# Broken Ties and other Stories/Broken Ties/Chapter 1

Broken Ties
When I first met Satish he appeared to me like a constellation of stars, his eyes shining, his tapering fingers like flames of fire, his face glowing with a youthful radiance. I was surprised to find that most of his fellow-students hated him, for no other fault than that he resembled himself more than he resembled others. Because with men, as well as with some insects, taking the colour of the surroundings is often the best means of self-protection.
The students in the hostel where I lived could easily guess my reverence for Satish. This caused them discomfort, and they never missed an opportunity of reviling him in my hearing. If you have a speck of grit in your eye it is best not to rub it. And when words smart it is best to leave them unanswered.
​But one day the calumny against Satish was so gross that I could not remain silent.
Yet the trouble was that I hardly knew anything about Satish. We never had even a word between us, while some of the other students were his close neighbours, and some his distant relatives. These affirmed, with assurance, that what they said was true; and I affirmed, with even greater assurance, that it was incredible. Then all the residents of the hostel bared their arms, and cried: ‘What impertinence!’
That night I was vexed to tears. Next day, in an interval between lectures, when Satish was reading a book lying at full length on the grass in College Square, I went up to him without any introduction, and spoke to him in a confused manner, scarcely knowing what I said. Satish shut his book, and looked in my face. Those who have not seen his eyes will not know what that look was like.
Satish said to me: ‘Those who libel me do so, not because they love to know the truth, but because they love to believe evil of me. Therefore it is useless to try to prove to them that the calumny is untrue.’
‘But,’ I said, ‘the liars must be——’
​‘They are not liars,’ interrupted Satish.
‘I have a neighbour,’ he went on, ‘who has epileptic fits. Last winter I gave him a blanket. My servant came to me in furious temper, and told me that the boy only feigned the disease. These students who malign me are like that servant of mine. They believe what they say. Possibly my fate has awarded me an extra blanket which they think would have suited them better.’
I asked him a question: ‘Is it true what they say, that you are an atheist?’
He said: ‘Yes.’
I bent my head to the ground. I had been arguing with my fellow-students that Satish could not possibly be an atheist.
I had received two severe blows at the outset of my short acquaintance with Satish. I had imagined that he was a Brahman, but I had come to know that Satish belonged to a Bania family, and I in whose veins flowed a bluer blood was bound duly to despise all Banias. Secondly, I had a rooted belief that atheists were worse than murderers, nay, worse even than beef-eaters.
Nobody could have imagined, even in a dream, that I would ever sit down and take my meals with a Bania student, or that my fanatical zeal in ​the creed of atheism would surpass even that of my instructor. Yet both these things came to pass.
Wilkins was our professor in the College. His learning was on level with his contempt for his pupils. He felt that it was a menial occupation to teach literature to Bengali students. Therefore, in our Shakespeare class, he would give us the synonym for ‘cat’ as ‘a quadruped of the feline species.’ But Satish was excused from taking notes. The Professor told him: ‘I will make good to you the hours wasted in this class when you come to my room.’
The other less favoured students used to ascribe this indulgent treatment of Satish to his fair complexion and to his profession of atheism. Some of the more worldly-wise among them went to Wilkins’s study with a great show of enthusiasm to borrow from him some book on Positivism. But he refused, saying that it would be too hard for them. That they should be held unfit even to cultivate atheism made their minds all the more bitter against Satish.
Jagamohan was Satish’s uncle. He was a notorious atheist of that time. It would be in​adequate to say that he did not believe in God. One ought rather to say that he vehemently believed in no God. As the business of a captain in the navy is rather to sink ships than to steer, so it was Jagamohan’s business to sink the creed of theism, wherever it put its head above the water.
The order of his arguments ran like this:
* If there be a God, then we must owe our intelligence to Him.
* But our intelligence clearly tells us that there is no God.
* Therefore God Himself tells us that there is no God.
