but say ye master that we ve done wrong in leaving our wives and children to fish for themselves it seemed hard at first and you were weak master and stayed with your father but after all he has money and could pay for attendance whereas our wives and little ones have none ourselves will be in straits to get our living if the kingdom be delayed in its coming for what good are except along the sea coast or where there is a lake or a river and here there isn t enough water for a to swim in our wives and our children are better off than we are for they ll be getting to fish for them and will stand at the doors at waiting for the boats to return praying that the weren t let down in vain but we aren t as sure of the kingdom as we were of a great take of fishes in when the wind was favourable to fishing not that we d have you think our faith be failing us we be as firm as ever we were as john and james will be telling you and peter interrupting them again reminded joseph that if they lacked faith the promised kingdom would not come it was faith that us john said pushing peter aside and the promises he made us that we might hear the trumpets of the and announcing the kingdom at any moment of the day or night and making himself the of the five john told joseph and i the brook that now looked upon the arrival of the kingdom as a very secondary matter and his own death as one of much greater import he says that he ll have to give his blood to the earth and his flesh to the birds of the air else none will believe his teaching he says that god demands a victim and looks upon him as the victim but if that be so the world will get his teaching and we shall get nothing for we know his teaching of old as peter has told you james interrupted there be no water here not a spring nor a nothing in which a fish could live we re in a desert without boats or which would be of no use to us nor am i it but if he gives himself as a victim how shall we get back to he now talks not of these matters to us but of his father only and of doing his father s will he seems to have forgotten us and everything else but his father and his father s will and we cannot make him understand when we try that we shall want money that money will be wanting to get us back to nor does he hear us when we say our and our boats may have passed into other hands we know not what is come over him he s a changed man a lamb as long as you re agreeing with him but at a word of contradiction he s all claws and teeth the walk is a long one and the taxes will be collected by the time we get back if the kingdom don t come and sore of foot i ll be sitting in a desolate house without wife or children or fire in the hearth but we have faith they all cried out together and having followed so far we ll follow him to the end but we are glad james said that you ve come for you ll see and tell him that we would like to have a word from him as to when we may expect the kingdom and a word too as to what it will be like whether there ll be rivers and lakes well with fish in it and whether our chairs shall be set peter on the master s right hand to be sure we are all agreed as to the brook that but you remember master our mother how she took aside and said that myself and john were to be on his left with one below us peter began to raise his voice and his shoulders he declared that his brother must sit on left you remember master f i remember joseph interrupted that the master answered you all saying that every chair had been made and and before the world was you can t have forgotten peter this saying that every one would find a chair according to his measure yes master he did say something like that i m far from saying we d all sit equally easy in the same chairs and if the chairs were before the world was all i can say is that there seems to have been a lack of foresight for how could god himself know what our would be like years upon years before they came into being about that we will speak later but now point out the house of the to us where joseph asked you see yon house james replied and they went forward together meeting on the way thither several and many and these accompanied joseph and to the door telling them the while that had driven them out of the house it is a main struggle that is going by in him philip said and so we left him being afraid of his looks isn t that so and they all and nodded saying yes we were afraid of his looks it was then that the opened the door and joseph remembering his promise to his father laid his hand on shoulder i may not enter he said i have come thus far but may not go into the house but do you go in and tell him that in spirit i am with him on these words passed into the house leaving joseph in the centre of a small crowd 