# Should I Really Do It?

Should I Really Do It? (Bunu Gerçekten Yapmalı Mıyım?) is feature film by Ismail Necmi, starring Petra Woschniak and HEROLD.
The film is a hybrid documentary and fictional feature, following the life of Petra, a German woman living in Istanbul. It is an ironic inversion of more conventional tales of Turkish migrants to Germany, Edgy and surreal, the film plays on concepts of real life and drama, reworking the cult genre of Turkish Fantastic Cinema as it interweaves apparently everyday sequences of Petra's life with increasingly fantastic sessions between her and mysterious, masked HEROLD.

## Synopsis

This real-life feature follows the extraordinary life of PETRA, a German woman living in Istanbul, in an ironic inversion of the familiar story of Turkish migrants to Germany. Her life will take such strange turns you’ll think she’s following a script. But really, we’re watching a real life protagonist evolve in the face of life. For, ultimately, nothing is ever as surprising as life. Except, perhaps, fiction! During 'sessions' with the mysterious, masked HEROLD, her life unfolds before our eyes and we will learn about everything: Istanbul, Germany, family, friends, drugs and death. “Should I Really Do It?” plays with these concepts of real life and fiction, documentary and drama... Could life ever be more interesting than fiction?

## Press

“Truth might well be stranger than fiction, but who would have thought it could be so hallucinogenic? The film follows the surreal story of Petra (Petra Woschniak), a mesmerizing figure who scours the streets of Istanbul. We are introduced to her twilight universe via daily sessions with her very unusual therapist Herold (Herold). This masked conversationalist is a wine-sipping, coke-sniffing man of unspecified sexual orientation who tries to break down Petra's defences while maintaining his own. Hidden behind a leather S&M mask and topped off with a variety of flamboyant wigs, he talks her through her deepest fears, though his intentions are unclear. They talk about her life, which initially comes off as a never-ending party. Sporting an intimidating shaved head, Petra is involved with fashion and other artistic endeavours, and has actually made a name for herself as a hairdresser. Residing in Istanbul as an illegal immigrant, the thirty-eight-year-old German enjoys wide recognition in local alternative circles. She spends her time experiencing life and consuming large quantities of drugs, until the day comes when she has to pay her dues. Petra lost her father, her mother and one of her own kidneys to cancer, and now it seems her twin sister is about to become a casualty of the disease as well. Swiftly leaving Istanbul to care for her sibling in Germany, Petra finds her life suddenly transformed into a series of quiet, homey afternoons in the countryside with her sister's dogs. It seems she has decided to take a break from her exorbitant lifestyle and befriend the boring neighbours. But will she be able to suppress her Istanbul personality forever? And what is the big secret behind her self-inflicted isolation? Luring us in with a promise of a rational explanation, Ismail Necmi introduces us to a shadowy world of serpentine women and fetishistic males. Moving between fantasy and reality, you soon discover the best place is in between, a nifty little spot where you can be anyone you want to be, no explanations, no holds barred. Necmi, a renowned photographer, moves easily between these realms with fascinating confidence. The result is an intelligent, original and strikingly attractive film.” Dimitri Eipides – Toronto IFF Programmer
"I've already watched this extraordinary film 4 or 5 times. In my opinion, it has only one fault – it's addictive!" Feride Çiçekoğlu – Film Critic
"One can only do something totally original by breaking with all received wisdom. ‘Should I Really Do It?’ does. Fearlessly." Fatih Özgüven – Film Critic

## Awards

* Daniel Langlois Innovation Award – 38th Montreal International Festival du Nouveau Cinéma 2009 – International Competition
* Most Promising New Director Award – 20th Ankara International Film Festival 2009 – National Competition
* Most Promising New Screenwriter Award – 20th Ankara International Film Festival 2009 – National Competition
* Audience Choice Award – 1st Rome Gender DocuFilm Festival 2010 – International Competition

## Special screenings

* Conference Opening Film – An Interdisciplinary Conference on Fetishism – “Substitute Lack! / Accept No Substitutes!” – Istanbul MODERN – Museum of Modern Art
* Conference Opening Film – New Directions in Turkish Film Studies Conference IX – "Cinema and Reality" – Istanbul Kadir Has University
* Special Presentation – "Women in a Midlife Crisis" – Neues Kino Basel – Switzerland

## Festivals 2009 – 2010

* 34th Toronto International Film Festival 2009 – Official Selection – Discovery
* 38th Montreal International Festival du Nouveau Cinéma 2009 – International Competition – Louve d’Or – Daniel Langlois Innovation Award
* 6th Reykjavik International Film Festival 2009 – International Competition – New Visions
* 25th Haifa International Film Festival 2009 – International Fipresci Competition – New Directors / New Horizons
* 33rd São Paulo International Film Festival 2009 – International Competition – New Directors
* 1st Rome Gender DocuFilm Festival 2010 – International Competition – Visions Around The Body – Audience Choice Award
* 17th Hamburg International Film Festival 2009 – Official Selection – Agenda 09
* 33rd Cairo International Film Festival 2009 – Official Selection – Festival of Festivals
* 7th World Film Festival of Bangkok 2009 – Official Selection – World Cinema: Cinema Beat
* 11th Mumbai Film Festival 2009 – Official Selection – Above the Cut
* 11th Thessaloniki Documentary Festival 2009 – Official Selection – Portraits: Human Journeys
* 3rd Costa Rica International Film Festival 2009 – Official Selection – Montezuma
* 20th Ankara International Film Festival 2009 – National Competition – Most Promising New Director Award – Most Promising New Screenwriter Award
* 33rd Göteborg International Film Festival 2010 – Official Selection – New Visions
* 10th Wroclaw Era New Horizons International Film Festival 2010 – Official Selection – New Cinema of Turkey