# Edgar Huntly, or The Sleep Walker/Chapter 16

CHAPTER XVI.
Here, my friend, thou must permit me to pause. The following incidents are of a kind to which the most ardent invention has never conceived a parallel; Fortune, in her most wayward mood, could scarcely be suspected of an influence like this. This scene was pregnant with astonishment and horror; I cannot even now recall it without reviving the dismay and confusion which I then experienced.
Possibly, the period will arrive when I shall look back without agony on the perils I have undergone: that period is still distant. Solitude and sleep are now no more than the signals to summon up a tribe of ugly phantoms. Famine and blindness, and death and savage enemies, never fail to be conjured up by the silence and darkness of the night; I cannot dissipate them by any efforts of reason: my cowardice requires the perpetual consolation of light; my heart droops when I mark the decline of the sun; and I never sleep but with a candle burning at my pillow. If, by any chance, I should awake and find myself immersed in darkness, I know not what act of desperation I might be suddenly impelled to commit.
I have delayed this narrative longer than my duty to my friend enjoined: now that I am able to hold a pen, I will hasten to terminate that uncertainty with regard to my fate, in which my silence has involved thee—I will recall that series of unheard-of and disastrous vicissitudes which has constituted the latest portion of my life.
I am not certain, however, that I shall relate them in an intelligible manner; one image runs into another, sensations succeed in so rapid a train, that I fear I shall be unable to distribute and express them with sufficient perspicuity. As I look back, my heart is sore and aches within my bosom; I am conscious to a kind of complex sentiment of distress and forlornness that cannot be perfectly portrayed by words: but I must do as well as I can. In the utmost vigour of my faculties, no eloquence that I possess would do justice ​to the tale; now, in my languishing and feeble state, I shall furnish thee with little more than a glimpse of the truth: with these glimpses, transient and faint as they are, thou must be satisfied.
I have said that I slept; my memory assures me of this—it informs of the previous circumstances of my laying aside my clothes, of placing the light upon a chair within reach of my pillow, of throwing myself upon the bed, and of gazing on the rays of the moon reflected on the wall, and almost obscured by those of the candle; I remember my occasional relapses into fits of incoherent fancies, the harbingers of sleep—I remember, as it were, the instant when my thoughts ceased to flow, and my senses were arrested by the leaden wand of forgetfulness.
My return to sensation and to consciousness took place in no such tranquil scene. I emerged from oblivion by degrees so slow and so faint, that their succession cannot be marked: when enabled at length to attend to the information which my senses afforded, I was conscious, for a time, of nothing but existence: it was unaccompanied with lassitude or pain, but I felt disinclined to stretch my limbs or raise my eyelids; my thoughts were wildering and mazy, and though consciousness was present, it was disconnected with the locomotive or voluntary power.
From this state a transition was speedily effected: I perceived that my posture was supine, and that I lay upon my back. I attempted to open my eyes; the weight that oppressed them was too great for a slight exertion to remove! the exertion which I made cost me a pang more acute than any which I ever experienced: my eyes, however, were opened; but the darkness that environed me was as intense as before.
I attempted to rise; but my limbs were cold, and my joints had almost lost their flexibility: my efforts were repeated, and at length I attained a sitting posture. I was now sensible of pain in my shoulders and back; I was universally in that state to which the frame is reduced by blows of a club mercilessly and endlessly repeated; my temples throbbed, and my face was covered with clammy and cold drops: but that which threw me into the deepest ​consternation, was my inability to see; I turned my head to different quarters, I stretched my eyelids, and exerted every visual energy, but in vain—I was wrapped in the murkiest and most impenetrable gloom.
The first effort of reflection was to suggest the belief that I was blind: that disease is known to assail us in a moment and without previous warning. This surely was the misfortune, that had now befallen me: some ray, however fleeting and uncertain, could not fail to be discerned, if the power of vision were not utterly extinguished; in what circumstances could I possibly be placed, from which every particle of light should, by other means, be excluded?
