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  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my doctor think that sertaline is better for anxiety but my fatigue specialist insists that citalopram is anyone with real life experience of either or both happy to share their opinion thanks",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "must be depression fr",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this ha ruined my life the only thing keeping me from killing myself is my baby boy his mother manipulates me she s emotionally abusive and i don t know how to stand up to her i can t i m so afraid she ll take him away from me i can t keep doing this and i can t kill myself but i think i will i think he ll be better off without me i m a mess my finance are a mess my emotion i can barely take care of my own thing i m in so much turmoil i constantly fantasize about offing myself and every few day i sit there with a gun to my head and i just can t do it i think of my boy and then the pain is worse fyi we were engaged and shit fell apart for good last year october we still live together because we have a lease on a house and housing right now is a bitch nothing available so i m trapped here",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am no job no career suffering from severe depression and anxiety for year therapy med nothing help suffered emotionaly since teenage now m here all alone no one close totally done with life and thinking to end it thank u for reading",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "endearingevania i sure wish i could go with you guy tmrw but a per usual school interferes",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "bed is painfully tempting right now but if i take a nap i ll probably wake up at pm",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just called out of work today i m feeling like i let everyone down which i know isn t the case at least i recognize the anxiety",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t feel like myself anymore and i don t think i can be fixed not a day go by where i wish i didn t wake up again i don t know what s wrong and i ve been trying so hard to be better i just can t do it anymore i m so sorry",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i live in my bedroom weekend burn by fast with me playing video game i bought a new car but lack will to learn how to get comfortable with it i want to do thing but i don t want to drive myself to these place in fear of crashing into something and my job is easy and amazing pay but somehow i find a way to disdain it and my coworkers i want to start dating again but all the sudden i ve become embarrassed of who i am i feel like i m boring and not really interesting to talk to my coworkers like to find my insecurity and turn it into a joke for everyone and i haven t done anything to them i m just there i feel like i m losing my grip on reality sometimes and just want to end it forever and if i did nothing of value would be lost and nobody would really care i m afraid of change yet i want it so much at the same time i just wish i were a more outgoing person who doesn t let other s word get to me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my dad killed himself and it left me with a feeling like i want to kill everyone in my family who s moved on since then i m his only child my brother is now a stranger to me my mother is my father s killer i am his only survivor i want to kill myself",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "grrr my ipod acting weird too jai ho and thinking of you aren t playing the full song ughh",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sitting seb and waiting for hour bad customer service",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ha anyone had really intense brain fog this year i mean it s been pretty bad before but i genuinely can t remember stuff and relative time is confusing sometimes a day feel like a week or i ll think i discussed something with someone on monday and it s been week and they ve been waiting for me to follow up i ll be halfway through making a decision and it take me forever bc my brain get stuck and then i forget what i wa even trying to decide",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my anxiety is so bad right now i have been vomiting and have bad pain in my stomach and abdomen lot of sweating and extreme issue sleeping last night i didn t fall asleep until am and woke up at am in a complete panic eating is very difficult for me right now and i have a sense of impending doom constantly is there anything any of you do that help with this how can i bring this up with my doctor without being committed or something should i get a short supply of benzos to get through this time i just need some advice thank you",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ive been struggling with my mental health for a really long time even throughout secondary school the only thing is ive always pushed it down and gotten away with achieving my academic expectation despite how im struggling ive never told anyone about my problem not even my mum i guess i never wanted to worry her and also took alot of pride in being able to handle myself and not needing help from anyone i guess the combination of leaving it untreated and uni stress ha made it get worse and worse to the point it spiralled out of control i dont know the last time i actually ate a meal rather than just snack food all day the light is broken in my bathroom and i cant call maintenance to fix it because of the state of my dorm i have a nocturnal sleeping schedule and i rarely shower or leave my room i cant apply for special circumstance and try to finish the year because i cant even get out of bed let alone catch up on load of work and missed assignment i really just need to go home and eliminate the stress in order to seek medical treatment and get better but i dont know how to break it to my mum because she think im perfectly fine like how doe it go from being completely okay to me being in a full blown crisis just like that for her it not that i dont think she ll understand but i feel like im a completely different person than who she see no idea of anyone will see this but id really appreciate some advice support because ive never spoken to anyone about my mental health and idk what to do",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m having a panic attack so i can t sleep distracting myself with tv and internet hope this go away soon",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been on this for week and still barely have an appetite i even got nauseous going to the grocery store today is this normal ha anyone else experienced this it s been great for my mood and communication but it mess with my diet i don t even want to consume food really keep in mind though i did used to emotionally eat",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "some backstory i have crohn s disease but am currently in remission so physically and health wise i ve been doing well the combination of medication that i m on seem to be doing their job and overall i feel pretty good so over the last year and a half or so i ve developed this awful anxiety habit of being terrified that i m suddenly going to get sick and need to shit and not be able to find a bathroom when i m out and about and it s taken a toll on my everyday life i can not leave the house for work in the morning without returning the bathroom sometimes more time before i finally work up the courage to get out the door because i m terrified that somewhere along my minute commute i m going to feel the urge and not be able to get to a bathroom fast enough the thing is if i m just at home all day i likely will only have to shit probably once but if i even think about leaving the house i instantly have to go to the bathroom if i have plan i have to schedule my day around how much time im going to need to spend in the bathroom before i can leave i have to feel like i ve emptied out a much a possible before i can get in the car i don t even hang out with friend or date anybody anymore because the stress of this situation is just too much taking my kid to the beach or the park ugh if i m not 00 positive there will be a public restroom available there we aren t going and i hate that it s not only affecting me but thing like that are and will continue to affect my daughter if i don t get a grip on it soon another example of this is i have the opportunity to send her to a much better school and one of the thing that s holding me back is i m terrified of what morning drop off will look like that i don t think there s bathroom available for parent to access during those time the business around the school aren t open that early to access it start earlier so i ll have to leave earlier to drop her off thus leaving me le time to sit on the toilet before we head out etc etc it feel so stupid but to me it s so real i don t even know how to really put it all into word the anxiousness i feel about it it s such a weird thing that i don t really know how to talk to anyone about because i ve never met someone else with this kind of issue doe anyone else struggle with this i feel like i don t even remember what life felt like before i developed this weird anxiety around it my life feel like it revolves around knowing where the bathroom is sorry for the long post this wa kind of a looking for support asking for help needing to vent post thanks for reading if you got this far sorry i rambled on a bit i don t even know where to start",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hmm the work is not easy wasted two hour for a silly mistake now one system is too slow",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am on the verge of going absolutely insane i can not take being alive anymore i am a prisoner in my own life i feel dead and so alive at the same everyone in my city at my age is either weird rude or awkward modern human are weak impulsive and oblivious i hate my generation and i hate how the internet ha ruined my life and so many others around me i feel like i am living in hell and i want to die nobody is at my level nobody understands how hard i try every person alive is a weak worm that deserves to die",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hippychick clarkes shoe don t fir her they don t go small enough for her foot we have to go to specialist shoe shop",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "garygensler secgov aarp finra fordhamlawnyc miamilawschool gary people don t care what they want is clarity on crypto the howie test is outdated and became precedent in an era before the internet even existed let alone the blockchain the sec continues to behave like we have just come out the great depression stifling innovation",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "recently wa diagnosed with gad and though i kind of knew i had some sort of anxiety disorder my whole life being diagnosed motivated me to stop avoiding and confront everything i started going to therapy and i learned a lot about myself but the more i practice mindfulness the more i ve come to hate myself i ve spent my whole life constantly caring so much about what others thought of me that i never stepped out of my comfort zone i feel like i have no sense of self identity i convinced myself throughout high school that i wa okay being alone and bypassed a bunch of opportunity i would ve never admitted it out loud before but i realized have such a low self esteem most problem i have created in my life is a result of me it s not like i didn t know this from before hand but admitting it ha made the thought more prevalent i don t know why i feel worse in this sense after getting a diagnosis",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it just make me happy over and over again i wish i wan t afraid to fly http tinyurl com skpp",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "about to go looking for shoe for my brother looking forward to torquay in april not a sunny a yesterday here",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "iamdepr 9 have you talked to anyone about how you feel mentalhealth depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i feel like i shouldn t but i do i m tired and i m tired of being tired i m tired of feeling like i m broken and that i can t do anything right i m tired of feeling like i m in the wrong place and time and i m tired of hating everything i really hate everything most of all me i m tired of feeling alone i m fucking tired of it all i don t know what to do but i know i can t keep up with being a smiling shell i m going to fucking break if i have to keep trying",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "let s hope the sore throat clear up before the break and is not a pre cursor to illness over the holiday",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "feeling down",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have a friend group at school yet i feel lonely and helpless i have anxiety and depression i ve always been a big guy 9 0 pound and i ve always been bullied for it i can t get a girlfriend because i m ugly and socially awkward i can t focus on school because i m always tired i can t talk to anyone about my feeling because i hate letting people into my bubble i miss the happy and innocent me at young age my mom left me with my grandma i hate to think what s gon na happen once she dy i hate myself i m ashamed of myself i wan na kill myself i m such a pussy i m afraid that god is real and i ll be punished i m afraid that when i die it will all be black and boring i don t know what s gon na happen if i do it if i fail straight to a hospital if my life doesn t get better i ll do it i hope if i do it i ll be reborn a someone normal and start over",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "missed brent at praise band no fun to not have the your lead guitarist lt pout gt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "added the dns system compatibility is okay and am looking forward to the possibility now open but i need to rework the intro sequence",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im getting diagnosed with pure ocd and my doctor told me i most likely have an anxiety disorder a well i never put myself in stressful situation so i dident really think about it i dropped out of school",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "kremsersenf away from tubingen and the germ yes away from friend not so much",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my lifestyle and world view for sure seem like a depressed person no motivation almost everything i do is anxiety driven privately my life is a mess and who doesn t feel like we re all screwed nowadays however i usually feel happy or content at any given moment i kinda just don t think about the problem and vibe i m usually having a pretty decent time i m not often sad or cry thinking about the future is upsetting and overwhelming but i try not to i keep getting diagnosed with depression i can kinda see it but usually when i see depression represented it s either with sadness or with no feeling and talk like not enjoying music or anything i still enjoy stuff though is this a thing do others feel this way edit i started lexapro today and went searching for ppl to relate to but i feel kinda alienated from others who are depressed i feel like bringing my energy to other depressed folk would just make them feel worse about feeling bad",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "where is my phone amp good food aaaaaaaaah",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m 0 and i m reverting back to my year old self hahahahahahahhahahahahahhaahahah fuck my life i hate everything i just want to not exist",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have always hated myself and have attempted suicide several time for the past year since my last attempt what had kept me going ha been focusing on changing myself to become someone i can stand a long a changing and improving myself felt possible death didn t seem like the only answer to escape who i am despite covid i have liked myself more in the past year than ever before because i felt like i wa actually making progress on becoming a good person in therapy so it felt even more do able then four week ago my therapist told me that all this time therapy hasn t been working he reduced the amount of therapy i receive per week because i wa relying on it too much to enact the change it wa immediately clear after the change that he wa right i m the exact same piece of shit i ve always been i wa just able to be better because of his help a soon a it wa removed i went right back to how i wa before i feel so foolish humiliated and defeated i feel like i ve been in the desert racing desperately towards an oasis for the past two year only to discover it wa just a mirage all along death really is the only way to escape being who i am",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dachesterfrench i emailed you yesterday and u never responded",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "moony 9 i ll miss him too bb the episode seemed unimportant after foreteen found kutner so i stopped watching",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "morning bah car won t start waiting for the anwb",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theresev solen var inge varm",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it day one of my ivf injection so let the fun begin",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m doing my homework it s gosh darn hard",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the title pretty much sum up everything i turned a couple of day ago and i ve been dealing with my depression etc for a couple of year now and i ve been feeling completely hopeless about my future and everything else i just want to disappear forever",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "many time when i want to end the suffering i think of committing suicide or other method to alleviate the pain such a starting to smoke drink drug there are time that i think that one of these method can help me get through the bad moment i am going through but there is always something that in the end prevents me because deep down i know that none of that will help me and that i join it that i can continue fighting a i do and the day will come when i will be free",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t know how anything work anymore my brain feel like it ha dementia forgetful literal lack of intelligence and critical thinking skill i don t know how school work don t know basic math never had relationship and feel incredibly out of place and inferior to the rest of the general population that s my age half of the people living in my building are my age now i m so fucking suicidal everyday i m just waiting to die",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my website is down",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have achieved a good outcome a a manager gave me good comment and feedback however there s this thought in my head that s saying he ll rethink his decision and realise that the praise given wasn t warranted i feel like this worry is uncalled for but it s causing me distress doe anyone know how to deal with this type of thought",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "amidst the conflict among ukraine and russia in a contention and testing climate when there wa a ton of disturbance doubt disarray and depression in the security exchange subscriberuchisoyafpo",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "poor sandra cantu my heart go out to her family and friend rest in peace little one",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is afraid that her g i note will not read themselves",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "slept badly still feel like hell but maybe not a bad a yesterday why am i always ill when i take time off work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "carmonium i m stressed outttt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "astewart oh my gosh that made me emotional haha idk why i dont want to get old",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t want to be cold in april but i am",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "brodhe geez ur no fun are you",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am in my office s toilet for about an hour now and i can not stop cry i wa having a good day for a change after a really long time in a while but one bad moment wa enough to push me into this mess i have been trying to make myself stop from cry because i need to go back to my desk but these stupid tear won t stop and my eye look bloodshot right now and i forgot my eye drop in my purse life suck",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "shrooms and chocolate bar edible good for depression and anxiety ht http t co dz9jxhaant",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just cause my depression not kicking my as like it use to don t mean i m not still dealing with it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ran out of ativan and have been waiting for my refill i also didn t understand the danger of taking it until now i can t really remember how long of a period i wa taking it i ve been prescribed 0 which i take of them every night to fall asleep i am sure i have had break because once my prescription run out i normally take some herbal stuff my question is i am day without ativan do i just quit cold turkey or keep taking it goal is not to be taking ativan anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i feel like i m having a panic attack which i ve had before i m all alone and normally that would be very bad but this time is different i think i might be disassociating or something because i m restless like a panic attack and my heart is racing and my brain is off the rail but i m also completely emotionless i can t even make myself cry or smile or yell or anything anyone know what s happening any word of wisdom or love would be greatly appreciated because this is gon na be a long scary night for me i think",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "some hacked my account on aim now i have to make a new one",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "there is someone in my life i need to have a conversation with i tell myself i really need to do this to answer the question i keep asking myself and if it doesn t get better then i ll know it s time to cut them out i know i have to do this it will make everything better and solve the problem i got myself ready to start this conversation under the thought that a long a i m trying to communicate it s a win in my book i open the chat and think about typing and i tell myself why even bother it doesn t matter he doesn t care to hear your thought and when you do tell him he s not going to want to fix the problem it s so frustrating because i know what the problem is and how to fix it and i can t i don t know how to take the next step",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this doesnt feel real anymore i dont feel like myself everything is the absolute worst it can be and it just doesnt feel right to be alive i feel like im in a coma or a dream and i ll just wake up when this is all over i just want that to happen a soon a possible",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dynoisthename haha you better watch those two they might actually kill each other",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s been a year since mark speight died a year go so fast",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m quite a nervous talker anyway i m not toooo bad if it s close friend or my mum but co worker and stranger like supermarket worker or customer i stutter quite a lot but like today i ve had to work at a really busy pub i do mainly cleaning there alongside my main job i used to work at the pub full time but now i just help them out and i feel mentally numb it ha been especially busy today because of a big town wide event we even had to have staff from other pub help being a chain of pub i also wanted to be sick and cry a couple of time and it s just from the sheer amount of people and the amount of contact i have to have with some people i ve been invited out to watch a game tonight i enjoy watching rugby and i m still in two mind whether i can face going",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "coke zero mobile site broken on iphone anyway http twitpic com y xp",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ll have all the equipment by thursday i ve worked out how much rent to send my flatmate to cover a couple month i m getting rid of my clothes by the end of the week i ve written some letter and am going to print out a sheet of my important detail i m dreading it so much but i also can t wait time feel so slow and agonising and every time i fall asleep i think what a waste it is to be unconscious and not die in that comfort i don t feel like anyone will miss me but the hard part is i don t want anyone to have to deal with any admin i don t want anyone to have to plan anything it ll be good to go but i hate the fact that someone will have to clean after me i wish i could just disappear instead life is really hard and i don t know how people do it i never understood how people make friend or fall in love or make other people like them i watch people learn to hate me and i don t know what i m doing wrong or how to stop it i ve been alone for my life even my parent didn t want me and i ll be alone for the rest of it if i stay alive i wish i had something good to offer that people liked but i don t know what anyone want or how to give it to them i don t know what they hate either apparently because i m giving them that without even realising",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "fuck la circulation ce mat",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve posted here many time under many different name my cat is dying a of the moment and i can t do anything about it i wish i could take him to a vet but i don t have the capacity to take him there my internship is starting next week and i won t have any money until i receive my first pay check next month it s so hard to see him suffer he s the only one that tether me to this world i wish i could die with him he took me out of depression and i can t do anything for him in return he s the only reason why i continue to fight i continue to feed and make him drink with a syringe he hate it when others do it but he trust me his life i wish i could tell him i m sorry that couldn t do anything i love you i ll have my final interview in an hour i know it s selfish for me to say i wish i get through it when he s the one dying i don t know where else to share it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i can t stand the constant shitty feeling of depression in my chest head and stomach idk how to put it into word but pretty sure every depressed person know what i mean i can t shake the feeling and everything is starting to get under my skin and send me into such a downwards spiral of overthinking and overanalyzing everything so much to the point that i overanalyze feeling sad in the first place and minimize my own feeling i m not motivated to do anything except sit around like a blob and waste time and space my fiance is a blessing and doe so much to make me feel better but he can t be my savior and it s been so hard just to get through the work day and go through the motion i know it s temporary and will pas cause that s the illness but i feel so awful and helpless rn i forgot what i m supposed to do i hope typing this out will make me feel better thanks so much for reading and have a wonderful night",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello i age have been feeling like i m going crazy these past month after i got my first panic attack i been having all kind of symptom like not feeling my hand before the panic attack but now i been getting disoriented feeling like im like a camera stuck in my head looking at mirror and not feeling properly like myself if i look to the side of me i get scared even yesterday night before sleeping i had a moment that my brain thought i wa doing something and i actually wa believing that i wa doing it for split second been feeling like my heart is dropping a lot my brain skip moment and this all concern me is this all anxiety",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "what a fucked up little world we are living in",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "preferably without becoming addicted",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "depression in construction is partly due to big company piling relentless pressure on worker and making it clear they can be easily replaced the moment they wear out bbcmorninglive totally hold the employer responsible bbcmorninglive",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "jaxtartwitch denismcmichael stats feed well being informed and suffering from depression are two different aspect",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "missed the gig",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "while hungover and puking in the shower i would often congratulate myself for being witty at a party the previous night wasn t it so funny when i yelled who care about the planet anyway while i puked into the recycling people laughed for year before my first drink i hated myself for being socially inept i hate being shy when i drink i m not shy after eight year of heavy drinking i began to accept that what i wa feeling wa social anxiety and it wa not going away after another two year i began to accept that i had developed a new problem while trying to overcome anxiety another two year i finally quit drinking on my rd day sober i admitted to myself that i hate the person i am when i drink i ve spent 0 year hating the person i am when i m sober so where doe this leave me now day 0 of my sobriety wa friendsgiving sara made bourbon sweet potato that tasted too strongly of bourbon i always preferred rye whiskey i spent a lot of that night sucking a fruit flavored vape pen the vice i took up in lieu of drinking on our way home tolemy apologized for getting too drunk but i didn t mind he remembers better than i do all the time i got too drunk",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "quick question is anyone taking buspirone and did you need to go up on your dosage i ve been taking 0mg twice daily but it feel like it s not working a well a it wa say a week ago i ve been on it for week i would really appreciate your feedback thank you all",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the 0 halsey melanie martinez troye sivan lana to 0 depression pipeline",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "you are doing enough just let yourself take a break",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it sprained so glad im on holiday",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m 9 and haven t done anything with my life i ve disappointed everyone in my life the woman i thought i wa gon na marry left me and won t even talk to me anymore i started therapy and medication again a few month ago but it only doe so much i don t really have any friend i work only a few day a week and can barely handle that i don t find pleasure out of anything anymore i don t have anyone to turn to and everyone who ever loved me ha either left me or died all i do is sit home alone and try to distract myself the best i can but i honestly see no light at the end of the tunnel i know it s pathetic but i swear i m trying the best i can but i don t know how much longer i can",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just been playing with the new mobbler v0 0 and it add some great new feature but won t play music on my e like v0 did",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "posting because this medication ha had an incredible impact for me in a very short time and i think that s worth sharing in case it can help anyone else who suffers from anxiety i wa prescribed propranolol 0mg xr per day a little over one week ago primarily for enhanced physiologic tremor my doctor did also suspect that it would help with some physical symptom of anxiety that i have including elevated hr general muscle tension flushing shortness of breath my anxiety had become so bad over the last year that i have essentially become unable to rock climb which wa previously my favorite activity and stress reliever due to extreme fear shaking freezing up and compulsive checking of equipment well i don t want to get too excited in case thing change a my body acclimates to the drug but so far it really feel like this medication ha changed my life i honestly am starting to feel like myself again in so many way the tension in my shoulder and muscle that ha just become standard for me in the day to day ha been released my tremor is significantly reduced i feel like a weight ha been lifted off of my body i have rock climbed a couple of time since i started the medication and the excessive fear response is all but eliminated no more shaking no more locking up it s pretty amazing i can t even begin to express how huge of a deal this is i wa not expecting this at all i had no idea that this med would have such a significant impact on my anxiety i expected a reduced tremor and hr but nothing more i know that this med ha no impact on the actual mental process but my symptom of anxiety have always been primarily physical it seems a though reducing the tension and heart rate and shaking ha allowed everything else to relax a well i am sure not everyone will have the same experience and who know it could change for me with time but for the time being this med ha been a game changer for me so far i have had no negative side effect not even low bp which i have always had issue with my regular bp is often 9 0 and this med doesn t appear to have changed that in any way despite reducing my hr",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m so sick of being in a state of breakdown and every hotline i call treat me like dogshit hang up on me like nobody fucking care and i can t take rejection after rejection after fucking rejection when nobody s ever accepted me for who i am or loved me even once all i ever do is fuck up and nobody forgives even my tiny mistake they all fucking hate me and i m sick of everyone being disgusting or selfish little slimebags get a fucking life and fuck off and quit making mine worse just because you aren t shit i can t take it i really can t take it i mean really i wa beaten nearly to death and i get hotline idiot telling me to be quiet and quit cursing like fuck you fuck you to the bastard death you useless asshole doe anyone have a shred of empathy i don t give a fuck i just wish someone gave a shit",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ladyerlynne awwww you could always post in the transfig classroom with sharmila",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "back at the office still only day until another long weekend",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this isn t the normal kind of post i would write and my follower are probably going to leave because of this but here i am most of the time i have the thought in passing if i were dead i wouldn t have to deal with all of this or life is just too hard i wish i wasn t here lately thing in my life have gotten really bad i had a miscarriage in january it sucked because my husband and i had been trying to get pregnant for a long time and had been told that it wasn t going to be possible without intervention or weight loss or both but there we were pregnant and all of a sudden not pregnant i spent the last year dealing with some drama at work that took me over the edge more than a few time i wanted to kill myself so badly but i never told anyone about it i d mention to my therapist that i wa having the suicidal thought and he d check in but i reassured him that i d be ok and he would remind me of all the time i had been here before and gotten out of it now i m looking at a tough situation at home i am not going to go into detail about it but thing are hard at the moment and i find myself feeling trapped unwanted and like more of an annoyance than anything it suck to feel that way in your own home i honestly don t know what i m doing any more and the suicidal thought are getting more real and more pervasive i am finding it hard to stay in a good place i m finding it hard to think logically about it all i feel is desperation and a strong desire to just end it to be done with the fight of having to live with constant depression and anxiety just having rest from that would be a relief but also i know i shouldn t do it life suck and it shouldn t be this hard wish i could feel loved supported and like my life actually matter yet here i am",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "what are some thing i should get in order before i go i d like to either sell or toss most of my thing plan on paying off the little debt i have writing goodbye making sure nobody see anything traumatic what are some thing one would do or not do before death not looking for help or pitty just something i might be forgetting thanks",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "for starter i never really had a childhood when i wa my parent would constantly fight and eventually got divorced at the time i did not really understand and thought that my mom and dad needed space from each other well i never learned that they would never get back together until my dad remarried to a woman with son all older than me and my younger brother now my stepmother wa horrible to me and my brother this included being locked in the same room with my brother the whole day one meal per day a gate in the bedroom doorway so that neither of u could go to the bathroom or get a drink of water now i wa not always in my room i would go outside sometimes but i would be locked outside by my stepmother whenever i told my father about it he either did not believe me or shrugged it off a a mistake my mother wa not any better than my father she never remarried but wa extremely lazy and never cleaned the house she also never gave any discipline either so i wa free to do whatever i wanted then when i wa thing in my childhood got a lot harder when we found out my younger brother ha severe autism now thing switched from me getting some attention from my parent to none at all i wa now treated like a second rate child by almost everyone now whenever it wa my birthday and wanted to go somewhere we had to plan it to make sure that my brother would also enjoy going there because if he did not then my birthday would be cut very short not on y that the present were even unfair and i know it sound like i am just being selfish but is it selfish when on christmas i would get a 0 lego set and then my brother would get a new keyboard piano that he did not have to share the only time i ever felt like i wa treated equally wa when i wa over at my great aunt uncle s house at their house i wa not treated a a second rate child but instead a their own child they gave me acknowledgment and love when my actual parent did not they did not change plan because of my brother they helped fill the void that my mom and dad had left in me but my great uncle would pas away when i wa 9 due to cancer this not only hit me hard it felt like i had lost my real dad and now i would never get him back my great aunt wa still alive and kept up with me but i would only see her le and le a the year went by preteen teenager year were rough for me and yes i know most people s preteen teenager year were rough so for starter remember me talking about being almost locked in my room or having complete freedom depending on what parent i wa with well this wa not good for me at all a i got no interaction from peer my age and when i did get some it wa only for brief moment so i never knew how to interact with people i did make friend but this wa when i started lying to look cool instead of telling people that when i am with my dad i am basically in prison and when i am with my mom i live in a pigpen this kept leading to lie getting deeper and deeper and eventually developing into pathological lying it wasn t that i wa not kind or anything i just wanted to be cool and normal like the other kid and my friend this however wa only the tip of the very uneasy iceberg because now people were getting in romantic relationship in high school and god forbid that i get a girlfriend during this time well it happened i got a girlfriend when i wa freshman in high school she wa the polar opposite of me where i wa shy and not very interactable if i did not know you she wa the party girl who wanted to drink booze and smoke weed during the time that she did drink or smoke i would feel left out just like with my family at home so again i made up story and stuff to make myself look better well now i wa getting called out by others for my lie i knew it wa wrong but for me it wa all about the attention at the time no matter if it wa good or bad it made me feel real and like i mattered in a twisted way well now because i wa being called out i started to get even more depressed than i wa and resorted to self harm eventually one night when me and my ex were talking she got drunk and started sending message that i needed to man up and have intercourse with her r she will leave me well me being in a not so good position in life i self harmed more violently that time and sent an image to her in retaliation for her saying that she will leave me i know a match made in heaven right there i will not say that i wa not at fault partially in that situation and i will not defend my action i merely wish to vent and talk about this anonymously a i have never spoken about this before to anyone after that incident the next day i wa beaten to a pulp by guy who liked my ex and thought doing this would land them brownie point after which the school district finally did an investigation which involved my ex telling her side and only hearing her side my friend called me insane and left one by one until i had no friend anymore what hurt the most from that though wa now i wa alone my parent still never really paid attention to me and now were treating me like a chore than a son instead of getting me the help i needed they instead did nothing at all except send me to a psychologist who would proscribe every drug in the world and a therapist who did not really understand what i wa saying and that wa i needed help i relied on them for help and they were never there now at this point i m and have no friend still don t know how to keep friend and don t know how to reliably get help i spent the rest of my high school year in and out of different school with no friend or girlfriend i wa so shut off that when there wa a girl who liked me or someone who wanted to be friend i would always dismiss them or tell them that they could do better than me i wa a husk in my own body and it wa all due to my action and not wanting to open up to anyone i did get some romantic relationship eventually but those fell off a i never put the time or effort to make it last when i wa i had my first suicide attempt i failed obviously and i am glad it did at the time i eventually got in contact with my great aunt again after year we chatted about what had happened in our life with me tearing up for the first time in a while talking about what my childhood and teen life were like she told me that she wa the same way in that she wa suicidal and we connected together because of that morbid fact she talked me out of many other suicide attempt and kept telling me that it will always et better no matter what and yes thing did get better i bought a car and paid it off in le than a year i have grown and learned so much that i am wiser than i wa before and i am going to college to get a