from that son of mine today just a few lines he's cramming for his finals don't worry you may give a flying colors as if you didn't know what i like to hear just the same so he's working on a long range project alice i'm not going to the firmest and i'm going to study for the ministry and i wanted to tell dad that for a long time i guess i was afraid of what it might do to him and i always had this dream ever since i was a kid you used to spend hours teaching me to build things he's gone through life convinced that i'd follow in his footsteps i should never let things go this far alex can you understand that sometimes a man must put aside everything and dedicate himself to a new life a life to which god has called got to he's got to realize that it wouldn't be fair to him or to me if i felt my place was in the ministry and i one of the firm just to keep peace in the family when did you know  must have started while i was in the pacific there were times when i was very sure of the ramones when i wasn't but now i'm more certain than i've ever been of anything in my  when i came back from the war i did a lot more thinking and i'd never done before oh well that's natural everyone has to readjust himself to civilian life i was more than that i began to think about life what it's all about what am i here for how can i make the best possible use of my life so many know so little about christ that's why there are men who dedicate their lives to help bring others to god through the gospel do the work we are best suited for did you ever stop to think about every man like you with an engineering degree there are thousands who don't know a spy room from a t square and our modern complex civilization needs a slide rule  if he's as good an engineer as i think he is he'll be just dying to get these people or something like th not only that we will save something like sixty days in the facing work alone nice regulation for any man connected with it on the very ground early in the fall if we get the b there's another reason why you should stick to engineering do you think alice is cut out to be a minister's wife remember she's one girl in a million do you think you're being quite fair to her then i'd rather as you gotta stop behaving like a little boy you gotta realize jim's old enough to make his own decisions i wonder how decisions are supposed to be based on common sense him showing very little of that and how can you talk like that he told  reasons you know them just as well as i do all right all right dora but i have a hunch that before the summer is over you think twice before throwing his or future away a life that i found something more important than building bridges and skyscrapers ok ok jim let's not argue anymore i'm sorry i lost my temper if you're set on becoming the reverend brad would give it a try oh get out of your system and you'll find a place here waiting for you your letters are always so wonderful like a breath of home and the voices of all my loved ones you will never know what they mean to me the past few months of opened up a new world to me i'm more certain than ever i found my call minister's wife i don't see how i could tell him anything like that after all you can even ask me to marry you and i thought you always had an understanding well not exactly at any rate we're really not engaged but just the same i feel that you might think twice if you raised serious objections i'm not sure that i should think you see i want to do whatever  james i've been busier this semester than during my first two years but darling i'm really enjoying that's really one of my favorite subjects been our correspondence course i watch for the mail delivery every day you'll never know what you it wasn't a bad job mr bradford but i am looking for a new connection something more permanent something i can grow with her by saying you may remember the gemini were on the top ten in our class when we graduated yes it looked like both of you were going places bad i'd like to have you with us but i'm going to be frank with you you know that jim was supposed to come into the fire yes yes he mentioned it quite often and in spite of what's happened i still have hopes that he will be with good luck thank you very much ask you to marry me but that's something i've got to tell y ones i know i guess most of us think about it that way when we start i hadn't been here very long before i began to look at the whole program of the church from an altogether different angle i began to see it as a global strategy carrying out the command of christ with dedicated men holding outposts and distant lands and somehow i began to feel that god intended me to man one of those outpost  how can you be sure i've been thinking and praying about this almost every day years ago i wasn't sure today  you must be out of your mind i have never heard anything so idiotic in all my life but you know the fate of all this if you understand what i don't know something terrible about taking a man with your training in finding out of a place like that you go where you're needed tell them you're not interested but  what can you do for a bunch of savages like that i'm going to try to bring them to christ you are qualified but they got things is there anything bigger once it started i couldn't think of anything else i mentioned the war before that's when it began that's when i began to see that the war we were in would never be won with bullets and bombs freedom's hard to understand i'm empty stomach we told them we were christians fighting against godlessness but in their silent face as we read the question what had our christianity brought them except suffering and destruction and death and sometimes even i wondered but i thank god more than once that i'd been brought up in a christian family i one day while we were on our way back to the front we were like they had half the guts to half of the guys in the south but they shut that big fat mouth doing something about it and quit that lousy sob saying they put a couple of bucks in the collection plate to start saying and how low you are doing a lot more than you think trouble you birds you're too busy shooting off your mouth to find out yeah what about that brotherly love they're always spout maybe we could use some of that brotherly love around here like those kids we saw in the village livin in those think in rotten houses maybe they could use some of it and those mothers crying their eyes out and those guys dying on the streets maybe the neighbors is that it or sure they are but you can expect the people in the churches to change the whole world  overnight they've had two thousand years to do it and what do they got to show for it and if those stachura to sit with their hands folded over their big bellies every sunday really mean what they say about religion helping people well i think there's something about it