This led my thoughts into a new train. I endeavoured to recall the past; but the past was too much in contradiction to the present, and my intellect was too much shattered by external violence, to allow me accurately to review it.
Since my sight availed nothing to the knowledge of my condition, I betook myself to other instruments. The element which I breathed was stagnant and cold; the spot where I lay was rugged and hard; I was neither naked nor clothed—a shirt and trousers composed my dress, and the shoes and stockings which always accompanied these were now wanting. What could I infer from this scanty garb, this chilling atmosphere, this stony bed?
I had awakened as from sleep. What was my condition when I fell asleep? Surely it was different from the present. Then I inhabited a lightsome chamber, and was stretched upon a down bed; now I was supine upon a rugged surface, and immersed in palpable obscurity: then I was in perfect health; now my frame was covered with bruises, and every joint was racked with pain. What dungeon or den had received me, and by whose command was I transported hither?
After various efforts, I stood Upon my feet. At first I tottered and staggered. I stretched out my hands on all sides, but met only with vacuity. I advanced forward. At the third step my foot moved something which lay upon the ground: I stooped and took it up, and found on examination that it was an Indian tomahawk. This ​incident afforded me no hint from which I might conjecture my state.
Proceeding irresolutely and slowly forward, my hands at length touched a wall. This, like the flooring, was of stone, and was rugged and impenetrable: I followed this wall. An advancing angle occurred at a short distance, which was followed by similar angles. I continued to explore this clue, till the suspicion occurred that I was merely going round the walls of a vast and irregular apartment.
The utter darkness disabled me from comparing directions and distances. This discovery, therefore, was not made on a sudden, and was still entangled with some doubt. My blood recovered some warmth, and my muscles some elasticity; but, in proportion as my sensibility returned, my pains augmented. Overpowered by my fears and my agonies, I desisted from my fruitless search, and sat down, supporting my back against the wall.
My excruciating sensations for a time occupied my attention. These, in combination with other causes, gradually produced a species of delirium; I existed as it were in a wakeful dream. With nothing to correct my erroneous perceptions, the images of the past occurred in capricious combinations and vivid hues. Methought I was the victim of some tyrant who had thrust me into a dungeon of his fortress, and left me no power to determine whether he intended I should perish with famine, or linger out a long life in hopeless imprisonment: whether the day was shut out by insuperable walls, or the darkness that surrounded me was owing to the night, and to the smallness of those crannies through which daylight was to be admitted, I conjectured in vain.
Sometimes I imagined myself buried alive: methought I had fallen into seeming death, and my friends had consigned me to the tomb, from which a resurrection was impossible:—that in such a case my limbs would have been confined to a coffin, and my coffin to a grave, and that I should instantly have been suffocated, did not occur to destroy my supposition; neither did this supposition overwhelm me with terror, or prompt my efforts to deliverance: my state was full of tumult and confusion, and my ​attention was incessantly divided between my painful sensations and my feverish dreams.
There is no standard by which time can be measured, but the succession of our thoughts, and the changes that take place in the external world: from the latter I was totally excluded; the former made the lapse of some hours appear like the tediousness of weeks and months. At length a new sensation recalled my rambling meditations, and gave substance to my fears: I now felt the cravings of hunger, and perceived that, unless my deliverance were speedily effected, I must suffer a tedious and lingering death.
I once more tasked my understanding and my senses to discover the nature of my present situation, and the means of escape. I listened to catch some sound: I heard an unequal and varying echo, sometimes near and sometimes distant, sometimes dying away and sometimes swelling into loudness: it was unlike any thing I had before heard; but it was evident that it arose from wind sweeping through spacious halls and winding passages. These tokens were incompatible with the result of the examination I had made; if my hands were true, I was immured between walls through which there was no avenue.
I now exerted my voice, and cried as loud as my wasted strength would admit: its echoes were sent back to me in broken and confused sounds and from above. This effort was casual; but some part of that uncertainty in which I was involved was instantly dispelled by it. In passing through the cavern on the former day, I have mentioned the verge of the pit at which I arrived: to acquaint me as far as was possible with the dimensions of the place, I had hallooed with all my force, knowing that sound is reflected according to the distance and relative positions of the substances from which it is repelled.