degree in biology and in all honesty i would not change anything one bit knowing who i am now but i still get the feeling that everything would be better if i just did not exist now we come to today with me still dealing with suicide it ha now been a constant battle with it daily because i just don t know what to do i can t get over my past and the mistake that i made and even then this post doe not even cover all of them if it did it would be almost 00 page at least i just wish sometimes i never existed in the first place or that i wa born to loving parent who actually cared for me instead of sidelining me for my brother because he ha autism i am so full of rage for myself and my brother not because he is autistic but he took away the childhood i needed in the first place i m and feel stuck like i don t know where to go from here i don t know how to move on from the past mistake that keep me back i don t know how to look at the future and not see it landing me with the worst life imaginable and especially i do not know how to get over the feeling of not wanting to exist daily and thinking of way to die sorry for the long post i tried to keep it a short a possible with the most detail and if this is not the right place then what is the right place thank you",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "t w stalking so the other week i had a late doc appointment and whilst i wa walking a man started following me it obvious scared the shit out of me and my heart wa racing and i felt jelly leg and i wa in tear fast forward a couple of week and i ve started getting a racing heartbeat and feeling faint etc having the feeling only when i m out by myself so i know they re panic attack but they only happen when i go out by myself even if it s from the bus stop to home i m guessing that it may be from what happened are there any tip people have for trying to battle this im seeing a therapist soon but want some extra advice whilst i wait for it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is back at work although i wish i wa back in bed",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "allyheman but but but i m not a big fan on camilla belle",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tutsy u are minding her she come say she won enter depression i said happy depression ijmn ungrateful soul",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "who is the mastermind behind depression due to nepotism theory and why wa this theory encouraged by mupo even when no suic de note wa found from the crime scene ip nupurprasad drjitendrasingh doptgoi pmoindia hmoindia ip association ssr social medium compromised",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sara kate im afraid too ur reply about uni from age ago",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "randomjay the biggest mistake i have ever made now i have to live with the consequence stress anxiety and depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i recently started a new job and i m finding it difficult to socialize with my some of my colleague i have no problem with one on one but i tend to struggle with social anxiety in group setting a a result i often avoid joining my group s table during lunch fairly small around people my biggest concern is that i m half everyone s age and they ve all known each other for year in addition these are group of people i wouldn t normally interact with in social setting when i joined the table at one point i felt awkward and out of place worrying about everything that came out of my mouth i also joined them during happy hour but felt bored out of my mind and didn t want to be there i have made work friend during my orientation but they all ended up working different shift so i rarely see them i ve been spending my lunch alone so far and a much a it s way le stressful i sometimes feel sad and lonely i am not the only one alone in the break room though i didn t expect to be that person although i don t particularly relate to my colleague what are some way to get closer to them side note i work alongside with them all day hr shift in a lab setting so it s not like i never interact with them i can t tell if wanting to spend break alone is rude antisocial or actually common",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "throat is closing up and i had some string cheese not a good idea",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am on week on prozac and experiencing no real change i took prozac before when my anxiety wa nowhere near a bad and so i don t really remember how long it took to make me feel better i just want to feel better",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "robertzalme yes i do too much theory getting in not much solution coming out",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i can t sleep it s too windy and scary out",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wa in such a good mood this morning now not so much anymore stupid work stupid cellphone provider",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "because of ordinary shoe oloshi leleyi o depression co of ordinary nike sneaker if na lv or prada nko",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "rootbeerfloats you hate billy now",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lately i ve been having panic attack everywhere i went out to get drink with my partner and ended up cry in the bathroom yesterday we were with his friend and i had to excuse myself to sit outside and collect myself the list go on there never seems to even be anything that set me off but once it happens i can barely speak without tearing up it s so exhausting i don t want to have to hide from people place forever",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my msn hate my gut i wanted to go out tonight",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my nap wa interrupted so many time today going out for japanese with the rent again",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "been having some off and on anxiety tonite and this old school hippie gave me a roach kinda used joint in the weed community and i m like cool i take a hit and it tasted like as extinguished it and put it away breathing now i looked inside the joint paper and it wa like brown and i worried if the joint wa old moldy also smoked some okay weed i think i m okay i hope just anxious and like wtf",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m so damn tired today actually i need to take a nap when i m at home but there s no time",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t know if it s that i ve been on antidepressant for year or that i repress my emotion and don t allow myself to process thing but i didn t even notice i went on my phone and started reading random bullshit",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "feel like there s just too many problem to address at this point everyday i try to hold out in hope of something somehow getting better but it somehow feel like i m never at the bottom of the hill at this point i m only alive so that some people don t feel sad or guilty but honestly i m getting to a point where i don t really give a shit if i m dead i won t have to experience or see the pain that they will ultimately feel from the death so who give a shit",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i feel completely exhausted my life isn t going anywhere and i ve got nobody to turn to",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is at work xx",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lifee get worsee amp amp worsee",
    "output": "normal"
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i highly expect to get a lot of pushback on this one but hear me out for year i ve been in a horrible mental space with no hope of getting out the way i see it i never consented to being here i no longer desire to live on this planet and i m scared to do the deed myself a far a i m concerned either my mom or dad should be required to take me out since they re the one who brought me into this world fin",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "omg house what did i ever do to you",
    "output": "normal"
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sorry i should say that this vid hit you hard please beware the last minute especially http www youtube com watch v eujsme0torw",
    "output": "normal"
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have never been a good person i think being a bad person wa hard wired into me and i don t think i can separate myself from the bad i ve done unspeakable unforgivable thing that i can t atone for i m both a bully and a coward with so many issue that my therapist couldn t find a solution i ve written ton of letter so people can understand my exact thought process and why i need to do this it doesn t even make me sad anymore it just feel like something that need to happen",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "cheechbud i think ur right hahaha hr now",
    "output": "normal"
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "pre pandemic incidence of diagnosed depression wa about this increased to during lockdown likewise amp case of anxiety went from to http t co czlqb cxqe",
    "output": "depressed"
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "seriously help this ha been killing me i feel super down and unmotivated but i also feel fine a lot of time and happy and can laugh my high aren t super high but my low are pretty low but every time i feel happy i always feel like i m faking everything overexaggerating my symtoms and am just a bad person overall i m diagnosed ha this happened to anybody else what do i do",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m a yo guy and i want to die i feel like a bad person i have like friend and i never hangout with them other than school i have a gf and i love her with all my heart but i know she could do better not to be cocky or anything but i m probably top smartest in my school of 00 i will probably go to a decent college and have a lot of life ahead of me i just feel tired with life though i think i might be mentally ill i ve fallen into this personality of being the crazy person of the group i hate silence because then i think about how much i hate myself i say or ask random stuff to end the silence that make me seem retarded i don t smoke or do drug and not on any medication but i wa thinking last night that the way i want to die is an overdose i work in fast food and some of the people i talk to at work are drug dealer and i think they would sell to me i ve thought it through and maybe i buy multiple non lethal quantity and then use them all at once i ve been more depressed than usual this last week i do football and wrestling and it s the off season right now so i should have gone to an off season wrestling practice my gf knew i wa doing this the only time i m really happy is when i m around her i needed to see her so i skipped practice to hangout with her she wa already with her girl friend and i didn t want to be a jerk and just come out and say i need to be with you tonight i think is the limit im always horny it s all i think about and my gf rarely want to have sex because she wa molested in her sleep twice by a family friend she still sometime see this last week i kinda learned if i keep asking her she will give in we were in my basement tonight and cuddling when i tried to finger her i did not force her i asked multiple time for consent she let me do it and gave me a handjob we both finished and i said do you want to go to the park where we usually have car sex she said yes so we went it wa still kinda light out so we went to target and walmart and walked around she showed me this lego set she wanted for herself i wa having a great time when we got in the car she said she didn t want to have sex anymore i wa extremely disappointed because she got my hope up i did not force her though she said she wa sick of me always talking about sex i replied saying it s the only thing i can ever think about she got mad and we sat in silence for a bit she asked to go home but i begged her to stay out for another hour until our curfew she agreed and went went to mcdonald s for sprite i apologized probably time about it saying i ll be better i know she could do better than me but i can t bring myself to break up with her she say she only want me but i want her to be happy with someone that would treat her better i ve decided to finally go to sleep and let her move on but the important part is her period is day late right now she might be pregnant neither of u believe in abortion if she is pregnant i plan on staying alive and supporting it if she s not i m going to buy her the 00 lego set she doesn t want me to buy for her i m gon na overdose after that i think i will write her a note saying sorry and it s not her fault one to the school and friend asking them to make joke about it and one to my 0 yo brother to say sorry and leave him everything i own xbox and 000 in my bank sorry this wa so long",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "cant sleep she want to dream",
    "output": "normal"
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m currently on 0mgs daily but i just couldn t do it anymore it s all just so hard i ve only just taken them so don t have any symptom yet i ve only taken the fluoxetine and nothing else is this enough to kill me i m slightly underweight do i need to go to a hospital or just tell someone i don t know what to do i live with my parent and i feel really bad but i still don t want to live anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the internet is hating me night i s pose",
    "output": "normal"
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "exmi hey doll sorry to hear bout ur doggie hope he come home soon would help u look if i weren t so far away",
    "output": "normal"
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wyldceltic so i read i m glad you re doing better",
    "output": "normal"
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "got a speeding ticket",
    "output": "normal"
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i feel like i have always had anxiety ocd but it ha never really negatively effected my life like it doe now it feel like it is really getting in the way of my daily life being that i made it year without it having huge effect doe that mean that it can go away or will this just be my life now amp x 00b any thought that people have from experience",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have been living my sadness for a year i lost my wife and i don t want to continue here i want to see her again i want to be with her i am trying to continue my life but i miss her so much",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "natazzz hurt and sad",
    "output": "normal"
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i reaching help from stranger i really need someone be here for me i cant handle the pressure from depression i really want to suicide please help",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am so tired of having depression i hate how hard it is to get up and do the most basic thing day out of the week i don t even eat dinner because i can t get out of bed i m tired of having to put in the extra effort to hide it at work and in front of my family i ve been single for a year and a half after a year and a half long relationship but my social anxiety ha gotten so bad i can t even put myself out there i m so lonely but too afraid to make an attempt i don t think i could ever actually kill myself but i think about how much easier it would be if i wasn t alive a lot more than i used to",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "jaredleto i can t sleep i need to work on my speech about huka and youth i hope i get the 0 full mark",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "natalie craigf 99 monicablee it is for u bloke love still this is not a post about his depression it is regarding his football ability maybe read the thread happy thursday to you keep smiling and most of all bekind mufc",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sonnyjoeflangan oh awesome shit i missed it",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s official i m going to have an educational summer owh god bless me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "kisluvkis oh that is very sad poor boy",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "for about a week now i ve been experiencing extreme anxiety and panic restlessness a need to move my leg etc it s been waking me up in the middle of the night or it hard for me to fall asleep bc the sensation is just so uncomfortable i also feel wired and like i have all of this insane amount of energy i have no pain and my heart beat honestly seems pretty normal maybe slightly elevated at time however i keep getting this weird uncomfy fluttering tingling sensation in the middle of my chest that will not go away it is so hard to describe a little bit of butterfly in my stomach a well a slight nausea i notice with some cbd i can calm down and feel alright but i don t know if anyone else experience this it almost feel like my body is actively fighting a panic attack for day on end i ve been to the dr like time in the past month and have had ton of blood work done and had low vitamin d and low iron but i ve been on supplement now and have been feeling better there wa no other concern from my dr so i don t know if this is health anxiety or from something like gerd i just fear i m either crazy or i m dying or it s both",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m so tired everything is rough right now i m getting sick of it and i want out it seems thing go wrong at every turn lately for example my family went on a big march break trip one week on a resort wa gon na be awesome to top it off i wa turning sixteen that week and guess what happens i get norovirus for day and then the flu for the rest of it i missed half of the trip how fucking incredible back home now and thing are more stressful than when i left the ceiling of my parent restaurant caved in from prolonged water damage which our landlord wouldn t fix and we ve been closed for a month now with repair only starting recently i have been unable to work this whole time which is lovely considering i am paying of an expensive computer feel selfish to complain considering the scale of issue that my parent are facing but still fucking suck i can barely get myself out of bed in the morning now and i ve missed lot of school a a result of course my grade have fallen i ve got missing assignment littered about and it suck cause not long ago i wa a 90 and up student i just want to be dead i m not brave enough to do anything though so i guess i ll sit and suffer i wa hoping i d have turned all this around by it s been year that this ha been going on now and i am so disappointed in myself for it i know i could do better than this i know i have the capability if i could just have enough energy and will to get the fuck out of bed every morning all would be perfect if i could look at myself in the mirror without wanting to claw my face off all would be perfect but none of this is gon na happen because i don t have the drive to bother with any of it nobody know either i don t think anybody ha the slightest clue and if they have an idea they don t know the depth of it i m not gon na tell them i ll probably have died already by the time i have the courage to say anything oh well i certainly won t tell my parent i don t even know how we are still afloat financially with everything that s happening but we are barely and i m not gon na add stress to them",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "need someone to talk to",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "cleders sorry i wa rooting for them too",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "legitimate question i m not trying to be close minded or anything i got referred to a therapy clinic by a friend of mine and i have been doing weekly session for a month now i don t feel any better and to be honest i kind of dread my therapy session because they leave me feeling even more helpless and empty i think my therapist isn t the best phd student in training but i feel so bad saying that since i know she s there to help me people have told me to change therapist but jesus christ i can t bring myself to do it because i feel bad i put myself in her shoe i honestly don t know if i m being impatient about all this since i ve heard therapy take many session to help at all anyways i went to therapy because i wa fed up with life after dealing with anxiety and depression symptom for year and i wanted to take my friend s advice also my depression symptom have been worse even though my qol ha been better overall i let my therapist know that nothing triggered my depressive episode this time around and that my mind is just painfully empty feel like someone is constricting my brain and i feel lethargic all the time but all she doe is ask what do you mean by that sorry if i m writing too much in one post but i heard therapist aren t supposed to give advice so what exactly can she do for me she doe cbt sometimes like when i told her that everyone in the room judge me for the way i walk and talk to which she say who told you that are you sure you re not judging them first which doe make my question myself slightly but that s all nothing that i can actively implement to help me counter those thought but then again i have no idea what i m supposed to take from my session and would appreciate your guy feedback any experience you want to share amp x 00b edit sorry wanted to clear up that i haven t been formally diagnosed with anything so i m not 00 sure if i had a depressive episode i had to ask my therapist to refer me to a psychiatrist didn t seem like she wa going to since i wanted a proper assesment",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dg thank you depression and anxiety suck but i m out the other side x",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "brendamew no art tomorrow and nice to see you ve joined twitter",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "pls guy answer what u feel",
    "output": "depressed"
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i just hit something hard i mean i ve been numb before the loss of feeling ha even killed relationship but after the breakup of the best bf i ve ever had numb ha been more common keep in mind it s been abt a week so far well lately with how he s acted and everything and because he even said so i thought we had a chance to work again in the future we broke up because he is suffering mental issue well today he told me he actually lost feeling i also had a small issue with a close friend over lying and smoking and i flipped all my past trauma clicked in right there all the past ex and friend and just people who lied and left me it all hit again which it s crazy to me he triggered it but maybe it s because of the connection i once shared with him but hearing that he lied when he said a couple day before that he still loved me and just wa struggling at the time and all the little flirting and care he s shown feel so contradicting to the point everything clicked off i cried it all out and the emotion wont come back but not even the emotion feel gone i feel like i lost my soul like i wa just blackout drunk my whole life and i just woke up and only recall blurry scene from my life and it s all gone i ve distanced myself from a few close friend and rn only have my bsf and sister im really talking to i cant tell if i fucked up or what but it all is so hazy and confusing i lost whhat im doing and idk what this is or what to do to somehow bend up a better person out of this it s awfully terrifying and it s making me so light headed",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "third post on this subreddit from this account most day are anxiety inducing i spend the majority of my life in my bed no job struggling to complete my coursework or even just to take a shower a of the last year these day that i have struggled with since i wa ten have become many and far in between i wake up dreading the fear that the day will bring the argument the pain and the inevitability of my own suicide i know one day the suffering will be too much to bear and without doubt i will hurt many people i have felt for month that day is getting closer than ever a few day when the argument subside and i feel a little more hopeful about where my life is going i am filled with a passion and love for everything about life that i hate i want to strive to get a job get my license succeed in college again reach out to people and take care of myself in way that i can t bear to do usually i still have hope i crave to escape the hole that i am in but it feel inescapable whenever i try to turn my life into something more positive i am met with another detrimental setback that put me at square one all over again it make me fear being happy because i know those period will only last a few day at most i feel so desperate to not feel miserable i really don t want to die but i am sick of this cycle i see other people so content in loving relationship with family and i crave it so badly i feel helpless to my own circumstance and i am unsure of how to get better",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is there anyone here who managed to get out of depression if so how did you do it i got stupid lost my creativity and memory lost my energy just everything i am a useless piece of meat who can t even do the most basic thing this life is not worth living i don t want to spend my 0 like this where do i start and what are the thing i should do",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yesterday when i woke up i made my final decision to take my own life i have thought it over and even though there may be other option i decided that i am ready to just simply give up a the ongoing struggle ha made me decide it s not worth the pain i haven t felt anything but numbness for year i ve become obese my body is in terrible shape i ve battled with addiction but somewhat recently ive started to get over it when i finally thought that wa going well and started to be proud i wa met with people who didn t seem impressed and moreso judged the small victory i felt i guess because they didn t realize just how bad my situation wa three week off of hard drug wa a major milestone for me but people said it wasn t good enough and that i wa pathetic for thinking it wa impressive i don t see a bright side a i am finishing college even though i wa given a great job offer because i would just be continuing a life in a city where everyone hate me while i can work a lot and be miserable i am not the type to go out and leave on my own i would do nothing but recluse myself and probably miss home if i moved away i recently came to the realization that outside of the people that are friend with me my public perception is very much that i am a loser my antic have made people that used to consider me a friend not even like me a a person a girl i used to love decided to lead me on somewhat recently just to tell me her friend and everyone else hate me and that she would never consider dating me this wa essentially my tipping point i have decided that thursday night when i am returning from a work trip i am going to park my car on the way home by a bridge i am going to start drinking heavily i will make it look like i lost control a i drive through the rail and into the water those that know me will find this heartbreaking but ultimately not shocking and devastating in the way a suicide might affect them they will be able to cope with the loss without wondering if it wa their fault the only flaw in my plan is i have written a note to be left with my closest friend because one thing i can t do is leave without letting him know how much i appreciated everything he s done for me i simply can not do that but that is one thing that might ruin the hidden intent of my action",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello twitter i m on a one week leave from school bc i have depression how are you all d",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m ready to end all but i don t have the courage to do it i ve thought of different way when and where i would do it but i m scared i m a f and life isn t going well my career isn t going a planned in a few week i ll be out of a job i wa terrible at this job and had no choice but to leave i have another offer and interviewing for another place but i m scared it won t work out and i m ashamed that i have to find another job i m struggling financially and i m too scared to tell anyone i don t know how i m going to keep going i m extremely depressed and want this to end i don t know where i m heading in life what is good for me and how to keep going my life goal wa to be successful settle down and have child but i don t see that happening if i stay i see myself being unhappy in corporate america my thought are all over the place right now but i have no one to talk to i m not living the american dream i m living someone else s dream this make me think that the world would be a better place without me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my fast remains un broken",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i just bought 0 paracetamol a 0ml bottle of vodka and some coke to balance it out i love my mom i feel like shit this happened like 0 0 0 but my crush at uni played me flirted and cuddled with me for two day only to fuck another girl right in front of my eye and after chasing him and being rejected i got bullied by our friendship group everyone cut me out and stopped talking to me he fell in love with me after i told him something private and made a playlist with song about me on his phone and i fell into a psychotic episode right in front of him i believed i could use telepathy to communicate with him i wa fully convinced he wa on heroin and took heroin for me because i d hear other thought inside of my own head i ve never loved anyone the way that i loved him and he s verbally told me to fuck off and that he doesn t want anything to do with me it kill me to know i ll never be with him when i could have university wa my last opportunity and the psychotic episode i had led to me fucking it all up i ended up dropping out and spent month in the psych ward and nothing will ever feel the same again i ll never have child or get married because i have asperger s so i fake my way through any and all conversation i lie and hide and smile but i don t have anything to say i just wanted to tell at least one person this i m going to kill myself and this is the end edit i ve taken half of the pill and i m not that drunk so i want to keep going edit had pill with coke and vodka before i felt like i needed to puke dry heaving and threw away the bottle and pill",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i finally opened up to someone my mom and told her how bad my mental health had gotten and that i d purchased thing to go through with it her response i don t blame you and would understand if you do and walked out the fuck",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "you ever see a grassy hillside and want to just melt into the soil and be consumed by the plant",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have no will to live anymore but i cant kill myself because i dont want to hurt my mom or anyone else who care about me i fucked up my school career and have no motivation on anything in life and im only year old sorry for my bad english lol",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hey i don t want anyone to feel too down but any advice might help so for the past few day week scarily maybe a couple of month i haven t felt real and it s starting to scare me i ve struggled with anxiety for a while and i ve had it happen for a couple of day in the past but this time it feel different it s the physical embodiment of is this all there is like i m self aware yet everything is hazy and forgettable i thought it would go away when i came home from uni but it hasn t i just came back from a family dinner where i couldn t stop being frustrated with how i couldn t just be there mentally immerse myself i tried appreciation of the little thing and when i try i know i should feel something but it just apathy it s like it is what it is but a bit more pessimistic hopeless maybe hopeless is too strong a word i don t plan on giving up in my lifetime but it just make me overwhelmed that this ha been going on for a while and i don t know how to make life feel real again it might be derealization but it feel weirder more self aware than that if anyone ha gone through this before and ha tip to speed up the process i d be so so grateful",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "http t co fceklau ff for your depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "kishorek this is strange illegal torrent avlbl everywhere legal dvd not in stock what do i do now",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "being trans fucking suck kayleigh will never pas therapist are ghosting her so there s no help not to mention on top of that having a piece of shit father and failing school doesn t exactly help just need to end it so the pain can finally stop but too much of a pussy to do it fuck everyone who say it ll get better kayleigh ha heard that for the longest time now and not once ha it gotten better",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have probably around 0g of metformin sitting next to me right now im scared but relieved that everything will finally be over",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "could you imagine angel eva fight against titan we got double depression http t co rqscb dom",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i feel like shit i just want somebody to talk to idk if that s too much to ask for",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "there is very little that people will not excuse a long a you mention depression a a primary motivator the depression free pas is extensive",
    "output": "depressed"
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "an thank you i have to now do it all again today",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "who knew rishi sunak being incapable of using a fucking bank card would be what kick off today s depression spiral lmao",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wont get any rudd money for those in doubt http calculator ato gov au script axos axos asp context amp kb esb xr amp go ok",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "incredibly immensely indecisive",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "fornowshesgone depression did",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "terrible toothache feeling very grumpy hotel to write about in my work queue",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "talking to a boy hating work though",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m just so disgusted by myself i don t want to do this anymore i hate myself so much and i can t stop thinking about blowing my brain out or taking all my medication when i get home from work in one year i ve ruined my life and future i fucking hate myself so much i feel like i m going to burst into flame i don t know how to live with this and after a year i ve realized i can t",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "watching dj emir battle his computer for supreme ruler of the studio i think the computer is winning",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "celesteclara i can t sleep either",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theengteacher dammit getting to know this corner very well",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my xbox a finally given up the fight",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been taking fluoxetine for two year now and my ability to orgasm i m a girl ha completely gone out the window in that time i finally felt secure enough to ask to switch medication to one that doesn t have such an impact on my sex life and i ve just been prescribed mirtazapine l d be so grateful if anyone could share their experience on mirtazapine both sexual and otherwise i ve seen online it seems to take a lot longer to start working week and i m nervous about feeling worse in that time too i am continuing to take fluoxetine whilst we increase the mirtazapine so i don t go without doe it feel different to ssri s did it help your sexual life did it make you feel worse before it made you feel better what are the side effect like",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been experiencing such a exacerbation of my anxiety symptom that i think it s time to get evaluated for medication doe anyone have any recommendation for provider in the nyc area or in ny state in general since telehealth is a thing and nyc is insanely expensive 00 for a consultation is steep",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ha anyone used benadryl for anxiety attack i started using this because i refuse to be on benzos and find it work just enough to make it more manageable and wanted to know if others did too",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "fucking boredom make me wan na go have a smoke",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "duncanmacrae hmmm well good luck with that",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hold tight it s nearly the weekend here s roger inferno attending a seminar to deal with his negative thought like a totally normal person depressed superhero webcomic mentalhealthmatters depression superheroes webcomics comic positivevibesonly itsokaytonotbeokay http t co erpvmv l n",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "getvisible journalist are up there with ambulance chasing lawyer in my reckoning",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my chest feel so heavy and tight im having trouble breathing im nauseous and my head hurt so much",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "content warning od throwing up hi this is just a vent ig but like last night i really felt like taking an overdose but i decided not to so that i didn t have to throw up cause that happened and i hate it and i don t want to throw up and then die like that would be awful but today i woke up at like three or four am and puked all over the floor and now i m just thinking that me avoiding taking those pill didn t work out like hoped like i still threw up but i m not even dying",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wonder why someone that u like so much can make you so unhappy in a split seccond depressed",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im home alone for the first time in a while cant help but to think now is the time to do it hate my mind think this way but idk how else to think",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t really have any kind of hope that any other kind of love can truly save you it ha to be romantic because you don t trust friend or family when they tell you that the love you anymore but if someone is willing to hold you and stay with you for the rest of your life just the initiative make it feel better but my problem doesn t even lie there the real problem is that i don t really see myself a someone that can be loved and the reason are endless i m not good looking i have severe social anxiety and i m just a handful of a person to deal with haha and i definitely am not a person that should have been born and even the one time i gave my heart to someone and tried to get to know them better with the hope of igniting something real it wa a fail and i can t help that i have no will left in me to live i don t think writing this post will really achieve anything ultimately but well it would be nice if someone could try to understand me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i hate cooking dinner",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "please help i need to know if any of you have been on some type of medication for your anxiety and depression and if it s worth me giving it a shot i ve set the date and found the method of my suicide but i want to give life one last try before i pull the final curtain one reason i didn t want to go on medication is because i ve heard it just make you worse and you become too dependent on it in 0 0 my gp didn t want to medicate me after telling him i d made an attempt on my life instead he said to try therapy first which i did in 0 and whilst it wa interesting and i liked my therapist it didn t actually help me please let me know of your experience with being medicated for your depression and anxiety also if you could mention the drug they gave you that would be great thanks",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m writing this in hope i get a sign but it s been year already and no sign of life getting better my mom hate me she already told me that my family doesn t give a shit about me and my friend they also don t i ve been trying to get a job i wa just fired from a job where i wa happy learning and getting good pay they just sent me an email saying they no longer need me no feedback except for you are great but not what we need i have tremendous stress a i have to help pay rent i don t want to be a burden anymore i really tried but i m not getting anywhere",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "we all know im too much of a pussy to kill myself but fucking hell i want to i want to jump off the bridge near my home being killed by someone would be even better sometimes i imagine myself sending people my goodbye message and killing myself out in the wood there s a tree i stare at every single time i pas it with a perfect horizontal branch this fucking close to buying a noose and just doing it and the worst part is if anyone who knew me irl read this they d think i m joking and that it s stupid but there is nothing i want more than death right now",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been distracting myself with hobby and uni but at the end of the day i always get reminded that none of it matter they re only there to stop my train of thought from entering my mind they re just bring a split second of feeling recently picked up smoking again and it s the only thing that can temporarily bring some emotion back there s nothing worth living for why am i still alive i just don t know how to feel anymore i just want to wither away and be forgotten to close my eye every night hoping to not open them again",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "deemaah but i offered to clean twice",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my gf ha several psychiatric condition including bpd ptsd and others and ultimately she say that she hate me and everyone around her for neglecting her and not helping this isn t entirely false a i have a few thing i m working on for myself but she undoubtedly ha it much worse she s been staying with me but primarily life with her parent a she can t be without her childhood home i m worried that me being around her is just making u co dependent or that my lack of real experience in psychology is making thing worse how do i know when i really am just making the situation worse by staying i am trying to improve and be a better support system for her but i m not improving fast enough problem is i m worried that if i leave her then she ll certainly have no real support even from her parent i realize it might be subjective but what are some thing to look out for",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tubeyornot b you and me both i thought i found a tweetheart but i guess not so the search continues",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i just gave an msu fan a car rental discount he looked so sad i just couldn t turn him away",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "about