been to maintain the in coals in two or three days more i was informed by the authorities of his having led to the discovery of of beef among the kitchen stuff and sheets in the rag bag a little while afterwards he broke out in an entirely new direction and confessed to a knowledge of intentions as to our premises on the part of the pot boy who was immediately taken up i got to be so ashamed of being such a victim that i would have given liim any money to hold his tongue or would have offered a round bribe for his being permitted to run away it was an circumstance in the case that he had no idea of tliis but conceived that he was making me amends m every new discovery not to say obligations on my head at last i ran away myself whenever i saw an of the police approaching with some new intelligence and lived a stealthy life until he was tried and ordered to be transported even then he couldn t be quiet but was always writing us letters and wanted so much to see before he went away that went to visit him and fainted when she found herself inside the iron bars in short i had no peace of my life he was and made as i afterwards heard a shepherd of up the country somewhere i have no idea where all this led me into some serious reflections and presented mistakes i of david in a new aspect as i could not help communicating to one evening in spite of my tenderness for her my love said i it is very painful to me to think that our want of system and management not only ourselves which we have got used to but other people you have been silent for a long time and now you are going to be cross said no my dear indeed let me explain to you what i mean i think i don t want to know said but i want you to know my love put down put his nose to mine and said to drive my seriousness away but not succeeding ordered him into his and sat looking at me with her hands folded and a most resigned httle expression of countenance the fact is my dear i began there is in us we about us i might have gone on in this manner if s face had not me that she was wondering with all her might whether i was going to propose any new kind of or other medical remedy for this state of om s therefore i checked myself and made my meaning it is not merely my pet said i that we lose money and comfort and even temper sometimes by not learning to be more careful but that we the serious responsibility of who comes into our service or has any dealings with us i begin to be afraid that the fault is not entirely on one side but that these people au turn out ill because we don t turn out very well ourselves oh what an accusation exclaimed opening her eyes wide to say that you ever saw me take gold watches oh my dearest i remonstrated don t talk preposterous nonsense who has made the least allusion to gold watches you did returned you know you did you said i hadn t turned out well and compared me to him to whom i asked to the page sobbed oh you cruel fellow to compare affectionate wife to a transported page why didn t you tell me your opinion of me before we were married why didn t you say you thing that you were convinced i was worse than a transported page oh what a dreadful opinion to have of me oh my goodness now my love i returned gently trying to remove the handkerchief she pressed to her eyes this is not only very ridiculous of you but very wrong in the first place it s not true you always said he was a story sobbed and now you say the same of me oh what shall i do what shall i do my darling girl i retorted i really must entreat you to be reasonable and listen to what i did say and do say my dear unless we learn to do our duty to those whom we employ they will never learn to do their duty to us i am afraid we present opportunities to people to do wrong that never ought to be presented even if we were as as we are in all our arrangements by choice � which we are not � even if we liked it the personal history and experience and found it agreeable to be so � we don t � i am persuaded we should have no right to go on in this way we are positively people we are bound to think of that i can t help thinking of it it is a reflection i am unable to dismiss and it sometimes makes me very uneasy there dear that s all come now don t be foolish would not allow me for a long time to remove the handkerchief she sat sobbing and murmuring behind it that if i was uneasy why had i ever been married why hadn t i said even the day before we went to church that i knew i should be uneasy and i would rather not if i couldn t bear her why didn t i send her away to her at or to in india would be glad to see her and would not call her a transported page never had called her anything of the sort in short was so afflicted and so afflicted me by being in that condition that i felt it was of no use repeating this kind of effort 