The Sun of Words
Excerpts from
Aber ich lebe nur von den Zwischenräumen,
an interview between Herbert Gamperand Peter Handke
Wednesday April 9th to Saturday April 12th, 1986
On the morning of April 9th, 1986, it was an unusually warm day withthe föhn wind blowing, and I met Peter Handke in front of the house
where he was living on the Mönchsberg. He first lead me up to the tower,
from where one can see down to the southern parts of Salzburg, over theplains and towards the mountains (the Untersberg and the Staufen).
I asked him about the Morzger forest, whose southern extremities werevisible, and about the nearby area where Loser, the protagonist of
Across, lived. He asked whether these settings interested me, and thiswas what determined the first question I asked after we had gone down
to sit at the small table by the well, in the tree-shadows, and I had taken
the final, inevitable step, so that the game could begin, and switchedon the tape recorder. We regretted that the singing of the chaffinches andthe titmice would not be transcribed to paper; again and again it
seemed to me ridiculous to pose a question in the middle of this concert.
I told of a visit with Thomas Bernhard, many years ago, when, without
my asking, he showed me the offices of the lawyer Moro (from the story
Ungenach) in Gmunden, as well as the fallen trees infested with barkbeetles at the edge of his land that had been reimagined as the General’sforest from the play Die Jagdgesellschaft. I asked Handke if he also
attached such importance to the settings of his writings.
PH: They’re certainly important for me, the settings. But I think that
if I were to point someone towards these places, it might just confuse
them – and it might also come across as pompous. But when I passby these places, I’m always aware of them. […] I could show you
many, many spots that – as you said with Thomas Bernhard – appear
in my works and are the same places. But one is hesitant to do so,
because one thinks: a book is a book, and a place is a place. In thebook the places are always different for the reader, they’re richer andmore fruitful than when you lead him there and, as if part of apilgrimage or a sight-seeing tour, you say, there’s the tree, or … I’m
hesitant to do that. Each person that reads something has the image
within himself, and this image pleases him. The source of the image
then always disappoints, and it also irritates. – Or maybe if he finds
it himself: the reader goes out in search on his own. But when the1author leads him there, or some acolyte of the author leads him there
like a tour guide … I think that’s not good.
HG: However, place is more important to your writing than it is tothat of Thomas Bernhard.

* The narrator of Acrossthrows a stone at, and kills,
a man he sees spray-painting swastikas on a wall: ‘But
then the stone was thrown
and the enemy lay literally
crushed on the ground, as
unexpectedly as once in mychildhood a rooster which,unintentionally to be sure,
I had hit on the head witha pebble thrown from a distance – with the sole difference that the rooster, just as
unexpectedly, stood up andran off as if nothing had
happened.’ (Across. Translated by Ralph Manheim.
Farrar, Straus, & Giroux,
1986.)

PH: Yes, I’m a ‘place-writer’, I’ve always been that. For me places are
the spaces, the boundaries, wherein experiences originate. My
starting-point is never a story or an event, an incident, but instead isalways a place. I don’t want to describe the place, but rather narrate
it. That’s my greatest desire. It can just be a river, or snow, how it falls
in a certain garden or by a certain tree, by a certain kind of bark –and that just gives me a desire to start there. I say ‘start’ instead of‘write’. And then, by and by, these narratives where nothing happens,
they end up forming into events, and unfortunately that’s unavoidable; I would prefer them to remain without these events: without
the stone throw in Across.*
HG: I would also prefer the book without it.
PH: Ah, but Herr Gamper, I don’t disagree with you. However, thebook doesn’t work without it. I was writing Slow Homecoming andthinking, I’ll just write the river and the sky and the earth. But theconflict materializes on its own; the story, and thus history, gets inyour way. The only one to do that even halfway successfully was
Adalbert Stifter, in the 19th century, with Indian Summer: to tell a… to tell a nature-story, without intrigue, without conflict, withoutcomplication. Maybe when one is old or … I don’t know … when one
gets older. But after the events of this century, it’s really kind ofhorrendous to do so. One still wants to try, despite it all, to write along narrative with no events; but when you try to narrate thelandscape without conflict, it slips through your fingers. That’s thedramatization of what in Slow Homecoming I called the Raumverbot[‘space prohibited’]. You just want to have the landscape and the ‘I’– the perceiving, observing, remembering, formulating ‘I’ – and thenhistory gets in your – I mean, I can only speak for myself – history
gets in my way… and it soon becomes clear that the attempt to renderan account only of the earth, or of earthly phenomena, eventuallyends in failure, ends in a non-functioning muteness and not a beautiful
silence. Maybe it’s easier to do that in a poem. But I’m not a poet– that is, not a lyrical poet; and as for the concept of occasional
poetry – which constitutes even Goethe’s greatness – I simply can’ttranslate it into prose. I noticed that when I … does this interest you?
HG: Yes.
PH: … when I was writing Across. I really wanted to write an‘occasional prose’ – that is, where one sees something, then
immediately sits down and writes, without a plan, or structure, or
anything preconceived. And I actually realized even at the first2

sentence that it just doesn’t work. In order to write prose one needsa model, a notation, a structure – structure really just means therecognition of a model.
HG: And the conflict becomes implicated in this.
