I'm sorry, honestly I am

Rating: 4/10 (25 June 2012)

So... basically I came into this movie going 'OK, I've been putting this off for months and months and months... here goes' I got it about three months ago and it's been sitting on my hard drive since then.
It opened and I giggled at the eyes Jack was making at Ennis, OK, so I already kinda knew what was going to happen between them. Hence the giggling. Then they took the job, OK, it's all going along fine. There's a few days, a few more days, the only significant thing in there is the bear and when Jack tried to patch him up. Obviously Ennis wasn't comfortable with that. OK. So I was kinda trying to figure out how the hell they end up together. It got cold. Ennis ended up in the tent. OK. I was expecting some heartfelt clichÃ©d dialogue. Instead Jack took Ennis's hand and then WABANG awkward, ungraceful and unbelievable sex scene. It ended fast. OK. I was a little confused about HOW and WHY Ennis quite literally JUMPED on top of him when he had never shown Jack any affection or anything before. I guess he could have just been like 'hey, what the flip is going on here I don't understand, I'm not going to do anything OK. Just in case he's not the same way inclined' So... I sort of don't quite grasp the concept.
Then the Cop saw them wrestling shirtless which was adorable. And then he left. OK. Maybe the cop doesn't care really.
So they got called back and then we followed their lives. The first time they got back together and they were kissing outside of the front door of the house and Alma saw them. I was expecting more of a reaction from her. Maybe a 'get out rawr' thing. Then I never understood after that why she actually stayed with him if she was so thingy about that.
After that I started to get a bit bored with the huge gaps between action, there wasn't a lot of character development over that time, I thought that perhaps Ennis would fall into alcoholism and Jack would continue with his trips to Mexico. Apparently not.
Honestly, by the end of the movie I had finally sort of gotten what I wanted, a break down. I mean, you can't go twenty years with this forbidden love and not have moments between each other like that where everything just completely falls apart. Which brings me to -there was simply not enough scenes between both of them. There was a lot of scenes through out their lives... but not enough between them. And the story is between them. I see how they've conveyed the gaps of nothing between the two by having no action, but it didn't quite have the desired effect. To me it didn't anyway.
Going quickly back to the breakdowns. I feel that that was the only moment in the movie where heterosexuality ebbed slightly, the entire movie was far too straight for a film about gay love. They should have talked more, talked more about their lives with their wives, their kids. Talking about that stuff is what people do! But we never got the look in for it.
The ending... I don't think it was quite powerful enough. The phone call, it was blunt and I don't think there was enough dialogue from Ennis to make it work properly. After that I sort of half expected him to fall over and stop. Because we never got that. When he found the shirts, (AHA I KNEW JACK HAD TAKEN THE SHIRT!) I was seriously expecting something better than just picking it up and taking it. When he saw Alma Jr. I was creating dialogue of my own, some of his thoughts, 'Everyone is getting married around me, why could I never?' because those thoughts cross mine as well when I find out that people around me are getting married and knowing that I'll never be able to get a proper marriage. Then she forgot her jumper and he put it in the cupboard.
So... all in all... I honestly expected more from this. I watched it going in to think that this is supposed to be better than a movie I watched the other day called 'Weekend' (awesome movie about gay love) and I would take Weekend over this any day.
Four because I loved the scenery and the camera man did a wonderful job, regarding and disregarding all the boring scenes and putting a ratio on the good and the bad... the bad won a little. But mostly the bad was that it dragged a bit.