my family tou my mother and margaret must henceforth be all the world to me you will share my affections entirely between you from you from my home i shall never again have the smallest to move and if i do mix in other society it will be only t j show that my spirit is my heart and that i can practise the the duties of life with gentleness and forbearance as for to say that i shall soon or thai i shall ever forget him would be idle his re can be overcome by no change of or opinions but it shall be regulated sense and sensibility it shall be c by religion b reason by constant employment she paused and added in a lower voice if i could but know his heart everything would become easy who had now been for some time reflecting on the propriety or of speedily her without feeling at all nearer decision than at first heard this and perceiving that as reflection did nothing resolution must do all soon found herself leading to the fact she managed the recital as she hoped with address prepared her anxious listener with caution related simply and honestly the chief points on which his apology did justice to his repentance and softened only his of present regard said not a word she trembled her eyes were fixed on the and her lips became than even sickness had left them a thousand inquiries sprung up from her heart but she dared not urge one she caught every syllable with panting eagerness her hand to herself closely pressed her sister s and tears covered her cheeks her being tired led her towards home and till they reached the door of the cottage easily what her curiosity sense and sensibility must be though no question was suffered to speak it talked of nothing but and their conversation together and was carefully minute in every particular of speech and look where could be indulged as soon as they entered the house with a kiss of gratitude and these two words just articulate through her tears tell mamma withdrew from her sister and walked slowly upstairs would not attempt to disturb a solitude so reasonable as what she now sought and with a mind anxiously its result and a resolution of the subject again should fail to do it she turned into the parlor to fulfil her parting chapter xx mrs did not hear unmoved the of her former favorite she rejoiced in his being cleared from some part of his guilt she was sorry for him she wished him happy but the feelings of the past could not be recalled nothing could restore him with a faith unbroken a character to nothing could do away the knowledge of what the latter had through his means nor remove the guilt of his conduct towards nothing could replace him therefore in her former esteem nor injure the interests of colonel had mrs like her daughter heard s story from himself � had she witnessed his distress and been under the influence of his countenance and his manner � it is probable that her compassion would have been greater but it was neither in s power nor in her wish to rouse such feelings in another by her explanation as had at first been called forth in herself reflection had given calmness to her judgment and her own opinion of s deserts she wished therefore to de sense and only the simple truth and lay open facts as were really due to his character without any of tenderness to lead the fancy astray in the evening when they were all three together began voluntarily to speak of him again but that it was not without an effort the restless in which she had been for some time previously sitting her rising color as she spoke and her unsteady voice plainly showed i wish to assure you both said she that i see everything as you can desire me to do mrs would have interrupted her instantly with soothing tenderness had not who really wished to hear her sister s opinion by an eager sign engaged her silence slowly continued � it is a great relief to me what told me this morning i have now heard exactly what i wished to hear for some moments her voice was lost but recovering herself she added and with greater calmness than before i am now perfectly satisfied i wish for no change i never could have been happy with him after knowing aa sooner or later i must have known all this i should have had no confidence no esteem nothing could have done it away to my feelings i know it i know it cried her mother sense am happy with a man of with one who had so injured the peace of the dearest of our friends and the best of men i no my has not a heart to be made happy with such a man her conscience her sensitive conscience would have felt all that the conscience of her husband ought to have felt sighed and repeated i wish for no change you consider the matter said exactly as a g d mind and a sound understanding must consider it and i dare say you perceive as well as myself not only in this but in many other circumstances reason enough to be convinced that your marriage must have involved you in many certain troubles and disappointments in which you would have been poorly supported by an affection on his side much less certain had you you must have been always poor his is acknowledged even by himself and his whole conduct declares that self denial is a word hardly understood by him his de and your together on a small very small income must have brought on which would not be the less grievous to you from having been entirely 