggled with cancer, my grandmother wascooking for my sister and for me. Also, she took care of everything. So that’s why I love
my grandmother a lot.
My grandmother is now eighty-nine years old. Though she is getting older, she isstill powerful. The surprising thing is that she loves eating meat very much. We can’t
say she is so old any longer, but when I think for a second, there is something no one canavoid. Death is a destiny that human beings must accept, no matter how much they
try to live. All people have the end of their lives someday.
In fact, life is not that easy. My grandmother suffered from intestinal illness andthen broke her bones twice about six years ago. I tried to encourage her over and over.
But the more I visited her the weaker she looked. Luckily, she got well.
When she smiles at me, just to spend a little time together, just that makes me
happy. If I lose our her, I’ll not be able to meet her again. That’s what will hurt me themost. In the future, death will separate us. I will never be able to touch the “LivingProof” of my grandma. So I came up with an idea to take photos of her appearance, hersmiles, her daily life, and everything. I decided not to miss any chance. I’ve been taking
the photos of my grandma so that I’ll never lose her existence. Not a special event, butdaily life that I can find everywhere, the fact that my grandma lived with a lot of joy is
an extremely an important memory for me. I thought I want to preserve her life as
much as I can. I want her to see my chronicles from now on, and when a happy event
happens, I want to share joy with my grandma.
We often regret “Why didn’t I do that?” or “Why didn’t I tell my feeling honestly forthe person I loved?” when they lose someone. Also, I’ve wished, “If only I could know
when my grandma will be gone...,” “If only I knew it will be the last time to see her
lovely face...,” “If only this will be the last time to communicate with each other...,” “Ifonly I could realize it is the last time to hold her tight,” “If I could ....”If I could meet my grandmother again, I want to let her see the story of my lifethat she couldn’t see in this world. It is our destiny to die someday and they are afraid ofTaisei Yamamoto - 2(NIT (KOSEN), Anan College)
it. Tomorrow will definitely come, but we can never know how our tomorrow will be. So
we don’t need to be bothered about what will happen tomorrow. Instead of that, it’ll be
more important to look at the lives of our loved ones.
Even if you lose someone close to your heart, the fact that “you are always loving
your loved one” is surely engraved on the pages of his or her memory. I want everyone toenjoy your time with your loved ones to your heart’s content. Because this moment
never come again. Before we regret.