heaven how it all comes back to me this long time afterwards � don t go if you please these are two � very kind good people � who are relations of my nurse and have come from to see me aye aye said returning i am glad to see them how are you both there was an ease in his manner � a gay and light manner it was but not � which i still believe to have borne a kind of enchantment with it i still believe him in vii of this carriage his animal spirits his delightful voice his handsome face and figure and for aught i know of some power of attraction besides which i think a few people possess to have carried a spell with him to which it was a natural weakness to yield and which not many persons could withstand i could not but see how pleased they were with him and how they seemed to open their hearts to him in a moment you must let them know at home if you please mr i said when that letter is sent that mr is very kind to me and that i don t know what i should ever do here without him nonsense said laughing you mustn t tell them anything of the sort and if mr ever comes into or mr i said while i am there you may depend upon it i shall bring him to if he will let me to see your house you never saw such a good house it s made out of a boat made out of a boat is it said it s the right sort of house for such a thorough built so tis sir so tis sir said ham grinning you re right young gen n r bo gen n s right a thorough built that s what he is too mr was no less pleased than his nephew though his modesty forbade him to claim a personal compliment so well sir he said bowing and and in the ends of his at his breast i sir i i do my in my line of life sir the best of men can do no more mr said he had got his name already i pound it it s you do yourself sir said mr shaking his head and you do well � right well i sir i m to you sir for your manner of me i m rough sir but i m ready � least ways i hope i m ready you understand my house ain t much for to see sir but it s hearty at your service if ever you of david should come along with r to see it i m a lar i am said mr by which he meant and this was in allusion to his being slow to go for he had attempted to go after every sentence and had somehow or other come back again but i wish you both well and i wish you happy ham echoed this sentiment and we parted with them in the manner i was almost tempted that evening to tell about pretty little em ly but i was too timid of mentioning her name and too much afraid of his laughing at me i remember that i thought a good deal and in an uneasy sort of way about mr having said that she was getting on to be a woman but i decided that was nonsense we transported the shell fish or the relish as mr had modestly called it up into our room unobserved and made a great supper that evening but couldn t get happily out of it he was too unfortunate even to come through a supper like anybody else he was taken ill in the night � quite prostrate he was � in consequence of and after being with black draughts and blue to an extent which whose father was a doctor said was enough to a horse s constitution received a and six chapters of greek testament for refusing to confess the rest of the half year is a in my recollection of the daily strife and struggle of our lives of the summer and the changing season of the frosty mornings when we were rung out of bed and the cold cold smell of the dark nights when we were rung into bed again of the evening dimly lighted and indifferently warmed and the morning which was nothing but a great shivering machine of the of boiled beef with roast beef and boiled mutton with roast mutton of of bread and butter dog s lesson books cracked tear blotted copy books hair rainy sundays and a dirty atmosphere of ink surrounding all i well remember though how the distant idea of the holidays after seeming for an immense time to be a stationary speck began to come towards us and to grow and grow how from counting months we came to weeks and then to days and how i then began to be afraid that i should not be sent for and when i learnt from that i had been sent for and was certainly to go home had dim that i might break my leg first how the breaking up day changed its place fast at last from the week after next to next week this week the day after to morrow to morrow to day to night � when i was inside the mail and going home i had many a broken sleep inside the mail and many an dream of all these things but when i awoke at intervals the ground outside the window was not the of house and the sound in my ears was not the sound of mr giving it to but the sound of the coachman touching up the horses the personal history and experience chapter my holidays especially one happy afternoon when we 