for consolation to soothe nor anguish to � a grief unto itself in its terrible individuality this was the man for whom i had prayed and wept and my had been that his heart might be changed his heart was changed and i had no right to complain in my desire to administer comforts and to one who had enjoyed in early life a more than common share i had practised a degree of economy at with my usual habits and when idle comments were made upon my lately acquired to spare every unnecessary expense i felt a secret exultation burning in my cheeks and lighting up my eye with more happiness than i could have derived from any merely selfish gratification but this secret spring of enjoyment was destined to be dried up like many others with which i had been wont to refresh myself in the wilderness of life could now and he too had his hidden purpose for which he toiled and a calculation as accurate as could be made of all that i had spent upon him was entered into at his desire by his sister and the supposed amount laid before me in genuine and current coin i resisted with all the spirit that was left me and denied the of the sum � but all in vain there was something cool and imperative in his manner that awed me into obedience and i received the money with that sickness of soul which most frequently upon its resignation nothing however could have induced me to spend this sum upon myself it was hid in a secret where it might have remained until this day had not an opportunity occurred of sending it forth through a more worthy channel the health of was failing rapidly and when the summer came with its from the toils of education it appeared highly necessary that some plan should be adopted to restore her wasted powers and enable her to renew her accustomed labours her thoughts were so far removed from all false delicacy and paltry pride that she could accept a kindness with the grace and dignity of one who gives and when i pressed upon her the advice of her physician my own scheme for removing her to the south of england she answered me with tears of gratitude as she would wish to be answered in similar circumstances herself it was once she said the happiness of my life to be generous and it is now my part to receive and i thank my god that i have one friend who is both able and willing to assist me we are dependent creatures bound to each other by innumerable obligations which constitute the strength and of social fellowship it may appear to those who think more noble to be above receiving assistance but were all too proud to t pictures of private life i duty of giving freely and cheerfully would find no room to operate and if none were willing to he helped how should we exercise the christian graces of kindness and charity i h ve struggled hard that i might not the ground nor upon the of others were it probable that you would ever feel the want of what is now to my necessities believe me i would rather die than my life at the expense of you but you tell me and i cannot doubt your word that you are well able to assist me and i will not deny you the happiness of binding up the broken reed my kind father ever too indulgent to his children and not averse to my project added more than was sufficient to my store and if when i set off with my precious charge to the southern coast the of my heart was not in tune with perfect happiness the fault was not in my friend nor in the sense of satisfaction which upon our kindest and most actions as we proceeded slowly on our journey was the countenance of that friend turned towards me with looks of tenderness while she pressed my hand but spoke not for there was even between us one subject one of intense and mutual interest now seemingly forbidden i at least could find no words for my feelings and struggled long with hers before she could convey an idea of them to me nor was it possible even then that her sympathy could be equal to my need hers was a gentle spirit bound passing through the of tears with no desire but to point out the celestial city to other by the way and to gather in the nearest and dearest beneath the shelter of the sacred walls i was a in the wilderness lighting up my lone cave spreading forth my store and preparing rest for the weary traveller but the traveller had passed on and the desert was more dreary the cave more lonely than before i knew that he had gone forth to seek a better land and that all who seek may find yet was i unable to bless his parting footsteps for i was behind no it was impossible that should wholly with me those who live for heaven cannot feel with those who live for earth i who had prayed that the wanderer might be in any way on any terms and had added in the of the moment even without my or now found that my prayer was granted and acknowledged that i was not happy yes i was almost happy when i felt the of the gentle breezes and met the pleased and animated look of my friend the first view of the wide ocean had burst upon us as we descended into a peaceful valley where the green slopes and the rich of foliage a mild and genial atmosphere such as the wasted and the weary delight to breathe we were not long in fixing upon a low 