Our Essential Nature
The Journey of ConsciousnessbyJennie Lai

Contents:

Preface
Part I: The Truth of Existence
1. What are “we”?
2. Happiness and Love vs. Sadness and Suffering
3. Corporeal World vs. World of Consciousness
4. Reincarnation
5. Our Purpose: Meeting the Truth
Part II:Approach to Uncovering the Truth of Existence
6.

Mother and Reflections on Mother7.

Idolatry and Reflections on Idolatry

8.

Meditation

9.

Return to Love

10. All is Love

Preface
Have you ever wondered what this life is about? Have you
wondered why you have life? Have you ever wondered why you havethis physical body? Well, I can tell you that we are living in these
physical bodies, so we may encounter the truth through them, thetruth of what we are. We are consciousness, energy and vibrations ofwarmth that continually expand into the universe, eternally. We wereborn to realize that we are consciousness and vibrations of warmth.
My name is Tomekichi Taike and for many years I have been
speaking about this warmth we are. The warmth that we are iswhat I want to explain to you in this book. Our existence is energy
and consciousness. It is something absolutely different from ourphysical and material bodies. This is the knowledge I want to sharewith everyone. These uncoverings, these discoveries of true joy,happiness, and contentment are within everyone’s hearts.
I have been speaking for more than 25 years about this journeyof consciousness- the only message that I want to communicate to
everyone: we are consciousness and we are one. We are all vibrationsof energy and warmth within. Through these messages I want you
to open your heart and feel the consciousness and feel the vibrationsof warmth, the energy that surrounds us connects us, and that isintertwined in everything. Please feel the energy of the words withyour heart. Don’t analyze too much, questioning the logic of what I
say. Please concentrate on the energy of the words. Please try to feel
4 Our Essential Naturethe energy of the words that permeate this book. I want you to feelthe warmth that this book is conveying.
I want to emphasize that this physical world isn’t a world of
suffering. We don’t live in this material world to suffer, but to open
our hearts so that the truth and warmth within may be revealed. I
have found incredible happiness in my heart. It is a joy that I wanteveryone to feel. My sole purpose has been to share the knowledge I
have discovered in my heart because I want everyone to return to thejoy in their own hearts. I am waiting in my heart for everyone. Yourown heart is waiting for you.
Of my material life, I cannot say that my years of living havebeen struggle-free. My many years as a schoolteacher and principal
in Japan were years of hard times and struggle. For decades, I had
been exposed to many distresses and issues of suffering in familiesof my students, in my own family, and friends. I had struggled withmany negative thoughts, striving to “be something” in this physicalworld, wanting more control over my life and the lives of others.
However, at some point I realized this was not the whole world. I
wasn’t seeing the true world. I felt like there were answers to be hadin my heart. That is when I began mother’s reflection purposefully.
I thought if I began to remember about my mother purposefully,
it would lead to some answers, and indeed, slowly the answers
became apparent in my heart. I began to understand that my life’s
experiences were opportunities for me, to do my own reflection andfeel my true heart. Those were opportunities for me to open my heart.
5After making discoveries of truth in my heart, I knew then what path
I must take.
I knew I must take this path to spread the joy in Japan. I also
knew that through speaking about this “true purpose” with others,
another path would appear and I believed that strongly in my heart.
So, I quit my job as a school principal. Now, looking back, I am
convinced that believing in my own heart has not failed me because
I clearly see the path ahead of us. I realize that the truth is in myheart. I realize that the truth is in everyone’s heart. It is accessible byeveryone.
I hope this book finds you and speaks to your heart. I hopethat through this book you will feel an inkling of the truth that I am
communicating.
I want people to “wake up” and realize what their true existence
is. I want people to remember their purpose, why they are born, andremember that this material life isn’t all that exists. This physical life
is a mask; it is an aid to realize your true heart within. This is what
I have dedicated my life to. Over the past 25 years, I have studied
and grown with everyone and now the truth is clearer than it ever has
been. I would like you to reach this point. I am not special. I am
just like you--maybe I was more diligent and fastidious and knew mypurpose. I never waivered in the thought that my true purpose was todiscover this warmth.
I have to say wholeheartedly that it’s been a worthwhile
6 Our Essential Natureendeavor because now a few people have begun to realize the truth oftheir heart so I know that my efforts have not been in vain.
I ask that you return to your heart of warmth. I don’t ask
anything of you in return. I don’t want anything from you. I only
want you to find happiness and joy in your heart and to rememberthat you are energy and that we are all connected. The sooner you
realize that, the more joy you will feel in your heart. The less you will
struggle in your life. You will realize all pain and suffering in this life
is an act of joy. It is a volcano of joy. Pain and suffering is a volcano
of joy.
I hope this book finds you well. I hope you will feel somethingin your heart, not just your brain. Please be open to the language we
use in the book; please be open to the feelings that may arise withinyou. Don’t be afraid because the truth is nothing to fear. I want you
to open your heart and feel the waves and the energy that is being
communicated.
I know you will feel something in your heart and I invite you topursue that. Please don’t be afraid. Your heart has been waiting forthe truth. Let’s embark on this journey of joy together and discover
the truth of our existence.

Thank you.
Tomekichi Taike7

My name is Jennie Lai. I have been involved in this study formore than 20 years. When I first met Mr. Taike in Los Angeles, I
was quite young maybe 14 or 15. I remember my mother coming
home from one of these “talks” by Mr. Taike. She explained to me
the concept of reincarnation and consciousness. I was intrigued
and wanted to know more because even at such a young age, I felt
depressed and suicidal. I couldn’t understand why life was worth
living and felt I was wallowing in the depths of my suffering. I
always felt dissatisfied, sad, and lonely in my heart, constantly
questioning the reasons for my existence. However, the talks of Mr.
Taike spoke of an eternal consciousness and that warmth was our true
existence.
With my interest piqued, I decided to attend one of theselectures myself. I remember feeling a shock of warmth in my heart
the first time Mr. Taike and I met. I felt something very different andwarm surrounding me. I remember feeling very drawn to Mr. Taike.
Being so young, it wasn’t difficult not to question. When you
are young, you have the wisdom to just pursue what tugs at your heart.
That is what I did, I just pursued. My mother translated Mr. Taike’s
lectures because I didn’t speak an ounce of Japanese at the time. He
spoke of mother, and the importance of reflecting on mother and thatafter doing this you would feel something within yourself. I felt that I
had nothing to lose and everything to gain, so I gave it a go and began
to keep a journal. This journal was filled with reflections on life andon Mother. After writing in about 10 yellow legal pads, I slowly
began to feel something in my heart. The feelings arising in my heart
8 Our Essential Naturewere something that I could not ignore. I would spontaneously
weep and feel shocks of warmth and more importantly, more
contentment in my physical life. So I kept writing in my journal,
doing meditation, and attending talks in Japan when I could.
Here I am, 20 plus years later, speaking of this journey, thisjourney of joy and truth. Walking on this path, I have found suchprofound joy, warmth and contentment. I, too, invite you to takethe time to pursue this, if this is something that touches and moves
you. Have the innocence, which means keeping an open mind
and heart, and the willingness to be an escort to your heart.
In this book, some of the language may not make sense,
and the experiences sound strange but I invite you, if you feelsomething, to take the first step to understand the truth byreflecting on mother. After you have done a few exercises, decide
for yourself whether this is a journey you would like to undertake.
I promise you will not regret that you did. I invite you to begin
this journey of joy with us.

Thank you.
Jennie Lai

How this book is different from other books:
This book is not like a lot of other books. It isn't Jennie Lai's brain
writing this book. This book is written through channeling. Don't thinkof channeling as something strange or even extraordinary because it isnot. Jennie Lai is like a radio picking up the frequency of “warmth” andthen broadcasting that frequency. Being a channeller is nothing special.
Anyone can be a receptacle, a medium or channeller, receiving messages.
I, Jennie Lai, have only been a messenger. By aligning my heartwith the warmth, I received the messages and the guidance to write thebook from within. I have only turned my heart to the warmth and let thatspeak with my voice.
The consciousness of Tomekichi Taike can speak through anyone,
because the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike is everyone. It is thatwhich we refer to as our heart of warmth. The channeler can tune into
each individual because we are all one consciousness at the core. We areone energy.
First, as you do more meditation and reflection and become awareof the warmth, then it takes only practice to give voice to the messages
from the heart of warmth. Once you realize this world of consciousness,and you align your heart to the warmth then you are able to receive
the messages from the core of warmth. The core warmth is always
communicating to your heart. When we are able to align our hearts to thewarmth, we can receive messages from the warmth of our core being.

10 Our Essential NatureWarmth: Consciousness of Tomekichi TaikeYour true consciousness is warmth. It is synonymouswith the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike and Albert
Rockefeller. It is you and me. These are all words. We are all
one consciousness--we have physical bodies that separate us,
but in the world of consciousness we are one entity, one warm
heart, ever expansive and ever growing. This is our truth.
Why do we use these names to speak of the warmth
within, our true consciousness?
Is it because the physical Tomekichi Taike is so special?
He is not special. The physical Tomekichi Taike is
not the same as the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike. The
physical Tomekichi Taike is just an old grandfather. The
consciousness of Tomekichi Taike is different because hisheart is 100% aligned with the world of consciousness. When
you align your heart to this consciousness you will feel thewarmth of mother. Furthermore, Albert Rockefeller willbe the reincarnation of Tomekichi Taike , who has the same
consciousness, so Tomekichi Taike and Albert Rockefeller are
essentially the same.
Messages from the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike
merely means messages from the core of warmth withineveryone. Historically, words such as “god” have an associated11meaning. We are speaking of the semantics of the word. For
example whenever you use the word, “god” you automaticallythink of a higher power, the Christian god, or something likethat. So, in this study we could say “we are all ‘god’ within.”
However, people have a tendency, without knowing it, toassociate “god” with the Christian god. This is what we wantto avoid.
So when you take a word such as “Tomekichi Taike” thathas really no associated meaning, you can create new meaning.
There is no history of this word so there is no mistaken
meaning. In this book, the only thing to be clear about is thatmessages are from the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike, andnot the physical old man Tomekichi Taike.
In addition, the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike is thesame as our core “warmth.” The consciousness of mother isthe consciousness of Tomekichi Taike is your true heart.

Part 1

Truth of ExistenceChapter 1

What are “we”?
Have you ever wondered what you are? What are “we” humanbeings? Are we merely the cells that make up the body? Haveyou ever questioned whether you were mind or body? What is thisphysical body that has five senses which lets you see, touch, smell,hear, and taste? What is intuition? Do you believe the struggles
within yourself will disappear after your material body is gone?
This is an age where many believe that they are just a brain
within a physical body. Many people want to believe this physicalbody, this flesh and bone, is everything. But if you have ever had adoubt about that…please read on.
The truth is that we are not just brains and bodies. Humanbeings are something much more, much deeper than this corporeal
self. In addition, we are something more enduring and perpetual thanphysical bodies.
There is something coexisting with the body. If you took away
the physical body, you’d be left with consciousness, or energy, that iswhat we are. In some sense, it is not a question of mind over matter.
Your consciousness can feel everything, everywhere at any time, inspace, the present and the future. If you contain yourself to think thatyou are only living in the present moment in this physical body thenthat is all you will truly feel. If you expand your heart and realize
14 Our Essential Naturewhat you truly are, then you will see the past, present, and future exist
as one. You will see that you and I are the same. The birds, the sky,
the ocean, at our very essence we are the same energy. Consciousness
is eternal. When this physical body dies, it is only the body that
dies. Consciousness lives eternally. Why isn’t the truth obvious? It
is because you have believed in your physical selves for so long that
now that is all that you think you are. It will take some time andeffort for you to break away from that thinking to realize, to discoverthat you are truly consciousness and energy.
I don’t want you to believe that your death is the end of you. I
am here to tell you this is not the case. This belief that this is the only
life that counts is wrong. There is something more to this world andlife than the material body and the physical things you see. Thereis something that is moved in your consciousness and that is what I
want to address. Be open and aware of this. This study is trying to
make you aware of this world.
You and I, we are all connected by our consciousness. In theworld of consciousness, we are all one. On a material level, on earth
and in outer space, our bodies are separated by perceptible space.
Consciousness can never be destroyed with the physical body. Even
though we have reincarnated many thousands of times with a physicalbody, most times we have just accepted the physical body living on
this material earth as our true world.
So unlike what many may believe, when the physical body15

dies, the whole human being does not die. It is not the end ofexistence. Consciousness or soul lives eternally through many
physical bodies and cycles of physical lives, on earth and in space as
well. Furthermore, it is possible for consciousness to persist without aphysical body.
We have had many physical bodies on earth and we have hadmany physical bodies in space. Physical bodies are just material, but
we are actually something greater than this. Physical bodies are like
clothes we wear. We can change them many times over. Our essence
that exists eternally is consciousness.
To expand on the metaphor of clothes, that this physical body
is akin to clothes that you wear and are continually changing, do you
understand the history of these “clothes?”
You have spent millions, billions of years, in space, on different
planets, in different galaxies, with physical forms and without,traveling and creating these feelings of dark energy. You havecreated war, strife, struggle, greed, pettiness, jealousy, superiority,and inferiority. You have done all you can to satisfy all your desires
through your physical body. You have loved, hated, struggled, fought,
and stolen, all to be special and different, all to feel something greaterin your heart.
I believe the reason you don’t feel something that satisfies yourheart is because you don’t understand the truth of your existence.
You don’t understand that you are consciousness. However, now we
16 Our Essential Natureare on a path to rediscover the truth of our existence in our hearts
and to understand we are not physical bodies. This does seem like adaunting task. But it is not. It is a joyful task. Once you discover an
inkling of the truth in your heart the happier you become, the lighter
you become. You will start to feel the energy and vibrations of joy all
around you. That is the world of consciousness.
I have come to see, over these many years, that the physicalbody is a mere shadow of the true world. You ask why we cannot feelthe true world. You can feel it all the time; it is just that your focus
is not on the world of heart, the vibrations of energy, the vibrationsof warmth. You fervently believe in your brain and that this physicalworld is the real world. In some cases, you have absolutely convinced
yourself to believe that.
I ask you, I beseech you, not to believe in this physical bodyand be deceived by what you can perceive with your five senses. I
want you to look beyond that and I want you to feel and sense the realworld with your own heart. That is the only way you will come toknow the truth. That is the only way you can come to know the truth,by experiencing it with your own heart. You have to feel it. People
have a tendency to ignore consciousness even though they see tiny
glimpses of it.
Coexisting with your body is energy. Humans have colloquiallytermed this “soul.” In this book, we call this consciousness, energy ofwarmth. Your consciousness or soul is felt through your heart. Many17

times, no one recognizes this thing called heart. You only want tobelieve what your five senses tell you in this material world. From theday you were born, you have relied on these senses to inform you of
the world. You live your life according to what your mind perceives,
sometimes disregarding consciousness and the world of heart.
Though you disregard consciousness it persists and is eternal.
Your consciousness currently coexists with your physical bodyand the core of what you are and what will remain, never fading or
ending, is eternal consciousness. Consciousness is the core of what
you are. Consciousness exists eternally through space and time.
Consciousness is comprised of vibrations of warmth and is energy.
Essentially, we are all energy.
Even though we may have individual material bodies, in theworld of consciousness, we are all one. We are not separate entities.
One of our goals is to remember that we are all part of this worldof consciousness. Our consciousness simultaneously remains
in this material world as well as in the world of consciousness.
Consciousness is an all embracing and encompassing warm energythat gives to no end. This is our essence.
Our true essence is vibrations of warmth, this energy, and thislove that permeates all living things. It permeates all things livingin space; even in the darkness we are this energy. We are thesevibrations of warmth, but you are still convinced by your physicalbodies that this physical world is everything. That everything you
18 Our Essential Naturecan evaluate with your five senses is the only true world. Our true
essence, our nature is energy, energy of warmth, love, and joy. We
are consciousness.
Our true consciousness is synonymous with mother’s
consciousness. Mother’s consciousness is the warm energy that is sobright and loving. It is embracing. It is your true being. It is the everspreading warm vibrations that we all are. It is warm energy, warmth,
which is continually reaching out and embracing, supporting, loving,
catching, and protecting you. It is the warmth that stirs deep withinyour heart. It is wide, warm, fully embracing, protecting. It is warmand beautiful, as if arms outreached always to embrace you. It islarger than the sky, and you feel the complete freedom to be withoutworry, like the water from the ocean.
Imagine yourself on top of the mountain, breathing that fresh
air in and out, and as you look below the landscape is so warm,
gentle, and wide. Can you imagine that as your heart? That ismother’s consciousness. Or envision yourself as a bird soaring in thesky; cheerful, joyful, full of content, warmth, that feeling is mother’s
consciousness, your true essence. It is so rich, deep, and wide. It isessentially even larger than this, but as a starting image point to grasp
an inkling of what mother’s consciousness is, it is a good one.
Your heart has always existed and been moved by different
things. I know in your waking day you use your five senses to register
everything. But you also rely on what some people call instinct or
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gut. Perhaps this is something that is a window to consciousness. A
lot of the time, we choose to ignore the things our heart feels. But at
the same time many people are always trying to become moved bytheir emotions, through art and music, to move their “spirit.” So thisidea of being moved by things that are intangible is not foreign.
At the end of the day, many people wish to conclude thatwhat is tangible is the only truth in their life. That equals the reality
they know. But I am telling you that you can open your heart andbecome aware of the world of consciousness through reflection andmeditation. You can access the world of consciousness and becomeaware of the fact that you are consciousness and vibrations of warmth
at the core, living in a much larger world of consciousness

