adam as the est of all to me in the flesh yea and to all hi that house i am carried away to them m my sleep and often in the midst of work and even of speech the thought of them is borne in on me as if they were in need and trouble � which yet is dark to me there may he some leading here but i wait to he taught you say they are au well we shall see each other again in the body i trust � though it may be not for a long while for the brethren and sisters at are desirous to have me for a short space among them when i have a door opened mo again to leave farewell dear brother � and yet not farewell for those children of god whom it has been granted to see each other face to face and to hold communion together and to feel the same spirit working in both can never more be though the hills may he between for their souls are enlarged by that union and they bear another about in their continually as it were a new strength your faithful sister and fellow in christ i have not skill to write the words so small as you do and my pen moves slow and so i am and say but little of what is in my mind greet your mother for me with a kiss she asked me to kiss her twice when we parted adam had the letter and was sitting with his head resting on his arm at the head of the bed when came up stairs hast the letter said yea s d adam i don t know what i should h i thought of her and her letter if i d never seen her i i should ha thought a preaching woman hateful but she s one as makes every thing seem right she says and does and i seemed to see her and hear her speaking when i read the letter it s wonderful how i remember her looks and her voice she d make thee rare and happy she s just the woman for thee it s no use thinking o that said she spoke firm and she s not the woman to say one thing and mean another nay but her feelings may grow a w get to love by the best fire i d go and see her by and by i d make it convenient for thee to be away three or four days and it ud bo no walk for thee � only between twenty and thirty mile i should like to see her again whether or no if she would i with me for going said adam shell be none displeased said adam emphatically getting up it might be a great happiness to us al if she d have thee mother took to her so wonderful and seemed so contented to be with her ay said rather timidly and s fond o too she thinks a deal about her adam made no reply to that and no other word but passed between them chapter in s it was no longer enough to go to bed without a candle even in mrs s early household and carried one witli her as she went up at last to her bedroom soon after adam was gone and bolted the door behind her n ow she would read her letter it must � must have comfort in it how was adam to know the truth p it was always likely he should say what he did say she set down the candle and took out the letter it had a faint scent of roses which made her feel as if arthur were close to her she put it it to her and a rush of remembered sensations for a moment or two swept away all fear but her heart began to flutter and her hands to tremble as she broke the seal she read slowly it was not easy for her to read a gentleman s handwriting though arthur had taken pains to write plainly dearest � i have spoken truly when i have said that i loved you and i shall never forget om love i shall be friend as long as life lasts and i hope to prove this to yon in many ways if i say any thing to pain you in this letter do not think it is for want of love and tenderness toward you for there is nothing i would not do for you if i knew it to be really for your happiness i can not bear to think of my httle shedding tears when i am not there to kiss them away and if i followed only my own inclinations i should be with her at this moment instead of it is very hard for me to part from her � harder still for me to write words which may seem unkind though they spring from the truest kindness dear dear sweet as our love has been to me sweet as it would be to me for you to love me always i feel that it would have been better for us both if we had never had that happiness and that it is my duty to ask you to love me and s adam care for me as little as you can the has all been mine for though i have been unable to resist the longing to be near you i have felt all the while that your affection for me might cause you i ought to have resisted ray feelings i should have done so if i had been a better fellow than i am but now since the past can not be altered i am bound to save yon from any evil i have power to prevent and i feel 