‘Yet you Hindus,’ he would continue, ‘have the effrontery to say that God exists. For this sin thirty-three million gods and goddesses exact penalties from you people, pulling your ears hard for your disobedience.’
Jagamohan was married when he was a mere boy. Before his wife died he had read Malthus. He never married again.
His younger brother, Harimohan, was the father of Satish. Harimohan’s nature was so exactly the opposite of his elder brother’s that people might suspect me of fabricating it for the purpose of ​writing a story. But only stories have to be always on their guard to sustain their reader’s confidence. Facts have no such responsibility, and laugh at our incredulity. So, in this world, there are abundant instances of two brothers, the exact opposites of one another, like morning and evening.
Harimohan, in his infancy, had been a weakly child. His parents had tried to keep him safe from the attacks of all maladies by barricading him behind amulets and charms, dust taken from holy shrines, and blessings bought from innumerable Brahmans at enormous expense. When Harimohan grew up, he was physically quite robust, yet the tradition of his poor health lingered on in the family. So nobody claimed from him anything more arduous than that he should continue to live. He fulfilled his part, and did hold on to his life. Yet he never allowed his family to forget for a moment that life in his case was more fragile than in most other mortals. Thus he managed to divert towards himself the undivided attention of all his aunts and his mother, and had specially prepared meals served to him. He had less work and more rest than other members of the family. He was never allowed to forget that he was under the special protection, not only of his aforesaid mother and ​aunts, but also of the countless gods and goddesses presiding in the three regions of earth, heaven, and air. He thus acquired an attitude of prayerful dependence towards all the powers of the world, both seen and unseen,—sub-inspectors, wealthy neighbours, highly placed officials, let alone sacred cows and Brahmans.
Jagamohan’s anxieties went altogether in an opposite direction. He would give a wide berth to men of power, lest the slightest suspicion of snobbishness should cling to him. It was this same sentiment which had greatly to do with his defiance of the gods. His knees were too stiff to bend before those from whom favour could be expected.
Harimohan got himself married at the proper time, that is to say, long before the time. After three sisters and three brothers, Satish was born. Everybody was struck by his resemblance to his uncle, and Jagamohan took possession of him, as if he were his own son.
At first Harimohan was glad of this, having regard to the educational advantage of the arrangement; for Jagamohan had the reputation of being the most eminent scholar of that period.
He seemed to live within the shell of his English books. It was easy to find the rooms he ​occupied in the house by the rows of books about the walls, just as it is easy to find out the bed of a stream by its lines of pebbles.
Harimohan petted and spoilt his eldest son, Purandar, to his heart’s content. He had an impression that Purandar was too delicate to survive the shock of being denied anything he wanted. His education was neglected. No time was lost in getting him married, and yet nobody could keep him within the connubial limits. If Harimohan’s daughter-in-law expressed any disapprobation of his vagaries in that direction, Harimohan would get angry with her and ascribe his son’s conduct to her want of tact and charm.
Jagamohan entirely took charge of Satish to save him from similar paternal solicitude. Satish acquired a mastery of the English language while he was still a child, and the inflammatory doctrines of Mill and Bentham set his brain on fire, till he began to burn like a living torch of atheism.
Jagamohan treated Satish, not as his junior, but as his boon companion. He held the opinion that veneration in human nature was a superstition, specially designed to make men into slaves. Some son-in-law of the family wrote to him a letter, with the usual formal beginning:
​‘To the gracious feet of——'
Jagamohan wrote an answer, arguing with him as follows:
   My dear Noren—Neither you nor I know what special significance it gives to the feet to call them ‘gracious.’ Therefore the epithet is worse than useless, and had better be dropped. And then it is apt to give one a nervous shock when you address your letter only to the feet, completely ignoring their owner. But you should understand, that so long as my feet are attached to my body, you should never dissociate them from their context.
   Next, you should bear in mind that human feet have not the advantage of prehensibility, and it is sheer madness to offer anything to them, confounding their natural function.
