how she has conquered some traumatic experiences in her past and you know why she sharing her story because it's really about her yes she went through it but it's also about what she wants to share with you because i know that there's some of you out there that have that can probably resonate with a story but before we get started you know what we do one about the joy show we take it down with three deep breaths are you ready  whole life i think i've endured a lot of experiences in my life that have forced me to find ways to heal and express myself creatively back from the time when i was a little girl at four or five years old so i had a rough time what would happen i my parents had a very volatile child divorce and it was really hard for my sister and i to grow up in a in such volatility and there was a lot of instability and for me as a young girl it was scary to feel like my environment was so chaotic so i would go into my room little did i know it was therapeutic and i would role play i would create these characters these these women they weren't like make believe friends they were like these empowered women to srong successful women and i would be their voice and i think when i was a little girl that was my way of bringing control to my environment to myself to stepping outside the chaos and it was really sir peter for me so i always gravitated to that putting on shows writing scripts now how did you do that for myself my don and i go into it you have there and there was four five years old right  all i don't know i know my dolls like i was on stage and i would literally perform and it took me out of a uncomfortable environment and it brought me into this make believe world of empowerment  was i also painted i drew i sculpted i did all kinds of different other creative things and at the time it was able to open me up to really explore what was inside me that needed to be released that was stifled  and suppressed so that was my savior fast forward a little bit here as i grew up into adulthood i was unfortunately diagnosed with some pretty pretty heavy illnesses can you share yeah i was diagnosed in two thousand and two with multiple sclerosis and later on in my journey i was diagnosed with lyme disease as well so that was a pretty tough couple ing of illness proved went on to participate in conventional therapies write the script the doctors the medication right and although i do not sit in judgment i never judge anybody's choices on how they're going to what was hardest for me was the fact that when i was paralyzed i wasn't able to create and release what was inside me because i was a righty so journaling and writing and painting and drawing so my go in there was you know were not only dependent physically but you were dependent mentally you your whole mental space was stuck in the energy flow was not flowing it was  much right so then we have to say ok now what where am i and one of the things i believe that us as women who are instinctive creators right we recreate life right right we create family  we also create with our spirit we make beautiful things we write beautiful things and that's how we emerge that's how we empower ourselves and the people around us so my  therapy was learning to write again learning to paint again learning to meditate learning to move how did you get to that point in who helped to get back to writing and painting and moving you do you did you did it all by yourself i did and and part of the reason that energy flow is coming to life just to touch on that is because there were no resources within my community that really helped women to find themselves in this in these modalities so i remember the first i picked up a pen again i was paralyzed on the right side and you had children at th were four children ok my son my youngest just trying to get the gravity yeah yeah i'm going to grab yes i have four beautiful children and my son was three weeks old and it was a really a struggle to really take care of my son in the things we take for granted right wing fastening a diaper like there was no mobility so i used to put a pen in my right hand and i couldn't grasp it but i would hold it with my left hand right and i would guide my hand to kind of right and sometimes it would take me all day to write a full sentence but it didn't matter because it was still expressing right right and i was like no no no this is part of who i am about right so this is going to happen right and i had to really put in tension there so how long corey did it take for you to get back to your normal because your normal is different from every everybody has a different normal yeah everyone should know that right so how long did it take to get back to your normal how does your son know my son history ok  i made some serious changes also along the the last year or two i started participating in ways that weren't serving me and i share those yeah i became very holistic in my nutrition ok in my i did a lot of energy work and a lot of creating so you were releasing toxins from your body from head to toe not only your physical release but your in your presence and who you are me to be and you've got power is taken away from you that is a scary time and that can come in multiple ways any yours it was the diagnosis of the illnesses correct was there anything else yeah absolutely i was treated by physicians top physicians male physicians columbia and why you all over and i was very intimidated to use my voice because i felt that they were maybe more qualified with their credentials to tell me what would serve my body well and i always suppress my own voice and why because when you're diagnosed and you're kind of thrown into that like your mortality oh yeah it's president yeah you're like rattled and so you look to these healers and say i know me i was like give me all you got i'm going to fight this and you look to them for guidance because you think they know more than they study and when it was fallowing me i took it as a personal failure so i suppressed my voice and even though my voice was saying no no no no no this is not serving me i suppress that and the more debilitated i became the more debilitating my voice