believe or than it was now proved to be sh e feared that under this persuasion she had been unjust nay almost unkind to her that s affliction because more acknowledged more immediately before her had too much engrossed her tenderness and led her away to forget that in she might have a daughter suffering almost as much certainly with less self provocation and greater chapter now found the difference between the expectation of an unpleasant event however certain the mind may be told to consider it and certainty itself she now found that in spite of herself she had always admitted a hope while edward remained single that something would occur to prevent his marrying that some resolution of his own some of friends or some more eligible opportunity of establishment for the lady would arise to assist the happiness of ail but he was now married and she condemned her heart for the lurking flattery which so much heightened the pain of the intelligence that he should be married so soon before as she and ed he be in orders and consequently before he be in possession of the living surprised her a little at first but she soon saw how likely it was that in her self care in her haste to secure him should overlook every thing but the risk of delay they were married � married in town � and now hastening down to her uncle s what had edward felt on being within four miles from � on seeing her mother s servant � on hearing s message they would soon she supposed be settled at � � that place in which so much to give her an interest which she wished to be acquainted with and yet desired to avoid she saw them in an instant in their house saw in the active manager at once a desire of smart appearance with the utmost and ashamed to be suspected of half her economical pursuing her own interest in every thought the favour of colonel of mrs and of every wealthy friend in edward she knew not what she saw what she wished to see happy or unhappy nothing pleased her she turned away her head from every sketch of him flattered herself that some one of their connections in london would write to them to announce the event and give farther particulars but day after day passed off and brought no letter no tidings though uncertain that any one were to blame she found fault with every absent friend they were all thoughtless or indolent when do you write to colonel ma am was an which sprung from the impatience of her mind to have something going on i wrote to him my love week and rather expect to see than to hear from him again i earnestly pressed his coming to us and should not be surprised to see him walk in to day or to morrow or any day this was gaining something � something to look forward to colonel must have some information to give scarcely had she so determined it when the figure of a man on horseback drew her eyes to the window he stopped at their gate it was a gentleman � it was colonel himself now she could hear more and she trembled in of it but it was not colonel neither and his air nor his height were it possible she must say it must be edward she looked again he had just dismounted she could not be mistaken � it was edward she moved away and sat down he comes from mr s purposely to see us i will be calm � i will be mistress of myself in a moment she perceived that the others were likewise aware of the mistake she saw her mother and change colour � saw them look at herself and whisper a few sentences to each other she would have given the world to be able to speak and to make them understand that she hoped no coolness no t would appear in their behaviour to him but she had no utterance and was obliged to leave all to their own discretion not a syllable passed aloud they all waited in silence for the appearance of their visitor his footsteps were heard along the gravel path in a moment he was in the passage and in another he was before them his countenance as he entered the room was not too happy even for his complexion was white with agitation and he looked as if fearful of his reception and conscious that he no kind one mrs however as she trusted to the wishes of that daughter by whom she then meant in the warmth of her heart to be guided in every thing met him with a look of forced complacency gave him her hand and wished him joy he coloured and stammered out an unintelligible reply s lips had moved with her mother s and when the moment of action was over she wished that she had shaken hands with him too but it was then too late and with a countenance meaning to be open she sat down again and talked of the weather had retreated as much as possible out of sight to conceal her distress and margaret understanding some part but not the whole of the case thought it incumbent on her to be dignified and therefore took a seat as far from him as she could and maintained a strict silence when had ceased to rejoice in the of the season a very awful pause took place it was put an end to by mrs who felt obliged to hope that he had left mrs very well in a hurried manner he replied m the and another pause to exert herself though fearing the sound of her own voice now said is mrs at at r he replied with an air of 