The ENDING tore me to shreds....and I'm not ok

Rating: 7/10 (23 December 2019)

I've been watching Star Wars since I was 10 year's old. When you talk about a finale it better be one helluva finale.
The last two episodes TFA & TLJ have become some of my favorites and I was really looking forward to this film. From start to finish the action is great, the storyline of Rey being the granddaughter of Palpatine was an interesting twist, loved the way Leia's character was honored, and I have long awaited for the day Kylo gets redemption and turns back to Ben Solo and boy do we get it! Adam Driver truly has made this character one of my personal favorites whether he's Kylo or Ben, I love how Driver brought this character to life....and the emotion....good grief it just makes me cry. (I feel the same with the way Ridley has done this with Rey). But I was utterly destroyed that Ben dies at the end saving Rey!
If Rey and Ben are a complete convergence of the force (force dyad) and the Emperor was able to drain some of this force to restore himself, I think the storyline could have gone an entirely different direction!! Both Rey and Ben should have destroyed the Emperor once and for all using this force dyad TOGETHER (that we've been seeing since the Force Awakens between these two), bringing that balance TOGETHER & starting a new lineage of Skywalkers TOGETHER! Because they do LOVE EACH OTHER!!! This ending killed me, for real! Finally the moment a lot of us have been waiting for and it's literally snatched away. Can't a character who gets redeemed have more than 15 minutes? Maybe in a way Ben Solo is the Rise of the Skywalker because HE IS A SKYWALKER!!! Did anyone think about that? Maybe his welcome to the Resistance wouldn't have been a warm one if he had lived and returned with Rey, but they would get over it! After all, he is Leia's son and she believed in him. There are so many layers here but Ben Solo deserved better!
I'm also terribly confused as to why Rey did not become one with the Force when she defeats Palps & just disappear when she died if she was a Jedi?! WTH?? Also, no cameo of Anakin, Obiwan, Yoda, etc being with Rey when she is being encouraged to rise to defeat the Emperor....these characters needed a cameo...not having them was a bad idea! BAD IDEA!!
Bottom line, Ben and Rey should have defeated the Emperor once and for all and Disney would have had one of the greatest love stories along with a great story line to go off of in this franchise for a long time in my opinion. Of course I understand this is my opinion but my heart won't go on after this.