i render it with pleasure if i had nothing else to consider but the immediate support of my i should be obliged to resign my although cry out qui fit it is not caprice but the iron hand if want which me to this resignation it is true that by every social advance from the inhabitants here which i should e obliged to do since i could not return them by myself day to day and forever within the solitary walls of my own loose my salary might be sufficient to purchase bread and meat and as such a life might require but these are conditions i choose not to impose either on others or myself another with terror is that as my salary depends on my own life my death would throw my wife and children on the of a cold and selfish world all these things considered and that i am now in the prime of life i would ask whether it would act be mean little and worthy of eternal to sit quietly down the light of conscience and see these misfortunes coming upon me one after another in succession would you think a man worthy of your friendship who should be capable of such disgraceful the resignation of the becoming thus inevitable the only remaining question is where shall i resume the practice of my profession the answer clearly is in that country where i can with most certainty achieve the object for which i resign that is a support for my family independent of the world and of my own life you understand me this is a question which i have deliberately considered � not in the delirium of a fever hissing hot master but with all the scrupulous conscientious coolness of which my mind is capable you ask why quit the state which has adopted which has me which has raised me to its honours it is the partiality of your friendship which puts this question i am sure that it is very to virginia where i reside x x i throw this point entirely out of the question and consider simply the interests of my family to this i am determined that every feeling of private attachment and for virginia shall bend knowing as i have done the agony to which the want of wealth or at least independence any mind not devoid of sensibility it becomes a point of conscience in the first place and the � b soon an object of of delightful pursuit to shelter those who are dear to me from all danger of the like torment having once effected this purpose death who would be to me now a king of terrors indeed would become merely a master of ceremonies to introduce me into the apartments above you ask me how many you could name who are now at the bar in this country wealth as fast as their hearts can desire or quite fast enough i answer i don t know how many you could name w it is true made a fortune c is also making a fortune with the exception of these two there is not another individual who has hitherto done this at the bar of these courts or who is now in the way of doing so i am not sure of john of he however practised at a most period such a one as does not now exist baker washington and others � what have they made by the fro f not more than the most ordinary lawyer in is able to do in five or six years x � between ourselves i was thirty years old the eighth day of last november have i any time to lose and considering the uncertainty of life and the certainty of death is it not the highest wisdom to improve every flying moment to the best advantage r ten years of life would do but little here in they might and probably would make my family for the first time in my life and with shame i confess it i look forward my dear with a thoughtful mind and a heart aching with uncertainty to the years that lie before me i cannot abide the reflection that the time shall ever come when my conscience shall reproach me with having neglected the interests and happiness of my family with having involved by my want of energy and enterprise a lovely and innocent wife with a group of tender and helpless children in want and misery it but hope like an angel of peace whispers to my heart that this shall not be she does indeed sketch some most and scenes to my waking as well as sleeping fancy wealth respect the love of my fellow citizens she designs with the boldness and grandeur of an while with all the softness and sweetness of s pencil she draws my wife and a circle of blooming and smiling happy as innocence and peace and plenty can make them � your friend wm vn a speculation the waa resigned in may and the of e to abandoned now determined to lake up his abode in in accordance with mr s although for the present he still resided in to june � � � � � � well sir you have heard that i have myself of the s and i feel much the cooler and lighter for it not but that there was some awkwardness in coming down to conflict with men to whom a few days before my was the law the pride was a false one and i myself on it i feel little triumph in being thus able to get out of myself to survey from an intellectual distance the workings of my own heart to discern and to its errors the man who can thus make an impartial and candid friend of himself has gained a great point in the and perfection of 