that you took the time that you're scheduled to join us and we remember remember on the last one we did our last program you know we talked about how you volunteered and you visit those year my husband had a neighbor that has a very cute little poodle white pool and this dog loves everybody so we were outside and she came by and the dog  and some loving and she had been praying for someone else to come along to help her in the ministry because she was doing this by herself and so when she met me recollect he said oh i like you i said why thank you i said so does your dog so as we began to talk and she says well i do this and we do like to be a part of it and i said why not one so that's how it began and she says well such and such a days you know we'll go to visit this one and then on a couple days later we'll go see someone else jordi or look forward to you arriving at their home they look forward to the company they really do because they don't get near you visitors know their families are worth you know their grown children many little jealous that i actually actually talk to the other clients and they gravitate toward me because they have expressed the same thing we're yes they don't get the visitors to visit down so it's like i'm of a breath of fresh air when they see a face come in the door and so that is encouraging for people it really is everybody someone they can  can share what's going on with them human beings are relational yes yes yes that is so true that you need some ideas to talk to for the simple fact that when god created man he put him in a garden and it was the animals that created but the animals were not a companion for him someone i mean you could talk to  it's not like talking to a person and then you said it is not good that man should be alone and then god said i will create a help me someone that can relate to another human being and that's when you know whether we're talking to another another friend another confidant and we need we all need is someone whether you know whether all girlfriend boyfriend you know sibling we need someone because we're relational and have someone just to do that will listen to you and not be a judge of mental of you bury him and that is very important because we all have someone to that we need to of that we want them to hear our side of the story here and that's what happens when you go to the home bell yes you know they want to they they they just want to talk they do they really do i find it many i get kind of tickled because many of them when you go in they may have the t what it's all about when you go to the home barrow they give you their on divided attention yes they do and you're showing them that i care i'm concerned that you're in this particular situation because i care for you and that's the same way with god he cares for us and right this full of the journeys we don't know where we're going to be yet in that you know the road may be crooked one day but it may be straight the next day and you know i'll prove it's like this today them it can be me tomorrow one accident one illness and i could become home you're up today yes and you can be down tomorrow and i would want someone's to be come to me and give me some one on one time and they're so important just like you said you could be up today and then you know one accident you know couple years ago i had a major accident in you don't you don't know how you do you know you're good before you can be gone along is just a normal day right but then all of a sudden you have a major car accident and so we have to understand then this journey that we're on of life it's got a lot of twists and turns yes it does and so on the journey is is nice that they got a lot and when you're visiting people  to different elements but i remember your new venture there and during our break i remember you have mentioned that you would through a particular situation that dealt with migraines yes i did what i was diagnosed  i had had migraines for many many years but it was different medications they put me on i did more and then in two thousand and three i was in dallas texas with my daughter that was there  and that are just outrageous so they the doctor signed a paper did paperwork for me to come back to new jersey and get on my disability he filled out so i became disabled behind that and i was pretty much what they call a chronic migraine or and in two thousand three between two thousand and three in two thousand i was having anywhere in one month between my goodness fifteen to twenty my going to my wow yeah i was pretty they placed me on the medication interacts with your strong and i also learned that chronic illnesses bring on depression i never knew that so with that i understand depression because they had me on medication for depression also with interest and there were days when i would just lay in a room with the blinds closed no no it's just leave me alone  understand how it is when you have to have that time to yourself and when you're not well you know this well because so many of you know you so many people all that i have read and to ha suffered the same way as you have suffered would you go on through those migraines because i know a lot of people i had read was a lot of people suffer for a long time now are you still on the medicine no i am not what have well i have but i have a cousin who she was in the school system teaching this it teacher and she said elaine i think you should go back to school  come migraines with the depression i'm like she said no this will be good for you she said if you don't go over to the college and get yourself in world i will come by and take you months i said you don't have to so i went ahead and i got signed up the campus was set to franklin in franklin township where did i go into exile it had a campus there at the time yes and i would take the bus from  twenty seven into franklin yeah and get off and walk in from the bus they didn't take my courses but you would think that studying and being in college would cause me more pain but it didn't really a migraine says that you are fighting something within yourself yes it's a medical condition but there's something going on inside of you that you're battlin there are certain things i have to take responsibility for myself yes and you know on time going to bed on time getting up i really have to keep myself on a schedule so that they don't return and it's doesn't matter what age you are it does it really doesn't matter because i have met people who are young and whole would have various crucially in my grandparents who are under doctor's care painful and i met people who are although they did just you know a bit you know they're not older you know but they have suffered a migraines and very painful painful common in our society yes it is is very prevalent whether somebody is is laid off or their job oh they don't have enough to meet the was awesome because we all need somebody yes it is so so him or him then had we're there for people yes then we concern about them it and that's the way god is to us one he could care less about us he really is a wonderful god good god he's the one who stepped in and assisted you he used your aunt to let you stay there with her right she took she took care of   not she used to suffer from migraine headaches and she said that with the by grains come depression because it's chronic it's chronic and i know many of you may be going through it may not be a migraine it may not be a depression maybe you're concerned about of family member maybe you're concerned about the future maybe you concerned about now or you know you may say well you know even know what i'm going through but god does you see does he does but we want you lying to pray for those who maybe go on through even speak them but right now we bring it to you and we say you know touch them where they hurt you heal them where they're in pain what ever is bothering their god is still here or he cares even if you forget everything we have said regis remember a couple words he cares he cares and all you got to do is it when you catch something you throw on it you just toss in it and that's what he wants you to do with whatever situation you may be going through like what elaine went through i don't know if you ladies and gentlemen if you remember the last broadcast that elaine brought to us she talked about the needs how she suffered an unease how many people that i have met in a last year who are going through in their needs pain very painful and i have family members as well and this is very painful and now you're laying how god broader through the need sally touched her and then he brought her through the migraine yes and then he brought her through depression thank you how many of you are out there going through depression you know this program when we were originally started is started this program is for those  despondent depressed and those who are following from god that god wants to speak to you and said you know what i care i care if you feel like nobody else cares cares he cares i'm telling you he will let you know i care thank you and he's going to listen to us we did he listened then you heard journey heard me so don't think bed when you may look at us up here so our father yes we do our heavenly father and let him know this is for me and ladies and gentlemen i believe if you take the test just try yes just try  have a nurse come in and you know take care of and i'm very thankful that i'm able to get about to move to address myself to i don't have to have any of that for me but you know when you how you go fishing you put the bait on the hook and then you cast the hook out to the water i knew let it sit there and tell him bite comes from that and you cast it out but you can't catch anything if you don't pass it out if you just hold that fishing rod right where you are on the ground on the soil you know catch anything but once you cast it into the water you can catch something it no more than  nobody has to feed you now and those in those times we have to be thankful every day that we have to be very thankful and because you know it isn't with me thankful because you know a god loves us so much and he really cares how we feel yes he's what's bothering us but you don't want it to be a  having a difficult day and there's things i need to solve and i'm wondering how i solve it i start repeating those words in that song to myself i don't even i sing it to myself  he really really really really really loves us and you know you know it ladies and gentlemen god is a good god he really is speedy loves us no matter what you're going through just like elaine has lain was saying she went through severe migraines and she had to be on medication yes i did and you went through depression yes i did same time with the migraines