any description which went before in acts one and two which not be straightened out in the last act the spirit of these plays my fancy at that time and elevated me into a world of which unfortunately fell in with the wildest of my youthful love as i saw it here set forth in all those gorgeous or sentimental was the only kind of love worth while fortune also gilded as only the stage can d it and as shown nightly by mr everywhere in america was the only type of fortune worth while to be rich elegant exclusive as in the of and mr jones and mr according to what i saw here love and youth were the only things worth discussing or thinking about the splendor of the the social of new london and paris the sex of such minds as junior then in his and a number of other current seemed all to be built around youth and love the dreary of actual life was carefully shut out from these pieces the simple delights of ordinary living if they were used at all were exaggerated beyond sensible belief and elsewhere � not here in st louis but in the new yo london paris st � were all the that were worth while if i really wanted to be happy a book about i moat go to places of than were the fine clothes the and and vice and painted in that they were always sad or r existed on in those great chapter i to dream more than ever of perfect atmosphere for somehow somewhere � bnt never in st of that was too common too western too far from the real wonders of the world love and and travel and romance the great things bnt tb were afar off in new york it was around this time that i was establishing the atmosphere of a in tenth street nothing be so as love in a mansion a palace in some oriental realm such as was indicated in the comic in which thomas q francis and frank were then appearing how often or wood as companion occasionally hazard or a new friend to me by wood and known as or body a most amazing person aa i will later relate i to these poetic stage scenes i with one or other of these i visited aa many aa i if for no more than an or an act at a time and with wonder and scenes as most appealed to me the scene for instance in the or the third act of nearly any of henry arthur jones s plays also all of the light of de and harry b smith as well as those of color and melody the the au the such as fox of long line of comic opera who somehow me of held me with delight and admiration here at last was tiie kind of maiden i was really craving an of this airy temperament i remember that one at the close of of mr wh laid s at the � the t lave a book about story in which he appearing a popular leading woman a very one � i waa hy the manager to wait for a few moments after the performance so that he mi introduce me why i know it seemed that he was taking them to supper and thought they might like to meet one of the local critics or that i might like to accompany them an honor which i declined out of fright or when they finally appeared in the of the however the young very and soft and clinging and dressed most after the manner of the stage i was beside myself with envy and despair for she appeared hanging most tenderly on her star s arm she was his mistress i understood and gazing about such beauty such vivacity i could anything be ao lovely think of having such a perfect creature love you hang on your arm i and here was i poor a mere a nobody upon wh � n such a splendid creature would not bend a second glance mr was full of tlie heavy of the actor which made the scene all the more impressive to me i think most of us like to be up at on time or by some one i i at her pretending to be but little interested while i was really dying of envy finally after a few words and a few smiles cast in my direction i was urged to come with them but instead hurried away pleading and my stars and my fate think of being a mere at twenty five or thirty a week others earning thousands were thus in the sunshine of success and ah why might not i have been bom rich or famous and so able to command so lovely a woman i if i had been of an ordinary sensible turn of mind with a of that practical wisdom which puts moderate place and position first and sets great store by the saving of mon i might have succeeded fairly well here better than i did anywhere else for a long period after unquestionably mr liked me i think he may bare been fond of me in some amused way to keep such a bounding high flown about the a book place i might have held this place for a or two and made it a stepping stone to something better bat instead of rejoicing in the and t it the end and aim of my daily i looked npon it as a mere i had bnt might not have tomorrow and anyhow there were better things than working day by day and living in a small room e certainly to bring me better something truly splendid � and soon i deserved it everything a great fine clothes women the respect and companionship of men indeed 