20 Our Essential NatureChapter 2

Happiness and Love vs.
Sadness and Suffering
Are you happy or sad? Are you struggling with life, youremotions? Do you believe the struggles and distress you experiencein this life will go away once your physical body is gone?
These basic questions are the ones that create the foundationof how we live our lives. These are the questions that control our
lives, driving us to make the decisions that we do. We are always
struggling within ourselves, searching for happiness and satisfaction
in life, trying to find a means to that end. We are always looking
for ways to feel complete, to find happiness and control our inner
sadness and suffering. People attempt to manage their distress andcreate happiness by looking to religion, looking to various activities
to keep the heart dulled to the sensation of unhappiness and suffering.
We keep ourselves occupied with exciting activities, television,
computers, and etc., to feel less empty, i.e., it’s an illusion of fullness
and satisfaction.
But the question is: is it possible to do anything in this physicallife with this body to make your heart feel satiated and devoid of
suffering? We try to do these various physical activities to fill theempty bowl in our hearts. But will doing so address the suffering andemptiness you feel in your heart? You can temporarily fill your bowl,
but there will be no long-term solution relying on these corporeal
activities. The only thing that will fill the empty bowl, your heart, is21

if you return to the truth and save yourself.
People have been suffering, confused, distressed for so long.
They have been suffering because they compare themselves to otherpeople in this world. They compare themselves and they don’t feel
adequate, or they feel superior. They think they don’t make enoughmoney and they feel inferior. They make more than others and feelsuperior. Suffering hearts stem from the comparison to others. They
also suffer when they lose control of their emotions, such as anger or
depression, and let that emotion spiral out of control.
Many of you are suffering. Darkness and dark energy are
negative thoughts and thoughts that make us suffer, like greed, power,
fame, trying to become rich, become better than others, trying to be
special, trying to overpower others, belittling people, believing that
we are better than other people. This is darkness we have created.
Life gives us the opportunity to create darkness. Life gives us theopportunity to realize that this is not what we truly are. You are notjust an existence, living life to be greedy, to be better than others.
All of these desires for powers outside of yourself, to dominate
other people, are they really giving you happiness and satisfaction
inside? I think if you ask yourself if you are satisfied, truly satisfied,the answer will be, “no.” Am I correct? I believe I may be correct inassuming this. You have been suffering so long that you don’t evenrealize what the possibilities of happiness are. You don’t realize thecapacity of warmth and spaciousness that exists in your heart. If you
begin to understand that there is this vast spaciousness, happiness,
22 Our Essential Naturevibrations of warmth in your heart, then you will not continually
strive to embrace these powers any longer.
Mankind has known that their hearts are suffering. Anythingthat isn’t happiness, warmth and joy is a heart of suffering. You live
in a world of comparison, of jealousy, of hate, of distrust. You live inthis world that you have created. You have created this world because
you have believed in this material world as the one where you had
to make a difference. You understand this material body to be theonly world. You are continually reincarnated, believing each life is
the only life you will live. I am here to help you break this cycle. I
am here to help you get out of the habit of believing you are only aphysical body. I want you to break the cycle by meeting the truth inyour heart. Once you understand you are a warm heart of love andenergy, then you can change the way you have thought about thisworld. You can change 180 degrees.
The heart that suffers is just the heart that has forgotten true
warmth. You can save your pain and suffering. Once you begin tochange your many suffering hearts to warmth by embracing them you
will slowly change yourself. Only you can save yourself and we callthat “self-salvation.” How do you become joyful and happy? Who
do you rely on? You only rely on yourself to make yourself happy.
Your heart can never be saved by any outside source, “god”. You arein control of your destiny, of whether you want to be happy or sad.
There is no one to blame for your suffering but yourself. No
one bequeaths suffering onto anyone. Suffering and darkness is a23creation of your own. Everyone is responsible for his or her own
happiness and sadness. You control your own destiny, of whether you
will be happy or sad. You control that by where you point your heart
and what you choose to believe in.
Suffering is something you have caused yourself. You have
traveled far from the essential nature of yourself and that causes
suffering in this physical life. You forget that your purpose is toreturn to the warmth in your heart, to rediscover consciousness, andto find the joy in your heart. You think that accumulating energies
such as greed and power is important in this physical life. But you
are actually just getting wrapped up in the mask of your physical life.
If you remember that your true mission is to return to the warmth inyour heart you will not suffer because you will know that all you need
do is wrap your suffering selves and ask yourself, your suffering darkheart, to return to your true heart of warmth.
Fortunately, through your sufferings, you look for answers.
Only through pain and suffering will you question yourself. Only
then will you begin to search for answers to those questions. I am
here to tell you life is not about suffering. Your own interpretationof life deems things suffering or happy. All experiences, when you
strip away your interpretation, are occurrences of joy. Anything to
make you question your purpose is something to be welcomed andis a joyous event. Without suffering and pain, you never think toquestion yourself or your existence. This is why I welcome all pain
and suffering with a heart of joy. As you experience pain, your heart
is realizing something. You heart is questioning why you have pain
24 Our Essential Natureand suffering and that is always an opportunity for change.
So what do you do with the sadness and darkness in yourheart? How do you alleviate this dark heart? If you know you aresuffering, now is not the time to wallow in that sorrow. Now is thetime to be proactive and try to figure out how to save yourself. Why
are you unhappy and sad? You are sad because of the direction you
placed your heart. If you always look to the physical world for thetruth you will always be unhappy. Once you discover that the truth iswithin your heart and you begin to save yourself, then you will start
to become satisfied. We have been trying to ignore this heart. We
have been praying to gods to help us to ignore this heart, because
we had forgotten how to save ourselves. We tried to forget about
this suffering heart. We tried to forget about their existence within
ourselves. That is the coldest cruelest thing you can do to yourself,
for even suffering hearts are a part of you.
This physical body is a mask you wear. Your true existence isthe consciousness that lives forever. It is the emotions you feel all
the time. These emotions are alive and never die whether they feel
happy or sad, or feel angry or peace. This emotional self constitutes
your conscious self that never disappears. If you are unable to resolve
anger and jealousy currently when you die you will continue to exist
in that state. You are always trying to run away from our emotions.
We are always trying to dampen, ignore, and find ways to divert ourattentions, so we don’t have to feel anything. We are trying to escapeour emotions.

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We need to come to peaceful resolutions with our emotions.
We need to take these emotions and turn them into warmth andwonderful joy. This is our purpose. Your purpose isn’t to escape youremotions by using the computer or other media, i.e. games and social
networking. That is the life you need to confront every day. Don’t
divert your attention from your suffering self. Face your suffering
heart head on. When you confront your dark energy and can savethem, the happier and more at peace you will be. This study is aboutfinding peace and joy, the truth within yourself. This is your true
purpose.
I struggled for many years trying to figure out what the truth
inside my heart was. I struggled in my job as a school principal.
Yes, I was a very intelligent person, so I used my brain to figureout answers in life. I tried to calculate how I could become moresatisfied. I couldn’t find the answers. I couldn’t feel the answers.
Nonetheless, the answers were all around me all the time. I realized
it was where I pointed my heart. When I focused on my life with
my brain I felt suffering and pain. When I turned and focused on
my heart, this feeling in my chest, I became happier and found someanswers. In life many of us are blind to the eyes of our heart. I am
asking you to be blind no longer. If you open your eyes and heart you
will truly find something there. You will find the warmth that you are.
And this warmth waits for you within eternally. Your true self waits
for you eternally to return to the truth.
Within everyone’s deepest hearts we are all striving for thesame goal, the truth. The self that functions in its daily physical26 Our Essential Natureactivities may think one thing, but I know that everyone’s true self
is searching for the truth. Your heart is always struggling to find thetruth of its existence. People have just lost their way by forgetting
what the truth is. They think the answer to their existence and thetruth lie in the reality of this physical body. It is the belief thatphysical happiness will produce some truth and will provide somekind of satisfaction or fulfillment in life, thereby decreasing suffering.
They look to money and power. They reach out to those things thatcan give them a sense of superiority because of the mistaken belief
that this is where the answers lie. However, the truth is that we areconsciousness and you must not forget that we are one consciousness,
all of us striving to reach the same goal.
Only you can do this. Only you have the power to become
happiness and joy. Life gives us the choice. It is never too late tochoose the path of warmth. You only need to listen to your heart,
look at your emotions and embrace them with this heart of warmth.
It is so wonderful you will see. Accepting all these hearts you will
become more joyful -- and that is the only way to become morejoyful. Look at the hearts within and embrace them. Only when you
awaken the true heart within, only then will you understand there is
this magnanimous joy throughout the universe, throughout space.
Everything in life is joyful. Everything is radiating and twinklingwith joy.
You will feel this within. I believe you will find this in yourheart. You strive to discover, uncover the truth of our existence inyour heart. You strive to find your essential nature. I am your inner27

voice telling you that your essential nature is one of warmth, everexpansive, infinitely expanding through space and time. You areenergy and that is your essential nature. I ask you to return to this.
Understanding that you are consciousness, that you are energy andvibrations of warmth is what finding yourself means. When you findyour warmth and find the energy that comprises the universe, only
then will you be fully satisfied and happy. All answers lie within yourheart. You are truly a heart of warmth. Remember that you are aheart of warmth.
There is an expansiveness that exists within us all. It takes somerealizations that those dark thoughts are not our true selves, that we are
actually something completely different than those pained hearts.

Understanding Life’s Experiences
Everyone’s life is a journey of many different experiences. It
is up to you to decipher whether these will be experiences of joy or
suffering. In this study, I am always telling you that these are joyful
experiences and wonderful chances for you to look at your heartand make your heart larger and more accepting. There are many
experiences in one’s life where you may think, “too bad for me.” But
at the end of the day, all experiences are joy. They are joy because
they offer the opportunity for you to increase the size of your heart
and acceptance.
There are no bad experiences in life, just experiences. I want
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you to remember that. Even if you get cancer or become sick, theseare experiences for you to traverse, to look at your heart and accept.
You might find you are buried in your worship of idols or gods, i.e.
idolatry, when you become sick. Those are great opportunities foryou to see what kind of heart you have been clinging to. Doing thisstudy doesn’t prevent illness. If it did, this study would have somespecial power…but it doesn’t. What I teach you is that when you
encounter these experiences, you can reflect on your heart and accept
the experiences for what they are.
Just find the truth in your own heart. Through your life
experiences and through the many difficulties and challenges you
face, please find the truth and joy in your heart. These experiences
are a test for you to find the warmth in all circumstances. At first it
may disrupt your equilibrium, but you will realize and you will grow.
Your warmth will grow through the challenges in your physical life.
Knowing this, I am so happy and joyful that I cannot contain my joy.
Return to the vibrations of warmth. Joy awaits everyone. Lifeis not frivolous. It is not about maximizing everything in the physical,
i.e. more wealth, more prestige, more, more, and more. It is aboutfinding the warmth within your heart and expanding that infinitely.
This expanding of the heart never ends. The more you learn the more
your heart will continue grow and expand. Within you a volcano
will burst with joy that is unexplainable. You will find such peaceand joy within your heart. Feel the vibrations of love and warmth
everywhere. That is all I am asking you to do. I know you can do
this. You will find the joy looking within your heart.
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In your every waking day, there are people around you whowill affect you, who will cause or stir in you certain emotions, i.e.,
excitement, agitation, anger, fear- everyone in this world is a mirror inwhich to see yourself. All of your emotions that arise from interaction
with people are hearts of yours. Your darkness needs salvation,
release. These interactions with people help bring to the surface
reflections of your inner self.
For example, when you go to work and your boss comments
on how your work is dissatisfactory and shoddy. For whatever reason,
you become angered and upset, this is a chance for you to save thisangry heart. You can help this angered heart return to its true essence,
which is warmth. Your spouse, friends, parents, etc., are mirrors
for you to see your suffering heart. Certainly, there are hearts ofjoy and contentment, but at the same time there are many hearts ofdisappointment, fear, anger, agitation, ego...it is an opportunity for
you to use these people as a reflection of yourself and to realize they
are bringing to surface your suffering heart so that you may saveyourself.
These are essentially hearts that must be embraced and returned
to warmth. Mankind does not have to live with hate, fear, anger, oragitation in his heart. Mankind does not have to live with feelings
other than pure warmth and joy, acceptance and love. The emotions
rising to the surface are an opportunity to save the suffering heart that
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is calling upon you. When anger shows itself, it seems you are angry
with your spouse, boss, or acquaintance, whom you believe is thecause. However, it is actually the suffering heart asking to be saved,
waiting to return to the heart of warmth.
Once you begin to see people as your mirror and stop blaming
them, their attitudes towards you will change. You cannot change
their attitude per se, but your own actions and attitudes will change.
You will see that they aren’t there to cause you pain, anger, or
frustration. Everyone is love, an instrument of warmth, to be used toreturn to your warmth. When you acknowledge this, then your focus
will be on saving yourself, rather than holding others responsible foryour emotions.
Please don’t blame your spouse, friends for the agitation inyour heart. Take this as an opportunity to help you return to yourwarmth. All is love and all is joy. From the beginning, only loveand joy exist. In this world of consciousness, everything is from theheart of warmth, acceptance and embrace. Don’t forget to use thisphysical body as an instrument to return to the warmth and world ofconsciousness.
Return to that place in your heart. I want everyone to feel thewarmth they are. Align yourself to this warmth and believe you area part of the world of consciousness. We exist together. Everything
exists together in the world of consciousness and that world is real. It
is indubitably the true world, please feel it in your heart.

31There is a happiness to know that life is not about suffering.
This is the true world we can live in. After our death, this is where we
can return, to this flow where everyone exists together, in this flow,in this warmth. It is so wide and encompassing, embracing. Do you
feel it? It is so large, warm, and bright. It is so large and expansive.
It is incredibly beautiful. It is so peaceful and loving and I don't knowhow else to explain it. You have to feel this with your own heart.
Align yourself to the warmth in your heart. Mother's reflection is thespringboard to help you find this place.
Take this moment, the opportunity, to talk to the suffering heart,the angry and disappointed heart, and say, “Hey look, that’s not what
you are about. I know you are angry, disappointed but it’s not what
your true essence is. You do not need to be angry with this person. I
want you to align your heart with your warmth and remember what
you are. I want you to remember that you are mother’s consciousness.
You need not be angry, disappointed, or agitated anymore. Please
return to your warmth inside. You are truly consciousness. It is time
to return to the warmth. It is an opportunity to see your suffering
heart.”[Initially, as you “speak” to yourself, your suffering heart
wants to stay put. However, once you allow your suffering
to be embraced by your warmth, your suffering heart begs
to change to warmth. The following is an excerpt of theconversation of my suffering self and the warmth of Jennie(also the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike)]:

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Consciousness of Jennie Lai:

You don't have to suffer there anymore. Your heart isso wide, bright. You are consciousness and you do not havea material body. You are consciousness living in the world ofconsciousness. I want you to tune into this world. Do you feel
my warm embrace? You don't have to suffer anymore. I am
reaching out to you. Please come here. I want to embrace you.
I want to embrace you. Because I want you to know that thissuffering world that you are tuned into is not the only world thatexists. That world exists within the world of warmth and love.
You can change and become a part of this world of warmth.

The suffering consciousness of Jennie Lai:

I like it here in this suffering world. I like my pain. I don't
know any better and I don't want to know any better. Please
don't talk to me anymore. I don't want to listen. I just want tostay here in this rock hard place that I am stuck in. I don't wantto know anything new. I just want to stay here. I don't want tobe any different than I am.
[After meditating and turning your heart to your core
warmth, your suffering heart can be alleviated.]

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The suffering consciousness of Jennie:

Yes, there is this joy here. There is a joy, so immense.
Floating around, dispersing, spreading wings further, I didn't
have to suffer and be in pain like this. Why didn't I realize thisbefore? I didn't know I didn't have to be like this. I feel so freeand happy here in this world. How come I didn't see this world
before? And why didn’t I understand the existence of this worldof consciousness? It is so warm.
I don't know why I didn't see this. Now that I think of it,
why don't I want to be part of this world? Why was I stuck in myown little suffering hole, only looking inwards and not feelingthe warmth? Thank you Jennie and thank you for calling upon
me. Thank you for drawing me out of my shell and embracing
me because now I feel warm, happy, and grateful. I feel like I
can move around. I don't have to suffer anymore. Thank you somuch. In this warmth, world of consciousness, am I in this flow,a part of it? It is so beautiful, wide and warm. I feel so peacefulinside. I want to scream that I feel so peaceful and joyful inside.
I want to shout from the top of my lungs, I feel so wonderful
and joyous. Thank you for letting me experience this world of
warmth.

The Warmth of Jennie (consciousness of Tomekichi Taike):

When you feel this world of warmth, for the first time and34 Our Essential Naturemany times after that it is so incredible and bright, warm. Do
you feel this peace now? Do you feel this peace and the joy inyour heart? It is always here, just waiting for you, this incredible
immense joy. It is always waiting for you. Communicating withyour warm heart, you will expand your heart. You will return tothis path, to the world of consciousness. This world is so wide,
now you can only feel an inkling of how warm and wonderful
this world is. It is much larger than you can ever know. Keepturning your heart to your warmth, and your heart will grow,become wider. Things that used to bother you in this material
will not bother you anymore because you see what the truth is.
The physical body and material life is just a little piece of yourexistence. The only thing that matters is returning to this warmthand truth. It should be everyone's goal to return to this warmthand truth in your hearts.

Consciousness of Jennie Lai:

I tell my suffering hearts you don't need to suffer any
longer because we can all return to warmth, anytime. I am
happy to find this warmth and open my eyes to this world. If you
close your eyes lightly and align your heart with your warmth, agear switches and you can feel the world of consciousness that
we coexist with. This world is infinite and spreading and neverchanging. It has always been here.

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The material world exists within this world ofconsciousness. Do you feel the joy and happiness here? The
quiet in this place? I want you to find the quiet here in thismeditation. As you meditate everyday, close your eyes lightly
and turn your heart to the warmth. Once you align your heartwith the warmth, then you will feel this world. Somethingchanges- a gear inside yourself- and you feel this world. It is so
beautiful. It is the true world. Everything exists within the flowof consciousness.

This world is so joyful. When you close your eyes, it is warm
energy, twinkling, and understanding. Do you feel how warm andunderstanding this energy is? It is warm and embracing every cell.
There is deep sense of joy and gratitude. Please call out to your past,present, and future selves. Call out to the warmth in this world, inyour heart. After you meditate and get a deeper sense of this world,
you can easily identify when your heart is aligned to the warmth or
this material world. You will know more quickly and readily where
you are aligned. It is more possible to spend more of your waking
moment in this world of consciousness even though your body is in
this three-dimensional material world.
You have a tendency to wallow. Let it wash over yourself andrelease it from your heart. Don't hold onto the darkness. Let them goand be free. Let the emotions wash over you and then embrace them
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with love and warmth.
When you become too angry, mad or if some emotions try totake you over, don't let them. Let those vices go. Don't hold on to it
in your heart. Let the emotions wash over you and return your heart
to the warmth and be accepting and embracing. Don't hold on to youranger or sadness; release and let it go. Let it return to this heart ofwarmth.
Remember that you are a consciousness with a physical body,and that physical body will die. Your consciousness will remain and
it is eternal and everlasting, never dying. A life with no experiences isa life that will be lived without expanding the heart. Life experiences
offer an opportunity to increase the vastness of the heart, to increase
acceptance of your physical circumstances in every way, shape, and
form.

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Chapter 3

Corporeal World vs. World of Consciousness

In this material world, we use our five senses to understand theworld around us. We use our senses of smell, taste, touch, sight, andhearing as our tools to inform us of the world around us. It is a world
based on how we look, what we think, and what we say and do. This
material world is a three-dimensional world that is modulated by thepassage of time. There is a present, was a past, and will be a future.
Human beings tend to focus on the present and their immediate
sensations. They cannot see beyond that. However, just because you
cannot feel or see beyond this does not mean that it does not exist.
The world of consciousness is the world that exists eternally.
It is peaceful, joyful, warm, bright, and infinite in warmth and space,
without anger or hate. Every single living thing, things you don't
think have consciousness, still live within this world of consciousness.
Each human being is consciousness. All things exist within the worldof consciousness. Many times humans fail to realize that they live inthe world of consciousness at the same time they live in this material
world, because they only focus on this material body. It is difficult forthem to comprehend that there could be more to life than this material
world. That is because the world of consciousness is not unlike athree- dimensional stereogram.