month ago i had one of the worst day of my life and i wa ready to call it quits if it wasn t for my closest friend stopping what he wa doing to come see me i probably would ve then and there p this is an appreciation post",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "julius s malema nyaope boy are causing havoc in township breaking into house you can t protect the dealer our people are suffering and dying in depression come with solution to create job skill we are tired of your speech and poverty we don t eat speech http t co xiw wf jkx",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "m rkm you stuck in traffic then my journey wa traffic free this morning if it s any help",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "when i wa a teen i would burn myself with match because it made me feel better it ha been many year since i have burned myself today i got swarmed by yellowjackets and stung several time and instantly felt better i m not sure if it s the adrenaline or something else or if i m imagining it thought",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "kaylee 0 yawn i m pretty good thanks awww i m sorry to hear that feel better soon lt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nick thompson nick i d love to blame my oven i may have to blame the fact that i d had a shed load of wine and wa watching top gear",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is tooooooooo cold",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "caught myself looking up the iphone promised i wouldn t torcher myself a i still have month left on my current contract",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am vengeance batman is just emo if we had a superhero his tag line would be i am economic depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "shooting outside my house o not kidding so scared",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hey guy im gon na be honest here im a year old stoner with a lot of mental health issue i havent ever really had anyone i felt comfortable or safe opening up to and i know it can be the same for a lot of other men of all age i wanted to create a subreddit of some sort a a safe place to vent give and seek advice for domestic or any other reason a men mental health problem seems to be kinda looked over i m looking for advice on how to grow that kind of community i haven t had a safe place like that for me and i dont want men to have the same problem or feel the same way kindest regard safewithus",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just need someone to talk to whether you re listening to me or i m listening to you too",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "smashleypants awwwww virtual flower chocolate hug and kiss lt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "localtweeps wow ton of reply from you may have to unfollow so i can see my friend tweet you re scrolling the feed a lot",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "today i felt like i wanted to die but i didn t really what sitting with someone in a dark place really mean depression shadowself emotionaleducation http t co fwhl9d jue",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "defsound aawwwww i know what u mean iv never been that girl with a sense of humor",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween it help with depression anxiety and loss of a loved one thelmaherbs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "what tragedy and disaster in the news this week",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am having a hard time nailing down whether i am truly experiencing ocd or anxiety or both amp x 00b doe anyone have any experience with one or both that can chime in",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "gnah inner tube exploded got ta get a taxi to work or be late",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "karsentheslater i m getting pissy lately i know i make mormon joke at you i m sorry i hear mormon joke now and i feel bad",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "for reference i am f graduating college in may i grew up in a really shitty town and i worked really hard in school to guarantee i could get into my dream college and move to a city where i thought i would find more likeminded people college sincerely sucked i had terrible friend now don t really have friend don t really like my major scared that i only have qualification for a job i won t like and not to mention half of college wa online because of covid i am so terrified of applying for job and figuring out what i want to do with my life this wa literally my biggest fear going into school wa that i would waste year on a degree i don t love and don t know what i want to do i feel like applying to job is also accepting that i am no longer a student which ha been a huge part of my identity for what year i also think having college be a huge disappointment make me really nervous for everything else like the narrative that high school and college are supposed to be the best year of your life is pushed so much and both really weren t great i ve also heard it really hard to make friend outside of school which scare me a lot i feel like i have a few friend that i talk to occasionally but i don t think of them a my best friend or that i am overly close with them i think i am a nice and interesting person who care about others a lot and i don t understand why i have had such a long history of really horrible friend who never really cared about me literally had my best friend in high school pick the guy who sexually assaulted me over me i just am so scared that life won t get better it seems so easy for other people and i don t understand why figuring out life ha been so difficult for me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "earlier today my mom used a defuser on my hair because it s getting shaggier so the curl are much thicker thus not popping out a much a she wa doing it i started to feel dizzy couldn t hear vision got worse and i nearly blacked out i don t know what the cause for this is so yeah i m posting this idk if this is the right sub for this but it s worth a shot",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my project is going down the drain legal issue seem to have dealt a fatal blow",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have a hard time articulating how i really feel and it frustrates me to no end i just wan na let it all out but it so hard it make it a lot difficult to seek help when i can t really explain what i m feeling and thinking about i can somewhat recognize what i m feeling but the moment i try to write it down or explain it my mind go blank though i can say a part of me doe feel guilty for unloading all my problem onto someone so maybe thats one of the reason i m unable to reach out to people for help plus another part of me is like trying to convince myself i m actually ok and faking it or being overdramatic which also stop me from saying anything so i usually turn to the internet to see if there s anyone who might feel the same way and could explain it in word better than i can i m sort of relieved to know that there are other people feeling exactly what i m feeling cause it really make me feel like i m not alone in this although it really suck that we all have to go through this i m not in a good state right now so i can t really give word of encouragement without feeling like a hypocrite but yeah you re definitely not alone in this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve recently been planning out my suicide i probably sound like an attention seeker but i feel really terrible right now i can t get therapy and i have no where else to turn to i wa planning on attempting on the st of march right after my birthday i m so young life s barley started for me i can t handle the stress my parent don t believe there s anything wrong with me and they think therapist are corrupt people all i can do is cry and hope thing turn around for me i live in an average neighborhood middle class but just barley all my parent ever do is complain about money and recently my mom threatening to divorce my dad meaning i ll have to go live alone with my mother who s an alcoholic i don t want to die but i also don t want to live it feel like this is my only option to finally be happy",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "overheardatmoo wish i could have participated this time",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "got highly bored today scanning page for daddy had to do it",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t understand why thing get taken away i didn t have enough time with him it unfair i want him back he wa like my baby",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wa a good kid class president one of those pesky mormon missionary after highschool on scholarship etc then at i snapped and went to prison for ten year i vowed to overcome it got out finished college and married le than five short year of being free i threw it all away and went back for another year on a parole violation finding out that week that my poor unsuspecting wife wa pregnant with our only child i struggled through five more year of incarceration dragging my entire family through the nightmare that is the criminal justice system again while my now ex wife struggled to have our baby and support herself i ve been free again for under two year i ll never have a good job i see my son for two brief hour a month and he barely know my name my family who wa heavily involved in his life while i wa incarcerated is now prevented from seeing him or even knowing about him for my ex everything i have is because of the charity of others and i ve earned nothing on my own other than disdain the direction my life took wa unexpected to everybody i wa expected to be so successful but here i sit year old with no hope of a meaningful life 0 year gone in the blink of an eye hell a a felon many people would just prefer i wa dead anyway to look at me you would never know that all of this is in my past the only friend i have are people i ve met online who don t even know my real name a all of my old friend have long since moved on with their life i would have ended it all already and in fact tried while incarcerated but i m just too damn scared at the heart of all of it i m just a coward",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s so exhausting waking up every morning instantly with a wave of sadness and discontent then the whole day is filled with me trying to keep my mind off of my own thought and trying to chase little happiness i m tired of this why can t i just wake up happy and in a good mood like everyone else i m so exhausted and tired of living like this nothing help and nothing sustains it i try to workout but that doesn t help i m at a loss of thing to do about it this isn t how i want to live life and it s exhausting and more of a burden",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just washed the huge pile of post binge depression dish from my bedside table who s proud of me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s like knowing your place in this world i ve always been proud of me i always felt i ve done thing a they should be done fairly loving good people listen to others helping them always trying to draw a smile on their face and making their world a better place because life is short and everyone deserves to be happy no matter what and i thought i deserved that too but all i can see is that i m lonier than ever i never felt what is being loved the only partner i had abused and cheated on me leaving me memory like me cry next to him and he sleeping peacefully i ve been in love recently again but i got rejected like a few time before that previous relationship i guess i m not good enough a always there s always prettier people than me i lost friend and people i thought they were my friend family and the two three friend i have now can t understand how lonely i feel some of my friend deceived me when i thought they would be here for me at hard time like i always did for them all i try to be happy seems to be in vain i will never be precious to someone i m sure that people who know me will still live if i die so i don t care anymore if i die right now life go on for them but i want to stop mine now my place isn t in this world i m hoping for a sudden death like a car accident a domestic accident or something that kill me because i m a coward and i won t kill myself hoping my parent donate my organ so someone with force of will life a happy life a life i wanted for me but i never got",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wa fine for a year or so and then the anxiety come back worse than ever panic attack in the evening which make me feel like shit i feel so fucking bad inside of my chest and stomach and my thought don t stop rushing in the day and morning i m fine but in the evening i feel like i m losing my mind and i want everything to just be ok but how will i live with myself i m generally healthy i work out i do breathing exercise but nothing help and it fucking suck school actually calm anxiety because i have a task and i m busy but when i m home i feel so fucking lonely",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello im currently and ive only ever driven on the freeway once wa on for like a minute before i got scared and got off if for any reason i have to use it i ask a friend to take me or i get an uber instead driving in general ha always been scary for me but the freeway is the bane of my existence i feel like at my age it becoming a problem plus it just kind of embarrassing to admit to other people my age haha especially if im asking for a ride if anyone else ha had this problem please let me know what you did to overcome it thank you",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "finally got my med so hopefully i climb out of the depression slump still a bit rough for now though so i ll take this photo a a future benchmark http t co ytl xwedd",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "there s more security here than at sydney airport and no spirit at the bar startrek",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wo ist die studie eigentlich ver ffentlicht oder machen wir ffentliche diskussion jetzt einfach ohne faktenbasis tipp f r alle die auch schlechte studien machen wollen einfach die spezifischen longcovid symptome nicht testen kipptisch usw daf r depression nicht abgrenzen",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hey friend i come asking question about workplace anxiety i m 9 and work retail i realize that this is a job with low stake and that whatever fear i have about making mistake are rather silly given the nature of the job however i ve worked myself up because i worked an event this evening and in my eye it wa just a series of unfortunate event first i show up early but still later than my coworker who i wa working with for the event he wa talking to our bos second i wa underdressed he looked so sharp granted i am 9 and he is almost a full decade older than me with the life experience to really comprehend dress code it wa rather unspecified and unclear so i m trying not to beat myself up too much about it i ran home super quickly and grabbed some nicer shoe and a jacket but it still wasn t great third my bos gave u her number to text or to call if we needed any help i texted her first and then she asked if i would call her because she wa on the road make sense but i feel i made a mistake texting her in the first place fourth fifth sixth and so on i worry that throughout the entire evening i wad screwing up and ended up losing the store a ton of money i m so upset about everything that happened and being liked by my bos that i wa cry and now i can t sleep please oh please i beg of y all how do i get over this it s making my day really difficult and i don t want this to follow me into the future when if i have a job much more demanding and serious if i mess up it s eating me up and i can t take it thanks",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is it possible to die from coughing it suck being ill",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "a coping mechanism i have is that i ll sort of get through the hour of the day until it is nighttime and i know i can have the sweet release of sleep soon of course this isn t every day but i usually look forward to sleep because it s the only time i am really guaranteed not to feel anxiety dread of course some day i will sorta forget about it but it seems that the like the main objective of the day is to get to the end of it funny enough i actually don t mind living like that i find it very comforting knowing i get an hour break from my anxiety every day i still have plenty of day where i am enjoying the thing through the day but even on those day when hour fly by i m like oh bonus i m closer to bed some day it s like my only hope though where i am really all over the place and it s my anchor to keep going idk i m sure it sound bad that i look forward to going to sleep everyday but i find it a pretty good coping mechanism",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hi i m f and my partner guy is also i say partner because i ve had mixed message about being in a relationship or not recently with him and i think this is a factor to my anxiety too fyi i have had bad anxiety since an abusive relationship at university and another one where i had a bf cheat multiple time my parent did not have a healthy relationship when i wa younger and where both not very present till my later teenage year i don t suffer anxiety in general but my relationship anxiety ha only got worse the older i get current situ we ve been dating month about week ago his twin brother died suddenly which wa tragic accident they were extremely close and he s been very unemotional about it all hasn t cried and been very rational before we got together we were friend before although i always knew he wanted more than that he d asked me on a few date in the past which i declined because he isn t usually someone i would go for but personality win me over everytime he wa also very consistent over text and the quality of conversation wa always really good which a someone with r anxiety the reassurance that someone is interested really help and usually attracts me more to them this ha since faded massively even before the passing of his brother and i find even some day the conversation is a 0th of what it used to be we ve discussed this and a lot of the time he say it s due to work and just over time not needing to keep up this same level because he is no longer chasing me because of my anxiety the long period of lack of communication i struggle with and my brain start to panic i find myself regularly checking his instagram who he follows what picture he s liked it s not healthy and i m trying to stop because it never help but almost become like an ocd since his brother passed he s shown me glimpse of seeing a future together he introduced me to some friend double date and his parent sister which i don t feel you would do if you didn t see a relationship potential he s said he would have asked me to be his gf when we should have gone on holiday the week after his brother passed but since i ve had mixed comment from whether we are in a relationship or still dating i find myself in a constant spiral atm due to the lack of communication which he say a factor is the grieving this is hard to overcome i feel awful to keep bringing up i need more in this situation i e if he can t text due to busy day can he call me more he agrees but never follows through consistently so every week i m cycling the anxiety cry worry that s now affecting my work and day to day in this situation i don t know what to do the anxiety is becoming worse and worse i don t want to have to keep bringing it up to him because of everything going on in his personal life but he doesn t seem to be meeting any emotional need for me and i m worried i won t cope long term with someone who can t reassure me i also feel guilty for wanting more from him i do hope it will get better in time a he is still in shock grieving process but it s hard to tell how would you handle this situation do you continue to suffer in silence with the anxiety in order to stop putting pressure on the other person when they are grieving or would ending the situation be better i wouldn t want to do this i m very happy with him but i feel like in a short space of time this ha been intense and draining",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "to make thing clear no one invalidates me because i avoid every person and talk to no one i invalidate myself for whatever reason it s been made printed in my head to invalidate myself all the time like some sort of fucked competition on who ha it worse i dont know why i do it i know that every person s experience is different no one can experience the same thing a you it your struggle or whatever i know this yet anytime i hear any negative thing someone is dealing with or read something i downplay my struggle and just assume the person is going through worse i just say that i ain t going through shit compared to this person or that person it dumb i dont know why i do it i shouldnt be comparing my struggle to other people yet for whatever reason i do thank you for reading sorry if i made anyone mad or anything",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "evicted",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ugh stupid bug in spamassassin rule qa backend discovered it s going to take some fixing at some point adding to the todo list",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i feel like this is a flawed perspective i m having but sometimes it s hard to take the day off like to just relax and lay in bed for a day without guilt that can be hard for me but i feel like in a way im making it hard for myself by putting so much thought into it rather then actually just doing it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is going to have a late one at mqu today",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "chris 9 0 that s very true i think so many people are suffering from anxiety and depression right now we need to just listen to what they have to say listen to what s going on in there life right now",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i cant do this i just cant anymore i wan na be happy again im dealing with lot rn ever since i watched some verg graphic gore smoked weed had dpdr researched solipsism it all too much for me i wan na be happy again i just cant see the world the same anymore but i want to please someone help ive had this kind of depression for year it come and go i hadnt had any kind of major depression tho for a while this doesnt feel like itll go away i rly need to know and make sure itll go away because i just cant especially at night thats when it get rly bad i just don t know what to do this doesn t feel like it ll ever go away please please help im desperate",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "funny for paul pogba to blame his depression or whatever on mourinho funny bcos pogba feel his fall out with mourinho is the most traumatizing experience he ha ever had not being benched and winning absolutely nothing under ol joker",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "been on mirtazapine for week made my depression way worse and didn t do anything for anxiety it s mostly for anxiety i havent really went into detail about depression but it s supposed to be effective for both right im gon na have to start smoking weed again will that have an effect",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i know not many people will see this or probably care but i have no one or at least no one who ll genuinely listen a year or two ago i wasn t the best person selfish and careless i wa an alcoholic and a drug addict to deal with everything which i know now wa a horrible coping mechanism but it wa all my year old brain knew how to do a addiction ran in my family i wa hypersexual with no fundamental understanding of consent because all i knew wa assault i would get drunk and say horrible thing and my action reflected that i know trauma isn t an excuse for everything i did to people i used to call my friend but i swear i never meant to hurt anyone i wa horrible and when i realized how much hurt i had caused i never let myself live it down i couldn t look at myself the same i would cry for hour because i wa a monster that brought trauma to others life i honestly didn t know how to be healthy and i didn t know how to make real friend without making it sexual because that s all i thought people wanted from me i know these are a bunch of bullshit excuse but i don t know what to do i never wanted to be this person i left the school that wa once my haven because of the rumor i can t tell who i am anymore am i the monster they think i am i barely remember anything and i wa always drinking so it s all a blur amp x 00b i m a girl i m and this is where it started i m not going to give my life story just the bit that matter i wa accused of assault almost a year ago now with many other claim that had to do with my toxicity the original person who accused me and i had dealt with it privately and she had recognized that i wa extremely drunk when it happened and the lack of communication on both end honestly i have taken accountability for the fact that i shouldn t have drank underage and made her uncomfortable i remember bit and piece of that night some of it i can t even put together in my head but i realized that my behavior wa unacceptable and it wasn t okay not okay in the slightest but it got out to my whole school rumor began and people i had past romantic and sexual relationship with accused me of either assaulting them or being toxic i left the school and sought a lot of therapy but the rumor have entered my life in a more public setting i don t blame anyone i wa honestly a piece of shit but i know everything wa consensual but now i m not even sure of anything i think i m a monster i don t know what s real and what isn t i wa manipulative and a downright horrible person but i ve done everything i can to change and apologize but i can t seem to do it right i want to take accountability and be better but also want my name out there on the internet associated with these thing my parent don t deserve this i want to be able to be normal again but then i realize my life ha been normal i ve always through trauma my life is basically one big thing of trauma whether i realize it or not i m so sorry i really hate myself for hurting the people i did i don t want pity and i know nothing i can do can fix my reputation i don t even think i deserve it i really think i should just kill myself i think that d give the people i hurt peace of mind i don t think i deserve to live this life i m really sorry i know you ll judge me too but i promise i m really trying to be better and to help people i m not sure which perception is real theirs or mine i m broken down and i wan na be a kid again with my favorite stuffed animal maybe just take a nap and then i ll wake up and be okay",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ordered a pita it nevr came why they say the fax machine broke and the driver left what about my empty belly",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hi i m haven t had many female friend growing up now that i m in university and i m a part of a couple different club society we occasionally all go out and eat together i ve quickly realised that i ve been very anxious when eating food on a table with other woman there particularly the one i m meeting for the first time or the one i want to leave an impression on i have a bit of a short beard and one of my fear is that food will drip down and get stuck in my beard and those woman will notice it before i can clean it or it might just get stuck and they ll silently judge me for it and not tell me it s there i ve become great at conversation overtime from previously being very introverted and shy but asap food is served and everyone start eating i switch from being that casual fun guy to a scared and shy introvert who keep wiping his face after every bite of food he gulp down p s interestingly my fear isin t there when i m with guy or if i m with woman i m already close to would love to hear you guy opinion on how to tackle it and if you guy have faced any similar fear xx",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve had about panic attack in the past hour i took mg of xanax which usually will alleviate some physical symptom i have not had a case where it hasn t yet this time the chest pain is sticking around and i can t seem to get rid of it anyone else have similar issue or any method of relief",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "olabini still here though the site is gone",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "leanne is angry at me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "all my colleague hate me im just so clumy and stupid spilt a bunch of milk on the floor second time this ha happened and it went on my colleague shoe and she made a sarcastic comment about it and then her and the other guy i work with were looking like they were talking about me afterwards i cant do anything right this and everything else thats going on really is not helping the suicidal thought",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "what is common between chidambaram and george bush http news oneindia in 009 0 0 sikh journalist hurl shoe at p chidambaram html",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sniffinglue ohhh i love it p i m sad we didn t get to hang out",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "during my therapy session today my therapist mentioned that when people struggle with depression it often affect their perception and decision making in dating i do not personally struggle with depression but i recently dated someone who doe i wa wondering how often doe depression affect your perception and decision making when it come to dating",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "aholmes nj i wa able to downthemall before ta wa able to delete my account didn t lose any photo but i lost almost all comment",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "of course the baby is screaming in the crib the night before my first day back at work so i let him cry it out boooo",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "for the last few year or a long a i can remember i haven t enjoyed much of anything sometimes i ll enjoy when i hangout with friend or whenever i m with family but im extremely co dependent to the point where if im alone im depressed and even if im not alone i m probably depressed i just recently started antidepressant and i think they re helping but not really i don t really feel like i connect to people or build connection because im constantly thinking about about x problem i have or x thing that s wrong with me there wa a time period where i thought i wa a narcissist but i hate myself so that s impossible can somebody like help me lmao i also feel like i m a burden to everyone in my life because every time i speak to anyone or interact with anyone it s about how depressed i am or how something is wrong with me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "phillyd wishing you the best lt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "xissyx we can t go to robina all the shop will be closed because it good friday",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mizzzidc you are spiralling me back into depression with your tweet http t co a9hjljkr p",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is cold",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m so upset that i missed my chat and quiz online because my free internet ha ceased",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "in the last month i started with a new therapist a my anxiety ha been the worst it ever ha in like ten year up until now i wa able to go medication free and just deal with thing little by little through talk therapy now it s like i m again and all the scary physical side effect of anxiety are hurling back through my life my therapist asked me how do you know you re having anxiety before your physical symptom for me it s a lot of shaking in arm leg and jaw getting really flushed skin picking tic heart racing get uncontrollable and i couldn t answer her question because like i don t know i m having anxiety until i get those big red flag physical cue what are some smaller physical cue you get before you get more extreme one",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lizdinkel lol i figured a much but you never know we don t talk anymore maybe you became easily offended",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "last november i had a week where i wa so scared of death i couldn t sleep eat drink do anything i have a lot of anxiety and this wa just another one of those thing which bother me every so often but a lot more intense at that point maybe day go by i m so scared i decide to get really high to forget about it not a great idea but nothing go bad day later i start to have really really intense muscle twitching it made my anxiety so bad i had to go go a amp e a i couldn t breathe fast forward month later and i m still twitching every 0 second haven t used any drug in that time until the last week or two i ve noticed it make the twitching way worse when high if i m anxious at all but if i m not anxious the twitching is the same a normal so i m pretty sure it is anxiety related have had blood test done for deficiency s and nothing i also had a test done which told me i m producing time the normal amount of adrenaline constantly pretty sure this is the cause i have no idea what to do and how to stop this and it s driving me insane i m trying to get anxiety med but i have no official anxiety diagnosis so i m not sure if i even can i ve got a doctor appointment earliest they could do is in a month and a half could anyone help me on what to do",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i smoked for the first time in month and now i m freaking out and idk what to do edit i m all good now blocked out the stress for a little bit now getting food with the boy",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am suicidal almost everyday i have about half a semester left of my st year of college i am constantly studying or driving to school or doing homework i do not have time to go to the doctor for my mental health but i think it s gon na be too late one day i simply can not find the motivation to use one of my limited free day during the week to go to the doctor because i d rather lay in bed because i m depressed this is the worst sickness ever",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tutsy e say e wan heal from the depression torus bata notori olohun",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m not sure of even how to put it into word i m exhausted i ve moved into my own place i ve recently started a new job i m overwhelmed i don t want to die but i also feel like i don t want to exist if that make sense i m trying my best but at this point i feel like my best isn t actually my best i m not sure how to fight these feeling of inadequacy or how to fight off regret over thing i have acknowledged my mistake i ve made and will never make them again but somehow still manage to beat myself up and regret every mistake i ve ever made i hate feeling like this can i just not be tired for one day not be overwhelmed for a day",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "one of my biggest fear is trying everything possible to turn my life around from grade to career career to myself then still come out being the same or still having the same hallow feeling i wan na take this next year to change my life around for the best i wan na look back and be happy with my life and what i ve accomplished i ve learned throughout the year that i really do want to be alive i just don t want to be me i wish i could change myself and who i am and where i came from but i can t so i would like to better myself do something to make myself proud i just don t want to waste even more time trying to fix myself then still be unhappy this fear probably came from my dad he s a ex heroin addict yet in his 0 he went from a crackhead to owning his own auto repair shop ha a beautiful yr old and amazing wife yet he still the most cold hearted asshole he still cant get more then a couple hr of sleep he s drunk every night he rarely speaks a word to me so from heroin addict to a shop owner yet still unhappy still suicidal still fighting after doing so fucking much is that really all there is to life constantly fighting to be happy without ever truly feeling it you may hide it or distract for awhile but it always come back and harder everytime till one day",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s been a lot of stress past the last three year i feel like i can t take it anymore i m too anti social i can t talk to anyone i just start shaking and can t say a word and then this feeling of embarrassment will haunt me for the rest of the day no one want to talk with me i feel like i shouldn t be here like i m a burden to everyone i have to hold my emotion inside never letting them out and this is killing me i ve been cry for the last few day i feel so pathetic am i the problem i am so lost",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s all hug and kiss till you wear sneaker and cause depression a you are buying sneaker for your kid pls buy your own too good morning",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "eyrro awwwww bummerr sorry missed it again",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "oh god one of the teacher here gave me a rotten gogoma to eat and i m so hungry i m trying to eat around the bad part hahahaha",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve only known my boyfriend for month official for he ha briefly opened up about having anxiety all i know is that he ha previously been medicated for it but not currently today after i left his place he messaged to apologise incase he came off odd he wa feeling anxious for no particular reason and that it just happens sometimes i told him not to worry about it now just before i go to sleep i messaged him to see how he wa he seemed fine initially but when i asked he stopping answering so regularly i m not sure if asking him wa the right thing to do i want to make it known that i care and that i m thinking of him but i m not sure if that make it worse i have never known how to help friend with anxiety either since it seems to be so rooted in not being able to talk about it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "having a coffee and going through my twitter facebook and other social network it seems to become a full time job to keep up",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "rhinecruise09 you re absolutely right",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i started taking depression med a few month ago and it make my suicidal thought go away it wa somewhat amazing i had such thought every day and now i barely think about it at all even when the stray suicidal thought pop up it feel different le scary my problem is that such thought would help me through the day ironiclly if i wa getting stressed i wohld think about the end of all my problem i even began to mutter i m gon na kill myself unddr my breathe and mask during work this wa insanely unhealthy and where i am now is much better comparatively but the thing that worsened these thought is still there i hate my job i have no friend i don t know how to open up to people and i m terrified about having to choose what my life will be i want to go to college study sociology maybe creative writing a well but when i go to take any sort of action i m terrified it s illogical i hate it i work at an amazon facility i stow package i pick up box and i push cart i ve working there part time for year it wa to me at least pathetic so i moved to a longer shift a small bit of action i hate working there but i m terrified of trying anything else my new shift is 0 and a half hour long with a 0 minute unpaid break and two minute paid break yesterday wa my first day after hour i went to cry in the bathroom i drove to work 0 minute ago and soon began cry it wa ugly cry i wa shivering and whimpering on my drive to work i didn t use to do this when i wa depressed i wa much more apathetic i had my coping mechanism but now i don t i m not saying that being depressed wa better i hated my suicidal thought they would ruin my day but i m now noticing that they did help me get through some rough moment it s just not something i expected i know that i should speak to a psychiatrist maybe a therapist a well i know that quitting my job would be better for my mental health i am lucky in that i have the ability to do so and still have somewhere to sleep and eat i know that i think about my future if not college with a sociogy degree then an electrition there are other option for me i m just scared and anxious the reason i wrote this here wa to make it all feel real ir s easy for me to move on from these moment but i should realise that the fear and anxiety from change can t be worse than the anxiety and especially the self hatred that i feel now sitting in my work parking lot writing this out and i took the day off i m scared to confront my mom when i get home but it s for the best and it s what i should do fuck amazon",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "burjz ugh i didn t mean to sign off and then when i got back you were gone",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i want to die so bad and i might carry on with it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "penalba por favor decime ke no estas involucrado en esa pagina nicatrolls they re the cancer that s killing b",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hedgewytch oh that s horrible about innocent smoothy we love them but if they start putting rubbish in them",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "got an offer to go camping at fraser island for the weekend would jump on the offer without a nd thought but it s forecast to rain",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is seriously wondering what the australian public were thinking by kicking my baby kat off of sytycd i miss her already",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m 9 i m in recovery for marijuana addiction i want to quit juuling soon it s making me so depressed and anxious i feel financially insecure i m not happy at my job and oftentimes time i feel suicidal i don t want to rely on med have any of you felt this way and made drastic change and turned it all around this is absolutely the most depressed i ve ever been and i ve never thought about suicide this much before i m seeing a therapist but ultimately i want to start leading a well rounded life with healthy coping mechanism that don t involve health insurance ha anyone ever done this have you gone through a dark era where suicide wa on your mind constantly but then you turned it around need some hope some story that make me think it s possible",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m tired of living the one thing that kept me alive just weaponozed my mental health about week ago and left i m tired of being stressed about everything bill and not knowing of i can feed myself i ve given up how much oxy is lethal asking for well myself",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s 09 am rn and it doesn t surprise me because i am used to this i have trouble sleeping because i always think about shit that ha gone wrong in my life and that is a lot i want to socialize have friend be funny i used to be when i wa back home with my friend i am learning in the u now but i always feel