The effect produced by my voice on this occasion resembled with remarkable exactness the effect which was then produced. Was I then shut up in the same cavern? Had I reached the brink of the same precipice, and been thrown headlong into that vacuity? Whence else could arise the bruises which 1 had received but from my fall? Yet all ​remembrance of my journey hither was lost: I had determined to explore this cave on the ensuing day; but my memory informed me not that this intention had been carried into effect: still it was only possible to conclude that I had come hither on my intended expedition, and had been thrown by another, or had, by some ill chance, fallen into the pit.
This opinion was conformable to what I had already observed:—the pavement and walls were rugged like those of the footing and sides of the cave through which I had formerly passed.
But if this were true, what was the abhorred catastrophe to which I was now reserved? The sides of this pit were inaccessible; human footsteps would never wander into these recesses: my friends were unapprised of my forlorn state; here I should continue till wasted by famine; in this grave should I linger out a few days in unspeakable agonies, and then perish for ever.
The inroads of hunger were already experienced; and this knowledge of the desperateness of my calamity urged me to frenzy. I had none but capricious and unseen Fate to condemn; the author of my distress, and the means he had taken to decoy me hither, were incomprehensible: surely my senses were fettered or depraved by some spell: I was still asleep, and this was merely a tormenting vision; or madness had seized me, and the darkness that environed, and the hunger that afflicted me, existed only in my own distempered imagination.
The consolation of these doubts could not last long; every hour added to the proofs that my perceptions were real:—my hunger speedily became ferocious; I tore the linen of my shirt between my teeth, and swallowed the fragments: I felt a strong propensity to bite the flesh from my arm; my heart overflowed with cruelty, and I pondered on the delight I should experience in rending some living animal to pieces, and drinking its blood and grinding its quivering fibres between my teeth.
This agony had already passed beyond the limits of endurance: I saw that time, instead of bringing respite or relief, would only aggravate my wants, and that my only ​remaining hope was to die before I should be assaulted by the last extremes of famine. I now recollected that a tomahawk was at hand, and rejoiced in the possession of an instrument by which I could so effectually terminate my sufferings.
I took it in my hand, moved its edge over my fingers, and reflected on the force that was required to make it reach my heart; I investigated the spot where it should enter, and strove to fortify myself with resolution to repeat the stroke a second or third time, if the first should prove insufficient: I was sensible that I might fail to inflict a mortal wound, but delighted to consider that the blood which would be made to flow would finally release me, and that meanwhile my pains would be alleviated by swallowing this blood.
You will not wonder that I felt some reluctance to employ so fatal, though indispensable a remedy. I once more ruminated on the possibility of rescuing myself by other means. I now reflected that the upper termination of the wall could not be at an immeasurable distance from the pavement: I had fallen from a height; but if that height had been considerable, instead of being merely bruised, should I not have been dashed in pieces?
Gleams of hope burst anew upon my soul. Was it not possible, I asked, to reach the top of this pit? The sides were rugged and uneven; would not their projectures and abruptnesses serve me as steps by which I might ascend in safety? This expedient was to be tried without delay; shortly my strength would fail, and my doom would be irrevocably sealed.
I will not enumerate my laborious efforts, my alternations of despondency and confidence, the eager and unwearied scrutiny with which I examined the surface, the attempts which I made, and the failures which, for a time, succeeded each other: a hundred times, when I had ascended some feet from the bottom, I was compelled to relinquish my undertaking by the untenable smoothness of the spaces which remained to be gone over; a hundred times I threw myself, exhausted by my fatigue and my pains, on the ground: the consciousness was gradually restored that till ​I had attempted every part of the wall, it was absurd to despair; and I again drew my tottering limbs and aching joints to that part of the wall which had not been surveyed.
