have had besides her folly in forming the connection was so great that though mr johnson was her guardian and i do not in general share his feelings i never can forgive her adieu yours ever mrs to lady de this letter my dear mother will be brought you by his long visit is about to be concluded at last but i fear the separation takes place too late to do us any good she is going to london to see her particular friend mrs johnson it was at first her intention that should accompany her for the benefit of masters but we her there was wretched in the idea of going and i could not bear to have her at the mercy of her mother not all the masters in london could for the ruin of her comfort i should have feared too for her health and for everything but her principles � there i believe she is not to be injured by her mother or her mother s friends but with those friends she must have mixed a very bad set i doubt not have been left in total solitude and i can hardly tell which would have been worse for her if she is with her mother moreover she must alas in all probability be with and that would be the greatest evil of all here we shall in time be in peace and our regular our books and conversations with exercise the children and every domestic pleasure in my power to procure her will i trust gradually overcome this youthful attachment i should not have a doubt of it were she for lady any other woman in the world than her own mother how long lady will be in town or whether she returns here again i know not i could not be cordial in my invitation but if she chooses to come no want of cordiality on my part will keep her away i could not help asking if he intended being in london this winter as soon as i found her s steps would be bent thither and though he professed himself quite there was something in his look and voice as he spoke which contradicted his words i have done with i look upon the event as so far decided � that i resign myself to it in despair if he leaves you soon for london everything will be concluded your affectionate etc c mrs johnson to lady edward my � i write in the greatest distress the most unfortunate event has just taken place mr johnson has hit on the most effectual manner of us all he had heard i imagine by some means or other that you were soon to be in london and immediately contrived to have such an attack of the as must at least delay his journey to bath if not wholly prevent it i am persuaded the is brought y lady on or kept o� e at pleasure it was the same when i wanted to join the to the lakes and three years ago when i had a fancy for bath nothing could induce him to have a symptom i am pleased to find that my letter had so much effect on you and that de is certainly your own let me hear from you as soon as you arrive and in particular tell me what you mean to do with it is impossible to say when i shall be able to come to you my confinement must be great it is such an abominable trick to be ill here instead of at bath that i can scarcely command myself at all at bath his old would have nursed him but here it all falls upon me and he bears pain with such par that i have not the common excuse for losing my temper yours ever lady to mrs johnson upper street my � there needed not this last fit of the to make me mr johnson but now the extent of my aversion is not to be estimated to have you confined as nurse in his apartment my dear of what a mistake were you guilty in marrying a man of his age just old enough to be formal and to have the too old to be agreeable too lady young to die i arrived last night about five had scarcely swallowed my dinner when made his appearance i will not what real pleasure his sight afforded me nor how strongly i felt the contrast between his person and manners and those of to the infinite disadvantage of the latter for an hour or two i was even staggered in my resolution of marrying him and though this was too idle and an idea to remain long on my mind i do not feel very eager for the conclusion of my marriage nor look forward with much impatience to the time when according to our agreement is to be in town i shall probably put off his arrival under some pretence or other he must not come till is gone i am still doubtful at times as to marrying if the old man would die i might not hesitate but a state of dependence on the caprice of sir will not suit the freedom of my spirit and if i resolve to wait for that event i shall have excuse enough at present in having been scarcely ten months a widow i have not given any hint of my intention or allowed him to consider my acquaintance with as more than the commonest and he is tolerably appeased adieu till we meet i am enchanted with my lodgings yours ever s v lady xxx lady to mr de upper street i have received your letter and though i do not attempt to conceal that i am gratified by your impatience for the hour of meeting i yet feel myself under the necessity of that 