PH: Yes, the conflict becomes unavoidable…
* * * G: I really enjoyed how the first-person narrator [of Across] toreH
down the election poster.
PH: There are also more harmless things than that: for example, thesehiking trail markers that are nailed onto trees. That often causes me
pain, when I’m in the wilderness and I see these red-white-red trail
markers made of styrofoam or fibreboard that are nailed onto trees
by hiking clubs – whether it’s some Alpine association or whatever.
Sometimes when I see that, I bring some pliers with me and I simply
rip these trail markers out myself. It’s quite difficult because the nails
are stuck very deep into the tree, and are all rusted. I don’t know ifthat’s bad for the trees, but it’s certainly not pretty. And why do I needthis fuss about hiking trails in the middle of the civilized world: each
person has to find his own path, and will find it. And of course, it’ssometimes useful in the high mountains, and it’s also even laudable
when, for example, boys and girls mark their passages on limestone
or granite up there – but not down here, in the lovely lowlands.
HG: In the Black Forest I was also pretty glad to see such markers
when there were four or five separate paths leading out from a single
clearing.
PH: Yeah sure, sure, but it’s also a bit silly when here, in the middle ofthe city, you see signs like: ‘Trans Europe Hiking Path’, ‘North Sea–
Black Sea’ or something … no, that’s just silly. But it’s also quite
irritating. It would be so simple to just leave nature as it is. And
besides: getting lost does no harm. Even when using the trail markers
I’ve often gotten lost and ended up somewhere I didn’t want to go.
HG: Is it similar with writing: that you sometimes end up somewhere
you didn’t want to go? Or is this structure that you were speaking ofsomething binding?
PH: Oh no. It’s good that you ask that. One needs structures,
precisely because they are fruitful when they break down. They set
you on a path that is sometimes not walkable. But still, they’ve set youon the path. I know this, I am convinced of it: that without thesefamiliar structures you can’t get started on your way at all – and it’s
the same thing, it can be felt through reading as well: this tension of
the structures breaking down: how it works itself out, how the3

breakdown becomes fruitful. This Raumverbot, for example in Slow
Homecoming: that’s an exemplary breakdown of a structure. Precisely:
this intention (maybe a better word than structure) … this intention
to only accept nature as a subject for narration, only nature and theprimordial ‘I’. For me what occurs there with the breaking down of
this structure, it’s still fruitful. I have no idea how else I would havebeen able to continue with writing, which for a writer is always
identical with life itself. And there’s another thing, of course: that
there’s a faith that, through the act of writing, insights will materializethat one hadn’t considered at the outset. Without that, a day ofwriting would be lost for me, without novelty – not in the sense of
information, but rather that there, out of the formless vortex of theworld, some small form materializes. If that didn’t happen during awhole day, just sitting there, I think that on the following day I
wouldn’t be able to continue. Just sitting down at my desk and writing
down what I had already resolved to write, to connect, to realize:
that’s not sufficient. It’s always these two things: the structure, andthen this maybe stupid hope that through the work a beautiful detour
will appear – that some meaningless thing in the narrative will
somehow become a target-thing, or a thing that provides a sense– only for the narrative itself, of course – … that through the workof writing, an action, that hadn’t even been recognized as a specificaction – an incident – suddenly finds its place as part of a great
occurrence. That’s when … when one feels that this is an activity thathas a sense. But to just note down what has already been thought– that functions only when the writing-down revives what has alreadybeen thought, or animates it for a first time –, but to simply do that[write down what has already been thought out], that would be, howshould I put it, only a renarration of a narrative. […]* * * he tape ends. Part of the conversation, which continued while the tapeTwas being changed, is missing. It apparently addressed the demands
made on literature.
HG: … sure, whether it should is a whole other question; but I cancertainly understand it – like how Brecht puts it: whoever describes
a factory wall has understood nothing of the factory. Reality is nolonger what you see, but rather it’s a system of hidden structures,functional connections …
PH: But naturally, one also wonders – one can really wonder about somuch – whether or not the one who describes the factory wall, or an
actual factory worker – whether he may learn more about the factory,
about his factory life from the description of a factory wall than froma precise description of power structure. I’m really not sure. I’m also
not sure if the prospect of describing a factory excites me, if I’d reallywant to read that: that’s just a personal matter. Simone Weil, theJewish theologian, one can say, who then converted to Catholicism
4before the Second World War – she entered the factory as a worker inorder to experience it, and wrote her factory journals, and described
it from the perspective of those who suffer: all the oppression and all
the misfortune and hardship that an assembly line worker has to face,even from his or her own peers. I mean, that’s useful – but I don’tknow if my reading begins from usefulness; my reading has always
begun somewhere else. – My experience has always begun somewhere
else. At times I’ve had to do physical labour and I’ve thought, this will
destroy me – I stop thinking, stop dreaming. But at the same time I
was never compelled out of indignation to describe this work, or the
bondage that goes with it, or to tell a story about it. I would rather
read about that in a magazine article, in an essay, or in the newspaper,or let someone tell me about it, and television is good for such things,
but not the book, I think. The book is for me always the embodimentof the sun, somehow that’s how it appears to me. The letters, thewords are for me … the sun of the world, and with that you … you
need … (firmly:) you need to do justice to the sun. I just open a bookand immerse myself in it and it fortifies me and it gives me eyes andears, when … when … when … when the sentences are directed by
the sun. I don’t mean that in a simple ‘positive’ sense or anything; no:when there’s this longing and this energy present as a design. – But
that naturally sounds very pithy. I personally find it all very selfevident, which is why I’m so pithy about it. But I only practice that inwriting; in speaking I can only hover around it.
