I can't sleep since I saw it!!

Rating: 10/10 (28 January 2006)

I am 25-year-old Spanish who loves cinema very much, but it is the first time I feel impressed enough to write a comment (first of all, I beg your pardon if my English is not very good). I saw the film 4 days ago and I cannot take it from my mind.Next day it was my birthday and I had not the energy to get out from bed to celebrate it with my family. I was surrounded by presents and all the stuff and I was all the time elsewhere, in Brokeback Mountain It is the most impressive, beautiful and emotive film I have seen in all my life. It is full of moments that do not let you breath because your throat is closed by emotion (I am crying right now). I do not know why I feel so affected (my friends liked the film very much, but they do not feel the same as I do) but it has come right to my heart. I am even a bit angry at Ang Lee for making me feel like this! Cinema is supposed to provide you a good time, entertainment, and, in the case of good films, a period of reflection and discussion with friends, but it is not supposed to turn your life upside down!!!! I know it sounds exaggerated, but it is what I feel and I have felt released to discover that many reviewers feel like me. I think this film is a celebration of love in its purest state and it has made me reconsider my whole conception of life: I am a very happy girl who happens to have a heterosexual relationship (it seems that I am lucky because I love in the "proper" way, and nobody takes into account that love has no a proper form, because it hits your heart, not your mind, and it is what makes it beautiful). Besides, I live in the 20th century in a big town and it seems (at least in theory) that homosexuality is accepted by society. However, sometimes I feel self-absorbed by my job and my social life and my boyfriend is the last of my list. After seeing this film, it won't happen again; I am lucky because I can bring my relationship to the light, whereas Ennis and Jack spend their lives hiding from society (my heart ached as I saw them growing older without being together) although it is the most beautiful love story I have ever seen. It shows that love brings life to us: Ennis spend all his life in a gloomy, sad mood except when he is with Jack, in these moments he is at ease and his face lightens. I was all the time desiring to shout at him: "Go with him, stupid!! It is your life, do not allow society to handle it!", but I suppose there were different times. The acting of both Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal is amazing (in contrast to other viewers, I cannot choose one of them over the other) and Michelle Williams offers a brilliant performance as the devastated Alma. The other actors provide very realistic performances too. I think that the main merit of this film is the constrained way in which the story is told. The looks and the silences (mainly in the cases of Ennis and Alma) are more telling than words. Seeing Ennis crying the first time they part, and then Jack's tears when he goes to Mexico goes right to your heart, much more than any love declaration. Besides, Lee does not use the easy resource of portraying a homophobic society in which homosexuals are despised. The only perspectives in the film are Jack's and Ennis' and it makes the film more intimate and beautiful. To end, I want to ask a question: Am I the only one who have spent the last sleepless night trying to find an alternative ending? Mr Lee: I want Ennis and Jack to be together forever!!