The movie that defined my life and love for cinema

Rating: 10/10 (18 October 2019)

Today I rewatched this for, maybe, the 150th time, during my teenage years I had a strange obsession with Travis, the way he sees the world and the brilliant De Niro performance, the scene of Travis watching American Bandstand with that empty look in his eyes is absolutely one of the saddest scenes in cinema history. We really see how much his loneliness has effected his life without a single word of dialogue spoken. Brilliant!
Every time I watch Taxi Driver it helps me understand his character, and now I am in a position where it trully speaks to me in a deeper level, on August I decided to let all my friends go: a longtime friend from school, lots of ex-teammates from the football years, a girl that was for sure the best person I have ever met in my life, miss here so much, hope she is well, only one guy stood, and he is the one friend that I'll keep forever, so for 2 whole months this is the only guy that I can speak to, since he is kind of and "internet friend", irl it is even worse, not a single word spoken through days, sometimes even weeks, in the beginning the feeling of being alone was really bad, haunting in some ways, I got used to being around people, produced content on the internet that made people admire me, and losing all this was... hard, God knows how hard, but it was needed, I needed to put myself in this position in order to get stronger in the future. Today is a friday, I'll go home, sit alone, and wait until I have to sleep, there is no point in doing anything, listening to music, watching a movie, or even playing games, the joy in doing it is just gone... tomorrow it starts all over again, God knows for how long. In Travis own words: "loneliness has followed me my whole life everywhere", so it's time to face it and try to overcome the bad sensation, when I managed to deal with this, I can start again. On the 25th of October this friend that I still talk to comer to visit, first time seeing him in a decade, and finally having someone to talk to in person will be amazing, after the experience, I'll rewatch Taxi Driver again and update the review.
Posting just so I can read this in the next years and remember how thing were back in 2019, personal post, if you are reading it on the "Taxi Driver review page", just ignore.