could i explain away complacent comfortable christianity i used to wake up at night with his words beating at me i've never been able to get him out of my head maybe now you can understand how i felt ever busy and tragically lost track of time but in the evenings my thoughts always return to my loved ones home i often wonder what you're doing sometimes strangely what you're having for dinner mom i sure miss those wonderful swedish meatballs you used to cook for me rather hold a few more weeks we're going to be in good shape on my linux job yeah it looks like that cover shift idea bob says paying off saves a lot of headaches you know i think he deserves some kind of boss judging from the way things are going you will probably be able to use one i have a feeling that you now suggesting a part isn't easy to keep a romance alive when you're ten thousand miles away i always dreamed that jim and alice would marry yes i thought so too she hasn't seen jim in over a year and she's with bob connors every day of the week you know i think it's possible for a girl like alice to get jim to sue i never went along with that whole idea about absence making the heart grow fonder something and side tells me that alice will never forget game and spite of your woman's intuition  know it was a cablegram i'm sure it was the shortest and most expensive proposal ever made when i tell you i knew all along this was going to happen and this is the first picture we got from him a couple of months after he landed in his mission in new guinea and this is jim and alice and their wedding day they said it was quite a celebration for them and the picture of their first baby when he was three months  about a half hour ago thank you very much goodbye mrs bradford said he was coming straight to the office i hope so he knows this best the end by eleven o'clock no chance of postponement we might just as well forget missions but only a chosen few have the qualifications and the consecration to do what jim's doing i still say he could do more for his church right here than he ever could in that god for second place god never forsake that's why i home to stay it would please david so much i used to ask myself the same question when i first came out here was homesick and miserable then when the children came and began reading about them and their future i don't know after a while you forget all about your own problems so much to do work at the mission becomes your whole life greater than any material can just about finished i didn't have any idea of all the things you did out here jim's letters never told half the story tell me frankly i was wouldn't you and you wouldn't wonder if you knew it the gospel reading means to these people they've always lived in a life of misery talked a language doesn't to them it's just like stepping into a brand new world if you could see the john play to should get some sleep can't i wish you'd stop being jim's diary i was something new something i never understood before i know it makes you feel closer to him doesn't it very page if only our people at home could be here to see the doc ness disappear under the light of god's word as was last words if i had a chance to finish his work jim understood that god's work is never finished and that others would go on with it right so wonderful to hear children's voices in the house i made myself miserable too trying to forget but now i'm dead now i find something very wonderful and in looking back the things jim did will never die knowing that i don't want to forget what of his work does live jim's dad why why was it taken away that is doing so much good completely forgotten their life over then yes i suppose they will us do you think i'm sorry i kept you waiting but it was a pleasure so you'd better better set up a meeting with rex for the first thing in the morning i want to discuss these with both of you i know that well i'll be right with both ever get over his great disappointment it will be because of them and as jesus was walking by the sea of galilee some fishermen the washing their nets in the side of the boat two of them are brothers their names were simon and that true and jesus came to them the side of their boat and he said to them i don't need and i will make you fishers know why oh yes you see what jesus meant was that the fisherman should follow him as he went from city to city helping to bring other men to it so they could learn more by his innocence suffering and death in our said he paid the ransom and won our complete release from the infernal powers of ducts that above all else is what he meant when he said divine mission here on the hour as does the task of proclaiming our unwired to all men everywhere the glorious news of their redemption through the life and death of jesus christ our l it's going to be let this go for a while i suppose so what is it done i got to get away for a while maybe for a long time but i'm sure that since bob's taken hold the two of you can get along without me you've earned a good dress on no no nothing like that but i'm going to try and pick up where jim left off you doing missionary work in a sense yes i don't get a job ever since i came back and ideas been growing in my mind i could do with my son a long time ago of course we can't all be foreign missionaries like jim but we can do something that the church has been stressing for years what's that we laymen have a job to do recently i attended a national meeting of the leaders of our church and rex i've had my eyes open and there's a great need all over the world today and perhaps i'm not too late to make people realize how vital it is i'm going to do a lot of work right here at home it's not going to be easy probably be the toughest job i ever tackled in my life it's something that would have made jim very happy know dear your mommy and bob are going to take graham to the station while i put you in jeopardy to bed and i don't think i've ever seen him so excited about anything he spent half the evening getting ready bed jodi i i can't do it your daddy did but i'm going out to tell a lot of people that the world needs the very thing your daddy did and maybe when they know they'll send more and more people all over the world to do what he wanted to there was one thing on which all of these men were agreed the financial capital which i tried to start up to now i will never do the financial patterns of the past will never do in the face of the present challenge when i came back to my own congregation i presented this problem to church comes through and i said brethren what this meeting needs right here is not another resolution but our revolution a revolution and i financial i know that i am approaching the thing out of my life but whatever time and whatever energy the good lord still gives me i am going to dedicate myself to the building that  he gave his man i'm going to go