have thought already that be ii as merciful and kind as you and why do i not trust myself to as soon as to you have you not thought so no thought said little can be quite a stranger to my heart that springs out of the knowledge that mr is always to be relied upon for being kind and generous and good i do not doubt it yet arthur is of the whole world the one person from whom i would conceal this while i am in it i kept over him as a child in the days of his first remembrance my and hand was stem with him knowing that the of the parents are visited on their offspring and that there was an angry mark upon him at his birth i have sat with him and his father seeing the weakness of his father yearning to to him and forcing it back that the child might work out his release in bondage and hardship i have seen him with his mother s face looking up at me in awe from his little books and trying to soften me with his mother s ways that hardened me the shrinking of her stopped her for a moment in her flow of words delivered in a gloomy voice for his good not for the satisfaction of my injury what i and what was the worth of that before the curse of heaven i have seen that child grow up not to be pious in a chosen way his mother offence lay too heavy on him for that but still to be just and upright and to be to me he never loved me as i once halt hoped he might � so frail we are and so do the corrupt affections of the flesh war with our and tasks but he respected me and ordered himself to me he does to this hour with an empty place in his heart that he has never known the meaning of he has turned away from me and gone his separate road but even that he has ji q i id and with deference these have been hia oi s vo ts a s l v h kind b i tea o ex r v s� l have sat at your needle in my room yon have been in fear of me but � yon have supposed me to have been doing you a kindness you are better informed now and know me to have done you an injury f and misunderstanding of the cause in which and the motives with which i have worked out this work is lighter to endure than his would be i would not for any worldly i can imagine have him in a moment however blindly throw me down from the station i have held before him all his life and change me altogether into something he would cast out of his respect and detected and exposed let him do it if it must be done when i am not here to see it let me never feel while i am still alive that i die before his face and utterly perish away from him like one consumed by lightning and swallowed by an earthquake her pride was very strong in her the pain of it and of her old passions was very sharp with her when she thus expressed herself less so when she added even now i see t au shrink from me as if i had been cruel little could not it she tried not to show it but she with dread from the state of mind that had burnt so fiercely and lasted so long it presented itself to her with no upon it in its own plain nature i have done said mrs what it was given to me to i p do i have set myself against evil not against good i have been an instrument of severity against sin have not mere like myself been to lay it low in all time in all time repeated little even if my own wrong had prevailed with me and my own vengeance had moved me could i have justification none in the old days when the innocent perished with the guilty a thousand to one when the wrath of the of the was not even in blood and yet found favor mrs mrs said little angry and deeds are no comfort and no guide to you and me my life has been passed in this poor prison and my teaching has been very but let me you to remember later and better days be guided only by l e of the sick the of the dead ihe friend of all who were and forlorn the patient master who shed tears of compassion for our we cannot but be right if we put all the rest away and do everything in remembrance of him there is no vengeance and no of suffering in his life i am sure there can be no confusion r in following him and seeking for no other footsteps i am certain b in the softened light of the window looking from the scene of her � early trials to the shining sky she was not in stronger opposition to � the black figure in the shade than the life and doctrine on which rested were to that figure s history it bent its head low again and said not a word it remained thus the first warning bell � began to ring hark starting i said i had another petition it is one that does not admit of delay the man who brought you this packet and possesses these proofs is now waiting at my house to be bought off i keep this from only by off be n large bum more than i can get together to pay him having time he to make any because his 