gyra provider always i learned over these years to trust god in every area in my life and i make him t provider and every time i've been blessed i was a blessing for others but i never wait till i have more than what i needed in order for me to be blessed and this way to give to others down means you have to be a soul you have to be willing to so from everything what god give it to you now because god need your money or needy or provision god wants the world temporary means is subject to change everything was temporary is subject to change our life is temporary the means is subject to change our money is temporary that means subject to change our put in the heart of other people to help us together all these goods and to give it to the people but that was that the main things i even told the church in germany was they help me to put us back if together i said we are not only to give food to the people jesus fed them with the word of god jesus fed them with the word and people ran after him not because of the word around because of the bre natural provision but also his because he wants us to feed ourselves every day from the word of god why do we need to feed ourselves from the word of god it's because the word of god is the only one which gives us the power the wisdom the knowledge than the standing to remain a so world you know who is number one our enemy in our life is not satan everybody blames satan is our flesh and satan has power through our flesh and gave himself for me and he said i'm not i'm not me living anymore that means i'm not listening to my flesh anymore because the the flesh always will tempt you to go to sin the flesh always were tempted to said do not give because you know you're not going to have enough think about that do not put god first because you know if you put god him god first but he will do the rest of the bills that's why we need to fade ourselves from the word of god in the daily basis because when he said ourself from the word of god and i kline my ear this year that means i have to say it with my voice god give us the ballot in twenty one century to be able to read the word of have and this and this devise the bible and every translation possible it can find it and every time i push they say they want to hear the word i push play i can hear the word of god if you cannot read it you can hear the word of god you have the ability to hear that's why we need to hear the word of god while we hear the word of god the word of god says my son keep them in the midst of your heart what the word jesus says from your heart or from your belly from here leaving wire for all you know which is the speed of the lord the word of god to of the world has been so we inside of us we cannot become greedy because the greediness diet across because of the word of god which is inside of us we cannot become of someone else because the jealousy die on the cross when we have enough world inside of us in the word of god become a life inside of us and we from the doctor which got the doctor give it to us because we feel it in our body that's why we need our flesh to die in order for us to hear the provision of the word of god jesus always preached the word and he put each not his word he preached the word from the father with the father give it to him he said i never say a word for myself everything i said to you is keep your heart with all diligently for out of it eight i see ed spring the issue of life whatever you store inside of your heart put away from your deceitful mouth that means it's a possibility our flesh to speak against the word of god is a possibility and i'm saying hundred percent our flesh to speak the things well the flesh feel if you feel sick your flesh will say i'm sick if you feel heading your fresh will say i have a heading you take ownership of the things which i actually have to give it to the lord have a don't see the natural you know i left this past year when i went to the mission i left a very little money in my pocket and i said lord i want to buy for two thousand kids sweets and put it in the package beside the teddy bears in the things which i sent it from here from america and the lord gave me the desire on the heart because i make him the jehovah gyra but i never forget to bless other people outside in everything what i receive i blessed in a way other people and i allowed myself to be a blessing for others you know why because the more god blessed me the more i become a blessing will bless you the more you become a blessing because you already have the world inside of you and your mouth could deceive you because of the feeling the five senses the smelling another check up they took again blood and said you know i saw in the bloody have hepatitis c and she said i deny to accept this sickness and for a whole week she gave her testimony and is a romanian language but she gave her testimony how she was repeating the word of god for the whole week and say i don't have this have but i see i don't receive it is not mine that's in belong to me after  mouth that's why we need to pray for the spiritual provision to be able to listen to the word of god to speak the word of god on a daily basis to take a time and meditate in the word of god because the word of god  open your eyes to see to see you have the power to do to take it over yourselves sickness you have no power over you say i have the power to take hell to myself i have the power to take finances to be able to be a blessing true testimony how the lord blessed me last year to be able to do the project which god put in my heart and you know i believe the lord will give a blessing the same blessing what he give it to me i'll give it to you but never come before the lord empty handed always bless the lord david the king or saying i don't want to receive anything that isn't cost me this is what he lord which going to cost me he went to a place where that angela sitting there and he asked for the property and the man who owned the property said to him says no i want to pay you because i don't want to receive anything from the lord without cost me something that's why when you receive something from the lord you have to hon before he even bless you you have to be able to be willing to under the law are many times i so a seed and i'm praying for my need and i say lord i need that much i need those money to come in the ministry i need this natural resources because you know many times i have the tendency to say if i have more money i will do more for the lower but god knows exactly what we have to do and he will provide