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You have previously been blocked for, among oter things, trolling and pagemoves, as well as incivility. In all honesty, that is not something Esperanza needs in a member. As your member status is disputed (I've noted that on the member list), I chose to not add your status. I suppose you could readd yourself if you decide to note that your status as an Esperanzian is disputed. [[WP:EA|E]] (T+C) at 06:39 UTC (2006-03-15)

""I suppose you could readd yourself if you decide to note that your status as an Esperanzian is disputed.""

How do I if that has already been noted by you? 

Please let me explain myself- The trolling wasn't intended to be trolling. I don't want to troll and make users unhappy. Sometimes I may post something that I didn't know was trolling beforehand, but I learn each time, and try to keep everyone feeling fine about me and my contributions. The page move was because a username sounded inappropriate, so I thought it had to be pagemoved. An admin apparently decided it wasn't inappropriate after all. 

I wish to start fresh and have a much better time on Wikipedia. Please let me join. I'm already depressed as it is by someone else. I'm trying as best as I can to be a model Wikipedian. You don't know how much I would love to be a part of Esperanza. This support group will make me feel much better about all of WP."