alarmed about it i think it is so of you that reminds me that i never finished what i wanted to say at the beginning of this letter even supposing that i am pretty and my complexion sometimes is simply awful you must bear in mind how quickly the years slip by and how soon a woman why we shall hardly be married before you will find me full of wrinkles and without a tooth in my head poor boy how dreadful for you men seem to change so little and so slowly besides it does not matter for them for nobody a man because he is pretty but you must marry me frank not for what i look but for what i am � for my inmost inmost self so that if i had no body at all you would love me just the same that is how i love you but i do prefer you with your body on all the same i don t know how i love you dear i only know that i am in a dream when you are near me � just a beautiful dream i live for those moments � ever your own little p s � papa gave us such a fright for he came in just now and said that the window and all his family were very ill this was a the concluded joke because the coachman had told him about my wasn t it horrid of him f june my own sweetest � i do want you to come up to town on saturday morning then i will see you home to st in the evening and we shall have another dear delightful week end i think of nothing else and i count the hours now please to manage it and don t let anything stop you you know that you can always get your way oh yes you can miss i know we shall meet at the at cross railway station at one o clock but if anything should go wrong send me a wire to the club then we can do some together and have some fun also tell your mother that we shall be back in plenty of time for dinner make another and i shall eat it things are slack at the office just now and i could be spared for a few days so you have had a fish it is so strange because on that very day i had my first present and it was a fish also we shall have fish at each end when we give a dinner if we get another fish then we shall give a � or keep one of the to give to your a friend when she gets married they will always come in useful and i have had two more presents one is a from my friends in the office the other is a pair of from the club they got it up without my knowing anything about it and i was amazed when a came up to my rooms with them last night may your be long and your unbroken you each make a hundred not out that was the inscription upon a card i have something very grave to tell you i ve been going over my bills and things and i owe ever so much more than i thought i have always been so careless and never known exactly how i stood it did not matter when one was a bachelor for one always felt that one could live quite simply for a few months and so set matters straight but now it is more serious the bills come to more than a hundred pounds the biggest one is forty two pounds to and the street however i am ordering my marriage suit from them and that will keep them quiet i have enough on hand to pay most of the others but we must not run short upon our � what an awful idea perhaps there may be some among our presents we will hope for the best the but there is a more serious thing upon which i want to consult you you asked me never to have any secrets from you or else i should not bother you about such things i should have kept it for saturday when we meet but i want you to have time to think about it so that we may come to some decision then i am to a man for an indefinite sum of money it sounds rather dreadful does it not but it is not so bad as it sounds for there is no harm done yet but the question is what we should do in the future about it and the answer is not a very easy one he is a very pleasant fellow an agent and he got into some trouble about his accounts last year the office would have dismissed him but as i knew his wife and his family i became that he should not go wrong again and so i saved him from losing his situation his name is he is one of those amiable weak good fellows whom you cannot help loving although you never can trust them of course we could give notice that we should not be responsible any longer but it would be a to this poor family and the man would certainly be ruined we don t want to begin our own happiness by making any one else do we but we shall talk it over and i shall do what you a advise understand that we are only liable in case and surely it is very unlikely that he will do so after the lesson that he has already had i think the house will do splendidly the is the name and it is on the not more than a quarter of a mile from the station if your 