even to himself to find how by quick though almost degrees he lost his and of delicacy and self respect and gradually came to do that as a matter of course without the least which but a few short days before had him to the quick the first time he visited the s he felt on his way there as if every person whom he passed suspected whither he was going and on his way back again as if the whole human tide he knew well where he had come from when did he care to think of now in his first wanderings up and down the weary streets he the walk of one who had an object in his view but soon there came upon him the gait of idleness and the lounging at street comers and and biting of stray bits of straw and strolling up and down the same place and looking into the same shop windows with a miserable indifference fifty times a day at first he came out from his lodging with an sense of being observed � even by those chance by on whom he had never looked before and hundreds to one would never see again � issuing in the morning from a public house but now in his out and in he did not mind to about the door or to stand himself in careless thought beside the wooden stem studded from head to heel with on which the beer pots like so many boughs upon a tree and yet it took but five weeks to reach the lowest round of this tall ladder oh who treat of happiness and self respect innate in eveiy sphere of life and shedding light on every grain of dust in god s highway so smooth below your carriage wheels so rough beneath the tread of naked feet � yourselves in looking on the descent of men who have lived in th own esteem that there are scores of thousands breathing now and breathing thick with painful toil who in that high respect have never lived at all nor had a chance of life go ye who rest so placidly upon the bard who had been young and when he strung his harp was old and had never seen the righteous forsaken or his seed begging their bread go teachers of content and honest pride into the mine the mill the the depths of deepest ignorance and abyss of man s neglect and say can any plant spring up in air so foul that it the soul s bright torch as fast as it is kindled and oh ye of the nineteen year of y who appeal to human nature see that it be human � take heed it has not been transformed during your slumber and the sleep of generations into the nature of the beasts five weeks of all the twenty or thirty answers not one had come his money � even the additional stock he had raised from the disposal of his spare clothes and that was not much for clothes though dear to buy are cheap to � was fast yet what could he do at times an agony came over him in which he darted forth again though he was but newly home and returning to some place where he had been already twenty times made some new attempt to gain his end but always he was years and years too old for a cabin boy and years upon years too inexperienced to be accepted as a common seaman his dress and manner too against any such proposal as the latter and yet he was reduced to making it for even if he could have contemplated the being set down in america totally without money he had not enough left now for a passage and the poorest provisions upon the voyage it is an illustration of a very common tendency in the mind of man that all this time he never once doubted one may almost say the certainty of doing great things in the new world if he could only get there in proportion as he became more and more dejected by his present circumstances and the means of gaining america from his grasp the more he fretted himself with the conviction that that was the only place in which he could hope to achieve any high end and worried his brain with the thought that men going there in the meanwhile might anticipate him in the of those objects which were dearest to his heart he often thought of john and besides looking out for him on all occasions actually walked about london for three days together for the express purpose of meeting with him but although he failed in this and although he would not have to borrow money of him and although he john would have lent it yet still he could not bring his mind to write to pinch and inquire where he was to be found for although as we have seen he was fond of tom after his own fashion he could not endure the thought feeling so superior to tom of making him the stepping stone and of to his or being anything to him but a patron and his pride bo from the idea that it restrained him even now it might have yielded however and no doubt must have yielded soon but for a very strange and for occurrence the five weeks had quite run out and he was in a truly desperate plight when one evening having just returned to his lodging and being in the act of lighting his candle at the gas jet in the bar before up stairs to his own room his landlord called him by his name now as he had never told it to the man but had kept it to himself he was not a little startled by this and so plainly showed 