know when i was you know young first started probably high school for and for me it was nice i guess my regular freshman year sophomore year that's when i pretty much really really got into it and i think it's you know it's probably the watered down same reason why a lot of kids exacto but you know when i went through now you know it was a very small group of people like me and he definitely made us feel a lot more appreciated i guess  small circle of us because everyone else is very athletic sports oriented so we're very small now and now you go there and now it's like the cool you know now and now the sports people just like but you know i mean are you rea change the world but i mean i mean now or didn't and now that we're older it's it's obviously i mean i think that's what we should but it more that we're older we so appreciate it and love it maybe even more you know and that's something that stuck with me time for one thing you know i was watching the documentary the other day and want to be the geffen records executive said you know the most amazing thing is that people rushing out to buy never mind but didn't even buy records yeah yeah when you're a small guy and probably have dealt with the situations that you deal with when you're that age to i mean that could bring it bring it out of you know probably all the things that he sure you know that you know bothered him and you know that he just dealt with being  well well what are you well you know i think you know a lot of things he's explained in interviews and and the young you know dealing with like i think the majority probably males in his childhood and you know  dealt with life you know like before you know stronger or you know you know drinking beer and you know you know i think it is a very you know i think we all know that he can exaggerate it or know about some of the things that happened to try to get in touch with these guys you know actually i did i waited until friday when i'd just go with the old element of surprise aspect of it you know i giving them several days to prepare a bunch of bullshit doesn't make a lot of this is pretty much what i expected i don't want any hassles precisely what i said was i don't want any hassles when i show up you know to do this fall outside the event here i am outside of the event in this case given the old kurt cobain concerts at the seventh avenue theater in hope and you know so rather than moving through channels to book a good band there are actually just on the internet a vegan or anybody with a attacked me once in the studio and this guy really incredibly viciously attacked me he was saying really just disgusting things about me and the door was wide open i was just dropping off a tape and i think i rushed me and apparently they were like real skilled shock jocks just by going on the air and saying it was by all things that they can imagine about a person and i just walked into the studio and said you know you keep talking that way you're going to be finding yourself in think county superior court responding to action because you know they're doing that to somebody who's just outside the law and you should be aware of it when the guy happed off the set he ran down and he ran at me like at a full clip like about two fifteen twenty miles an hour i could have had my skull cracked and you know i could be like permanently disabled for the rest of my life because that guy attacked me so viciously and there's nothing funny about it at all and if you're hinting that that's the kind of bullshit that's going to go on here tonight and is trying to leave right know was the arts and entertainment reporter at the everything in the world up until it seems like it was a few months ago but they're trying to say it was like more like a year ago has a bestselling book called it i'm not kidding oh well recognize the name of the publisher so you know we've been back and forth over this before with you two years ago with the john lennon book these are these rock and biographies for the pre teen it's ages twelve and  this book is defined as they're a little bit dodgy i mean the description i read on the burlingame book is he mentions that kurt smoked marijuana but at the but at the same time he mentions the same the matter of cobain's staffs and the persistent rumor that he may have been murdered and actually did the reviewer got that right a key investigator yeah courtney loves interesting but  twenty eight dollars to spare on a hundred sixty page book the profit margin on that must be pretty phenomenal and obviously burlingame's going to put a positive spin on this being his career and he's now working on young readers books on hillary clinton and who was the other one oh well whatever never mind around so you know i had to get a reputation for being particularly anti social but i didn't show up here to stand in front of this a marquee and deliver a monologue about what a pain in the ass these guys are to deal with in fact it doesn't surprise what i really care about writing down their refutation of iraq you know it's just that the division is between the nice guy musicians they're all about cultivating the art of entertaining people and these guys that want to be promoters and have that  the greenback i do believe our earlier interaction with the musicians demonstrated that nobody is getting paid in this gig and if they i believe this is a two thousand seat theater if they were ever actually managed to sell this thing out at ten dollars a pop you know events and twenty grand and it's thirty grand if they ever actually started to get fifteen dollars on a regular basis so you can see how these guys might be protective but i told the guy tate when the rolling stones play the tacoma dome why do you see footage of them on the evening news why because they allow news crews to come in and shoot five minutes so they can do a new story saying how writing there were rolling stones are playing the t memorial concert if you go beyond the band members and their immediate families and then i meet it hangers on i'd have to say that the county barber didn't turn out to be this one in other words the general public isn't here just some of the hardcore rock hangers on you know which in a way is ok but as far as anyone accepting this is what they want of course then a lot of people probably don't place right because he did have with any of the failings of plays are because it's a you know as a matter of fact you know destination and has been the sense you know the early part of the twentieth century and i guess there's always hope of reviving that and you know the real estate here is the real estate market which is you know and a big part of the underlying economy is definitely you know here and here to stay this will this is a good place to buy houses and investment because the prices are not super high but the climate is very agreeable and it's going to remain so for a long time so there's this nice place to live aspect of herbert county and that's not going to go away probably those people don't like to be too closely associated with  cuts and paper cuts a song about is a song about some kids who were sort of held as prisoners by their parents in their rooms for like weeks on end and i guess the parents would you know they were being sort of poe to to this area chrissy lived and died in baltimore and maybe visited here i really it doesn't really make sense but anyway i guess i'm going to the official start time is in ten minutes and if they got two hundred people i'd be surprised local newspaper who are looking at this is their big cash cow project on the side trying to own and control every goddamn you know breath you take around here because it's  and i'm going to spend the next five minutes deciding whether i'm going to go into this joint which i never i guess i've already decided that i'm going to because i'm hurting here by the you know i got i got to go in here knowing that the you know i mean of course i got the feeling from the e mail that  they you know i had this knee jerk reaction that they didn't want me here but now i'm talking here so grow up you know an opportunity to publicize this thing to the you know three hundred thousand subscribers of cable t v in seattle and you just up even i mean the thing was on the bar on the bestseller list according to his website it was on the bestseller list for months in the category of books for the teen reader