notion of each speaker while be c them all to understand that ho was only joking the laughter was interrupted by the bringing in of a letter for mrs a messenger had run with it in great from the it a and as mrs read and it in silence and agitation all eyes were turned on her with anxiety but no one dared to speak looking up at last and seeing the young faces painted with fear she remembered that they might be imagining something worse than the something like her own st dread which made her unable to understand what was written and she said with a sob which was half relief my mr � she paused an instant and then began again mr is drowned started up as if a had been suddenly thrown into the room he could not help himself and s first look was at him but then gathering some self command while mrs was reading what the had written on the paper he said can i do any thing can i carry any word to my father from yes dear tell him i will be ready � he is very good lie says he will go with me to � he will be here at six and help me to get ready she is safe � � is safe � but she must be ill i am sure she must be very ill dear � and � go and your father i will bo quite ready i would not for the world lose another night and bless him for being ready so soon i can travel night and day till we get there and hurried away through the sunshine which was suddenly solemn to them without uttering a word to each other she chiefly possessed by solicitude about any re opening of his wound he struggling with a crowd of thoughts that were an against his better will the oppression being when they were at the gate he said i will leave you to say every thing to ray father if he wants me immediately let me know i shall stay in for ten minutes � only ten minutes who has been quite free from escapes of the imagination desirable on his own future in the presence of another s misfortune sorrow or death the expected promotion or is the common type of a temptation which makes speech and oven prayer a severe of the most thoughts and sometimes raises an inward shame a self that is worse than any other form of unpleasant companionship in s nature the shame was immediate and like an ugly light all the images of what might come which thrust themselves in with the idea that was again them perhaps the more persistently because every of a hope was quickly by a more substantial obstacle before the vision of free rose the vision of rich exalted and if in the former time book � fruit when both their lives were fresh she had tamed from his love with what ground was there for supposing that her heart would be more open to him in the future these thoughts which ho wanted to master and were like a ringing of opposing that ho could not escape from by running during the last year he had brought himself into a state of calm resolve and now it seemed tliat three words had been enough to undo all that difficult work and cast him back into the wretched of a longing which ho recognized as simply and hopeless and at this moment the activity of longing had an that made it repulsive to his excuse poor it was not much more th n eighteen since he had been laid low by an who t i o m o tim c a touches his arrow with a subtle lingering poison the disappointment of a youthful passion has effects as as those of small which may make person plain and a genius another less plain and more foolish another plain without to his folly and leave perhaps the majority without obvious change every thing depends not on the mere fact of disappointment but on the nature affected and the force that it in s well endowed nature brief as the hope had been the passionate stirring had gone deep and the effect of disappointment was though with a beneficent new order which retained most of the old virtues in certain respects he believed that it had finally determined tho bias and color of his life now however it seemed that his inward peace was hardly stable than that of republican and his heart no better than tho alarm bell that work slack and tumult busy s love had been of that sudden penetrating clinging sort which tho knew and sung and in singing made a fashion of talk for many whose experience has been by no means of a fiery character to have the consciousness suddenly with another s personality to have the strongest inclinations possessed by an image which its in spite of change and apart from � i to feel a passion which the faster for the tragic pangs inflicted by a recognized � is a phase of which in tho and common minded has a repulsive likeness to a blind insensible to the higher sway of moral or heaven lit admiration but when this force is present in a nature not cf but of a human dignity that can risk itself safely it may even result in a not unfit to be called divine in a higher sense than the ancient and shakes its head at these unaccountable but they exist as as the winds and waves here a wreck and there a triumphant voyage this sort of passion had in sweet strong and he had made up his mind to its companionship as if it had been an object dear stricken dumb and helpless and turning all the future 