and i live in a little town called panning out in the desert on the way to  have a small business permanent thanks maybe i will i want to go with you frank pearl i'm just going on a little vacation you know why don't you want to go without me don't you be gone just a week and i suppose you just made up your mind to take this little vacation at nine o'clock this morning you know what i meant to tell you about a few days ago i guess i forgot oh you forgot poland don't be like that and don't be like what you just drop a little announcement that you're going away not tomorrow or next week or next month but today no explanations nothing and i'm supposed to spot of the excuse that you need a little vacation i just want to get away from town for a few days that's so get away from this town and get away from me paula please try to understand how can you ask me to understand anything like this no i'm sorry but i don't understand san francisco but don't expect me to be waiting for you when you get back  me why do you do this to me frank why can't you be honest with me as honest as i am with you do you have to go i have to go before i know what i'm doing i already got to go anywhere you like you can go to maybe you do need to speak away alone maybe we both do i know what's going on inside of you frank you just like any other man only a little more so you have a feeling of being tapped hemmed in and you don't know whether or not you're like music all right frank keep it a secret from me i look through all the accounts otherwise you'll just have to wait until i get home but what i want to say is that there's nothing you can do that you ever have to feel guilty about that i know you're lonely in a big city you don't have to go into routine with me and i could company to dr it's kind of hard to describe the feelings it was the drinks i had last night i might have mixed them too much and let's have another look at that throat soul in san francisco what is your home but is this dr weil a question you are very sick man mr bigelow sick but you told me i was in good shape yes i know but my preliminary examination didn't reveal your true condition you sound as if it's pretty serious that anyone can do this is one of the fuel poisons of its type for which there is no antidote was just fantastic this is the most ridiculous thing you don't have very long and you need a day a day to day there's nothing that can be done now it had been caught in time your stomach could've been washed out but you've had a few for some time now for at least twelve hours i want you to go i don't know you don't no write it's the phillips importing and exporting company that very building los angeles bradbury building most angeles that's right and it's really a switch because if you want to reach me wasn't in my office at the time and he wouldn't tell my secretary i'm afraid i can't be of much help mr big know i know idea why mr phillips tied to reach you i'm sorry you had to make the trip for nothing do you know i made a trip i didn't say anything about making a trip i phillips have a wife family anyone that could help me to try to intrude on people at a time like this just to satisfy some periodicity it isn't just curiosity and i suggest you wait a week or so i can't wait i'm sorry you'll have to i was always a phone book get up pretty aggressive fellow big low i guess how they come to just about everything did your husband ever mention anything about mean this is phillips anything at all no i can't recall you ever having mentioned  i hate to ask you this mrs phillips but it's of vital importance to me do you know why your husband committed suicide are certainly not the most diplomatic person in the world are you big now are you a friend of my brother's i never met him realized i was aware of his friendship with my recouping it how to respect for him i never intended to tell anybody i had no idea that he had anything to do with the traveling with him i had my discretion so you never heard of george reynolds and don't try to tell me that this isn't it because i've seen him if you think you can scare me you're quite look i know that phillips came here yesterday and right after he left he was pushed out of a six story window pushed phillips committed suicide playmate runnels murdered phillips and i went up to san don't get any ideas because i'm not afraid to use this given your wallet beginning to annoy me so get out before i throw you out you know you really frighten  i'm afraid you have been sidetracked provided you just through that somebody made an attempt on your life somebody made an attempt again today i have no reason to care if you believe me do you mean you had no reason i know to rise to certain but let's problem you're not too much and i am in danger just steps of those that are able to prove to you that i only want to find the person who tried to kill me and i won't cause you any trouble you know i can go to jail for ten years for this little business ten i'm going to enjoy it right paul and i'm not in any trouble in lying frank right after i spoke to you i got a phone call from the san francisco police they asked if i knew where you were you didn't tell them anything to of course it was a homicide  was a little blind i guess but believe me i'm sure now can you understand that porn and women can be like that told something has to happen it can be a big thing or a little thing but it can make them realize how much someone means to much  when my photographs appeared in your newspapers i was called a souvenir of death the police however tag me exhibit a as a matter of fact i am an automatic pistol special modified type thirty eight caliber manufactured in germany under the mauser french charges that fact is killing range three hundred young as a war trophy however i story began in nineteen forty four since my sole function is to puncture the human body it appears i was to have a new  for nothing but a paper weight i don't care what you get that gun is not staying another night in this house you don't understand it's harmless now