   Lastly, your use of the plural inflection to the word ‘feet,’ instead of the dual, may denote special reverence on your part (because there are animals with four feet which have your particular veneration) but I consider it my duty to disabuse your mind of all errors concerning my own zoological identity.—Yours, Jagamohan.
Jagamohan used to discuss with Satish subjects which are usually kept out of sight in conversation. If people objected to this plainness of speech with one so young, he would say that you can only drive away hornets by breaking in their nest. So you can only drive away the shamefulness of certain subjects by piercing through the shame itself.
When Satish had completed his College course, ​Harimohan tried his best to extricate him from his uncle’s sphere of influence. But when once the noose is fixed round the neck, it only grows tighter by pulling at it. Harimohan became more and more annoyed at his brother, the more Satish proved recalcitrant. If this atheism of his son and elder brother had been merely a matter of private opinion, Harimohan could have tolerated it. He was quite ready to pass off dishes of fowl as ‘kid curry’. But matters had now become so desperate that even lies became powerless to whitewash the culprits. What brought things to a head was this:
The positive side of Jagamohan’s atheistic creed consisted in doing good to others. He felt a special pride in it, because doing good, for an atheist, was a matter of unmitigated loss. It had no allurements of merit and no deterrents of punishment in the hereafter. If he was asked what concern he had in bringing about ‘the greatest happiness of the greatest number,’ he used to answer that his best incentive was that he could expect nothing in return. He would say to Satish:
‘Baba, we are atheists. And therefore the very ​pride of it should keep us absolutely stainless. Because we have no respect for any being higher than ourselves, therefore we must respect ourselves.’
There were some leather shops in the neighbourhood kept by Muhammadans. The uncle and nephew bestirred themselves with great zeal in doing good to these Muhammadans and their untouchable leather workers!’ This made Harimohan beside himself with indignation. Since he knew that any appeal to Scriptures, or to tradition, would have no effect upon these two renegades, he complained to his brother concerning the wasting of his patrimony.
‘When my expenditure,’ his brother answered, ‘comes up to the amount you have spent upon your full-fed Brahman priests, we shall be quits.’
One day Harimohan’s people were surprised to find that a preparation was going on in Jagamohan’s quarters for a grand feast. The cooks and waiters were all Mussulmans. Harimohan called for his son, and said to him angrily:
‘I hear that you are going to give a feast to all your reverend friends, the leather workers.’
​Satish replied that he was far too poor to think of it. His uncle had invited them.
Purandar, Satish’s elder brother, was equally indignant. He threatened to drive all the unclean guests away. When Harimohan expressed his protest to his brother, he answered:
‘I never make any objection to your offering food to your idols. You should make no objection to my offering food to my gods.’
‘Your gods!” exclaimed Harimohan.
‘Yes, my gods,’ his brother answered.
‘Have you become a theist all of a sudden?’ sneered Harimohan.
‘No!’ his brother replied. ‘Theists worship the God who is invisible. You idolaters worship gods who are visible, but dumb and deaf. The gods I worship are both visible and audible, and it is impossible not to believe in them.’
‘Do you really mean to say,’ cried Harimohan, ‘that these leather workers and Mussulmans are your gods?’
‘Indeed, they are,’ said Jagamohan; ‘you shall see their miraculous power when I put food before them. They will actually swallow it, which I defy your gods to do. It delights my heart to see my gods perform such divine wonders. If ​you are not morally blind, it will delight your heart also.’
Purandar came to his uncle, and told him in a high-pitched voice that he was prepared to take desperate measures to stop the proceedings. Jagamohan laughed at him, and said:
‘You monkey! If you ever try to lay hands on my gods, you will instantly discover how powerful they are, and I shall not have to do anything to defend them.’