mute like i want to speak but i can t because i have a stomach feeling that shit is gon na go wrong so i just fake laugh and smile and it get awkward really fast and it becomes added to one of the thing that keep me up at night i also do weird stuff like smile weirdly curse under my breath or shake my hand or smth weird like that to distract from sudden flash of memory i have throughout my day and when i tell u it happens every damn day every damn minute or two i am not distracting myself in oh myyyy i just live everyday not wanting to wakeup wanting to die if course people around me don t know that i am just weirdly quiet to them anyway thought do i have anxiety",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween the herb is ideal for those that suffer from depression anxiety loss of a loved one heartbreak or have witnessed something tramatic thelmaherbs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "chordsy why am i the last to find out about these thing like that you re on the twitter too",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nowadays i find that thing simply don t make me very happy like video game reading watching tv i have felt pretty neutral over the past couple of month but god i feel so stupid saying that the only thing that make my day feel like it ha meaning is my shit supermarket job where i rearrange product and basically ruin the day of whoever work in that aisle i just like being told to do something and getting away from my not so nice home life i m exhausted during every shift and have passed out twice at work before but it the only thing that make my life feel like it ha any point i feel like i want to take more hour so i can avoid this constant boredom but my job also make me feel so anxious and exhausted i don t know what to do it sound so pathetic and stupid",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "rsk depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "http twitpic com y cf filled with curry the true indian in me is coming out",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "university drain a lot of energy in student damn the level of depression there could make a lot lose weight",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hey r anxiety i didn t know where to put this but figured it s mainly a side effect of my anxiety so i went with here i ll just get into it i m a 9 yo male that s been diagnosed with anxiety and other disorder mdd odd adhd polysubstance addiction this may sound weird but i wanted to know if you guy recluse by choice a someone who want to have friend and a strong social aspect in life but just doesn t have the social skill to i m curious if you have a similar experience knowing that it s not a choice is probably the hardest part for me like i see everyone out having fun spending the day with their friend and it destroys me inside knowing that i don t won t ever have that i live on the sideline which make me want to stay inside even more to avoid seeing that and feeling so i sit in my room the whole day getting high the only other place i go to is my job which i can t even look up at eye level out of fear of accidently making eye contact with someone i just feel like everyone s automatically put off by me which then make me act in a way that actually doe put them off i just want someone to talk to that s not either my mom or my dad i thought about it and realized that once my parent die i will have nobody which at that point what s my life worth",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yeah two people fucked and now i m here i know i know but that s not what i m getting at really why the fuck am i here i have no redeeming quality can t maintain friendship childhood emotional neglect very bad social anxiety depression anxiety ha absolutely fucked my short term cognitive memory i could go on and on but i m not going to because i m simply too fucking tired to do so",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this doesn t help my depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i think my depression hit me for the third time",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it a grey day in london come back sun all is forgiven",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "coming from an asian household i ve been told to become a doctor since the age of the constant pressure for good grade led me to repeat my senior year of highschool drop out of university graduate from a local college and then re enroll to another program then drop out since my parent hated the program i graduated from i want to thank them for the support they showed especially when they called me useless dumb an embarassment and how they would disown me now i m year old with a fairly decent working from home job that i may get fired from since i ve ignored my workload due to cycling back into a depressive state i now purely cope by playing video game and jerking off i live everyday day dreaming and at the same time regretting my wasted youth all the while my parent look at me with disdain and remind me whenever they can about how i ruined my life that s the end of my ted talk fuck my life man",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ugh hate haviinq dis sleepiinq problemsz",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "flat out today didnt get everythin done amp endured massive headache fever and nausea still have to finish my essay amp work tomory all day",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is annoyed with the amount of glass on dublin road and the number of puncture i am getting",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "a hleyf i m spending time with my grandma early tomorrow and i can t leave skittle by herself",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "plug on train once again doesnt work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "today wa a normal day i have started keep a to do list to tackle my depression it not always necessary for me to everything on that list provided i have some definite reason in my mind to not doing everything like okay i didn t cook today because the gas connection wasn t there also this list ha helped me with my medication a sometimes heavy dos make me feel forget to do small stuff but something s left from the list undone and i don t have any particular reason for that except spending extra time resting or etc i feel horrible and then a fear started to grow back of my head that if i don t keep with that list i will again fall in depression today after work i took some time off for myself then my boyfriend came over and we spent some quality time but it also made me let for cooking my dinner and a i planned to go for cycling after dinner now i am constantly feeling horrible for not striking off one job from my list and the absurd thing is i haven t even had my dinner yet so i am already freaking out about something which probably i will have time to do this whole situation is not only giving me anxiety without any concrete reason but also making me feel guilty for enjoying something that i love",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "a couple week ago i contracted covid and got it pretty bad for a few day there it caused a big flare up of anxiety for me a i am a heavy cannabis and nicotine smoker and i couldn t give them up while dealing with covid and inevitably the smoking made it worse and played into my anxiety for background i have been managing anxiety fairly well for the past or year with habitual cannabis smoking but sometime in the week i had covid a switch wa flicked and smoking instantly made me more anxious i went to the doctor and have been prescribed seroquel in the morning and evening same with diazepam plus zoloft in the morning i m wondering if this sound like the proper response to deal with this flare up or do you think my doctor is going down the wrong path he doe know my history with anxiety and explained the mechanic of dealing with the anxiety first and then dealing with smoking and told me that i should keep on smoking even though it put me in a vicious cycle so a to not have to deal with withdrawal at the same time a the anxiety he booked me an appointment for two week time to review how thing are working but made no mention of referring me to anything external or anything to do with cbt",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mizzzidc lol imagine depression nge nike niyaperforma thixo",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "already been on ssri s and they didn t do anything i don t desire companionship or want relationship just want to kill the desire entirely",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "literally and the depression that come before",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "caviarpurple israelite same here the depression is really eating me up switching off would literally solve everything for me but i m too chicken to do it atm http t co vvadmsoxsi",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ever since i wa little i wondered what purpose i served in this world i wanted to die because i really did not understand my use today i grew up i thought i had found this answer or that i would find it one day but i do study that don t interest me my family and my friend are far away i just realized that my spouse wa using me from the start and the world is bad i m useless and i don t think i ll ever be used for anything the urge to die is coming to the surface faster than i thought",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "officialrandl whattttttt they ve not brought anything new out for about year and they re crap when will the full line up be up",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "bout to start poor linny couldn t keep her eye open she tired and ha to work tomorrow morning night ilovefatsusan",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "off too work gunna miss the lush weather x",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just getting home it snowing",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "morning everyone still feeling poorly hope u all have a good day x",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "poohpot lmao im sorry poohpot i ate it all",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i have struggled with anxiety and depression due to complex ptsd since i wa young i f went to counseling for year in my teen and also medically managed my disorder with medication i am still taking a hefty dose of an ssri and have been maintaining my anxiety and depression fairly well while going through college transitioning to adulthood i recently in the past day have started having uncontrollable anxiety that ha led into the worst panic attack i ve had in over 0 year i wa so worked up that i brought myself to the er for help because i wa so scared and eventually exhausted myself out in the waiting room i m am still having serious anxiety and have managed to be functional but with how high my anxiety level are i could be back in the state i wa yesterday and i don t want to do that my current plan is to set myself up with a new therapist to get help and to discus my medication with my doctor unfortunately that can t happen overnight so i m the meantime i am asking for your advice on coping mechanism way to calm yourself down or out of a panic attack i normally use rational thought to try and bring myself down walking outside will help a bit deep breathes listening to music meditation etc these haven t been working recently and i m looking to learn amp find newer tactic in the short term while finding professional help i know that what is triggering this is a large life transition coming up and it s not something that s going away any time soon so i can t just avoid it to reduce my anxiety thank you",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "deucetwt dont think so it either new mechanic or you battle depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "rode river circuit asthma hit hard o too wet to mow amazed or amused that w pac cr limit raised celebrated with cole shop etc",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hi r anxiety i m a 0yr old male with what i would say is a decent amount of stress but nothing out of the norm yeah work is stressful rent is increasing and a proposal to my gf are all looming but i ve always been able to accept those thing will come with some mild stress since i m human i ve been experiencing what i can only describe a mild severe panic attack recently that are completely wiping me off the face of the earth this past saturday i found myself in a bathroom stall at noon after being out with friend for lunch drink experiencing symptom last night after work i came home wa slapped with tunnel vision trembling tight chest and once i laid down in bed had what i would describe a the worst experience of my life for 0 minute borderline exorcism i m completely new to this experience and am obviously concerned what my trigger are or where this is coming from i plan on having a wellness check with my local physician but are there buzzword or thing i should include so i can do exactly explain what i am experiencing i constantly drink water i take only about 00mg caffeine a day i exercise time a week i have what i would describe a a pretty well balanced diet why is this happening all of a sudden appreciate any feedback this is more of a vent",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yuddylicious he hatez me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "davidkudrev it s just a pity that facebook chat ha exceeded even msn s amazingly level of unreliability",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "at school right now just watched this is england and i m sorry to say that i didn t like it that much maby because i watched it here",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "recently i started dealing with a lot of stress which ha turned into me feeling panicked off and on throughout the day during my time of feeling panic i get this trouble with my breathing which feel incredibly terrible it is scary when it happens because it feel like i m breathless and like my breathing pattern mess up i wa wondering ha this happened to anyone else if so is it okay if i could ask a few question about it i d love to have some insight or more information on this situation",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "really hungry and sad that i had to throw my breakfast in the bin",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "today is day of my fast amp i feel i may break b i go bed i must hold out til the end of the wk must stayed focused wish me luck",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wan na go home",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i dont remember the first year of my life due to my father and his friend molesting me till mum finally managed to get away from him my earliest memory is drowning at the age of and having no one to care about me afterwards i wa just sent on my way at 0 i wa accused of beating my little brother when nobody wa looking mum refused to believe me even when he finally said it wa a kid at school that wa the first time i nearly killed myself life ha not gotten better my sister married another abuser my step dad lost the house and car and my mum is a neurotic mess who couldn t give a shit about me besides a her emergency atm i dont see why i should bother with life when this is all i have known it literally never get better i finally know how i will do it i have given myself week to see if i still want to do it and nothing ha changed my family probably wont know for a while nor care so this may be my only chance to say good bye life is just shit for some people i lost before i got a chance to start and i am fine with that now i suppose",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "shattered",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ha a huge headache",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dancing with myself i m not emo want to write a song",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my doctor just prescribed me trazodone buspirone and escitalopram for my anxiety i am not sure what to do here since i read they all interact with each other but my doctor say it s just fine and he know best i am already taking buspirone and it help a lot he also knew escitalopram give me insomnia and still prescribed it not sure if i should just stop bitching or find another doctor",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "swapping song through email with carrie damn the tasman damn it to hell i wan na jam",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im hungryyyy need more sushi",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the light that shine through oh what pretty color too evil is for story and thank god for the movie the depression wa awful a nickle too i changed my mind evil is hunger poverty endthe war the lie they tell for",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mizzzidc im sorry to say that you are one useless child any parent would wish to have such a desrespectiful child u spoke with your mother and u desrespected her enough privately why the need of posting on social medium we have people who suffer with depression stop hiding behind it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "first off i have very little experience in dealing with anyone with depression i freely admit that over the past couple of month i have been chatting with and hanging out with this amazing woman i met on a dating app she ha severe anxiety ppd postnatal depression suicidal thought etc we d hit thing off pretty well just from chatting over the app from what i thought there were a couple of time where she d wanted to end her life so she tell me but she managed to get past that the first time i met her in person wa amazing i had never ever felt so at ease taking with a woman before it went really well at that point i knew this chick wa worth the time we just clicked that well instantly since then we ve done a couple of day trip place and that went very well also one of those time wa with her young child le then yo she doesn t have a lot of time for herself and find it hard to get a decent night sleep partly to do with the young one waking in the middle of the night lately she s had a couple of very low moment her home life isn t the best still living at home because finically she can not afford to leave she get abuse from her mother constantly and also seems to live in fear especially when her child is being loud it could wake her mother a of last week she admitted that she really liked me i have been clear all along that i really like her just so she s not thinking that she s in limbo i live over an hour away from her but i do travel up to her home town for work at least twice a week sometimes le sometimes more there s some weird thing where she doesn t want her mum knowing about me so consequently i cant see her that much unless mum is not home which really suck i find it hard to deal with when it feel like she s giving me the cold shoulder i know it s the depression that s doing it not her true feeling one of her red flag about dating me is that i don t know understand her mental health however the way i see it is if you don t tell me then i can t understand but apparently that wa not the way to approach that one i d love for nothing more then to give her a big hug that in the hope that it might make her feel a little better about thing but unfortunately i don t get the opportunity she know that i will come up any time i don t mind driving at all so i don t let that be a barrier plus i can afford to do so i m scared to loose her because i really want her and i to work at time i want to just say stuff it and walk away but i know that s not what i want amp x 00b if anyone ha experienced the same thing or something similar your advice is much appreciated",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "doe not know how he got home last night",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is listening to an awesome song but i dnt no the name but i wan na upload it on limewire",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is frightened co it spider time i hope the flat repels them a i unfortunately haven t got a man to save me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t like this 9 malarky i should be out seeing my friend who i haven t seen in month stupid work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "put aside the weightless platitude that everyone say when someone mention suicide i want to know why me considering suicide a a genuine solution is so wrong why wouldn t i want a solution garunteed to work would you rather me live a long miserable life or have me logically decide that i ve had enough and have no more use here help me understand the logic what is so wrong about it this a question that ha continually plagued me so i would appreciate answer",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "what can i do besides tell someone that someone is bullying me it keep my depression even worse thx for the help",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i think i m gon na call it quits i just don t feel good i don t feel like anyone care about me i don t feel like i bring value to anyone s life let alone my own been listening to a song recently and the lyric just feel so resonant i relate so hard do you ever get a little bit tired of life like you re not really happy but you don t wan na die like you re hanging by a thread but you got ta survive you got ta survive i don t want to die but that thread the little bit of myself that kept me wanting to survive is just frayed it s razor thin and i just want to reach out and snap it already just get it over with i m tired i m hurting i m so fucking lonely and i just want it to fucking stop",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "be offline",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i killed the eggnog thread on pj with my lame joke",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "swati swati omg i missed you soo much have you heard the new jls song ahaa youre probs all jetlagged right now",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this is pointless this is all pointless living loving everything there only one thing one person i want more than death and i can t have him nobody want me around so whats the point of wasting my time suffering for no reason when all i do is waste air and people time a i force them to hang out with me nobody actually seek to hang out with me it s always me being lonely and wanting to hang out and them not having any excuse to say no they are indifferent if i leave or not indifferent if i die or not maybe i d get a pity aww like if a friend family member died you don t know them you just say aww out of sympathy sometimes i want sympathy i want someone to pretend for just a moment that they want me and they want to hug me and truly mean it people think i m always just saying depressing thing to fish for sympathy and hell what if i am maybe i need it maybe i need someone to actually care even for just a second about how shitty my life is my mind constantly go in circle awful stupid terrible circle of hatred i hate myself i hate the people around me i hate life i cut the people around me out of my life for their sake and mine and all it doe it make me hate myself and them even more im so desperate i can hardly stop myself from crawling back to them even though it only hurt me more i don t know how to solve this suicide is so painful and i m a pussy so there aren t many option i don t think i can stand to make it more year to be to buy a gun there ha to be something i can do in the mean time anyone with idea lmk lt",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m pregnant with my four child third baby daddy he left me about two week ago after assuring me he would be there for me and this child regardless a he knew i didn t want to raise another child alone i can t go thru with a abortion my two other kid are about to be and year of age there are no day care place i would be able to take my baby after it s born i don t have a mother or any sister family to help i will literally have no choice but not to work and eventually evicted from the house i rent i have worked so hard to make a nice life for me and my two kid now after being kicked off my family s property i lived in for 9 year i am native american so it s trust land i wa always told i would be able to live on i have kept the house i rent now for year ab raised my two child i have now for their entire life myself i did everything i could to give them a better life then i ever had and tried to be a mom i never had and parent all around i never had i had a shit childhood like most of u do i wa a product of a sale my mother wa a whore and my donor wa a customer my two brother and i were never wanted or meant to be when my mom disappeared during a custody battle my grandmother made my dad take me in she wanted to take care of me because she thought it wa right my donor could care le rather i lived or died i wasn t wanted and he will tell you that his self my grandma passed away due to alzheimer s when i wa about so my donor had to play dad during this time he used me a his personal punching bag and he allowed my brother who had molested me since the age of four to do the same i ran away at the age of and made a series of bad decision everyone say i m so strong for what i have been thru and over come but i feel if i wasn t so weak and stupid i would not of even gone thru those thing i have been held down and raped by cousin a stranger at gun point the guy i ran away to at lied to abused to the point if i have hearing loss and loose front teeth due to the beating from men shot with a and hit twice by the bullet it s like i wasn t ever supposed to be and life kept trying to make up for it mistake by trying to unalive me multiple time but here the hell i am i love my kid so much and don t want to leave them however i will have no way to support them once this new baby come and i just don t know what to do the people i rent from say they will help me a much a they can but they are elderly and i don t know if they can do this for another year till my baby can go to day care i know i should of got birth control and i use to have it but my lupus make it so i get clot with most birth control and others are dangerous i know i should of used a condom but love is my drug and so i m stupid when it come to men i know this is all my fault and killing myself will leave my kid with a man who doesn t really love them like a father doe just like what happened to me i know this and it kill me but i just don t know what else to do any more i m such a fucking joke as failure and i didn t want my life to be like this i have just been trying to pick up the piece and make the best my while life now i m here and i don t know what to do but end my life i have worked most of my life since the age of so i know my kid father with get money from the state if i pas away so maybe they will help him be a better father and maybe his wife will feel sorry for them and love them too i am too coward to take a gun and do it myself because i m afraid i ll fuck it up i just want someone to do it for me or tell me how to commit suicide by cop or the least painful way to do this i have no one nothing no friend or family just mt kiddos the people i rent from and the day care lady i wa saving to buy a place with this last guy now i ll have to use that to pay for our life once the baby is here till it all run out then i ll have to sell thing till it s just here minimum so we can live in my truck my kid deserve better my son is such a sweet boy and my daughter is so strong and beautiful they deserve so much better then i ll be able to give them soon i use to pay k for birthday party now i ll be lucky to even get them a hostess cup cake when their birthday some around please don t tell me i have so much to live for i know my kid need me and i know this just passed the pain to them but i have no option i m week pregnant a of right now and i can t bare to have a abortion and yes i thought of adoption but everyone i looked up seems so fucking weird and too put together like they are severely epstein people please just tell me how to make this all stop that s all i ask",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "please do not read if you re in a bad mental state currently is it painful to overdose and d e on medication can someone who ha experienced an 0verdose from a combination from the following list please explain the sequence of event adderall doxepin duexis ibuprofen famotidine pristiq abilify buspar alcohol and c0caine do any combination of these allow someone to d e in their sleep without feeling pain i know many prescription medication including some of the one previously listed are designed to make death from taking too many difficult i also know surviving an attempt can be very painful and lead to lasting negative health effect what do you do if someone is unresponsive locked in their room you d call 9 and they would be the one to break down the door and enter keeping you from seeing anything right lastly can a family cover up someone s su c de attempt and keep it a secret out of the medium can they just tell people it wa a drug 0verdose or is there no way to avoid everyone knowing what happened i m sorry for these asking these question",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "can anxiety cause pain where ur heart is i ve had ekg n been to the dr n they said i wa fine but my mind think it something else yk",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello friend i had a very rough night my period is in a day and during my pm i always have more anxiety and emotion than usual right now though i am going through a relapse of my gad and pa last night wa one of the most challenging night of my anxiety day i literally felt like the entire night wa a big long not ending panic attack session i had moment where i had the full blown panic attack but in between the anxiety wa constant in and out of sleep i wa a mess i wa convinced that this time i lost my mind i need to call an ambulance and put in a mental health hospital it wa too much absolutely out of hand and now i am exhausted anxious dp dr is here and hoping it will all get better once i get my period i am on therapy 0mg sertraline and trying to meditate but last night wa hard something i haven t experienced before and i am feeling so defeated and scared that this is it that s how i ll lost my mind",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "are you vaccinated against chicken pox should i vaccinate my yr old i am so confused about this damn thing",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve come to the conclusion that after year of therapy med and coping technique and never fully recovering i must have an overactive or damaged nervous system ha anyone else experienced this and if so do you have any tip on how to get started on healing it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t wan na leave co am is coming too soon",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "valium i needz it",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "kupavet depression mental illness ain t child s play",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is hungover and just want to stay in bed all day",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yea it is so quiet around here cuz everyone ha to work im bored to death with nobody to talk to",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "axon those got cancelled now everybody else is rattling my brain amp makin me cuss something terrible",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lunafiko can t wait to try em but prolly have to wait until next weekend at the earliest",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "imma just give a head up incase my brain want to fuck me over more in the next few hour im in a really rough spot mentally rn so tweet will be really weird sad funny or just irl b idk expect fuck shit here and there mixed with depression it s hittin hard",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i think the wifi on my iphone is broken it will quot connect quot but when i actually have to use it that s another story",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i feel lonely today",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "listening to q i got a really bad headache and a drivin lesson in ten min lucky me i just wana sleeep",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been getting a lot of internal tremor specifically during my attempt to sleep when i m fully relaxed and my mind is not anxious i start to feel the tremor come on especially in my head and in the back of my head it s almost a if my body doesn t want me to sleep context i developed a fear for sleeping in the dark they re like tiny spasm and they actually prevent me from sleeping and have caused me to be insomniac ha anyone experienced this before last night wa particularly challenging a i wa falling asleep i felt in my head a huge spasm like sensation accompanied with a loud sound my chest wa being sucked in i don t have the precise word to describe the experience but i felt fearful for my life and my health please let me know if these experience are familiar to you",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ewww cooky and cola dont mix well together my tummy hurt now",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i live in a small country in asia in this country it s like if you love someone you get a bad reputation your mom or dad is shamed at school if their kid is caught dating someone who doe that and our phone are also being checked by the school to see if we disturb a girl or are in a relationship with them the parent here are like you can date after being married xd so yeah i am very annoyed and sad about the fact that i can t love someone cuz of these",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "we ve been seeing a worrying increase in pro suicide content showing up here and and also going unreported this undermines our purpose here so we wanted to highlight and clarify our guideline about both direct and indirect incitement of suicide we ve created a wiki that cover these issue we hope this will be helpful to anyone who s wondering whether something s okay here and which response to report it explains in detail why any validation of suicidal intent even an innocent message like if you re 00 committed i ll just wish you peace is likely to increase people s pain and why it s important to report even subtle pro suicide comment the full text of the wiki s current version is below and it is maintained at r suicidewatch wiki incitement http www reddit com r suicidewatch wiki incitement we deeply appreciate everyone who give responsive empathetic non judgemental support to our ops and we particularly thank everyone who s already been reporting incitement in all form please report any post or comment that encourages suicide or that break any of the other guideline in the sidebar to the moderator either by clicking the report button or by sending u a modmail http www reddit com message compose to fr fsuicidewatch with a link we deal with all guideline violation that are reported to u a soon a we can but we can t read everything so community report are essential if you get a pm that break the guideline please report it both to the reddit sitewide admins http www reddit com report and to u in modmail thanks to all the great citizen of the community who help flag problem content and behaviour for u r suicidewatch wiki incitement http www reddit com r suicidewatch wiki incitement summary it s important to respect and understand people s experience and emotion it s never necessary helpful or kind to support suicidal intent there are some common misconception discussed below about suicidal people and how to help them that can cause well meaning people to inadvertently incite suicide there are also people online who incite suicide on purpose often while pretending to be sympathetic and helpful validate feeling and experience not self destructive intention we re here to offer support not judgement that mean accepting with the best understanding we can offer whatever emotion people express suicidal people are suffering and we re here to try to ease that by providing support and caring the most reliable way we know to de escalate someone at risk is to give them the experience of feeling understood that mean not judging whether they should be feeling the way they are or telling them what to do or not do but there s an important line to draw here there s a crucial difference between empathizing with feeling and responding non judgmentally to suicidal thought and in any way endorsing encouraging or validating suicidal intention or hopeless belief it s both possible and important to convey understanding and compassion for someone s suicidal thought without putting your finger on the scale of their decision anything that condones suicide even passively encourages suicide it isn t supportive and doe not help it also violates reddit s sitewide rule a well a our guideline explicitly inciting suicide online is a criminal offense in most jurisdiction do not treat any op s post a meaning that will definitely die by suicide and can t change their mind or be helped anyone who s able to read the comment here still ha a chance to choose whether or not to try to keep living even if they ve also been experiencing intense thought of suicide made a suicide plan or started carrying it out in the most useful empirical model we have http www apa org science about psa 009 0 sci brief the desire to die by suicide primarily come from two interpersonal factor alienation and a sense of being a burden or having nothing to offer these factor usually lead to a profound feeling of being unwelcome in the world so any acceptance or reinforcement of suicidal intent even something innocent like i hope you find peace is actually a form of covert shunning that validates a person s sense that they re unwelcome in the world it will usually add to their pain even if kindly meant and gently worded how to avoid validating suicidal intent keep the following in mind when offering support to anyone at risk for suicide people who say they don t want help usually can feel better if they get support that doesn t invalidate their emotion unfortunately many popular good response are actually counterproductive http www speakingofsuicide com 0 0 0 what not to say in particular many friend and family tend to rely exclusively on trying to convince the suicidal person that it s not so bad and this is usually experienced a i don t understand what you re going through and i m not going to try people who ve had help that made them feel worse don t want any more of the same it doesn t mean that someone who actually know how to be supportive can t give them any comfort most people who are suicidal want to end their pain not their life it s almost never true that death is the only way to end these people s suffering of course there are exceptional situation and we certainly acknowledge that for some people the right help can be difficult to find but preventing someone s suicide doesn t mean prolonging their suffering if we do it by giving them real comfort and understanding an unfixable problem doesn t mean that a good life will never be possible we don t have to fix or change anything to help someone feel better it s important to keep in mind that the correlation between our outer circumstance and our inner experience is weaker and le direct than commonly assumed for every kind of difficult life situation you will find some people who lapse into suicidal despair and others who cope amazingly well and a whole spectrum in between a key difference is how much inner resilience the person ha at the time this can depend on many personal and situational factor but when there s not enough interpersonal support can both compensate for it absence and help rebuild it we go into more depth on the it get better issue in this psa post http www reddit com r suicidewatch comment igd whats wrong with it get better what if it doesnt which is always linked from our sidebar community info on mobile guideline there are always more choice than brutally forcing someone to stay alive or passively letting them end their life to avoid accidentally breaking the anti incitement rule don t say or try to imply that acting on suicidal thought is a good idea or that someone can t turn back or is already dead do whatever you can to help them feel cared for and welcome at least in this little corner of the world our talking tip http redd it igh offer more detailed guidance look out for deliberate incitement it may come in disguise often comment that subtly encourage suicidal intent actually come from suicide fetishist and voyeur unfortunately this is a real and disturbing phenomenon http en wikipedia org wiki william francis melchert dinkel people like this are out there and the anonymous nature of reddit make u particularly attractive to them they will typically try to scratch their psychological itch by saying thing that push people closer to the edge they often do this by exploiting the myth that we debunked in the bullet point above specifically you might see people doing the following encouraging the false belief that the only way suicidal people can end their pain is by dying there are always more and better choice than brutally forcing someone to stay alive or helping actively or passively them to end their life creating an artificial and toxic sense of solidarity by linking their encouragement of suicide to empathy they will represent themselves a the only one who really understand the suicidal person while either directly or indirectly encouraging their self loathing emotion and self destructive impulse since most people in suicidal crisis are in desperate need to empathy and understanding this is a particularly dangerous form of manipulation many suicide inciter are adept at putting a benevolent spin on their activity while actually luring people away from source of real help a couple of key point to keep in mind skilled suicide intervention peer or professional is based on empathic responsiveness to the person s feeling that reduces their suffering in the moment contrary to pop culture myth it doe not involve persuasion don t do it cheerleading you ve got this or meaningless false promise trust me it get better or invalidation let me show you how thing aren t a bad a you think anyone who lead others to expect these kind of toxic response or any other response that prolongs their pain from expert help may be covertly pro suicide of course people sometimes do have bad experience when seeking mental health treatment and it s fine to vent about those but processing our own disappointment and frustration is entirely different from trying to destroy someone else s hope of getting help choice made by competent responder are always informed by the understanding that breaching someone s trust is traumatic and must be avoided if possible any kind of involuntary intervention is an extremely unlikely outcome when someone consults a clinician or call a hotline confidentiality is addressed in more detail in our hotlines faq post http redd it c ntr the goal is always to provide all help with the client s full knowledge and informed consent we know that no individual or system is perfect mistake that lead to bad experience do sometimes happen to vulnerable people and we have enormous sympathy for them but anyone who suggests that this is the norm might be trying to scare people away from the help they need please let u know discreetly http www reddit com message compose to fr fsuicidewatch if you see anyone exhibiting these or similar behaviour we don t recommend trying to engage with them directly",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "may 