I CHOOSE OCEAN

Rating: 8/10 (30 January 2020)

I like this film. This is a lonely movie that tells a lonely story with a lonely man whose name is "Danny Boodmann T.D Lemon Nineteen Hundred". The highlight of the movie is that he lived in the ferry Virginia all his life. He never set foot on land. I was thinking about the reason why he didn't want to go ashore when I was watching the movie. That is his choice. He was always alone. When he was on the ferry he was lonely, if he steps on the land he'll be more lonely. At the end of the movie, he finally said why. "All that city... You just couldn't see an end to it. The end! Please, could you show me where it ends? It was all very fine on that gangway and I was grand, too, in my overcoat. I cut quite a figure and I had no doubts about getting off. Guaranteed. That wasn't a problem. It wasn't what I saw that stopped me, Max. In all that sprawling city, there was everything except an end. There was everything. But there wasn't an end. What I couldn't see was where all that came to an end. The end of the world. Take a piano. The keys begin, the keys end. You know there are 88 of them and no-one can tell you differently. They are not infinite, you are infinite. And on those 88 keys the music that you can make is infinite. I like that. That I can live by. But you get me up on that gangway and roll out a keyboard with millions of keys, and that's the truth, there's no end to them, that keyboard is infinite. But if that keyboard is infinite there's no music you can play. You're sitting on the wrong bench. That's God's piano. Christ, did you see the streets? There were thousands of them! How do you choose just one? One woman, one house, one piece of land to call your own, one landscape to look at, one way to die. All that world weighing down on you without you knowing where it ends. Aren't you scared of just breaking apart just thinking about it, the enormity of living in it? I was born on this ship. The world passed me by, but two thousand people at a time. And there were wishes here, but never more than could fit on a ship, between prow and stern. You played out your happiness on a piano that was not infinite. I learned to live that way. Land is a ship too big for me. It's a woman too beautiful. It's a voyage too long. Perfume too strong. It's music I don't know how to make. I can't get off this ship. At best, I can step off my life. After all, it's as though I never existed. You're the exception, Max. You're the only one who knows that I'm here. You're a minority. You'd better get used to it. Forgive me, my friend. But I'm not getting off." People are always afraid to face the established results or the terminal point and they are always lost. So did 1900. 1900 also said that "Winter comes, you wish it was summer. Summer comes, you live in dread of winter. That's why we never tire of travel." People are afraid of the coming of somethings. In other words, they afraid that everything in front of them will disappear. So 1900 would rather stay on the ferry than move to the land. Actually, when he was on the ferry he was on the way to his life without of the end. He was alone and the loneliness was just like the road that stretches in the dark. It was terrible but affordable. So the ocean and the infinite journey were his choices.