Purandar was even a greater coward than his father. He was a tyrant only where he was sure of receiving submission. In this case he did not dare to pick a quarrel with his Muhammadan neighbours. So he came to Satish, and reviled him. Satish gazed at him with those wonderful eyes of his, and remained silent.
The feast was a great success.
Harimohan could not take this insult passively. He declared war. The property on whose income the whole family subsisted was a temple endowment. Harimohan brought a suit in the law court against his brother, accusing him of such grave breaches of propriety as made him unworthy of ​remaining the trustee of a religious endowment. Harimohan had as many witnesses as ever he wished. The whole Hindu neighbourhood was ready to support him.
Jagamohan professed in open court that he had no faith in gods or idols of any description whatever; that all eatable food was for him food to be eaten; that he never bothered his head to find out the particular limb of Brahma from which the Muhammadans had issued, and therefore he had not the smallest hesitation in taking food in their company.
The judge ruled Jagamohan to be unfit to hold the temple property. Jagamohan’s lawyers assured him that the decision could be upset by an appeal to the higher Court. But Jagamohan refused to appeal. He said he could not cheat even the gods whom he did not believe in. Only those who had the intelligence to believe such things had the conscience to cheat them.
His friends asked him: ‘How are you going to maintain yourself?’
He answered: ‘If I have nothing else to eat, I shall be content to gulp down my last breath.’
After this, a partition was made of the family house. A wall was raised from the ground floor ​to the upper storey, dividing the house into two parts.
Harimohan had great faith in the selfish sanity of prudence in human nature. He was certain that the savour of good living would tempt Satish into his golden trap, away from the empty nest of Jagamohan. But Satish gave another proof that he had neither inherited his father’s conscience nor his sanity. He remained with his uncle.
Jagamohan was so accustomed to look upon Satish as his own that he was not surprised to find him remaining on his side after the partition.
But Harimohan knew his brother’s temperament very well. He went about talking to people, explaining that the reason why Jagamohan did not let go his hold on Satish was that he expected to make a good thing out of Satish’s presence, keeping him as a kind of hostage.
Harimohan almost shed tears while he said to his neighbour: ‘Could my brother ever imagine that I was going to starve him? Since he is cunning enough to concoct this diabolical plot against me, I shall wait and see whether he is cleverer than I am.’
Harimohan’s talk about Satish reached Jagamohan’s ears. Jagamohan was surprised at his ​own stupidity in not anticipating such a turn of events.
He said: ‘Good-bye, Satish.’
Satish was absolutely certain that nothing could make Jagamohan change his mind, so he had to take his leave, after having spent his eighteen years of life in his uncle’s company.
When Satish had put his books and bedding on the top of the carriage, and driven away, Jagamohan shut the door of his room, and flung himself on the floor. When evening came, and the old servant knocked at the door with the lighted lamp, he got no answer.
Alas for the greatest happiness of the greatest number! The estimate in number is not the only measure of human affairs. The man who counts ‘one’ may go beyond all arithmetic when the heart does the sum. When Satish took his departure, he at once became infinite to Jagamohan.
Satish went into a students’ lodging to share a room with one of his friends. Harimohan shed tears while meditating on the neglect of filial duties in this god-forsaken age. Harimohan had a very tender heart.
After the partition, Purandar dedicated a room in their portion of the house to the family god. ​It gave him a peculiar pleasure to know that his uncle must be execrating him for the noise raised every morning and every evening by the sacred conches and prayer gongs.
In order to maintain himself, Satish secured a post as a private tutor. Jagamohan obtained an appointment as head master of a high school. And it became a religious duty with Harimohan and Purandar to persuade parents and guardians to take away their boys from the malign influence of the atheist Jagamohan.
One day, after a very long interval of absence, Satish came to Jagamohan. These two had given up the usual form of greeting which passes between elder and younger.
Jagamohan embraced Satish, led him to a chair, and asked him for the news.
There was news indeed!