became so it was really about finding my voice again so there was a lot of layers in empowerment for myself on many levels what do you how do you cope what are your coping mechanisms it's a good question some days it's a simple as picking up a pen to paper it's a real right we give it a life and in some cases when you put a pen to paper you might let it go too dependent on the thought right so so you journal journal another can think of way i pa are in charge so what keeps you motivated because i know that i was given this journey to really help and guide other people do you go so you so you know your purpose then it is absolutely my pro all over the world that are suffering oh you're in silence and this is the reason why you're a guest on a dr joy show you so you could share your story because your story is going to resonate with others and then they will be able to do something know that women need to have a forum they need an environment an immunity where it's not just like sobbing and telling our stories which is fine right right if you want to get it out put your jewels in our walk your speaker truth but also it's about finding the beauty because sometimes when we live in darkness you don't see anything beautiful right but if we can create something that just might be beautiful that's coming from within ourselves if this is all perfect why now corey  why now now i need to get honestly i need to get to a place within my journey right where i knew i was ready and i had something to offer for a while i needed to really do me and get me into a place where i empowered myself right and now that i have i know i'm ready to share and i know i have too much to offer so you've done the work and you continue to do the work the for yourself every so then that way you could be better for others so what is the mission of energy flow you know the vision i know continues to evolve right the upfront mission right now i want to place where women can come they could share they could create and they can inspire in the community because our voices as women we need to be heard we do and we have a lot of a lot to say we are powerful and we need sometimes help along the way we need that support system and i know i had it part of my support system i gravitated to was a wonderful network of women foundation  in my community ok and they are all about inspiring and supporting women and when i joined up with them it all came clear to me that i needed to use my journey to do the same as what these wonderful s trong women were doing for others so why now because why not because it's time it's time to emerge it's time to just bring it full circle and speak to women understand women help women guide didn't want you to like me and so you have the paint brushes there what's this dream big draw bigger yeah so this is different these are different themes that inspire thought process so they will give like certain images or will put out certain colors right because as we know colors inspire feeling oh yeah right red oh well red i empower right but no colors inspire emotion the same way music shifts are motion right so that's all ok because it's really not about the deep artistic value is more about what where expressing ok so one of the workshops that i want to do is creating our life book oh and it's really interesting because in different chapters reducing different colors in different chapters we're going back to different times in our life and it's really about self discovery and really bringing a self awareness to our journey and who we are as people as women so you have to still talk about your services along with the step outside themselves or stay within themselves and express right we're giving i give you the tools to do that who wants to just sit beside step in two worlds to express yourself in any way now i see you have a journal yes i journal all boy i journal every day my gratitude journal yeah so how tell me more about the journaling what are you recommending so i think that in different workshops will have different words different thought processes like that i'll bring to the table and i'll be like free stuff expression writing and we'll be sharing and building on it and collaborating together as a group some things like that there are different types of workshops one can be a one time workshop where we can do a three part series right  so you know and we share we share our thoughts and it's funny because when we write them we talked about we bring them to life right and when we read them and present them it's a whole it's a whole different ballgame you almost want to rewrite the script right so what else do you have i know you said something about meditation yes yeah in the green when we were talking because sometimes we think meditation is this and yes it is right but we can also meditate through drawing in coloring right it's anywhere w could put our minds our thoughts to a place of peace so we do a lot of that in these workshops it's finding different forms of meditation whether it be through yoga or standard meditation or coloring outside the lines yeah i have i have like over one hundred fifty workshops so what i'm basically going to do is i will give people the choice of what we're chocks they want to select participate and where their level of interest lies there's something for everybody you know and it's funny things we think we're interested in we kind of as we go farther right come a little more daring write what we want to take on sometimes we're painting with our fingers with our feet so who there's a lot of different sensory things in our bodies that create feeling and mood and interesting that we talk about that because through my journey and the paralysis and some of the things i have movement of my hands now but my sensory is are all changed the way i feel things to the touch has changed so one of the things i liked doing was putting my hands in paint because when i couldn't have the fine motor skills sometimes with the brush right with a pen i use my hands and i found other ways to paint and create so it's really all about reinventing what works for us and it's so freeing to be able to do that and there are no rules