sea i love the honest ones i love the photos and just be like man days tired it's cloudy i was in eighty degree weather yesterday and now i'm  yeah but my mother taught me how to sew her style it's very important my mom only has one eye but she can still thread thread to read through it is that it's me so if you ever are lighting candles as a vigil for those individuals to remember your spirit and to honor their struggles and say that we are going to continue to fight to keep our love story she loves me she loves me that's what i keep telling myself each night after dining with her it's been seven months i get tired in she has no real our choices are dictated by the forces of artificial environment business for the sake of being busy and then there is our creation culture but even more than that they are shaped by the societal norms that have been so deeply embedded in the trenches by journalists in the the i'm all caught up again she loves me i think she's attracted to mine messed little or is it my or is it the nature light that is bound up with constrictions from the street the part of her soul that wants to be controlled to a point in her consent i think i am attracted to that part that wants more more sensuality more carnality more abundance more love she loves me she loves me that's what i keep telling myself each time i want to reach out and take her here and hold it in the in look into her tiny eyes and say the words that want to come light that took on a life of its own this feeling of being female while living in a mills body my life is one that you never experience but those who do an insight into something beautiful in the context of the human experience and yet i am hesitant to place her hand in my hand and to look into those tiny and single people who are willing to courageous what they are not going to understand is that i am still attracted to beautiful women duality has been a part of human nature since the beginning of time neither can exist without the other she loves me but not really maybe she is in love with that which grew up with that which i and i am in love with her really don't get me wrong it would be nice to find someone who is willing to take a chance with you maybe someone with a dance with me love you to someone who doesn't have who doesn't have my blood running their bank and then i see that look that we that look that longs for yourself yes but them push me into boxes restraining my ability to break away from the types of stereos that play tapes of massage me over and over again i'm afraid i'm hurt moving past the herd moving from behind the curtain moving into better things moving mountains all around me and i'm finally coming out of the closet with every one of my identity i am yes was on you spoke when you pulled me out of the melting pot back when people speak to you where your shoulders like curtains although but not too bright but these are the things i've heard swallow in small pieces never open your mouth too wi speak in smaller and i'm a good actor but at some point i got so deep into character that i couldn't find my way out like exit stage left and somehow disappeared in my only break backstage to apply more makeup your hair will set you free an extension of your sentence can be purchased for as low as forty nine ninety nine a month these are the things  but friends people worry that this might be abusive of the children will be confused and that if we never give them their roles how will they know how to act but consider mr child psychologist that maybe these children for on will be acting but imagine what it might be like for the first time in your life to meet someone who isn't he or she would simply themself then wonder whether it is more abusive often you're brave you're fearless somehow you bust the fourth wide open step down into the audience and walked out you ignore casting calls but you're acting class but the voices murmuring in the background don't let the real concern here is not whether the child will know how to act but rather whether we will know how to treat them whether to coddle or crush them how to love them whether they're gay because after all how can you and i for everything use your fingers not your problems underwear like secrets should be seen only in glimpses of the things i've learned and i draw i want to be the kind of defies flowers just because for that i need to be with the kind of girl that likes getting flowers your head to the side of your pride like water whether that means in your mouth or not at all close your lips and roll them over these are the things i've learned ponder linguistics like and finish as a generalist pronoun and i wonder what they do in spanish where every adjective bears your identity i wonder if the finnish wonder what we do in english eighty one ten and thirty degrees bend your angles as straight as possible abdomen put your body close whisper soft songs of sorrow as it sleeps in your arms true false comebacks something that even the reality of our bodies cannot hold an amazing opportunity this morning thinking about how your life impact the lives of the little cutie pie peacefully across the hall and down the stairs did you lay there after a restless night because you woke up at three this morning and again it four thirty thinking about how the bills you paid and the ones you needed to wait to pay will determine who can get new shoes and new code and those breezes to straighten her teeth did you recognize that they are your greatest investment the greatest dividends the payouts when you when i listen learn love and do our best to get it right and to do with better did you walk to their doors and take a peek at the beautiful faces with the clarity that after they rest in wait for the day if you did your job right if i did mine they would be ok to say good morning to every face they see and to be ready for what the day with her going did you even have your cup of tea have you even breast that be me that's how i be creating our definition of family with their father's visits his his donors seed and me before the day even started i'm tired to we we must remember that we forget things that held us together tightly closely knit in by that cannot be broken even from africa making in the middle passage to america taking on the pain of slaves never losing the reality of being royalty demonstrating the ability to survive and then to overcome we were we through it all that roag our backs held us back put on the backs put us on our backs made us go to the back of the bus the restaurant that we for whatever when ever we were we still confident focused strong we stayed together because we must remember lest we forget it now things are clouded our true strength faded our true purpose jaded what do we really know about our true legacy to lift our heads straight in our backs ignite our minds and widen our vision it is only because we were we we must remember lest we will forget what happened the abduction from the motherland real the unwilling passage across seas as a hostage real being broken stolen naked chained to degraded real as for our destiny we were we we must remember that as we will forget it ask yourselves is this it you the way you  me the way i am coasting fighting barely even seen a glimpse of how truly incredible we are blind to the royalty that runs through our veins we were we we must remember lest we forget it do we know who we are without fragmentation chaos lies and confusion well i know for you we are fearfully and wonderfully me we are heirs of the mother and father joined heirs with the son we are priceless we are miraculous we are royalty we are we we must remember lest we forget it we are not needs we were not meant to survive we were not meant to achieve yet here we are here we stand tall across seas in chains marching in gaps where ever we were we are we've remained lessons we must remember we will forget thank you class when a love letter everyone needs to hear you are worth the wait just wait and see your expense expectation should be don't believe those who attempt to dumb you down ask for what you need and if they tried to act like they didn't hear you smiling really big and whisper every word directly in their hears you are worth the time and attention required to know your story and understand your language and the language you speak and the dreams you the bird keep the promises to yourself even if others forget or fail to follow through be bold enough to know yourself and yes you will be alone because there is only one you now that you know the love you deserve what you  all of these are all my friends decided to come out and play with me tonight so i really appreciate it to our next on this day is a dear friend who has been just music i'd love to see you and alice every tuesday night from eight thirty so you don't feel like playing anymore it's free no cover yes to because it is in the room