A girl named Nonibala had taken shelter with her widowed mother in the house of the mother’s brother. So long as her mother lived, there was no trouble. But a short time ago her mother had died. Her cousins were rascals. One of their ​friends had taken away this girl, Then, suspecting her of infidelity, after a while he made her life a constant torture. This had happened in the house next to the one where Satish had his tutorship. Satish wanted to save her from this misery, but he had no money or shelter of his own. Therefore he had come to his uncle. The girl was about to give birth to a child.
Jagamohan, when he heard the story, was filled with indignation. He was not the man to calculate coldly the consequence of his deeds, and he at once said to his nephew: ‘I have the room in which I keep my books. I can put the girl there.’
‘But what about your books?’ Satish asked in surprise. Very few books, however, were now remaining. During the time when he had been unable to secure an appointment, he had been obliged to eke out a living by selling his books.
Jagamohan said: ‘Bring the girl at once.’
‘She is waiting downstairs,’ said Satish. ‘I have brought her here.’ Jagamohan ran downstairs, and found the girl crouching in the corner, wrapped in her sari, looking like a bundle of clothes.
Jagamohan, in his deep bass voice, said at once: ‘Come, little Mother, why do you sit in the dust?’
The girl covered her face, and burst into tears. ​Jagamohan was not a man to give way to emotion, but his eyes were wet as he turned to Satish and said: ‘The burden that this girl is bearing is ours.’
Then he said to the girl: ‘Mother, don’t be shy on my account. My schoolfellows used to call me “Mad Jagai,” and I am the same madcap even now.’
Then, without hesitation, he took the girl by both her hands, and raised her. The veil dropped from off her face.
The girl’s face was fresh and young, and there was no line of hardness or vice in it. The inner purity of her heart had not been stained, just as a speck of dust does not soil a flower. Jagamohan took Nonibala to his upper room, and said to her: ‘Mother, look what a state my room is in! The floor is all unswept. Everything is upside down; and as for myself, I have no fixed hour for my bath or my meals. Now that you have come to my house, everything will be put right, and even this mad Jagai will be made respectable.’
Nonibala had never felt before, even when her mother lived, how much one person could be to another; because her mother had looked upon her, not so much as a daughter, but as a young girl who had to be watched.
​Jagamohan employed an elderly woman servant to help Nonibala. At first Noni was afraid lest Jagamohan should refuse to take food from her hand because of her impurity. But it turned out that Jagamohan refused to take his meals unless they were cooked and served by Noni.
Jagamohan was aware that a great wave of calumny was about to break over his head. Noni also felt that it was inevitable, and she had no peace of mind. Within a day or two it began.
The servant who waited on her had at first supposed that Noni was Jagamohan’s daughter. But she came one day, saying hard things to Noni, and resigned her service in contempt. Noni became pale with fear, thinking of Jagamohan.
Jagamohan said to her: ‘My little Mother, the full moon is up in the horizon of my life, so the time is ripe for the flood-tide of revilement. But, however muddy the water may become, it will never stain my moonlight.’
An aunt of Jagamohan’s came to Harimohan’s quarters, and said to him ‘Jagai, what a disgrace, what a disgrace! Wipe off this stain of sin from your house.’
Jagamohan answered: ‘You are pious people, and this advice is worthy of you. But if I try to ​drive away all relics of sin, what will become of the sinner?’
Some old grandmother of a woman came to him, and said: ‘Send this wench away to the hospital. Harimohan is ready to bear all the cost.’
Jagamohan said: ‘But she is my mother. Because some one is ready to pay expenses, should I send my mother to the hospital?’
The grandmother opened her eyes wide with surprise and said: ‘Who is this you call your mother?’
Jagamohan replied: ‘Her who nourished life within her womb, and risks her life to give birth to children. I cannot call that scoundrel-father of the child “Father.” He can only cause trouble, keeping himself safely out of it.’
Harimohan’s whole body shrank with the utter infamy of the thing. That a fallen woman should be sheltered only on the other side of the wall, and in the midst of a household sacred to the memory of generations of mothers and grandmothers! The disgrace was intolerable.