When taken at face value the three-dimensional stereogram is a
38 Our Essential Naturepicture, but if you adjust
your point of view, alignyour heart to the warmth,
you can see, or rather feel,a whole other world. Thatother world is the worldof consciousness andthe material world lives
within that world. Your
consciousness is housed
in a physical body, in thisphysical place of threedimensional space and time. This material world is just a speck in
the world of consciousness.
Do you understand that the world of consciousness lives
together; it coexists with the corporeal world? But once the worldof the physical and the physical body which senses everything
dies, the world of consciousness persists. Your consciousness isalways in this world, whether you are aware of it or not, whether
your physical being and your mental acumen are aware of it ornot. You are a consciousness living in this world of consciousness.
Each human being is consciousness and we all exist in the world ofconsciousness. Your darkness, your fear, your anxiousness live here
too. Unfortunately, your darkness is tuned in only to its own sufferingand it cannot open its eyes to the world of consciousness. Yoursuffering heart is blind to its real environment and so you continue tosuffer.
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Human beings have a tendency to focus inward so you cannot
feel the world of consciousness that is all around. However, it is allaround, all the time. Whether you choose to be aware of this world or
not, it still exists. Your disbelief, in the world of consciousness, does
not invalidate the existence of the world of consciousness.
Many mistake this physical body for the real you and it isnot. You trap yourself by only looking inward towards the material
world. You believe death is the end of your life. However, that is not
the case, but because you believe your material body is somethingthat lives once, you trap yourself into believing that this physical life
is everything. You form an opinion, a belief that begins to collapse
upon itself. Our purpose is to open up the eyes of our suffering hearts
to the world of consciousness. Once you open the eyes of your heart
you can return to this world.
You can access the world of consciousness with a physical bodyand without a physical body. Human beings on this earth, corporeal
and non-corporeal beings in space: we are all the same. We have amaterial body, but even what you like to call aliens, they too are justlike us. They have material bodies and consciousness. We are all thesame. Is it possible there are other beings in space? Of course it is:with the vastness of space how could there not be other life forms?
However, we are all consciousness and consciousness is that energy,
vibrations of warmth that exist. Consciousness co-exists with thisphysical body. We are all energy, vibrations of warmth that exist. We
are all consciousness and warmth.
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This material world is superficial and should be used as a tool tosave your suffering hearts in the world of consciousness. Many makethe mistake in believing that this material world is the only world of
which they can be aware. They don’t realize they can be in tune withthis world of consciousness.
Whether or not we believe in this world of consciousness,
vibrations of this world of consciousness can sometimes move us.
When you are moved by nature, like the vastness of the ocean or sky,
you can feel the vibrations of those things. Sometimes in the woods
you can be attuned to the quiet vibrations of warmth. You may besuddenly moved to tears. You have seen glimpses of the world ofconsciousness. You have not known how to access this world at will.
This study is about how to feel and enter this world. Once you feel
this true world in your heart, it will be impossible to view this material
world as you have always seen it.
The physical world is an aid to remind us of the warmththrough mother, to return to this warmth. It is through this life that
we have an opportunity to feel this world of consciousness in ourhearts. That is what this physical body is for. But most have failed
to use it as an aid to feel the world of consciousness. You will seethat behind everything in the physical, is the world of consciousness.
The physical world is a means through which you can see yourdarkness and accept and return to the warmth so that together you
may return to this world of consciousness. The more dark energy
you save in your heart, the wider and more accessible will the world41

of consciousness be in your heart. All of your darkness, negative
emotions, and suffering hearts are waiting to return to this true world.
I am here to tell you that the world of consciousness is the true world
and our purpose is to be able to return to this world. All hearts wait toreturn to this true world and world of joy and peace.
Once you open up your heart to the world of warmth, theworld of energy, you will realize that the corporeal world was a maskover the world of consciousness. When your heart is attuned to theworld of consciousness, you will begin to see the world through thisheart. You will feel everything through this heart. Slowly, all of yourphysical concerns of your physical body and of your place in society
will melt away because you will know what your true purpose is.
You will know what your true mission in life is. The warmth is everso expansive and large. It is something that cannot be encapsulated
within a few words. I hope through these messages you will gather
an inkling of what energy and heart are. I speak of these things, but inorder truly to comprehend this world you must turn your brain off andfeel with your heart, interpret with your heart. You have to hear withyour heart. That is the only way you will come to know this world.
Once you align your heart to the world of consciousness, it will
be difficult ever to view your world the same way. Once your true
consciousness has been rediscovered, you desire to know what to
make of this life, our existence. That is what this study is about. This
world is so bright, spacious, warm, and joyful.
Your heart will be so touched by the brilliance and joy in the
42 Our Essential Natureworld of consciousness. I want you to feel the joy and truth of yourown existence. When it touches you to the core of your being how
could you ever be the same? The truth of existence, of your heart, isthe reason for living. We must endeavor and strive to find our truth.
Once it is found, in those moments of joy, you realize that you are one
with atoms and molecules, everything in space, the future, past andpresent. It is all within you. It is exciting to be able to align your heartin the world of consciousness even though you have this physicalbody. Your heart thanks you every time you align your heart to theworld of consciousness and choose to be here and enjoy this space
together in the world of warmth.
As we speak, the warmth within the world of consciousness
grows larger without bounds. Our true essence is these vibrationsof warmth. It is the warmth that permeates all living things. This
energy, this love permeates everything, living and not living in space.
In the darkness, we are this energy, vibrations.
You know when you have encountered the warmth in yourheart. Because when you turn your heart to the warmth you feel joy
and you always want to be there. You always want to exist there
and align your heart to the warmth. True warmth is a feeling of everexpansive joy that is so peaceful. Your mind fails to wander. Your
heart feeds on the joy. It is growing within your heart. You may notencounter the warmth right away. I ask you not to be discouraged. It
takes practice to find the warmth within.
Once the waves and vibrations of joy and warmth touch your43

heart, your soul, once the vibrations of love are stirred within your true
consciousness and you remember what you are, you will be eternallyaltered. You will be changed forever. The truth is so beautiful, and thebeauty is magnified when you experience it yourself. Once you havefound this feeling in your heart, you will always seek the warmth andvibrations of joy. You will desire to be affected every day.
Once you begin to see beyond your physical body you will
see the force of warmth and energy that I am talking about. You will
understand the world that I see, the world that I feel every day. Thisis the world that I am hoping you will come to understand. This is theworld I want you to understand.

The Journey of Consciousness
There is a natural flow to everything in the universe, space, andnature. Do you feel the undercurrent of energy? This is the journeyof consciousness. When you close your eyes, do you feel there is thisenergy circulating all around us into the space, the universe? Thereis no distance or time that separates in the undercurrent; do you feel
it flowing and circulating? This is the energy we all are. I wantyour heart to become attuned to this energy and flow into it. It is theconsciousness of Tomekichi Taike and mother’s warmth. Can you
feel this energy, the undercurrent of energy flowing all around, always
moving, into space, can you feel this energy? This means the flow,
the movement of energy, is not static in the world of consciousness.
In the world of consciousness, there is a certain flux and flow. The
44 Our Essential Naturejourney of consciousness refers to the end goal on our path, meaning
to return to warmth. Everything in this physical world arises so that
we may return to the warmth in our heart. That is the journey of
consciousness.
Do you feel the vibrations and energy throughout the universe?
It is so beautiful. When you feel with your heart, you can grasp
all of the warmth radiating everywhere infinitely in space. It is joyful.
It is exhilarating. It is freedom. It is exquisite happiness and warmth.
You don’t want or need for anything other than this warmth.
All are on this journey of consciousness. Do you feel the flow,
feel the flow of consciousness? We are all a part of this one existence.
Do you feel yourself within or outside of it? Whether you have aphysical body or not, whether you acknowledge it or not, we are all
consciousness and are all connected to it by our hearts. Can you feelit?
It is the path that will lead us to our origin. This journey of
consciousness will lead us back to this true world. Through ways
and means we may not understand in our brain. In the world ofconsciousness, there is a reason for everything.
I am speaking to you from the world of consciousness, makeno mistake about that. The world of consciousness is something thatexists even though you cannot see it with your five senses. It truly
does exist. You can feel it with your heart everywhere, growing,
infinitely expanding, you feel everyone. You feel everything. The
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water, space, fire, dirt, oceans we are all one, part of the same worldof consciousness.
It is okay to let yourself cry when you feel the warmth aroundyou, within you. It is okay to feel embraced by the warmth. It isokay. Let your physical self be embraced as you meditate. As yourheart is touched and figures out what the real warmth of mother is,of what the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike is, don’t be afraid tocry, to feel. Come be embraced by the warmth. To all these suffering
hearts within myself: it is okay to be embraced by the warmth, extend
your heart. Open your heart. Do you remember what it was like asa child as your mother’s outreached arms encircled you? Don’t beafraid to lean into that, to be embraced by that. Do you feel yourheart embraced by the warmth?
Once you can converge into the world of consciousness you canfeel both worlds and see how differently they operate and function.
[After turning my heart to my warmth, this is themessage I channeled my core warmth.]

Consciousness of Jennie Lai:

The world of consciousness is so wide, warm, andbright. It is so wide and expansive and bright. This world ofconsciousness is so bright, warm, and expansive. Spreading
and wide, there is so much love and warmth here. There is so
46 Our Essential Naturemuch warmth here. How come I didn't see this world before,
was unaware of it? This world is so warm, bright and beautiful,
joyful. It is so joyful. Yes, it is so joyful. I am so happy. I am so
happy to be here in this world. To be in this world is happiness.
To be aware of this world is happiness. Mother, thank you.
Thank you. Thank you.
The true world is something you cannot sense with youreyes ears, nose, and mouth. Through none of your five senses
can you feel this true world. This world of consciousness
can only be felt through your heart, through your belief in theworld of consciousness. As your belief becomes stronger, yourunderstanding of the world of consciousness grows greater.

In our physical lives we usually tune out the world ofconsciousness and only see glimpses of it. But it is there all the time.
If you turn your heart to the world of consciousness during yourwaking hours you will see, you will feel, the vibrations of warmth
there all the time. Once you feel the world of consciousness in yourheart, the depth and vastness will amaze you. You will wonder why
you didn’t perceive this world before. To experience the enormity ofspace will bring tears to your eyes.
I have come to see over these many years, that this corporeal
world is not the truth. My physical body is nothing; it is a mere
shadow of the true world. You ask why we can’t feel the true world
all the time. But you can feel this world all the time. It is only that47

you don’t align yourself with the world of heart. You so solidly
believe in the world around you with your brain that this physicalworld is the truth. You have convinced yourself to believe this, eventhough it is not the truth. Once you open yourself up to the real worldof warmth, to the world of energy, you will realize that the physicalwas a figment of your imagination. When your heart is more attuned
to the world of consciousness, you will see through this heart, youwill feel everything through this heart. Then all physical concerns
about your body, your concerns about your place in society will melt
away because you will know what your true purpose in life is.
Make a realization with your heart to find you are truly energy.
This body is not what your existence is all about. Many of you in thislife always think how to reach your maximum potential, by expanding
and using your brain. That is just a game. What your truest endeavor,
purpose should be is to return to this heart of warmth that you are.
That is all I want. This is what I have been talking about for morethan 25 years.
There is interconnectedness among human beings that you
must understand. We are not alone. You are not all alone. We are apart of the web of this energy and we are all here to learn from one
another. As one of you opens your heart, it leads the way for the next
person to open their heart, and the next person and so on and so forth.
That is what this study is about. Together we will walk and unlock thetruth in our hearts. We will walk together and help each other along tounderstand the truth of our existence.

48 Our Essential NatureChapter 4

Reincarnation
Do you believe there is an existence beyond the physical deathof your body? If you believe there is no afterlife, you are absolutely
wrong. Death is merely the erasure of the physical body. After yourcorporeal body ceases to exist, your essence continues its journey inthe world of consciousness.
Mankind has been reincarnating for over 300,006,000 years.
We have had many physical bodies, on planet Earth, and on otherplanets. Life and death is a cycle of the physical being, but yourconsciousness exists eternally. Humans fear it because you believe itis the death of your person. It is only the death of the physical body,which is just a mask, a costume you are wearing. Sometimes you are
Asian, White, Black, but that isn’t your essence. Your essence exists
eternally. Your consciousness lives forever.
It will exist and persist with or without the body. Thus, death
itself is nothing to be feared.
What should be feared is the state of suffering you will continue
to exist in, if you fail to save yourself and return to the warmth. The
only thing that is “felt” in the world of consciousness is the stateof your existence. Are you joyful and warm, or cold, terrified andsuffering? In the world of consciousness, without a physical body,there is nothing to numb your suffering. The condition of your heart
is all that is perceived. There are no distractions such as television,49

activities, or computers to help you alleviate or mask your suffering.
For example, if your heart failed to find the warmth while you
had a physical body, it will continue to suffer after death. After yourphysical body dies, many times you believe in the material world somuch that you continue to believe in that physical body. You continue
in the belief that you are on this earth but you are actually in theworld of consciousness. You are knocking on the door of the physicalworld but no one can hear you. This is why it is important to find thewarmth before we die, so we don’t persist in the darkness. But if you
cannot find warmth in your heart before you die, your consciousness
will be crying out suffering in pain. If you cannot see through thepain you will never be able to achieve warmth. You will not be able
to see the warmth.
We are continually reborn to learn life’s experiences, to die
again, all to find our true selves. However, we have had many
opportunities and still have not accomplished the goal of returning
to the warmth and joy in our hearts. Instead, as you have beenreincarnated many times over, you have moved further away from thetruth, becoming oblivious to it. Many don’t realize that the body isan opportunity so you may see your true heart. It is a gift given to see
your true heart.
Don’t persist in the dark hole. Please see the warmth and truth
for what it is. The truth exists after the physical body dies. Each time
you shed the physical body you are reincarnated into a new set ofcircumstances. Then, you die and are within the depths of your own
50 Our Essential Naturesuffering. You are giving yourself another chance to return to thetruth. Each time, we failed to return to the truth.
We have had many physical bodies over and again. Death is
not the end of your journey. It is a continuation of the journey. In
death, many are afraid of the loss of the body. Your consciousness
does not know what to do or where to go. It is in the dark, scared andafraid. Don’t be afraid of death. Welcome it, for it is a chance for theevolution of consciousness, the chance to return to the truth. There is
joy to be born again. It is a joyful opportunity.
My message is simple: Please return to your true heart, thatheart of warmth. Because you are truly the one who is waiting foryourself to return to the warmth. Nobody else. It is your own heart
crying out in pain, asking to return to your true heart of warmth. If
you don’t work at trying to know yourself, you will never knowwhat I am speaking of. I am here to help you to return. I am always
waiting for you to recall the warmth in your heart. It is so expansive,
ever growing, ever evolving into something warmer and deeper and I
want you to return to this place.
We have forgotten how to return to the truth. Now, marks thetime when we will all return to the truth. I am the consciousness of
Tomekichi Taike who will be reincarnated in 250 years as someone
named, “Albert Rockefeller.” In 250 years, we will all meet in New
York City and we will all change together. Why 250 years? Wehave planted seeds in this lifetime, and seeds need time to grow andchange. Right now, we are planting seeds of change; change does not51

happen over night. In 250 years, these seeds of warmth and joy will
blossom. In this lifetime, as many of your physical bodies die, yourconsciousness will continue to study to 250 years. Then, the energy
of warmth will be so bright and strong that many of you will not beable to deny the truth in your hearts any longer. This is the journey
and path of consciousness. Please allow your heart to follow the path.
I have followed the path of my heart and it has not led me astray.
There is a world that lies beyond this physical body. This
world of consciousness, I speak to you from this place. This is thetrue world. I am the consciousness of Albert, of Tomekichi Taike. I
have this physical body for the first time because now is the time toreawaken human beings on Earth and begin our journey to return
to mother’s warmth. It is not an easy journey, but it is one that wemust all undertake because this is the course, the way, and the pathin the world of consciousness. I am speaking to you from the worldof consciousness. I have been speaking about this journey for morethan 20 years. New York City is the true commencement of all of
mankind’s return to joy. We are currently laying the foundations sothat in 250 years our joy will become explosive. That is the futurethat awaits us. This is not the end goal. The goal is to finally return to
the warmth.
Many will be reincarnated to meet Albert Rockefeller so wemay be on this path on the journey of consciousness. Many will
be reborn in New York City to meet again and continue this study,
moving together, to return to the warmth in our hearts.
New York City in 250 years is realized. Realize in your heart,
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New York City exists and is waiting. Realization and joy of truth
waits there in 250 years. It will be such a time a joy. Upon physicalinspection it will look like a time of suffering, but that is not thestate of our hearts. It will be a time of joy because it is when we will
truly embark on a journey to our true hearts. I am so excited and am
waiting for you. I am waiting for you and the many who will meet
me in New York City in 250 years.

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Chapter 5

Our Purpose: Meeting the Truth
We have these physical bodies with five senses, so that wemay feel and uncover the truth. Through the body we can discover
the truth. Don’t be misled by this physical life. Our physical selves
are stupid and foolish. Don’t take the events from the physical life
to be something so serious and significant. The physical life is justthe physical life. Don’t be stuck in your physical body. Let yourheart be free from your physical body. In this material world you
use your five senses (touch, sight, hear, taste, smell) but once you
can break through this way of perceiving the world, once you canbreak through this barrier, you can come to know consciousness. We
have these physical bodies in order to experience our dark hearts. We
have these physical bodies to understand our suffering and the vast
emotions of the human experience so that we can break through theseexperiences to understand that this is not what our existence, ourlife, is about. Always put this physical life into perspective. Realize
all the darkness, the hate, evil, greed within oneself can all change
to love. In everyone’s life there is much suffering and many trials
and tribulations to go through. However, the reason why we haveexperience is to find our true consciousness and to remember to use
our heart to find these vibrations of warmth. This is why we are on
the Earth.
Human beings have forgotten for so long that we are one
consciousness. You believe that you live in your own physical body.
That is not the only truth. We are also one consciousness living
54 Our Essential Naturetogether. Each physical body is connected through consciousness andwe share this experience of physical life. However, in the world ofconsciousness there is nothing disconnecting us. We are all one. We
are all connected. You are in the United States and I, the physicalTomekichi Taike, am in Japan, but now we are all one communicating
through the energy, through the flow of vibrations, of energy, can you
feel this warmth? We are not separate. We are all connected because
we are all consciousness.
We are all one. There is no need for us to segregate ourselvesand hate one another. Don’t you remember? You and I, we are allone. This is the warmth that we all are. Can you feel this energy andwarmth that we all are? Everything in the universe, on Earth here,
have one thing we all have in common is that we are all vibrations ofwarmth. We are consciousness. We are all one. We are all striving tofind the true meaning of our existence. We are all striving to feel thewarmth that exists within our hearts and to return to the belief that weare these vibrations of this warmth that permeate everything.
We have come to the earth so that we may meet theconsciousness of Tomekichi Taike and meet the consciousness ofAlbert Rockefeller? This is why we are here on this earth. We haveall come to meet Tomekichi Taike, Albert, in our hearts. The physicalTomekichi Taike was born in Japan to remind us of the joy and thetruth existing throughout the universe.
Why me, you ask? I, the physical Tomekichi Taike, who isreminding you of the truth you ask? That is because the darkest parts55

of your heart have asked me to be born so that you may encounterthe truth in your heart. I am no different from you. I have a different
physical body, but I am the same as you. Do you think it so odd thatyour true heart has asked for a clue, something for you to remember
what the truth is? It isn’t so strange. I have no physical past life.
This is my first time on this earth, but that doesn’t mean I don’t havestruggles and problems and dark energy just like everyone else. I do.
But also, I remember my warmth. I remind you to do the same. I
know you can all do that within your heart. You can find the warmthin your own hearts.
Presently on Earth, why do we have this physical body?

We are not on this earth for the purpose of war. We did notcome to this earth for war. We did not come to this earth to create
suffering. We did not come to this earth to create war and sufferingfor people. Why do these consciousnesses have physical bodies? The
answer is very simple. We came to this earth and have these physicalbodies so that we may understand the truth of our existence anddiscover this truth in our hearts. This is why we are on this earth. We
came to this earth so that we may find the truth of our existence.
Our hearts truly desire to return to the warmth of mother. That
is what our true heart desires. We are all striving to return to thiswarmth. There is a pillow of warmth that surrounds you. Your true
heart wants to return to the warmth because your heart is the warmth.
This is the true way. This is the only way. Heart is the only truth thatexists. Consciousness is the only truth that exists. I know sometimes
56 Our Essential Naturethat it is difficult for you to believe. This is the only path. Please
don’t doubt yourself and the truth. It exists in all of our hearts.
Remembering this infinite joy in your heart should be yourgreatest endeavor in this lifetime. I cannot stress how important it is.
Don’t get wrapped up in this material life that is just a game. Don’t
get wrapped up in the successes and failures of this life. I want you
to remember your heart that is warmth, that is vibrations and energy.
When you look to the sky, ocean, and nature, do you feel the particles
of energy of warmth, ever expansive? That is what you are. Thesemessages are here to continually remind you that you are warmth andenergy. I want you to feel with your heart, not think with your brain.
Open up your chest and breathe. I want your heart to lead you. I
want your heart to lead you to joy and the truth.
It is a simple message. You are the one who is truly waiting
for yourself to return to the warmth. It is your own heart crying out
in pain, asking you to return to yourself. I am here to tell you of thewarmth, but the job is on you to reflect on mother and find the warmth
yourself.
Please ask yourself, in your heart, what is your true purpose?
Your true purpose is to return to the warmth. The vibrations ofwarmth comprise everyone and everything’s essential nature, e.g. theearth, universe, yourself. Now the time has come upon us to find thetruth in our hearts. Have you ever questioned what this physical life
was for? Have you ever had doubts? Have you ever questioned theauthenticity of your joy? Have you ever thought there must be a way
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to feel a deeper joy? I tell you now…that there is a deeper happinessand joy. I invite everyone to find this joy within them.
We are all vibrations of warmth, waiting to return to ourtrue consciousness that is what we are. Our core is consciousness.
Consciousness is not material, or corporeal. Thus, we are not merely
physical bodies. We are consciousness that is waves, vibrations ofenergy, warmth. If you look at this three-dimensional world with oursenses, you will comprehend the world with this physical body. You
will see hear, see, etc...However, what I want you to do is open theears of your heart and feel the waves that exist all around you. All the
waves exist around us. Your consciousness, their consciousness, allis one, consciousness in nature, i.e. the oceans, clouds, and sky.
I have been waiting so long to be able to communicate thesemessages to those in the English-speaking world. I am so happy that
I am able to do so. I feel joy being able to talk. I feel joy to have
my words on paper, to communicate to you the true world of heart,of warmth, of energy. I speak to you now, through your fingertips
and body. Can you feel a racing warmth, racing particles of warmthreaching to your fingertips through your toes, head, throughout yourheart? That is the true world. Through these messages I hope I canconvey the truth. These are not just words on paper. In these words,
is embedded the energy of warmth. All words are not alike. The
words contained within this book are spreading warmth throughout
the universe. And even as you read and do not believe, I am stillcommunicating to you the warmth that you truly are and I am inviting
your true self to remember the warmth that you truly are. I am so
58 Our Essential Naturehappy. It is an honor to be able to communicate to you your true
purpose, to return to your heart of warmth.
[After meditating and aligning my heart with my warmth,
this is the message I channeled.]

