that barbie only had one hour right in my mother so so i would get her little scraps of fabric and you know i made my barbie doll everything she had sleep you know school clothes you know even clothes and even little for gave her a little faction show and she was just so impressed and and i said to one day mom i'm going to do this big show my god the patted me on my head and said sure you  but then you know the second time she parried was like sure you will know he was saying it with great confidence and i think that's the thing that really stuck with me wow and then you know life happened you know from nine years old to you know my tested for an encore and so and from that day i got maybe like five bookings and then i want to do other shows and i would get every time i present at those meetings i would get a booking and it actually fit me and my family you know like three to five year night so i knew at that point that entertainment designing was definitely you know my claim to fame right when you had something like i had yeah that i really had something and  and then you know life happens again and then you know i get married and you know i and i have my day watter you know i had already had you know if my son and i three sons but i have my daughter in life this chain with you know really that wasn't a good thing on some levels it was good what is good points with my family my family but you know i i really knew that i had to get back to what i love right what what what my energy was and you know my passion lies but it took a lot for me that you know for me to really get back to this place when i'm at that i'm just like like overjoyed that i'm there you know i  through i just started asking a different question as opposed to continue to ask like why me i start asking what am i supposed to do with you know what am i supposed to do with this and i can remember so very clearly sitting in my treatment chair and looking at you know all the other patients when i was going through the same thing and feeling like i know that i'm going to be a survivor right quick because i'm supposed to do something with this this is not the end for me at this particular time and i started talking to my social worker and they had every hospital brochure workers and they go around to check on people and she started telling me that they  for the holiday season they get gift cards if you want to know if i needed a gift card and i said you do that and so i said would it what would you give them to and he said to give them to you know family the writer in me you know that are not as fortunate as others write i was very fortunate that my process i had great people in my life that took care of me you know my family and friends i stay with some really good friends that just totally totally took care of my praise them every single day i honestly don't know what i would you know do without so i you know when i discovered the knee i mean you know we know that there are needy people right i mean we all know that and we also know that there are homeless people but for me it never you know came together until that moment and i realized while there actually homeless women that are you know going to can sort of like how could that possibly be wouldn't someone to step in and know having cancer or any type of cancer and you had breast cancer but right now i know a lot you are already passionate when i first made to you were due to full you were passionate and i just saw that this lady's going to be doing some great things you know big things that what you've done a ready thing and so i've always you know i don't know you just kind of drew me to you i know you are very positive and have a really big heart so you know i just wanted you to come on here because you came on here maybe e it's not just like a fashion show it's a theatrical show yes and so you know just tell us more about the whole hasten the process of you well yeah this kind of you know sitting in that chair you know i ask myself the question you know if i had all the money in the world you know what i'd be doing with my life at this point because i had to cancel i was running an image consulting business shopping and dressing clients and i what i was getting a little bit like i don't know if this is what i need to be doing  so and then asking myself that question my nine year old self that remember you said she was going to do that big show right and that's kind of how tame with the show came into existence i said i think that was going to do it and i realize in that moment like all i had was now and if i didn't do it now when what i do it so and then i when i realize that i can actually take my show to bring awareness to the need to see what homeless women we can w was like a no brainer right and you know one day we would really like to have a home that can house these women for free so that they can heal her back to life and we have training programs and you know things like that set up so well you know we're definitely working working on she wanted to leave college i said no you stay i'm going to be fine but here's what i want to do i said i want to do this show right so i started you know looking at all the designs that i've done over the years and how people respond to them and i picked the best of the best to include because i wanted to really tell a story like that and not just have it be a fashion but i expect you know and and i picked the music and i started you know my creativity was just like oh you're  seams i'm not kidding you and so when my daughter would come home on the weekends i would say to her this is this is the scene this is what i'm creating and here's what i needed to do is how i need it to do on stage and she was say cancer survivor story which is my story so it really does tell it from my point of view and there's you know there's modeling there saying there's acting it's really a way i like of so that you