At length, as I stretched my hand upward, I found somewhat that seemed like a recession in the wall: it was possible that this was the top of the cavity, and this might be the avenue to liberty. My heart leaped with joy, and I proceeded to climb the wall. No undertaking could be conceived more arduous than this: the space between this verge and the floor was nearly smooth; the verge was higher from the bottom than my head; the only means of ascending that were offered me were by my hands, with which I could draw myself upward, so as at length to maintain my hold with my feet.
My efforts were indefatigable, and at length I placed myself on the verge. When this was accomplished, my strength was nearly gone; had I not found space enough beyond this brink to stretch myself at length, I should unavoidably have fallen backward into the pit, and all my pains had served no other end than to deepen my despair and hasten my destruction.
What impediments and perils remained to be encountered I could not judge. I was now inclined to forebode the worst: the interval of repose which was necessary to be taken, in order to recruit my strength, would accelerate the ravages of famine, and leave me without the power to proceed.
In this state, I once more consoled myself that an instrument of death was at hand: I had drawn up with me the tomahawk, being sensible that should this impediment be overcome, others might remain that would prove insuperable. Before I employed it, however, I cast my eyes wildly and languidly around. The darkness was no less intense than in the pit below; and yet two objects were distinctly seen.
They resembled a fixed and obscure flame; they were motionless: though lustrous themselves, they created no illumination around them: this circumstance, added to others which reminded me of similar objects noted on ​merxxxx occasions, immediately explained the nature of what I beheld. These were the eyes of a panther.
Thus had I struggled to obtain a post where a savage was lurking, and waited only till my efforts should place me within reach of his fangs. The first impulse was to arm myself against this enemy: the desperateness of my condition was for a moment forgotten; the weapon which was so lately lifted against my own bosom, was now raised to defend my life against the assault of another.
There was no time for deliberation and delay: in a moment he might spring from his station and tear me to pieces; my utmost speed might not enable me to reach him where he sat, but merely to encounter his assault. I did not reflect how far my strength was adequate to save me,- all the force that remained was mustered up and exerted in a throw.
No one knows the powers that are latent in his constitution: called forth by eminent dangers, our efforts frequently exceed our most sanguine belief. Though tottering on the verge of dissolution, and apparently unable to crawl from this spot, a force was exerted in this throw probably greater than I had ever before exerted: it was resistless and unerring. I aimed at the middle space between these glowing orbs: it penetrated the skull, and the animal fell, struggling and shrieking on the ground.
My ears quickly informed me when his pangs were at an end: his cries and his convulsions lasted for a moment, and then ceased. The effect of his voice in these subterranean abodes was unspeakably rueful.
The abruptness of this incident, and the preternatural exertion of my strength, left me in a state of languor and sinking, from which slowly and with difficulty I recovered. The first suggestion that occurred was to feed upon the carcass of this animal; my hunger had arrived at that pitch where all fastidiousness and scruples are at an end. I crept to the spot———I will not shock you by relating the extremes to which dire necessity had driven me. I review this scene with loathing and horror; now that it is past, I look back upon it as on some hideous dream—the whole appears to be some freak of insanity: no alternative was ​offered, and hunger was capable of being appeased even by a banquet so detestable.
If this appetite has sometimes subdued the sentiments of nature, and compelled the mother to feed upon the flesh of her offspring, it will not excite amazement that I did not turn from the yet warm blood and reeking fibres of a brute.
One evil was now removed only to give place to another. The first sensations of fulness had scarcely been felt, when my stomach was seized by pangs whose acuteness exceeded all that I ever before experienced. I bitterly lamented my inordinate avidity; the excruciations of famine were better than the agonies which this abhorred meal had produced. Death was now impending with no less proximity and certainty, though in a different form: death was a sweet relief for my present miseries, and I vehemently longed for its arrival. I stretched myself on the ground—I threw my. self into every posture that promised some alleviation of this evil—I rolled along the pavement of the cavern, wholly inattentive to the dangers that environed me: that I did not fall into the pit whence I had just emerged, must be ascribed to some miraculous chance.
How long my miseries endured, it is not possible to tell; I cannot even form a plausible conjecture: judging by the lingering train of my sensations, I should suppose that some days elapsed in this deplorable condition; but nature could not have so long sustained a conflict like this.
