to introduce is matthew ledge enjoy i guess what i'm getting around to saying is that do you really think that your story is that different from anyone else's are do you think well you know yes it is because you know i am in a and then to follow it up at this time you're getting a lot of recognition you know for being who you are you in the german you've done all these you know photo sessions you've got one with me coming up how do how does that how does that parlay  through everybody goes through something different and matter what people go through that they can really if they want to succeed they want to get better they can you know you can you know the matter of what life there is a you can succeed in that's an inspirational story so i feel like if you wanted to zero in on like as an m p t i don't believe so because i'm used to this my whole life but i didn't lose it so i just felt that i'm just doing my thing kind of that's what i'm doing my thing like i'm just going on but if i want to take like my whole story into account then i would i would probably be more inclined to say yes has it really ever held you back or anything has it really ever y consequence of the issues i was going through and i was so high but i was about forty pounds lighter wow so i was extremely thin so i was so thin that the  that when i weighed down it would hurt wow so i was going through a really really difficult battle and i finally bottomed out and then i was like oh right time to get my craft together and then i basically just was like are i'm going to start the gym and i told people this you know when they really x for more detail story that you know the gym really saved my do you want people to when they see you in this exhibition and keep in mind we won't show this interview until the documentary comes out what do you want people to see when they say when they see you  people to think i guess what i want to see is what's in the sea is like a no excuses that i wanted to see in the photo not knowing anything about my past in my story anything like that and be like this dude has been through shit and he you know look at him now can't think like you know how like a picture you can really sometimes the emotion and feel so i want them to feel the emotion of me of my struggle but look at me now like you can do it well i know we definitely looked at you now i think we can jump into our nd model toria cannell singer songwriter hope you enjoy it i think it's a privilege and a huge opportunity the fact that i make music and perform in front of a lot of people the fact that i can represent people who feel different or look different to others and it's a privilege for me and honor you know to represent the differently abled community even in the way i couldn't be happier to be exactly the way that i am because i know that there's someone out there is maybe younger than i am who would see me on stage and think to themselves i can do that or i can do whatever i was afraid to do before and i wish i had had a hero who looked like me when i was little and that's what i want to do for somebody else ultimately i think representation is the most critical movement we can make towards society of understanding acceptance and self acceptance and that you know in the past at least in my school experience there's been a really harsh sort of isolation and everybody feels like they're awkward and look different and you know for me it was my arm but as another girl would be self conscious about her notes or another person would be would feel like they're too short or too fat were to whatever this this and that many other and we're all different and so it's only see beautiful symmetrical skinny you know very one type of person in the media it doesn't help us to feel worthy and the sooner we can see ourselves represented in the things we watch and things we consume i think the sooner we will all find more self acceptance in our daily lives the amount of times in the past that i have introduced myself to someone and in their life because they don't know how to shake my hand you know that shouldn't be such a surprise anymore as neither should meeting someone in a wheelchair or meeting someone who's left or whatever it might be blind everybody is born differently and wish it was should  just be open always just assume that you know nothing and that you're ok you're here to learn all the things you can possibly learn and that's what i found is is future hopefully that's what i want to see in youth obviously not the rebel army but honestly what i see the most hope and it's kids that i me who come up to me look at my arm and they're like touching and like oh i'm ok and then they walk off and play with their friends you know what i conundrum it's just this is how it is and move on so i have hope in the kids and i'm still a kid so i want to be part of it you know and also express myself with music and that's what i really have to do and that's that gives me confidence is my vocation my passion and excitement to keep learning and perfecting my craft hey everybody w that good question my sense is that i think that i think beauty definitely comes from within that's what a lot of people say but i think it's true i think some people even if you're like physically beautiful if you don't know that you're beautiful if still be to fall i feel like that shows more than your parents your parents so i definitely think you have to just become the mom gets to a point where you're like confident in yourself and love the way you look and love how you were made and i have i think it took me a while to get there but i just love who i am and like the little things that are different about me i just take it as being unique and i race it the whole point of this project is a celebration individuality and and the difference is people have to to recognize those and instead of be ashamed of them y doesn't mean it's a negative thing you know i think you know something that is just it's just it's just human it's a human characteristic to be able to take something and do it differently and do it and a different a different way then you know the  challenges at the end of the day we're all still people we all we all are we all kind of offer it the same way and i think that's something that this project is really going to bring a lie is is kind of everybody is different and their own way and that's ok so you mentioned earlier about what's going on and ella and they they refer to the movies that they seen on t v and they see cartoons and they see guys with robot legs or the robot arms or whatever and they soon that's what i am you know and i think something that's cool about this project that we're doing is it's going to change the way kids potentially view us cannot take away that wow factor what is what are those and it's going to educate them you know i think that's the big thing about what we're doing here is want to educate we want to these kids we want them to know that there's people who are different and that it's ok to be different and when you are different you can still do everything the same as everybody else in to invite them into this this showcase of a more positive representation of people with disabilities we want we want to bring that positive light and not not so much as a negative thing for you what's the best thing about being yourself was the best thing about being me is  well i would say that there's not too many things that can really make me angry make me upset i'm not a sensitive person which is kind of handy when you know you have people staring at you and want to databases another thing is that am able to work hard and i'm able to if there's something that i want in my life and i know that it's going to be worth it i'm going to work for it and and i think it's something it doesn't it doesn't i don't see short term a lot of i don't have i don't have new year's resolutions because a lot of my goals all my things that i'm shooting for take fifty one thousand and fifteen years you know there's nothing short enough nothing comes easy and why i believe and so i think that's something that i love about myself is that i'm able to stay persistent and look at the long term and that's something as an athlete is very very useful and not something that as i'm growing older and started to step into a different stage of my life and might follow in my career is something that is invaluable and something that i am very grateful that i've learned over my career the way you mention your long term goals in your career and at the moment as far as making sure the next generation of kids are fully equipped are fully mentally capable of doing whatever they set their mind to is a never ending it's never ending there's always going to be somebody who recently becomes injured who recently became born with a physical challenge and there's always going to be somebody who's going to need some type of guidance from someone who has experience and from my childhood to my teenage years to my adult years i experience all lot of what these kids and adults are going through and so i think that's something that for me is just going to continue on until old with the walker or you know i think it's something that is just it's never going to end and there's just so many people that can potentially be impacted so the end goal i'm couldn't tell you that but i do know starting what do you want people to think or feel when they see you in these pictures i want people to say that is awesome that is that is true human spirit that is something that i can be motivated by that something that it will inspire and that's something that i want my kids to see that something that all kids should see that's that's what i want people to be inspired to feel and this think when they see all the other people and the project when they see all the she has been a makeup artist she has been part of fashion she has been an advocate arthur for many many years although she looks beautiful you might not think so and she actually did some modeling for us this to happen you know never you have no idea just your presence in fashion how much that did for so many young people coming up and coming up now can i say your name with with pride so quick question final question i always like to know enough fun cause it is know if you could be on a reality show and if you could do make overs and also coach people what would the name of that show be wow that and have known him well you have inspired and motivated a lot of people maybe in me being one of the main one thank you so much for being there