9th and september th are the worst day of the year for me and may in coming up so fast i feel the depression kicking in",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "gaspitsnicole sigh me too mostly i miss hsnging out with my friend damn growing up p oh yeah i miss being able to spell too lol",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "back work had a bad start of day almost falling down the stair not enjoying work yet",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "doe anyone have such horrible anxiety that they have full lost their appetite i have terrible anxiety i have a new job to attend small kid to take care of a mortgage to pay and my anxiety is out of this world everyday i am down to having the desire to drink tea water only and i don t know how much longer i can function trying to keep up with basic baseline life is so miserable a an anxious person",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "gmg 00 lol omg don t tempt me i just started p90 hour ago i need to at least be good for a day shoulda asked me yesterday",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "all the photo i try to upload are too big",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lucygooesy haha nice barbie backgroud he still hasnt replied lol",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "keeping my finger crossed for my buddy he is not feeling well",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "you know that feeling when the day and night drag on the tear stream down your cheek your vision start to tunnel the feeling of being lost with no where to go the movie staring yourself is playing and all you can do is sit back and watch a the world start to slip away from you slowly the first time i tried taking my life wa year old i wa physically and mentally abused from the moment i wa born and still mentally abused to this day this time it me abusing myself i got so used to being alone and not wanted so what s the point in trying anymore 0 0 wa a bad year for everyone but that is the time where i started losing a grip on my life for the last time my world started spirlling out of control what did i do i woke up at 0am walked into the kitchen grabbed a knife and drug of deep across my throat i walked into the bedroom where my wife wa sleeping she woke up to the sound of gargling only you find me trying to hold my throat shut she immediately called 9 and just looked at me in aw with a single tear falling down my cheek all she could do is watch a her husband is slowly dying right in front of her when i woke up day later in the hospital she wa no where to be found this is when my world came crashing down over me hearing those word whisper out of her mouth i want a divorce that wa the day i died inside i lost my soul mate my best friend my wife and the mother of my child i lost everything that day family friend my daughter my house my truck and my heart every day i fall asleep cry begging to take me back in time but in reality i know i can t so what is there left to do you ask die life for me ha ended i have nothing more left in me anymore i have been suffering from depression for a very long time i m exhausted i m tired i m alone i m lost all i want is to end this story of my life called misery i want to leave this world so i don t have to disappoint anyone ever again i am broken i can t do it anymore everyone say life is precious well to me life is a waste of time i have nothing more to give i have nothing more to learn i have nothing i am depressed i am hurt i am sitting in the theater watching a my screen start to fade to black this is it i tell myself i am no longer going to sit here and put a fake smile on my face for everyone else i am done helping out others with there problem why doesn t anyone ask me how i am doing probably because i would lie i am going to die i am ready i hope and pray the my daughter and my ex wife can forgive me i will always love them until the end of time with that being said i am signing off i have nothing left in the tank goodbye cruel cruel world until we meet again daddy will always be looking over you guiding you in a direction i never wa pushed towards i may not have any friend but i will be leaving a mark on legacy my job here is done good bye signing off",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "cnn in term of immune system depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "didn t even want to get up for work this morning i just wasn t feeling it but had to anyway",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been struggling with an eating disorder for five year now it ha stolen those year from me crippled me from doing thing i love due to my low body weight made me unable to think rationally and study diligently my family are exhausted mum especially sleeping beside me because she s terrified i ll die alone in my sleep it make my heart rot thinking about the hour they ve spent worrying about me or the time and money flushed down the toilet finding me treatment i always disappoint them the mental health team i ve been going to have been more harm than good mum tried to send me to them a early a she could after spotting my illness they did nothing to prevent it from spiraling out of control which it shortly did i had a useless councillor who would stare at me in silence for an hour every week once she broke it to ask if i drank chocolate milk pretty self explanatory considering i had anorexia my parent and i left each session in tear after politely asking if we could swap councillor the team began bullying my mum they thought we were attacking the councillor i wa seeing this meant they refused to offer me a bed at a residential care and threatened to stop paying for my weekly doctor visit unless i disengaged in seeing a private therapist whom i wa making progress with today i found out my mum s plea to put me into residential care ha been accepted i m scared shitless what worry me most is how much they ll fatten me up i ve read somewhere patient are only released once they ve restored of healthy weight however i m also aware i ll be alone with sick and possibly more malnourished kid than myself five hour away from home i lost it when i heard the news screaming and cry my eye out at my mum who should never deserve to be treated like that she ha done everything she can to keep me alive both her and my younger sister are so sick of me my sister hardly ever speaks to me when she doe it s usually to yell at me for being an idiot and retarded once she even told me she wa embarrassed to go out in public with that me and wished i died of cancer honestly i wish so too especially when i remember how close we used to be i went to my mum after dinner to ask for some support she told me i wa so selfish for continuing to engage in a disordered lifestyle and then taunted me when i said i couldn t drink an additional supplement formula i ve pushed those i love away from me i m so alone and lost i m praying to god i get sick and die because then they wouldn t think i wa doing it for attention or being selfish i m so sorry for the rant but i just don t know what to do",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "in biology class my lip hurt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "onlytosee twitter s been doing that to me tooo",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "surely just hanging there being asphyxiated by the rope will kill you eventually if the above mentioned thing don t happen",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "today i took the very scary choice of going to the hospital i don t know if i needed to but i wasn t sure how safe i wa and wanted to be careful a few hour a benzo and a long therapy session later i wa out and feeling pretty great about myself i did the right thing i relied on professional help i made sure i wasn t burdening my family and then my wife told me she didn t want me to come home and this just fucking broke me can you imagine getting out of the hospital after a surgery or accident and having your spouse tell you they don t want to see you would anyone say after you got out your appendix you weren t there for me today so i don t want to see you i understand and respect that being with someone with a mental illness is really hard i have done so many thing that would totally justify leaving me but what s breaking me is that the thing that i am getting turned away for wasn t my horrible behavior but the time i did the right thing the time i got help",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "spending more time outdoors can decrease your chance of depression quote fb http t co hijckgl0hm ig http t co sv h ne b http t co fw c9hg 9m",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lol not literally but when i m out with a group of people for example i always feel so weird like i don t belong or that i m so abstract from everyone but in reality i m accepted by everybody amp it rlly suck feeling this way anyone else go through this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "depression remedy little step big impact http t co kebtd od depression humanpsychology remedy",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "paulteeter we passed by the border",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "when the seasonal depression finally fuck off and life is enjoyable again gt gt gt",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "also i realize that sounded a tad drama queen but i haven t been sick in year it s hittin me hard this time",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "and so the editing of 000 wedding shot begin",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "aventure that s window for you i get to deal with about 0 window server and 0 window machine misbehaving every day shoot me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "finished everything she need to do at work tonight ugh three hour of nothing coming up",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m am a year old male and i don t know if it s healthy to feel this way one of my relative is not feel so well and i myself feel like this have been affected me a lot recently and i also feel like i can t take all the thing at school i just feel like a total failure and that i will never be anything or get a good job and i feel like the only think i know is that i shan t to impress my dad but i just feel more shit every time i fail a test i feel like i m disappointing him more and more",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i hate money",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "man tax suck i m horrified that i did something wrong on them turbotax decided to keep around a lot of the stuff i turned off",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "going to clean my depression room so i can change the desk and the bookshelf http t co dy0jj slj",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hedonist lover ive lost myself upon your devilish gaze smile razor blade cutting word vibrantly painting picture with blood marking wall memory screaming out i will infest your subconcious like drapery beautiful silk of morbid whisper cover my body while my soul gently rock in the wind hedonist lover set me free",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "anytime i m alone i m instantly depressed i can t enjoy tv alone i can t enjoy a walk alone i just hate it alone i just lay here all day in my bed on my phone for hour then go to sleep but i get so sick of my phone how can i be alone",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "adame ruddy money i like it still waiting here oh what a surprise by state too hmmm seriously",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "studying commerce how am i suppose to remember so much",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "please just end it please ive tried od ing ive tried slitting my wrist i cant do it right just someone tell me the fastest and least painful way",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "missykesson bet you let mcgee on there hahahaha",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ch0en huh like what i didnt know",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just enabled activesync on my google apps account i can now sync my contact and calendar over the net but no mail a of yet",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "today ha just been so shitty it s so busy at the store i work at and i just constantly feel like i can t breath today i m also so paranoid because i ve been texting my family literally all day and nobody s gotten back to me so i m stupidly paranoid about something bad happening to them",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ha anyone had trouble with making progress in therapy i ve tried therapy a fair bit throughout my life and i ve never really gotten anywhere this year ha been exceptionally hard for me and so i have thrown myself into therapy and put a ton of effort both into finding therapist who were a good fit a well a really trying to put effort into it unfortunately i seem to be a failure at it i ve had four therapist tell me after a few month of seeing me that they didn t think they were making any progress and although they all offered to keep seeing me if i wanted they didn t want me to waste my money i feel like a complete failure and lost cause i honestly don t know what it is that i m doing wrong",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i miss my room in pasig i have no place right now to take sp s",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hhh it s time like that when you want thing to stay right then someone come and wreck it",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "anyone else having awful war anxiety if so how are you managing i like near a base so basically my situation is i m f ckef if putin decides to bomb it any advice or well word are helpful i just need to calm myself about this ww stuff please",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i need sims gaah",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "goodbye jive test server so very sorry to have to shut you down",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "avisionofbeauty your phone doesn t like it sorry",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i really hate everything about myself i hate what i sound like look like my body my personality i really can t do this anymore and i won t try to i really wish i looked so much different wasn t a annoying a chatterbox i hate that i know i won t get better people call me a fighter for my disease but i hate it i wish i didn t have the clusterfuck of shit inside me i wish i wa pretty or maybe cute a cute cat a rabbit man something so i won t have to understand what people say about me i hate my body but i use fashion a my coping mechanism i never really wa able to my ex didn t like me wearing anything form fitting or revealing now that i can i find out that i probably don t have a lot of time to also definitely not the fund to when i wear something i like i feel nice and free but i also hate what i see in the mirror i said i wanted to be a cat or a rabbit but maybe a rock instead just chilling by the beach on the sand or some stream maybe a kid will take me and glue me on some paper glue sand rock seashell glitter amalgamation which will eventually be thrown in the trash to god know where i just don t want to be able to comprehend anything any word any judgement sound stupid laughable and i agree i don t know anything about the idea of reincarnation but when i kill myself tonight i guess i will hope to be a rock lol",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hi everyone i fly home from calgary to vancouver on sunday it s about an hour flight i suffer from gad and am constantly fearing the worst i have minor asthma i ve never had an asthma attack but i do have a rescue inhaler and i do take a maintenance inhaler everyday to prevent anything from happening i read somewhere that there s le oxygen in flight and am worried about what would happen if i had an asthma attack would i be ok would i be able to survive that hour flight please re assure me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "stupid glass and it s ability to cut my foot",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "m moved home to my parent during covid in summer 0 0 to save money a everything wa remote everything is still remote so i decided to stay however i miss big city life with more bar restaurant more stuff to do the higher number of single 0 0 somethings like myself going back to la is a no go a rent is absurd and i d be paying almost half of my salary just to have a decent bedroom apartment i m currently renting a house from family but i m lonely a fuck i live in a small town with 000 people i feel stuck between a rock and a hard place",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been suicidal for year i hate my life and i haven t felt joy for a long time a much a my parent don t care for my feeling and neglect me i know that if i end myself they d be devastated seeing i m their only child i don t know what to do anymore tbh i really want to do it but i love my family too much to hurt them like that",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "down to pack of moroccan mint tea and a whole truckloads of kenyan tea",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve literally never changed my hairstyle it s just been a trim on top and on side but recently i ve started going out more and a few people i ve met out ha said to me that getting a medium fade cut would look good i ve always had a problem with barber though i have to go in about 0 minute before it close on a friday a that s the least busy time i only ask for the same cut because i hate making change how do i word it what do i say when i come in having a script in my head make thing easier cheer",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "redpr no look like housework for me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i had so many suicidal thought last night while i wa driving to try to make myself feel better i thought drowning is scary but i can go put my car in the river and drown then i went well let s look up to see what medication we have that might do it i m just so tired i ve tried so many different medication at this point i do therapy nothing ha worked i m still holding onto a little sliver of hope thing won t always be this way maybe one day i can keep my house clean all the time maybe one day i won t be so stressed and anxious maybe one day i ll be able to stay consistent and do well at my job if feel like it s further and further away i also just believe i m a total fucking failure at and discredit all the thing i ve done because it s just not good enough to me i don t know how to stop the negative self talk oh and i m also sometimes hearing voice lately sometimes i know they re not there real other time they sound like they re right next to my window or in my house i really wish i could just not exist for a week or a month why can t i just shut it all fucking off for a while i even just had a nice date with my partner and i m already back to thinking well i should still kill myself soon",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m extremely suicidal but i want to live could anyone give me reason to live i don t want to feel this way but i hard not to think about it please anyone",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "baby i miss you so much",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "anistorm sorry",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "swellvintage a lot better today thanks unfortunately being sick did not mean loss of apetite for me x",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sihlewasembo lord bonda mizzzidc our toxic home are just okay people share make mistake and forgive we certainly don t and will never throw a fit get into depression over sneaker",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "anyone else feel this or is it just me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "gen marie i hope we can fix you in california at least",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just stop being me stop being a disaster stop being a disappointment stop being annoying stop being so anxious",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "idk if anyone else get this i get anxiety poop sometimes but i also get anxiety vomit idk if it from excessive hyperventilating when i have an attack or just from the anxiety i get super nauseous and have no choice but to go vomit this can happen every night if it particularly bad doe anyone else get this i tried looking it up and i couldn t find much regarding vomiting when having a panic anxiety attack it the worst",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "am gutted checked weather report for the wrong day no fishing for me today",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "oishiieats",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "seamonkey i am on a healthy eating kick i could only have shetland pony",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "danaeatsyou hahaha im sorry i didnt mean to and you re supposed to film the day of silly thats cheating doing it the day before",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "good morning i am going for a run this morning then it off to the dentist for some drilling",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "cannibaleyes i a bowling and the shit ripped",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m going to the eye doctor to get an eye exam today and my anxiety is so bad because i m so scared i have a serious eye disease or something doe anyone else have anxiety about getting their eye checked i can t breathe and i feel like throwing up",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wellreadkitty oh poor thing i used ot love squeezing out the pu when i wa a vet nurse kinda gross really",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this is it i m sorry but i can t do this anymore i m tired and alone and i used up my resource to help me survive but it s over now i know my ex will be happier without me around and i know he will take care of our cat a i would it s going to suck not being alive anymore but i m done struggling to breathe i m exhausted i m bled dry i hope my friend and family can forgive me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i ve struggled w executive dysfunction for 9 year throughout my year of college there wa not one assignment that i did not do the night before it wa due i studied late ate terribly amp went thru a terrible depression a year after graduating i still have a really hard time doing thing in general i stall before i do anything at all amp it oftentimes lead to me not doing the thing at all also i kind of live my entire life on pause only taking care of myself when i have something planned or to look forward to i left my job that i wa insanely good at bc the commitment amp longevity terrified me why can t i function amp what ha helped u work thru these feeling",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ryanseacrest is it just me or she hate anoop i mean seriously she s kinda mean to him",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "haven t talk with aaliyah love in a few miss her some wife say to thank her for the mag she sent u",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been having this for a few day doe anybody know of this is from anxiety my hearth is normal but i ve been having headache and chest pain too",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "seeing that shouldnt have made my stomach flip like it did",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hi just wanted to share my experience and hopefully get some advice from people who suffered through same symptom when i have extreme anxiety period i can not eat almost at all i eat one small meal a day if im lucky also vomiting can not be avoided when these episode come i have vomited several time when i wa out with friend for example i would say i have to pee and i would vomit my soul out of my body how can i help myself i am tired of dealing with this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello my daughter is suffering from what doctor initially diagnosed a depression we tried different med and all resulted in a flat affect and her staying in bed eating seemingly only carbs and gaining weight weaning off resulted in a year old thst ha life but is still anxious to the point of impairment at time she is terrified to try anxiety or adhd med a she doe not want to end up flat her word i am not looking for medical advice rather i am wondering if anyone ha experience with medication that did not totally remove emotion i hope this make sense and i thank you for reading",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is really really tired and hasn t slept in day can barely keep my eye open really missing my sanity",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my wife f wa doing great losing weight by walking and dieting but she expressed sn interest in working out in a gym so i bought her a gym membership for christmas a higher package that includes tanning and massage besides just the work out equipment she go night a week now after work i do kid duty in the evening after work and then just sit at home by myself if i ever try and make time for myself it is interrupted by work or home life i love my family to death would do anything for them but i have burning the candle at both end and never see any relief in sight it never stop someone always need something someone always want to bitch about something it just doesn t stop never i just want something for myself to go golfing uninterrupted to get a haircut without my phone buzzing my only release is yoga at night when the kid are in bed i know i should do it in the morning but i am just exhausted and can t i work 0 hour a week make sure all the bill are paid pick up the house every evening make dinner to time a week do homework with the kid every nigh do the dish do all the yard work and house upkeep i m just done i m spent and i feel like i can t take a second off or i will let someone down or be deemed selfish doe anyone else feel this way",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ha got work again today",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "being loved by everyone having money to take care of my family giving back traveling the world getting up each morning working on project having no insecurity being respected being king",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am mentally exhausted i have so many problem that i can not deal with my older brother bully me daily and all i do is just sit and listen to it if i tell him to stop he will just continue to be more annoying i have a lot of health problem my parent dont want to take me to a doctor because they think i am lying so i have to do it myself i am not legal in my country i go to school and put on a fake personality and laugh people bully me even there not physcally but mentally they tell me i am dumb weird skinny crazy i have zero friend in real life i have online friend that used to help me with everything and even made a workout plan for me all of that faded since my health is sucking rn my parent call me crazy daily becayse i like ti play video game for hour a day that is crazy to them even tho everyone else tell them it normal all i feel inside if me is just fear sadness and hopelessness 0 good or happy thought i thoght dozen if time about suicide i can t do it i have ocd and that top of everything and obliderates my life and make me suffer even more i can t take it anymore i don t knoe where to go or what to do it like i don t belong anywhere or cant do anything all i can do is whine on random subbredit because i have no one to talk to is this all life really is i know you might say ohh but if you try to get yourself up and get motivated and do stuff trust me i tried it many time it fails because of family problem etc am i worth saving is my life really worth living",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "katebornstein which is pretty anti memorial tattoo but for all but the strictest there s no official ban just disapproving family",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "maxime darn can t open it on my work computer not supposed to have fun at work but thanks anyway",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s just a constant reminder that you don t really have any friend seeing everyone having fun laughing hanging out with eachother and then there s me depressing awkward and lonely i fucking hate it i just can t take it every single day being reminded of how much of a sad loser i am",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "year old male year here i ve always had a confusing relationship with myself and anxiety when i wa a young child i wa very outgoing then hit about and wa bullied because of my sensitivity and openness developed really bad anxiety a a result got to year old and found it impossible to talk to girl and wa completely sick of my shyness so i decided overnight that i wa going to showcase my confident side at all time faking it till i made it this wa a blessing and a curse because a lot of my confidence wasn t necessarily real i wa inspired by people like russell brand and keith moon and i kind of acted like them all the time now thank god i ve reached a much calmer equilibrium most people would consider me a a very confident outgoing person but i feel much more myself i m way calmer chatty and forward with people one on one but i m still plagued with anxiety in other area i have no real issue in social occasion i m the frontman in a band and we re about to go on tour playing to thousand of people and i literally have no nerve whatsoever if only this translated to everyday life firstly i m terrified of getting a new scary job working in a pub bar something with people who have the potential to be snooty and mean if i don t know what i m doing instead i live at home with my parent in a sheltered existence i work a really simple easy job at home because i m too scared of a job where i have to do something new for the first time working in a bar absolutely terrifies me but deep down i wish i had the bravery to just do it and not give a crap if i fuck up whenever i ve tried new job in the past i get so frustrated with myself when i m not my cool calm confident self in these new situation why the fuck do i take so long to get relaxed with these thing and how do i get the bravery in the first place i m just so scared that people might perceive me a being shy i guess i value my self worth on my level of confidence in that current moment my second massive issue is when i m on my own in public perhaps public transport for example i m just fizzing with anxiety constantly it s horrific in public i feel extremely self conscious i know that no one give a shit about me or care about me but i literally feel like people are judging me constantly even though i know this isn t true something a simple a cycling on a road is a fucking impossibility i m just so scared that people will think i don t know what i m doing i just hate that physical feeling of anxiety of people watching me and judging me literally sitting here with a massive stress headache because of being in public the last couple of hour i then overthink about this for hour and hour because i just don t understand how i can be this way feel like i m having a personality crisis therapy hasn t helped medication didn t should i just stfu and get on with it in essence exposure therapy how can i not care when load of people are watching me on stage but literally feel like i m dying when people look at me in public why is there this maddening split personality in me i don t think my confidence is an act because when i m confident and relaxed i would consider that to be my most normal authentic self i m not naturally a quiet person just desperately insecure and sensitive",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s not easy being useless i am honestly just considering quitting my job and spending these last few day in a hedonistic fashion i hate my family so their feeling don t matter i never understood the logic that i shouldn t kill myself because it would make other people sad it seems like everyone is for doing what s best for you until that thing that s best for you is suicide the rule for suicide are different because when you re suicidal you have to throw what s best for you out the window and do what other people want for you and that s fucking bullshit",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dad wa admitted to hospital yesterday so want to fly to cape town to visit r 900 for monday return ticket on kulula",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m currently an art student at university and i m trying to pas the year but my anxiety coupled with my low self worth ha made it dangerously difficult to complete any kind of task or face up to any kind of challenge it s already taking what i have to take care of myself everyday and to give myself break whenever thing get tough but my work demand a lot and i want to get through it but whenever i look at what i have to do the thing i need to do i shut down i can t imagine myself ever completing these task or accomplishing thing and this is my last chance at university or i have to drop out i don t think i could take that kind of failure i want to be able to sit down and work hard face the challenge and either fail and try again or triumph and move onto the next so much of me is tied to the confidence i have in a task on a good day i ll create something i never thought i d do on my own but those day are rare i ve tried therapy but i can t afford it anymore and free healthcare here mean waiting month for a chance at a session ha anyone felt something similar to this or know what could help so far just typing this out ha helped a bit",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "people who have been through depression or terrible life tell your success story or how you have changed i really need it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i want to die so badly even just cut do something to ease this pain but my mom took all my blade all my option even my medication i have no access to anything anymore and i feel empty hollow i want to die so badly but i cant because i have no mean thats the only real reason i m alive right now is i dont have a way to unalive send help im not well im cry everything is terrible and i want out there really should be a log out option on life so you can take a break and come back if when youre ready to face this hell",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "phillcoleman i had it a low a last night",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am 0 married year this october and a four year old about to start school none of this matter when i m expected to pick up the slack for my family and their failing my sister wa diagnosed with schizophrenia my parent have no idea how to deal with it having lived with chronic depression their entire life and relying on faith to get them through she s refusing treatment medication and in denial of her condition it s a constant cycle of her being unstable hospitalized until shes able to manipulate the doctor that she s okay and go home to torment u my brother is leaving his military job after year and freaking out because he doesn t think he ll survive a a civilian i m fairly certain he ha his own mental issue stemming from way back but he s also just barnacled on to me for guidance i wanted to kill myself i wa about to and i called and got help and i ve been on medication for year i struggled with alcoholism in my early 0 and decided to stay sober for my daughter and i m finding it hard to hang on with all of this going on i m finding it hard to help people who don t want to help themselves but if i don t then everything just go to hell and i m the one to blame because i m the smart one and have to guide everyone where they re supposed to go it s exhausting having to care for people who refuse to accept they have issue i feel like i m being punished for being the only one in my family for having had the fortitude to acknowledge my mental illness it s taking a toll on my marriage and i am scared of the consequence of what that would entail i worry for my child because if i can t take care of myself then i can t take care of her i m staring at the same abyss that wa before me those year ago when i wa spiraling and i don t want to be here again anyway thanks for hearing me out reddit i just needed to verbalize it to make sure i m not just imagining it all",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "why do i feel like when i m about to talk to someone i always see what am i lacking and how to provide solution for it and then not going to tell it in the end wtf",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wa at the peak of my depression during lockdown level yoh",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "fayokemi keziah oluchy is it laughter or depression you re wishing me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have been suffering with severe anxiety for a couple year now i had a bad life threading car accident in 0 0 and thing have never been the same i started college during the pandemic 0 0 and i wa on zoloft i wa taking my zoloft inconsistently and ended up in the hospital with severe side effect i decided to give it another try month later and the same thing happened i wa prescribed prozac in 0 and then took it for two day amp almost attempted fast forward to now my anxiety is the worst it s ever been i have severe side effect such a dizziness blurred vision shaking panic attack ect it s taken a toll on my daily life and i can t seem to function normally i m almost 0 year old amp living at home still because i can not seem to get a grip of my anxiety my day are long and exhausting amp most day i feel it would be better to end it all i will say i am also in therapy and considering seeing a psychiatrist i need advice anything i would love to hear about medication health psychiatrist therapy anything i just want to see what ha helped other people thank you everyone",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "month ago i wa hospitalized because deperssion i wa diagnosed with depression they put me on abilify and depakote not first time on med year ago i wa on seroquel depakote and klonopin because my psy tought i wa bipolar but maniac phase or psychosis never happened and fit me i remember the last day in hospital i had this urge need of masturbate orgasm were beautiful and after i got home i had for a week these urge of masturbation and good orgasm but only in masturbation a i remember not in sex too someone had the same experience i wa recently diagnosed with adhd my psychiatric tapered off abilify and im now mg next week 0 i started with depakote 0 mg and 0 mg abilify next week i will be start again ritalin for my adhd why i had this increased libido thank you everybody",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tired cant sleep baby feeding at 0",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "even the most basic task are super difficult to do this is most likely going to be my final week on this shitty planet and it s most certainly going to be my final post",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just got my presentation done slide done i m cry for this week will be the hardest of all week",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "why the heck am i still awake i m usually so tired all the time but once a week it seems my mind body say no sleep for you wtf nosleep insomnia depression stress http t co oyjph znfy",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "j stricko i found it pretty frustrating stupid monkey",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "one of my friend called me and asked to meet with her at mid valley today but i ve no time sigh",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hate revision",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been on mirtazapine 0mg daily for over a month now and seroquel 0 mg daily for just over two week i can t take it i ve been eating everything and making myself sick to my stomach gained weight have strange dream insomnia foggy brain and increased suicidal thought and i ve been more depressed than i ever have before i understand that medication take time to work but it doesn t feel like i have time i have talked to my psychiatrist family doctor and been to the hospital for an adjustment but to no avail i couldn t stick it out anymore so i went cold turkey on them both day ago i know that this is an incredibly stupid decision without the advising of a doctor but i can t handle it anymore i m wondering what should i expect for withdrawal symptom",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lanarisque hahahahhha hows your food poisening going ha it gone away",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have a friend at work that i ve been confiding in for the last couple week we both are experiencing depression and suicidal ideation over the last several year she seemed like someone who ha everything together in a sense that she ha a gridiron exterior great career very positive attitude and i come to learn she s barely hanging on in my struggle with depression she ha been my most interesting and welcomed member of my support network i m also working at getting my former bos now my director back into my network my current bos add to the depression quite a bit but having a network of people to connect with is truly a blessing my point is that there are so many wonderful people and sometimes you expect the least expected to be your strongest ally stay strong and make today the best you can practice self care exercise is therapy therapy is therapy and be a reason someone release the stigma that depression is for the weak but that the strongest have to survive the self destruct mechanism in your brain just learn to manage it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ashley tisdale i love you but why did you dye your hair",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "msjodiodie it such a sad situation though in of u will be beaten in u every second amp killed a day it s sadly commonplace",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "slideshare s embed code is annoying me sorry about the tiny embed fail",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im on val s mac in iitsc clubroom still sweating",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "talking bout depression girl i just got off the pill",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sarahreedsc treaty isn t defined",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my bf s ex is now his best friend there like sibling according to them and they love each other like family i m a person that can t handle change well at all they use to hate each other and that wa what i wa use to they became best friend and i try so hard to deal with it and be her friend and accept it but it s so hard for me i ve been trying for month eventually tonight she got in a predicament and i helped her bf get her and calm her down i feel like maybe i m accepting her more and friendship more but this relief feeling want me to k ll myself even more what is this i m so confused i thought having good relationship would make you want to stay more",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "should have stayed at home",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "uh d why did the dentist hurt today holy crap i feel like my teeth are all about to fall out",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "doesnt want to go to work lol",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "can someone help me kill