by wormius | 2025-04-17 19:35:46+00:00
I don't have any advice, either technologically or socially. I have what I think solutions are but society doesn't like my solutions, and we live in a society.

1. Maybe read some Pessimist philosophers. I find solace in cosmic entropy. I don't believe in a literal God, but Mainlander's idea of pandeism where god killed itself and the cosmos is his "rotting body" helps me gain a cosmic spin on things.

2. The older I get the more I realize humans are really dumb people. Capable of some amazing things, and yes, "wisdom of the crowd" can be right at times, but it can be very very very wrong. And "really smart people" who lead the charge can really fuck shit up. Technologically. Socially. And more.

3. If it helps, I literally just added a filter to ublock for hacker news to strip out Startup and AI keywords, it's not the best filter (I could probably remove some non-capitalized words)

But here: # top (title / url) news.ycombinator.com##tr.athing span.titleline > a:has-text(/(AI|ai|GPT|gpt|ChatGPT|MCP|OpenAI|grok|copilot|ollama|claude|gemini|bard|deepseek|blockchain|siri|anthropic|deepmind|Claude|DeepSeek|BitNet|LLM|Llama|ML|AlphaGo|Startup|StartUp|YCombinator|Cursor)/):upward(tr)

# bottom (stats / comments) news.ycombinator.com##tr.athing span.titleline > a:has-text(/(AI|ai|GPT|gpt|ChatGPT|MCP|OpenAI|grok|copilot|ollama|claude|gemini|bard|deepseek|blockchain|siri|anthropic|deepmind|Claude|DeepSeek|BitNet|LLM|Llama|ML|AlphaGo|Startup|StartUp|YCombinator|Cursor)/):upward(tr) + *

this might help reduce at least having to see it, and get back to what you WANT to see.

I want to see actual coding and language theory and os stuff. But 1/3 of the content here is AI now, and it's a huge turn off. It's noise to me, so having a filter to get what I WANT out of this site, is better than me turning it off completely.

I wish I had an answer for you in terms of mental state, I don't think there's a way out of this rut, and I think it's only going to get worse from here, and the pollyannas wanting you to pretend like nothings wrong... Well. IMO that's why we're here. Ignorant of history (actual history not the pop history everyone gets in school) and I don't mean this from one perspective or another. I've read Fascist literature, Capitalist Literature and Communist Literature. I've seen scenes play out on all sides that I despair from.

I don't mean to bring you down, but the best I've got is the above (and maybe microdosing psilocybin which helped me yesterday. I was stuck in a mental pit, and 666 mg psilocybin chocolate bars helped lift me just enough so I was able to see with clarity, give me the serotonin boost I needed and step back and observe the "snakes"/selves all writhing - negative aspects of myself, why they exist, how I anchor myself to angst, because it is a grounding. If I have no angst, I have nothing in this world but chaos.

Angst ist meine heimat. But being able to step outside and see what it is and why and how... I don't say you should do that, psychedelics are not for everyone, and they can fuck some people up, and some people get the wrong ideas from them (looks at the hippie->fascist pipeline).

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Speaking of coding, and finding reasons to do it - I'm continually fighting my own ADHD tendencies to make some really dumb stupid little projects that don't matter to anyone, but to me, to say "I COULD DO THIS". I will never get rich off it. I will never even make money off it, but to know I was creative. That is about the best I got.

One little ember flickering before it dies off with the rest of the charred husk of this planet.

Sorry so long.