 G: I don’t understand that. First you spoke of the sun as a prototype
H[Vorbild] for what is written, and then you spoke of a design. Is thatthe same for you?
PH: But the sun provides a prototype, in the literal sense [Vor-bild =pre-image]. So when you surrender to the sun, it provides the
prototype for what you want to do, and then you make a design that
follows this prototype, you understand? – Instead of sun one
could … what could one say? – No, I’ll insist on the word, it uses theleast syllables, anything else would take more syllables.
HG: I’m having a hard time comprehending.
* Handke submitted themanuscript for his novel Die
Wiederholung (Repetition)
on March 1st, 1986, lessthan two months before thisinterview took place.
** ‘Long before sunrise, I
saw the valley plunged intoanother sun, the sun ofletters…’ (Repetition. Translated by Ralph Manheim.
The Last Books, 2013.)

PH: And you shouldn’t comprehend it, I mean, not in speaking. I can’t
dogmatize, I can just tell about … For example, Herr Gamper, when I
think of the story that I wrote over the past few months* – there
wasn’t much sun, it was winter –, and when I think that it will soon
become a book, this story, and no one will have read it yet, then for ashort time the book belongs only to me, it’s my book that I’ve turned
out of myself, and the sun always comes to mind, as if when I open thebook, as if, even when no sun is shining, the sun will shine upon it, or
we could say the sun shines out of it. A book – and maybe that’s just a
dream – in my conception it’s connected with the image of the sun.**The pages, the letters, and the colour of the paper.
5HG: Is this connected to the moment of warmth that you alluded towith the Ludwig Hohl quote? [‘Fantasy is just a warming up of what ispresent.’]
PH: Warmth, clarity, purity, order, the word-for-word, the in-between
spaces especially, the pauses, silence, calm. It seems to me that thebook, as I understand it, is the embodiment, the human embodimentof this pole star. That’s just in me, it’s my conception. Anyway, it will
be wiped away as soon as the first madmen decide to write about it,
about what I’ve dreamed up here; it will disappear, and will only
come back, if at all, when some translation takes place; then I rediscover what I had written, and this kind of sun-conception comesback. It’s tender, peaceful, and begins to quiver once more. But thesolar eclipse will come soon enough. – I’m not expressing these very,
very vague and at the same time very deep conceptions well enough,but I think that I can maybe hint at them.
In many cultures the book is seen as something hidden in a cave:the book that is placed in the deepest crevice of a cave as the Book ofLife. But for me this doesn’t contradict the sun-conception: that then,maybe after two thousand years, someone enters the cave and sees
there in a crevice, just as it’s described in the Zohar, the Jewish mysticalbook, hidden in the deepest crevice of the cave he finds ‘the Book’.
(Pause)Could I … how could I say that more clearly?
(Pause)* ‘“I’d like to tell you anidea.” But how can an idea
be told? There came a jolt
(the “ugliness” of this word
has often been held up tome, but once again there isno other way of saying it).
It grew light? It widened?
It took hold of me? It vibrated? It blew warm? It
cleared? It was day again at
the end of the day? No, theidea resists my narrativeurge. It provides me withno picture to serve as an
excuse. And yet it was
corporeal, more corporeal
than any image or representation has ever been; it
synthesised all the body’s
dispersed senses into energy. Idea means this: It
provided no picture, only
light.’ (Essay on the
Successful Day. Translated
by Krishna Winston. Farrar,
Straus, & Giroux, 1994.)

For me, speechlessness is … I can’t imagine a worse pain. I always
fear this speechlessness, and also the inability to continue, often in
the middle of a sentence: that it’s not a matter of course for one
sentence to follow another – in writing you must find the Law of
Following. One receives these jolts moving from one sentence to the
next: from developing, pondering, or also finding [finden] (notinventing [erfinden]) – these are jolts of warmth. Maybe that’s allconnected with sun … that’s where my parallelism of book and suncomes from, which is a recurring conception.*(Pause)Because writing is not just a routine treatment of a story, but is rather
an inception and a raising up out of the night, out of the indeterminacy,
to see if these shadow lines can really be transcended. And for me,each sentence is really a light of the world: that is, it brings a condition
or a situation – ‘situation’ is better – into the light of the world andthen links these … these … these structures of detail: of course
they’re not just details as with the Impressionists, but rather they’redetailed structures, linked together to form an ostensible whole. And
certainly, you can also say that it’s just an illusion; but what’s important is that the interconnections be correct. It’s true that every
artwork is just a successful, maintainable illusion, and maybe it needs
to be added: a reproducible illusion, reproducible for every reader6

– yet at the same time it’s an illusion that doesn’t deceive you, as with
pop songs or advertisements. You also need to be able to stand by it,
you need to be able to account for every word, as well as its placement.
It’s certainly a Gegenwelt to the world of news, but even though there
are no catastrophes and no deaths and no sicknesses, this Gegenwelt
is still a stable world that is familiar to everyone; one has to giveoneself over to it. One has to have faith in the medium: that is, in thelanguage, in the form. That can’t be demanded of everyone. But whoever wants to play along, as it were – or purports to play along, by
writing about a book – he must give himself over to the manner of theone who wrote the book, otherwise he has no right to write about it.