fun and i'm making my workshops edgy because i'm not boring i don't do boring when we come to workshop it's it's to have fun too good it's to cry it's to  that ok so we're going to officially launch on january twentieth so that's coming up it is of our getting ready at seven pm at our my home base headquarters which is the each e t t women foundation they are in full support as i am with what their purposes so they have offered me the space to launch this wonderful new journey where they where they're located in morgan hill new jersey ok and when can people sign up for these workshops so my website is now in place everybody can check me out at energy flow dot com congratulations and i'm still tweaking some things but there's a registration page that will be opened shortly where you can view some of the upcoming workshops for the month of february march and you can sign up or you can also come to my launch and sign up there so there's a lot of different options on that i'm going to have a newsletter going to be doing speaking at various events also and i'm going yeah i am i think it's important because not only to be part of the instruction and part of the workshop i want to get down and dirty with with everybody but i think we need to we really need to hear somebody tell their story and see where they are and where they've been and share because so many women are so afraid to share they feel like they're alone and they're not and they need to know they're not right and yeah but i applaud you because you have taken this to share your story your experiences the good the bad and the ugly remember clint eastwood the good the bad and the ugly but you're traumatic experiences with others to help them create a brighter path for their life yeah you know we all know that and that helps you you know it does build just self confidence your self esteem i mean you're through the roof and it keeps you close to where you need to to be and listen we all right that we all have that turning point in right is right yes so my turning point was my son was three weeks old and i was paralyzed on the right side of my body i was in a fire pit my entire body was felt like it was being burned alive i had don't pain management i had nothing but my faith in prayer that i can get through this and i remember my defining moment i looked around at the pictures in my bedroom of my children and i went through my life and i saw my story's not over and i'm not i'm not giving up right and a lot of people might have the odds were against me and i said no and it was that day that i picked up a pen and from that day forward i never put it down for you so a lot of people have reached out to me you say why now i have had a lot of people reach out to me for the last few years on what am i doing how do you look great what are you doing and i've always tried to share as much as i can about my journey to be forthright and help people along the way but i'm hitting small mass and not having the large masses right so i really want to open it up and expand and broaden it so that i can reach as many women as i can you know well you have different means to do that you do want to one you do it through your workshops y are on television so you're going to hit a lot of people there radio i mean so continue to be a champion within your journey because this this is huge it really really is tell me what you're most grateful for oh i am so grateful first of all to be sitting here to be able to share yeah right because a year ago i possibly wasn't so here i am and it's it's coming full circle and i'm actually building something that that is part of my soul in my core and who i am but i am so grateful for the expression the free expression that i was able to do because it has empowered me and my voice it is made me believe that i can do anything that i can and ultimately now it's thanksgiving right so we all have to think about why we're grateful for and aside from my physical health my mental health i have four amazing children and they inspire me every day that they really do so so yeah i at the core of it i am a mom and i'm proud of that and every who knows me knows that's my pride and joy is  but i'm i'm so thankful that i'm going to be given an opportunity to really help other women who are struggling so if you were to say two or three things every through you know you shared here to the women go of what's in here and that's here your creative energy that's what makes you here because when you feel that your powers been taken from you you still that and that's what keeps you moving that's what keeps you flowing you know that's what keeps you progressing and it's on this you have that there's nothing you can accomplish so one more time where can you have find you ok so you can find me at energy flow dot com i ok so i'm going to read it energy i and e r g y f l o dot com corey rebecca found a creativity instructor her number is nine one seven ok get a pen for all right i'll start over now got it nine one seven seven zero three nine two nine four there you go wow yeah yeah anything any parting thoughts an the journey you're on today isn't the journey you're on tomorrow you know because it's constantly growing and evolving and your voices all need to be heard because if you stay silent and we can't really help them we can't put this movement together to really help women and it's not just women who suffer and in health issues it's women who come from domestic violence sexual saw right there is lots of trauma childhood trauma there's all kinds of traumas we experience and even just the day to day stress yeah a lot of the most the most freeing thing for stress is just meditative are so really find me because i really would like to be a part of your journey and really help and motivate you through now i assume that since you talked about your launch and i'll close with this is that it is open it is open it is totally open it is open to anybody who wants to come and share ok great yeah thank you great corey rebecca thank you very much for being brave enough to share your story on the dr joy show thank you and congratulations much success thank you thank you until next time you