there was very interesting because it it was actually karl marx that said that when the means of production belong to everyone then everyone is seen all of the adults are seen as equals actually what what was said was that when the means of production are held in common then women are politike are cultural adult and there is a separation but it has nothing to do with who is better than somebody else or who holds the power and has to do with function and contributing and w contribute and one way and men contribute in another way and if they both weren't there then people wouldn't wouldn't live and that's really what i think it's about it's bringing that consciousness of equality and oneness and community because that whole foods into what the earth is about what we are it's also because i support women's supporting one's rights is also supporting workingclass rights as well i come from a public health background where there's this theory called the life course perspective that the first five years of someone's life is most important and guess what that is when we provide all the maternal health and social services that are so needed by the woman in our society in the first place and so when you take those things away it's an attack on woman it's attack on children it's also attack on men  that's when you take those things away from the first five years someone's life you also make an impact a substantial impact on the rest of someone's life in terms of their health outcomes and that's from then on it's it's it's a question of trauma it's happening in isolation the last speaker so i feel like it's my duty it's my obligation to my brothers and sisters to talk about where we can go from here taken form as human women liberate beings lost in the confusion of living in this world here tonight you know  synchronicities happen or when magic is afoot i'd like to introduce you to the black her tibetan name is trauma which translates as angry woman we are to understand her anger as transcendent that pure lucidity that sees through all illusions to the naked reality of our pure nature she wields the knife of projects now which is defined as incisive female wisdom or clarity in the west we laugh divine icons of female freedom and liberation i've always felt the black tux was an appropriate icon to represent the very best of the feminist movement of volcanic eruption of truth into the public discourse like the blood stained hands of code pink appearing behind congolese rice yesterday in  you can see that image on their website one tibetan lama described trauma as dancing in a ring of fire and laughing a great ha of liberation the famous practice which invokes or is called should and should means to cut one to one version of should that i like to practice is entitle the laughter of the dock ini subduing the demons through splendor the demons our hopes and fears the many illusions we hold so dear that keep causing suffering in our lives in traumas practice we offer up the fantasy of our hopes and fears in exchange for the blinding truth of reality i thought we could probably use a little of the black ducky in his lucidity here tonight as part of our vision for peace on earth we can invoke duckies by using mantra and you have to think about womens incantations all around the world through all time when we say her mantra we invoke her positive liberating activity into the from the four cardinal directions and the center imagine the weapons of war dissolving in the transcendent laughter of the black singer montra empower us our collective desire for transformation and peace on earth are you re a short piece of poetry from mary sarah see you know how from the mountain tops wailing from the riverbanks scooping the moon into their way the wounds the old women the lies kill distortions maim hope isn't enough to feed starving babies school the ignorant put an end to war like fury see old ones rise drenched their furious fist against the blazing s wisdom to cut through illusion vote in primaries attend to carcasses raise their voices against power sharing the corrupted ceilings that the crowns of their wives and h the wandering mind cry this is no country for old women  the healing process from sexual molestation and physical abuse as a child can be a very daunting task it took me a long long time to get to a point where i c even face my memories and look at them and talk about them allow the emotion that i've buried so long to come out i don't mean written it out in poetry or music and i could express it that way have never really really looked at myself and what i could heal to allow me a live a better private life for instance i was grossly overweight in amenas amount of pain spiritually emotionally physically i was arab sand i did not want to live in pain anymore i needed to figure out how i could just be happy i was miserable i was sad all the time in many pictures you know i see myself smiling but i i know what was going on in my head and that smile was just a mask that i was wearing i met an amazing spiritual man on our video store in reno nevada and we just began to converse and he started telling me about this book and this book was about the four different ways that you can lose your soul and in reading this book and really trying to understand myself it just feels like a moment of clarity for me that as a child healing so this journey isn't easy it takes work and a lot of times that's where we fall when we realize how much work will have to go into us becoming whole and i've learned that we have to be patient with ourselves it certainly didn't take me a year for instance to develop the dysfunction that my abuse left me with it took twenty years for that to happen so i had to remember that it wasn't going to be overnight and that's what people need to understand and the only other thing that i really wanted to tell john to is that it's so important to be a support person for anybody in your life that is a victim of abuse they need people to believe their story to tell them that it's ok they're loved anyway no matter what they've been through and that they can go forward don't abandon them don't say oh my god you are too many issues i'm out here i'm very open about me needs and there are times that people say it's too much for me and i'm ok with that and i appreciate when someone is honest with me that you know i may not necessarily be able to handle this and you're able to send that person off with love but support is really really important and especially just giving us a voice sometimes we just need to tell  story we just need somebody hear it and say oh my god i love you it's ok and that is so important to me and we can do that for each other they're walking down the street you see someone crying how often do you stop to say  i know what it feels like because i've been there so what can i do to make you feel loved in this moment right now and that's what i care about where giving means tools that maybe painting or writing or crafting or being great with horses and animals whatever it may be there's always something there or we can find it can farm equipped to help ourselves heal and for me that's been poetry and writing music and i'm a little over halfway finished with the novel telling my story i am using cd a lot of projects that i have that really helped me take this emotion out of myself and express it to the world and i have both the intention of healing and of healing others if someone can read something that i wrote and all my god i feel that way while i'm not alone that's all that matters to me vat's why right and so i have this amazing book that i wrote actually ten years ago collecting poetry and i have the final manuscript finished in two thousand and ten and i knew that i wanted to publish it and i knew that i wanted to do a recorded cd i got away with it and i knew exactly how i wanted everything to sounding come together but i knew that i needed to wait and i would bet a pro choice five different producers say hey let's do this do that and it just never felt right so i really really have to listen to my spirit and learn that my spirit will tell me when it's time and i met this amazing producer named lance randall and you can find him at lance randall music dot com he is a very gifted musician and a wonderful person and it's just been exactly the way it's supposed to be so i have this wonderful book and the collection of poems that is basically what i call a poetry opera well my friend james came up with this poetry opera title and i really was like wow that's you know that's definitely what it is it's three x i talk about that anger that i you can carry from being abused that aims to that comes along with the sorrow that you carry and the unfortunately i don't have any poetry from when i was a child because when we left at the age of thirteen everything that was personal to us was taken from us before we lived so i decided to start putting them into a collection of specially dusted shelves because i am testing the shelves of my past into these pieces that i can now look at that apart from myself and know about i can read it there i don't have to carry and i also wanted to share my story so that other people will know that you know if i can survive we all can and you're not alone in your pain you're justified in how you felt and i believe your and it doesn't mean a lot of explanation you'll understand when you hear the words so this is sometimes sometimes i want to run away and hide to drift on a raft solitary creek with the greenest of leaves hanging over the banks and suddenly being on to my thing yes sometimes i want to be understood in silence no explanations just an acknowledgement a look of comprehension sometimes i want to reach inside my chest and rip out this thing going feeling that has no core of nervousness or her tears just an ever present feeling has no reason sometimes i want silence that is not mistaken for anger sometimes i want to not be the one i always taking care of sometimes i want to just be completely swept away into nothingness conversely from sight sometimes i just want complete peacefulness that hasn't been fought for  just is sometimes i think that i am alone in this cerebral room with no boundaries that invasively infiltrated sometimes i hate