t your sake my awoke a wonder in her that as if it would have been touched with die could have rendered me at all own mind i am going she said again in a to be married to him the preparations for my h � are making and i shall be married soon do you ly introduce the i ty it is my own act your own act to fling yourself away np � on whom fi i ag es s a smile t sing if away man who would the feel if people do oh things that i took nothing to bim ii is done i shall do well enough and m will my as to leading mo into what call this step ha would have had mn wait ud not marry yet but i am tired of the life i have ud which very few charms for me and i am willing enough to change it say no more we understand each other such a mean such a stupid brute i urged b despair don t be afraid of my being a blessing to him said i shall not be that come here is ay hand do we part on this you visionary � o i answered as my bitter tears fell on her hand do what i would to restrain them ei if i remained in england and could hold my up with the rest how could i see you s � she returned nonsense this will in no time never you will get me out of your thoughts in a week ont of my thoughts you are part of my part of myself tou have been in every line i have � read since i first came here tlie rough common � poor heart yon wounded even then you we been in every prospect i have ever seen since � the river on the sails of the ships on tlie tlie in the light in the da tt � fe in in great have been the of every graceful my mind has ever become acquainted with the of which the strongest london are ma not more real or more impossible to be your hands than your presence and influence to me there and everywhere and will be to the last hour of my life you cl part of my character part of the little i part of the evil but in this separation i you only with the good and i will hold you to that always for you must have far more good than harm let me now what distress i may god bless you god forgave in what ecstasy of i got i words out of myself i don t know the i up within me like blood from an inward won and out i held her hand to my lips b lingering and so i left her but ever bi i wards i remembered � and soon afterwards i stronger reason � that while looked at merely with incredulous wonder the of miss her hand still covering her hi all resolved into a ghastly stare of pity remorse all done all much was done and g that when i went out at the gate the light of the tl seemed of a darker colour than when i went in i hid myself among some lanes and by p� md then struck off to walk all the way to for i had by that time come to myself so bi consider that i not inn and i there thai co � ao i v� ms be spoken to that could do nothing r myself aa tire oat � past midnight i bridge k narrow of tbe which at westward near the shore of my to the temple was cl to morrow but i bad my keys and if h b gone to bed could get to bed myself seldom happened that i i gate after the temple was closed and muddy and weary did not take it night porter examined me with much attention j the gate a little way open for me to pass in memory i mentioned my name � not quite sure sir but i thought ao here s the messenger that brought it said would good as read it by my lantern by the request i took the note it to philip and on the top of h at e of i i t iu opened it i read inside m t home the words please read the holding up i in a writing great expectations xvii from the temple gate as soon as i read the i made the best of my j to street and there got a chariot and to the m garden in those always to he got there at any hour ofl night and the letting me in at his lighted the candle next in order on his and showed me straight into the bedroom next in his list it was a sort of vault on the ground a at the back with a monster of a four p in it over the whole place one of his arbitrary legs into the fireplace and into the doorway and the wretched washing stand in quite a righteous as i had asked for a night the had brought me in before he left me the good j constitutional of those virtuous days � i object like the ghost of a walking cane which broke its back if it were touched which nothing ca ever be lighted at and which was placed in confinement at the bottom of a high tin tower with round holes that made a awake pattern on the walls when i had got ii bed and lay there weary and wretched found that i could no more close my own eyes could close the eyes of this foolish and in the gloom and death of the night we at t i n ow 