He must play along, in complete earnestness. […]* * *HG: [In your writing] there are also formulations that remind me of
Idealist philosophy: ‘The world that thinks itself ’, and so forth.
PH: Yes, I’ve also experienced that in writing. I tried to account for
it formally. But it’s never a dogma, it’s just steps or stations: stationsof writing and of thinking. I didn’t know where it would lead me.
I also willingly and almost thankfully let myself be led away by every
detour. One of the most significant sentences of Slow Homecoming
for me is the one that takes place in New York, before he meets thestranger, where it says: ‘He had time and made detours.’ I was so
happy that for once I was able to write such a short sentence. (Laughs).
But I find that one very significant, also the conjunction: ‘He had time’– someone else might have written it differently, to make it clearer:‘and therefore he made detours.’ I find it very beautiful: ‘He had timeand made detours.’ Period. I wanted nothing to be justified, but rather
to have the rational pulse in each sentence, even in one as reflective
as that.
HG: And that’s why the connections are so difficult?
PH: Right, I almost couldn’t go on; it was such an effort, each sentence,
it was like a festive yet calm music, where you don’t know what thenext bar will bring – where you need to lead the subsequent bar outof the previous one. I always went back, tried again to experience thesentence, in order to go on, to find the bridge. I also mentioned thatin Die Geschichte des Bleistifts, where it says: ‘In order to write asentence, I first need to completely calm myself down, and then the
excitement needs to come from the experience of the object or situation – and then, in order to develop that into a form, I need to completely calm myself down once more.’ So it’s this tripartite procedure.
And then I added impertinently: ‘Now you finally see how difficult
writing is.’ (Laughs). I was sometimes pleased when, after a fifteenhour workday, I had written ten lines. I thought: yeah, better thannone, at least. I need to go on, I must go on, I must go on day by day.
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HG: But that’s not your average writing speed, is it?
PH: Oh no, earlier I was much more brash; when I was writing The
Goalie’s Anxiety, that was a hundred and twenty lines a day.
HG: And with Slow Homecoming, were there especially difficult
periods, when you could only manage ten lines?
PH: Or none at all, it was complete muteness. Imagine that: seven,eight hours long sitting at your desk – and you’re not distracted, you
only want to grasp the object, concentrate yourself – and the object
has no language, and it remains without language. Maybe one wordlights up, then another lights up: then you have, maybe, if you’re
completely calm … – I mean, the danger of panic is very near, thatyou won’t be able to continue at all; not only not continue with thissentence, but never again go forward: if you don’t manage it, you’ll
never write again. And then one or two words arrive, and you think,ah, these words, they belong in the sentence, and then that’s just how
it works, that from these two words the pulsing sentence has taken
form. I don’t mean that one waits to hear a voice, which would be
ideal: that one just listens and writes along with it – the ear does
belong to it, though – that one, as it were … all at once the rhythm of
the sentence takes form, before the words. And from the rhythm– how sentence and clause and everything functions, there forms
the … the … the … how do you say … the object, to which one is able
to do justice through the pulsing and the position of the words. It’s
basically, if you take prose seriously, it’s just as important and just as
difficult and precise a process as writing poetry.
HG: Like how Hölderlin only noted the verse meter for certain
lines …
PH: I was just thinking of Hölderlin; but I can assure you that with
Slow Homecoming, or really with any sentence that I’ve written inprose – and I am a prose writer – … that it’s exactly the same thing.
And if the rhythm doesn’t take form, then not even … then you don’t
have the object either: you’ve lost the object … you don’t have theideal image – which is the prerequisite –, you don’t have the ideal
image and thus you can’t contemplate anything. Pure thinking: I can’t
do that – I’m not a philosopher and thus can’t make a process of
thinking. I can’t bring thought into a sequence, I just can’t manage todo that … and it’s also not my thing. I have to be able to contemplate
something. When I don’t have the ideal image, I can’t contemplateanything, and no pulsing, no rhythm comes from the contemplation,
so I sit there like a poor sap (laughs). […]* * *PH: Simply put, it was also a naming problem. In the beginning [ofSlow Homecoming] I stripped all places of their names; I never wrote:8‘Alaska’ or ‘Yukon’ or ‘USA’ or ‘San Francisco’ or ‘Anchorage’. My
problem then became centred around names, naming. It was thispurifying mythology that I pursued in Slow Homecoming, where I left
off the names and just had the river be ‘river’, the Great North be ‘the
Great North’ – but then, as I approached so-called civilization andhistory, this practice gradually became more difficult and … more
improper, more impossible, more unreal. Not calling the metropolis‘New York’ was a big problem, I could no longer mythologize that.
And then, when I planned to have Sorger return to Europe, howwould I do the nameless landscape there? That doesn’t work at all.
