Makes little sense but beautiful in a ''cancerous'' and self-destructing way

Rating: 8/10 (1 September 2018)

What did I understand about this movie? It's a story about relationship and changing. It's psychological, personal and interpersonal.
I don't want to make a lot of sense from it, I was just feeling it and ''inhailing'' the beautiful imagery. Yeah, Natalie Portman and people behind this movie are sometimes more pretentious than they're supposed to be. I didn't find that annoying though because I liked that world of psychological and physical self-destruction and depression. Oh and I don't care about the logic or inconsistencies.
I definitely want to read this novel because it sounds interesting and I find it attuned to what I'm going through psychologically.