# Wife No. 19/Chapter 25
### CHAPTER XXV.
#### MY EARLY MARRIED LIFE. — MY HUSBAND AND MY MOTHER!

* My early married Life.
* We go to live with my Mother.
* Incompatibility of Temper.
* How my Mother had opposed our Marriage.
* My Husband does not Admire Her.
* He goes after the Girls.
* I don't like it at All.
* I become extremely angry with Him.
* He is advised to "increase his Kingdom."
* How promises to Wives are broken by Mormon Men.
* How Women are Snubbed and Undervalued.
* I become Anxious and Watchful.
* How Heber comforted his Wives.
* My Husband subjects me to personal Violence.
* He is afraid of Results.
* My first Baby is Born.
* Zina Young marries into Polygamy.
* Contrast between Mormon and Gentile Husbands.
* "The Bull never Cares for the Calves."
* My Husband nearly strangles me.
* I leave him, and go to my Parents.
* Brigham gives me some good Advice.
* I obtain a Divorce.
* I rejoice at being free Again.
Family Jars.HEN I was first married, we went to live in the house with my mother, greatly to her delight, as she could not bear a separation from me. We had always been together so closely, more like sisters than like mother and daughter, and both of us dreaded very much to have this sweet relationship broken. I had been her comfort when every other stay had failed her; her hope when she was almost utterly hopeless. She had lived in me and for me, ​Page:Wife No 19.djvu/417 ​Page:Wife No 19.djvu/418 ​Page:Wife No 19.djvu/419 ​Page:Wife No 19.djvu/420 ​But I was doomed to disappointment; after the birth of my child, it seemed as though the fits of passion were more frequent and of longer duration. He neglected me, and was scarcely at home at all. He did not care for my baby, seeming to consider it a rival, and my love for it seemed to anger him. But what a comfort the baby was to me! How I loved it! All the tide of my affection, that had been so rudely repelled, turned towards it, and I felt that all the interest of my life was centred therein. Like all Mormon women, robbed of a husband's love and care, I should live My Baby-Boy. in and for my child. I knew very well that as far as regaining my husband's real affection was concerned — if, indeed, I had ever possessed it, — the future was hopeless; so I expected nothing from it further, and resigned myself to the inevitable more quietly than I could have believed I ever should have done; but my child made resignation more easy.
The little fellow was very bright and winning, and I used to imagine that he understood my feelings, and sympathized with me in his baby way. The little hands stray​Page:Wife No 19.djvu/422 ​Page:Wife No 19.djvu/423 ​Page:Wife No 19.djvu/424 ​There was a heavy jar on the shelf, which I feared he might pull down upon himself, and I remonstrated against his trying to get it. I offered to reach it myself, but my husband instantly turned and forbade my leaving my chair, saying that the child should bring him what he desired.
"But he must not," I cried, in an agony of terror.
"I tell you he shall," was my husband's answer.
The child stood looking from one to the other, half crying Strangled by my Husband. with fear, and yet scarcely daring to disobey the command that had been given to him.
"Louis, fetch it to me instantly," commanded he again.
"Louis, you shall not," said I, half rising from my chair.
In an instant, my husband, maddened with fury that I should dare to contradict him, seized me by the throat, and threw me back into the chair. The screams of the terrified child brought my mother, into the room at once. She snatched the baby from my arms, which I still held clasped ​Page:Wife No 19.djvu/426 ​Page:Wife No 19.djvu/427 ​Page:Wife No 19.djvu/428 ​Page:Wife No 19.djvu/429