I would have to say: ‘Kitzbühel’ or … I would have had to continue
differently. Not being able to use the street names was already aproblem in New York. So I ended up using them anyway, and I felt likethe story finished at that point (laughs) … when I say ‘Madison
Avenue’, ‘East River’ or ‘New Jersey’. I had planned to complete thestory with no names, no place-names. […] And then I realized that I
had to stop, or else I wouldn’t be able to go on … I would have towrite a second volume where it says: on the 17th of June he arrived in
Trieste, at the Piazza dell’Unità d’Italia … the roller-skaters there,
and so on. That’s why The Lesson of Mont Saint-Victoire begins
immediately with names. But that was a real about-face for me, and it
was also a relief: to be able to, and to be allowed to use names. Acrossis also an orgy of names: because I can say ‘Salzburg’. I could never,for example … not until I turned forty – this is kind of funny – neverwas I able to use Austrian place names in a story. In The Goalie’s
Anxiety the word ‘Naschmarkt’ is used once, referring to the one in
Vienna, but the name ‘Vienna’ doesn’t appear – that was impossible
for me then. Across was the first time in my life that I was able towrite: ‘Salzburg’, ‘Almkanal’, ‘Untersberg’. For me, this meant defying
my conviction that this was no longer possible. And to this day I still
think: that doesn’t work. But I did it anyway. That’s also something
very important for writing, that each new progression transgresses
into something impossible. In Short Letter, Long Farewell, I beganwith the word ‘I’: having a first-person narrator that says ‘I’ … andI thought, you just can’t do that anymore, even seen from a literaryhistorical viewpoint, and then I did it anyway. And it’s precisely indoing what is wrong – for me this was a realization – … doing what iswrong not to be contrary, but simply because there’s a desire and at
the same time a need to do so: this is essential in order to go forward,
in order to continue writing. When one is aware that one is doing
something wrong, and that one is compelled to and at the same time
longs to do it, it can become something fruitful. Always following theplan that one had devised at the outset: that simply leads to idlenessand muteness, or to serialism. – I’ll mention once more the example
of saying ‘Salzburg’: to write an Austrian name, a name from mycountry, in a story: that always seemed ridiculous to me, embarrassing– I can’t say why. ‘Paris’ was okay, as in A Moment of True Feeling,or to say ‘Arizona’. But then in my country, to refer to Salzburg, or
the Drava, or to say ‘Carinthia’ without feeling disillusioned, it’s avery fine line.
9HG: Is it perhaps a matter of being in a position to accept your own
history, to accept that you’re Austrian?
PH: Yeah, I wonder. I often say that I’m Austrian simply out of spite.
HG: But accepting a history doesn’t have to mean being thrilled to beAustrian – but more like the way in which Peter Bichsel is Swiss.
PH: Yes, I accept it and I affirm it.
HG: Only as a contingency that needs to be dealt with.
PH: I can’t explain it. With the new book that I’ve written, the mere
prospect of using a village name from the area where I was born, orto refer to a small city by name, or even just ‘Klagenfurt’…
HG: You’ve done that?
PH: I did that. I thought: I just have to do it, I can’t just say ‘the capitalcity’ or … I just do it, or I write ‘Maribor’ or ‘Marburg’ or ‘Ljublijana’or ‘Laibach’, I just do it. Each time I did it I felt a slight reluctancy, I
never really got used to it. I can’t totally explain it. Maybe I can clarify
it a bit: someone like Heimito von Doderer inserted all these place
names from Vienna, inserted them properly, with tremendous careand self-awareness; and then I just dash them off very quickly, right?
In Across, all the place names are just lightly dashed off, or at least
that’s how it seems to me. And I think that a partial explanation ismaybe that Doderer was living there, he really occupied these places
and these names, and thus they belong to him, and maybe if I had
stayed in one place – I mean I’ve always moved around … I pulled up
my Austrian roots and changed my residence every two years at most,from here to there to there – and now that I’ve lived here for almost
seven years in the same place, I’ve acquired not only a visual sense forthe place, but also a sense for names. That’s an explanation that I’ll
offer myself.
HG: It could also be that, for Doderer, the memories that areconnected with the places are less painful …
PH: Yes.
HG: … or are maybe not painful at all.
PH: Right. I mean, it’s also one’s habitual paths over the decades, andthe changing light … they remain valid for him, maybe like what you
can observe with people as they age, the seasons and the light. I also
think of someone like Hermann Lenz: he can repeat himself so much,
he can repeat himself over and over, and simply through the slightvariation, the repetitions become a great epic movement; and thatcomes from his having grown up in a single house, in a single city …
10that he always repeated his habitual paths, that he wasn’t a traveller,that he was a real homebody … and from his affection for his parents– which is really a gratitude, insofar as it’s an affection for those who
begot him. […] But certainly it has to do with love for humanity andself-esteem, and also social awareness – that you don’t constantly
change your acquaintances, but instead always keep your eyes on thesame people (a nice phrase), and also to – what verb belongs here?
– exercise, from exercitium: exercise the patient repetition of theeveryday … and also just getting older. I’ve always felt pulled away;
I’ve always thought that wherever I am, I’m just there provisionally.
But still, even now, when I pass by a house I sometimes think: they’ve
installed themselves there forever, until death – and I feel a slightuneasiness: in one house, in one spot, forever, until death… to havethat be predetermined. Then I see the plants and trees in front of thehouse – like the oleander here in front of the neighbours’ house,
which is in rows that are almost tree-height –, and then in this moment
one thinks, yeah, that’s really how it is, they’ve set themselves up
there forever, the oleander was once this tall (shows), and now it’s
the height of two men … it always makes me think.
