two things he likes you he respects you he likes me but he thinks my views are way out of line anybody comes in contact with it will give them a different perspective on everybody this is what i want for you and i don't think that's a selfish one i really don't i'm not saying that i have this capacity because it's hard to i know one family me being brought up one way and trying to see another way is very difficult he talked to me for seven hours straight and we cried together he has made a lot of changes and this is one thing that he has discovered about himself to last year that he when he has made up his mind about something no matter what i think anybody else says that is what he's going to do and he does it i would say that probably the trucking company ran most of my life kid i mean from the time i got out of school one having first six or eight years of marriage so work was an excuse for him not to get close to the children and me it's if he did get close to us it would involve responsibility on his part and he didn't want to  son an employee and i was expecting to operate like a son they would tell you to do things without asking if you had anything to do at home or it isn't planned then after i started changing my views things had to change down there and i had a life of my own at home that had to be m now work for you and i work hard but if i don't care to work the overtime don't get so upset like one of your children that said no i don't want to go to grandma's house today and usually the secretaries on berkeley's throughout the year bring in a cake or something and either just after lunch or mid morning something like that will take a little break and seeing this guy have a birthday or given the funny part of things life  year or so ago when i started making changes and letting my beard roll and push them for more money these little extra things kind of went out the window we have the cake and party routine for everybody down there but for myself it's been skipped two years and my daughter was three months old and she didn't even write that's going to really  but i don't want to be rude to him any more than these kids are being a matter of being rude to him it's a matter of saying we are in the middle of something important you call she's already informed of what you know what is going on is it specifically not supposed to be sold to minors i got a phone call from my older sister and she wanted to know if i was smoking marijuana and i told her that i knew and she wanted to know if this is going for mean to me hard drugs and all this other stuff and i told her that i had no interest in hard drugs because i know too much about them and how dangerous they are which in turn led to a family gathering where we got quite a problem there just recently that we got the information for the situation of things from her own i decided that i would have to do things that would please me and stop trying to please other people because i else you can just close your mind and your ears to anything but if you want to get into the problems you want to help things you want to make things easier for everybody thanks a helluva lot more strength to get involved