the charge which many hall will be too ready to bring against � that of having been the victim of mere animal excitement in the sight of god i have no apology to offer but in that of man it may surely be some of his fault to say that he was on to ruin by causes which he ceased at last to have sufficient moral power to resist his with mr was from its commencement most disastrous sums of money seemed to escape from his possession without his being aware of their amount and every new scheme increased instead of his past losses beside which he never was calculated for business it harassed his mind and destroyed his natural rest he became irritable and apprehensive while the false to which he had recourse served to give him nerve for the and even inspired him with energy for new enterprise so that he became at such times a and willing instrument in the hands of a who needed my father s credit and capital to his own schemes it is difficult to understand how my father s honorable feeling should have been hall far overcome by one who was altogether unworthy of his confidence except that he always attached so much importance to ingenuity and enterprise that they covered from his sight a multitude of sins and as to my own influence i had shown my deep rooted dislike to this individual in a manner too decided and ill judged for my father to attribute it to anything but prejudice his ear was therefore closed against all i might have to say in this manner his affairs went on until they became almost too desperate for hope one thing after another had failed none with him but still he had credit and upon that fresh schemes were undertaken while his debts were increasing on every hand by mere chance i had myself become acquainted with these appalling facts and you may be sure that i reasoned with him � that i pleaded and prayed he would make an honorable stand against the of hope and by giving up the remainder his property that he would leave us our integrity at least for the solace of old ge but unfortunately for my the e hall was ever at hand and my father was growing while his moral was failing faster than his bodily strength i grew desperate at last and threatened to expose our situation to the world rather than we should go on ing every one around and many to their own s� it was then in an evil hour they finally overcame me � my father by his tears while they bound me by a solemn vow never without his sanction to communicate to any human being the real state of his affairs you have often asked me why i did not marry here then you read the cause i can however say with truth that never hare i been tempted but once to adopt thia means of escape from the gathering storm which seemed threatening to once i confess i did for a moment low myself to dream of the happiness of escaping to a foreign land until the blast should have blown over but knowing that my fortune was an object of i could not bear the idea that any man � especially the one who interested me most should awake from his visions ot ball wealth to find he had married a poor and wife the darkest page of my history is yet to come may reason last me to the end i have not lived to my present age and seen and felt what i have done without having had many serious thoughts on the of religion more especially since i have that in my father s case it was the only thing that could save him still i was dark � dark on that myself f yet as everything earthly seemed to be receding from me as one hold after another gave way and friendship all but yours began to fail i more than ever in my life an awful and imperative call to look into real position with regard to and eternity i will not attempt to describe to you the state of mind which folk wed i saw but too clearly what i might have been to my poor father i felt what i was i something however i imagined might yet be done i watched my opportunity � and ob awful day had followed him into his for the purpose of appealing to his better feelings and him to to others and thus if possible b� peace for his own mind to which he had long been a i cannot repeat to you my words but if ever i spoke reasonably � if ever i spoke forcibly in my whole life � f it was on that solemn occasion for some time my father made no reply hia silence filled my mind with the dread of having offended him beyond forgiveness i burst into tears for it is a bitter thing for a daughter to a father whom she loves he was not insensible to my anguish and raising his eyes i saw that a flood of light like sunshine over a landscape was its influence over every feature of his face it was the welcome of a father s love and as he opened his arms to receive me i fell upon his bosom too happy to be sensible of anything but an unexpected thrill of gratitude and joy � my child said he in tones of the tenderness do with me what you will from this hour we will begin a new life you shall be to me my good angel my are in your hands render justice if it be possible to all i closed my eyes and remaining still folded in my father s arms i silently 