i were sure to succeed i don t care for social success any more at all but i do feel i should like to do some good thing and i bitterly regret the church and the loss of my chance of being her ordained minister the who was a new man to this neighborhood had grown deeply interested and at last he said if you feel a real call to the and i won t say from your conversation that you do not for it is that of a thoughtful and educated man you might enter the at church as a only you must make up your mind to avoid strong drink i could avoid that easily enough if i had any kind of hope to support me part iii at for there was no other girl o bridegroom like � h t it was a new idea � the and life as distinct from the intellectual and life a man could preach and do good to his fellow creatures without taking double in the schools of or having anything but ordinary knowledge the old fancy which had led on to the vision of the had not been an or enthusiasm at all but a ambition in a he feared that his whole scheme had to even though it might not have originated in a social which had no foundation in the nobler instincts which was purely an artificial product of civilization there were thousands of young men on the same i self seeking track at the present moment the hind who ate drank and lived carelessly with his wife through the days of his vanity was a more being than he but to enter the church in such an wa r that he could not in any probability rise to a higher grade through all his career than that of the humble wearing his life out in an obscure village or city � that might have a touch of goodness and greatness in it that might be true religion and a course worthy of being followed by a man the favorable light in which this new thought showed itself by contrast with his intentions cheered as he sat there shabby and lonely and it may be said to have given during the next few days the to his intellectual a career which had e� the obscure tended over the greater part of a dozen years he did nothing however for some long time to advance his new desire occupying himself with little local in putting up and about the neighboring villages and to be regarded as a social failure a returned purchase by the half dozen or so of farmers and other country people who condescended to nod to him the human interest of the new intention � and a human interest is indispensable to the most spiritual and � was created by a letter from sue bearing a fresh she evidently wrote with anxiety and told very little about her own doings more than that she had passed some sort of examination for a queen s and was going to enter a training college at to complete herself for the she had chosen partly by his influence there was a college at was a quiet and soothing place almost entirely in its tone a spot where worldly learning and intellectual had no establishment where the feeling that he did possess would perhaps be more highly estimated than a brilliancy which he did not as it would be necessary that he should continue for a time to work at his trade while reading up divinity which he had neglected at for the ordinary classical grind what better course for him than to get employment at the farther city and pursue this plan of reading that his excessive human interest in the new place was entirely of sue s making while at the same time sue to be regarded even less than formerly as proper to c t i ate it had an to which he not blind but that much he to human fr � and hoped to learn to love her only as a friend and a woman a he aj he might s o mark coming as to begin his at the age of thirty � an age at h much attracted him as bein g t hat of his r when he first began to teach in this would allow him plenty of time for deliberate study and for acquiring capital by his trade to help his after course of keeping the necessary terms at a college christmas had come and passed and sue had gone to the normal school the time was just the worst in the year for to get into new employment and he had written suggesting to her that he should his arrival for a month or so till the days had lengthened she had so readily that he wished he had not proposed it � she evidently did not much care about him though she had never once reproached him for his strange conduct in coming to her that night and his silent disappearance neither had she ever said a word about her relations with mr suddenly however quite a passionate letter arrived from sue she was quite lonely and miserable she told him she hated the place she was in it was worse than the s worse than anywhere she felt utterly could he come immediately � though when he did come she would only be able to see him at limited times the rules of the establishment she found herself in being strict to a degree it was mr who had advised her to come there and she wished she had never listened to him s suit was not exactly evidently felt glad he packed up his things and went to with a lighter heart than he bad known for months is being the turning over a new leaf 