a night i never say that the words t two to go to the internet already i so money coming in you know why because he gave seed to the solar the more you so the more you receive the more you sold the more you received the more you sold the more you receive that's all we need to pray for the speech while provision not only for the natural provision to fit ourselves from the word of god to take this word exactly how jesus said in matthew four four says men shall not leave was hungry he know exactly the witness say to know exactly the witness of each and every one of us he says he's come into our flesh he filled the hunger jesus was filling the hunger but he has nothing in me every time we fail ourselves from the word of god we asked the lord to do to give us our speech our bread every day on the ruler come with our feeling with our with the sickness with the word luck with things doesn't go the way supposed to go in a natural when you come before the lord and say lord i saw a se deceive me if i let my mouth to speak it before the word of god if i let my mouth to say words which are not according with the word of god if i let my lips say words which is not about me because what men so that people don't think if you make a decision this year is a lord no matter what happen with my job or with and win this time the d you will be dead and a month now and three months he lost his job he lost his position and i was so he can lose his freedom and mr choose to forgive him you know why it to him and and i think this man was in the late sixty's which was persecuting mere chandos days and probably he will feel that suffering or seventy i don't know what how old he was but he was  close to the today jew or he can be a retired minister choose to to forgive him you know why he said because i preach the gospel of forgiveness and if i don't forgive i could put each that gospel to other people to forgive if i don't forgive myself what this man did to me how i could preach to others to forgive and to receive forgiveness because jesus took up on him so of all my things and all my all my unforgiveness and he took his sins and his unforgiveness up on he that you need maybe fifteen twenty five minutes of walking i've got back home and my mother and my wife were not asleep and  i told them what happened though i was warned by the officers not to tell anybody i told them because it was very clear that i was no beaten and and so much sorrow so i told them what happened and asked them not to tell my father who was a sleeping because a i asked them to do that in order to avoid having some troubles my father himself to next morning i asked by phone my boss you call your job you know i called him and i asked my boss in the factory to let me be free from the office for a few days because i have and my children at the table for breakfast and my father who was at home came from the courtyard and told me that three officers came in the they looked for me and i asked him to invite them in in the meantime one of them entered inside of our room and he was very angry with me my father asked me what happen in us that guy what happened and i want to tell you  reason he did it was because he asked the officer what happened in the us or of the officer was your son doesn't deserve to breed the error of romania because he is against the country again the my father was very confused so i put down my pants and they lifted up my t shirt and my fondest saw that there were the stripes blue on my body or your back yes w him be very shocked and in that very moment i was pushed out of my home by the officer and the other one was at the door and they pushed me out and they took me by car to the in the same inquest room and the other officer the one who arrested me from my home now he came in front of me and because i didn't want to cooperate and to be the informer he asked me all kind of questions telling me like a mouse and the ret of the church and garbage and intellectually with the kind of smell how could you believe that you can survive in romania without cooperating with the secret police you didn't know that the common a secret police is the only god of romania he said and i lifted up my eyes my side and i looked with peace to him which was no possible to make out the brain and put it on the was so that then you might understand that in this country there is no one to gut but the communist secret police in the meantime my father went to the mayor to the city hall to the city hall and like a storm he entered into the mayor's room office and he told him that he saw how i was i was with all kinds of stripes on my body because  police boss right away and tell him stop beating my son then i go in front of the police station and those in mice of with gasoline and inflame myself and i would i would scream with all my power told me afterwards that he said the if the you have anything to charge against mr that the shine police stop beating him just put him in trial his father is right here with me in the office and he is a good communist please stop beating him and in the meantime that guy who beaten me on the on the top of my feet oh my my of head went out with his fist he went out and while me that he would come back and he would kill me and he would let me see what it means to be beaten by the communist secret police because what i have received yesterday was nothing nothing compared with what i was going to receive from himself so he went out and in the meantime for about half of an hour i stood i sit there and then a lot of officers came in and i was asked by them to declare something and they said i ask them what and the boss of the secret police in the city i recognized him he said look you have only to declare that the in case you will hear someone hear it was like a like a condemnation like a curse against me but came not a poll myself but the poem himself he said in less than three mart you will be no more that was six weeks before police said you may leave no i couldn't believe that they released me you know and one of the three officers who actually was a colleague of mine a few bounce earlier in the office in the same factory but he became an officer in the communist secret police in the meantime he asked the boss of the secret police may i drive him back home because he cannot walk and left with having pain or yes for sure it was my feet were swollen and lot of pain it was only a few hours since i was bitten as an animal before them and even no you know after being bitten with the the feast on the top of the head and after being swerd