anyway it's got a lot of memories for me rusty had a lot of memories for all of us souvenir people wait no one seems to know and sure enough after a few months richard tossed me into a poker game at the value of four dollars my next owner promptly traded me in as part payment on a price had now risen to eleven dollars which he was a skilful machinist and after supplying me with new parts i was transferred to owner number grip and one could feel a certain professional regard for his attitude in person it had the eyes of a man who can appreciate a good weapon said this character was also a confederate by knew some thirty minutes before closing time the manager collected his winnings but my latest owner had expressed the interesting theory gambling is wrong if you can come by the money more direct sale well you understand i presume that this sort of thing is my profession precisely as playing with a match causes it to burn your fingers so playing oh well you understand so into the company of many members of my military family and innocent keep saying now referred to officially as exhibit three three one fi done with your coffee and don't rush me will you show and if you don't like it you don't have to listen to it and you can leave any time you want ok ok i'm sorry first good piece played tonight you don't like it some people just ain't got any good taste i was there always that rotten to follow me around beating in my it never letting up ever want to forget anything did you ever want to cut away a p c a memory or blotted out you can't and no matter how hard you try you can change the scenery but sooner or later you'll get a with a perfume with somebody will say a certain phrase or maybe h something that you can't believe that you're in love with me i used to love that song it's sort of the customs beckon you know break of dawn of the new york i can't remember a night when i didn't get at least three requests for it too she was always selling it to those were the  it wasn't much of a club really you know the kind of joint where you could have a sandwich and a few drinks and run interference for your girl on the dance floor the piano in there every night from eight until the place closed up which usually meant four in the morning a good job was jobs money in those days soon made working there and i don't like working in heaven but how we felt about each other well there was nothing very unusual in that i was an ordinary healthy guy and she was an ordinary healthy girl and when you add those two together you get an ordinary healthy romance which is the old story sure but somehow the most wonderful thing in the world ever heard of don't you know millions of people go out there every year and wind up publishing cuspidors about you had better sense you sound as if you don't think i have any talent that has nothing to do with it on the way out all right maybe but what about me doesn't mean anything to you that you're busting up all our plans we may not see each other for years it won't be that long i thought you loved me you know  and i thought of something she honey that's tough those guys out in hollywood don't know the real thing when it's right in front of them you just stick it out sue baby keep going around us casting offices i'm sure your click out now don't try to stop me just expect me to train when i was trained plain bus magic carpet i'll be there if i have to crawl out to travel by pogo stick and then let's get married right away way i could cross country number rise or even after hiking everything out he had no money to eat money you know what that is the stuff you never have enough little green things with george washington's picture that men slave for it done any good strike and it's not much fun believe me oh yeah i know all about how it's an education and how you get to meet a lot of people and all that but me from now on i'll take my education in college  coming rides may save your bus fare but it's dangerous you never know what's in store for you to the squeal of brakes if only i'd known what i was getting into that day in arizona you know emily post ought to write a book or rules for a guy something rides because as it is now you never know what's right what's wrong and rode along for a little while neither one of the same i was glad of that and i never know what to say to strange people driving cars into you can never tell if a guy wants to do a lot of writers have been cut short because of a big whoop so i kept my mouth shut until he started opening up at them because he said made me lose my head i guess i began slashing for i know it i put the other kids and was tough i was just an axe of course job kids i get scared to sad i was going to run away from home haskell what's the matter are you hurt or you hurt mr hasbrook starters i listen to it but i know what you're going to hand even before you open your mouths you're going to tell me you don't believe my story of  case i was stuck for something i didn't like to think about that time i'd done just what the police would say i did even if i did i close the owner such an expensive car will never  i kept imagining i was being followed but i could hear sirens back in the distance just how long it took me to cover the sixty five miles to the california state line i don't know i lost all track of time but the rain had stopped and the sun was  there was no time to lose and every minute i had to be charles haskell was dangerous not have to be trials has to go until i got to some city where i could leave the car and be swallowed up that meant driving the car as far as san bernardino maybe even to los angeles and a little town i might be noticed but in a city i should be safe enough then after i ditched the car i could go on the suv but those five minutes of the state line made me realize it might be a good idea to find out a little bit about mr s and if anybody asked me questions i could give the right answers the first thing i found out was that i had seven hundred sixty eight dollars this was a lot of jack but believe me it was a kind of