yeah we you need to know your producer and like me you know that i'm doing a good job and i know they get to because they you can there's i have experience in the field first of ernie in three parts part one my brain i have a pinched nerve in my shoulder and it's giving me some trouble and i figure it's going to now i have the same thing a couple of years ago so i know uterus i went to check theory concert when i was in college he was pounces private really but it was loud and rocking in the are standing right next to the speaker and the next day my ears were flinching in pain trying to close up on their own that's how this feels now only without shirt barry i'm not worried i'm a little worried my dear friend don it is an over reactor about medical concerns she was once kicked out of a hospital where her mother was recovering from surgery because well because she's friend it cut the nurses throat she wouldn't have done it she's from new jersey but anyway we're a happy hour and we done and some other when i'm worried getting someone else to freak out is very comforting to me on the exam that god bless her delivers as a she starts by yelling at me telling me to never ever joke about something like that and then she's pissed that i haven't gone to the doctor yet and went to the physical therapist due to me anyway and she we don't know what it is the x rays need to see a neurologist call your doc in the morning ok no delay it's ok i've never been to a neurologist and i didn't want to do the weirdest of the weird special says but he knew something was wrong he tells me it's one of three things and that's all in my life in a wheelchair some kind of pinch neck nerve surgery p chamber the technician this litany of the machine treated me like i was a pack of microwave popcorn not a bad way just very routine i feel my own insert thinking we're back it's like i'm a member when i was probably anyway and as i was heading there i wondered if the army cage but wow all had clothes in it or it was empty and whether the little door was open or closed i had been in such a hurry to do this i hadn't me i don't love it i say no he says i mean recently and he hates dizziness now i say anything at all in your head more he's interested in me in a way that he wasn't when he was putting me into the machine before he saw my brain on the monitor being interesting to an m r i technician is not  he would like to see him before you leave the building ultimately when you're heading down the worry chute and there is no one who can help you and there's no object in the darkness below you just have to be brave you just have to save yourself by doing this and let  ut three sects i tend to rush things are afraid of for instance when i was sixteen years old i'm a virgin i was afraid of sex it was a seven he's an every man was doing  when we come cowards and champions humanitarians in our schools we're progress we obsess we surrender i can't decide if we're more like ourselves or a perversion of  is quick leaving but it's pushed out and crowd the tissue around it and it did some damage than the mess it's in a place in my brain where they don't mess around unless they absolutely have to it's just delicate you don't believe that you just wait to see doctors how long it takes for skin to heal they know how long it takes for a bone or muscle to heal they have no idea absolutely none how long it takes for brains a hero or if it even neurologists and the answer is surgery family of all boys he has no clue and i watch it kind of a stupor while he tries to put my foot in the late home and the fabric just stretches section as he drives me home and m know here's the thing about being in the valley you gotta deal well obviously need take care of everything you've got but out here you are prone to flooding and that kid valley you did have that issue out here you do still call me  this thing becomes like an inverted moat when and i've got pictures of it home to where the water levels like a foot from the top side of these dikes and this is all recess you got a lot of pressure around you on the outside and you need to make sure that you know all your grains reports and there's even a few spots around here where there's a gravel or fitting c n n and one worldwide and i was on it i guess i never saw it i didn't i never looked for it i just know i was i was told about it from my uncle in law a good question that's been asked a question a lot of times you need to know your producer like me know that i'm doing a good job and  i've taken the grain away from macao so i takes a lot of the medication off table and you just keep it clean that mel i mean there's probably a risk there but it is see somebody get sick i grew up on the stuff no problem whatsoever