HG: Farmers in the canton of Bern used to plant a tree when a childwas born, and the tree would then grow bigger along with the child.
– But I would see it differently than you: to live in a house, with theoleander growing in front, that can also mean a life-long freedom.
PH: Yes, I didn’t mean to say otherwise; this feeling was also one ofadmiration, it wasn’t just this feeling of mild revulsion: they’ve setthemselves up there for the rest of their lives; it was something else…
HG: You mentioned Hermann Lenz earlier. He’s a writer that
concretely recounts historical events, the Second World War, but
despite this his narration doesn’t become a series of historicaldates. […]PH: You’re right about Lenz: […] that everything is one – it’s thesaying hen kai pan, everything is one in his writing: the puddle, therunning dog, and historical events, history. I find it tremendous how
he managed that, and still manages it – although naturally, there is aninterpretation contained in his historical events, and also there’s his
position of the dreaming conservative, that’s very clear: I always hada kind of hesitancy with that, because I don’t at all … I mean,sometimes I think: yeah, am I a conservative? or what am I? Am I arebel, am I a raging maniac? I just don’t know. It changes with me,
and somehow it never resolves itself, it can’t be resolved. I can’t makeup my mind to be a conservative because I’m not living in the society
in which I would like to live. I also can’t decide to become a puresocial-democrat, even though I see the socialist idea as the only social
idea I’ve experienced that will always remain fruitful. Doing so[becoming a social-democrat] would be hugely restrictive for me, andI also wouldn’t find any language there that I would understand, nor
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which knew no “little bylittle”? […]“Falsification!” But thiswas no longer an accusation;rather, it was a salutary idea:
he, Sorger, would write theGospel of Falsification; andhe triumphed at the thoughtof being a falsifier among
falsifiers. (An isolated individual was capable only of apatchwork.)’ (Slow Homecoming. Translated by Ralph
Manheim. Farrar, Straus,& Giroux, 1985.)** ‘I could never have described myself as a believer,in childhood still less thannow; but didn’t I, very early
in my life, have a “picture of
pictures”? […]This picture was an object
in a receptacle in a large
room. The room was theparish church, the object
was the chalice with thewhite wafers, the receptacle
was a gilded tabernacle,
which opened and closed
like a revolving door andwas kept in a recess in thealtar. This so-called holy ofholies was for me the realityof realities.
And this reality had its
recurring moment: the moment when, by virtue of thewords of the consecration,
the particles of bread, which
had, in a manner of speaking, become God’s body,
were enclosed in the tabernacle along with the chalice.
The tabernacle was opened;already wrapped in its
cloth, the object, the cup,
was placed in the glorious
colours of its silken grotto;
the tabernacle closed – andbehold the golden radianceof its rounded exterior!
That is how I see
Cézanne’s réalisations […]:a transformation and sheltering of things endangered– not in a religious ceremony, but in the form offaith that was the painter’s
secret.’ (The Lesson of MontSaint-Victoire. Translatedby Ralph Manheim. Farrar,
Straus, & Giroux, 1985.)

anything musical (in the old sense), nor any love for art – it sounds a
bit strange … Nor can I see myself as ‘alternative’, since there’s no
tradition there, and over the years tradition has become the mostimportant thing for me – certainly also as a result of what I learned ofancient languages as a student, and an immense attraction and analmost filial feeling towards all ancient epics. (Inhalation and heavy
exhalation). Yes, the only thing I know is that I want to study the
traditions, reading them, as an amateur naturally, and leading themforwards, or simply affirming them. In this I’m probably … a conservative, or what? … I can’t even say it, not even once.
HG: It seems to me that tradition is a reservoir for you, and not…
PH: It is transmission [die Überlieferung].
HG: Yes, but not as a linear development, but rather as things that are
all there concurrently: so that Virgil is concurrent with Goethe,
Thucydides, Stifter: in a non-historical space.
PH: For the most part, yes. […]* * *HG: Something else remained problematic to me relating to the‘Gospel of Falsification’*: I can’t manage to reconcile it withréalisation, which you identify in The Lesson of Mont Saint-Victoire as
the aim of writing.** Réalisation is not a falsification – or is themoment of falsification actually included within it?
PH: Certainly, réalisation is not falsification; it means to do justice tothe appearance of the object. I mean ‘Gospel’ in the literal sense of‘good news’: the good news of falsification – I can only repeat myself:that it has nothing to do with a parallelism to the experienced object;rather, falsification is just the simulation of unity – at least that’s how
I’ve experienced it – … and also, maybe, something deeper: thebeginning of a desire to do justice to the experienced world throughwriting. In the beginning – yes, that’s true: at each new beginning I
felt that I didn’t have the right – that’s strange, it’s a kind of antimystical tendency I have, to feel that I don’t have the right to affirm
unity through writing – which is basically what writing means to me.
– I’m not saying it well, not precisely enough. Just to sit down andbegin, to utilize the imperfect tense, for example, to narrate, and towrite all that down: every time there is a threshold that must be
overcome – each time a new one, a higher one – and I believe thisthreshold is a forbidden portal – not ‘believe’, but rather I feel it.