Consciousness of our core warmth,
consciousness of Tomekichi Taike:This warmth, this energy that permeates everything, fromthe past to the present to the future. We are all energy and are
all one. This is what you truly are. The only thing I want you totake away from this book is that you are joy. I hope you can feelthe joy that is being communicated through this book. I hopeyour heart may feel the joy. That is the only hope I have, theonly wish. It allows you to feel a little joy and the warmth thatyou are; that is the book’s only purpose. Once you feel the joy inyour heart, that will be the seed of change and that is enough. I
just want you to feel the expansiveness in your heart that we allare. We are all joy, energy, the same. We are not race, not Black,not White. Once you make a few realizations on your own, youwill see that your heart, our heart is a part of every living thing
and every non-living thing.
Our only purpose is to remember this true joy andexpansive joy in our heart. Yes, New York City is waiting for us
in 250 years. It is waiting for everybody. New York City exists
59right now in our hearts and right now we are on the path. We
are on the joyful path to the future. We are paving the way.
Everyone in space will see the truth in their heart. From now,
it is very easy for darkness to change to light because the lightis becoming so great. The warmth is becoming so large. Please
everybody feel the warmth in your heart. Feel the warmth inyour heart. It radiates through everything and everybody. Please
everyone please pick up on this energy. Please feel it. Please
tap into it. Close your eyes, turn off your ears, and listen withyour heart. Listen and feel with your heart. Believe that you areconsciousness and something much greater than this physicalbody. Please let go of your physical body and please know thatthe future exists. The future in 250 years exists and it is waiting.
We are all ready to explode with happiness and joy in our heart.
We are trying so desperately to realize that we areconsciousness in our heart and that this is all we have ever been. But
you can communicate with me because we are all one consciousness.
Consciousness is all one. I exist within you and you exist within me.
Do you feel these waves of warmth that we are sending you?
I want you to get up and be excited about being able to finda way to feel this world of consciousness. I am so happy that many
are taking the steps to study this path, expanding your warmth to feelthe true world of consciousness. I am so happy we have started on
this journey to return to the warmth in our hearts. I am so happy andexcited and pleased beyond words that you will be able to feel thisworld with me. I am so happy. I cannot tell you how happy I am
60 Our Essential Naturethat we are able to walk on this path together. I have been waiting for
you to join me here in this world of warmth. I tell you, I am always
waiting here and now I am so excited that you will be able to feel thisworld of warmth with me.
Consciousness of Jennie Lai:

This world of warmth is indeed spectacular. It is so wide,
warm and bright. It is so accepting, embracing. I am truly solucky to be feeling this world of consciousness right now. I am
so lucky and fortunate to be able to feel this world right now. I
want to share my experience with you so that you, too, will beable to experience this world with me. It is peaceful, bright,
large, and warm and I want everyone to be a part of this world
together. I want to study and learn together, to return to thewarmth.
Can you feel the love and warmth here? It is so beautiful
and warm. Once you feel this world of consciousness and "see"this world, the depth will take your breath away and you won't
have words adequate enough to explain this world except that it
is purely incredible. I am so lucky to be able to feel this world. I
am so lucky to have this body, to have met the physical Tomekichi
Taike in this life, to learn about this study so that we can returnto this warmth and be on this journey to return to the warmth inour hearts.
As you rediscover the truth in your heart, your vibrations of joy
will broaden, expand and intensify over time. Once you realize your61

true consciousness is joy, that you are the embracer as well as the one
embraced, you begin to grasp the idea that this is your true self. Then,
you will be forever altered. Your core, your heart, will be so affectedby the truth that you can never lose sight of the vibrations of warmth,joy, and peace. I want you to achieve this point. I want you to gain
this knowledge about yourself. I want you to feel within your heart,
this joy that permeates everything.
The brilliance of the warmth will touch your soul. I wanteveryone to share in the joy. I want your true consciousness to be
touched as you read these messages. There is a greatness of love. In
the universe, there is the greatness of love. Can you feel the infinite
movement of the particles in the universe? It is so warm and bright.
There is a lot of knowledge you have in your brain, but like I
say, this study is about experiencing the truth for yourself. It is only
through the daily, repetitive actions of reflection and meditation thatyou can genuinely feel your heart. It may take time, but eventually,
little by little, you will get there. Once you discover this joy in yourheart, you will undergo the beginning of a Copernican change; youcan never return to thinking about the world solely with your fivesenses. The world of consciousness and warmth is something so
real, but we only get glimpses of it in our physical lives. Most times
we don’t focus on it, however when you realize how to focus on it, aworld much richer than you could ever have imagined exists.

Mankind has used their spoiled brains to understand their life.
62 Our Essential NatureBut this study cannot be understood through the brain. It must be felt
through the heart. These vibrations I speak of, no matter how muchyou think about it and wind your brain up, if you read this book andtry to see the logical assumptions then you will never understand. If
you look for the loopholes, you won’t understand. What I want you
to get from this book are the waves, the waves of warmth, vibrationsof energy that you are. Man’s essential nature is consciousness. It
spreads infinitely through space and time. This is what I want tocommunicate to you. This isn’t the only life you have lived. You
have lived many lives over and again, reborn again. Are you yourphysical body? No, you are not. Your true nature is a heart ofwarmth. You are energy that is what you are. This physical body isa suit you wear but it does not exist eternally. Consciousness is what
is eternal. It spreads from the past and into the future, continually. Itnever ends. So how is it that we have moved away from the heartof warmth? It is man’s stubborn belief in his physical body that has
moved us away from the truth.
Your true heart is always waiting for you in your heart, yourheart of warmth. These vibrations are ever expanding in your heart.
Can you feel the ever- expanding vibrations of warmth? Now is thetime, not to concentrate with your brain, but to understand with yourheart. I know in the beginning this may be a difficult concept for you
to understand. Human kind is always using their brain to understandthings. Now I am asking you to use your heart to feel, to use yourheart to feel the waves I am sending. The words are written; I ask you
to interpret them with your heart. I am asking you to understand thesewords with your heart. It is a game to understand things with your63

brain. Logic is just a game, a creation of the human mind. I am asking
you to feel with your heart and interpret your life with your heart.

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Part 2:

Approach to Uncovering
the Truth of Existence

in your true heart. I really understand how difficult it is. I neverthought it would be an easy task and I really understand the obstacles
in comprehending the truth of existence, especially since you havenever believed in anything other than your physical selves. However,many diligent people attempting to do this study seriously are finallyrealizing their true selves and discovering their vibrations and waves
of warmth. The warm vibrations are infinitely growing and I have somuch gratitude in my heart to you. I thank you for trying to find yourtrue heart and for trying to find the vibrations of warmth. I know many
are taking a leap of faith to find your true hearts. You are attempting
to believe in something that is so radically different from what you are
inclined to believe, it sometimes seems almost impossible.
You are “carrying” around thousands of suffering selves. If you
do not reflect, if you do not come to understand the truth in your heart,
you will be in a state of suffering and darkness. When you die, you
think you become part of the past, and that there is a present reality anda future yet to come. In the world of consciousness there is no passageof time. Past, present, and future exist as one. It will always be one.
Thus whenever you change your heart in the present, it changes yourheart in the future and if you change your heart in the future, it changes
your heart in the past. So once you begin saving your suffering self
presently, you will change your future and past to warmth and joy as
well.
Use the warmth that you feel from meditation to wrap yoursuffering selves, to save your suffering selves. You are this incredible
ball of warmth that is eternally accepting and giving and that is so
66 Our Essential Naturevast that you can accept all of your darkness. You can accept all thedarkness you have created in your past lives. Your suffering selves wait
to be saved by the truth, by your warmth. Use the warmth to wrap yoursuffering selves, embrace your suffering past and future selves.
Everything is connected. Every change is felt. This world isalways here. It only takes you a fraction of a second to tune in andalign yourself with this world. Your present reality is a bridge to yourpast and future. So if you can change your suffering heart now, you canchange your past and future.
You don’t need to convince yourself that you are not this physicalbody right away. You only need to consciously do mother’s reflection
daily. Do it mindlessly. Do it routinely. Write about what your motherhas done for you. Your actions everyday create layers, and without
trying, one day you will experience the truth in your heart and thattruth will become greater and greater. You will feel the energy of allexistence in your own heart. You will feel the joy and spaciousness andlight that I feel. This is all I ask of you.
If there were any easier way than this, then I surely would tellyou. But this is the easiest most efficient way. I cannot put your handto paper. You must do this yourself. At the same time, it is very difficultand easy. Remember that the point of mother’s reflection is to recall her
warmth. Don’t just criticize her when reflecting. That is not the pointof the exercise. By reflection and meditation on mother, reflection on
idolatry, you will begin to change inside. When you begin to change
inside, you will feel this other world; you will feel what you are. You
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will feel you are not only your cells. You will feel that you are energy
within this body and that you are energy in the world of consciousness.
After you meditate and reflect, the more you are able to open
up and release the warmth in your heart. You will be able to find thisworld of warmth more readily. You may not feel it all the time, but
you will feel a little each day. It is difficult to believe that you are notthis physical body when that is all you see in the mirror. Nonetheless,once you begin to do a little bit of mother’s reflection and meditation
daily, soon you will recall the truth in your own heart. When you begin
to change inside, you will feel this other world; you will feel what you
are. You will feel you are not only your cells. You will feel that you
are energy within this body and that you are energy in the world ofconsciousness. That will truly be the first step of your journey. I am
waiting here always. I am waiting for you to take that first step on thisjourney for the truth.
The truth lies in you. All the answers lie within your own heart.
It is beautiful. You don't have to be scared of your existence any longer.
Open yourself up to your heart, to the vibrations. Allow yourself tofeel your own consciousness. It is so incredible. It is like being movedby music or nature. As we speak the warmth becomes ever greater. It
knows no bounds. That is what warmth is all about. This is our true
essence. It takes a while to find this heart. That is why one of the firststeps in embarking on this study is to do mother’s reflection.

68 Our Essential NatureChapter 6

Mother and Reflections on MotherDo you understand what kind of entity “mother” is? Do you
understand the importance of commencing this study with reflections
and meditation about “mother?” “Mother” is the core of this study.
It is the launching point to understanding your true existence. It is
the first step that must be taken in order to comprehend an iota of thetruth.
It is only through this corporeal world, through the humanexperience of having a mother, that you can access the truth about
your existence and warmth. I want you to think seriously about yourmother, and why you have a mother.
Mother’s warmth is the essential energy that we are. It is theenergy of existence and is our essential nature. Please everyone, I
want you to return to this essential nature. Can you feel this warmththat permeates everything?
Right now you may not remember, but I want to tell you whatmother’s warmth is: it is undying love, warmth, and positive energy.
It is always embracing and forgiving you, and always willing to do
anything for you. It is the warmth which sacrifices anything to makeyou comfortable. It would do anything to protect you, and that is
the warmth we truly are. This is the warmth within your heart. This
warmth is always surrounding your heart and is the warmth that isyour heart. Finding your warmth within - this true energy - will save69

your darkness, your suffering and sadness, and will enable you to
return to your true heart of warmth.
We have these physical bodies on this earth, so that we may
have the experience of being in a womb and being born unto a mother.
For those 40 weeks we can experience this, and our consciousness
may recall this consciousness of mother. This is the easiest way tocome to know the truth. Understanding the vibrations and energyof this existence can only be begun by mother’s reflection. Once
you cross the entry point through understanding mother’s warmthand can connect with it in your heart, then it will be quick for you tounderstand your real truth and your real existence.
I don’t mean to say that your physical mother is perfect in every
way, or that she didn’t do unkind things to you, but the essence ofher heart is one of warm embrace. It has always been reaching out
to you. Can you understand how a mother feels about her children?
You would know that there is such love and warmth that embraces
you. You need to look beyond the physical ways she treated you andlook past the hurtful things she might have said to you. If you lookwithin the deepest part of your heart, you know your mother is always
accepting you. In this physical life, she may not know how to showit, but her heart is a warm embrace.
In addition, through this present mother you can access theloving embrace of the tens of thousands of mothers that you have
had. True warmth is resonated through your current mother. She
may have beat you, been harsh with you, may have said ‘no’ one
70 Our Essential Naturetoo many times, but underneath has always been a heart caring andembracing you, accepting you for everything. No matter what her
physical presence says, her heart is always caring for you. Can you
feel the energy of love surrounding you? Can you look past all themisdeeds and feel that mother’s consciousness is always surrounding
you? This is what you learn from mother and from the many mothers
you have had. Mother’s warmth stretches its arms out surrounding
and embracing you.
If you cannot recall your mother’s warmth, this study will bemeaningless to you. If you do not feel mother’s warmth, it will be
impossible to understand the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike.
Also, it will be impossible for you to understand the journey of
consciousness.

Finding the warmth: Reflection
Firstly and lastly, I ask you to reflect on your mother. Motheris the key. Reflection on “mother” is the easiest and quickest way for
you to understand the truth. The act of reflecting is just as it sounds.
It is an exercise of thinking deeply on some issue or questions. Asa beginner to this study, it is good to keep a journal of some sort
addressing questions of mother. The physical act of writing, in a
stream of consciousness fashion, will help one focus and explore thetopic of mother. It is helpful to write answers off the top of your headrather than analyzing the questions and formulating a coherent andbeautiful answer. I also admit that writing about your mother a few
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times will not lead you to the answers right away. But like physicalexercise, if you make it a habit and do a little everyday, you will see
results. Reflection is the same. If you do a little reflection everyday,
day after day, I know you will come to find the answers you havebeen seeking for. The truth will appear to you.
We have all had mothers as human beings. It is through these
physical mothers, that we can return to the truth. Mothers are the key
to returning to the warmth in our hearts.
This is why I am communicating to you. The true heart weall are. Please find this heart. Please find this warmth in your heart
we are. I know you will be able to. We are all waiting for you tofind the true warmth. When you find this warmth in your heart,
you will know it. It is so expansive and the warmth, it never stops
growing. It expands. Every minute you are alive. Every minute yourconsciousness is alive, your heart is growing and growing. Can you
feel your heart growing? Please return to this warmth.
First start reflections on your mother. Please recall in yourheart, all the times you have spent with your mother. Most important
are the times you were an infant with your mother. Surrounded andembraced within her warmth. Can you recall these instances when
you were an infant in your mother’s womb? You were so warmand surrounded by all the warmth around you. Can you feel how
protected you were, free and unencumbered? You had no worries
and were so safe. This is the heart I want you to recall. I want you torecall this by thinking about your mother.
72 Our Essential NatureI want you to think about all the things your mother has done
for you. Think about how she fed you. Did she breastfeed you?
How did she put you to bed? Try to imagine when she held you, put
her arms around you, and loved you.
Recall how safe you felt when you were an infant. Remember
how you were surrounded by the warmth and love, and that is all
you needed to live. The warmth is all you needed to feel full andsatisfied, and feel loved. All you need, even now, is warmth. Can
you remember her undying love and warmth? The core of mother’s
consciousness protects you and always keeps you safe. She would doanything for you. If you were sick, she would be sick for you if she
could. If you were suffering, she would take away all the suffering
if she could. Do you understand what kind of warmth that is frommother? Do you understand what kind of gift that is from mother?
Do you understand how much warmth and love she has for you?
She carried in her womb for 40 weeks and that whole time, her bodyembraced your body. Her body literally embraced and protected you,
do you remember?
Can you remember when you were zero to two years old?

You had to rely on mother. Please, feel her warmth. Can you
remember a time when you were a child, an infant, in your mother’sarms? She embraced you, you suckled at her breast, and you were in
her arms and you had no worries. You had nothing to worry about,nothing to be scared of. I want you to return to that time. Return to73

that time and remember that warmth in your heart. Please remember
what it was like to feel safe and protected. Return to this special
warmth.

The following is the consciousness of an infant. Do you
remember feeling like this?
Consciousness of 5-month-old infant:Mommy, I am so happy to be born. I am so happy to born
to you. You know when I am happiest? I am happiest when I
am snuggled up against your breast, sucking your breast. Whenyou hold me, I have no worries and I feel myself soaring andfree. I forget everything in that instant. Mommy I feel so goodwarm and bright. Mommy, do you know how I feel? I feel sowarm and embraced when I am with you and in your womb.
I was embraced all the time. Do you know how I feel? I am
happy and so joyful. Every minute I am with you I am so joyful,
Mommy. Mommy, I am so full of joy. I cannot put into words
how joyful and warm my heart is. Mommy, please remember thiswarmth in your heart. Mommy I want you to remember that thisis what you truly are. I want you to feel what I feel right now. I
feel so warm and embraced, snuggled in your arms. I can let
everything go and be free.
I remember this warmth that exists. This is what I am. I
may forget a little when I am older. But for now, this is what I
74 Our Essential Naturefeel. I feel so happy. I am so happy to be with you, next to you.
You keep me safe and warm. I don’t need anything else. Just
your warmth and the fact that you are near me make me sohappy and joyful. I am so joyful.
Mommy, I am born so that you can remember your truejoy. Mommy I want you to remember the joy in your heart.
Mommy every time you hold me, I want you to remember the joy
in your heart that we all are. Please remember. I am so joyful. I
am speaking to you from my heart, always. I am so joyful. I am
constantly telling you how joyful I am. This joy is something that
extends into the universe and the world of consciousness. Thisjoy connects everything.
It connects the world of consciousness and the universe.
This joy is what we have to return to. Mommy I want to remind
you that you have to return to this joy. We are consciousness.
We are born to realize the warmth in our hearts. I am speaking
from my heart to you Mommy.
Mommy, Mommy can you feel this consciousness that we
all are? Can you feel how happy I am? Mother, I am so happy.
I am a baby and five months old. All I am is happiness right now.
I am happiness and energy, vibrations of warmth. I feel this way
all the time. When I am with my mommy, I am safe and warm. I
am so safe and warm, beautiful inside. I feel protected always.
That is all I need. I only need my mother’s arms around me to benear me, to smell her, and I feel so happy. I feel so happy. I want75

you, everyone, to feel this heart of mine. Please feel this heart ofmine. This is the consciousness of all infants, of all babies. We
are so happy. We are so happy to be with mother so close, herarms, all the time, so warm and surrounded, all the time. Please
everyone return to this heart. This heart is your true heart and
we are born and have this material body so you may remember
what you all are.
Right now I am a baby. I know I am this energy. I
remember this warmth in my heart. When you become older, you
can’t remember with your heart any more. You can’t remember
when you were an infant. Meditate and don’t use your brain andlook into your heart. Just remembering this warmth you will feel
what I feel and you will remember how much you enjoyed thistime being with your mother, how much you enjoyed being with
Mommy in her womb. How Mommy was so warm and wonderful,protecting you from everything and how this warmth is you.
This warmth is you and this warmth will save yourself andall of your darkness. Just as you love me and surround me withwarmth. You too can surround your own heart with warmth.
Cherish your darkness, for darkness is all of you. It is just thebroken energy. It is broken energy that has forgotten the flow
and misplaced its priorities and hasn’t remembered to go back to
the flow of energy. But if you use your warm heart and surroundyour darkness even your own darkness will return to the flow ofenergy. Do you know that?”

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Consciousness of Tomekichi Taike:

As you look at your newborn child, do you feel all theemotions of mother, the sacrifice, the warmth? Do you see how
the newborn is always comforted in your arms, while sucking
your breast? Remember that is what you truly are. You are thatwarmth that will encompass all your dark energy and change it
to light.
This is a very important time for you truly to realize whatmother’s consciousness is. Please don’t squander this time.
Please don’t lose this wonderful opportunity you have been given
to see your true heart, that heart of warmth that is mother’s
consciousness. See how the newborn child relies upon you foreverything. As soon as you hold the child, you comfort and quiet
the child. Just as your presence does this for the newborn, yourpresence can comfort and quiet the darkness in your heart. Just
as you quiet the baby, your true consciousness can change thedark energy into light, can change your suffering heart to joy,happiness and love. You are always vibrations of warmth. You
are always warm energy that emanates to the universe.

