Disturbing and depressing yet Beautiful and Poetic

Rating: 10/10 (28 July 2005)

during the duration of this film I had to pause it 10 times simply for the fact that I felt that I was going insane. This is hands down the most disturbing and depressing movie i've ever seen. But in a very beautiful and poetic way. Pain can be beautiful because it is human. I absolutely appreciated the non compromising attitude this director took with this movie, it never lets up, never lets you breathe, holds you under water and injects pain into your veins. If you watch this movie you will be affected. Unless you are seriously out of touch with artistic forms of expression. I appreciated how it affected me, I loved how sad it made me, because it was real, that was the story, it was sad, If they had all ended up on a beach in Jamaica at the end I would have felt cheated. I kept turning away, squirming in my seat, holding my hands over my mouth and biting my lip. At the end tears came, a constant flow of them, I felt so lost so depressed so pitiful for those characters. It was just brutally honest. This is what film is for, it is not a cheap, sensationalistic piece of crap that is usually used to bring forth emotion in people. It is completely and totally honest. And If you are fragile emotionally do not watch this film. Although to be honest, I am very fragile, I watched it alone and I found it made me stronger.
On a final note I'd like to add that Ellen Burstyn not winning the Oscar is one of the biggest travesties of modern film. She played this character so brilliantly I had my jaw dropped any time she spoke, during one scene she rips your heart out about five times and beats it against the ground. She is so broken so torn. It was absolutely magnificent. I wish I could tell her that she deserved that Oscar more than that sappy sell out piece of crap that won instead.
anyway,it made me completely uncomfortable and broken but I will appreciate that and adore this movie for the rest of my life, it is truly a beautiful film even for a girl who's favorite movie is Monty Python and the holy grail.