by ilaksh | 2026-03-09 08:42:29+00:00
Just for some perspective, it could be a lot worse.

Some of us:

- don't have a psychiatrist

- don't have medication or healthcare

- work remotely but their client often doesn't check in for days or over a week

- when they do they always mention they are extremely busy and only have a few minutes to talk

- are working overtime for outsourcing wages to just barely scrape by

- client usually fails to read messages and barely reviews work

- when client wants something like Sesame TTS for a big presentation in less than two weeks and you give PersonaPlex as an option and manage to build a whole fine tuning studio in a week and integrate the moshi fine tuning into PersonaPlex and create a LoRA that proves it can be trained for outgoing calls and for his specific use case.. but it is overfit and sounds rough and so instead of letting you do a few more iterations of tuning parameters etc. he instead tells you to start frantically generating more calls to look for good demos, even though the system has already been up and running for months and numerous audio files have been posted and available in the UI.. this making it impossible to complete the PersonaPlex demo on time..

- then when you spend all day going through old calls looking for good ones and create a zip file and he doesn't even see the message and when you remind him and try to manage expectations for call quality, he refuses to even listen to the files because he is too busy.. leading to a fight on the phone where you say the wrong thing and he suggests he might fire you, but in an ambiguous non-committal way so you don't even know if you are fired or if you are supposed to continue to scramble to complete 250 automated calls the next morning (even though the most done in a day has been around 100) or if that is a key task for his operation (supposedly was live data) or if it is completely unnecessary

- despite all of these problems overall has been one of the better clients in recent years

- has unresolved health issues

- does not have a dog

- does not have a cat

- lives in a small apartment where that's not allowed anyway

- does not have an IRC hangout

To be honest, there are a lot of levels of misery. And although it's valid to complain when things have gone downhill, from where I'm standing it looks a little bit like whining.

Although perhaps quite unhealthy, a lot of people cope partly with "parasocial" "relationships". In other words, watching the same Youtuber or whatever whenever they come out with a new video. I believe this profoundly reduces loneliness. Although obviously it's not an actual solution.

I believe that sunlight affects mood and everything quite a lot and so going outside or taking Vitamin D3 can help.

Whenever I hop on my Quest 3 there is always someone there to do Eleven table tennis with.

I think for me, for much of my adult life I've been in a state of poor health and poor financial situation and have actually avoided attempting to socialize because I feel I have to take care of other priorities before I can present to society in any confident way. Because people can tell that you are not quite well and don't have financial security, and they don't want to be around it.