know which one day we hope to really take it to broadway and also you know and it's a whole nother thing to actually have people in your life like kid like that vision right you know and it's just you know i think it's just you know like god's divine will for us style payment to live in the world because you know who knew you know my daughter  twenty seven years ago would grow up to be in business with her mom doing what she loves not just what i love i mean she is a stage person you know always has been you know that my son he went in the direction of video to i think this show this performance is going to really set the stage this for the tour you know because people will get like this is a real show and it took time but you know it's  started i created everything for the show with and like a six month period but what i wouldn't do if i was in a good mood if i wasn't happy i wouldn't pick up a thing because i wanted to really for love and goodness i believe everything it so i believe that you know people feel the way they i feel because of the energy that we're into everything because of the creativity that goes into everything and this is a show is really about you know living your dream and never giving up on you and i'm out of who stay hooley whatever you never give up mind you you always stay true to yourself and if you don't live your dreams and now when you're going to do it you know you don't want to wait for something tragic to have been you know you don't need to get breast cancer to live your dream if it does happen that way with me but if you have a dream live it you know you have a book you want to write and you have a story you want to open if you have want to travel the world whatever it is you want to do you know make it to a business and do it now because it will change your life or and this has really changed my life you know i've met some wonderful people we have a great cast young ladies and  young men that a very passionate about medicaid outlane very dedicated they really get the mission they love it and you know they they take it on like it's like well you know there is in them the majority of them and you know so i call them all my children only a little but they are distilled great and we're so we're so grateful you know for them you know she works so very hard on you know that she takes it on like this is her company he's doing this is doing it and she leaves us up to tell them that these folks work full time as well they work they all are full time even my daughter kara they all work full time you know so the dedication is this phenomenal where we're so grateful you know for all of them and they're they're so excited because we felt far since two thousand and twelve we've been doing a full show at least once a year our goal is to actually do a full show at least once a month right maybe do like or show them up that would be fun and the last time we did our full show which was last year we actually did two for mrs and one day which was really interesting when i sat in yeah we did like grand show and it's a time like when we first started i had you know you need money right you know and we didn't have the budget so i did what i could do right because my goal was to actually get the show out there so that i could see it right and if i could see a vision that this could be something then i can create that right now that was really what it was about when we first premier the show because i said the audience and i watched the show and i wanted to know that ok do we really have something here or is this is like the one time but year actually adding the animation backdrop which is going to be phenomenal we have a team that's working on that and that's something i always wanted to do to really make it look that big or you know and just have it be you know have it be different you know very different  for that like every day i wake up and just in living inside a gratitude and appreciation and i you know give praise to every piece of it you know like i know that you know i didn't do this on my own you know it took you know god almighty number one to keep me here and you know my mindset and then all the people that are part of it so i'm deuced eternally grateful and i really you know they say like when you're doing what you love like it's you know it's not about you know the money you know although this is a business and we definitely do you know we need to you know make money but you know i just really lost in it you know i do so i could just like i could do this all day every day it's like a natural when i'm creating in my element and i never want to leave that again and i'm so grateful for the opportunity to be able to do that of a fossil and i somehow want to you know it's very empowering you know what it is is really motivate a lot of people out there whether they want to be  of they want to be assumed they want to be a fashion designer that's right the show will motivate them so many different ways yes i would very proud it's a very powerful yet it's so interesting you should say that because on sunday we had a rehearsal and we have like four new dancers that are with us you know for the first wire and they you know they haven't seen the whole you know so they see bits and pieces of it so you know keira you know she's you know up and telling them this is a great show so one of the dancers i was it was talking with her on sunday will right now so we have to keep it moving and right you know we did we've had a couple of cast members that we absolutely love that you for different reasons they you know camp it is right now one that's in school and we can't wait for her to come back for and you know we don't want to lose anybody want to look at you know if you're passionate about ok what can we place you know you may not be able to be in the show but what can you bring to the table though where we're blessed also we are also i can't believe