to the ceiling but where the ceiling f and the door i said to myself we re two stories j � t ie are wide enough for one i one glance at he was lying in bed wide awake looking straight at me i ran something struck i on the head as i bolted downstairs � kept running i suppose the knock i got dazed me for i don t remember much of anything till i found myself a coward in a a mile from the town i was roused by the warm blood running down my nose and heard myself to exactly how it had happened when i crawled back to the town they told me that all the houses near the inn were in ruins and that a dozen people had been killed was among them of course the ceiling had come down on him mr wiped his forehead sat looking away from him two days later came back i began to tell him the story but he interrupted me there was no one with him at the time then i you d left him alone no he wasn t alone who was with him you said the sister was out with him � you n him shall never forget s look i believe i had meant to explain to accuse myself to shout out my agony of soul but i saw the of it a door had been shut between us neither of us spoke an i other word he was very kind to me on the way i home he looked after me in a way that i good deal harder to stand than his open contempt i saw the man was honestly trying to pity me but it was no good � he simply couldn t s a coward mr rose slowly with a certain shall we turn toward home p perhaps m keeping you they walked on a few steps in silence then he tliat business altered my whole life of course i t to have allowed it to � that was another form of cowardice but i saw myself only with s eyes � it is one of the worst miseries of youth that one is always trying to be somebody else i had meant to be a � i saw i d better go home and study law it s a childish fancy a of the primitive savage if you like but from that hour to this i ve day and night for a chance to my � self to set myself right with the man i meant to be i want to prove to that man that it was all an � an unaccountable from my normal instincts that having once been a coward does n t mean that a man s cowardly and i can t i can t i mr s tone had passed from agitation to irony he had t back to his usual stand point why i m a perfect branch he concluded with his dry indulgent laugh the very babies stop crying at my approach � i carry a sort of about with me � i d make my fortune aa an agent of n� l i the peace society i shall go to the grave leaving that i other man walked back with him to on her l they met mrs flushed and i with a card case and dusty boots i don t ask you in she said to because i can t answer for the food this evening my of all work tells me that she s going to a ball � is more than i ve done in years and besides fit would be cruel to ask you to spend such a hot i evening in our little house � the air is so much i cooler at mrs s remember me to mrs i please and tell her how sorry i am that i can no i longer include her in my round of visits when i had carriage i saw the people i liked but now that fl have to walk my social opportunities are more � limited i was not obliged to do my visiting on foot t when i was younger and my doctor tells me that to i persons accustomed to a carriage no exercise is more i injurious than walking she glanced at her husband with a smile of sweetness fortunately she concluded it with mr i s the twilight of the god i i the twilight of the god i a room a through ike windows a edged ike cliffs ike sea sits reading war � la d in and a cap i back already i war and the wind dropped � it turned into a � � � drifting race took me off the on his what time b it two o clock where s mrs p on her way to new york to new york precisely the boat must be just leaving she started an ago and took with her in fact i m alone in the house � that is until this evening some people are coming then but what in the world � her aunt mrs has had a fit she has them constantly they re not serious � at least they would n t be if mrs were not so rich � and naturally under the circumstances feels a peculiar sympathy for her her position is such a sod one there s positively no s one to care whether she lives or dies � except her of course they all rush to whenever she has a fit it s hard an for she lives the farthest away but she has come to an understanding with the housekeeper who always her first so that she gets a start of several hours she will be at to night at ten and she has calculated that the others can t possibly arrive before 