Your edits were clearly disruptive and I don't think that administrators are willing to waste time with someone who isn't here to help, and your comments will not help them. I suggest you consider two options: Either the standard offer or consider mentorship by an experienced editor because you have lost the community's trust on Wikipedia. One that trust is lost, it's difficult to recover, regardless of your intentions. It's your only second chance out.    (I have • spoken.)