Gradually my pains subsided, and I fell into a deep sleep. I was visited by dreams of a thousand hues; they led me to flowing streams and plenteous banquets, which, though placed within my view, some power forbade me to approach. From this sleep I recovered to the fruition of solitude and darkness; but my frame was in a state less feeble than before: that which I had eaten had produced temporary distress, but on the whole had been of use. If this food had not been provided for me, I should scarcely have avoided death; I had reason, therefore, to congratulate myself on the danger that had lately occurred.
I had acted without foresight; and yet no wisdom could have prescribed more salutary measures. The panther was slain, not from a view to the relief of my hunger, but from ​a self-preserving and involuntary impulse. Had I foreknown the pangs to which my ravenous and bloody meal would give birth, I should have carefully abstained; and yet these pangs were a useful effort of nature to subdue and convert to nourishment the matter I had swallowed.
I was now assailed by the torments of thirst; my inven— tion and my courage were anew ant to obviate this pressing evil. I reflected that there was some recess from this cavern, even from the spot where I now stood: before, I was doubtful whether in this direction from this pit any avenue could be found; but since the panther had come hither there was reason to suppose the existence of some such avenue.
I now likewise attended to a sound, which, from its invariable tenour, denoted somewhat different from the whistling of a gale; it seemed like the murmur of a running stream. I now prepared to go forward, and endeavoured to move along in that direction in which this sound apparently came.
On either side and above my head there was nothing but vacuity. My steps were to be guided by the pavement, which, though unequal and rugged, appeared on the whole to ascend. My safety required that I should employ both hands and feet in exploring my way.
I went on thus for a considerable period. The murmur, instead of becoming more distinct, gradually died away. My progress was arrested by fatigue, and I began once more to despond. My exertions produced a perspiration, which, while it augmented my thirst, happily supplied me with imperfect means of appeasing it.
This expedient would perhaps have been accidentally suggested, but my ingenuity was assisted by remembering the history of certain English prisoners in Bengal, whom their merciless enemy imprisoned in a small room, and some of whom preserved themselves alive merely by swallowing the moisture that flowed from their bodies. This experiment I now performed with no less success.
This was slender and transitory consolation; I knew that wandering at random I might never reach the outlet of this cavern, or might be disabled by hunger and fatigue from going farther than the outlet. The cravings which had ​lately been satiated, would speedily return, and my negligence had cut me off from the resource which had recently been furnished: I though not till now that a second meal might be indispensable.
To return upon my footsteps to the spa where the dead animal lay, was a heartless project; I might thus be placing myself at a hopeless distance from liberty; besides, my track could not be retraced. I had frequently deviated from a straight direction for the sake of avoiding impediments; all that I was sensible of was, that I was travelling up an irregular acclivity. I hoped sometime to reach the summit; but had no reason for adhering to one line of ascent in preference to another.
To remain where I was, was manifestly absurd; whether I mounted or descended, a change of place was most likely to benefit me. I resolved to vary my direction; and, instead of ascending, keep along the side of what I accounted a hill. I had gone some hundred feet, when the murmur before described once more saluted my ear.
This sound being imagined to proceed from a running stream, could not but light up joy in the heart of one nearly perishing with thirst; I proceeded with new courage. The sound approached no nearer, nor became more distinct; but as long as it died not away, I was satisfied to listen and to hope.
I was eagerly observant if any the least glimmering of light should visit this recess; at length, on the right hand, a gleam infinitely faint caught my attention. It was wavering and unequal. I directed my steps towards it. It became more vivid and permanent; it was of that kind, however, which proceeded from a fire kindled with dry sticks, and not from the sun. I now heard the crackling of flames.
This sound made me pause, or at least to proceed with circumspection. At length the scene opened, and I found myself at the entrance of a cave. I quickly reached a station whence I saw a fire burning. At first, no other object was noted; but it was easy to infer that the fire was kindled by men, and that they who kindled it could be at no great distance.
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