money i'd rather not have and then i found out from a letter haskell was carting around in his bag that he wasn't the open hand and easy going big shot the one around buying dinners for strange hitchhikers before i got done reading and i saw him more as a chess player it was written to his old man  california one he hadn't seen in so many in it haskell posed as a salesman of hymnals of all things it was easy to see where haskell expected to raise a new stake for his book in miami years old man that was about all i found out from his affects and it was enough i told myself maybe old man haskell was lucky his son kicked off he would never know if you want to ride a man she looked as if she'd just been thrown off a crummy as freight train in the world yet in spite of this i got the impression of beauty not the beauty of a movie actress mind you or the beauty you dream about when you're with your wife but a and it all came back to talk about doing scars and scratches it was no doubt about a girl must be the woman has to have mentioned she must have passed me while i slept well and well i'm waiting i've been around and i know wrong guy when i see one but you do the same with the wrench now wait a minute what i told you was true you see that's what i have to do and you think i killed him well the cops would have thought so too yeah well maybe they still think so but makes you so sure i'll shut i'm crazy somebody else's car here i want to do is leave it somewhere and forget i ever saw it not only don't you have any screw but you don't have any brains and i'll get you maybe it's a good thing you met me get it got yourself caught sure why you don't don't you know what deserted automobile few hours later we were in hollywood i was recognizing places suing written about it struck me that far from being at the end of the trip there was a greater distance between sue and me than when i started out here i wasn't kidding with that siamese twins greg she rented a little apartment as mrs charles haskell and i objected to this she explained it was on account of the car dealer might think something was funny because i'm from her using different name i'm first in the bathtub i don't know why but i figured you would be the wish that guy with the sex would give up you think of i'm tired of thinking there's plenty of people die in this minute i would give anything to trade places with you i know what i'm talking about i'm not so sure we brought each other with conversation for a couple of hours longer every five minutes one of us was wishing we had another bottle or a radio or something to read then finally we ran out of chap i know it's only eleven o'clock and i want to get up early and make hello hello i'm sure do but let's go let's go let's go i've been eighty five bucks in two hours to fair and they know you can say is let's go come on we've had a few used car lots last night down this way what do you think we can get for the table i don't know plenty let me handle everything they when get to found out i don't know but don't worry a squeeze as much of this guys i can either go cheap without a well if it's in good mechanical condition it should bluebook for about sixteen hundred twenty take a look at the smaller sixteen hundred  the mechanic inspected the car we had last we were all worn out we had a compromise his price papers there i don't see any sure you know what type of insurance you carry in the car the name of the company but well if you just tell me the name of the company i'd be very glad to take care of all the details go got me out of a tight spot but i still don't understand all this you know well the minute i almost threw away a gold mine eight hundred fifty isn't to be sneezed at the car doesn't look for as much as i thought when i'm selling a car you want to keep it now wait a minute girl you said yourself i no one could possibly get away with an act like that be wise to me in a minute don't think you look enough like the same coloring in the same building see i was close fits the can you almost had me fooled for a while oh grow up vera so you think a father knows his own son and they must be other as tough as it sounds remember you got all kinds of it up occasionally his car letters like i could never get away with the stupidest thing i've ever heard the old boy had scads of gold look in the paper their personal fortune assessed over fifty million he'll leave plenty of time maybe cut off his son how will something tells me but as much as i insisted i would have no part of a scheme there was taking it for granted i would neither of us got our mind on the cards we played that night and that's why people wind up behind the eightball once they get a few dollars to become greedy and one more season oh you know that roman general he got his for being greedy he wasn't satisfied with the final wind up was he took the count a couple of days ago you didn't sure you wouldn't do that well wouldn't get no show you if i would take it easy now let's talk this over this was early in the evening and the conversation while hectic was at least pitched low but as the minutes passed more obstacles to a plan popped better not get caught what evidence there was around the place had to be destroyed from the looks of things there was plenty looking around the room and things with blood was like looking into the faces of a hundred people had seen us together and who remembered me this was the kind of testimony i couldn't rub i was cooked for i had to get out of there by one side remain beside a dead body and carefully how to avoid being accused of killing him this time i couldn't this time and was  i was in bakersfield before i read that girl's body was discovered that the police were looking for haskell in connection with his wife's murder isn't that a laugh asco got me into this mess and haskell was getting me out of it the police were searching for a dead man i keep trying to forget what happened and wonder what my life might have been if that escalus have been stopped but one thing i don't have to wonder about i know