myself or give me way to please i m i m really done with life idc about anything anymore i don t want people to try and stop me like i just need a way to do it but idk how like what thing to do love you all xx",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "no i don t want to kill myself but i want to die i reflect on the last 0 year of my life and see nothing good and can t see the future improving my mom just died my longest relationship recently ended terribly and with abuse i have addictive behavior i never seem to kick and i don t see it changing i ve gone to therapy i m trying to find another good therapist but haven t heard back from voicemail i ve left so far if you have a response i appreciate it but please don t share vague generality tell me your personal hurt experience will carry more with me than it get better or similar platitude i m hurting i need to hear the hurt others have been able to endure to feel encouraged i never thought i could feel so empty and so sad and so angry i hate living right now i never thought i d ever feel so bad edit i have nobody i have my job and i have my dog my family isn t the support system i wish it wa i don t have any real friend i ve tried reaching out but everyone is busy with their own problem",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "do i play pjsekai to forget the fact i wa clinically diagnosed with social anxiety and depression or do i hug miku plush and think about the fact i wa clinically diagnosed with social anxiety and depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "r i p baby girl sandra cantu my prayer r with the cantu family be strong",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i really should be sleeping already but just can t seem to get to bed before the sun come up progress on sorting out life is slow hard",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "everyone hate me so much",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "got ta calm the weekend down monday blue carrying on into tuesday",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have to wake up in hour laameeee",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello i am year old and a senior in high school i also have adhd and autism i have been suicidal twice before th th grade and 0th grade but this is possibly the worst it s been the disaster started back in september when i got diagnosed with a rare genetic disorder called nf everything i have heard about this disorder from doctor and online sound fucking horrible and nothing i want to live with then in october i met my first girlfriend so i wa happy for a bit but if course that went south too i ll just get right to the point when the relationship started i made clear to her that i didn t want sex and she agreed however later that same month she talked me into it in november december she asked for it multiple time a day and guilt tripped me when i said no she made me feel horrible when she did this then in january i wa saying no repeatedly and she just pulled my pant down and started riding me even though i wa trying to push her off and safe wording i broke up with her in february but there s been drama and social bullshit ever sense in addition recently i got in an apartment fire for the second time in my life this caused me to lose all my belonging they are allegedly being cleaned but it s taking for fucking ever this mean i don t have many of my coping mechanism which is only adding to the stress we had to stay at a hotel for a few night and now we re in a new apartment but it s not the same but that s not all my shitty life ha to offer in addition i have medical debt i also tried calling the suicide hotline the other day and the lady on the phone said what do you want me to do about it and later she hung up on me even aside from all the stuff i mentioned there s several more recent incident i m just to emotional to type it all up now i honestly don t know what to do i keep thinking that thing will get better soon but the only get worse",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "gripping agreed love the sound but hate how everyone know them",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ha a huge headache but got ta go to work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my dota ladder stats on garena don t seem to have been updated",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i hate when i have to call and wake people up",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "first vent that is not related to the second one i ain t transgender i m fucking delusional he always find a way to make me feel like fucking shit i fucking hate him i thought of him like a father and now he just fucking betrays my soul he call me selfish for wanting him to see me a a boy he only give a fuck about himself he humiliates other kid and get a fucking kick out of it and i m sick of his shit sometimes i wish he understood how much i fucking suffered im having a whole fucking insane as fake as probably episode over a goddamn teacher god fucking dammit everyone tell me to just stop having such strong bond with a teacher but i can t fucking control it i can t i don t mean that in a creepy way i just genuinely want his approval so bad that it ha made me go over the fucking rail i want him to just approve me i want him to so fucking bad i insult him yet i love him like a father figure why fucking why separate vent made at the same time and just to get off that stupid as note for a minute i wish to fucking kill myself in a way where my face ain t recognizable my breast are cut the fuck off and the part at the bottom is fucking burned off to a crisp it s almost what i fucking fantasize about at this point maybe then the red neck degenerate won t try to dig me up and fuck me or some stupid as shit like that oh i ll know they will find my female abomination but at least i ll give them the nightmare to look at when i m fucking gone sexy sexy sexy that s what she called it oh how she wanted my body to be hers sick fuck i m gon na be sick just like her i fucking know it i m just an attention seeker bitch or just insane i can t tell at this point fucking bitch",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "rach oh no that suck mike ha to work saturday and monday andrew got from friday till wednesday off the bugger lol",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been feeling pretty even consistently which is good i missed a dose the other night i usually take them before bed i fell asleep on the couch by the time i woke up at am i felt it wa too late before the next dose so just halved the dose today i truly felt the difference and realized the importance of this medication i do find that now that i know what it s like to live like someone with a more normal brain wave thanks to the med when anxious start do enter my mind now it s much more frightening than it wa before even though i ve lived with gad for a long time i wa diagnosed with it a couple of month ago and still i m having difficulty accepting it doe anyone else have the experience of anxious thought now more pronounced and frightening when they are experienced upon missing a dose",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ladyldn i hope you feel better soon being ill is no fun at all",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "pinkserendipity yes sprint ha g only in baltimore and chicago so far",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "off to see my german girl for her last night in brisbane",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "well it sunny outside but im stuck indoors far far away from a window roll on dinner",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so tomorrow today finishing up hmwk getting over being sick then getting ready for another day of school tomorrow",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m m and all i feel like i do is dissapoint everyone around me it suck i remember everyone used to tell me that i would have a bright life when i wa a kid and i look at myself now unable to talk to people hold down a conversation without saying sorry every second i just feel like such a dissapointment and feel like everyone in my life would be so much better without me i see my partner of year just thrive in her life and it just kill me so much knowing that someone who is so full of life love me i feel so bad for her sometimes since my anxiety get so bad to the point where i get panic attack going to her family house or even taking her out to a restaurant i ve never felt this low in my life and all i can think of now is just offing myself to spare everyone of my misery nobody deserves to have someone who is just a downer all the time",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lightsnoor funfact c est scientifiquement prouv que oui la lumi re a un effet sur le moral de gen plus ou moins prononc d o le depression d hiver quand y en a moins ect donc au fond on est tous de plantes",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "amp x 00b how do u deal with the loneliness when living alone how do u engage yourself who do u talk to i literally crave some human being to talk to but have only few friend",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i thought because everything in life wa good which wasn t true bc of my own delusion i could start opening up to people about me and how i feel all i get is ignored interrupted disrespected laughed at mocked all under the facade of a joke i hope this anger in my heart burn brighter with each day so i will never forget to mistrust people they can t handle to the truth about me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t know how to answer the question do i tell them i hate everyone and everything and want to die do i say eh and invite fake concern do i just keep exhausting myself by keeping this mask on and go along with the stupid i m okay small talk do i play it up with im doing great and keep pretending that nothing is ever wrong i m sick of all of it i ve just started staring people with a shit eating grin until they get uncomfortable whenever they ask this dumbass question",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "feel like i have neglected twilight im sorry lol",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my parent expect 90 and above and i failed after answering the paper i told them it wa easy even though it wasn t a i dint want a scolding then now it worse and they expect good mark i got above 0 0 only in subject out of 0 idk what to do anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ensconced in thought diametrically opposed graduated in fear and all it frill untouched day can only be so new with a mantra old is love for loving s sake hail the dawn",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is not going to sleep tonite",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "doe anybody know how to get your electrolyte back in order with a vitamin work i feel sick",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ambermatson it s terrible isn t it don t expect many earthquake in euruope certainly not bad one",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "iwouldificould how have you watched it i tried the youtube link but it won t work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am finally checking myself into the hospital for suicidal ideation i don t think they will be able to help me but at least i will be safe and not a risk to anyone else i am pretty scared it will be the end of my marriage maybe of my job i put this off for a long time but i am not safe i wish so badly i had never been born",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i recently wa put up for a promotion at work to a position that would allow me to work le hour le day and make more money while also furthering my future i have never been happier until recently i m in the final stage of the process to get hired but i m still currently in my previous position we have a rule at work you can be late once per 0 day if you go over that you get written up and put on a disciplinary level which wouldnt be so terrible if one of the stipulation of being put on a disciplinary level is being unable to transfer position for a year so on sunday morning i wake up and start making breakfast what i do every morning on my day off i ve been off every other weekend for the past year so i go into autopilot and sit at the table look at the clock and think i d be at work right now so am roll past and while i m wating i see my phone buzz so i pick it up and look at the screen and see the word that make my heart climb into my throat every time bos where are you you were scheduled for i scramble upstairs so fast i knocked over the table and chair and took some picture frame off the wall of the stair but i get to work and think it s fine it okay i just cant be late for 0 day easy enough day later it s an unbelievably slow day so we all order sushi and i drew the short straw to pick it up take me minute to get there pick up the food and start heading back so i m at a stop light about minute from my job when i see a car blast through the light and tbone a truck causing a huge accident and blocking my path back to my job i feel my heart sink and my ear ring the closest way back is an extra 0 minute at least this asshole running a red light may cost me my job i m not proud of it but i sped the entire way there to get back to the hospital i sprint out of my car leaving the food i get inside and dive to the time clock and swipe my card time punched 0 late at this point i just stand there for a second unsure of what to do do i tell my bos do i try to fix it do i lie i finally decide to text my bos and explain the whole scenario in detail expecting to get back a next step a scolding reassurance or anything instead i get back one word ok ok what doe that even mean i want to press it further but i m so scared of fucking up even more i ve taken on extra responsibility this week and picked up hour of overtime over the next week a a subtle way of saying please dear god dont put me on a level i need this promotion this all happened day ago and i m living in panic every one of these day since that i m going to get the hey can you meet me in my office now call thatll signal the end of my dream to progress i m not sure what to do at this point but i just had to get this out tl dr asshole running a stop sign and causing an accident could cost me my dream job",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "off out to doctor appointment",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the idea that we are not allowed to feel sad depressed grieve over something just because other people have it worse than u is so toxic it invalidates our own feeling and make sadness depression grief a privilege for a selected few",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tea oh i m so sorry i didn t think about that before retweeting",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "moony 9 lol ugh that s so ominous i hope i don t have to cry over idol this week too fox hate me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "kellyshibari i thought i saw you there you were walking out the door when i saw you",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so my husband i are planning to get a dog in may and we ll need an esa letter for our apartment in chicago i do have anxiety and have seen a psychiatrist and therapist but not anymore due to scheduling conflict my next appointment with my pcp is in june earliest available appointment and i m not even sure she can write an esa letter what s the best way to proceed there s so many different website for obtaining a letter but i don t know who to trust any help is much appreciated",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "loris sl morning how thing in italy today depressing i imagine that is bad news",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "all abrosexual demigirls with depression are witty",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wan na see twilight again love it but i don t have the dvd oh well guess i surive",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i hate myself so much for being like that when they re just minding their business sometimes i just see people so casually happy and hugging and being close or just visibly happy in general and i just feel so bitter they don t deserve me being so shitty over their happiness i can t help it i know i m garbage i know i don t deserve to be like them but sometimes i see people hugging and i wish i knew what it felt like to be hugged and cared for like that so badly it hurt",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hey there made a throwaway because people know my normal account long story short i have this friend who used to be my closest friend we ve been like brother since we met in college a we got older we bickered a lot and had a major falling out about mo ago we made up and were kind of just friend that can be around eachother since we have mutual friend but not close anymore which is fine well we saw eachother for a trip with our group a few week back and we bickered on the trip a lot i know i m at fault for my side but he doesn t believe he doe anything wrong mainly we were bickering about politics which i swore to not speak with him because we disagree but there wa drinking and talking regardless after i attempted to apologize and be cool he instead of accepting or apologizing in return turned the conversation to my entire personality and basically dug hard into me a a person he made up shit about me that s not true a well it wa out of the blue and real hurtful but it is what it is i just kind of blew it off until i find out he s talking shit to my close friend in the city i live in now these friend are avoiding me not talking to me i have no idea what he said and how bad he made me look a an almost 0yo adult i don t want to deal with this but man this is really getting to me i m having anxiety about these other friend so bad",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "now i m kind of sad after all the bullshit i found out",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i m f and am currently living working and studying in a different country than the one i wa born and raised in my cousin m study in our home country but very far away from home and can only visit his parent during the break my relationship with my parent wa very much strained for a couple of year due to unsolved childhood trauma and throwing blame at them for thing that were a result of their childhood trauma but after therapy our relationship improved and even though we have our fight a every family ha we are very close and talk every evening and even eat together through videocall my cousin relationship with his parent is very much strained his parent got married very late and had fertility issue so only managed to have him well into their forty due to this they really didn t have the patience to deal with their child and my cousin spent most of his childhood with our grandma because his parent wanted to have fun and not deal with a child having tantrum moreover they were very abusive they used to make him eat adult sized portion of food every meal and not let him leave the table until he finished his food and even though everyone in the family knew this wa abusive no one ever decided to do something about it luckily he ha a very fast metabolism and so far hasn t experienced any health issue due to this abuse last september he started university and apparently stopped picking up call from his parent and stopped answering text to the point that my uncle had to threaten him with cutting him off financially if he didn t start picking up the phone and texting this weekend my dad s side of the family had dinner and lunch on saturday and sunday and the topic of me and my cousin came up and my uncle and aunt out of jealousy called my relationship with my parent toxic and unhealthy because we speak to much and went on to say i don t have a life or friend hence why i always talk to them now i have friend both living with me and at work but my friend go out clubbing everyday and since that really isn t my scene i hang with them during the day and they go out at night also i didn t have a relationship with my parent for year i wa so depressed and hurt that i bearly spoke to them even though we were living in the same house now that we have worked through our issue i am enjoying my relationship with them seeing a it won t last forever i dont think our relationship is toxic or unhealthy but this ha triggered my anxiety and made me have intrusive thought and honestly i just need a little reassurance do you think my relationship with my parent is toxic and unhealthy or are my family member just being asshole",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just a disclaimer but i love my parent and i love my family a lot i ve been super spoiled when i wa younger and i m glad i wa born in my family in no way is this vent ragging on them or supposed to highlight them a bad people idk what the main topic of this is just a vent bc i got my card like a week ago and i feel horrible i m planning on offing myself before the next school year start im planning on doing everything ive wanted and never done before then go out with a bang be useful for once in my life then leave while the satisfaction is still fresh and before i make another mistake truthfully in the past two year i ve tried multiple time but stopped at the very last second i m not struggling a bad a everyone else so why do i feel so miserable everyone else ha become better now so why not me i ve just gotten lazier and lazier and basically just lost all of my will to do anything right now i m a a child i wa pretty much one of those kid who were constantly pressured to be in first place join competition win in basically anything many time i wa pressured to do thing i didn t want and hand in hand with that i couldn t really do most of the thing i liked too an example of the thing i had to do wa public speaking and basically announcing stuff in front of a crowd i already had stage fright then but it ended up getting worse and became overall anxiety after i humiliated myself multiple time on stage forgetting what to say stuttering etc i knew many people who could do it better but no matter how much i disliked it i guess i had no choice after that my voice became quieter i became passive i didn t raise my hand unless i wa called everytime i wa in front of people i basically just shut down when i wa younger i wa a lot more extroverted the older i became the smaller my confidence fell when i reached th grade i became really paranoid and felt all my worth wa tied to being smart and even now i still can t break away from thinking that way basically my self esteem is now in the gutter maybe even in hell at this point but the difference is just that i don t really care anymore i constantly felt the need to be a role model felt that enjoying thing would make me le of one while the rest of my class bonded with each other went on outing etc i wa so stuck up that i never went with them i wa very rule abiding after all that wa the only thing i ve ever known i remember the first time i got second place my mom is a super nice person to be honest but that time she told me i wasn t trying hard enough really hurt me so much i also used to be a really moody child there wa a time i overhead my mom say that it would be my fault if she died from stress it proved even more to me that my only redeeming factor wa that my grade were high i had the personality of a dog turd i had no talent i wasnt social honestly i wa bad kid there s really no excuse i never got violent with people in fact my sibling were the one who bullied and teased me in a very mild way though just temper tantrum i just wish they sent me to therapy instead of constantly insulting me i didn t even know how to get better i didn t know how to control myself from being angry how could a year old understand that sort of thing i asked them how i could make it stop they told me to just stop being mad i don t know why it affected me so badly now but i feel like the stuff i subconciously learned back then i can t really unlearn that easy anymore even if i don t believe in them anymore i realize i ve never really had dream i wa just going to do what my mom wanted me to do i d get a job be rich and just work and exist i guess deep inside i knew i d never be good enough for that sort of thing i just engrained it in myself that im just an average person maybe even lower and that whenever someone say im smart theyre just giving me empty praise i wouldn t say that the thing that happened to me were extreme not at all but now here i am zero motivation to do anything at all useless and more of a burden than ever before i ve been failing for two year i can t keep up with anyone i don t understand the basic i m always distracted it been two year i still can t do a damn thing the only thing i can do is draw even then it take so much of my time that i can barely do it i have so many thing i want do and learn now but i guess school is in my way again this time i suck at it even harder im always distracted i cant muster any strength or will to study or answer question to make it worse i may have adhd but i dont want to self dx it just that since day people have constantly pointed out my carelessness my voice with an uncontrollable volume etc i cant wake up on alarm i cant follow routine i cant follow timer im really forgetful im distracted and i dont know how to make it stop it horrible i dont know if im just being lazy and trying to excuse it i dont know everytime my mom see my report card i can feel her disappointment i m scared of even looking at her face i dont know why shes trying so hard to keep me alive my parent fought because of me before my mom is already too tired i dont want her to waste any more of her energy on me there just no point before the pandemic i wa still functioning properly hell i even got into the honor list and there were only a few of u now i pas everything late play game all day and slack off incompletes failing grade all of that the first time i remember wanting to pas away to say the least wa when i wa in first grade it wa a weird memory i dont know what prompted me but i gave a paper to my friend and asked her if she d ever thought of dying i remember thinking id never grow past 0 when i wa younger it wa weird but i could never imagine myself a an adult maybe this wa why i thought it wa just that i d pas away because of bad health or some accident i never really cared ive been a burden since day one guess i still am i dont know why i wrote this i guess i just felt horrible thanks for reading i appreciate it sorry for the messiness i wrote along a i thought stuff",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "westendactress nooo u shudent have deleted it x",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "http tr im imov i b c h i tho i th l gi t cu c i r i m nh v n c n nh c i nh t p th b t c a b c ch tr i",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "worldofnc i do a digital fast every so often it s where i stop watching the news or looking at social medium just music reading and netflix it may be sticking my head in the sand but it give me a firebreak from the stress and depression that is modern life stay sane",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "marcusmims wow i didn t get an quot hello quot u suck",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i want to commit suicide a soon a possible but i cant fin a method thats good for me either the method seem too painful or i dont have enough tool for them i wa considering overdosing on paracetamol but it take too long i dont know what to do i would like some method or advice",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "didn t make it by here today they are saying we will have snow tomorrow wtf it is tennessee it doesn t even snow here in winter",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "why do people have to care about me im only alive because of my parent and some friend because they would be sad if i died life is bullshit",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i want to be dead ive been suicidal for year im such a fucking retard filled with regret and anger im done with life i want all of this to stop why i cant do one thing right",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "let the depression stage kick in now so it can be over soon",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i hate myself and my self destructive behavior",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "aniita 0 yes i did that s a sad topic for me haha i am not going to the concert it s very far and probably very expensive",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m so tired of existing i have to believe the lie people tell me if i want to be happier in this world that it s not all falling apart that trying hard will get me anything will reward me that people love me it s so much nonsense the only people in my life can t fucking stand me everyone else is at best mildly interested in me from afar and once they get to know me they want nothing more to do with me i m fucking useless and worthless and anyone who s ever told me otherwise want me to suffer what do they see in me i have achieved nothing i am nothing nothing but a corpse too stubborn to start rotting but fully entirely dead",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i swear no matter how long i ve been getting up at am it never get any easier man my eye hurt wah",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "charp i wa being all nerdy amp thinking they could help me with my metropolitan area network",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "soillodge yes it will be it s only monday",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just checked my user timeline on my blackberry it look like the twanking is still happening are ppl still having probs w bgs and uids",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "don t go into depression because of fun you assumed others are having everybody just dey lie",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "stats feed what an irony finland is the happiest country in the world and it still fall under top 0 country with highest rate of depression irony aparanjape chetan bhagat anandmahindra hvgoenka sardesairajdeep",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ednaiscool is up again yay but all my video are gone",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i say that i m feeling depressed and instead of saying anything about it they just start talking about their own day they used to ask me what s going on but not anymore i think it s time to start writing that note",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "iloveac slut you never talk to me but yet you talk to rinn waa waaa waaaaaaaa lol i love you courtney",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just got a denied letter from bazaar bizarre sad i wa looking forward to a road trip to be a vendor there",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the house is one big mess everything is crammed in my bedroom while they do up the other room",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so tired god i hate the new job and only two day in",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "bipolar ii disorder bipolar ii disorder involves period of hypomania but depression is often the dominant state for a diagnosis of bipolar ii disorder a person must have had one or more episode of depression at least one hypomanic episode no other diagnosis",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "convinced myself when i take it in they will be annoyed at me and judge me for it not working nothing physically broken that i can see really just need someone to tell me not to overthink it if you re retail yourself that s a bonus",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ditesh haha i m unsure what i can deliver for fo my i m not using alot of opensource software hail adobe for being expensive",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m stuck awake in the middle of the night for the second day in a row and i felt terrible yesterday",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "don t want to do anything other than sleep drink or smoke because the future is hopeless because the past can not be changed and lost time is gone forever the logic center of my brain is screaming at me to exit this situation and that there s only one way that living in these condition is meaningless and all the more painful i ve tried everything i even treated myself a a stranger talking to myself a if talking to another telling them i love them and i would look after them and i forced myself to talk back i ve delved deep into question none right in the head would want to touch there s just nothing left to do i ve even begged for help pill only work a long a you take them even then they only take the pain away not the desire for death because it s all pointless in the end to hell with people who love me i m gone",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i saw a new pcp for an annual physical and while i wa there figured i d mention some of the physical symptom of anxiety i wa having to make sure it wa not actually medical i told her it often feel like my throat is really tight and on the verge of closing her only reply a she roll her eye that is literally impossible if your throat wa closing you wouldn t be talking to me right now me no duh obviously not but it feel like it s closing she wa the worst doctor i ve ever seen which is saying a lot and i wa so mad walking out of that appointment for other reason a well but the day after a my throat wa tightening i just remembered her saying it s literally impossible and couldn t stop laughing",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "late night snack glass of oj b c i m quot down with the sickness quot then back to sleep ugh i hate getting sick",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "redtoffee strawberry is the absolute best angel delight eva i had chocolate once but it wa too sweet",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "happy international day against depression yeah today is my birthday too lol",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "had a blast at the getty villa but hate that she s had a sore throat all day it s just getting worse too",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am not sure if this is possible and i appreciate any information a few year ago i wa diagnosed with clinical anxiety depression and adhd i wa relieved and terrified and so sad it took me until adulthood to learn this about myself i began medicating under the direction of my psychiatrist after about a year i changed from zoloft to prozac due to weight gain i began experiencing night sweat for the first time in my life about month ago it wa sporadic for month or so than became nightly now it ha worsened to the point that i wake up multiple time a night to change sheet and pajama i m not wetting the bed but truly soaking it through with my sweat in a degree room with minimal blanket i ve had to replace plastic bed protector mattress cover and even my mattress i believe i am having panic attack while i am asleep and i am unable to remember them assuming i would remember having a nightmare at the same time or be semi lucid what could paralyze me in sleep while having normal pleasant dream and cause excessive night sweat my change in medication did not correlate with the onset or increase in the night sweat i have had blood test mri pulmonary exam allergy test ultra sound and more no western doctor or my psychiatrist ha been able to find anything unusual that would explain the night sweat tl dr extreme night sweat begin in adulthood with no obvious cause desperately looking for advice on what might help edit 9 f",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "depression frau riebentrop http t co gkfspze u",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the worst symptom of my anxiety is that i find it impossible to sleep when sharing a bed or even a bedroom it s like my brain won t switch off with someone else there it ha an impact on relationship obviously but also on just thing like going on holiday with friend because it s way more expensive to have to book my own hotel room rather than share doe anyone have the same issue ha anyone found way to fix it i d be ok with not sleeping a well a normal but it s literally like the difference between hr alone and 0 hr with company i can t function if i share for day in a row",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lauraechilds fine i wont make it up to you check your dm",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "landed funny on my foot this morning while jumping down the stair and i twisted it quite sore now",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "chrissyxchi real depression is when wow no longer sustains you and your usual off wow game also hold no joy",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween thelmasherbs help with depression anxiety",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m m on a super low dose of buspar all thing considered i think i like it i ve been on it since mid december and break a mg tablet in half and take that x a day so basically mg a day overall it feel pretty good for me minimal side effect other than i can t drink on it alcohol isn t a huge part of my life but i ve always enjoyed meeting friend or coworkers at a bar for or beer for a couple hour once a week that amount is enough for me to get a little buzz have a more lively conversation but also still wake up without a hangover now with buspar after drink i get drunk but not in a good way in like a very confused dumb clumsy and sleepy kind of way i ve basically just cut alcohol out of my life which doe have some benefit i don t spend a much money i don t eat late night fast food no more groggy hangover no staying out late no beer belly but on the other hand i ve basically become a social recluse part of the reason i started taking buspar wa because of my social anxiety and in day to day life such a work and parenting and just going about my day a normal i feel like it s improved but so much of going out in the evening with friend or coworkers or new friend or new coworkers involves drink and a that s no longer an option i ve just kinda found myself le and le interested in going out with people who i know are going to have a night out of drinking not entirely sure how to proceed",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "thogden every other year supporting norwich one good year in the championship then pure depression in the premier league",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ironically my fear of loneliness is what kill my healthiest friendship in the end i love the world so much i really do enjoy being alive sometimes but it s not worth the time when i feel like everything is crashing down on me that s been every day lately on and off for year my greatest fear is being a burden on other people and i m a burden on everyone i know i ve had bad patch before and thing got better but knowing there will be a bad patch again make the joy feel empty i m so stupid i am trying to arrange thing so they hurt everyone a little a possible i know this will hurt many people i love i feel like such an evil person i cry too much i m cry writing this i wish i wa stronger and not so afraid all the time",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "every single day i just wake up miserable and an insane urgency to immediately end myself everything is just empty now nothing really get me excited and i don t even have anyone to talk to cuz most of my friend are just not that close my family is much worse a nobody ever care about each other i have a father but i don t have any father figure cuz he wa and is never there for me ever i can t even share anything to anyone cuz everyone just tell me that it s normal for people my age to experience the thing i am going through i just absolutely hate my life and everything i literally have no will to live i even sometimes subtly and unintentionally put myself at dangerous situation to like somehow get myself killed even though everyone just say it s normal to experience these at my age i don t see anyone my age talk or even behave the way i do i also hate the fact that i am self aware of every way i am behaving but still can t seem to help myself fix those thing i really really really hope everyone is living better life than me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "goodlaura what about reese dying on ttsc and season finale next week boring madame president is a crazy woman",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "age gender m i ve been dealing with my depression for a while now and some people including my parent know although my biggest regret is telling my girlfriend when i told her that i have been trying to take my life everything changed i understand it s just her caring and not knowing how to deal with it but it s been such a burden on the relationship i m not longer human to her i m mainly a ticking time bomb i m starting to feel like i ve locked her in this relationship because of this disease i have we can t go a hang out without her cry about the fact that my life is hanging on by a thread and i know this is extremely selfish of me how could i not be appreciative for this caring girl to be honest i couldn t care le just every time i see her break because of me it make me hate myself more i wish i just kept that side of me hidden away from her to protect her from it the worst part is she can t help me even though she try so hard and she know it every day feel like a toss of a dice whether i will live or die and she is watching it all helpless i love her so much she keep me going but god i wish i had a time machine to go back and make sure i never told her just then she could be happy until the end i m sorry vesna",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "youbaviandecru aaaaah oui d accord je me demandais pour combien de temp je partais en d pression merci toi",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m just completely un able to let go of the past i m sat here thinking about last year i remember being so much happier and stress free but last year i had the exact same issue except i wa thinking about the year prior to that maybe this is just a natural process of growing up i m and i guess life is just gon na get worse from here on in do you think the past just seems better in my head than it actually wa because i seem addicted to it atm",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i can only explain it a a similar feeling to when you re drunk and your head feel heavy and you feel a bit woozy thing aren t moving and the room isn t spinning but because i have a fear or being dizzy i focus on it so much that i ll look at something to see if it move and then eventually it will obviously that s because i m focussing so hard doe anyone else suffer with anything similar how do you counteract it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sunky being a grown up is horrid isn t it",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "britsystem she stopped eating and is just sleeping all day im worried about my precious little bean",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mizzzidc your mum for that matter irrespective of the past doesn t worth this shame you brought upon her by pasting the screenshot i wish you a quick healing process from your depression don t forget that an addidas sneaker shouldn t worth more than an 00",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ah well today wa my first day at university it wa okay kinda i had fun with the friend i had but there wa also a lot of stuff that made