Which is something I can’t really explain to myself. When I beganwork this past autumn I would suffer from cold sweats all night long,
not because I had written something that I couldn’t stand by, but
simply because I had written something. And then it went away after
three or four days. You could say I was like a pilot in his cockpit, in
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that I had to just set myself straight, to realize that I was flying theplane, that I could fly the plane. But the first few days were odd, tosay the least. I can’t explain it. Maybe some doctor or psychoanalyst
could – I think some psychoanalyst who had studied the history ofcultures… who was also an ethnologist: I think he could explain tome where that comes from. But I don’t really want to look into it too
much (laughs).
HG: A kind of hesitation. With each work you’re entering an area thatis unknown to you.
PH: It’s more than hesitation. As I said to you before: this antimystical tendency … it’s like I had been ripped in two; mysticism isalways a kind of unity, a unity between two separated things, or atleast an ostensible unity (which is nevertheless effective) between
two things that are actually separated. And in this case, the separation… it’s not the state of being separated, it’s the act of separation: it’san act, the act of becoming separated. You don’t experience an eternal
state of being separated, rather you experience the act of separation
anew – now I’m saying you as if you were I.
HG: Whenever you begin to write?
PH: At each new beginning, with increasingly intensification. That’s
how I’ve experienced it. I would rather not experience it at all, noteven once. It’s a bit like this Lord Chandos story, which I’ve nevertotally understood. I’ve never experienced it as philosophy or as
orientation, but rather in practice … that the words fall from thepaper, that’s my … I mean, with the typewriter … I manage to get that
far, but the letters really just fall down, they aren’t solid, they don’t
get stamped in; I can still tap away, and then I can gradually becomeconvinced by words and by their coherence. That’s how it begins. And
this beginning gets increasingly longer, that’s my experience. I needmore time to overcome this initial separation.
HG: And through the impetus of writing this separation can bereversed?
PH: Yes, kind of like someone who’s had a bad accident, and who thengets right back into the car in order to not be always afraid of getting
into a car. A banal comparison – not necessarily a car, whatever;anyone can come up with a more fitting example of an accident.
HG: And that’s connected to this …
PH: It’s connected with Slow Homecoming, with what’s described
there as ‘space prohibited’: that nothing is valid anymore, that
nothing is describable anymore; spaces can’t be described anymore,
there are no more spaces that are describable.
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HG: And you’ve experienced this since then?
* ‘So I fled. Not from dreadof the tunnel’s history, notfrom the silence or the stifling air, or for fear of acave-in or a lineman – I’dhave been only too glad if
the lineman had grabbed meby the scruff of the neck andcursed in me every known
and unknown language– but in a single impulse ofhorror at the otherworldly
speechlessness that waspressing in on me, for over
and above bodily death itmeant destruction of thesoul, which, now that I am
trying to speak of it, is recurring more violently, moredevastatingly than ever.
Then I had only to run a few
steps to be out in the open,
whereas today I am confinedto the tunnel; there is no
escape, no niche, no parapet, and my only way tohumankind is to equip theobjects of a mute planet,
whose prisoner I have become through wishing (meaculpa) to be a storyteller,
with eyes that look at me
forgivingly.’ (Repetition,
ibid.)

PH: Yes, exactly. You could also call it … maybe it’s the fear of
speechlessness.*
HG: With which Lauffer threatens Sorger.
PH: Yes. It’s not silence; speechlessness is not this beautiful silence
that one wishes to have and to generate through writing.
(Soundlessly:) Speechlessness. I think I’ve already said that. It’s
probably one of the worst experiences that a person … I’ve
experienced it often from childhood onwards, not only in writing, butalso in speaking or in social existence. It’s very strange, these attacksof what I think is called autism: that’s no fun.
HG: How’s it called? Autism?
PH: Autism. When one hears people as if they were behind a glass
wall, one hears them and can no longer move, thinking that what’s
being talked about is horribly ridiculous and offensive, and not being
able to join in the conversation, nor to intervene, nor to yellout … The others don’t notice, and continue to talk even more banallyand more stupidly, at least that’s how it seems. But one is completely
unable to act or speak and just wants someone to ask: hey, what’s
wrong with you, or … – not in that sense, but rather that someone
would find the magic word that would then free one from this glass
mountain in which one is imprisoned. That’s often how it’s been forme. And it’s still like that; right in the middle of speaking sometimes I
think, ‘what’s this?’ and I can’t go on at all. Everything’s lost, it can bequite dramatic. So it’s not only the case with writing.
HG: But you feel it more strongly with writing.
PH: Yes, certainly, there’s more at stake there. In speaking I can justgo away, and it’s generally not a case of the glass mountain.
HG: So the experience is not engendered by writing, but justmanifests itself more intensely there.
PH: I think that’s how it is, yes. Somehow it comes forth in a more
exemplary, and naturally more dramatic manner; it also becomessomething formal there. – You look as though you know what I’m
talking about.
HG: Yes.
PH: One can only speak of something, or sketch something out, if one
is instinctively convinced that this is something everyone actuallyknows; and I think that’s my delusion: that everything I experience
deeply, and everything that I believe is something, I mean, precisely
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because it gives me this impulse, something that everyone knows(laughs), and over and over I’m confronted with complete and utter
non-comprehension.
HG: But in order to write, you need to be convinced that it’s not only
relevant for you.
PH: Yes, of course I need that, otherwise I wouldn’t write a single
word.
