the spiritual heart within each of us the seven arson titles are you a standard deviation right after john roger speaks we'll tell you how you can obtain more information about the movement do what normal is well i think you should find out really real fast normal falls within two standard deviations of these lines if you're in here you're a standard deviation so your normal deviates the rest of the five percent on each end here that's u i know i was when i was in college studying to get my psychology degree to said to have to take statistics and i said what for he says so you can figure out how things are so you can tell by looking in the professor looked at me and he said this is a member of the course's two units and it took fifteen hours of study each week to get the two units to ask two of those crazy classes i mean for five unit class you'll have to study an hour a week and you can get a for five use two units you guys crazy but when he told me that you could figure out things two standard deviations i looked at him  why don't i just go out and jump the roll pieces if you can figure that some percentage wise and come back to show me how you did it i'll give you a name i said ok you got it because they gave me a pencil paper out front we didn't have computers and calculators we had we had pencils with the racism one in mind there was no a race of cars that are used in the first hour you know that's wrong that's wrong that's wrong they're trying to correct what they used to have jumping ropes for one person the rope went through a little wooden thing and you could turn it in the member that one ok so now i got some other people to go along with this well you know you have to authenticate it somehow and i know my intent is what the jumping rope was so i went out and box a little and i got through i jumped to twenty stopped and he just sat back down on the edge that chair and he said what i says what was the percentage of counts question it's got a subject predicate in the question told him the beginning where i was going like tonight but it's going to have fun getting there i really thought he was going to fail me i mean like my hidden agenda back there was this guy's going to fail me and he said ok he said i think you got that fairly and honestly i said what he says  in statistics that i don't even know what twelve hundred thirty five times thirty five is and you going to give me an a how many of you know what two hundred thirty five to where you would have flunked the class two so there's more proof not evidence is just proof which is the difference proof is what you make and evidence is what it is it makes sense got to follow this nonsense because it leads someplace i don't know where just quite yet i'm watching i'm watching i'm i'm in dire need of spiritual help statistics two and i looked to see who the teacher was and it was the same guy that screwed around with them the first time so i went down his office and i just i went down his office knocked on doors of command this guy was just about that time he drew on the cigarette so i can see the little red t you know people can make this up you know this is got to be real because it can make up this kind of nonsense i'm good but i ain't that good i make up big nonsense little nonsense is true no i saw them moving in it was funny but we never we never knew her we never knew that that was not a word in english language when i grew up which people shut up i mean just marry you haven't laughed twice give yourself permission to be happy these other people are still trying to be happy and they were there working into it and i'm ramping them for a trip in space the reason you can't guess we cause i don't know where to go i have to go home and find out so back to the professor so out the door by this time most of the smoke is out the door and there said ok if you can get in there get registered you can get an a and i suggest fine with me and just turn around walk down see what he knew is that the class was full already signed just went to class i went down to the  i said sure give me a card she said i said all right we're done we're not going to a movie tonight and she gave me the current as i walked i said we're not going to the movie tonight hey you know keep your word went to class when there they call the roll my name was not on there i had the card my hand and waited see the first day and the second hour of the class the professor doesn't smile he gets mean and vicious and henri and that's the time you start to look around the room to see who's going to be checking out i personally come back next week is that is the next day is a tuesday and thursday came back in the thursday these have that room was empty and so i got  walked out because i didn't want him to know that i was in there at that point so they called a role that could mark me absent cause i wasn't present registration check in and i presented to his secretary who registered me into the class and i sit in the back of the roll and the and the teacher never looked beyond his nose to the first i think the girls legs in the  i figured i guy was just one standard deviation way from being a square you know what that is  well i didn't say that as an official role as a teacher you said here in your office such a such a floor such as such a door you were smoking the big cigarettes and all that this the kids in the class are hearing this and they all recognize the truth because they've been in there choking to death also trying to get di begin the guy for extra time or to explain something or to give me a break i'm a good give a grad student break up with my doctorate degree and here i was just trying to get my degree and it was with these ph d people who are so smart so intelligent and they were flunking i didn't flunk didn't take a test to write a paper did no research i didn't read the book i just showed up dressed real nice clean listened smart attentive alert now you know that seventy people are more than a half you like three quarters your face really take some you just went off the chart i never looked at phases this closely god was really an underachiever unless i move closer in your mind i don't have to worry about it the only other class i was taking that quarter was sculpture well see i figure if i had to study i needed to have a class and you just do the things in class and then you go home and there's nothing to sculptures you get to work forty hours lost to to sticks which was what was going to be required of me except i didn't work