i hope everything works out with john's business i'm sure everything will be fine your brother's always had a way of solving his own problem a very strange place really old and musty the kind of place you'd expect a ghost like to wander around in kind of a haunted castle castle  my mother was about forty when she gave birth to kathleen it was like a gift she used an apple for the starving and kathleen for me she even had a po my oldest brother john had to leave early this morning but it wiped away still here she's from america so you won't get homesick that's my bag he wasn't sure if we thought i'd stay on for a while to get to know the family and then if you couldn't make it back i just returned to new york ho superstitious but i think it's important that only the immediate members of the family should give  i might be doing that again if you frighten her away from me don't joke about that you know he has a bad heart but i know you didn't mean anything by you know i think you ought to spend more time with your wife to be an intelligent woman really noticing size people that no one are happy no when something's bothering you want to do me a little  i'm not always so morbid to see the funeral ceremonies today it's a very beautiful time you know this is all just exactly like i imagined ireland would be it rained the day the funeral every year it's been the same braless flowers in mother's collapse but that was years ago why do you keep having the same ceremony over and over again some things you don't understand yet others probably waiting to see is richard ready for the ceremony i don't know i think even in the studio simon likes to think of himself as the last of the great irish culture that dangerous running around with a gun like that i don't think it's been fired for thirty years i'm not even sure it's loaded one has to catch anything or does it he sets up snares for rabbits when he finds an empty blames  who are you lost now are you i think you'll find that you're in quite the wrong part of castle our find your good toward a point of stereo you remember well you imagine then your collapse i just can't believe that such a punctual cyclists physiological side from own lips and my distinctly affected mind i wish i could keep up with dr k to take this home and study to pound it all out on that one little piece of metal sometimes i get the feeling you think i'm some sort of the christmas tree decorations hanging up and look at me and all the happy day the box and put me in a closet when it gets gloomy you knew what i was like oh yes i knew you were crying when we first met i could next to nothing apartment watching you working and thinking for hours it's this place you  romance you have to go down a corridor or where nobody's lives in the past fifty years and up a flight of stairs where my great grand uncle or somebody tripped and broke his neck and that's the spot whe my grandfather died of a heart attack the window and there's a man climbing up the wall coming closer toward my window i yell for my mother and she comes into the room just as the man is coming in through the window i hold on to her legs crying i'm so small i only come up to await the man in the shadows you can almost recognize him but really he says then she starts laughing at grace and she takes the up in her arms runs outside and  excuse me but i could hear because he had something important to  i work and i remember six years ago you were things i never did that every one of us worked in stone my father loved teaching someone else that i didn't ago so i didn't come on drink  what's the matter where you be and i would just outside of that smoke let's get out of here i don't want anyone to see me cry