the wonderful sounds that you're going to hear tonight and we're going to warm up with a song that we didn't drive yet so that's close to that one what they don't say there should be a sequel because he was one heck of a parking lot really it was really worth multiple genres including americana blues country rock and christian carolyn's recently recorded of original songs reflects her most recent battle with cancer and is available at to so this next song is also an original sometimes when i play out if you ever want to get paid as a musician you have to do other people's songs you have to do cover songs so this song is my tribute to all of those starving struggling artists that have to go out and play other so this is a song i wrote after going to a gallery and wanting to climb inside every piece of art that was there photographs and and canvas just the gorgeous paintings and you just want to become one with that so the i can drink there and walk  out of nothing and have it last forever is absolutely amazing to me jim is the founder of ke of awesome music and the director of music at the program music program and allies incorporated and he has some solo projects h december you know that we don't necessarily appear that on the four saturday because this other holiday kind of interrupts a little bit but most of the time we are here and we want to make sure that we wish a happy birthday to everybody were you out playing in your roads and highways there yes it was you guys or to tonight it's been a while since i i've been here it's probably been about six years yeah life right and so i will play a bunch of new songs that i know many people have heard because a lot of the gigs i do nowadays are played at wineries and coffee houses and and places where they want to hear songs that they know and this is a great space to do songs that maybe you don't know about my brother and his wife when they were in their engagement period they inspired me through their love are about that i know i tend to shock the system sometimes when i start playing i notice that considerable turned out of the guitar which i'm sorry i headed up way through that i always do friend who was in a really kind of desperate time just needed somebody to talk to and hash things out was going through a lot so i think the song to kind of get that capture that experience it's called my life  it's called show up it's not a bad thing it's a good thing it's about letting love kind of come to you rather than trying to force it to happen i think guilty that many times in my life trying to force something to happen when it really shouldn't be so when we first met all those feelings of letting love come to you i it's amazing right how fast things can go sometimes but i help out first of all the first the little girl that played i think i was just amazing i didn't i did i miss that little boy that played i'm so sorry man i was like to my guitar in the back and i heard but wow i didn't even start playing guitar till i was sixteen and that's amazing that you're already on this path already so keep at it that's really cool  so this is a song called just leave him very orderly of me right show up just leave him it's like me really not that mean guy it gets the best way i thought of to get people's attention with the song title is to kind of be very direct poets they are they are doing and so they are facing off again these two eloquent days have been performing poetry in tandem bookstores and cafes and libraries for over a decade they shoot from the and away with the big bang in a ricochet the emanation is verbal so they're duels are never deadly and always live a lady and there are no poets are actually harmed during their performances and you can find them on you tube so gentlemen come on down here we've got mike and steve come on down and join us for this  last time steve cheated and fired early it wasn't really cheating it was just bad timing bad timing timing was never kind to us we to couple of battles but the end result was like duct tape on fate we didn't handle ourselves well fell into traps like a body falling in a dream you don't touch the bottom but you can't stop the fall we made too many mistakes no racer to change answers no new words to send old ones to the recycle bin i don't know what timing had against  i guess it didn't need a reason maybe we don't either hurry up you're throwing off for time i got all drooling wound i have to be patient pardon me but i'm in pain feel pins and needles in my brain i'll they'd a moment to explain so please don't treat me with this day and pardon me but i'm in pain you may feel too well to relate to one who's in a hurtful state and who is discomfort slows his rate your patience fails or comes too late empathy is not innate it hasn't touched you yet but way right now it's none of your concern however you are bound to learn each creature gets its rightful turn in time the straightest road will curve you all find the distress and lose your nerve you too will get what you deserve like me and i'm in pain oh pardon me but i am in pain feel pins and needles in my brain and maybe driving you insane listening to me complain but until my torments way you'll have to bear with this refrain pardon me but i'm in pain oh pardon me but i am in pain yeah pardon me but i'm in pain there now i feel better thanks for listening you call that pain try dealing with the bureaucrat and unemployment hearing you certainly couldn't be accused of being overconfident or being kind at all i don't know if you made the decision or just conducted the interview however it was obvious you already had it and opinion slamming your mallet of power i felt like asking if you knew what being human was like but the question would not have fazed you you didn't give a damn your stoic faces and my memory i can't forgive you for that you didn't have to pick pocket my dignity you stole it right in front of me and if i believed the prayer i would have prayed this would happen to you they had to be rules for the record you're not supposed to violate the rules but off the record you can't obey the rules exactly either that that is is the main unwritten rule on written rules unwritten rules always take precedence over written written rules are made up and put on to provide a semblance of order or to discourage litigation or is a political compromise written rules either cosmetics of law they are written for appearances and appearances are deceiving for instance that sign you see in restaurant restrooms that reads employees must wash hands before returning to work well if you think that is a message to the employees you just don't get what written rules are all about there were written there were rules even in the old west does anybody remember the dull and that's right and as trust the deputy fast this was the deputy just there was just some guy who got shot like me he would remember around but and and they were they were there to provide thanks mike gunsmoke for twenty years matt dillon never kissed miss kitty thus we assume he never did anything else what was the problem was he afraid to take off his gun belt did he secretly have a thing for festus it could be the marshal was confused how to get all those damn garments off miss kitty or did he want him to keep his hand on and he refused what a belt miss kitty was she frigid or was matt quicker than his gun draw maybe he was tired from all those freebies for saloon well maybe the problem was this matter of timing told