wanted so much to see before he went away that went to visit him and fainted when she found herself inside the iron bars in short i had no peace of my life until he was and made as i afterwards heard a shepherd of up the country somewhere i have no idea were all this led me into some serious reflections and presented our mistakes in a new aspect as i could not help communicating to one evening in of my tenderness for her david my love said i it is very painful to me to think that our want of system and management not only ourselves which we have got used to but other people you have been silent for a long time and now you are going te be cross said no my dear indeed let me explain to you what i mean i think i don t want to know said but i want you to know my love put down put his nose to mine and said to drive my seriousness away but not succeeding ordered him into his and sat looking at me with her hands folded and a most resigned little expression of countenance the fact is my dear i began there is in us we about us i might have gone on in this manner if s face had not me that she was wondering with all her might whether i was going to propose any new kind of or other medical remedy for this state of ours therefore i checked myself and made my meaning it is not merely my pet said i that we lose money and comfort and even temper sometimes by not learning to be more careful but that we the serious responsibility of who comes into our service or any dealings with us i begin to be afraid that the fault is not entirely on one side but that these people all turn out ill because we don t turn out well ourselves oh what an accusation exclaimed her wide to say that you ever saw me take gold watches oh my dearest i remonstrated don t talk i nonsense who has made the least allusion to gold watches you did returned you know you did you i hadn t turned out well and compared me to him to whom i asked to the page sobbed oh you cruel fellow to compare your affectionate wife to a transported page why didn t you tell me your opinion of me before we were married why didn t you say you hard hearted thing that you were convinced i was worse david than a transported page oh what a dreadful opinion to have of me oh my goodness now my love i returned gently trying to remove the handkerchief she pressed to her eyes this is not only very ridiculous of you but very wrong in the first place it s not true you always said he was a story sobbed and now you say the same of me oh what shall i do what shall i do my darling girl i retorted i really must entreat you to be reasonable and listen to what i did say and do say my dear unless we learn to do our duty to those whom we employ they will never learn to do their duty to us i am afraid we present opportunities to people to do wrong that never ought to be presented even if we were as as we are in all our arrangements by choice � which we are not � even if we it and found it agreeable to be so � which we don t � i am persuaded we should have no right to go on in this way we are positively people we are bound to think of that i can t help thinking of it it is a reflection i am unable to dismiss and it sometimes makes me very uneasy there dear that s all come now don t be foolish would not allow me for a long time to remove the handkerchief she sat sobbing and murmuring behind it that if i was uneasy why had i ever been married why hadn t i said even the day before we went to church that i knew i should be uneasy and i would rather not if i couldn t bear her why didn t i send her away to her aunt s at or to mills in india would be glad to see her and would not call her a transported page had never called her anything of the sort in short was so afflicted and so afflicted me by being in that condition that i felt it was of no use repeating this kind of though never so mildly and i must take some other course what other course was left to take to form her mind this � was a common phrase of words which had a fair and promising sound and i resolved to form s mind i began immediately when was very childish and i would infinitely have preferred to humour her i tried to l e g david and disconcerted her and myself too t talked to her on the subjects which occupied my thoughts and i read to her � and fatigued her to the last degree i accustomed myself to giving her as it were quite casually little scraps of useful information or sound opinion � and she started from them when i let them off as if they had been no matter how incidentally or naturally i endeavoured to form my little wife s mind i could not help seeing that she always had an instinctive perception of what i was about and became a prey to the keenest apprehensions in particular it was clear to me that she thought a terrible fellow the formation went on very slowly i pressed into the 