i lost two of the most important people in my life some years ago my aunt who taught me to laugh when my problems accept all forms of life and smile even when a port the most important lesson that my grandparents taught me was that god has like guardian angels around each believer i've always had a long distance relationship with god pretending to believe more than actually believing i never put too much thought into this theory until i cheated death myself on wednesday march eleventh i went for breakfast with my friends and christine i drive an old incredibly unstable jeep but on this particular day  something told me to take my mom's big s u v s instead my friends and i got pancakes at a diner and then i told them i would drive them home i dropped christine off at her house and went around the block continuing to say as i rarely wear a seat belt but as i drove i realized i wasn't used to my mom's s u v so i put it on quickly i travel on cross street until i reach the four intersection of brighton street and saying that my light was green i moved in a giant sod crashed through me weapon my body and suddenly i was four years old six and then fourteen my head lashed back shattering my driver's side window i replayed my first day of high school as class flew around my body and pierce through my face and my arms i saw my life flash before my eyes as my car spun in a circle and then rolled over four times when we stopped moving i was strapped into my seat upside down on the street i grabbed sara's hand not realizing how bloody my arm was we scream for help us pedestrians roll ran over to the overturned car see if there was any life in the vehicle i remember every upside down face of each person trying to help at this point i was positive that the car caught on fire and by the time an officer arrived i'd gone into hyperventilation i was pulled out of the car through the sunroof which had been shattered along with every other surface the paramedics immediately put a neck brace on me and placed me onto a stretcher in the ambulance i lost feeling in both of my legs and i was put into a wheelchair when we got to mount auburn emergency room i couldn't remember much about the accident but when my parents arrived it replayed in my head over and over as i memorize cat scans blood tests and spinal taps doctors pulled shards of glass out of my ears face arms and ankles i was released late that night on crutches with a fractured ankle nerve damage to both my legs and lower spine two broken ribs extensive trauma a concussion and bruising although this may sound like a lot of damage i want to have made it out of the x and alive if i hadn't been guided to drive my mom's car that day i would have gone through the windshield if something hadn't told me to put my seatbelt on as i drove around the block mom's dashboard was a tiny gold guardian angel pen that my grandparents had given to me on my first holy communion the pen was right above my head throughout the whole accident and it remained there for days after even the junkyard some days later my dad came home with the gold pen he had managed to get out of the vehicle and bring it to me it occurred to me recently that where the accident happened was right around the corner from my grandparents old house i believe that my grandparents were that there that day that they watched over me on that afternoon of march eleventh the two of them kept me alive as my guardian angels