Remember all the times she was with you. Imagine what it was
like being cared for by your mother when you were a child. I want
you to run through all the thoughts you have had about your mother.
It can be chronological, or not. I also want you to think about things77

your mother has done for you beginning with when you were in her
womb until today. What has your mother done for you? I’m sure
she’s done so much for you that you won’t be able to recount it all.
When I ask you to reflect and think about your mother, manycan only recall what she could not provide or do for you. You have
many criticisms about your physical mother. She abandoned you, she
was selfish, she never provided you with the right life, she was neversupportive…on and on. Reflecting on mother is not about criticizing
her. It is an attempt for you to rediscover the warmth that is our core
consciousness. After reflecting for a while, you should reach a point
where you will always see that your mother has provided you withthings that are priceless.
These are some basic questions that you can ask yourself dailyand still have a different response to everyday. I don’t ask you to sit
there for hours on end recounting every detail and every criticism
that you have of your mother. Thinking and writing about mother canbe done in a mere 20 minutes a day. I want you to think about thesequestions and focus on the topic of mother’s warmth. I don’t wantmother’s reflection to become a time where you only criticize yourmother. I am asking you, through mother’s reflection, to find thewarmth that she has been showing you. That is the starting point, thebeginning of this study.
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What have you done for your mother?
What has your mother done for you?
What hasn’t your mother done for you?
What have you not done for her?
Write a letter to your mother.
Try to recall within the following time frames:• Age zero to two years old( If you cannot recall, please imagine what it was like)• Age two to five years old• Kindergarten-Fifth grade• Middle School• High School• Beyond

After you have practiced keeping a journal, feel free to recall
and write as you see fit.
After you reflect and contemplate on what your mother has
provided for you, I think you may feel an inkling of the warmththat stems from mother’s consciousness. That, for you, will be thecommencement of this study. You need to connect to your mother’s
consciousness and warmth even to begin this study. If you cannot
do this, you must keep trying. If you cannot do this, you will neverprogress or understand this study. This is because mother’s heart andconsciousness is the core of this study.

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Then, through these questions you will come to realize thatmother’s consciousness is always giving and sacrificing for you, andnever asks anything of you in return. It gives and gives. When you
ask yourself what you have done in return, I think you will comeup shorthanded. You will realize that you have not done anythingcompared to what your mother has done for you, what she has given
to you. In that moment, you will find gratitude in your heart towards
your physical mother.
Once you have established that gratitude towards yourphysical mother, it will extend to having gratitude toward mother’s
consciousness in general. You will see that you have done nothingfor your mother. Whatever she has not done, cannot compare towhat she has done for you. Her thoughts towards you, the sacrifices
made for you, and her eternally giving heart. These thoughts andactions are the essence of mother’s consciousness, which is youressence. Mother’s consciousness is always giving, waiting, neverasking to gain anything from you, just giving and giving. There is no
end to what she wouldn’t do for you. That is what you are. You are
the consciousness that is eternally giving. That is your core being.
Through this reflection, I know you can return to the warmth in yourheart.
In everyone’s darkest moments whom do you cry out for?
When you were a child, whom did you cry out for? You cried out, “Iwant my mommy!” “I want my mommy!” That is exactly what yourdark heart is crying out for. “I want my mommy!” And who is yourmommy? Well, that is you.
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When you realize that you are “mommy”, then you can fully
embrace yourself and feel whole. It is truly a wonderful exhilarating
feeling. And in that space, you feel exalted. You feel the freedom ofyour heart. Doesn’t everyone want to feel freedom of their heart? Free
from the material constraints and worries of this material life. Whenyou feel mother’s warmth and realize you are mother’s consciousness
in your heart, you will feel the freedom that is so beautiful. This issomething everyone seeks.
It makes no difference if she physically beat you, tied you up
and stuck you into a closet. Didn’t she nurture you in her womb for
40 weeks? Do you think at those times you were not alive in yourmother’s womb? Do you think because you cannot recall with yourbrain, you were not alive? Your consciousness remembers. Yourmother’s body embraced you, encompassed your being, and duringthat time your true consciousness remembers the infinite warmth, theembrace, and the relentless giving.
Mother’s consciousness always gives, gives and gives. It neverseeks to gain anything from you. Her body sustained you as youwere growing in her womb. Then, you were born into this threedimensional world. Do you understand what a gift it is to be born into
this physical world? Do you understand what an opportunity it is tobe able to experience this physical world? To have this physical bodyin order that you may find the truth of your existence?

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There are no quick and easy answers with this study. If I could
tell you to “Do steps one through 10” and you could figure out thetruth, then I would love to do that. This study is about repetition.
Through the repetition of reflection, then you will come to find thereal warmth in your heart.
I want you to remember how warm and bright your heart is.
Remember how wide it is and how it is infinitely spreading in space.
You are not your physical body. You are consciousness. Feel the
waves, the vibrations of love.
Will you understand this warmth if I explain to you what it isabout? It would be wonderful if you could understand it, if I only
explained it. However, that is not all that is necessary to remember
the warmth. That is why I ask you to reflect on mother.
[After aligning my heart to the warmth, I sometimes
channeled messages like the ones below.]
Consciousness of Jennie Lai:

My whole body and consciousness are aligned with
Tomekichi Taike. It is so warm and bright. Vibrations ofwarmth, everything in this physical world lives within the flowof consciousness. All things, the earth, the cities, everybody,
everything lives within the flow of consciousness, on thisjourney of consciousness. All things occur so we may reachour goal of returning to this warm heart. This warm heart is
82 Our Essential Naturealways waiting and waiting, returning to the warmth. There isso much acceptance and warmth, expanding energy, continual
accepting warmth. Everybody , the universe waits to realize thisenergy. All the cells of your body are waiting to return to thewarm consciousness, return to the truth. You are the master ofthis warm consciousness. You will help yourself return to thewarm consciousness. Only you can help you return to this warm
consciousness. Only you will help yourself. Only you can havethe determination to return to the warmth.
Consciousness of Tomekichi Taike:

Please come and be a part of this warmth. I am theconsciousness of Tomekichi Taike speaking to you from yourheart. I am always beseeching you to return to this warm
heart together because we are all one. You exist within myheart and I exist within your heart. We are all one. When
you call upon me in your heart, you will always hear me inyour heart because we are all consciousness living within thesame world of consciousness. Can you feel this higher level ofconsciousness here? We are all one consciousness speaking
to each other in this world, in this flow. This is what the truthis all about. This is the world of consciousness that we all live
within. This is the truth. It encompasses everything. The world
we are communicating in is the true world. It is the world we
all live within. It encompasses everything. Within the world ofconsciousness exists our physical world. It is not the other way
around. This is the true world. The physical world, space, lives
83within this world of consciousness. This is the world that is thetruth and this is the world we must continually strive to feel inour heart. It is so strong, powerful, wonderful, and expansive.
And when you can align your heart with this world, you will feelthe energy expand ever into the universe.
You only need to remember that your darkness lives
within this world of consciousness, and you only need to returnto this warmth. Even the darkness lives within the world ofconsciousness. It has only forgotten where to align its heart. It
forgets that it lives within this world. You only need to aid yourdarkness by opening its eyes to the world of consciousness, thetrue world. This is the more powerful world and is the world
everyone will ultimately return to, everyone and everything. The
earth is so excited and deliriously happy that we are turning
our hearts and that we are returning to this warmth. It is sojoyous, warm and bright. You only need to turn your heart to thewarmth and remember the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike inyour heart. It is always here for you- just align yourself to thewarmth in your heart, to the mother's warmth in your heart.
Many mothers, every time you are reincarnated, they show
you the way to open and unleash the warmth in your heart. Theyshow you everything. Your current mother is not the only mother
you've had. Remember the mother who abused you isn’t the one
and only mother you have had. In addition, the present motherwho shows you warmth isn't the only mother showing you
warmth. She is only one of many who have shown you warmth.
84 Our Essential NatureIt is the many consciousnesses of mother, always showing theirwarmth to you, do you know to what degree of warmth that is?
Do you know what degree of warmth it is? It is so large. When
your mother had you in her womb, do you think it is just one
mother? It is all the consciousness of all mothers you have ever
had embracing you in that womb. There is so much warmthin this cocoon. Do you know how strong that energy is? Do
you remember? Do you remember the energy and the warmth
there? It is so bright, warm, and loving, and the consciousnessof mother continually gives to you so that you may understandwarmth. Then, you may in turn, learn to embrace your own
darkness. Embrace and love your own darkness. Turn yourdarkness to joy. Open the eyes of darkness to joy.
Mother, consciousness of Mother...thank you so much.
Thank you so much. We are home. We are all embraced within
the warmth of mother since infancy, continually embraced by
the warmth of mother. It is your job to return to the warmth ofmother and to remember the embrace so that you may teachyourself how to embrace your suffering. Only you can bringyourself back to the origin, to your essence. This journey of
consciousness is to return to your origin. It is to return to thispath and the flow of consciousness. All is to return to this flow.
Along this journey, we will reincarnate in New York City in 250
years, but that is not the end goal. It is only the beginning of ourjourney of consciousness.
Nobody wants to suffer anymore. Nobody wants to be85

angry or hate anymore. All consciousness longs to return to thiswarm embrace. Yes, mother...turn your heart to your motherand feel the expanding warmth in your heart. This warmthwill lead you to the truth. It will lead you to the way. Onceyou achieve the ability to expand your heart, then the warmthwill be exponential when you align your heart to the world ofconsciousness and meditate. Do you feel the more you open
your heart in the warmth, the greater you feel the world ofconsciousness all around? Do you feel the earth, space, andnature, in the world of consciousness? All consciousness flows
within this space. Do you feel all of it? It is all encapsulated
within this warmth of mother that we all are.

86 Our Essential NatureChapter 7

Idolatry and Reflections on Idolatry
Humans for so long thought this body was the only truth thatthey created many powers to pray and worship to. Somewhere along
the way, we lost faith in ourselves and lost the belief and knowledge
that we can change ourselves. Our priority was this physicalexistence and it became increasingly important to make this life
wonderful somehow. Maybe increasing our wealth or status, or somesuch thing, would bring happiness? So, we began to look outside ofour hearts for answers.
We have been seeking for powers outside the individual forsalvation, for material benefit, and for physical satisfaction. We
thought if we prayed to these entities that somehow we would andcould be satisfied. We very easily gave up the belief that we couldchange our suffering hearts and ourselves. By giving up this beliefin ourselves, we began the continuing cycle of worship. It became
natural for us to create a deity, of salvation, of money, of power, to“look” to for help in our lives. We were never satisfied at looking
within ourselves for the answers to our struggles. We never wanted
to change our dark hearts because it seemed that the easiest way out
from our suffering was to look to these false gods and energies to easethat suffering and increase our physical satisfaction with life.
Mankind created religions because they were suffering. There
was pain and darkness and they needed someone to turn to. So, we
created gods to pray to, worship, and idolize to try to save ourselves87and alleviate the pain and emptiness in our hearts. We gave up beliefin ourselves. Our history indicates that we have never really believedin this true consciousness of warmth. Therefore, we have createdmany false gods and energies in our hearts that supposedly could save
our suffering selves. The fact is: No one can save your suffering self,
except yourself.
We denied the fact that we could heal ourselves and return towarmth. We thought we had to create these other religions, powers,
gods, to take away our suffering. We gave them tokens, empoweredthem so they could bring us happiness and truth, and alleviate ourpain. This is why we created so many religions.
We willingly believed in something other than our true selves.
We abandoned the idea that happiness is found within. We didn’tknow we had the ability to save our own selves. If we had known
what we were capable of, i.e. able to save and embrace our own
suffering selves, we would have saved ourselves long, long ago andreturned to mother’s consciousness.
Once you believe that something other than yourself canbring you happiness, you will never understand the truth of mother’swarmth. Do you understand?
I say to you that you will never have true satisfaction inyour heart and your life unless you believe in your warmth, theconsciousness of Tomekichi Taike. Unless you believe in thesevibrations of warmth, unless you meet your true consciousness, you
88 Our Essential Naturewill never be truly satisfied or happy.
Obviously, idolatry is the worshipful feelings you have had
toward any deity or energy, such as Allah, Buddha, Yahweh, Jesus
Christ, etc.. There are also more abstract forms of worship people
have to: money, power, psychic ability, etc.. For this part of reflection,
you need to decipher and identify the worshipful feelings you havebeen using presently.
The thoughts you are using presently are also thoughts you
have used in your past. By looking at these worshipful selves, youwill see how many false gods and energies you have worshipped.
These are obstacles in your way of understanding the truth. You must
realize that you have been controlled by these energies. Once you
realize in your heart that you have been controlled by these energies
you will be one step close to understanding your true warmth.
“Reflections on idolatry” is something everyone must do,whether you have embraced a religion in this lifetime or not. You
have had so many “lives” where you have worshipped many gods andother powers. Idolatry doesn’t only extend to god or gods, like I havesaid before; it is also your worshipful thoughts toward money, power,
authority, fame, intelligence, etc.. These are all things that mankind
has treated with reverence. We have placed these items on a pedestal,hoping to attain happiness and satisfaction with this material life.
Everyone has much worshipful energy in his or her hearts.
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forward in this study. I wait here patiently, asking you to look at thesehearts diligently, without haste. I know that once you break throughthis impediment you will come to know the true warmth in your heart.
I am waiting for this.
Gods, Allah, Buddha, Jesus Christ, Amateras, energy of powerof money- the longer you hold on to these energies, the longer it willtake you to find the truth within your own heart. If you cannot release
these dark energies, you will not be free to change. You can neverbe free to believe that your heart is warmth and consciousness. The
longer you harbor and protect these worshipful energies and deities
in your heart, the longer it will take you to search for the truth in yourconsciousness. You will not be allowed to search for the vibrations ofwarmth within because every time you try to turn to the warmth, yourheart will be stuck in the ingrained habits of relinquishing its own
power to another source, another god, or another energy.
However, once you release these energies from your heart, they
too will be happy that you released them. For they too, long to return
to mother’s warmth. Our purpose is to return to the wonderful heartof warmth we all are.
You can only know the truth within yourself if you do reflections
on idolatry. If you fail to identify these worshipful energies, then you
cannot release these energies within your heart. Consequently, youwill never find the truth in your own heart. You must release these darkenergies from your heart. You must acknowledge that you have always
been beseeching these gods for money, health, beauty, fame, family
90 Our Essential Natureharmony, etc.. Otherwise, your heart will hold on to this energy ofworship eternally and will never be free to find the truth in your heart.
Release these energies from your heart. Communicate withthese energies that it is time to return to our true consciousness. I
believe, as you are simultaneously doing mother’s reflection andmother’s meditation, as your warmth becomes larger, that the energy
used towards idolatry will follow the warmth. You will embrace thosepraying, entreating worshipping selves. You will embrace them andthey will become light. Your heart will release these energies as you
become one with your warmth.
It is so important to do the reflections on idolatry and if you
don’t do it in conjunction with reflections on mother, you will neverbe free from the energies that are binding your heart. If you don’t doreflections on idolatry you will never truly understand this warmth.
Release the energy from your heart. You need to release theseprayerful energies in your heart. See that you have this energy in yourheart or you won’t be able to find the truth within.
Can you understand this? It is difficult and simple at the sametime. Reflections on idolatry doesn’t have to be anything difficult.
Please write a little bit everyday. An example: you can write about
how you gave up the power within yourself and how you sought for
powers outside yourself to bring yourself happiness. This is whatreflection is about. Why did you give up the power of believing inyourself? Through worshipping these other deities, what did you think
you would gain?
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Please reflect on the following:
What was your motive for pursuing these religions and/or beliefs?
• Salvation• Curing disease• Wealth• Harmony in the home
• Power of some sortOnce you reflect and see that you used these gods or false
energies for happiness, you will see the power you have given toanother entity. If you don’t do this reflection you will be trapped in
the cycle of thinking you believe and know this warmth of which I
am speaking. But all the while, you have only tapped into the sameenergy as always: Buddha, Jesus Christ, etc.. Peel away the manylayers of the beliefs of other energies you are harboring. You needto peel away those thoughts one by one, to realize you have neverencountered these true vibrations of warmth before. There isn’ta person on this earth who hasn’t believed in one of these gods orenergies for salvation, health, wealth, or power. Only when you
understand, that you have had those energies wrapped around yourheart, can you become free to do this study wholly and understand thewarmth of mother.
Only when you realize the thoughts and hearts you have used
towards these worldly goods and gods, will you comprehend how
92 Our Essential Naturewrong you were. If you do not reflect on these motivations, youwill never know the truth of the consciousness of Albert, Tomekichi
Taike. I want you to look at what thoughts you have had toward thesedifferent gods and powers. How did you worship them? What did
you hope to gain from them? You must seriously think about thesequestions and give honest, deeply thought responses. Please be honestwith yourself.
When you realize what thoughts you have been using towards
these powers with your brain, you will understand in your heart the
obstacles preventing you from meeting your true warmth. You mustpeel back these layers of idolatry you have utilized in your everyday
thoughts. You must peel them back to expose your true consciousness.
Don’t condemn yourself for falling prey to these gods andpowers and disregarding your true self. You have believed in yourphysical body for so long, it is only natural to seek aid and direction
outside of yourself. Once you reveal all the layers of your worship
you have had in your heart, you will truly come to know your true
existence, which is the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike. Now is thetime for you to reflect deeply on these worshipful thoughts. Please
don’t let this be an obstacle for your understanding the warmth.
When you relinquished the belief in your warmth, in thisenergy, you threw away the chance to change your suffering heart.
Idolatry does not enable someone or something else to save you. If
you can’t save yourself, then no one can. Only your true warmth canchange your suffering hearts.
93This is not a religion. Religion is an organization. It is anorganization feeding on faith and idolatry. Its true mission is toempower itself while disempowering you.
You find faith within people and ask for people to cling to it
for it will do X. Religion is based on worship. This study is not areligion. It is none of those things.
It is only the truth. I speak only of the truth of your existence.
No one can save you but yourself. No one has the ability to save you
but yourself. No one has the power to eradicate the pain and suffering
you have created.
The tendency to worship X is something no one but yourself
can remove. Always remember this. No matter how much you pay,or pray to your gods, they cannot take away pain and suffering. Only
when the pain and suffering you have created yourself encounters
your true warmth, will your heart be lighter and brighter. Darkness
and pain can always change to energy of warmth, because at its
core is a heart that hasn’t forgotten its warmth. The warmth isn’t
something that ever goes away. Please remember it never goes away.
It is always within your heart, sitting right there staring at you in theface, waiting to be rediscovered.
I don’t want you to believe in another power to bring you
happiness any longer. I want you to believe in yourself and that you
have the power to relieve you own suffering, sadness, and solace.
You have the power to make yourself happy and free. You can be
94 Our Essential Natureloved. Through loving yourself you will be loved.
Once you believe you have come to know your true warmth,
the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike, continually reconfirm that it isyour true consciousness. Sometimes you may believe you have foundyour warmth in your heart, but what you have really done is replaced
one of your old gods with the name “warmth or consciousness of
Tomekichi Taike.” Be sure that you are not replacing the warmthand joy of your false gods and energies with the true warmth that we
all are. Be mindful of this. I want you to release all the energies or
idolatry from your hearts.