us all about that but in a deleted seeing from gunsmoke there was a tender moment between matt dillon and miss kitty was how about some chocolate what i didn't say but only thought was you got it backwards sex first but what i said was ok let's have some chocolate eyes i see what a tough fact chocolat is to follow melting who all that i can say is how bad another chocolat expect after all you know there are only three types of people in the world girls and women and boy problem is a lot of women don't understand this they keep expecting a man to come along sorry ladies he isn't he just isn't so knowing playing the boys for being boys that's all they have ever been and all they will ever be boys will be boys that me said again boys will be boys they will never be men there are just three types of people in the world  k around you will see just three that's all there have ever been and all there will ever be i was actually a little boy when gunsmoke was on t v top of the stairs crouched in shaded light of the staircase the sounds of secrets come drifting up like quiet footsteps would send to bed i knew something was happening adults using words i couldn't understand sometimes i got tired bored fearful of getting caught that had me running for the safety of she the fear of punishment gives ways to adventure and shadows and squeaky floor little boy voyager a child's drama unfolding and the mysterious moonlight memories of a little boy's first time experiences i remember the first time i watched intently from behind him my father's face in the mirror as he shaved i guess he felt my fascinated razor envy gaze you'll be doing this sunday is reflection brightly promised me i remember the first time i shaved brightly recalling his promise now come true  sweet along why then i remember the first time i watched intently from behind him my father's face in the mirror as he trimmed the hairs that sprouted from his years his reflection cast me a rueful expression and went on clipping making me no promises it is the unsweet memory that persists and intrudes as if it is watching intently from behind into the mirror and notice for the first time my father is hairs sprouting from my ears and hair is still there but whatever happened to the other hair what happened to my other here steve lost and found or simply lost sometimes i wonder where you are how many ghost of me you may have encountered but i suppose curiosity is and no for either of us our youth is lost locked away in old luggage unabashedly passed through airport scanners left circling aimlessly at baggage claim perhaps some dreams still exist living breathing under a watchful eye of a caretaker and a cold dark castle surrounded by tall we are awaiting our return can't afford to wait too long or think about this today may be the best day of the rest of your life something may happen some small awful thing so by tomorrow at this time your world could  be much more miserable place to live and die this may happen this will happen to a lot of people up people you don't know people you don't care a thing about people like you by this time tomorrow many of them many of you many of us may be looking back on the best day of the rest of our lives ever think about that have a nice day bad things happen sometimes because of bad luck and sometimes because of bad ideas bad idea no one ever tried to think of a bad idea yet they  run rampant like a dog chasing a ball a good idea can storm from a series of bad ones you have to go over the cliff before you learn how to land we seem as quick these to act on a bad idea but slow as a crawl from bed own a good one i don't know it seemed a good idea at the time said the man who was on fire after he lit a cigarette and back of the hay wagon that a wagon should add a no smoking sign the trains have no smoking signs of trains of all kinds of signs one of my favorites is one  you may not have noticed keep feet off see reads the ass and commandments on a sign posted by the door of the railway car yet though i'm not even tempted to place my feet on the seat just as i do not covet my neighbor's holy wife the sign makes me feel vaguely virtuous my mind it besides listening to that clack clack clack of wheels on the track watching the rush of ragged brush outside the window and repeating keep feet off seats keep feet off seats heat feet off seats it becomes a montra as the words dissolve into poetic sound and poetic nonsense the rush of the brush the clack clack clack of wheels on the track keep feet off seat or primal rhyme groupies professional athletes are accustomed to having beautiful women as young jocks in high school they get all the best looking girls this trend continues as they move up in the ranks joe got marilyn many blues men were known as ladies man sure they sang about the ladies leaving them but it was usually because they had a new lover it is even thought the blues legend robert johnson may have been killed by a jealous boyfriend or poisoned by a jilted lover hollywood actors got the bombshells the blond tall and lean with bikini body the exotic and the desirable rock stars under tourists for sexual escapades young women wild women two and three at a time turn and fire one one two  is not dead he just wants some sympathy sympathy i put out the garbage and think of you then i feel bad for the garbage i get the bag into the dumpster a call of flies a saying from bottom stain i think of you again now i feel bad for the flies the poets dead body was discovered in the living room let's rip me with proper emphasis the poet's dead body was discovered in the living room too bad the irony had to be lost on him the poet would have appreciated it if he were living but so long as they were living there could be no discovery of his dead body in the living room and that particular iron would not be at least not yet the reason a poet writes is the leave something behind and now we know that what we leave behind will in its turn leave us behind a poet can transcend  inevitability does some small extent that is what i am attempting here that is why i'm waving a copy of this poem in the living room just in case i'll be damned if i'm simply going to lie down and a perfectly good irony be lost on me death hey death stop all that cloete must you continue we continually celebrate she talk about self indulgent death you just  put down that stupid scythe now which is so old now death don't you ever get tired of wearing that room and hood why don't you try some for an all or a t shirt oh no black either who do you think you are johnny cash death if you maybe if you stopped hanging out at some of terry's you wouldn't have such a gloomy outlook death you need to you need to kick back have a drink have a nice dinner maybe go dancing but don't expect me to be your da you may outlast your mother you may outlast your dad you may outlast every ancestor or you have a high you may outlast the justices and live alone without laws you may outlast your worries and pass without a care you may outlast the atmosphere and die for lack of a hand and they had last year passion till nothing seems worth while you may outlast your fashion and then go but not in style you may have that aster assets ending up with no net word or you may outlast gravity and fall off the face of the yes they have a website no they have a couple different websites but one website is my cohen says dot com and you guys perform and other you do this in other places and wonderful thank you thank you very