HG: Is this connected to the threshold metaphor you mentioned?
– that you need and desire to re-enter this forbidden space?
PH: That’s not connected; the threshold-experience was for me very
concrete and also very small. That was back with Slow Homecoming.
[…] This experience occurred not in fear of confronting a threshold,
but rather in the appeasement of being able to cross over a threshold,towards other people. The experience of the thing, of the objectthreshold was also so strong that it shook my entire body. […] I had
just been fumbling about, and then sat down – I intentionally use theword ‘sitting’, which is often how it works with mystics, or with theenlightened or the pseudo-enlightened – I practised sitting, enduring
a single place, only moving in language, which resisted me: and thenI would stand up, and step into another world – in this case, forexample, I would step over a wholly inconspicuous threshold into akitchen, where I would encounter not the world of letters or theworld of language, but rather the world of smells, of things, of sounds.
That was a … that was a – as I said: that was the appeasement. And
that was also the realization that these two things belong together:
the letter-world and the world of things that one can touch. […]HG: You search nature and history for the objectification of yourexperience, and the traces you find then help you to reactivate theseexperiences?
PH: They make experience more describable. They also help me totranslate that to the external world – I think ‘translate’ is the right
word. To take sentiments [Empfindungen], which are speechless, andby way of individual clarities, give them language, or however it may
be done.
HG: And that then retroactively strengthens these sentiments.
PH: Yes, it is through this that one recovers sentiment. If I were to
only write sentiment, that would be nothing. Without objects
sentiment is not language. – But without sentiment, it doesn’t work;
sentiment is the starting-point. The problem is just that sentimentneeds to strike someone who can then turn around and look outwards.
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HG: Doesn’t the sentiment automatically collide with the image?
PH: Sometimes it’s like that, but there are some sentiments that are
just – and I don’t want to use the word in a pejorative sense – … thatare purely inward. And then some sentiments force one to turnoutward and find the correspondence, find the corresponding thing.
But some sentiments completely close off a person. And then as longas he has a certain amount of self-knowledge, he can command
himself to look outwards. And there he’ll see this and that thing thatthen describe his sentiment to him. It’s a complicated thing, one could
almost make a casuistry from it, like in Spinoza’s Ethics, but that’s
not my thing. […]* * *PH: One’s manner of reading changes throughout life. I believe that
I’ve only now reached a point where I’ve finally learned to read. Or atleast that I’ve realized how I used to read. Not even when I was reading Stifter could I really read. It was often … for example, Goethe’sElective Affinities or Hölderlin’s Hyperion: I read them at the wrong
time, I didn’t understand anything of them, and I also didn’t understand, as Ludwig Hohl says, that different authors have different
reading speeds. The reading speed I had earlier was much different
than the one I have now, which I think is finally the one that suits me
best. I now only want to be able to, to be allowed to read slowly.
HG: And you write this way as well. That brings to mind: one student
found this slow tempo an imposition: how at the beginning of Slow
Homecoming, with these long sentences, you force this slowness onto
the reader, like in a Wagner opera.
PH: I can understand that very well. At twenty I probably would havestopped reading after two sentences.
HG: Yes, one can only either stop reading or fully give oneself over toit. But to superficially take it in, ‘informative reading’, as it’s called,that doesn’t work.
PH: Nor in the evening before going to sleep, reading in bed, that
doesn’t work at all.
HG: Carefully reading a few sentences, that works. But so quickly…
PH: You also can’t force anyone to do anything. You can’t say: you
must read at this precise speed.
HG: But otherwise it doesn’t work; one has to read at that tempo.
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PH: But I really can assure anyone, if they give it a try, if they want toand are able to read so slowly, they’ll get something out of it.
HG: Yes, then and only then. And that shouldn’t be a reproach!
PH: I have a great need: not simply to read slowly, but rather to slow
myself down through reading. But it’s more than that. If it doesn’t
work that way, then I lose all pleasure in reading. When I start scanning again, devouring the pages like I used to, then I start to feel mylimbs and extremities becoming cold – which is for me a physical sign,when I get cold – only the cheeks remain hot. Then I know that I’m
not reading correctly, or that the book’s not the right one for me. But
then when everything becomes warm: the heart, the mind, the senses,
out to the smallest fingertips; when I also stall – not falter: when I’mable to stall, to pause, then my reading is an all-embracing perception,then it’s … then out of this self-immersion there arises a vision, acompletely natural, logical vision of the outermost world (not just theouter world). For me that’s just … it’s completely organic … for me
that’s the only way it works with certain things – so that I can ponder
them, pore over them. Although there are moments of longing for theold speedy ‘page-turner’ reading – not ‘longing’: rather nostalgia forthe page-turner era. Then one puts away the Hölderlin poem, or
whatever ancient text, and one picks up something by an author like
Simenon, and for a while it’s like being in a speedboat. But for theduration (and I say that expressly: for the duration), the other kind ofreading – the reading I have now learned, have now acquired – is the
only kind that deserves the name.
———
Translated from the German by Nathaniel Davis; annotated with passages
from Handke’s books by Philip Baber.
Originally published as Aber ich lebe nur von den Zwischenräumen
(Frankfurt: Suhrkamp Verlag, 1990).
This translation was commissioned and published by The Last Books in 2015.
www.thelastbooks.org

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