I wish I knew how to quit Brokeback Mountain.

Rating: Null/10 (4 October 2007)

I rented Brokeback Mountain two weeks ago for a one-week rental and watched it every night until I returned it. Before returning the movie however, I went out and bought it, the first time I have ever done that. I could not let Ennis and Jack "F*****g" Twist leave my home. These two characters have crawled their way into my being somehow. The night after I first viewed the movie, I could not sleep and I could not stop crying. Even now, two weeks later, I still cry.
I have watched this movie about 12 times thus far and each time, I see a little something new. When I first viewed the movie, I did not understand the first scene in the tent and why Ennis jumped up from sleep. Because of how the scene was shot, I did not at first notice that Jack reached over and brought Ennis' hand and placed it in front of him. Seeing it the second time, it allowed me to make better sense of that scene. I do not agree with those who said Ennis attacked or raped Jack. Jack made the first move and if you watch that scene carefully, you will see that Jack had every opportunity to stop when Ennis took control. Jack was in fact WAITING while Ennis unhooked his belt.
I noticed more too the way prior to them becoming physical how they looked at each other and in fact they both stole glances at each other from the very first time when they went to apply for work on the mountain.
I smile each time I watch the very first time they saw each other after Jack drives up in his old truck and he gets out and checks out Ennis and with a little impish ever so slight grin, he leans up on the truck, like a peacock trying to get Ennis' attention.
There are many signs of their affection growing for each other prior to the physical hook up but there is so much going on quietly in this film that if you are not paying attention, you can miss it.
I am not frequent movie goer and I never reviewed a movie before, but I felt compelled to write about this movie.
I watched with pain and with envy as their lives unfolded. Pain at the loss of what could have been and envy because I have never been loved (or kissed) the way these two men loved each other.
There have been many positive and some negative things (like the movie's goofs) said about the movie but if you watch this movie simply for the story and with an open mind, you cannot but be changed somehow. I feel as if Ennis and Jack are now a part of me somehow and watching their story unfold on screen has made me rethink how I view my own life and people.
There are so many scenes that I love in this movie however, if I had to choose one alone, it would be scene where Jack and Ennis are parting in what would be their last time together and Jack is remembering a time on the mountain when they were first together and Ennis comes up and hugs him from behind humming for him. It was the most tender and loving scene and the only one where Ennis is shown being physically tender to Jack. It was often the other way around.
My favourite line...Jack to Ennis.."I wish I knew how to quit you"
A wonderful film. The best I have ever seen and I recommend it wholeheartedly.