event happening so suddenly and happening to one with whom i had been in any respect at � the appalling in the room he had occupied so lately where his chair and table seemed to wait for him and his handwriting of yesterday was like a ghost � the impossibility of separating him from the place and feeling when the door opened as if he might come in � the lazy hush and rest there was in the office and the relish with which our people talked about it and other people came in and out all day and themselves with the subject � this is easily intelligible to any one what i cannot describe is how in the recesses of my own heart i had a lurking jealousy even of death how i felt as if its might would push me from my ground in s thoughts how i was in a way i have no words for envious of b grief how it made me restless to think of her weeping to others or being consoled by others how i had a grasping wish to shut out everybody from her but myself and to be all in all to her at that time of all times in the trouble of this state of mind � not exclusively my own i hope but known to others � i went down to that night and finding from one of the servants when i made my inquiries at the door that miss mills was there got my aunt to direct a letter to her which i wrote i the death of mr most sincerely and shed tears in doing so i entreated her to tell if were in a state to hear it that he had spoken to me with the utmost kindness and consideration and had coupled nothing but tenderness not a single word with her vol m the personal and experience name i know i did this to have my name brought before her bat i tried to believe it was an of justice to bis memory perhaps i did it my aunt received a few next day in reply addressed outside to her within to me was overcome by grief and when her friend had asked her should she send her love to me had only cried as she was always crying oh dear papa oh poor papa but she had not said no and that i made the most of mr who bad been at since the occurrence came to the office a few days afterwards he and were together tor some few moments and then looked out at the door and beckoned me in oh said mr mr and myself mr are about to examine the desk the drawers and other such of the deceased with the view of up his private papers and searching for a will there is no trace of any elsewhere it may be as well for yon to assist us if you please i had been in agony to obtain some knowledge of ihe circumstances in which my would be placed � as in whose and so forth � and this was something towards it we began the search at once mr the drawers and and we all taking out the papers the office papers we placed on one side and the private papers which were not numerous on the other we were very grave and when we came to a stray seal or pencil case or ring or any little article of that kind which we associated personally with him we spoke very low we had sealed up several and were still i by of david going on and when mr said to os applying the same words to his late partner as his late partner had applied to him mr was very to move from the beaten track too know what he was i i am disposed to think he had made no will � oh i know he had said they both stopped and looked at me on the very day when i last saw him said i he told me that he had and that his af were long settled mr and m shook their heads with one accord that looks said very said mr surely you don t doubt � i began my good mr said laying his hand upon my arm and shutting up both his eyes as he shook his head if you had in the as long as i have you would know that there is no on which men are so inconsistent and so little to be trusted why bless my soul he made that very remark i i replied persistently i should call that almost final observed my opinion is � no will it appeared a wonderful thing to me but it turned out that there was no will he had never so much as thought of making one so far as his papers afforded any evidence for there was no kind of hint sketch or of any intention whatever what was scarcely less astonishing to me was that his affairs were in a most disordered state it was the personal and experience difficult i heard to make out what he owed or what he had paid or of what he died possessed it was considered likely that for years he could have had do clear opinion on these subjects himself by little and little it came out that in the competition on ail points of appearance and then running high in the he had spent more than his professional income which was not a very large one and had reduced his private means if they ever had been great which was exceedingly doubtful to a very low ebb indeed there was a sale of the furniture and lease at and told me little thinking how interested i was in the story that paying all the just debts of the deceased 