me feel small and pathetic first of all a friend and i got to the wrong building and went up four floor using the stair we had to go down and do so again with the right one it s embarrassing to admit but i m not exactly an active person so it left me exhausted and kinda dizzy i felt pathetic and wished no one wa there to see me like that i got together with my group of friend after that and to be honest i m irritated at myself for not talking more it made me feel kind of excluded even though i know that wasn t the fault of my friend after that i got lost when i had to go back in train because someone in my family said they were gon na give me a ride but didn t give me the right direction got blasted on phone for being late and when i got home i felt really awful i hate causing others inconvenience and i felt like i totally did when i wa eating a bit once i got back i noticed something strange in my mouth and whaddya know the gum behind the third molar is swollen but doesn t hurt my brain went into overdrive and now assumes it s my wisdom tooth even when this ha happened before and it wa nothing i m tired",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i want to die i don t know if i want to kill myself but i honestly don t really care i just want to die and not be conscious and not be an i and have no ability to experience anything or remember anything or think about anything i don t care if it will get better i don t care if i ll be happy one minute later i don t care that i m irrational right now and i m thinking something that a level headed version of me would obviously be above i hate being conscious i can t sleep because i hate waking up i can t make myself faint because i hate waking up i can t escape to other story or music or feeling or stimulation because i hate waking up i just want to die and die and die and die and die and stay dead forever i don t want to do this anymore i don t want to identify a an i i don t want to be an agent i want to die i want to die i want to die i want to stop living i want to die i m stupid and bad and spiteful and upset and i want to die i don t want help i don t want to be happy i don t want to want to not die i want to die",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wa always considered lazy by my friend and teacher growing up i never did the chore around the house or clean my room now im and i realise im just like my father he ha no friend he sleep all day except of when he is working he drink every night he never go out except of work and grocery he doesnt care about his appearance or hygiene my mom and sister always despised him and they have been mean to him because he doesnt do anything around the house and now they started treating me badly too my sister look at me with disgust they compare to my fater to insult me the truth is im extremly lazy i sometimes skip school because im too lazy to shower get up early in the morning and get dressed and all that stuff if i dont leave the house i dont even brush my teeth or shower my room is a mess and it doesnt really bother me that much it s just that im ashamed being disgusting doesnt bother me is that okay oh and i sit in bed all day i do study for school so i dont fail but i do it from my bed the thing is i am not lazy enough to eat i actually eat too much i do wish i would die sometimes but i think it is because i dont really enjoy anything except of being online all the time i am just too lazy to do anything else i dont know i might just be mentally lazy throwaway because i dont want anyone to see that on my main and thank you if u have read this far",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ha now gotten somebody to read his tweet but cant get them to make an account",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "when i stopped in 0 9 it took me month to taper off it so taking a medication that cause withdrawal symptom like that scare me it s the only thing that help other then numbing the feeling with an antidepressant i m on lyrica 0mg and buspar mg to time a day i don t feel down but my anxiety keep me from moving forward with the thing i need too am i right to continue struggling with anxiety and all the health issue that come from it just so i can avoid a benzo",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m a year old man ever since the covid started i feel like that is something off about me i feel like i don t want to do anything and lay down on the bed all day and consistently skip the meal i can get pretty emotional sometimes a a man i obviously can t show my emotion to anyone or even my parent a a sign of showing weakness so i want to know doe anyone feel the same way a me or i m just a pussy",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "laurenellise dying from crippling anxiety and depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so im done editing quot the phipstape quot back crack a brew and see what we got no tree though",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "you probably know how i m feeling about it lately when my mom s been calling it sound like she s been cry i wish she hated me like she should",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "jlo 9 ahhhhh so when are you leaving will you not make friday",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sminchin 9 sorry to hear you re unwell it s the school holiday syndrome again",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "crappy day so far whyyyyy",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "surprised how little i miss having a house or car or really any of my other worldly possession but i do miss my dog",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "paul pogba s exprime sur la d pression dans une interview au figaro le milieu de terrain de l quipe de france et de manchester united s est confi sur la sant mentale de joueurs professionnels de football en cho aux propos r cent de thierry henry http t co f o dvbdo",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "watching quot house quot",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i regret backing out of committing suicide pretty often i ve done it three time now overdosed once from the outside i know for a fact i look like a whiny teen i ve been told so many many time i m just tired of relapse i m tired of constantly putting everything i have into being better only to barely get anywhere and then being exhausted i m tired of being yelled at for thing i can t control and being told the same pathetic motivational quote like they ever mean anything i m tired of people praying for me saying i need to ask god for help god wasn t there for me when i wa being sexually assaulted god wasn t there for me when my mom got blackout drunk and beat my sister in front of me god wasn t there when i wa left alone for week because my dad would rather be anywhere else i don t care what people say god isn t real there is no divine protection and there is no savior there s life and death what happens in between is your problem i m tired of being labeled a mental case i m tired of seeing hallucination having flashback and i m tired of feeling manic i m tired of relying on prescription drug to be good enough for society i wish i had done in then because i have thing to live for now i have responsibility and thing that mean something to me it s like a dog having a bone dangled just far enough to where they can t get it i ve come to term that i ll never be what my parent wanted me to be and that my sister took on that role for me at a young age a nurse at dating to marry with a nice house in a nice neighborhood i m struggling to even have the will to get up and enroll myself in community college it s pathetic i work but i work at a sport bar and because of my disability my hour keep getting cut turn out nobody want to hire someone who can t be around many people or loud noise that go into a manic episode if triggered the more i think about what i am the more depressed i get without the medication i d most likely be labeled insane and put in a glorified prison again i take a lot of drug and still see and hear the shit that i do and i don t remember half of my life when i wa off of them i keep getting told that it s my fault by my mom and she is basically begging me to do something but nothing i ever do is good enough so why keep trying i don t know it s not logical to commit suicide at this point but i can t deny that i secretly hope a semi turn my car into a crushed can on my way to work ptsd severe depression crippling anxiety and psychotic disorder are not a good mix especially when you re lucid i don t know if i have a future i ve proven safe for society with reasonable accommodation but at what point doe it even matter anymore the fact that i need a crutch immediately set me apart and people notice",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is missing his favourite friend",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "no not everyone suffered from depression not everyone found everything exhausting yeah everyone had their own struggle that cant be compared to another but not everyone got depressed from their struggle i just dong understand why god pick me to have depression life is so unfair i ve been thinking about this about a few day",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "arlenecd please tell me that s somewhere close to california lol",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "moved in with them at the start of october 0 we seemed to get on really well have at least some commonality and we d go out together sometimes time every week or so i ve always felt like the outsider of the group a they are all nd year going to the same uni and i am on a gap year we are all the same age tho it always felt like it wa those living together and me living with them if that make any sense nonetheless even tho have terrible anxiety and depression i tried with them they just told me last night that a friend asked them to move in with them and they ll be moving out in a few month it s suck cause we had said several time in passing we d be happy to live together whether in this flat or another i even got into a uni in the same city a them and they knew i wa going to study here next year i don t think they hate me i just don t think they like me all that much it hurt cause idk what i m going to do for accommodation next year uni hall terrify me but would be good to meet people i just had to get this off my chest i have no idea how to act with them if they start convo with me it just feel like they re forcing it idk i feel unloved and unhated just a banal liking",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "0 0virgin honestly i understand her frustration my mom doe the same with my thing she wear my clothes sometimes tseding hadi kgutlise but nka sebe depressed aowa depression yonke no",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "got no one to talk to have no one around i ve been procrastinating on something for so long and i have no idea when i ll ever become serious or steadfast i just feel like a total waste i ve isolated myself which is making me go crazy right now no friend at all i m literally alone now feel like shit",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just joined twitter and doesnt know anyone yet",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "chelserlynn haha it so cooooold in the d and no but you should still go to the show they do some incredible stuff",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "internetumpire ipave depression kudukaadha ne just live the moment still chepauk la than last match nu nambuvom",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "anybody know where my ipod went",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m so tired have to get up and go in to school during holiday for the rd time xxx",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "shrooms get rid of every form of severe stress pain anxiety and depression hit my dm for all order and related info http t co izbxlcdwwi",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dilyswei thank you i know it not over but the fact that i studied day and night made me sad",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s almost funny i don t want you to feel like i m giving up i m just worried that you ll start to resent therapy or resent me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello all lately i have been fighting with my anxiety after having fought in a relationship i m still holding pain in my chest and i always wake up with anxiety also i always cry during the day and before going to sleep i m living with my boyfriend and i don t want him to be sad like me amp x 00b could you guy give me some advice to help me heal myself",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "scratch that du in heif two in a half cooky my tum just can t take anymore shoog poots",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "laid around too much today now my head hurt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m not interested in life there thing i d like to do but i have no money to experience them i dont have friend or any girl to share a relationship with life is bland i have a job interview tomorrow i ll probably get it now i ll have to show up and sell 0hrs of my life doing something i could care le about for some money i hate everything it s not enjoyable pandemic ruined everything a girl i started really liking doesn t want to see me anymore because i m not vaxed that one definitely hurt a bit she went cold on me please skip the anti pro vax debate i m over it amp i m not anti i dont like leaving the house or dealing with people i dont see any point in this thing called life it just drain me and i d like it to end it simply exhausting amp i get 0 enjoyment from it it feel like a sadistic game i just want it to end i wont hurt myself i dont think i will i dont know if i m depressed i either feel nothing or anger i envy people who are blissfully happy enjoying life i d give anything have that i dont need everything to be great but i d at least like to not hate day to day life i dont have much left in me anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "today i learned that nicotine can decrease the effectiveness of ssri",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "billbeckett did you know tai mean shit in indonesian",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "salancaster hope your ok",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "advice for adult separation anxiety i m have been with my girlfriend f for over year our whole relationship we have lived apart at our parent house and still do with no issue we see each multiple time a week do fun romantic thing almost never fight she is the love of my life and i seriously see myself spending the rest of my life with her week ago i got covid and i isolated in my room for 0 day only the third time in our relationship we ve been apart for this long after the isolation i came out with a new found love for my girlfriend i realized that i truly want her in my life and i want to be with her forever i knew this before but it wa like a huge reminder since my isolation ha ended though and i saw her again anytime i m away from her i have crazy anxiety like almost can t function don t eat etc nothing ha changed expect for the better imo i now realize she s the one and she feel the same way but for some reason after year of no issue mentally or in our relationship i have developed what i believe after doing some research to be adult separation anxiety definitely anxiety i ve told my girlfriend all this and had a big cry with her and she ha been nothing but supportive and loving i know she s with me for the long haul and i m not worried about that when i m thinking straight but when i m not with her i go crazy i ve reached out to an online therapy company to have a virtual session a i need help and i don t know what to do my girlfriend is super supportive but this can t be healthy for a relationship that my biggest fear is losing just looking for some advice maybe some similar experience and how you went about it anything help",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "every thought is a battle every breath is a war and i don t think i m winning anymore depression depressed http t co v m af",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "still in germany",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wa playing around putting in random twitter usernames so many wasted blank",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "jerotichseii marthakarua the same lot that ha caused oppression depression among the people poverty nepotism and capitalism have found formerly well thought but no longer betrayal is the new normal",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "want to hear seblefebvre s song but myspace is messing with me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the maine please out me to sleep i have test in the morning",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this is not the time for my depression to act up but here it is again",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween vhulivhadza help with depression and anxiety thelmasherbs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the med don t work my doctor is clearly not helping last time i went to him he told me that i wa having a very bad week because i stopped smoking pot five week ago like i m sorry but it would not have a delayed effect like that also he then compared it to a recent promotion he got like dude what the fuck i just keep having these recurring thought of slicing open my wrist and finally just getting the peace and quiet if wanted i don t want to die but i don t want to live like this anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is anyone there maybe someone just up to talk i haven t had a hug since i wa a kid do anyone care about me lately my medication is weak or not working i just had cocaine and more medication i dont care too much anymore anyone up for a chat or something or not probably let hope the big nothing is better will it be good enough to od edit cool so did sme reading itll probably suffice sorry y all this will be it let hope probably here for a bit more until i sign off amp x 00b edit cheer i canceled my plan with my friend tomorrow based on some thread like http www reddit com r ama comment oa pdz i overdosed on antipsychotic yesterday ama http www reddit com r ama comment oa pdz i overdosed on antipsychotic yesterday ama http www reddit com r youshouldknow comment emqvvk ysk overdosing on antidepressant is not easy or http www reddit com r youshouldknow comment emqvvk ysk overdosing on antidepressant is not easy or or others all i need is a good day and not be found maybe i wake up later for some last word if this is it please enjoy with me frans listz little bell a k a la campanella",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am worried that i check my pulse too much and the amount of time if felt my carotid artery i make that have narrowed the artery i m not sure if it placebo but i feel pressure in my neck right around that area sometimes",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dark butterfly not just you i thought he looked paler too probably from drama filming jun look healthier than ever though",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "twxtd jordan i wish i could i have to keep my door open for other people that may need me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i think my arm are sore from tennis",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m terrible at articulating my thought so apology in advance let me just say up front that no plan ha been made and despite thinking about it so much i don t think i could go through with it this is just a vent piece i guess i feel like such a burden all the time i genuinely only have one real friend left and feel like my roommate co worker hate me i m anti social and awkward i don t make eye contact and i don t talk at all ever i take way too long to text back if i did km i honestly don t think anyone would know until a body wa found or over a month had passed i m just so sick of feeling like an obstacle all the time like i m always in the way or always wrong to think feel a certain way but all of this seems pretty normal i realise it s not a healthy mindset but literally everyone on earth ha trauma everyone ha their own shit they re going through and not only doe it seem like they re handling it a lot better than me but they have real problem i have friend who lost their job over the pandemic i have friend going through break ups grief or whatever and they still manage to practice their hobby and interact with their fellow man but then there s me doing literally fucking nothing all day every day after work and having the ball to feel like shit over it a if it s out of my control i feel weak willed lazy and most of all i feel like the world s biggist egomaniac for writing so much about myself a if it needed to be said thank you for reading my aimless rambling the thought were very intrusive tonight so i just needed to self depricate i guess good night everyone",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "bed work in am",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve never been one to feel anxious or thought of having anxiety even during difficult time however this past week i ve been struggling so much and realized i m suffering from anxiety long story short i met someone about month ago i knew in the first date just that gut feeling she s the one it wa great perfect everything i wanted but not long after she unfortunately suffered great trauma with the loss of her best friend her sister in the beginning it wa manageable and i think it it wa mainly due to her denial she lost her sister eventually the grief settled in and now the true challenge arose for her anxiety yr prior she lost her cousin and still had not gotten over it now after losing loved one she had the fear of losing me created turmoil between u jealousy trust issue it created anger in me i felt like a monster she wanted me to be understanding and working with her where i wa foolish and expected her to get rid of it that is my biggest regret thing got worse for u add the fact covid put a huge mental strain on u i also lost a family member during that time that wa dear to me and the stress of still trying to accept a different work culture a i changed from being out and about in the field 0hrs a week to stuck at a desk working from home this created a ton of anger and frustration in me this wa also part of our downfall a few month back i stepped away from our relationship her fear of losing me and constantly keeping me on her mind prevented her from working on herself i knew she would not heal and work on herself so long a i wa around i felt that wa the best decision i lied to her i told her i didn t love her anymore i wa trying to protect her my second biggest regret two week ago i reached out to her after working hard on my personal self to remove my anger do better for myself with my eating better working out but i also made plan a plan to ensure everything that went wrong would never happen again i knew she wa still my soul mate i knew she wa still the love of my life i knew she wa still my bae we had coffee chatted i told her i wanted her back in my life and had a plan and would do whatever it took to get her back she told me we would get back together but she needed time she wa in conflict and fear of losing me again fear of her anxiety being an issue for u again and her just being her old self i respected that and told her i would do anything for her i told her i d wait week later after a week of confusion emotion uncertainty her feeling changed she knew she loved me still and care deeply but that fear of what happened in the past and her uncertainty in her own well being made her change her mind and she had guilt telling me we would when she is uncertain we could ever get back together i suffer of fear of losing her i suffer of regret of everything i wish i did differently i fear she may hurt even more if we don t try and she end up having regret i know we weren t working a a team i know we needed to collaborate more but i know i gave her so many change a she kept begging me please give me one more chance i just now have to live with fear regret and wish she would just give me chance we promised to stay in touch very limited maybe call a week she still care for me and still want me in her life but she need to focus on her i will wait for her she know it even though i know i ll continue to suffer with that fear and regret but right now she is hurting right now she is in pain so right now the best thing for me to do no matter how hard it is is to be the best support person for her it s what she need and i ll do anything for her",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i feel really lazy it wa embarrassing for me to even have to ask for something but it s been over week and everything got worse idk if i feel any different think now i just have even le energy to do anything my room is disgusting my essay are overdue and i haven t been outside in too long i m way too embarrassed to ever say this to my gp no word of encouragement on reddit will help im afraid but idk what to do anymore it s getting worse and every day i m just procrastinating i m scared of everything catching up but somehow can t do anything about it never felt like this before i almost want to hide away and die not literally just don t know how to overcome this there s not a lot and i have a massive incentive",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "pfff rearanging database",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nobody ever speaks to me now",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ohhh i hate civics",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i just got back from a hour cycle enjoying the sun and i got in and had lunch and i started to feel so fatigued uneasy head fogginess it the strangest feeling to explain but it so horrible ive had this feeling a few time before it like ill sit on the sofa and ill have no will to move and the thought of getting up is overwhelming it feel like my health anxiety worry over normal stuff like being fatigued if i think more rationally and consider ive been going on hour cycle ride for the past day and ive been sleeping like crap ive been doing something quite intensive and then not allowing my body to recover through dodgy sleep plus on top of bad anxiety what is already quite exhausting",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mmuk09 moodle x must upgrade to 9 before being upgraded to 0 theme will probably break though",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hey guy something that ha really helped me in my mental health journey is to find friend to connect with if anyone want to talk so that we can check in with each other and just have an online buddy let me know it s really great to talk to someone we re in this together",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "or i am the only one with that",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sore throat please god don t make me sick sleep time night all x",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "can t seem to get over the dissapointment of haveing absolutly no one notice i am gone sad i must not be boring i must not be boring",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it still hurt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "gingha it is i have the doc so morning off and then into work freecycling what you getting",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "can anxiety and panic attack cause pain in the back of the thigh",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "doriantaylor i had one outside my patio i named him rex then the gardner took him down rip rex",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "deepbluesealove your beau s not online tonight bummer for u and no music either",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "know exactly how you feel man re http ff im xtn",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "milkymoomoo yuk end of year account i need to make a start of mine too",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nikrosser i don t think there is any kind of good stroke i ll wait to hear from you i love that little cat l xxx",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so it a beautiful day a lot of sun very warm overal nice but i sweat a lot i m wearing a white shirt and i m sweating a lot under my arm it s really noticeable and idk but it worry me a lot i feel really ashamed of this who else feel like this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "amyserrata he wrote most of the album but ironically the single he did not write",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ummm so i have to wait until am for the video",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "thing are not going to get better so why cant i just find the courage to die cant even cut cause school just found out and took all my blade",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m at that point it s just too much there s no way to even describe it anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "idk if it wa selective mutism or not i never got a diagnosis wasn t even suggested to get tested for it partially bc i don t think people understood how serious and debilitating it wa but i used to have severe anxiety around certain people mainly teacher or subject talking about myself or asking for help were big one for me to the point where i literally couldn t speak like people don t really seem to get it when i say this because it s one thing being shy or nervous to speak for me i know how that feel like if i m just nervous i just feel very uncomfortable this wasn t that when talking about certain subject or talking to certain people i would have this very uncomfortable and sometimes very painful physical symptom where i don t know how else to describe it other than it felt like someone wa stepping on my throat like my throat wa closed shut tight i found it hard to breathe not in a hyperventilating kind of way more like in a i m choking right now please help me way i would start hyperventilating if i wa forced to speak for whatever reason trying to force myself to speak would make me lose air lightheaded and i would start breathing hard trying to take in more air since i wa literally choking on nothing basically or worse i d quickly break into an anxiety attack and start cry if i kept trying to force the problem even harder to breathe i felt faint close to passing out so many time then it wa not even funny i m not looking for a diagnosis i wa just wondering if anyone can relate idk",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just curious i ve been prescribed psychiatric medication my whole life and not a single one ha ever worked for me the best it could do is make me tired but in every other case it either did nothing or did something but not in a good way for example adderall and zoloft when i took adderall routinely in 0 9 i became malnourished because it killed my appetite and my teeth started breaking i developed clubbing on my fingertip and i wa manic depressed suicidal irate pissed off anxious scared and stressed the fuck out constantly every single day for 9 month straight with little to no break whatsoever from march december 0 9 zoloft made me sick a a dog that one morning i took it on an empty stomach there wa other stuff i didn t like too like trazodone which i started taking when it first came out and it wa like a huge trapezoid shaped pill that wa painful to swallow although they later changed this which made me uncomfortably tired a if i were being tranquilized then risperdal which made me have weird thought and grow tit and another one that wa really bad wa rexulti which wa rather new and experimental at the time i took it and after taking one of them i experienced full blown psychosis depakote did nothing for me whatsoever and clonidine made me a zombie when i first started taking it and all remeron doe is made me tired i wa actually given a dna test by my old doctor and she found that hardly any psychiatric medication of any sort including antidepressant and antipsychotic would work given my chemistry but she did find that i wa very receptive to cannabinoids the only psych med that ever made me feel good wa thorazine i took at a psychiatric intake when i wa upset and it kinda made me feel stoned from the best of my memory but then again i only took it one time the only medication that ha ever worked for me is marijuana hemp like the delta ape blunts that are delta 9 and 0 thc because delta 9 even in hemp is still controlled with no more than 0 allowed in a product since it is the psychoactive component in regular cannabis that get you too high and cause all that trippy paranoia shit you usually get off stronger stuff and even then this ha only been legal since 0 i ve noticed that weed not only uplift my mood when i m on it but even after it make me happy and improves my mental state in the long term the only time when i m not happy is when i m dry you re not you when you re sober no amount of chemical in a lab is going to fix that",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i keep thinking of her a transphobic because a year and a half ago she told me all her thought of transgender and now i don t feel comfortable talking to her about it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "your brain is lying to you you matter your best is good enough even on the bad day you are amazing you have so much to offer this world",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is depressed he isn t going to be able to see david archuleta",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "need the motivation to get dressed and go to work i hate training",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sitting here wondering why quot ed quot still ha such a strong hold on me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the audacity some of you exhibit on this app is a lot then spice it up with talk of depression please si",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "man do crime society woman s he is a criminal he is a monster bla bla bla woman do crime from decade society woman s itself it s depression it s self defence hypocrisy http t co evffplq0ug http t co 0gxfpnbrsx",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "followsavvy i never found her everytime i click on her twitter thing through your myspace it go to some dude s page",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ecaps bloody idiot just shop him into some gay porn",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "where s derrick http ff im xwxs",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "want her camera back",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ive always been extremely considerate for people need even sacrificing my own for the sake of their need always just never telling the full picture or always refraining from saying certain thing a i do not want to offend people i just never get that level of consideration back not even half of it i must be a prick asking for this stuff i shouldnt expect anything for being kind but it always suck when you always get the short end of the stick always ignored no one give a shit not even from redditors though ive met some pretty kind one but the others are honestly garbage i remember i once typed something about killing myself and some random person messaged me sayinng that they want me to buy something for them a i anyways would not stay here for long that wa a year ago on this subreddit there wa a deleted comment in that post but i guess it wa the person who messaged me that one year ago ready to kill myself and here we are a year later and no progress with that i also remember another dude who said tick tock when i mentioned about killing myself not in this subreddit but from the trueoffmychest one i honestly fucking wonder why im even here ive amounted to almost nothing im tired of caring or expecting any form of love ive had so much copium in my entire life that i just never realised that no one really give a shit about me and im just dangling on a fucking thread that just wont fucking break cuz im a coward who secretly want to live but just want this fucing contant pain misery and dissappointment to just go away for once in my miserable life tldr fuck everything and everyone goodbye and goodnight",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t know how to use this thing and my stupid picture won t upload",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i know my mind think thing that make no sense and sometimes i just sit there and watch myself experience these thought and then i fall into a weird psychosis i keep having irrational fear of death and it trigger me on a daily basis i get scared to fall asleep because i think my dad is going to murder me i sit in the car and get a random thought about getting hit and dying i watch the news and get scared about another war starting that lead to dying the anxiety that i have about dying before i am able to get old ruin my willingness to actually enjoy my life i think the past couple of year since covid ha exposed me to a lot of unexpected and very triggering event in my life and for this reason i m scared to relax when thing are going good i worry about enjoying peace in my life because something bad might happen so much of this worrying make me sleep a lot it make me frustrated about myself it take away the motivation and lust i used to have for life i am too familiar with a rising heartbeat every thirty minute or the feeling of dread after doing the most mundane thing sometimes i walk around in my everyday life and just feel like i m in a developing video game and i m just waiting for the program to start i m scared all of the time of what the next thing that s going to happen to me come i wish i could be a normal person i remember when my anxiety used to just revolve around small stuff like my appearance now i don t even care about what i look like it s like i don t even recognize who i am anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello just need some music to listen and spend time thank you",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m frankly disappointed and offended that there is a blogger writing against fu penguin",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im just a little bit bored down here in warrnambool only so many animal docos you can handle",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wa doing good at the start of the year and i can just feel the darkness over my shoulder i hate this i hate depression when i don t have it it feel like how wa i even depressed then it creep back and i m like how wa i ever happy",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "after month of not feeling well i dont recognize myself my skin is ghostly the texture of my face is bad along with breakout and other gross stuff my hair is gross and my body is just so mushy and gross now unhealthy food comfort me sm tho how can i maintain beauty body care with way le effort",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "widyatarina say what kal penn s leaving house noooooo awww i totally missed it tonight",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m so tired of the inertia of my life this never going anywhere meaningful for me i think about all the thing i d love to be doing and grow angry that certain circumstance constrain from doing them i hate that life is 9 doing thing because other people coerce you to do them i would like to feel like i have agency but you have very little when you re slaving away to just survive the worst thing is that this bid for survival is artificial and man made human being hate that other human have free will and must wring the autonomy from each other they use money and debt to control every aspect of your life they create law to tell you what to do with your body life and time i just want to do what i want to do with my finite life i want to accomplish what i want to accomplish not conform to society s view of materialistic success i want to live my life unencumbered by other people s stupid judgment i want to be free edit i m sorry if the above is incoherent i just feel so trapped in my life so helplessly trapped",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "faithgg this computer doesn t have shockwave blah no account yet",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "maybe one of these year i ll get a tax return a girl can dream right",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ilovedt that s what i thought bummer",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been in therapy nearly all my life and have gotten very good at using coping skill that help with the cognitive piece of my anxiety i e responding to my thought distraction etc the part that i still have a lot of difficulty with are the physical symptom i e chest tightness deep breathing doesn t really work well for me any suggestion that you all have for dealing with these symptom",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "and so the editing of 000 wedding shot begin",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "amber i don t know how often you check this but i really miss you right now like really really so friggen much i want a hug lt beth gt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ashleyskyy but i wanted a margarita too",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "first i god a really bad case of covid and couldn t move or anything that lasted for 0 day then i got a surprise birthday party thrown at me by my best friend and family when i got home my best friend cheene my cat wa laying there gasping for air and dy a soon a he wa put on the table for the vet to examine him he wa my best friend so a few day go by and i got a heart attack and an infection in the heart and the bag that surround the heart now i got heart i am year old i newer though my anxiety could get any higher just venting currently lying in the hospital bed",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wish i could be attractive taller funnier be everything woman find attractive instead i m the complete opposite i ve gotten more and more depressed last few month to the point where i start up depressing conversation so i started to stay away from people or stay silent with friend i m ugly and i ll never be loved and that s not something easy to carry on knowing full well i m and never even come close to a relationship i hope i die soon because i don t want to be alive and alone like this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "backstory i ve been diagnosed with panic disorder gad since a young child spent the past year on zoloft at time a high a 00mg a day year ago i wa put on buspirone with the zoloft and it changed my life i ve been stable up until this past year my health anxiety got wayyy out of control and i ve been diagnosing myself with terminal illness all year did therapy and actually enjoyed it for the first time in my life and got off zoloft and switched to 0mg celexa combined with mg buspirone in the am and 0mg at night graduated my therapy and finally felt almost normal then i got covid felt like shit but made it through flash forward to a month later and i developed costochondritis rib cartilage muscle inflammation that i thought wa breast cancer sent me f n spiraling since then i ve had shortness of breath constantly and heart palpitation went to the dr and so far everything is fine waiting on heart holter result and everything chalked up a anxiety i ve had multiple full blown panic attack the past few week and wa at my wit end saw my psych and i went up to 0mg celexa here come my actual issue i accidentally read about