growing up among american there's a huge tug of war with among homes that you just to be among the outsider homes the whole world is telling us to be american we live in a huge clash of cultures and slowly sometimes not even generation i think it's really good to be more money american because we're a certain like type of people living in a different world you know like our parents they came from a different place to they came from laos to come to america for a better life because of the war being on  moan but i can't read or write you know so i feel like i'm kind of in the middle ish because i understand our ways i know our ways but i can't they really do what my dad does like for like like we when they do nothing i can't really do what they do and i would like sometimes hang out with like different groups of people but i usually prefer to hang out with like my mom friends it's because i feel like we have a better connection and like we have similar thoughts and like we can we have similar we have so much similarities like to each other that we like have a better bond and we can have a better time i feel like i'm on the guest whitewash side i mean not of a connection there's more caring i guess if it's like it's more family i'm not too traditional but i also like very americanized i actually hang out with my monk friends more compared to my back and friends think it's because i'm used to being around my own people more and that's still kind of hard to be inside accepted towards the other races because it's like they don't quite understand what we're coming from and it's kind of happened to try to you but themselves in our shoes i feel like i'm more on the more white side because of how i grew up and who i saw shared myself with through the first fourteen years of my life i like to spend a lot of time with a lot of the guys that i know from churches like a lot of them guys it's i really like to hang out with them because they're just release like we have the same values and we both like you know where we can stand as a child i didn't really understand why we did or anything like that until i was like in fifth grade my dad told me like ghost stories like if you don't do it and goes to come into your house and like that that scared me you know so like that's why i grew more into shop area like i got really interested in that but my parents are really into the monk community so they know their values when it comes to meeting other men people and they know how to display a rather towards respect toward and i learn from that that's why i don't speak more as for than the as i used to because back then when i was younger i lived my grandparents with my parents and they would speak to me all the time so i guess growing up not really maintaining or hearing   certain traditions that i don't know involve also being included in the american society which is also very and fun to keep me entertained as well i feel really good actually you know because like there's a diversity of being normal too weird too you know like all the rest and i feel like being alone being all those things you know it's it's it's a different feeling but it's a good feeling i feel really proud to be like one of the first generations to be here because we're representing our parents and like it's just like really thoughtful that our parents gave us life you know and like so we can live here