when you you know i talked to a lot of people and it just blows me away you know my first impression would be like ok well this is a conservative person who goes to a job you know probably against that kind of stuff and we'll probably w i was hanging out with my activist friend camilla she's nine eleven truth activists a lot of political activists can be a little bit shy that way you know so it's like it's almost like improper to like be sexual because you know it's about oh you know you're better like top of the nice and because there are all of our yeah yeah yeah that's cool so what helps you become liberated in terms of more comfortable being being so i think from there right now i thought yeah yeah you know i want the same stuff i was i think it comes out of shame and when you're so repress them so ashamed constantly told to be ashamed of yourself you want to be free from that seems to think well if i was famous then maybe i will have to be ashamed of who i worked for i had all this money i would just be able to wear all the pretty clothes and just be like whatever in the spotlight and then you're like you know you get older and you're all was i don't know i just like for me i guess when i was younger i still kind of felt that way and then as i got older i thought i don't know i just money didn't really mean that much to me and like it was more about the people that i because they don't have whatever the latest teemu or their computers old or whatever and they should just stop and they should just like hang out and spend more time really shiny working car this black woman who was like neighbors friends and when i was asked by the front i was backing out i barely touched it like i barely felt it she ran out she started screaming and she was banging into my window like i'm surprised that she didn't break it she must have punched me in the face or something the car was shaking like there was earthquake or something my kids were in the car she didn't care about that she was just screaming and yelling and she like almost broke my came out because it would be considered a hit and run if you did i was like you are you know hit and run he says well there is no damage but you know i mean this woman she must have trouble thinking she must have spent so many you know years and hours and sacrificed so much to buy the shiny car so  so i don't know i mean i'm happy to hear that you kind of maturing yes it's really good to hear that somebody not everybody does this within their own life and you know a lot of people just things just get worse and they just keep trying harder and when i was growing up now it's very open right now to yourself basically right but something i had to do in my own it took a long time and it wasn't good media process but eventually i did you know it has cost me some friendships and it's cost me some professional advancements but i would much you know what you know when you talk about drugs and you'll be surprised what happens later because first you talk about it sometimes people are shocked and and then all of a sudden they start talking about these things that they never talk to anybody that's funny i mean i don't know it's a funny it's a funny issue but you know what you should just tell people you know you should just stop people would you think more often i was at the beach the other day and i took my talk off and on th one's ever ever once said anything that they're of course this was this black woman and i'm not racist at all but when it comes to issues of nudity somehow in this area of black people are like the worst when it comes to being like whack o you know they're like six years old and these girls surely and first they started telling them that they were maybe but six or so years old and first they were trying no actually no one told them that would ever value of their doing and then i said well you know there's absolutely nothing wrong with that i was all yelling and you know her child's only put your shirt on because whatever my my my niece is here and has like her niece is like a year old and it's like this baby should be like sucking on a breast of the same like what you know she's probably eating from a bottle and the girls you know and