Why do I keep doing this to myself

Rating: 1/10 (20 December 2019)

Not sure where to begin. The trailer for this film caught my interest, and I thought "ohh this is something different", it'll be worth a watch. Spoiler is was not. First of all the run time is ridiculous. The films tales up almost THREE HOURS of your time. That alone should have been a sign to me but I kept watching. To say that this film left a bad taste in my mouth would be beyond an understatement. For most of the viewing I felt disturbed and anxious. At some points I genuinely thought I was high or having some kind of mental break. And this goes on for a long time. I can kind of relate this experience to the one I had when watching "Suspiria" (2018), meaning that the films entire purpose is to just be gross, disturbing, and pointless. Also the actions the characters take in the movie are ridiculous even for film standards. The movie is set in modern times, yet these grown adults see nothing wrong with going to a "cult retreat", taking strange drugs, and eating and drinking things from these strangers. Basically at multiple points in the film, the main characters are offered things to drink from these disturbed people all dressed in white, and at no point do they hesitate or refuse. It also gets way worse then this, as there is a lot of shocking goring scenes with close ups of this gore. I apologize I am now rambling but it's 7am and I have been unable to sleep because of how much this films disturbed me. Please save yourself the trouble and just watch YouTube reviews if you want to know what you are missing. At least those videos won't take up an entire evening and leave you emotionally disturbed and with chronic insomnia.