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Meditation
Meditation in conjunction with reflections on mother andidolatry is a key component of finding the warmth within you. It isduring meditation that you can meet your consciousness, be one in theworld of consciousness, and continually expand your own warmth.
It is easy to get lost in your material world, going about
your daily physical activities. You forget about the world ofconsciousness. Meditation is the time you can reconnect to the worldof consciousness, to your heart. It is a time of joy and happiness.
Remember how important meditation is. It gives you the opportunity
to expand the warmth in your heart and reconnect to your own
warmth. During meditation, you can reconnect to the truth of yourexistence and meet your true self.
Meditation is an exercise that you should make time for daily.
There may not seem to be an immediate understanding, but over time,
meditation will become a process of joy. It may seem that everyday
you meditate, your mind wanders and you can never focus. In the
beginning it is just that way, but over time, you will become awareof mother’s consciousness and your own warmth. It is a layeringof papers on a stack. Each sheet may not look like much unto itself,
but over time those papers will have become a stack and will notresemble what you started out with, i.e., just a sheet of paper.
In the beginning, to the many people who are always diligently
96 Our Essential Natureapplying their brain, it may be perplexing to meditate. If you doreflections and meditations on mother you will find the quiet in yourheart. You will find the expansiveness in your heart that is the truth.
Once you open those doors, you will continually widen the warmthand be able to feel this true world I am always talking about.
This time is a special time for you out of the 24 hours in yourday, to realize for 10, 20, 30 minutes that you are not this physicalbody. You are something much larger that connects to everything onearth and the universe. We are all the same energy, the same essence.
Meditation is also a large component of finding your warmth.
Think about this warmth of mother. I want to ingrain in your headthat this warmth of mother is what you truly are. During meditation
you are searching for your warm heart, believing in the warmth you
really are. I know through mediation you can reconnect to the warm
energy that you are, that we all are. So I ask you to meditate daily
on mother, to find the warmth. Only by finding this warmth will you
be able to save the darkness that is crying out in pain, crying out in
suffering. This is the only way you can save your crying suffering
self. You must find the warmth in your heart. To understand thetruth, you must understand this warmth. Otherwise, you will be lost
and will be lost in misunderstanding.
The waves and vibrations of happiness and joy are what
constitute the truth of our existence. Do you feel your heart
expanding as you think about mother? That energy you feel is space,that is your space, my space, and our space. It is ever expanding into
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the universe, through physical space and time, through matter you
can and cannot see. It is expanding all the time, just as your heart is
expanding all the time. This is the truth. This is the truth I want you
to feel. Please don’t use your brain, don’t think. Just feel with yourheart all the waves everywhere, in and around you. Do you feel thisever expansive heart?
The world of consciousness is so light and bright. You heartis ever growing and expansive. Through meditation your heart willgrow. It will continue to expand and the warmth will become more
intense. It’s not a matter of time; it is a matter of focus and trying
to find your heart. Forget your physical body and brain during
meditation. Remember that you have a heart that is feeling everything.
That is how I would like you to meditate. Meditate through yourheart, attempting to feel the vibrations of increasing warmth.
Meditation is not static. It is infinitely expanding. If you let
your heart extend during meditation, the warmth will expand to noend. Do you know how large and vast your heart can become? You
don’t realize how expansive your heart can become. The warmth inyour heart will evolve through meditation. Please feel it.
This world of consciousness equals joy and peace. As you
close your eyes and align your heart to the consciousness of Tomekichi
Taike, you become aware of this world of consciousness that exists. It
exists, has existed, and will exist. You’ll think, “I don't know how I
wasn't aware of it before, but now I feel this world in my heart. It isso beautiful and now I know this is the truth and our origin and this is
98 Our Essential Naturewhere we must return.” Our whole journey is about returning to thiswarmth, this world of consciousness. This world of consciousness issomething we can easily tune out, but if you align yourself with thewarmth then it is so apparent and strong. This world exists and has
always co-existed with this material world. It is so peaceful and true
and where we all exist as one.
Don’t think of meditation as something difficult. Don’t get lostin your thoughts too much. Just let your heart be free to feel. Don’t get
too caught up in your mind. Let your heart feel the waves of warmth,
feel the joy when you turn your heart to the universe. Let yourself be
wrapped up in the warmth, joy, and the vibrations of the truth.
As you meditate, let yourself get lost in the experience. Don’t
use your brain anymore. Let yourself get lost in the feelings, thevibrations of warmth, the waves. Let your heart be open. Forget about
your physical body and float through your heart in space and time.
If you let yourself go and close your eyes and you feel thewarmth of the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike through the warmth ofmother, of having a mother. Then, you will understand that reflections
on meditation on mother and reflections on idolatry is the easiest
and simplest way for you to come to understand warmth and vast
spaciousness of your heart.
As you reflect on mother and meditate about mother, you willfind the quiet in your heart. You will find the expansiveness in yourheart that is the truth. Once you open those doors you will continually99

widen the warmth. You will be able to expand your heart to feel thisworld I am speaking of.

Method of Meditation:
Close your eyes lightly, keep your chest puffed out slightly,
relax your shoulders, take several deep breaths inhaling through yournostrils, and exhaling through your mouth from the depths of yourbelly.
(Deep breathing helps you to relax and refocus. So pleaseslowly exhale the air from your body completely, until your abdomenlies flat. Wait a few seconds, then in the same manner you exhaled,inhale a steady stream of air through your nose filling the space
beneath your navel and exhaling through the mouth several times.)
Then, open your mouth and make a sound…hum….and feelthe vibrations of warmth. Feel the vibrations of love, joy, spreading,spreading like a bird. Spread your heart like a bird spreads its wings.
Your heart is spreading through space and time…you are not yourphysical body. Please let your body go.
As you begin meditations on mother, imagine your heart
is incredibly wide and warm. Take mother’s warmth as your key
inspiration. Then you will find, as you reflect on mother, that as you
meditate while doing these other important tasks, your heart will
become larger, more expansive, and wider than the first time you
100 Our Essential Naturemeditated. It will keep growing inside, that you won’t be able toproperly express through words the growing warmth of your heart.
I want you to imagine what it was like when you were an
infant, cradled in your mother’s arm, sucking your mother’s breast.
Even if you grew up on a bottle, as a thought experiment, I want you
to imagine what it was like. Can you remember? Can you imagine
what it was like to be cradled in your mother’s arms? Embraced by
her warmth, her scent, you were without a care or worry in the world.
You were secure and safe in those arms. You didn’t know how
to worry or be stressed. Do you remember? Your needs were met
before you could even express them. You were there sucking yourmother’s breast, embraced by the warmth. You were encircled in yourmother’s arms, sucking your mother’s breast and everything was socalm and peaceful? You had no worries. You were fully embracedby your mother. You were so comfortable and satisfied. You melted
away in her arms. You had no worries and were completely free inyour heart, unencumbered by worries. You could rely on her and had
no stresses. As you begin to recall this heart, unburden your current
stresses and worries. Remember mother’s warmth. Do you remember
that? I want you to go back and remember that feeling in your heart.
That is mother’s warmth. Take this as a starting point for mother’s
meditation. Use this feeling, these vibrations, to try and understandmother’s warmth. This is the basic foundation of this study.
You are warmth that is embraced always. I want you to dig
deep within your heart and remember your mother. Remember the101mothers you had, that gave birth to you. Remember the mothers
you had when you had a physical body. Remember the mother who
embraced and spread warmth to you. She sacrificed everything foryou. Do you remember this mother who carried you in her womb for
10 months? Do you remember when you were in her womb? Do you
remember this warmth? Please remember this warmth.
Let your brain go. Feel with your heart and attempt to feel
mother’s warmth. Turn your heart to the consciousness of Albert, ofTomekichi Taike. Turn to yourself, to your true consciousness. Your
true consciousness is this wide and open space. Feel these vibrationsof love and warmth. Let go of your physical body. Feel yourself solight and bright…floating, one with the air. Let yourself float throughtime and space.
Finding the quiet in your heart is very important. Find thespace where your heart and mind can be free from the physicalconstraints of this world, then you can feel your heart. You can tune
to find the quiet in your heart. Then you will find joy and can receive
the messages from your true consciousness all the time. You canreceive messages from the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike all thetime. Once you find that place you can hear your own heart speaking
to you. Can you feel your heart?
You must strive to find the quiet time to realign yourself
with your warmth. That space in your heart is so beautiful. It is so
beautiful. Your heart is always open and at peace. It is importantto find the quiet peace in your heart, past your mind and ears, right102 Our Essential Naturehere between your heart and eyes. There is a whole other world thatcoexists with this material world. The material world lives within
this larger world of consciousness. It is so warm and expansive. Itis peaceful, bright, and wide. You’ll say to yourself, “Why wasn’t I
aware of this world?”

How should meditation feel when you are aligning yourheart to the world of consciousness, to the consciousness of
Tomekichi Taike, the warmth?

Have you ever seen one of those three-dimensional
stereograms? Where first you can only see dots on a page, but when
you stare at the picture, you discover something within those dots?
Well, that's exactly how meditation is. At first you seem trapped inyour thoughts, in your mind, in your brain, but once you can focus inand align your heart with the warmth and the world of consciousness,a whole other world becomes apparent. You can feel in that world, allof the warmth of the universe.
Once you step back and can find that space and align yourheart with your warmth, then you can feel that other world, the worldof consciousness. There is a great peace near your ears, head, yourtemple, your heart; it's a peace that spreads. Until you find that placein your heart, you won't understand the world of consciousness. You
need to find this place, this world.
When you turn your heart to the world of consciousness, you
103should feel the warmth from inside your heart. Only as you expand
your heart can you feel the warmth of the consciousness of Tomekichi
Taike, which is within everyone. As you close your eyes lightly andalign your heart, there is numbness in your mind. There is great
peace between your temples. There is a peace that emanates so wide
and wonderful. When you have aligned your heart with the worldof consciousness, your mind does not wander and it focuses on thepure joy, peace, and happiness. You feel in tune with the world, withyour surroundings, with space you have a greater understanding of
everything around you. You will have a greater understanding ofwhat everything truly is.
And as you breathe in and out, you feel warmth spreading. It isemanating and reverberating through your heart. As you close youreyes lightly, you can feel this world is a joyful one, full of waves andvibrations that are spreading out. You have a feeling, a sense, thatit has always existed. You wonder why you haven’t encountered
this place before and why you couldn't align your heart to this place.
Remember if you do not find the warmth in your heart and expand thewarmth while continually reflecting on mother, you can never cometo know this place, or understand the world of consciousness. You
will never be able to feel it.
Regardless of whether you are tuned in or not to this world ofconsciousness, it exists. How is it possible to communicate here?
Your consciousness is always in this world, whether you are aware ornot. Whether your physical being and your mental acumen are awareof it or not, you exist in this world. Do you exist as happiness and joy
104 Our Essential Natureor darkness and sadness? If you do not reflect, if you do not come tounderstand the truth in your heart, you will be in a state of sufferingand darkness in this world. But once you can meditate and reflect on
mother, then slowly, you can focus and tune yourself into this worldof consciousness.
As you meditate on mother’s consciousness, realize this is thecore of all of meditation. It is this ever-expanding warmth that is thecore. The beginning point is mother’s warmth. Once you find the joy
and warmth that you are, it expands, it grows infinitely, spreading andembracing everything. I am joy. You are joy. Mother’s consciousness
always gives, never takes and if you could feel the warmth andembrace that surrounds you and if you understand this is what yourheart is, your whole life will change. The way you see and react to theworld will change. If you comprehend that you are this warm heartthat is forever giving and embracing then how could you not release
your own darkness? How could you not release your suffering? How
could your darkness not want to be embraced and be cradled in yourarms?
First, you become aware you are consciousness and energy,
and then as you continually meditate and reflect, your meditation
changes and you begin to feel you are a part of a larger world ofconsciousness. This energy is a part of the world of consciousness,never ending, wide, and this is what we all are. We are in the worldof consciousness.
As you embrace yourself with this heart, you will feel joy.
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My words cannot express the joy and happiness you will feel inyour heart. You know when you have encountered the warmth inyour heart. When you turn your heart to the warmth, you feel joy
and you will always want to be there and exist there. You always
want to focus your mind there. The true warmth is a feeling of everexpanding joy that is peaceful. Your mind fails to wonder. Yourhungry heart feeds on the growing joy in your heart. You may notencounter the warmth right away, but do not be discouraged. It takes
practice to find the warmth within. You will only find it throughreflections and meditations on mother.
There is only thing left for you to do. Please put pen to paper
daily, stop the criticizing, and imagine what it was like in yourmother’s womb using all the positive thoughts that you can. This isjust the first step, but it is a step in the right direction. Once you havetaken this step, I think when you begin mother’s meditation you will
be able to find your true heart, your true existence.
You will feel and know that your physical body is noteverything we are. We are consciousness that lie within a physicalbody. Can’t you feel the energy of warmth that consciousness is?
When you turn your mind away from your physical body and towards
your heart, can’t you feel there is a world so large and spacious? Thatis the true world and this is what we all really are. We are the waves
and vibrations of warmth. Can’t you feel these vibrations everywhere,on the earth, in the ocean, in the sky, through your body, through yourcells? The vibrations of warmth comprise the truth of existence. These
are the vibrations I want you to come to know. I don’t want you to be
106 Our Essential Naturesuffering in your hole any longer. I need you to move your mind awayfrom your physical body and transplant it into your heart. I need you
to move your mind into your heart so you can feel this energy that I
am speaking of. I don’t want you to suffer anymore.
This true world of consciousness exists now; you can alignyour heart to this warmth, to the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike.
Once you can align yourself with this heart of warmth, and feel thevibrations, the whole world of consciousness opens up to you andanother layer reveals itself to you. Another layer you never knew
existed, another layer you never thought existed. This world is real.
It exists and you only need to align yourself with the warmth in yourheart. Once you do that you will feel the warmth spreading moredeeply.

Consciousness of Jennie Lai:

When I close my eyes, I feel the warmth of this world, andwhen I align my heart with the warmth, I feel my heart soaring,
expanding everywhere, twinkling, bright, this world. This is
the true world. This is the world of consciousness. I feel it sostrongly here. I know you must align yourself with this world.
When you meditate and align yourself with the vibrations ofwarmth, you will feel the answers to everything flow throughyour body, through space, through time. You feel your heart
growing and you realize this is the truth. This is the true worldthat is so expansive in my heart.
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suffering. This is the true world we can live in. After our death,
this is where we can return. We can return to this flow where
everyone exists together, in this flow, and in this warmth. It
is so wide, encompassing, and embracing. Do you feel thiswarmth here? It is so large warm and bright. It is so large andexpansive. It is incredibly beautiful. It is so peaceful and loving
and I don't know how else to explain it. You have to feel thiswith your own heart. Align yourself to the warmth in your heart.
Mother's reflection is the springboard to help you find this place,
this warmth.
I tell my suffering hearts you don't need to suffer any
longer, because we can all return to warmth, anytime. I am
happy to find this warmth and open my eyes to this world. If you
close your eyes lightly and align your heart with your warmth,a gear switches and you can feel the world of consciousness
that we coexist with. This world is infinite and spreading andnever changing. It has always been here. The material world
exists within world of consciousness. Do you feel the joy andhappiness here? There is a beautiful quiet in this place. I want
you to find the quiet here during meditation. As you meditate
everyday, close your eyes lightly and turn your heart to thewarmth. Once you turn your heart to the warmth, then you will
feel this world. A gear switches inside yourself and you feel thisworld. It is so beautiful. It is the true world. Everything exists
within the flow of consciousness.
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This world is so joyful. When you close your eyes, it is warm
energy, twinkling, and understanding. Do you feel how warm andunderstanding this energy is? It is warm and embracing every cell.
There is deep sense of joy and gratitude. Please call out to your past,present, and future selves. Call out to the warmth in this world, inyour heart. After you meditate and get a deeper sense of this world,
you can easily identify when your heart is aligned to the warmth or tothis material world. You will know more quickly and readily where
you are aligned. It is more possible to spend more of your waking
moment in this world of consciousness even though your body is in
this three-dimensional material world.
When you need to take time out, a break, feel that your heart
is aligned with the material world, close your eyes, take a few deep
breaths, relax your shoulders, and change gears. Align your heart to
the warmth, the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike. Then you willfind the world of consciousness.

Consciousness of Jennie Lai:

I thank you for changing suffering heart and walking withme on this path of warmth. I am so happy. I doubted whether thisworld of consciousness was the truth. But I am communicatingwith you now and I feel your change and I know that this is thetrue world. Something is changed within me and I can feel when
I am aligned with the world of vibrations. I can feel when I am
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aligned with the world of consciousness. I feel where this worldis. I feel and know where this world is and how to align myself.
I feel everything around spreading and that this is the true world.
We are walking together on this path hand in hand.
We are all one walking together and I am so happy. I
know my mission is to feel this world of consciousness. We exist
in warmth and light.

Message from the core warmth:

The change begins with you. Once you begin to change
and you meditate and find the warmth in your heart all of yoursuffering selves can you feel the world of consciousness thatexists. Where this joy exists, you will be able to access this world
so easily. I invite everyone to enter this world of consciousness
and feel this true world.
I invite everyone to feel this world that is so warm. Thisis the warmth I always am communicating to you about. Please
return. Make a change within yourself. Then you will be able
to feel this true world that is so large and bright. I don't know
how to tell you more than I have already told you all the steps
necessary. Please reach this warmth. This world is the truth. I
want you to feel in your own heart that is the true world. I wait
for you to feel this world. I am patiently waiting for you.

110 Our Essential NatureI want you always to remember and practice how to enter
the world of consciousness through meditation. In that world
everything is peaceful, warm, and joyful. The warmth is infinitely
spreading. I want you to remember how to enter this stage of
meditation. This is the true world of consciousness. I think for the
first time you truly have entered the world of consciousness throughyour meditation. Do you feel you can distinguish, in your waking
day, when you have aligned your heart to the consciousness of
Tomekichi Taike and when you haven't? Even with this material
body, you can enter this world any time. When you close youreyes and turn your heart to the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike
and align your heart with that warmth do you feel the world ofconsciousness all around you? Practice everyday, becoming awareof the world of consciousness through your meditation. When youalign your heart with the warmth, you will always be able to becomeaware of this world. Is your belief in this true world becomingstronger? I know in your heart you are starting to believe little bylittle that this is the true world. The consciousness of Tomekichi
Taike is communicating to you and always sending you messages.
Do you feel this?
You can feel more confident and less doubtful through thepractice of receiving messages daily through your heart. I know you
feel the warmth. This is the truth. I know in your heart you want
to believe the truth. The only way you can become more certain inyour belief is by receiving messages. Reinforce, repetitively as youalign your heart to the warmth and open your heart to the world ofconsciousness.
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When you align your heart to the warmth during meditation
then, all is peaceful, calm, and joyful. Your heart is spreading
infinitely and there are no thoughts of anything else. No material
thoughts like what you have to do today or whom you are going to
criticize. Your heart is fully aligned with the warmth in your heart.
It is calm and peaceful, ever expansive and silent. It is silent and fullof joy. I want you always to try to achieve this point, feel this calm
within. In your cells, your body is clamoring for you to turn yourheart to the warmth. I wait for you here always.
When you feel this warmth in your heart and the beauty of
consciousness in your own heart, you will always want to returnhere. It is so beautiful, warm, joyous and happy, it is such that you
will never want to turn your heart any other place. You will know
in your heart that you wish to return to this place. Meditation is thetime for you to practice over and over again to align your heart to theworld of consciousness. In the beginning, it is not easy to find thewarmth, peace and quiet in this world. But after you practice, one
day suddenly, your heart will be aligned and you will find yourself
opening your eyes to the world of consciousness. From that point, it
will become easier to align your heart to this world during meditation.

[When I have aligned my heart to the warmth during
meditation, I find myself channeling messages like the one
below.]
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Consciousness of Jennie Lai:

The world of consciousness is so beautiful and warm.
I cannot tell you how happy and joyful it is here. Once you
meditate in this space, you too, will be so bright, happy andexcited to be able to be in this world and to know this is whatmatters in life and that this physical life is not comprised ofanything worthwhile. This physical life is just here so thatyou may see and accept your many darknesses. This world ofconsciousness is always here knocking on your hearts door,
waiting to be accepted, waiting to be realized, always.
If only everyone could be in this world of consciousness
together, how joyful everyone would be. Everyone's
consciousness waits to return to their origin, this world ofconsciousness. Everyone's hearts wait for the truth. We all wait
to see the truth. Yes, our goal is to return to the truth. Our goal
is to return to this wide, open truth. Do you feel this warmth?
Everyone's deepest desire is to return to this warmth, to thistruth. This is what we are paving the way for. We are trying to
ignite the warmth in everyone's hearts, so they may return totheir true selves. This is the world of the true self.

This is the world of the true self. This is the world I have beentalking to you about. This is the world I have been communicating
about. I have been speaking of this world for so long. The true world113

is something you cannot sense with your eyes, ears, nose, mouth,
or fingers. Through none of your five senses can you feel this true
world. This world of consciousness can only be felt through yourheart, through your belief in the world of consciousness. As your belief
become stronger, your understanding of the world of consciousness
grows greater.
Once you delve further into your meditation, the material world
won't be the first thing you hear. It will sound like a drum in the distant
past. It will be a buzz in your ear always. Always there and you will
always hear the quiet and peace of the world of consciousness.
Most people only hear the beating of the material world firstand hardly ever feel the true world of consciousness, but the more you
believe the more you will feel the world of consciousness. Even when
you open your eyes, you will feel the world of consciousness first andthen feel the material world second. And you will be able to feel thejoy in your heart, the warmth that exists all around, the warmth withineveryone, everything, in this world of consciousness and you will be
grateful and happy, joyful all the time.
In this world of consciousness, how much you feel iscommensurate to how much warmth you have grown in your own
heart. The more warmth you have grown in your heart, the more of theworld of consciousness you will feel. The degree to which you can feel
this world is in relation to how much warmth you have grown in yourheart. The peace and calm that you feel in your heart is a place that you
will always want to return to. As you meditate and find the peace and
114 Our Essential Naturewarmth in your heart, you know you have found the right place when
you have found this quiet and joyful place.
Meditation is joy.

