s stooped grasped his coat collar behind with both hands and swung him up like the sack of flour or coals before mentioned a countenance of special discontent and amazement mr exhibited in this position with his buttons almost as on view as s own and with his wooden leg in a highly state but not for many seconds was his countenance visible in the room for lightly trotted out with him and trotted down the staircase mr attending to open the street door mr s instructions had been to deposit his burden in the road but a s cart happening to stand at the corner with its little ladder planted against the wheel mr s found it impossible to resist the temptation of shooting mr into the cart s contents a somewhat difficult feat achieved with great dexterity and with a prodigious splash chapter xv what was caught in the traps that were set how had been and in his mind the quiet evening when by the river side he had risen as it were out of the ashes of the none but he could have not even he could have told for such misery can only be felt first he had to bear the combined weight of the knowledge of what he had done of that haunting reproach that he might have done it so much better and of the dread of discovery this was load enough to crush him and he under it day and night it was as heavy on him in his scanty sleep as in his red eyed waking hours it bore him down with a dread monotony in which there was not a moment s variety the beast of burden or the slave can for certain shift the physical load and find some slight even in additional pain upon such a set of muscles or such a limb not even that poor mockery of relief could the wretched man obtain mutual under the steady pressure of the infernal atmosphere into which he had entered time went by and no visible suspicion dogged him time went by and in such public accounts of the attack as were renewed at intervals he began to see mr who acted as lawyer for the injured man further from the feet going wider of the issue and evidently in his zeal by degrees a glimmering of the cause of this began to break on s sight then came the chance encounter with mr at the railway station where he often lingered in his leisure hours as a place where any fresh news of his deed would be or any referring to it would be posted and then he saw in the light what he had brought about for then he saw that through his desperate attempt to separate those two for ever he had been made the means of them that he had dipped his hands in blood to mark himself a miserable fool and tool that for his wife s sake set him aside and left him to crawl along his course he thought of fate or providence or be the directing power what it might as having put a fraud upon him � him � and in his impotent mad rage bit and tore and had his fit new assurance of the truth came upon him in the next few following days when it was put forth how the wounded man had been married on his bed and to whom and how though always in a dangerous condition he was a shade better would far rather have been seized for his murder than he would have read that passage knowing himself spared and knowing why but not to be still further and � which he would be if by and punished by the law for his abject failure as though it had been a success � he kept close in his school during the day ventured out at night and went no more to the railway station he examined the in the newspapers for any sign that acted on his hinted threat of so him to renew their acquaintance but found none having paid him handsomely for the support and accommodation he had had at the lock house and knowing him to be a very ignorant man who could not write he began to doubt whether he was to be feared at all or whether they need ever meet again all this time his mind was never off the rack and his raging sense of having been made to fling himself across the chasm which divided those two and bridge it over for their coming together never cooled down this horrible condition brought on other fits he could not have said how many or when but he saw in the of his pupils that they had seen him in that state and that they were possessed by a dread of his one winter day when a slight fall of snow was the and frames of the windows he stood at his black board in hand about to commence with a class when reading in the countenances of those boys that there was something wrong and that they seemed in alarm for him he turned his eyes to the door towards which they faced he then saw a man of for our mutual bidding appearance in the midst of the school with a under arm and saw that it was he sat down on a stool which one of his boys pat for him and lie had a passing knowledge that he was in danger of falling and that his face was becoming distorted bat the fit went off for that time and he wiped bis month and stood np again beg your pardon governor by your leave said his forehead with a chuckle and a what may this be this is a school where young folks s right t said gravely nodding beg your pardon governor 