of witness from herself the first was his walking with her apart from the others ir � where they had been walking si and he had taken pains as she w from the rest to himself and at first he had talked to b n the lime walk at le before came ed to draw h in a more particular way than he had ever done before � in a very particular way indeed could not recall it without a blush he seemed to be almost asking her whether her affections were engaged but as soon as she miss appeared to join them he changed the subject and began talking about farming the second was his having sat talking with her nearly half an hour before came back from her visit the very last morning of his being at r though when he first came in he had said that he could not stay five minutes � and his having told her during their conversation that though he must go to london it was very much against hb that he left home at all which was much more as felt than he had acknowledged to her the superior degree of confidence towards which this one article marked gave her severe pain on the subject of the first of the two circumstances she did after a little reflection venture the following question � might he not � is not it possible that when as you thought into the state of your affections he might be alluding to mr martin � he might have mr martin s interest in view but rejected the suspicion with spirit mr martin no indeed � there was not a hint of mr martin i hope i know better now than to care for mr martin or to be suspected of it when had closed her evidence she appealed to her dear miss to say whether she had not good ground for hope i never should have presumed to think of it at first said she but for you you told me to observe him carefully and let his behaviour be the rule of and so i have but now i seem to feel that i may deserve him and that if he does choose me it will not be any thing so very wonderful the bitter feelings occasioned by this speech the many bitter feelings made the utmost exertion necessary oa s side to enable her to say in reply � as � i will only venture lo declare is the last man in the world who would give any woman the idea of his feeling for her more than he really does seemed ready to worship her friend for a sentence so satisfactory and was only saved from and fondness which at that moment would have been dreadful penance by the sound of her father s footsteps he was coming through the hall was too much agitated to encounter him she could not compose mr would be she had better go � with most ready encouragement from her friend therefore she passed off through another door � and the moment she was gone this was the spontaneous burst of feelings o that had never seen her the rest of the day the following night were hardly enough for her thoughts she was bewildered amidst the confusion of all that had rushed on her within the last few j hours every moment had brought a fresh surprise and i every surprise must be matter of humiliation to her how i to understand it how to understand the she i had been thus on herself and living under � the i the blindness of her � still she walked about she tried her own room she tried the � in every place every she perceived that she had acted most weakly that she had been imposed on by others in a most degree that she had been imposing on herself in a degree yet more tha l she was wretched and should probably find this day but the beginning of wretchedness � to understand thoroughly understand her own heart was the first endeavour to that point went every leisure moment which her father s claims allowed and every moment of absence of mind how long had mr been so dear to her as every feeling declared him now to be when had his influence such influence begun when had he to that in her frank had once for a short period occupied � she looked back she compared the two � compared them as they had always stood in her estimation from the time of the becoming known lo her � and as they must at any time have been compared by her had it � oh had it by any blessed felicity occurred to her to the comparison she saw that there never had been a time when she did not consider mr as infinitely the superior or when his regard for her had not been infinitely the most dear she saw that in persuading in in acting to the contrary she had been entirely under a delusion totally ignorant of her own heart and in short that she had never really cared for frank this was the conclusion of the first series of reflection this was the knowledge of on the first question of which she reached and without being long in reaching it she was most sorrowfully indignant ashamed of every sensation but the one revealed lo her affection for mr every other part of her mind was disgusting with vanity had she believed herself in the secret of every body s feelings with proposed to arrange every body s destiny she was proved to have been universally mistaken and she had not quite done nothing � for she had done mischief she bad brought evil on on herself and she too much feared on mr were this most unequal of all connections to 