in the outer world while her mother was and co ling up her thick black hair � a task because it seemed to renew the days of her daughter s � told how she came to send for mr how she had remembered their meeting at sally martin s in the autumn and had felt an irresistible desire to see him and tell him her sins and her troubles i see god s goodness now mother in ordering it so that we should meet in that way to overcome my prejudice against him and make me feel ho was good and then bringing it back to my mind in the depth of my trouble you know what foolish things i used to say about him knowing nothing of him all the while and yet he was the man who was to me comfort and help when everything else failed me it is wonderful how i feel able to speak to him as i never have done to any one before and how every word he says to me enters my heart and has a new meaning for me i think it must be because he has felt life more deeply than others and has a deeper faith i believe everything he says at once his words come to me like rain on the ground it has always to before as if i could see behind people s words as one sees behind a screen but in mr it is his very soul that speaks well my dear child i love and bless him for your sake if he has given you any comfort i never believed the harm people said of him though i had no to go and hear him for i am contented with old fashioned ways i find more good teaching than i can practise in reading my bible at home and hearing mr at church but your wants are differ ent my dear and we are not all led by the same road that was certainly good advice of mr s you told me of last night � that we should consult some one that may interfere for you with your husband and i have been turning it over in my mind while i ve been lying awake in the night i think nobody will do so well as mr for we must have a man that knows the law and that robert is rather afraid of and perhaps he could bring about an agreement for you to live apart your husband s bound to maintain you you know and if you liked we could move away and live somewhere else o mother we must do nothing yet i must think about it a little longer i have a different feeling this morning from what i had yesterday something seems to tell me that i must go ck to robert some time � after a little while i loved him once better than all the world and i have never had any children to love there were s in me that were wrong and i should like to make up for them if i can well my dear i won t persuade you think of it a longer but something must be done soon how i wish i had my bonnet and shawl and black gown here said after a few minutes silence i should like to go to church and hear mr there would be no fear of my meeting robert for he never goes out on a sunday morning i m afraid it would not do for me to pro to the house and fetch your clothes said mrs o no no j must stay quietly here while you two go to church i will be mrs s maid and get the dinner ready for her by the time she comes back dear good woman she was � b tender to me when she took g scenes of life me in in the night mother and all the next day when i could n t speak a word to her to thank her chapter xxi the servants at s felt some surprise when the morning noon and evening of saturday had passed and still their mistress did not it s very odd said the as she trimmed her next week s cap while the cook looked on with folded arms do you think as mrs was ill and sent for the afore we was up oh said if it had been that she d ha been back an for three or four times afore now she d ha sent little ann to let us know there s up more nor between her an the master that you may depend on said i know those clothes as was lying i the drawing room yesterday when the company was come meant i should n t wonder if that was what they ve had a fresh row about she s p gone away an s made up her mind not to come back again an i the right on t too said i d ha him long afore now if it had been me i would n t bein as she is by no husband not if he was the biggest lord i the land it s poor work bein a wife at that price d sooner be a cook wi out an roast an boil an an all to mind at once she may well do as she does i know m glad enough of a drop o myself when i m i feel very low like to night i think i shall put my beer i the an warm it what a one you are for beer i could n t abide it � nasty bitter stuff it s fine if was a cook you d know what belongs to bein a cook it s none so nice to a at your stomach i can 