extremely pleased to welcome to capital prop julie osama mama when you were scared that last time when they took you and hope to you and bucked you up a rag doll in a hospital bed bloodshed i watched in my corner at the other end of things it seemed i was a torrent and that wave took me into a room i knew woman body and thrift store vintage and you alone still in the fray i scream to myself in those walls upside down grief too thick to even get around when you couldn't breathe in the last part of everything trickled from your mou frank ocean called it a one man called this one way love i would have tasted some from your styrofoam cup but there was none you like to build chips in bottles i think i can see it in my little girl mind i sink into your screaming at the players and pounding your wall on our sundays while i watched you and yeah you just love that football between us and i was afraid and i don't know you but i know how you singed that spider well we've talked in the green and your spin on why you couldn't give me more dollars and by the way you left me running at that hospice place no space for my suffocating grief she was  you only wondered why i couldn't take the insult mirrored elevator doors closing me in the word strange and wanting daddy oh yeah i know it was my fault this one is from my brother david dreaming of my brother i meet him these days on the boats of my late night mind they say it's suicide this long arc that divide when they sink down on a heroin ship in my dream he is in the hospital and i am there was some shapeless other i stole someone's lunch and hid under a sheet well the care floor closed in on itself and the rooms became lounges and the patients  disappeared hospice volunteer me he pretty much coma ties they said no speach not there don't think he will not even so she left his wife needed respite shopping trip mind to sit in the quiet he spoke with the cat on his chest told me about their life her music exquisite he could still hear her play that first time her violin and love so fine she wrote me when it was all done and words so sweet for someone who'd been just only once in the doorway of things later the information they had been married some other space a life divorced thick mud love and she cared for him without hesitation you this is the last of the morning songs set and this is for a very special woman called armed guard she thought of everyone but herself as she remembered the need in her first country after a world war and i'm dedicating this poem to a very special friend of mine susan and it was susan who granted me the privilege of  meeting armed on this day her last day i missed her irmgard thinking of you that late morning in the farmer's market the flowers like you wanting home i thought your room could have colors when i got there muted by the afternoon heat you'd already gone is it working ok this is a poem called on becoming or being manned i don't want to be a man like some mammary gland i've done that fed made all this and i do miss being a miss and what is it about my worn face and depleted stands that could possibly make you think i am just this you don't look at me now my where in my how my hips still speak my want still deep man i am not a man don't confuse me thank you this next set of poems is called nursing home stories inspired by the amazing people that i've met along the way nursing home stories part one the knowing is long like a seven decade stretch toward some kind of new embrace he comes to her every day to sit in this yellow that space she doesn't know him if she'd have me he says something turning in his face i'd ask her all over again he's worried about the half home he goes home to and where his things will go when he goes and how will he provide for her nursing home stories part two she has signs life stories to the people she can see in the parking lot and this is her neighborhood in the baby that wasn't in the wife that isn't in the children who don't and he sits here or lies there or tries to and the doing is lost the knowing beyond her the body can't or can't remember where it was then on that sweet day it met her and this is the last of the nursing home stories nursing home stories part three or miriam miriam you have stood on this line for a long time your turn and you're there somewhere driving your car on that sunday afternoon top down kids along and he comes every day from his tired room to sit with you when his heart went bad and he couldn't you didn't know and you certainly wanted me to go i don't think you liked me and outside this place maybe i wouldn't have liked you either but here where the body is reaching i'm not leaving looking out from this high deck i think i see hints of you like the hint of the land and if a long question maybe only clouds or the imaginings of salt water my desire an almost rainbow thick with grey mist remember when i told you i saw my dead mother driving there or on the boulevard or yes everywhere maybe she's out there there and everywhere she finds me as certainly as september wind but here i watch the people around me he says my wife would like some r and juice and she kisses her husband with perfunctory accuracy and he clearly would rather find that space where where he is sure escape lives one of them is really in love maybe right thank you very much richard poetry books include trash marks the spot and what it says musical theater credits include the pied piper of hamelin and remnants ballets include buffalo bill's saloon and martin luther king produced and performed at president obama's inauguration his play there goes the judges originated in l a and was recently produced in princeton and new orleans his books yes we were doing s me ok music mound in june well right here he's going to be doing i hope so well we are missing our stage manager this evening so if you wonder why we're a little bit ragged this evening that's why but that's why those stage managers are really important what they do is they make sure that the acts come in they know where they are we know that they're in the room and all those sorts of good things we find out about the microphone requirements etc but that's true i should talk about you guys and be able to make sure i give some credits to some of the wonderful people here this evening and so if i say correctly there it did awesome you lead off even just amazing and his original compositions so thank you so much for working the camera and playing here debbie arcade thank you so much and also eric chavez all right eric thank you so much ms member got a directing doing an awesome job of that so thank you so much and your other half their time a member got over here thank you set here for this evening and we're working our way down here but richard jarkko we're going to get set up for you yes he's he's already he's ready to go here it's only just us to worry about us on that one all right i think we're almost time goes by no it's part of me and baby you know so if you can't run from those out there who have no love and they cry to love and they wonder whether love will answer them well beginning with the premise that  please take my han something you might have noticed and you know what's troublesome about certain aspects of love is when you love somebody and they don't even know when they don without seeing him between the unspoken and the see it happens every time anniversary it happens and for all those lovers there is a gift and it's called beauties r thank you very much happy valentine's day thank you richard jarboe now richard i heard a rumor that you're doing a performance in magic mountain in june is that correct yes i  space i'm very very proud to be putting the show on with another show as well called vodka valley i think i was asked to be a dancer and yeah yeah well you know who doesn't want to dance in vodka worm but anyway yeah that will be coming in in the in the near future i'm more of a lambert field guy you know i'm over in that part of the world i also play there every thursday at the more the key barbecue joint meet i work for meat and vodka and but i'm there every thursday if you're all interest to do you know more about what i do musically and so on so very what a pleasure to be here thank you very much richard you were going to bring up bubbles bubbles now if you look at the web site it says mysterious performer bubbles not so mysterious because he actually performed here as part of the barricade to our super group a few months ago you were in it sir you were at it you were at it and we so not so mysterious but maybe a little bit mysterious we're going to set up and very glad to talk about bubbles bubbles from washington's crossing pennsylvania also on the two tracks he's on that last one in this one she's also it's called back in but i was about fifteen i was going through a lot of depression and i was going to be you know corey so i was trying to i hear like pizza like i do i know pizza so i wrote this song it's about a dear friend of ours his name is peter's a party but you all know by the pizza party need everyone when i do this chant at the beginning of the end of the song you guys feel free if you want to sing along it's simple all it is says is it in a party without pizza party without