was a� constant in her own feelings and as full of faith in the constancy of mine as ever � awakened all my remorse i awakened because time and london business and bad some measure it and i had been growing a fine hardened villain myself indifferent to her and choosing to fancy at too must have become indifferent to me talking to myself of our past attachment as a mere idle trifling business up my shoulders in proof of its being so and every reproach every scruple saying now and then i shall be heartily glad to bear is well married but this note made me know myself better felt that she was infinitely dearer to me than any other woman in the world and that i was using ber but every was then just settled between miss grey and me to retreat was impossible all that had to do was to avoid you both i no answer to intending by that means to preserve myself from her notice and for some time i was even to call in street j but at last it wiser t affect the air of a cool common acquaintance than any thing else i watched you all out of the house one morning and left my name and watched us out of the house even you would be surprised to hear how often i watched you how often i was on the point of falling in with you i haye entered many a shop to your sight as the drove by lodging as i did in bond street there was hardly a day in which i did not catch a glimpse of one or other of you and nothing but the most constant on my side a most invariably prevailing desire to keep out of your sight could have separated us so long i avoided the as much as possible as well as every body else who was likely to prove an acquaintance in common not aware of their being in town however i on sir john i believe the first day of his coming and the day after i had called at mrs s he asked me to a party a dance at his house in the evening had he not told me as an that you and your sister were to be there i should have felt it too certain a thing to trust myself near him the next morning brought another short note from � stiu affectionate open confiding � every thing that could make my conduct most hateful i could not answer it i tried � but could not frame a sentence but i thought of her i believe every moment of the day if you can pity me miss pity my situation as it was then with my head and heart of your sister i was forced to play the happy lover to another woman those three or four weeks were worse than all well at last as i need not tell you you were forced on me and what a sweet figure i cut what an evening of agony it was beautiful as an angel an one side calling me in such a tone oh god holding out her hand to me asking me for an explanation with those eyes fixed in such speaking solicitude on my face and jealous as the devil on the other hand looking all that was � well it does not signify it is over now such an evening i ran away from you au as soon as i could but not before i had seen s sweet face as white as death that was the last last look i ever had of her the last manner in which she appeared to me it was a horrid sight yet when i thought a d of her to sa it was a kind of comfort to me imagine that i knew exactly how would appear to who saw her last in this world she was before me before me as i travelled in the same look and hue a pause of mutual though succeeded first rousing himself broke it thus well let me make haste and be gone your ii better out of danger we are of it j your poor mother too on but the letter mr own letter hm you any to say about that yes yes that in particular your sister wrote to me again you know the very nest morning you saw what said i was at the � and her letter with some others was brought to me there from my i j it happened to s eye before it caught mine � and its the elegance of the paper the handwriting altogether immediately gave her a suspicion some vague report had reached her before of mj attachment to some young lady in and what had passed within her observation the preceding evening had marked who the young lady was and made her more jealous ever that air of j therefore which is in a woman one loves she opened the letter directly and read its contend she was well paid for her impudence she read wliat ma s her wretched her wretchedness i could have borne but her passion � her malice � at all events it must be appeased and in short what do you think of toy wife s style of letter writing � delicate � tender � truly feminine was it not your wife the letter was in your own handwriting yes but i had only the credit of such sentences as i was ashamed to put my name to the original was all her own � her own happy thoughts and gentle but what could i do we were engaged every thing in preparation the day almost � but i am talking like a fool preparation in honest words her was and to me and in a situation like mine anything was to 