marriage you are very wrong she can never be i lost to you than she but she will be gained by i and if that some one should be the very he whom i of all others i could least bear � but i will sense and sensibility stay to rob myself of all your compassionate by showing that where i have most injured i can least forgive good by � god bless you i and with these words he almost ran out of the room r chapter xviii some time after he left her for some time after the sound of hia carriage had died away remained too much oppressed by a crowd of widely in but of which sadness was the general result to even of her � he whom only half an hour ago she had aa the most worthless of men � in spite of all his faults excited a degree of for the sufferings produced by them which made her think of him aa r forever from her family with a a regret rather in proportion as she soon acknowledged within herself to his wishes than to his merits she felt that his influence over her mind was heightened by circumstances which ought not in reason to have weight � by that person of uncommon attraction that open affectionate and lively manner which it was no merit to and by that still ardent love for which it was not even innocent to indulge but she felt that it was so long long before she could feel less � sense and sensibility when at last she returned to the found her just refreshed by bo long and sweet a sleep to the extent of her s heart was fall the past the present the future s visit s safety and her mother s expected arrival threw her altogether into an agitation of spirits which kept off every indication of fatigue and made her ly fearful of betraying herself to her sister short was the time however ia which that fear lid affect her for half an after s leaving the house she was again called downstairs by the sound of another carriage eager to save her mother from every unnecessary moment s horrible suspense ran immediately into the hall and reached the outward door just in time to receive and support her as she entered it mrs whose terror as they drew near the house had produced almost the conviction of s being no more had no voice to inquire after her no voice even for but she waiting neither for salutation nor inquiry instantly gave the joyful relief and her mother catching it with all her usual warmth was in a moment as much overcome b her happiness as had been before by her fears she was supported into the drawing room between her daughter and her friend and there shedding tears of joy though still unable to speak embraced again and a io sense and sensibility turning from her at intervals to press i s hand with a look which spoke at her gratitude and her conviction of his sh with herself in the bliss of the moment shared it however in a silence even greater her own as soon as mrs had recovered herself to see was her first desire and minutes she was with beloved child dearer to her than oi er by absence i and danger s as she saw win each felt in the meeting was only checked by ab apprehension of its of j sleep but mrs could be calm could i even prudent when tbe life of a child was stake and satisfied in knowing hi mother was near her and conscious of being t weak for conversation submitted readily to tl silence and quiet prescribed by every nurse around her mrs sit up with her all night and in compliance with her mother s entreaty went to bed but the which one night entirely sleepless and many of the most wearing anxiety seemed to make site was kept off by irritation of spirits � poor as she now allowed herself to call him � was in her thoughts she would not but have heard his the world and now blamed now sense and for having judged him so harshly before but her of relating it to her sister was invariably painful she dreaded the performance of it dreaded its effect on might be doubted whether after an explanation she could ever be happy with another and for a moment wished then remembering i herself felt that to his and his constancy far more than to hia i rival s the reward of her sister was due and wished i anything rather than mrs s death the shock of colonel s errand at been much softened to mrs by her i own previous alarm for so great was her i about that she had already to set out for on that very day without waiting for any further intelligence and j far settled her journey before his arrival the were then expected every moment fetch margaret away as her mother was ing to lake her where there might be continued to mend every day and the brilliant cheerfulness of mrs s looks and spirits proved her to be as she repeatedly d herself one of the happiest women in the could not hear the declaration nor its proofs without sometimes wondering her mother ever recollected but trusting to the temperate a and sensibility of her own which had her was led away by the of her joy to think only of what would increase it was restored to her from a danger in which as she now began to feel her own mistaken judgment in encouraging the unfortunate attachment to had contributed to place her and in her recovery she had yet another source of joy of by it was thus imparted her as soon as any opportunity 