one minute on statistics but i should tell you something when you're motivated like that do you not being threatened by a grade it's amazing how much you can learn and when they used to have classes with pass fail i tell him take out the   get in the class and that part of the cli the test didn't exist and that's a to go why didn't you ask a question about something i know i did pull off on another teacher who is my that's called your home counseling supervising teacher her name was dr harry she was chinese but it's not like harry carey she was harry because she married an english guy whose last name is harry  came in the roots in the back the class i thought she was a student coming in so i went down to ask her who are you why are you late for my class can't you get here when the bell rings i got here before the bell rang why can't you get here before the bell rings i came from the university down here and you said come from another room she says i came from the university down here also the rise of west did you come down to tell massa don't come down fourth street they got too many stop signs there come down the ninety just get to the green lights at thirty she likes applause she was probably a third of a standard deviation of and i said i would like you to instruct to the students of why i'm here and what i'm to do as someone who's going to teach school and get a teaching credential would please do that for us you suggest so she stood up and is amazing those kids i mean this lady was masterful masterful teacher instructor and she just very slowly walked around the aisles pushing people's feet back again and the guys that have these big engineer boots and she was just pushing back on and they'd be sitting all sprawled out and she grabbed him by the shoulder and pulled back to the chair she walked around straight up to the room a and there's no redeeming grace for the way you treated this wonderful lady you know what they did they wrote notes and they gave it to the teacher who was class and really belonged to that i was intervening with and gave her the notes to give  dr harry at the university of utah time to get the grade doctors to harry had thought about it i had been in there about whole ten zillion times being real sculpture in department the university of utah which is how i got a name out of that class by the way i told him tell your wife to give me an a i need to grade i need those five units of a i need it you understand i need it policeman real nice i talk like gas cost forty two and i think he's must be yelling that i told him that i thought he had throat trouble he died of cancer about ten years later i didn't feel good about that but thing you've got to understand is all orientals don't like fortune cookies so how do you know that i should answer them two standard deviations off the norm that's how i know that if i wasn't smart enough at that time fortune cookies and i just took three or four five or six something like that handful and walked over to harry and said ok i got the fortune cookies which one in and he goes like this and i said why why do you think we should glue back together some to not going to eat it just want to see what the message is thought that was reasonable because i'd like to see what message i'll break it open read the message they need the fortune cookie back then they weren't too good they were just sort of like you really wouldn't get fat off eating fortune  s and the messages were all really unique there were something beautiful is going to happen to you all the stuff he said when you were going to give it to her if i'm going to i don't know i'm going to and i was thinking love things and each want to go no no no no no no and i was running out of what i would do because  in and i knew she was in so i walked in no small clean great i mean it was really this lady was a meticulous housekeeper i knew had made a mistake by bringing the paper bag i should have brought in a cellophane wrap or something you know with the bows around it so i just told us that i got a gift for you here and i probably should have brought in a cellophane wrap she says i collect paper bag she said can i look in right now and i suggest she said have a seat and she was just so so oriental know silverfish you understand what you do to your mind and she and she take it out to sit there and as she made the sides all come up and she pulled the wrinkles out of got to do it to find out picked up the rest of it put it back in the sack and got out another one and i'm sitting there and she was all alone in her little world and i was also in there all alone my little and we were worlds apart and i know she was anxious to find out what was on those little pieces of paper and i was anxious to find out if i was going to get an a i knew i was someplace between a and a d and it could have gone any way because now i don't remember exactly what they said but please the essence of this is important but you have to understand that back in one nine hundred fifty seven fifty eight that was that was like that that was how you read that was i we all d i didn't i didn't know and as she put down the wall in this she turned around and she saw me there is never she didn't know i was there at this moment as this lady went by by i've been there thirty minutes you pay you thirty minutes go whoa i said could i could i look at that is she said oh no those are for me i didn't  had some possessiveness working busy being a real good student psychology i was figuring it out i just didn't know what to tell her so she sat down she said thank you and she there brown paper sacks folded the musta been thirty forty fifty eight i don't know three drawers and she would show me them would look like some aid package i'm a saran wrap they were that's not saying anything about her that's saying that about me when i was i was michigan at this point you know you can't put up with an f when they win that's like someone's got your head on the chopping block is this joint you had cut off or not and there's no no so you go yes you go why do i say yes because it seems to be no other choice well there are always a lot of choices so i just looked at her and i said did you enjoy the fortune cookie and she said yes i did but i don't like the part that they're in what they call that the cookie but i like the sayings  profound she says i wonder who doesn't as i said probably a oriental philosophy teacher and i'm wondering where are these words coming from this is an absolute insult of this lady's