today it was so motivational just hearing so much reading some of what you experience and to me it was current courage but it also was a leap of faith no pun intended here in terms of what you did so without any further ado i want to welcome you again thank you and my first question and i know for my viewers who are watching is what initiated this whole process of you becom i actually started the trip i took was in two thousand and twelve but it began back in two thousand and eight with the recession the economy was crumbling and i didn't lose my job but our company had some cutbacks so i was working pretty much double time and i at some point burned out and i said i can do more so i quit and i said i you know i can find a job i'm educated it'll be easy to get back in the workforce and it wasn't because there were no jobs so i found my four one k running my last letter really everything i had nowhere to go and no home so what that was like it was the most terrifying moment of my life because i was panicked i had no clue what to do so traveling wasn't my first thought so how did you hold you decide to go traveling what happened there i was talking to a friend and she was saying whatever you've been doing up to this point hasn't really worked so just make a totally different choice do something completely new and so i'm not sure how i got to road trip being my different choice when i said that would be my last thought to do take a trip because it's not a good time it's no need to be finding a well all right i'm doing something new yes going to travel yes and so how did you start preparing what did you do there really wasn't any prep to do i put all that i had which is very little in  familiar so i went there and i would see the howard university library to use their free library wife and i headed to social media facebook and i said hey i'm on this trip if you all want to and you went to new york to new york to the no goose bed and breakfasts and i and my friend amy we're now good friends and we hung out there and we talked and we connected and that really got me set to go in this and people would follow what i was doing and i would say hey i'm wherever and i guess if you want to pay pal me and put some gas in my car that be great and that was how i traveled people's kindness wow that was people that literally send you money they pay pal me was not panicking i was not because i knew that no matter how long it took or became a dollar didn't come it was going to be ok wow it was always ok i finally got that on the journey so that you had a sense of peace very peaceful yeah wow i'm not sure i wish i knew how it at that that place but it was like something clicked inside me and i was like ok no matter what happens no matter how it looks or feels or sounds it's ok wow that was those were the minutes people from that page right were coming to hang out and connect and it was great so people who lived in that era where the physical people they were virtual physical people will have it yeah and that when it was it was small it was maybe three or four people  it was really just said to put a face to the name and just talk and it was a good time wow so it seemed that happiness is your theme in terms of so why why you chose the first title  the title of the page was choose how this yet was it because what was happening in your life and then the time i was going through a really deep depression and i had i couldn't find my happy anywhere out there so i said you know what let so you do you lie from from from there to new york i'm keeping on ok to pennsylvania all right and then my question that isn't what was what so far what do you think was the greatest lesson you learned one of the greatest lasse's one of the greatest lessons first was that i always have a choice ok because before i left for the trip i felt like i was stuck and like i didn't have any options on how i was going to fix it  was just physically mentally emotionally in one place and the truth is that i had a choice i just couldn't see it but my friend saying to me you know do something differently open that up to me wow so so we all have a choice i  i was meeting with someone and she said she felt so stuck yes you know and it's not a nice place to be you know it's like you're there's no way out you know i think that's why i couldn't see my actions i because the stock n'est really put on blinders for me  paper go to harpo studio in response to my inquiry my i heard go well all right then and you went off to harpo studios in chicago i did like you had to do like a lottery or something yeah or ever yes so what was this supposed to help a student here i come what happened was i had been watching along the way oprah's i think it was back then called life class  yes and i was so inspired i'm like i want to go to life classes why not so i said i'm just going to go and show up and see what happens wow and that's exactly what i did see end up in chicago ended up in chicago got there about see what happens just because i can write and no one stopped me you have a choice i have a choice so i got in line and it was for people that had tickets that wasn't me associate to the ladies and i just wait and see she out and she's like you know what we have a seat for you while come on in and it was like right in the middle oprah on the bandstand was her guest amazing show and i was and i was like that in wow because i just showed up wow wow myself trust the process trust the journey it's all for my good then on august thirteenth i made it safe again and just kind of going back and made it safe and sound to harper studio in chicago but good trip took a bit longer because i kept stopping to look at shiny things along the way that's here august thirteenth harper studio you wrote i said i'm still here no tickets yet but they don't they don't tape for another six hours then august thirteenth another entry i had here it i whoa i made it to life class at harper studio post coming later tonight what i learned on this part of the journey all things really are possible and that's what i loved so let me read the other piece one of the things that you wrote i won't go through all the details i wish all pictures do you still have pictures from that you