# The Soft Side (New York: The Macmillan Company, 1900)/'Europe'/Chapter 3

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My correspondent in Brookbridge came to me that Christmas, with my niece, to spend a week; and the arrangement had of course been prefaced by an exchange of letters, the first of which from my sister-in-law scarce took space for acceptance of my invitation before going on to say: The Hathaways are back—but without Miss Jane!' She presented in a few words the situation thus created at Brookbridge, but was not yet, I gathered, fully in possession of the other one—the situation created in 'Europe' by the presence there of that lady. The two together, at any rate, demanded, I quickly felt, all my attention, and perhaps my impatience to receive my relative was a little sharpened by my desire for the whole story. I had it at last, by the Christmas fire, and I may say without reserve that it gave me all I could have hoped for. I listened eagerly, after which I produced the comment: 'Then she simply refused———'
'To budge from Florence? Simply. She had it out there ​with the poor Hathaways, who felt responsible for her safety, pledged to restore her to her mother's, to her sisters' hands, and showed herself in a light, they mention under their breath, that made their dear old hair stand on end. Do you know what, when they first got back, they said of her—at least it was his phrase—to two or three people?'
I thought a moment. 'That she had "tasted blood"?'
My visitor fairly admired me. 'How clever of you to guess! It's exactly what he did say. She appeared—she continues to appear, it seems—in a new character.'
I wondered a little. 'But that's exactly—don't you remember?—what Miss Maria reported to us from them; that we "wouldn't know her."'
My sister-in-law perfectly remembered. 'Oh, yes—she broke out from the first. But when they left her she was worse.'
'Worse?'
'Well, different—different from anything she ever had been, or—for that matter—had had a chance to be.' My interlocutress hung fire a moment, but presently faced me. 'Rather strange and free and obstreperous.'
'Obstreperous?' I wondered again.
'Peculiarly so, I inferred, on the question of not coming away. She wouldn't hear of it, and, when they spoke of her mother, said she had given her mother up. She had thought she should like Europe, but didn't know she should like it so much. They had been fools to bring her if they expected to take her away. She was going to see what she could—she hadn't yet seen half. The end of it was, at any rate, that they had to leave her alone.'
I seemed to see it all—to see even the scared Hathaways. 'So she is alone?'
'She told them, poor thing, it appears, and in a tone they'll never forget, that she was, at all events, quite old enough to be. She cried—she quite went on—over not having come ​sooner. That's why the only way for her,' my companion mused, 'is, I suppose, to stay. They wanted to put her with some people or other—to find some American family. But she says she's on her own feet.'
'And she's still in Florence?'
'No—I believe she was to travel. She's bent on the East.'
I burst out laughing. 'Magnificent Jane! It's most interesting. Only I feel that I distinctly should "know" her. To my sense, always, I must tell you, she had it in her.'
My relative was silent a little. 'So it now appears Becky always felt.'
'And yet pushed her off? Magnificent Becky!'
My companion met my eyes a moment. 'You don't know the queerest part. I mean the way it has most brought her out.'
I turned it over; I felt I should like to know—to that degree indeed that, oddly enough, I jocosely disguised my eagerness. 'You don't mean she has taken to drink?'
My visitor hesitated. 'She has taken to flirting.'
I expressed disappointment. 'Oh, she took to that long ago. Yes,' I declared at my kinswoman's stare, 'she positively flirted—with me!'
The stare perhaps sharpened. 'Then you flirted with her?'
'How else could I have been as sure as I wanted to be? But has she means?'
'Means to flirt?'—my friend looked an instant as if she spoke literally. 'I don't understand about the means—though of course they have something. But I have my impression,' she went on. 'I think that Becky———' It seemed almost too grave to say.
But I had no doubts. 'That Becky's backing her?'
She brought it out. 'Financing her.'
'Stupendous Becky! So that morally then———'
'Becky's quite in sympathy. But isn't it too odd?' my sister-in-law asked.
​'Not in the least. Didn't we know, as regards Jane, that Europe was to bring her out? Well, it has also brought out Rebecca.'
'It has indeed!' my companion indulgently sighed. 'So what would it do if she were there?'
'I should like immensely to see. And we shall see.'
'Why, do you believe she'll still go?'
'Certainly. She must.'
But my friend shook it off. 'She won't.'
'She shall!' I retorted with a laugh. But the next moment I said: 'And what does the old woman say?'
'To Jane's behaviour? Not a word—never speaks of it. She talks now much less than she used—only seems to wait. But it's my belief she thinks.'
'And—do you mean—knows?'
'Yes, knows that she's abandoned. In her silence there she takes it in.'
'It's her way of making Jane pay?' At this, somehow, I felt more serious. 'Oh, dear, dear—she'll disinherit her!'
When, in the following June, I went on to return my sister-in-law's visit the first object that met my eyes in her little white parlour was a figure that, to my stupefaction, presented itself for the moment as that of Mrs. Rimmle. I had gone to my room after arriving, and, on dressing, had come down: the apparition I speak of had arisen in the interval. Its ambiguous character lasted, however, but a second or two—I had taken Becky for her mother because I knew no one but her mother of that extreme age. Becky's age was quite startling; it had made a great stride, though, strangely enough, irrecoverably seated as she now was in it, she had a wizened brightness that I had scarcely yet seen in her. I remember indulging on this occasion in two silent observations: one to the effect that I had not hitherto been conscious of her full resemblance to the old lady, and the other to the effect that, as I had said to my sister-in-law at Christmas, 'Europe,' ​even as reaching her only through Jane's sensibilities, had really at last brought her out. She was in fact 'out' in a manner of which this encounter offered to my eyes a unique example: it was the single hour, often as I had been at Brookbridge, of my meeting her elsewhere than in her mother's drawing-room. I surmise that, besides being adjusted to her more marked time of life, the garments she wore abroad, and in particular her little plain bonnet, presented points of resemblance to the close sable sheath and the quaint old headgear that, in the white house behind the elms, I had from far back associated with the eternal image in the stiff chair. Of course I immediately spoke of Jane, showing an interest and asking for news; on which, she answered me with a smile, but not at all as I had expected.
'Those are not really the things you want to know—where she is, whom she's with, how she manages and where she's going next—oh, no!' And the admirable woman gave a laugh that was somehow both light and sad—sad, in particular, with a strange, long weariness. 'What you do want to know is when she's coming back.'
I shook my head very kindly, but out of a wealth of experience that, I flattered myself, was equal to Miss Becky's. 'I do know it. Never.'
Miss Becky, at this, exchanged with me a long, deep look. 'Never.'
We had, in silence, a little luminous talk about it, in the course of which she seemed to tell me the most interesting things. 'And how's your mother?' I then inquired.
She hesitated, but finally spoke with the same serenity. 'My mother's all right. You see, she's not alive.'
'Oh, Becky!' my sister-in-law pleadingly interjected.
But Becky only addressed herself to me. 'Come and see if she is. I think she isn't—but Maria perhaps isn't so clear. Come, at all events, and judge and tell me.'
​It was a new note, and I was a little bewildered. 'Ah, but I'm not a doctor!'
'No, thank God—you're not. That's why I ask you.' And now she said good-bye.
I kept her hand a moment. 'You're more alive than ever!'
'I'm very tired.' She took it with the same smile, but for Becky it was much to say.