Harimohan at once surmised that Satish was mixed up in this affair, and that his uncle was encouraging him in his shameful conduct. He ​was so sure of his facts that he went about spreading the news. Jagamohan did not say a single word to contradict him.
‘For us atheists,’ he said, ‘the only heaven waiting for good deeds is calumny.’
The more the rumour of Jagamohan’s doings became distorted, the more he seemed to enjoy it, and his laughter rang loud in the sky. Harimohan and respectable people of his class could never imagine that the uncle could go so far as to jest openly on such a subject, and indulge in loud unseemly buffoonery about it with his own nephew.
Though Purandar had been carefully avoiding that part of the house where his uncle lived, he vowed that he would never rest till he had driven the girl away from her shelter.
At the time when Jagamohan had to go to his school he would shut up all access to his quarters, and he would come back the moment he had any leisure to see how Noni was faring.
One day at noon Purandar, with the help of a bamboo ladder, crossed the boundary wall and jumped down into Jagamohan’s part of the house. Nonibala had been resting after the morning meal. The door of her room was open. Purandar, when ​he saw the sleeping figure of Noni, gave a great start, and shouted out in anger: ‘So you are here, are you?'
Noni woke up and saw Purandar before her. She became pale as death, and her limbs shrank under her. She felt powerless to run away or to utter a single word.
Purandar, trembling with rage, shouted out: ‘Noni!’
Just then Jagamohan entered the room from behind, and cried: ‘Get out of this room.’
Purandar’s whole body began to swell up like an angry cat.
Jagamohan said: ‘If you don’t get out at once, I will call in the police.’
Purandar darted a terrible glance at Noni, and went out. Noni fainted.
Jagamohan now understood the whole situation. By questioning, he found out that Satish had been aware that Purandar had seduced Noni; but, fearing an angry brawl, he had not informed Jagamohan of the fact.
For days after this incident Noni trembled like a bamboo leaf. Then she gave birth to a dead child.
One midnight Purandar had driven Noni away ​from her room, kicking her in anger. Since then he had sought her in vain. When he suddenly found her in his uncle’s house, he was seized with an uncontrollable passion of jealousy. He was sure that Satish had enticed her away from him, to keep her for his own pleasure, and had then put her in the very next house to his own in order to insult him. This was more than any mortal man could bear.
Harimohan heard all about it. Indeed, Purandar never took any pains to hide these doings from his father, for his father looked upon his son’s moral aberrations with a kindly indulgence. But Harimohan thought it contrary to all notions of decency for Satish to snatch away this girl whom his elder brother, Purandar, had looked upon with favour. He devoutly hoped that Purandar would be successful in recovering his spoil.
It was the time of the Christmas holidays. Jagamohan attended Noni night and day. One evening he was translating a novel of Sir Walter Scott’s to her, when Purandar burst into the room with another young man.
When Jagamohan was about to call for the police, the young man said: ‘I am Noni’s cousin. I have come to take her away.’
​Jagamohan caught hold of Purandar by his neck, and shoved him out of the room and down the stairs. He then turned to the other young man and said: ‘You are a villain and a scoundrel! You assert this cousin’s right of yours to wreck her life, not to protect her.’
The young man hurried away. But when he had got to a safe distance, he threatened Jagamohan with legal steps in order to rescue his ward.
Noni said within herself: “O Earth, open and swallow me up!’
Jagamohan called Satish, and said to him: ‘Let me leave this place and go to some upcountry town with Noni. It will kill her if this is repeated.’
Satish urged that his brother was certain to follow her when once he had got the clue.
‘Then what do you propose?’ said Jagamohan.
‘Let me marry Noni,’ was the answer.
‘Marry Noni!’
‘Yes, according to the civil marriage rites.’
Jagamohan stood up and went to Satish, and pressed him to his heart.