have here i did it in the editing but you wanted to have a picture with oprah but you didn't get to have that picture with oprah right he wrote i didn't have the big moment but my spirit is content i followed my heart i said all of that say if there's something you want to do do of got me to that my happiness and it was finally in december i remember very clearly of my birthday week the same birds in california at this point sitting in my car twenty bucks to my name still different twenty bucks  and i was so happy i was so happy something came over me i was just content and complete i was good ok i love what you said in your content and  what did that looked like because i think you can say we're happy but i mean happy so subjective and so you know people use that word so often yes well so what was the highlight for you what did it look like when i if i looked at robin pre happiness and when she's happy what did you what did it was that here's the thing i couldn't see it about in a mirror it would be the same robin i couldn't see anything different and i still don't have a home and didn't have any money i make account  but in here felt really good and that wasn't there before right so what i learned was that my happiness for me isn't dependent upon anything external wow isn't a based on what i do or don't have as with me or isn't with me where i am  it's always in here and that can't be touched wow sagal so so so once i got that that was like oh it's good i'm going to be ok wow so so you you phoned you happiness i did powerful within itself because so often we're chasing all these things using things and our stuff to actually find that happiness and to find ourselves and i realize that we don't have to go anywhere no it's right here  write a book at the end of it i was like i have nine months worth of entries let me put them together and it was actually a cohesive story and then a friend to me said are said to me and i want to know what you were thinking you know what was going on here so i went back through an know it's a little the different lessons like when you talked about the harpo harpo studios and how that whole process and trusting yourself and you think and you as a reader i think i walk away with that i think about my own life you know  how does that how am i showing up my being courageous and i am by believing in me that i can actually do whatever i want to do in life that i have choices so it gives you a gives you  it gives you something to ponder that's what i would actually look good something to ponder and so the road trip by hand ended you phoned your happiness so what what are you been doing since since i've been doing speaking engagements and tours and that's about it and just enjoying the moment enjoying life ok so what other major lessons so you shared one less not be attached ok i got that lesson twice actually on the road hopefully i'm complete with it but we'll see so my first night out i had forgotten all of my toiletries so i stopped at target got a few things went back to my bag out of the car to put them in and didn't put the bag back in the car just my mind was somewhere else and i was in a lot going right you know i was so happy i did it i didn't take a lot with me to begin with but now what i did take i had half that i was like ok and then my second thing was i put my things and storage when i left but storage they'd like to be paid every month and i wasn't able to keep up with that and so all of my things that i owned were sold everything you know twenty years worth of book collection and things that i love my picture albums gone in a matter of minutes so it and it was to learn that it's not the things that what's coming next yeah that's a big ten not always have to know or to have a plan or to understand and to just say ok i'm here that's given me goose bone because of something i'm  that you know and here does so powerful because at although i say this a lot sometimes you know my action doesn't follow it with it ok i feel that you know we're given a little piece at a time if we're given the big picture at all just go with the flow and west understand i'm just in the moment and brain and enjoy that process it's i learnt that to still take action while being surrendered to what is while so i can still do what i can on my so what would you in your you know if you had to share with or viewers people more watching people are believe me there are people who are still who are feeling on happy and don't know how to find people who don't know who they are they're trying to just say i don't like this about myself i don't like that about myself i don't like i don't like anything about mice and they're so focused on doing that  just passing by and and this time you can't get back no this time you kind of get bad i was watching in fact something from the steve harvey the other day and it was a little animation that he you know where he was there's no way in his is natural could he ever thought that he would have accomplished what he has accomplished thus far in his mind if you know and he's saying it's about his stepping out in faith you know and it's not about religion where it has passing you by yeah and if we just stay on faith street no matter what is happening there doors that will be we will be able to eventually get a gift that we are that that's there for us you know will be flung wide open wide open yes yes guess so for you what message would you have for viewers who are watching what was one thing if and it's all done everything that you have learnt on this journey from homelessness to happiness what would you share with our viewers i think that the their lives are really their own it's not about what has or hasn't happened the choice begins right now and what you do from this moment now forward is what divine i really really really encourage you to get a copy of this book and as robin says she's doing speaking engagements that you know she would love to have to come in and talk about this journey when i just have  dialogue with individuals because i mean we are all we think that we are all separate but we're all going on this journey respective journeys and we can learn from each other yes so robyn again thank you so much for being here