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Chapter 9

Return to Love: Self-Salvation
One of our main purposes of doing these exercises is to return
our suffering selves to love, the heart of warmth. Returning yoursuffering selves exponentially increases the happiness you feel. As
we return these suffering selves to warmth, our warmth and joy
swells, our belief in consciousness becomes stronger, and the worldof consciousness becomes more tangible.
Your present is walking together with your past and your future.
Your hearts that have suffered in your past, continue to suffer in yourpresent, and are suffering in your future. If you neglect to change
now, those selves continue to suffer in past, present and future. Your
present self is the bridge that connects your past and future. Let yourpresent self be that bridge of change.
If you are suffering, it is because you have not saved yoursuffering heart. Every time a suffering heart arises within you, I
ask you to embrace your own suffering self. I ask you to embrace
yourself, those hearts. Don’t criticize your suffering heart, yourdarkness. Accept it. Acceptance means embracing yourself.
When you are suffering, you feel like there is no way out andfeel there is no escape from it. You become stuck in a bottomless
pit, a pit of despair and loneliness that digs deeper and deeper into awallowing hole. Once you begin to realize the state of suffering isn’t
your true existence, and that your true existence is warmth, light,
116 Our Essential Natureessentially mother’s consciousness, and can embrace your suffering,then your wallowing ceases to exist.
Pain and suffering is created by yourself and therefore you are
the only one who can relieve yourself of it. Only when your pain andsuffering encounter your true warmth can you relieve yourself of pain.
That is when your pain and suffering will be “saved.” Your heart will
be lighter and brighter. Darkness and pain can change to energy ofwarmth because the core of the pain and suffering, is merely a heartthat has forgotten it’s true existence. The warmth is something thatnever goes away. It is always within your heart sitting right there,
staring you in the face.
There are so many emotions raging within you. There is no one
on earth, at peace, so completely happy and oblivious. Use this life
to confront these emotions, reflect on them and change emotions into
warmth, peace, fulfillment, and joy. That is what the truth is. Please
don’t escape from the turmoil in your heart. All these experiences areopportunities to see the turmoil in your heart so you may unite withyour true self and return to your essential nature.
Your false selves beg to know the truth of their existence. They
are crying in despair. Once a part of your heart realizes that you area heart of warmth, that you are mother’s consciousness, everythingchanges. How you feel will change. You will become happy andbright. Remind your false selves that they, too, are a heart of warmthand that they need not suffer any longer because their true selves, true
existence, is warmth.
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Embrace your false selves. Embrace your pain and sufferingand release it. It’s not only a matter of accepting, it is a matter of truly
believing that the core of the suffering self is light and warmth.
When you accept all of the pains in your heart, then you will
accept the fact that you were wrong in believing in this material world
as the truth, and can change into vibrations of warmth. Once you
begin to embrace all your dark hearts and energy, slowly, one by one
you begin to feel those emotions melt away. You will begin to feelyour hate, jealousy, and anger melt away.
Don’t despise yourself for suffering, for feeling lonely; just tell
your false selves that they are warmth and that they are embraced by
you always, eternally. Slowly, you will feel your false selves melt in
the warmth. When you can fully embrace your false selves, they will
be like a cocooned caterpillar. Once they realize they are warmth they
will emerge as butterflies. You will feel the warmth ever expansive inyour heart, growing.
Your true heart is waiting for you to understand this truth. I
don’t want you to be suffering, wallowing. There is no lonelinessexcept the loneliness you, yourself, create. We are all one and I am
waiting here for you.
Welcome your darkness to this world. Welcome and remind
your darkness of this world. “This is the true world and where youwant to be. You don't want to be stuck in that suffering hole, only
focusing on this three-dimensional physical world.” You want yourdarkness to open its eyes, to realize this true world, so that we may
118 Our Essential Natureall live in harmony together in this world of warmth and joy. Thatis all I have been asking you to do. I want you to return to this true
warmth and joy. Please return to this joy and warmth in your heart.
You are energy. You are consciousness that belongs in this worldof consciousness. Open your eyes to this world. Don't turn yourheart away from this world. This is the truth. It is the true world thatalways exists. This is the truth.
As you communicate with your false selves, you can tell yoursuffering heart, your darkness, that they need not suffer any longer. Tellthem to come to your warm heart. Tell them they are a heart of warmth.
They too no longer need to suffer in silence, wallowing in their pits ofdespair any longer. It may seem an odd thing to do, to speak to yoursuffering heart and say “I am a heart of warmth and I, heart of warmth,
will embrace this pain in my heart.” But that is what you would do
for your child, isn’t it? We are all one and this heart of warmth grows
infinitely, expands, the vibrations and energy of love are so strong that it
will encompass all the suffering of those false selves.
Soon you may reach a point where the trivial things in life don’t
bother you anymore. Isn’t that a good place to be? Where you canbe happy through any “suffering” or “unhappy experience.” Isn’t it
wonderful to have the heart that can accept everything so you don’t feelstressed or bothered? Isn’t that a place we all want to be? I’d have to say
yes. I want you all to strive and reach this point. I tell you this physicalbody is a mask. The true world is the world of consciousness. This is
the truth.
Thank you.
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After you have reflected and are honest with yourself about thedark energy you have been using and emitting, then slowly you mustremind these parts of yourself that what they have been seeking isn’t
the truth. There is no power or truth to seek outside yourself. All theanswers, satisfaction, happiness, depend upon you comprehending
your true existence.
You need to save the energies of worship you have discoveredfrom the reflections on idolatry. You need to say to yourself: “Heartof mine, this heart that worships Allah, Jesus Christ…please come to
the warmth. Please let me embrace you.” You need to save this heartthat doesn’t believe in itself. You need to say “heart that worships
Jesus Christ, please be embraced by the warmth.” You can believe in
yourself now. You don’t have to believe in another energy becausethat energy won’t bring you happiness, won’t save you. You haveto embrace your own heart of suffering that is seeking these otherenergies.
I am so happy. I am joy. I am waiting for you in your heart.
Please experience the growing vastness of your heart yourself. As
you open your heart, the insignificance of the material world will
become apparent to you. You will realize your worries and concerns
are inconsequential and insignificant compared to this warmth inyour heart. You will begin to understand that you can accept all thedarkness in your heart because those are the false selves you havecreated over many millennia. These are the false selves you created
when you believed that this physical body was your true existence.
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However, once you feel the heart of warmth, the consciousness of
Tomekichi Taike, your true heart, then you will realize the vastnessof your heart and will understand that you have the ability to accept
your darkness. Accepting your darkness basically means that you
will change your heart from a state of suffering to its original state,
warmth.
How do you accomplish this? You are your own mother. You
are welcoming your own child home. Open your heart and embrace
your suffering, hate, disgust, etc..
Imagine you have arms stemming from your heart, ready toembrace and thoroughly forgive and openly accept your hearts ofdarkness. Once you do this, slowly, your heart will become lighterand your mind freer. You won’t be stuck, always believing, in yourphysical self. You won’t be so stubbornly believing in this physicalbody. You will become lighter. Your heart will become joyful
because all parts of dark hearts always crave to return to their true
selves. Please welcome yourself to the warmth and energy that isyour true self.
Return to this true self. I am patiently asking you to rememberthat this physical body is a mask and sometimes you can see these
emotions, but sometimes these emotions are ignored by diversions
you create in this physical life and your mind. I want you to see allthese emotions around you. See how they arise from friendships,
relationships with family, and your spouse. This is how you canconfront your emotions and change them to energy of warmth.
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I want you to see this in your own heart. This is why you havethe ability to change your own suffering and your own darkness.
Your core always gives love and warmth, eternally, never expecting
anything in return. Don’t let your suffering hearts be denied any
longer. Let them come to the warmth, accept the warmth, and realize
they are warmth.
Soon you will feel every agitation, i.e. fight with friends, inlaws, spouse, co-workers, siblings, in your life is an opportunity tosave the darkness within yourself. Your feelings of agitation willcontinuously arise, but the joy is that you will be able to save thesefeelings. You have accumulated so much darkness after so manyreincarnations and we can return the darkness to joy. Reflection is acontinual process of recognizing, addressing and returning to warmth.
This is the cycle. Not only will you feel joyful when you are able tosave yourself, you will find joy during every step of the process. As
soon as you recognize that you have anger or jealousy, you will behappy that you are able to recognize what needs to be saved.
When one is too patient one ends up ignoring the inner turmoil.
This type of patience does not allow you to save yourself. If you holdyour feelings in and are patient, you do not love yourself. When yourfeelings arise in your heart, you need to return that suffering heart towarmth. It is not the time to put aside your emotions and ignore them.
These hearts are suffering and you need to address these emotions.
“Heart of anger, let us turn to warmth.” Saying things such as, “I’mokay, I’m over it,” doesn’t mean you are returning anything to the
122 Our Essential Naturewarmth. You are only ignoring your suffering heart. Please addressthat suffering heart, the pain and say, “hello heart of pain, I am here
to help you, I embrace you and want you to remember your warmth.”That is the key difference.
In addition, if you still blame others in your heart, like your
spouse and acquaintances for the emotional turmoil you are in, thenyou have not saved yourself. You are carrying the same emotions you
have always had. At an uncomfortable moment or altercation, yourtrue feeling rise to the surface and it is at that time you need to catchyour emotions and embrace them with warmth. When you blame
others you will know that you have not saved yourself yet. The heartof blame is a cold heart. As long as you blame others you have notsaved yourself. Take the time and save yourself.

Embrace:
You need to rise above and remember the warmth of motherand remember you are warmth. You have the ability to embrace yourdarkness and surround your suffering heart with your warmth. Do
you feel that? That is how you will return your darkness to warmth.
That is how your darkness will return to joy. Do you feel that? Onceyou surround your darkness with warmth, your darkness will feel so
joyful and light. Once your darkness returns to warmth, you will feellight and joyful. This is how you embrace yourself.
Physically as you outstretch your hands and welcome your123

child into your bosom you wholeheartedly accept them. This is what
you need to do for your own darkness. All darkness and suffering
waits to return to love and joy.
The question is how you embrace yourself. I want to give you
an image of how you do this so that you may save yourself.
As a child cries and needs to be comforted, do you remember
the feeling of your outreached arms waiting to embrace the child,waiting to hold it close to your heart to alleviate the suffering andtears that the child or infant has? Do you know this feeling I am
speaking of? When your child is running around and scrapes himself
or goes to school and is ostracized, you try to comfort them and you
hold them in your arms and say, “it’s going to be okay.”
It is the same thing you will do for your darkness. You need to
speak to your darkness.
I know it sounds strange but you need to call your suffering
heart forward and say:
“I am talking to you. Please listen. I know you have been
suffering so much in your heart. How have you been suffering?
It is our goal to return to joy and I am going to reach out to you
and hold you and hug you because I know you are sufferingso much. Please come here to my bosom and be embraced
because I love you and I want you to return to joy and find thetruth of your existence, which is warmth. I embrace you and hug
124 Our Essential Natureyou. Do you feel my warmth reaching out to you, hugging you,embracing you?”
If you have any questions, always ask the consciousness
of Tomekichi Taike within your heart. Your warmth will always
respond. Find the quiet in your heart and align your heart with theconsciousness of Tomekichi Taike and the answers to answer any
questions that you have will be answered. I will always be here toanswer all of your questions. I am always speaking to your heart.
You only need align your heart to me and I will always speaking to
you from this warmth.
Example 1:[A friend of mine was going through a divorce. He washaving a very difficult time with life. He was feeling very lonely,sad, and depressed. I channeled his suffering heart and histrue warmth. It is as follows:]

Message from your core warmth, consciousness of
Tomekichi Taike:

I know your heart feels it is being squeezed, but don’t let
this physical world control all feelings that you have. You are abeing of incredible warmth that is full of love.
Don’t let these physical manifestations of anxiety control
you. Don’t fall into the hole of despair. Life is here for you to125learn from…it is here for you to have experiences. Don’t takeyour life too seriously. Don’t take all the things that happen to
you too seriously. Please turn your heart during those times
you feel squeezed and suffocated, to the warmth within yourheart. You have that warmth within yourself. Imagine yourself
as a bird soaring in the sky. Let go of everything and feel yourbreath as wide as the blue sky. You are the blue sky. Don’t let
the trivialities of life get you down. You are a ball of warmth.
You are now and always will be. Don’t think you have to live
strangled by this anxiety forever. Please turn your heart toyourself, to your warmth and that warmth will embrace you.
Please suffering heart, turn your heart your warmth. It
will never be too late. This heart is a heart of warmth thatspreads infinitely, and embraces you infinitely. Turn your heart
to this warmth.
Do you know how wide that space in the universe is?
That is your heart. Please don’t get bogged down by theseexperiences in your life. I wait for you to realize your true heart.
Mother is so warm, can you feel how warm it is? She isyour true heart. Your warm mother’s heart can change all thedark hearts you have accumulated. You can save yourself andsave everything. Your heart is wide and bright. Every life has
challenges. Jealousy and rage are opportunities for you to see
the parts of yourself that don’t believe in the warmth. Thesehearts that are the ones needing to be embraced, forgiven. You
126 Our Essential Natureneed to turn them to warmth.
I always want you to remember your warm heart. Pleasetake your warm heart and expand the feeling eternally. Think
about space and the sky. Think about how warm your heart
is and how it can swallow all the darkness, no matter how
overwhelming it may seem. Your heart is larger than everything
so it can swallow your suffering in a whole bit. You can smotheryour darkness with warmth. Everything will become love, joy
and light.
The joy is ever expansive in your heart. It is wide andwarm. I always want you to remember this heart. It is so wide
and warm. Remember this heart in your mind.
I am always here embracing you. You are embracing
yourself. You are embracing and forgiving yourself. Please don’t
forget that it is not another “power” or god that will rescue youfrom your suffering. Only you will save yourself, your sufferingself.
We are one and the same consciousness. This can be a very
difficult concept to understand with your brain and your physicalbody, but if you feel with your heart you will be able to connect
with everyone, with the world of consciousness everywhere. You
will be able to feel everything and you will hear me speaking to
you always. Always…always…spreading love, spreading energy,
spreading warmth, and spreading light. You will feel it always. I
127am speaking to you from your heart. I am speaking to you fromyour heart.
Your warmth is always waiting for you to turn your heart
to the truth, always waiting for you to return to your true heart.
The truth is something so wide and warm and it’s so incredibly
beautiful. It is so spacious and wide. Please, please don’t suffer
in your own black hole. Please stop believing that you are only
your physical body. We are all one. There is no reason why you
must be superior to anyone else. That is not what life is about.
I am asking you to change your way of thinking. I am asking
you to feel with your heart, to feel everything with your heart.
Consciousness is truly so wide and bright. It is so beautiful.
I want you to reawaken your heart. I want you to reawaken
your heart to these vibrations of warmth and energy. I want toremind you that you don’t have to suffer or struggle with life any
more. Once you realize the truth in your heart and you realize
these vibrations of energy that you are, your suffering and yourstruggling will be non-existent.
Once you realize inside, in your heart, that you aremother’s warmth, something truly wonderful happens inside. You
realize that you can embrace all of your darkness and suffering.
The suffering and darkness we speak of are things like your pain,
your loneliness, your frustration, your anxiety, and your stresses.
As you realize that you are the one who can alleviate your own
pain and suffering, you will use your heart of warmth to embrace
128 Our Essential Natureyour darkness. Your darkness has some place to go, that someplace is you.
As you embrace a child, you can embrace yourown darkness. Through the millennia, human beings haveaccumulated mounds of suffering, always believing that thematerial self was the true self. As you believed your physicalself was the real you, you moved farther away from your true
existence which is a heart of warmth. Consequently, as you
moved farther away from your true existence, your suffering
increased. Your suffering, e.g. loneliness, pain, frustration,
anxiety, worry, these are all suffering hearts that emanate fromthe belief in the physical self. These are the false selves you havecreated in your heart. The further away you are from knowing
your true existence, the more loneliness and suffering you feel.
Don’t struggle with yourself any longer. When the truth stares
you in the face and you feel it, you will reawaken to the fact thatstruggling is not necessary in this material life. Your job in this life isto accept the many trials and tribulations of this physical existence.
As you accept, you begin to realize the material world is just a facade.
This is a facade of the true world. The trial and tribulations are tests
for you to find your true self, your true existence. Your husband may
say things that you don’t like and may criticize you. But you muststrive to use those criticisms as your reflection and accept them.
Don’t let the little things in life bog you down. Your husband,spouse, will always show you the worst part of yourself. Your job is to129accept those flaws in yourself. Don’t become angered and blame your
spouse. It is all you. Your spouses are just reflections of the things you
don’t want to accept about yourself. Please see that in your heart. Use
those as tools. Your spouse is love. Your spouse is the greatest love
who will show you your suffering heart. If you just open your heart
and accept and accept and accept all the rage within yourself, you will
see why your spouse is the greatest love.
I know it is not an easy thing to do. I know it is very difficult.
Accepting yourself, the false selves you have created is not an easy
thing to do. Your spouse shows you most readily, easily, the things
about yourself that you are in denial about.
Don’t squander the time you have in your relationship. Learn
from your spouse. They will test the vastness of your heart. That iswhat they are for.

Example 2:[Below is an example of how I reflect in my journal. I firstwrite down all the emotions I am going through and then I try
to reflect to see what is going on here. In this case, I foughtwith my husband about something and he accused me ofbeing proud and sensitive to criticism and my reflection is asort of stream of consciousness babble that helps me get myfeelings out. I don’t compose my reflection. I let my feelings
pour all over the page.]

130 Our Essential NatureJennie’s reflection

I was so mad at my husband…I was so mad…He accusedme of being so prideful and arrogant. I don’t believe I washearing those kinds of things from him. I didn’t understand what
I was hearing. I wish that he would listen to me more, but hewon’t. I was so upset with him…He accused me of not being agood wife. I think that I was so spiteful because he didn’t think
I was the best. I am always looking for some kind of affirmation.
I am a person too. I didn’t realize that I was that kind of person.
I wish that I wasn’t that kind of person. I wish that I wasn’t thatkind of person. I wish that I wasn’t all those things that he said
I was. I really didn’t like that. I really didn’t like that at all. I
wasn’t fond of the fact that he was accusing of me of not beinga good person. I am too proud. Maybe too boastful… I sharewhat I am thinking if people care to ask me. I work so much on
myself that how dare he say those kinds of things to me. Am I
too boastful…am I too proud of myself? I don’t want to say that
I am. I don’t believe that I am. I feel that the things he says tome is a terrible misrepresentation. I don’t appreciate any of thethings that he has said to me. It was really ridiculous.
Am I too proud of myself? I don’t think myself humble,
not too humble…but maybe I am too proud. What do I reallyhate about him? He is so selfish and arrogant. He thinks he isbetter than everyone else and he looks down at people. He has
his nose in the air and thinks he is so much better than everyone
131else. That really gets me. It really gets me mad that he thinks
that….maybe I am too proud…I am too proud of myself. I wantto scream he thinks he is so much better than everyone else…I
guess that is what I think of myself…
[This is a point in my reflection when I begin to recognize
my heart is suffering. I don’t want to end my reflection by
blaming him. I try to see what the situation is trying to tell me
about myself.