Since the partition of the house, Harimohan had not once entered the house to see his elder brother. But that day he came in, dishevelled, and said:
‘Dada, what disaster is this you are planning?’
‘I am saving everybody from disaster,’ said Jagamohan.
‘Satish is just like a son to you,’ said Harimohan, ‘and yet you can have the heart to see him married to that woman of the street!’
‘Yes,’ he replied, ‘I have brought him up almost as my own son, and I consider that my pains have borne fruit at last.’
‘Dada,’ said Harimohan, ‘I humbly acknowledge my defeat at your hands. I am willing to write away half my property to you, if only you will not take revenge on me like this.’
Jagamohan started up from his chair and bellowed out:
‘You want to throw me your dirty leavings, as you throw a dog a bone! I am an atheist—remember that! I am not a pious man like you! I neither take revenge, nor beg for favours.’
Harimohan hastened round to Satish’s lodgings. He cried out to him:
​‘Satish! What in the world are you going to do? Can you think of no other way of ruining yourself? Are you determined to plunge the whole family into this hideous shame?’
Satish answered: ‘I have no particular desire to marry. I only do it in order to save my family from hideous shame.’
Harimohan shouted: ‘Have you not got the least spark of conscience left in you? That girl, who is almost like a wife to your brother—’
Satish caught him up sharply: ‘What? Like a wife. Not that word, sir, if you please!’
After that, Harimohan became wildly abusive in his language, and Satish remained silent.
What troubled Harimohan most was that Purandar openly advertised his intention to commit suicide if Satish married Noni. Purandar’s wife told him that this would solve a difficult problem—if only he would have the courage to do it.
Satish sedulously avoided Noni all these days, but, when the proposed marriage was settled, Jagamohan asked Satish that Noni and he should try to know each other better before they were united in wedlock. Satish consented.
Jagamohan fixed a date for their first talk together. He said to Noni:
​‘My little Mother, you must dress yourself up for this occasion.’
Noni bent her eyes to the ground.
‘No, no,’ said he, ‘don’t be shy, Noni. I have a great longing to see you nicely dressed, and you must satisfy my desire.’
He had specially selected some Benares silk and a bodice and veil for Noni. He gave these things to her.
Noni prostrated herself at his feet. This made Jagamohan get up hurriedly. He snatched away his feet from her embrace, and said:
‘I see, Noni, I have miserably failed in clearing your mind of all this superstitious reverence. I may be your elder in age, but don’t you know you are greater than I am, for you are my mother?’
He kissed her on her forehead and said:
‘I have had an invitation to go out, and I shall be late back this evening.’
Noni clasped his hand and said:
‘Baba, I want your blessing to-night.’
Jagamohan replied:
‘Mother, I see that you are determined to turn me into a theist in my old age. I wouldn’t give a brass farthing for a blessing, myself. Yet I cannot help blessing you when I see your face.’
​Jagamohan put his hand under her chin, and raised her face, and looked into it silently, while tears ran down her cheeks.
In the evening a man ran up to the place where Jagamohan was having his dinner, and brought him back to his house.
He found the dead body of Noni, stretched on the bed, dressed in the things he had given her. In her hand was a letter. Satish was standing by her head. Jagamohan opened the letter, and read:
   Baba, forgive me. I could not do what you wanted. I tried my best, but I could never forget him. My thousand salutations to your gracious feet.—Nonibala, the Sinner.
* ↑ In Bengal kid curry is often eaten without blame. But fowl curry would come within the prohibitions.
* ↑ A term of endearment, literally ‘father.’
* ↑ As leather is made from the hides of dead animals, those who work in leather are regarded as unclean by orthodox Hindus. Only the very lowest castes are tanners.
* ↑ This greeting in Bengal is for the younger to touch the feet of the elder.
* ↑ The reference is to Sita in the Ramayana, who uttered this cry when in extreme trouble.
* ↑ Elder brother.