and they're all kind of rubbish wards against you and then put on the throne on the wall you know hit with the fort again i thought that everything is going was going to an end for my life and when they released me this guy drove me back home and from that moment every day of my life i lived with the consideration that could be my last day every time when i went to bed every time when i walked up i came to the lord and they told the lord maybe is my last time when i'm alive my last day when i'm alive lord i just want you to to provide for the needs for my family and i want to to meet them again in heaven and i am sure that if you decided for me to pass away than lord this is my best and i'm ready to die for you but  earthquake the word of god says in the acts of the sixteen in the same way the romanian country was shaken by the revolution the broke out few weeks afterwards and  was working in the same factory who really performed some notes against the communism he was the only son in the family he was in prison i didn't know about what he did but they wanted to put me in the same box with him in order to blame the church he was preparing the overthrowing the communist country with others yes those days because of the older eighty nine but the question is how long has been taking for you to get healed from all those pains even down sometimes even now i feel sometimes a pain in my legs and what happened after that after the after less than three months this man said in three months he would be terminated yes it would be no war in the face of these or this is happening live in general because we saw so many i remember thousands of people which nine hundred seventy eight seventy nine was been disappeared from the face of their word because they did protest against the government and the mine area released and the he became the leader of the city of tour with we lived and soon after he became a member of the romanian parliament and he when he realized what happened he decided to bring all those that was a little more difficult because he they decided to have a trial and to put him in prison but with this three once they brought him them in front of me a city hall in the mayor's office and i was sitting in the mayor's chair and the judging them it's unbelievable after that then thrown around everything was thrown around the i couldn't believe that so soon such an event could happen and i believe that the day this was coming you know would come when we will judge people who are from activities against us in under false accusations and the lord will perish these people if they do not confess during those days but now it was a lawyer in the office it was also a man who was the chief of the human rights in the community was my father a lady and some other people who testified about the fact that they have seen when i was beaten and arrested and so on and they are the guy who has the to me with his pieced and the told that there is no other god in romania but only communist party secret police communist party the answer for the question please say what was the answer what is your answer and then he said you know mr that is xan your god is the real god i told him you know if rather all these people you testify that i know that you do that only from your lips you don't believe with your heart but this happening much more earlier that they could consider could be possible and then i was asked to go to the military lawyer inclusion that was the big guy in the community table the county and it was a kind of represent an representative of the government of romania during those days they have received a lot of the they were from the military and now this i'm in asked me to go into his office and in the same time came the guy who has beaten me on the bottom of my feet and the lawyer asked him to all these people and i choose to forgive them i want them not to be punished before because of what they did against me only their i ask they never to be able to have a position where they might decide for the life of people because they do not they are not worthy they do not deserve it and now the lawyer said mr de shawn we need to change these you have to see only something like this i want these people to pay for what they did against me and i guarantee you this guy will go into prison for at least seven years i have no other possibility to to send him into prison but he deserved it he is a garbage character let me send him into prison and i looked to the lawyer and i told him i'm sorry i cannot do that you are afraid he said you don't need to be afraid of them that communism w never be again in romania so you don't have reasons to be afraid and i told him i'm not afraid is not this the reason tell me a reason he said why do you choose to forgive them and why don't you let me put him in prison and i said lawyer i have one reason i don't know if you agree with it but i will tell it to you and so i started telling him i preach the gospel of jesus christ in front of thousands of people hundreds of people and i preach the gospel of love and forgiveness and i have to tell people who jesus taught us to love and forgive paul taught us to love and forgive i teach you to love and forgive each other one another and if i don't forgive you when i have to say it i didn't but now you have to do it i don't want to be a hypocrite you know what i tell you the reality john in that very moment i saw one man country and i said yes there have solved thousands of people i mean this country and his said man i could believe that there is any reason to be excepted not disinvestment to prison i have such a high respect for for what you believe and then we talk a little bit about my fate and he was very kind and he invited me to visit him again because he was so moved i decided to forgive this man and then he opened the door invited the formal officer from the communist secret police to come in and while we all three stood there he told this man you should take of the shoes of this man you have beaten and kissed the same the very place that you have heat with the rubber baton because this men decided to forgive you i begged him to send you to prison and he said he doesn't agree with this and he wants to forgive you and that guy the formal officer said i was ready to do that the not only that but i'm ready also to relate his brother and my brother was a sporty church during those days i am ready to let him because he his brother is not a christian let him give me administrate to myself a bit in as he wants but just forgive me not send me to prison