Where to start? 

I read the page about adoption. It would have probably been the greatest thing to start there, but now its probably not the best option. I am having a problem assuming the good faith others. I even considered making a sock puppet to post here, but it just seemed too juvenile. Do you have the time to show me the best way to address some negative things I have said to people? If you are working on something, I totally understand. I can wait.