and we ve done decidedly worse listened with a sense of she saw now that he did not mean to acknowledge his failing and knowing the of the she decided that he was enough to think he could still deceive her well he began again with an attempt at i ve found out that in my profession it s a hard struggle to get on your feet again after illness or � or any bad set back that s the reason i asked you to say a word for me it s not only the money though i need that badly � i want to get back my self respect with my record i t to be where i am � and you can speak for me better than anyone the � of the tree why better than the doctors you ve worked with put the question abruptly looking him straight in the eyes his glance dropped and an unpleasant flush rose to his thin cheeks well � as it happens you re better situated than anyone to help me to the particular thing i want the particular thing yes i understand that mr and mrs are both interested in the new wing for paying at saint s i want the position of house physician there and i know you can get it for me his tone changed as he spoke till with the last words it became rough and almost menacing felt her colour rise and her heart began to beat here was the truth then she could no longer be the of her own compassion the man knew his power and meant to use it but at the thought her courage was in arms i m sorry � but impossible she said impossible � why she continued to look at him steadily you said just now that you wished to regain your self respect well you must regain it before you can ask me � or anyone else � to recommend you to a position of trust half rose with an angry murmur my what do you mean meant that i d lost courage � through ill luck yes and your ill luck has come through your own fault till you cure yourself you re not fit to cure others the fruit of the tree he sank back into his seat at her under sullen brows then his expression gradually changed to half admiration you re a he said repressed a movement of disgust i am very sorry for you she said gravely i saw this trouble coming on you long ago � and if there is any other way in which i can help you thanks he returned still your sympathy is very precious � there was a time when i would have given my soul for it but that s over and i m here to talk business you say you saw my trouble coming on � did it ever occur to you that you were the cause of it glanced at him with frank contempt no � for i was not she that s an easy way out of it but you took everything from me � first my hope of marrying you then my chance of a big success in my career and i was desperate � weak if you like � and tried to my feelings in order to keep up my pluck rose to her feet with a movement of impatience every word you say proves how unfit you are to assume any responsibility � to do anything but try to recover your health if i can help you to that i am still willing to do so rose also moving a step nearer well get me that place then � i ll see to the rest i ll keep straight no � it s impossible you won t i can t she repeated firmly the fruit of the put me off with that answer � if there s no other help you ll and you expect t she hesitated ye accept he laughed again � his feeble laugh was disgusting oh i don t say that i d like to earn my living honestly � funny preference � but if you cut me off from that i suppose it s only fair to let you make up for it my wife and child have got to live you choose a strange way of helping them but i will do what i can if you will go for awhile to some institution he broke in furiously institution be damned you can t me out of the way like that i m all right � good food is what i need you think i ve got in why hunger heard him with a renewal of pity oh i m sorry for you � very sorry why do you try to deceive me why do you deceive tne you know what i want and you know you ve got to let me have it if you won t give me a line to one of your friends at saint s you ll have to give me another � that s the size of it as they faced each other in silence s pity gave way to a sudden hatred for the poor creature who stood shivering and before her you choose the wrong tone � and i think our talk has lasted long enough she said stretching her hand to the bell did not don t ring � unless you want me to write to your husband he rejoined sick feeling of helplessness overcame her but she the fruit of ihe tree turned on him firmly i you once for tha threat yes � and you sent me some money the next day i was mistaken enough to think � that in your dis you had not what you wrote but i you re a gently � gently bad names don t frighten it 