intelligence of all of the people of her nationality is i'm insulting her why do i keep doing this but i just shut up and  back to her i said you know if i stand and talk to you you're going to flunk me she says that you're very interchanging i had never thought of that i had only thought of failing you know it's like where you put your mind there you go also and i was failing and she said i was just wondering when you were going to get around to really asking me about getting the grading and i thought you're going to your liking cook me calmy out member the word she used but leave me along and then put me into a she said you did it right up front i want to name she's i'm still recovering from that and i  who it was like this is a man who takes advantage of the opportunities of life presented to him and makes them work something like that i don't i don't know if she would know the word entrepreneur because that wasn't popular usage at the time probably know i can see this lady's face so clearly she was looked like she just like scrubbed her face and it was just you know shiny no powder no lipstick no makeup just appear clean beautiful clear she said ok i think i can tell you your grade now but i was going to post them in a few days and i said well but i want to be able to back in a few days because  and she says for do you work in this i work down the department public safety she's what you do down the department public safety there's not much you know and she says if i tell your grade when you tell me what you do sure because i already told you what i did not much sounds crazy so i said what's a gracious i'm going to give you an a minus i said why you give me an a minus you know like pounding on the desk because the way you educate me back how you do things says i saw that you were a teacher i said so before i came in here i got a scene after i mean here i get an a so you had to be here about thirty minutes was going to give you the did the fortune cookies help this paper bag was inappropriate but i was already am i can say excuse me go out and go downtown and get paid for it cellophane and wrap it up put a board to bring back in you'd be gone home so i just thought i'd take my chances with your gracious  and i started going down the list of words she's well those words on words for failing you as well what are they for some of those are good words and those words are appropriate and they describe things that are honorable and noble i said i hadn't thought of those words honorable and noble but they were the prices do you have any others like that if so she gave but for five more they were kind of big words and i said i if i would have if i would have known as words and really knew them i thought i said i would have used those she said would you really i said no she said why's that was i was really hoping on your generosity really i mean it just boils down to generosity are you going to be generous with me are you just going to keep the grades to yourself what you're on the side of it ok well then this is the minus side so she said ok so do the f like this she said ok i said all right doing you can't stop people like this on the side street and i pulled out my badge ago i can't i says i didn't do anything wrong i said i'm not pulling you over that you did something wrong i playing you over to tell you what i do is you know she started just look at me smile and she said do you think i'll ever have another person like you in my life and i said no because i'm not going to graduate school work here i'm leavin says i get home get panicked i'm taken off she will have you quit your job i said i said you have to and i said i don't think so but i don't want it it's over it's done it's past i don't she said well when you start to teach some place where you send me a letter where you are and i said no no i'm not going to i'm not going to do anything like that i said i might i might but i'm not going to promise and i think that as a part rise just said i'm not promising anything in this world because there's a really good chance i'm not going to do it really good chance i he didn't raise his hand you should watch him because he does do that you had the people didn't raise your hands you line you should know though that it's human to li now here's a conundrum have i been lying to you because very human to do so i have i've been telling you the truth have i been telling you the lines with some truth in it or is starting to sound like a morehouse is off over here drops of course most of you didn't know what it was anyway going to go on holiday i think that  if you can go out of here tonight and take what you've got now that no matter what's said and you can laugh and have fun with it you don't have to demonstrate it just inside of you have fun laugh with it and smile enjoy it that peace th present will show up show up and show up and it's only disease that i know other than love that is really totally contagious and infectious because the peace is not quiet sedentary like a rock so what can you ask for in this life you can ask for peace quiet loving caring but you don't necessarily get it right then right  because you have to be tested to see if you can maintain the peace that comes to you and the peace we're talking about is a peace that we don't understand it comes upon you it's not free go to sleep it's not where there's no noise it's not the lack of sirens or buses or trains it's none of those things those are exterior noises in the world the peace you have is  the thoughts in your mind leave your consciousness alone is very easy i could do a few things and upset the peace that you've stabilized right now every room stabilized and peace and it would just start to upset you and you'd say well if you knew that why did you do that why didn't you leave it in a peaceful place isn't that what we were talking about peace is present  rogers closing words for pay rush pay shana which mean the blessings already are the blessings the ideas and the concepts which you've heard are just a small part of the abundance of material john roger has shared with us over the years if you would like a free book about john roger and m s i they call this number one eight hundred eight nine nine book that's one eight hundred eight nine nine two six six five you can e mail us at w w w dot  write to that which is post office box five one three one three five plus angeles california zip code nine zero zero five one one one three five this has been that which is what john rogers thanks for joining