Ambitious

Rating: 7/10 (8 May 2020)

Do you wonder who I am? I can also tell you that I am a retired veteran who does not like people and only sweeps the snow in front of my house.
I am swearing, cynical, and eccentric. I hate all the people around me, so I have few friends. I look down on this increasingly hypocritical world and I cannot forgive myself.
I used a gun to intimidate the Miao gangsters: "Killed you, I went home and slept like a baby." But after the war, I was often awakened by nightmares, and the corpses of the hands and things on the battlefield flashed from time to time.
The two sons who drove the Japanese car were not close to me, and now my wife was gone. The only one who accompanied me was a medal and a classic car. By the way, I also kept a dog. They are all for the rest of my life.
I thought my distressed year would be so dusty, but the newly moved neighbor gave me another way of living. After the US troops withdrew from Vietnam, many Miao people fled to the United States, and this family is one of them.
The Miao girl, Su Neng, is very eloquent and speaks fluent English. I met her. She led me to visit her people, they are simple, clean and speak the mysterious Eastern language. When they saw me as a white man, they looked natural, polite and polite. Of course, they also have their own beliefs, which seems out of place with me as a Christian.
Boy Tao showed inferiority. He was encouraged by the Miao tribe to steal my classic car. After the incident was revealed, I was punished by a volunteer to work for me, but I never thought that he and I would become good friends. I encouraged him to take the initiative in pursuing girls, for which I generously lent out the classic car that pulls the wind. I asked him to follow me to learn the dialogue between men and understand the balance between politeness and atmosphere. I told him which repair tools are necessary. Under my recommendation, he found his first job in life and became a modern worker.
Someone said: "Everyone will have a strange old man in his life. Only when you touch him will you find that he has so many stories."
I trusted him, so I started telling Tao my story, from war, faith, family, to being a man, and even repairing household appliances. He is also willing to listen.
Tao gradually became more confident, and at the same time, the assault of the bad guys became more reckless. Finally, after I warned one of the bigwigs, they swept the home of Tao and me with a machine gun, and Su was raped without a human face.
"It's time to end this battle." I think.
On the day of the incident, I took care of my own affairs, smoking for the first time in the house, asking someone to shave me for the first time, wearing a suit for the first time ... I did something that I was "shame" thing.
I even went to the 27-year-old virgin priest who was over-educated as a "son".
"Father bless me, I am guilty. In 1968, at the Christmas party in the factory, I kissed Betty Jablensky. Dorothy was with other women in another room, and I kissed. I sold a small boat and a motorboat and made 900 yuan. I did n't pay taxes. It was the same as theft. In the end, I was not very close to my two sons. I do n't understand them. I do n't know why. That 's all. They have kept me at rest forever. "
Everyone can see that I am perfunctory and perfunctory the priest. Forgive me. This is the first confession, and of course the last.
In the end, Tao, who had planned to go to revenge with me, was locked up by me. He was full of anger, but when I told him about the murderous feeling, he hesitated and his eyes were full of fear.
I told him: "My hands are stained with blood, I have been defiled." This must be done by me alone.
In the middle of the night, I came downstairs alone. They looked at me ready to go, and I looked at them without fear.
I insulted them, despised them, and pointed at them with gesture guns.
I also ate the cigarette leisurely, and then reached out to touch the lighter in my chest, and they loaded it up cautiously.
Suddenly, I quickly pulled my hand out and took out the "gun", but their gun was faster, dozens of bullets passed through my body, and I fell backwards and died.
I pulled out the most beautiful gun in the world, but died under the most ugly gun in the world.
I pulled out the gun in the most popular way of the era, but ended my life in the most ordinary way.
If someone asks me now why I always see dissatisfaction in my eyes? I will tell him because I hope my country is better.
If someone asks me now why my eyes are always full of vicissitudes? I will tell him because of my deep love for this land.