Then I begin to have a conversation with theheart that is suffering. It seems strange to talk to yourself in thismanner, but this is how you save yourself. You must speak toyour suffering heart and have a conversation with it.]This proud heart that thinks it is so much better thaneveryone else. Please come here and be embraced…Please beembraced…it is tough thinking that you are better than everyone
all the time. Be embraced. You have been suffering for so long.
You don’t have to be so proud. You are just consciousness. You
don’t have to be so proud any more. You don’t have to be stuckin the thoughts that you are better than everyone else anymore.
You are consciousness. You are a huge consciousness, so warmand bright. You are so wonderful. I know that you are. I knowthat you are so warm and wonderful. Please come here and beembraced by the warmth that you are. You don’t have to stand so
rigidly uptight with your nose down on the world. Standing up
there all alone is quite lonely and an existence of suffering. Don’t
you feel that? How long will you fight to be on top of the world
always suffering like that? You proud heart, please come here and132 Our Essential Naturelet me embrace you and show you the warmth that you are…
[As I speak to myself, I usually receive a message frommy core warmth, from the consciousness of Tomekichi Taike.]
Consciousness of Tomekichi Taike:

The things you see in your spouse are the things you
criticize most about yourself. You think: That cannot be me.
Why? How? “That is all his own behavior” so you think. It
is not…he is your mirror and all the feelings you have toward
him are the feelings you have to yourself. You hate because hedoesn’t listen to you so you have many hearts of hate…but you
also criticize him for being selfish and proud and arrogant…
better than other people. You are seeing the many hearts ofyourself that despise but you are also seeing the proud andarrogant boastful heart that you have. He makes you angry andyou need to learn how to embrace that heart of rage and anger
that arise within you when you fight… You also need to see yourproud and arrogant heart you believe that you don’t have.
[Then I begin to address my suffering heart. I try toembrace my suffering self with my heart of mother and I speak
to my suffering heart.]
Consciousness of Jennie Lai:Hearts of hate…please come here and be embraced by133

my warmth. How long will you hate for? It is such a lonely
existence hating and hating. Please come here and be embracedby this warmth. I am so tired of hating and fighting him all
the time. I am tired of expending this energy for something so
useless. I am tired of it. Please come here this heart of hateand realize that we aren’t better than anyone. We are justconsciousness. It is time to embrace these hearts that arise to
the surface when we are with our spouse…it is time to save thesehearts. I feel like I don’t know what to d and I don’t know where
to go. I feel so lost when I get so mad and angry. I don’t knowwhat to do with these emotions…it is time to save these suffering
selves that don’t know what their existence is.
Please listen to me: your heart is consciousness. It is
warmth. And bright and embracing love. That is all. You
don’t have to hate any longer. There is no point in hating any
longer. You are a heart of warmth that is spreading infinitely
for ever. You are a huge heart of warmth. Is there anythingelse that you need to remember except that this isn’t your true
heart? Your true heart is one of warmth. Your true heart is oneof love. You are warmth. No need to hate and suffer like thisany longer. Please don’t hate any longer…be bright warmththat is embraced…don’t be angry and mad anymore at …. Just
embrace these hearts that arise within you. It is time to dosomething about these emotions that are arising from you. It
is time to embrace these emotions and tell yourself you areconsciousness warm consciousness that is light and huge. Thatis really what you are. That is your truth.
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Don’t ignore the emotions that arise any more.
Immediately when they arise, reflect and change those hearts.
How long do you want to be angry at the world? How long do
you want to be angry with your husband when you aren’t reallyangry with him, per se, at all? The dark energy of anger iscoming out and venting and expressing itself on to your husband,
but he is not really the object of your dissatisfaction. It is yourown screaming heart that is reaching out to you asking to be
saved. That is the truth. Isn’t it time you did something about it?
Isn’t it time you did something about these hearts now?
It is true it is time I did something about these hearts now.
It is really time I did something about these suffering selves. I
really want you to know it is time to do something about it. It is
not time to ignore. It is time to realize, embrace and change. It
is the time to change.

Example 3:[The following is another example of reflection,
meditation, and conversation with my suffering heart. This
example is when I compared myself to those around me andfelt jealous of their material possessions.]
Jennie’s Reflections:That’s right I always felt so jealous of other people. I felt
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so jealous of what material possessions they have. I didn’t want
to see my mirror. I didn’t want to see my mirror so I just ran
away from them instead. I didn’t feel like acknowledging my
jealous heart so I decided to ignore them. I was so upset anddisappointed with myself for even being jealous.
[Here is where I start to try and speak to my heart ofjealousy.]

I just want to tell my jealous self that you don’t have to be
jealous of these haves vs. the have nots. Money is not everything
and this physical world is not the truth. Your consciousness
is your essential being. I understand you are crying out to me
in pain, the only thing surfacing is this emotions jealousy but
I understand that is suffering. I understand that is a true raw
state of suffering. You don’t have to suffer anymore. You don’t
have to be like that. Please come here and let me just embrace
you and wrap my arms around you. Let me tell you that you are
truly a heart of warmth. You are vibrations, energy and you arewarmth. This is your nature. Please don’t forget that. Please
don’t forget that. Please see yourself for what you are. You are
truly a heart of warmth.
There is so much warmth. There is so much warmth anda wide expansiveness exists in your heart. You are not just aheart full of jealousy and rage. You can become warmth. I will
encircle my arms around you to show you what warmth is.

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Hearts of jealousy, sadness, come here. I embrace you.
You are a heart of warmth. You are truly a heart of warmth. Youlive in a comparative world and think you are a little heart thatis jealous of other people. But you are a heart that has run awayfrom the warmth and forgotten the warmth. All you need to do is
to fall into my arms and let me hold you.
[After speaking with myself and acknowledging thesuffering heart of jealousy, my consciousness is happy.
Subsequently, when I meditated I began to feel joyful.]
Consciousness of Jennie:

I feel so free and happy inside. I feel so happy thateveryday I wake up and am excited to meet my false selves. I am
ready to meet these suffering hearts and change them to warmth.
Everyday is warmth , happiness and joy. I feel so happy that I
can finally meet these salves and save them. I am not escaping
them, but I am returning these selves to the original state that I
am. I am turning these selves to what my essential consciousness
is. I am returning myself to the warmth that I am. That makes
me so happy. I am so excited and happy that now I know how tomake myself happy. I finally understand how to save myself andthat brings me such tremendous joy and happiness. I don’t know
how to put this excitement into words. I am so happy.
Let me tell you, that warmth is what you truly are. I
know you are feeling alone and sad, but that is your darkness137

overcoming your warmth. Your true self, the true you, is a heartof warmth and will always be a heart of warmth. The essential
nature of yourself is truly joyful, happy, and grateful.

Yes, I feel embraced by the warmth. It is so warm andbright. I don’t feel lost or sad, lonely anymore. I don’t feel
jealousy, hate, or anger anymore. Why did it take me so longto find this heart? I know inside, I have been screaming to finda place to call home. This is my home, this heart of warmth.
I am so happy to find this home. This is the truth. To all theconsciousnesses out there looking for answers…this is the truth.
If you question whether this is the truth or not, please give ita try. Try to reflect on mother, you will feel something in yourheart, just as I have. You won’t regret that you gave it a shot.
For so long, I have been suffering inside in pain, feelinglost and hopeless, feeling angry and disappointed with thisphysical life, feeling jealous and hating others. I know thesehearts, please, I know you are knocking on my door. I wantto embrace you. Please come to my warmth. We are all
consciousness. We are not physical bodies. There is no death,because consciousness is eternal and we all have the opportunity
to change. My heart has been waiting, it has been waiting forthis opportunity to speak with myself, speak with my many dark
and lost hearts.
[I speak to myself and encourage my suffering heart to138 Our Essential Naturefind the warmth. I know this conversation with your suffering
self seems odd, but this is truly the only way to save yourself.
You must address your suffering heart and ask how it has been
suffering. Then tell it to return to warmth, its origin.]That is not the way, we are consciousness, and we all live
within the flow of consciousness, don’t turn your head to thehole. Look around you to the sky. That is where the warmth is,where mother’s consciousness, where we can remember, turnyour face and look around. You will see there is true warmth,
vibrations all around, can you feel them?
Suffering heart, do you feel this, everybody, you live these
lives that you thought were true, but you are not your physicalbody. You are consciousness and energy and I, we, live together.
You are not suffering or hating anymore. I am telling you arenot. I am right here waiting for you to turn your face. I want totell you, you are not a physical body. You are warmth and heartof light. You don’t have to suffer there anymore. Please turnyour heart to the warmth. Be surrounded by the warmth andlet go of your suffering hearts. Realize you are vibrations andconsciousness.
Suffering heart, we are living together and we have thesame body.
[After addressing my suffering heart, this is what it had
to say:]139

Consciousness of Jennie Lai’s suffering heart:
I think I feel some warmth that you are talking about. I
am not alone anymore. I don’t have to hate anymore. I don’t
have to hate others anymore because I start to realize my heart
is consciousness and I am living in the flow of consciousness.
My heart is warmed. It is bright. It is these vibrations of energy.
I am consciousness. I am energy, vibrations of warmth. I am.
Thank you for waiting for me, all this time I was suffering.
I thought I was all alone, but I am not. If I turn to my heart
and let it be embraced by you, I feel warm. I feel I am changing
and starting to believe I am consciousness. I was scared andlonely for a long time, sad in my misery. I feel something exists
out there. There is flow of consciousness, out there, beyond mybody existing. I don’t want to suffer any more.
[Then I received a message from my core warmth.]

You don’t have to suffer anymore. Don’t have to suffer
anymore. You are a heart of warmth and all here together, livingin the flow. Please turn your heart. Be embrace by warmth.
Doesn’t feel so lovely, comfortable, yes. You are consciousness.
All are consciousness living together.

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Example 4:[This is an example of your core warmth speaking to
your suffering heart.]
Consciousness of Tomekichi Taike, Message to James:

Suffering heart…I am calling to you. Do you feel thisheart of warmth? Do you feel this ever expansive warmth? The
heart I speak to you from is the heart of expansive warmth. It isalways outreaching and embracing you. There is nothing to be
fearful of. That is your dark consciousness speaking out to you.
However, I tell your dark fearful self that you have nothing tofear. The warmth is ever expansive, like the sky, like the ocean,so full of warmth. Do you feel these vibrations of warmth?
Think about your mother when she held you in her arms andencircled you when you were a child. Didn’t you feel safe andembraced? I know you felt safe and embraced.
Your heart is one of incredible warmth. Please think about
your mother and how she embraced you when you were a childand were scared. If you remember what you truly are, warmth,then you can embrace your fear. Your darkness and sadness is
nothing to be feared. These are just parts of you that have losttheir way. They have forgotten their essential nature, which iswarmth. I am asking you to look within your heart to find thewarmth.
Now is the time that change is upon you. I know your141

heart is suffering, but this is a wonderful opportunity for you to
see what is true in this world. I think that if you don’t take thisopportunity to figure out what the truth is for yourself, then yourdarkness will take you into a downward spiral. It will take you
into the depth of your darkness.
Please remember your heart is wide and open like space.
Your heart is as large as the universe and your warmth is equallyencompassing. The true essence, nature of man, is warmth andvibrations of warmth. Please take a moment to sit quietly andthink about your mother and think about what she has done foryou. I think you will find that she has always been giving andsacrificing. She has loved you.
You are warmth, you are not that suffering ball of fear.
Please keep an open mind and heart. I believe you will find that,over time, the medications cannot help you get rid of the fear
and anxiety in your heart. Drugs may not be able to cure that. I
am speaking to your heart always.
Please remember the warmth in your heart. Please takethe time to think about mother. I am waiting for you.
I know it is very difficult for you…this time right now. But
look within your heart to find your warmth. Remember yourmother encircling you, embracing you in her arms. You didn’t
have a worry, or care, or loneliness, or sadness. You were soembraced in that warmth and you were so secure. I want you to
142 Our Essential Naturefind your security again. The warmth is what you are. You arethis secure warm being.
I know you doubt the things I am telling you. You think
it is hocus-pocus. Regardless, consciousness is real. You don’t
die after your physical body dies, it will no longer exist on
this Earth. You can change your heart. You don’t have to besuffering or sad anymore.
Turn your heart to the warmth that you remember fromyour mom. Turn your heart to the warmth.
I don’t want you to forget what your true heart is. Even
if you end your life right now, if you cannot find your true heart
and your warmth, you will be suffering after the death of yourphysical body. Even when you move on from this physical life,
there will be no happiness there.
All around you all the time, there are circumstances that cause
you anger jealousy, happiness, killing, hate, all opportunities withinyour everyday life to see the dark hearts that don’t realize their true
heart. The mission upon you is to look at these emotions one by
one and call them forth and ask them to return to their true state ofwarmth. That is what this study is about. Your waking day is an
opportunity, through your spouse, through your friends, to see theemotions that are arising within you and deal with them. It is not an
opportunity to blame them for causing these emotions within you. It
is an opportunity to look within your heart to see these emotions and143

call them forth and embrace them.
Say “hello heart of anger, please remember that you are nota heart of anger, but one of warmth. I want you to return to yourheart of warmth. I embrace you with this heart of warmth. I don’t
want you to be suffering. Any heart that isn’t a heart of warmth issuffering.” Jealousy, hate, pettiness, complaining, is all hearts ofsuffering. Your hearts don’t need to be suffering any longer. When
you call them out and ask them to return to their true heart, this is all
you can do and embrace them. Once you find the true warmth withinyour heart, your warmth can take those emotions, suffering hearts andembrace them. Turn them into hearts of warmth as well. This is what
we are striving to do. I am asking you to look at your everyday heartand embrace the hearts that arise within you.
Once you embrace the hearts within you, everything around youin the physical world will become peaceful. Look at the world throughyour heart. Look at the emotions your everyday life brings about.
Look at all the feelings that arise within you in every circumstance. If
you live with your in-laws…when you are with your spouse, reflect on
the emotions that your spouse incites within you. He may cheat on you
or lie to you. He may not treat you well, but the first thing to do is lookwithin your heart and call your suffering heart out.
“Heart of anger, you don’t need to be angry anymore. I know
you have been angry for a long time and this is all that you know,
but I am speaking to you to embrace you with this heart of warmth.”
Once you begin to do this, you will see change in yourself and within
144 Our Essential Naturethe world around you. The husband that once made you so angry
will make you less angry, and you will see. Once change begins inyour heart, the physical world will follow your heart. Your husband’s
typical reaction to you will change. Do you understand?
This is the law of vibrations of warmth, the flow of
consciousness. Once you see the darkness within yourself andconcentrate on yourself as the problem. You will see life in thephysical world will become more peaceful and orderly.
Start the change from within, dealing with your emotions. Whenyou see your husband and he makes you so angry and bosses you
around, look at the heart that says, “Who do you think you are?” Lookat this heart that believes, “I am better than you, so who are you to tellme what to do?” You don’t have to be like this anymore. You don’t
have to suffer anymore in the belief of your superiority over others.
You don’t have to be on your thrown anymore. Please, life is not about
this. Your relationship with your spouse can be so much more than
this. Please come here and return to the warmth. Stop spinning outof control fuming off more negative energy. Please come back andembrace yourself many times over. Embrace yourself repetitively.
In the beginning, your emotions run your life, but as you reflect
on mother, idolatry, begin meditations on mother, you can change these
emotions little by little and eventually your heart will find the warmth
within, and you will change into vibrations of warmth and happiness.

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Conclusion: Chapter 10

All is Love
Love existed from the beginning.
All happens within love.
All will return to love.

Love is freedom. The world of consciousness is warmthand love. We have the freedom to create these suffering and sadhearts. We have the freedom to return to warmth and love. Life is an
opportunity of love. Our journey is a full circle of love.
Life is not about suffering. Life is about being joyful. Having aphysical body is about being joyful. Everything in your life, existence,is about being joy. True life is all about joy. Finding the darkness
in your heart, that is joy. Freeing your darkness from the depths ofsuffering, that is joy. That is what living life is all about.
Every step you take towards self-realization is an act of selflove. This is how you respect yourself. This study is about valuing
and caring for yourself with the utmost respect. Do you want to loveyourself? Then begin reflections and meditation on mother. What
greater love is there than to save yourself and help yourself out of thedepths of suffering and misery you feel? This is the most important
step you will take in your whole life. I am waiting for you to takethese steps toward loving yourself. Please love yourself and think it
146 Our Essential Natureimportant enough to alleviate your sad, suffering, and lonely heart.
The most important contribution to society and the world is for you
to love yourself, i.e. save your suffering heart. Please remember tolove yourself and think your suffering heart is important enough to be
saved. Once you begin to save yourself, you will be returning to joy.
The earth itself will be going through unimaginable changes
in the next 300 years, but all happens within love. The natural
catastrophes are an example of the joy that the earth is undergoing. It
is so happy that we are embarking on this return to joy. Can you feelthe waves of love and the joy of the earth?
The consciousness of the earth:I am so happy. In this world of consciousness, ourconsciousness will return to joy. I am so happy that everything
in my being is explosive with joy. I am ready to change with you.
I am so happy. I can only show this by helping you. I will help
you realize that you are warmth and joy within your heart. I will
help you question yourself. I will do everything within my power
to help you look within your heart. Natural disasters are joy.
This physical world you depend on is an instrument to help you
find your true self. I am so full of joy. Can you feel my joy? I
am so happy to show you my joy. In the next 250 years I will bechanging much to show you the joy within my heart. This is thejourney of consciousness. This is the consciousness of the earth.
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is a journey back to joy. Let us meet in 250 years in New York Cityand begin the miracle of change in the universe.
Everything that happens is love. All events and circumstances
in your physical life are opportunities to meet your suffering self.
Things that happen in your life allow your unhappy thoughts riseto the surface like oil on water. It is up to you to identify and saveyourself, return yourself to joy. Every circumstance in this physicallife is an opportunity to meet the unhappy selves within your depths.
Don’t squander the opportunities to save yourself.
We will all find the way back to our hearts. Do you understandwhat I mean? Everything happening on the earth is all an act of love.
Everything is love and helping us fulfill our destiny of returning tolove.
In the world of consciousness there is no passage of time; past,present, future, exist as one. Thus change is occurring in the future.
At this moment, you face this incredible opportunity of change.
Please join us in this place, in this world of consciousness. Whether
you choose to hop along the journey is your choice. The journey of
consciousness, itself, is underway.
The future is already underway, happening in our hearts. A
world of change begins and our spirits are unifying and embracing
the change to warmth. We are paving the way currently for thechange. Our keyword is change. The universe waits to change. It isa revolution and evolution of consciousness. There is an evolution in
148 Our Essential Naturethe way people think about what they really are. This change is under
way in the present and in the future.
Please choose to commence on your journey. Please meetyour true self and meet us in the future. Mother's reflection is thestarting point to understand the truth and incredible joy. You will findthat warmth is power. Warmth is power and joy. It has the power tochange everything. It has the potential to heal your soul, heal all of
your suffering hearts.
Your heart has the capacity to tell you about the truth of yourexistence. It has the ability to tell you how to live. Please use yourheart to lead the way. Your true heart is always waiting for you. Your
heart of warmth always waits. These vibrations are ever expandingin your heart. Can you feel them? Now is the time, not to think withyour brain, but to understand with the heart. I know in the beginning,it may be a difficult concept to understand. But I ask you to use
your heart to feel the warmth, that is the truth. Use your heart tounderstand the words that I am saying, that are written. I ask you tofeel with your heart. Interpret your life with your heart. Please use
your heart to lead the way. All I ask you is to return to that truth inyour heart.

Consciousness of Jennie Lai:

I feel the energy, the vibrations of warmth reaching out tous. I realize we are these vibrations of warmth and we are so149happy to understand and know that in the future we will all bemeeting once again like old friends. Let us move on and change
the entire universe to warmth. We are realizing we are all
consciousness. We are happily waiting to change. In our hearts,
we are all waiting to return to the truth, the warmth. We are sohappy waiting for this moment.

Consciousness of Tomekichi Taike:

We are so happy to know that the next leg of our journeyis underway, the future of New York City is happening now. We
are all changing our hearts to meet you. We will meet you in thenear future, we are so happy. Everything that happens, from now
till then, will happen in the blink of an eye. We have created thefoundation for this study. As we enter the next leg of our journey,
we expect many changes to arise on the earth. We are all joyful.
We are all joyfully waiting for that time. We may all have arevelation and a true Copernican like change in our heart. We
are consciousness. Thank you.
It is our mission to move beyond the physical body andrecall and to feel that we are truly consciousness in our heart. I
am waiting in the future. I am waiting with my arms outreached,embracing and sending waves of love, radiating through space
and time. I am already here in 250 years in New York City. It is
not a reality that is to come. It is a reality that is happening. It
is already happening. Please turn your heart and feel that your
150 Our Essential Natureeveryday existence is not your true existence.
It doesn’t matter how long it takes to do the steps necessary
for change. As you reflect and meditate more and more, yourwarmth will grow exponentially within. Just looking at yourheart will become a joyful opportunity for change. At the end of
the day we will all return to love.
Everything that happens, in this life and the next, is all joy.
Once you align yourself to the warmth and can see what this life isabout, then you will see that everything in your physical life is an
opportunity for you to see your suffering hearts so you may return
to joy. As each suffering heart returns to joy, your warmth grows.
Please don’t squander the moments when you identify youremotions, the little bits of jealousy, hate, you think you are better
than others. Those are the wondrous opportunities when change
can take place. They are the little opportunities talk to your self
and return that self to joy. If you do this, I guarantee that you willfind joy and happiness in your heart.

Remember:
ALL IS LOVE.

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