serotonin syndrome and how celexa and buspirone should never be given together i brought it up to my psych and she wa not worried but it s been day now and i feel kind of off granted i ve felt off for month now and i m so scared of experiencing it and not realizing it anyone on similar combination that can ease my mind tldr worried about serotonin syndrome after reading about not mixing celexa and buspirone major health anxiety",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve never been so fucking miserable in my entire life i quit my job last week and i m failing school and want to drop out for the rd time i have no money and i m disgusting and i have no worth in this shitty world i m tired and i can t even get out of bed i don t have any energy to do anything and i want to die fuck everything and goodbye",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "need uuuuuuuuuuuuuu http plurk com p n0vpg",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "chiefdelphi is down",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "woke up too early",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "claire s will you be videoing or streaming or podcasting tweeting or anything else can t make it unfortunately",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so here i am at a baby shower only person i know is the expectant mom sitting at a table by myself i hate event like this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been dealing with depression for pretty much a long a i can remember wa diagnosed with it a a child some day are better than others the same can be said about the month and even year to be honest i never thought i would make it to the age i am now and have never really given any thought to what i wanted out of life besides the basic thing like friend loved one and many even a romantic partner outside of that i am lost i don t have a dream job in mind really and i don t have any set goal i m getting older and it feel like the wall are closing in on what time i have left and i don t know what to do i have friend and family who love me but they have their life pretty much together at this point or are close to their goal i have a job i hate no career option i can t drive and don t have any education outside of high school i feel like i just exist i have to rely on people for ride which make me feel like a burden i don t have enough money to make it on my own so i live with my parent i feel like friend keep me around out of pitty because i tend to be the one to start every conversation i m a part of people s life but have nothing of my own i don t know what to do anymore i know i m not at my worst yet because some thing still bring me some joy but none of that fix the problem i have no motivation i try to reach out for help but i don t exactly get any i pretty much get pushed to the back burner a lot and i get it people have their own thing to deal with but i need help i can t do this alone because doing it on my own isn t working i just want to leave this place i m in the job the town the everything probably and find what i want whatever that is i don t even know if i m looking for advice or just to have someone tell me i m not crazy",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "bombassdyk deathydescole ma m re est croyante lors de sa d pression on lui a rabach que c est cause de sa foi etc alors que la d pression est une maladie avec une composante biologique un d ficit de certains neurotransmetteurs c est fuir ce genre de personnes par exemple",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have too many problem on my plate work is a commitment responsibility are a commitment family is a commitment therapy is a commitment basic hygiene is a commitment taking care of myself is a commitment gaming is a commitment having friend is a commitment talking to people i care about is a commitment not falling asleep is a commitment caring is a commitment eating is a commitment taking my med is a commitment the list could go on forever i m not subscribed to earth yet living here is a commitment",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "neyawn yeah interview don t know even when it is",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been sad for a couple of year now this is because of my height i am already 9 year old m but i am stuck at i feel like i am not a man because of this hence why i am extremely sad and developed body dysmorphia is this reason of mine just or am i overreacting",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "twitter is the only social medium platform i don t feel uncomfortable talking about how mentally ill i am im tired if struggling anxiety depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "misstoriblack cool i have no tweet apps for my razr",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "cuz like troybolton is the hottiemcsuperbob omfgz my nail bud cry",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tuesday is a raining day again",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it will be two year this november since my brother died from a fentanyl overdose this completely shook up the family dynamic i moved back home to be closer to them about a year before his death while i am happy i did get to spend his last birthday with him since he is gone and the family is all split up now i hate living here i used to make double doing the type of work that i do here where i last lived my job is actually financially draining me i am a caregiver aid for disabled kid and have been for over year but ever since my brother died i find myself in very dark place then i get really angry for a second because i know he is gone and never coming back then throw in the caregiver fatigue with the grieving depression and i just feel so crazy in my head sometimes one minute i m fine the next minute i hate everyone inflation isn t helping because i am having to skip meal to make sure my kid are fed which also isn t helping my mental health i dunno how do you all cope",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "after a year of not getting the vaccine i have to get it because i m going to another city for a panoramic xray i have severe anxiety to the point that my heart is always racing and i can hear the loud beat and it interferes with my health exam one time the doctor got mad at me because she s not satisfied with my bp knowing that i wa anxious the entire time so she ordered me to drink xanor alprazolam before the vaccine however xanor is not available in my place even in the city the vaccine incharge won t jab nervous people i feel so helpless i need to get the xray asap because i m always in pain over my wisdom tooth",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wish i had someone to talk to i m so upset no one like me anyway",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "maxbarners i hope it all go well",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yaykimo it s sad it s the last season i wan na see when spencer call lauren",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mizzzidc honestly i think this wa too much for u to treat your mom this way co of sneaker imagine the depression she would feel too that her own daughter took her to social medium co of sneaker what if she had come on sm for the pain she went thru when she had your pregnancy",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "darknbold biolakazeem love and light from me too but i had to unfollow him on all his account so not to fall into depression too blaming mourinho not his fault it s the club that chose him over mourinho someone that should come out and humbly apologise to the club and fan before he leaf",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tomatosalsa hope you aren t referring to me say hello to your new stalker lol",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s tuesday evening and i haven t been able to fall asleep in a few day because i can not stop replaying a sequence of event at work from last week i talked it out with my coworkers and i know that i wa in the right there wa nothing i could have done to get a better result and it s ok everything s cool let s move forward with our life k i would love for it to be that easy but that squishy asshole between my ear ha a very different perspective on the matter so we can t move forward we haven t earned that yet we have to spend an indeterminate amount of time meticulously dismantling and examining every minute detail of the incident my action and the reaction of everyone else involved buckle up and grab a barf bag folk it s about to get real whenever i have even a tiny stretch of free time the film reel in my head alternate between warp speed and slow motion depending on circumstance and timing every minute or so my brain get the ball rolling with really all the thing you could have done and that wa how you handled it idiot followed up with whoa you ve got nothing to worry about bae you handed that shit like a champ before circling back to what the fuck is wrong with you why why would you do something so heinously ridiculous this is why nobody want to be around you this shit right here and after that we get another no don t listen to that mess you are entitled to occupy space on this planet without apoligizing for your own existence but then that s hilarious see how far that attitude get you tomorrow after everyone ha had time to think about what happened and they realize what an immature out of touch self centered asshole you are have fun dying alone and unremembered and then every few minute the pattern repeat itself in an infinite loop of madness half assed self justification and shame this can go on for day sometimes week or month but it never permanently stop sometimes a certain song a smell a facebook memory or a half heard remark from across the room will launch my as back in time to tear myself to shred over an instance that ha been dead buried and forgotten by the rest of the human race except for me lather rinse repeat go fuck yourself wave of abject misery and self loathing interspersed with flash of contentment that might occasionally brighten thing up but it never really stop or get any better the best i can really hope for is the drop off in frequency that occurs after a few week or ideally i might forget about the incident entirely until i get hit with a trigger again at least",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "can t sleep again",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "alenakristina oooooh i love it sorry i can t help if you can t find it i probably wont be able to find it because well you know",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "bkk ha protest maybe ho chi minn city",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "for the past couple of month i have been feeling really cold my throat and my esophagus down to the center of my chest ha started feeling icy like i just drank a really cold glass of water but that feeling stay all the time i am a yr old female and don t have a history of debilitating anxiety or any anxiety at all but i have just recently had a few fuck ups at work and maybe it s anxiety i feel like when i calm down i still have that cold feeling sometimes though so i m not sure if that s a common feeling with anxiety or not ha anyone else had this if not i want i look elsewhere for the cause thank you in advance",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "snapchat layla kuz",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my nose is bleeding",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "been depressed lately and it hurt like hell getting out of bad is a chore thought of non existence are a comfort silver lining i ve been completely disillusioned my ego ha been shattered i no longer pretend i m living a good life that i m happy that i m not lonely or that i am in any way special from now on it will be brutal honesty to myself and others which before i couldn t imagine i suck my life suck most people are much better than me in every way it is what it is i ll try to cope and do the best i can in this hard lonely existence i don t seem to be equipped to handle no more lie fight on brother and sister",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "one triop down one to go",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "miss om aww i know i felt like that yesterday at work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i didn t choose to be born i didn t choose to have these vital instinct it shouldn t fall onto me to overcome them the world that gave birth to me should fix it mistake i shouldn t be asked to fix it in it stead it s not my responsibility",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hey last year i went through a horrible horrible depression and it s wa because i wa going through a lot and i wa always doing thing for people i forgot about myself and this year i just want to focus on me but it s like people from my past are trying to come back into my life and i don t want nothing to do with them i m also trying my best to protect my energy so sometimes i get in a mood of i don t want to talk to anyone like i m perfectly fine just being alone and it s like human these day don t understand this they get upset i don t want to be a bad person but i just can t handle too many friend or a lot of people in my life just hanging out in the background if i could just be alone forever i honestly would i been through so much trauma i don t trust anybody",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "assuming you werent feeling better when you were taking them",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i haven t had a mental breakdown in a while because i m practicing to not let thing get to me a much a i did before now a day i ve been feeling sad not wanting to talk to people getting angry and cry i cried for about day now and i don t know how to get back to normal i m scared that i might go back in my black hole and that would be terrible because i don t think i can stop the thought if they yell loud enough i m scared because i might fall back and listen it s miserable in the black hole honestly i ve been pushing so hard in 0 i just want someone tell me that they are proud of me and to keep pushing please if you re a father please note that you are because i would love to hear it from a dad father s are their daughter first love but not in my case so please help me out",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i wa prescribed propranolol 0mg for really bad physical anxiety symptom i have something coming up later in the semester in term of presentation it s not just presentation it s like presentation in one day i know what a joy i wa definitely planning to take a dose that day however i m scared it will wear off a few hour later is it fine if i double the dos that day or should i not",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wonder if jon lost the net",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "our sweet little man just fell asleep while waiting up for daddy and big brother to get home poor baby he missed them so much today",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sooo sick of the snow ughh",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hi im doing my master degree my grade are dropping the note my teacher are leaving are nasty thing like you are not creative you don t know how to write this wa not the case in first semester i got straight a and now in this exchange semester thing are just going to hell i lost my confidence i can t write im panicking that im not good engouh and the voice in my head keep telling me that im a stuipd failure the medicine are not stopping that and now i have this paper to sumbit and i just cant start writing bc i feel stupid im just tired i just want the voice to stop and to feel happy about myself and what i accomplished",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "http is gd r zf http is gd r zy and http is gd r zg test footage with my girlfriend in hd the dark one is underxposed",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "chimpytwit brilliant idea just bring a much a you think you ll spend amp i ll swap you bring a brolly",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m worried that they re going to think that i wa lying and that i m going to get into some trouble for the past month i had like or refund because the amazon driver keep putting my package outside my gate when they re suppose to put it inside this led to my package getting stolen recently it happened again i couldn t find my package but it turn out my mom brought it in earlier and placed it somewhere and forgot tell me what do i do",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "suck when you know you haven t done anything wrong but it feel like you have",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i havent slept a wink severe insomnia arghhhh why",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sat at work not fair so not fair",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im up i slept an hour last night death",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ugh still working on project just taking a small break",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "o i wish the frog weren t becoming extinct http tinyurl com cxe w",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "went to bed at pm and now wide awake at am i don t have to be to work until 0 this is going to be a long day",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "absalomjuma kukufa na depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "gon na be a great day of the member of our team are off",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sometimes people become apathetic because of depression or trauma other time people turn to apathy after repeatedly being disenfranchised \u00e2\u0080?1",
    "output": ""
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "didnt hear from my hunn today",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "at work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ooo dr who is on in hd ok ok i m officially a sad techy geek",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been pretty bloated the past few day happens a lot working on finding out the cause whenever i eat a meal my belly boost up and my heart rate sits at like 0 for around half an hour until thing start to deflate i m currently in the hospital for a completely unrelated surgical stay and it make my anxiety even worse because to the nurse it look worrying i think most of them have realized it s not an actual heart issue it happens so often and i ve had many ecg that were fine it doesn t help that having my pulse tested also cause my right to shoot up just hoping to hear i m not alone i guess haha",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mew today is a prescribed opiate day me think grr",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m a girl on the autism spectrum about to leave my school graduation year but dammit my school a school meant to help autistic youth mind you ha been going down the drain over the past few year and it ha gotten extremely worried about how i m going to work in the future if i can even get a job at all",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "look like i ve missed out on yet another job someone please employ me haha",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "no cold water tap in our bathroom i miss my cold water",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "depression make no sense sometimes i have a great life family member who love me friend who care about me everything going for me in term of college relationship life etc and despite all of these thing i still find myself thinking about ending my life suicidal ideation is something that i have dealt with since i wa a young teenager but lately it ha become a half dozen to a dozen thought of taking my own life every day what i really don t understand is the fact that almost everyone else around me doesn t feel the same way i do doesn t see the world in the same way i do sometimes when i wake up i ll just have my mind scream at me that no one and nothing matter that despite what we do all of u will end up dying one day etc sometimes i just really don t see the point of life all of u are on a journey with the only thing promised to u are sorrow or death we are taught that we have to make our own happiness and value out of life but if that s true than there is definitely something wrong with me that can t be fixed because some of u just aren t made for your fairy dust fucking world and anyone who isn t thank you cause there are too many stupid as happy people in this fuckface of a wordl we live in",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m feeling so bad i can t function anymore and will probably be hospitalised but i got a message from a teacher saying i wa missing too many class and referring me to the school s psychologist what can i do",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tanialt beth tastic widgetsworld spcialndsjungle teamsquarepeg so sen ipseacharity sendcrisis stevebroach eleanorjwright kimturner 0 gfreeman 0 renatabplus but in reality i get it i spent month in deep depression because of la move to remove our kid parent are exhausted and energy is pretty much depleted trying to get by on the minimum in financial support and tangible support fighting relentlessly for our own kid",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "a known now i am m and identify a unlabeled and that s great i used to identify a bisexual but now identify a unlabeled since i feel more comfortable with it straight to the point is that i m scared of how my parent will think of me in the future and how i will tell them my sexuality reason are is that i have a gf and i want everyone around me to see that i m straight but they won t anymore and they will see me a gay because in the future my gf will most likely become trans and switch to being a guy i like guy and girl but don t like the label bisexual idk why so that s why i identify a unlabeled so i will be seen gay to my parent and i live in a catholic family so i m nervous how my future will be and it curl my stomach to think about they said they would accept me if i wa gay but i told my mom i wa straight and her reaction wa oh thank god and now i think she could of been lying idk that reaction make me nervous for the future i m just trying to live a a kid now and enjoy the moment while i could",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so basically for a long a i can remember i have been terrible in public situation when i have to present i shake and go red but the most difficult thing thats happens is that my throat feel like it closing up and i can not get any word out even if i keep trying this lately ha progressed into seemingly random situation i think it s because im more aware of it i could be talking to some of my friend in a group and suddenly start to choke and can t speak it s made all the more confusing a when i take beta blocker i can speak fine in any situation so i guess this must mean it a mental block if anyone ha ever experienced this or could even point me in the right direction for stuff to read that would be great i have tried googling this issue but can t find anyone similar to me i m not sure if practicing talking to people work in this situation a i literally cant get the word out of my mouth when it happens thanks",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "skynicmac shame",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "why am i up so early i am bored and have had that trantula song stuck in my head for the past hour www stalkdaily com georg",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so long story short i recently started to become what i think is depressed thing is after the first few day of it being a bit tough i became to find it enjoyable to some extent amp x 00b to put it simply it ha let me achieve something i ve been trying to achieve for a very long time near zero emotion positive or negative but this time it isn t from repressing my emotion i also don t crave nearly a much social interaction a before and i give no shit meaning i wa able to get work done in class i usual hate since i don t hate them anymore the main downside to all this are increased tiredness increased frustration and low motivation low motivation and increased tiredness don t really bother me since i don t get homework and i don t have a job so it s not getting in the way of anything the increased frustration however is a wee bit annoying since i seem to quit my game way more than usual making me lose progress i also know i won t do anything suicidal cause that would violate of my core logical value amp x 00b all in all i rate this experience a 0 it would be an 0 if it weren t for the increased frustration",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "frumph i d hug you too poor frumph",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ended my depression when i stopped procrastinating free ebook unlock your power via r freeebooks http t co v wwlg p",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i miss my friend from elementary and middle school",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "what a lousy day buh",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ugh in sound class now out of here at kill me won t get home until 0ish",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "want to play resident evil but school and work getting in the way",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "can i talk to someone please",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "once i hear niphkeys my depression disappears i will not tolerate any zino slander please",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m so fucking anxious all the time it s killing me i felt great last august no panic attack for over a year and my social anxiety disappeared so i came off my med within week i wa back on them and haven t been right since the trazodone stopped working so i went on mirtazapine and gained stone in a many month so i came off that and went on agomelatine my anxiety wa increasing severely so my gp put me back on trazodone on the rd march but only after keeping me on agomelatine for week which is basically a placebo pill i ve been in a amp e time in week having a panic attack they give me like mg tablet of diazepam and send me on my way my gp refuse to give me any even though it s so severe i can t get out of bed never mind leave the house i don t know what to do these level of terror aren t sustainable and nobody seems to want to help or prescribe me the one thing that help i m also in the uk which is awful for mental health service no technique help because i m so anxious i can t think about anything else other than heart attack and dying with it i m so tired",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "raymondroman oh no how did you manage to send something to the trash can and empty it without noticing i feel for ya",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dang won t be able to get to any workshop run by web direction",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wa picking up dinner and when i went to close the door i hit my head i m sure i m fine but now my anxiety went to 00 and i m thinking of internal bleeding and all this stuff and idk if my anxiety is causing this small headache i have now or not",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "bah immune system finally gave in it did so well this year throat is feeling horrid now",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "d trix my mom just had a root canal also i feel your pain buddy",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "on the train sans guardian",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "fighting off the hungries",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yayfuckbuddies what i would and me horny too",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "similarly if you re stuck in the rut of depression addiction or obsession your brain will welcome the opportunity to restore some plasticity to it unhealthily rigid behavioural and cognitive model",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is at work thinking how much graveyard shift sux",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "downy weather where s the summer",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wa doing nothing and suddenly she just say why did you even live useless maybe i m overreacting but this really hurt me she took care of me since i wa a kid because my mom wa working overseas i wish i wa never born damn this world fuck everything",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "th m m t l n n i d i",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dear who ever find this i m sorry so sorry i did try i know it wa never enough for anything but all i wanted wa to be okay i don t know how to be tho i m not enough and i will never be all i do is make trouble and upset people i m sorry i must of been a big burden on everyone i m deeply sorry for everything i ve done and now everything you have to do now i m gone i just don t know how to fix everything i m deep in this hole how am i meant to climb out when i ve never been taught too i m haunted by everything how am i meant to live my life when i m trapped in the past i just want to be normal and ok why doesn t anyone understand i suppose i haven t helped myself but it just suck suck i wa never worth enough to myself to help myself i honestly dont see myself going anywhere or doing anything worth while i m sorry i know this is so pathetic of me i just dont know what to do i want to live i want to see my sister grow up and my mum and dog i want to fall in love and draw and live on the beach with a balcony i just cant bear this anymore what am i meant to do i m so fucked i m scared and so unsure of everything i m so overwhelmed over everything i ve done this to myself i m so dumb no one can help me now i m sorry i tried in the end ok that count for something right i m just not a good person i realise that i never will be i love everything so much i wish they loved me aswell i tried everything to be happy but honestly they nothing left for me i could write more but what s the point i bet i won t even do it co i m a pussy i bet i ll just delete everything i don t want anyone seeing than clean and realise i m dumb and not kill myself i m a pathetic excuse for a daughter i m sorry all i do is sleep and dream all day this is no life for anymore i know compared to others i have a good life but that just make me feel even more pathetic for hating mine i love you lot goodnight",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "syekr is myki really horrible",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wednesday my b day don t know what do",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sorry for the depressing post i have some problem that are long term and i suffer every second of everyday i am so tired of the mental pain of suffering everyday my eye will never be the same again and i only use my right eye i don t want to have such a shameful death but i wa wondering if you people believe this can possibly be a good choice i am about to have exhausted all of my treatment option",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s gotten so bad lately i am basically in a constant state of fear i can t get a break from it whatsoever just a constant state of being afraid impending doom and panic any helpful word and tip would be greatly appreciated it s so debilitating and disheartening",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i can t take my ocd and thing i ve done like played virtual game and had a male friend i feel like a terrible girlfriend also i can t take living here with my parent at almost year old they re abusive mentally but they re right i m never gon na make it in life",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the past three day ive experimented with milligram klonipin everyday it made me see life from a different view ive never been able to talk to people talk on the phone make eye contact talk to a girl and im in constant edge the klonopin ha helped durastucally today i applied for three job called place asking to hire and wa able to make confident eye contact can i be on klonipin long term it help so much i really believe i have the world worst anxiety my brain is on like turbo mode all day without it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "back at work have to go to zeist in a minute but want to stay here to do some work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "off to the dentist",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m not fat and dumb it s just how my life s been for a long time now and i don t see any change happening in the next few month or year idk",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mrskutcher i wa just thinking that today how deprssing it all is make u appreciate life more",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m 9 male and autistic i have never had a relationship with anyone not even a date i had a few crush but i m too shy and socially awkward to act on them when girl try to flirt or hit on me i miss the sign because my brain doesn t work properly so i accidentaly reject them just to realize what i did a few hour later and get even sadder because i blew another chance i don t understand how i m supposed to find a romantic partner but i really want one i also don t think i would make a good partner my sex drive is high every slight mention of anything sex related give me a semi i really want to lose my virginity but the idea of being that intimate with another person is terrifying to me i would have to break so many social boundary to let anyone get so close to me and i wouldn t be comfortable breaking those boundary for another person either i stopped trying to talk about this with people close to me because no one understands i just wish i didn t have to deal with all these urge i ll never be able to fulfill i hate my life",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "thinking the short and flip flop may have been a bad idea",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "min till home time and counting i have a craving to visit the mac store but they will have closed by the time i get there",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i keep having anxiety in the shower sometimes i can manage through but i had to shave and take a little extra time my usual anxious thought about a million way to die i swear i could have written the script to the movie and why i m terrified of the unkniwn waved over me and i pushed through the shower a fast a i could got out and instantly took a full pill of my clonazepam mg now i m sitting here about minute later still half anxious struggling to even right this a my brain is going into shut down mode i still have to make dinner but my husband may be tasked with it tonight which i know he won t complain or think anything of it but it make me feel like a bad wife i went almost month with little to no anxiety until about week ago and now i feel like i m right back to where i wa it s been two year and i m so ungodly tired of this i m tired of being good for a couple year then being thrown back into anxiety panic attack i m tired of deciding that not feeling at all is better than participating in living c",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my anxiety manifest itself in many way and this is one form of it i would stand in front of the mirror and just feel like guilty for not being better not contributing more not being more positive not being a better friend when in reality i do those thing anyone else relate to this feeling",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nilelegania glad i wa able help you feel better i hate to see you sick love you",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "stupid bus wa early i missed it stupid thing then i missed the bus after that finally got a bus then missed my second gutz",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it nemesis",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have nearly 00 dollar saved a a student working hour a week i spend money on almost nothing but random food rent to parent car payment and gas i just feel like spending money because it feel like it d make me feel better but i still don t wan na do anything any video game i can buy hobby sure all i really want is good company but thats the one thing i can t really get lmao",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theonewithkatie please i need someone to go to it with me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i just can t take it i didn t even have serious trauma it wa my fault and still i can t get over it it s been three year i said i forgave him for forcing me to have sex so many time so many month so many thing i wa young i didn t know how sex should work i didn t even consider my voice mattered i m so sorry for my younger self i didn t help her and now everything is my fault i just will never be able to love someone again to have any sexual intimacy i miss who i wa romantic passionate innocent i m just starting to realize how everything i do is related to this how can i be so slow the nightmare the panic attack when i feel my voice isn t listened to how i keep getting drunk and letting some random dude fuck me because it give them pleasure if i start it maybe it mean i am in control if i have sex maybe it mean it wasn t such a big deal but i can t take it sober i have only had sex sober once and drunk way too many i hurt so much the day after i try to forget can t take it anymore i can t forget all these people touching me how much they enjoy it i did this myself i let them i wa never raped it s my fault i m this miserable i want to hate those guy i think i do but i let them some people consider they only lost their virginity the first time they actually wanted to have sex it s funny to think i can be a virgin after so many time no one need to read this i m sorry i just need to say it at least once i can never say it up to recently i didn t even believe anything had happened i know i don t deserve any sympathy after how i did this myself i don t need any just hear me out",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it bulle fika lokitaung utembee kwa mlima na ulale kwa laga depression itaisha",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "blagh class at tomorrow",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just woke up tiresome time",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m a 9 year old male currently in college doing engineering living with my parent i love my parent and they love me and you know the pandemic for the last year forced college to be online learning so i m at home studying with no job yes my parent pay for my education and everything i feel very depressed every day and i became this awful person that yell back at my parent and me sitting at home made me very lazy that if my mom tell me to do a chore then i become angry now is it that i don t have a job i feel depressed and lazy i know i need to change this anger inside of me but don t know how to start the next step thanks for reading this please share what you think",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "no one will read this but there would be occasion i took benzodiazepine and alcohol together and had no memory for example mg ativan and a beer or beer and three ativan or beer and ativan i haven t done that in awhile issue is i am having extreme anxiety that i have ruined my brain chemical somehow like very bad and now i ve convinced myself i ve ruined my brain and i m going to be anxious forever",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "davenavarro wa wondering where you d been you ve been so quiet these day miss the chatty dave",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "izzy artest miss you too it s been too long come back",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "got ta repeat whole art folio cuz old one with a whole term work got wet",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ahhh my webcam is messed up and won t turn on",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theblondetheory between that and the italy earthquake it s been a very sad news day",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nkdreamer did you see donnie s tweet stats almost 00 reply and no jrk",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i can t decide i really want to but then again",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "you ever see your depression dread and feel kinda racist",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "want to go out badly",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theleaguesf not fun amp furious the new mantra for the bay breaker it wa getting rambunctious the city overreacted amp clamped down",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "falling asleep just heard about that tracy girl s body being found how sad my heart break for that family",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "la discoteca i just saw this im sorry",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am in pain my back and side hurt not to mention cry is made of fail",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sometimes when my anxiety is bad i ll snap at people i always regret it immediately after and i hate that i do it doe anyone el here have this problem if so do you have any advice thanks",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "in 0 0 my wife and i moved back to my small hometown due to price of living and being closer to family since then it ha been just the worst year of my life the pandemic started getting serious so we distanced ourselves from my family because everyone wa still going out and acting like we weren t in a plague we have small child one ha a very weak immune symptom we were basically ostracized and told how selfish we were to a point where i got very close to taking my own life thing got better but i m not a close to my mom a i used to be the whole ordeal made me realize how much of a narcissist she is and that she turn everything into a fight recently we pulled my year old out of pre school because many kid i his class got covid with the intent of sending him back a soon a he can get vaccinated my mom is constantly fighting with me and my wife saying we are failing my son anytime i try to even explain my side she turn it into a fight i m at a point where i just can t do it anymore i m mentally exhausted in my head i m already planning on selling our house in the hopefully near future and moving this is just me venting because i have no one else to vent to i can t connect with anyone here in this town because most of them never got out",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i hate being awake going to school western civ presentation andn a really awesome lunch",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mckayla jb hey lol btw u know how to upload a picture i tried but it never show xo",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dat some fast internet we ll probably be stuck with that 0 though http digg com d o kd",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "thecoolestout ehhh don t weather s gon na take a turn for the ugly tomorrow",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "omg my mouth is in so much pain i just wan na sleep untill it time to take my brace off",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i want to go but i m afraid of what s there after idk religion i guess i feel pretty pathetic all the time but i m thinking like maybe in a few month sometime this year i just need clear answer on how and when the right time i guess soon i just need relief",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "stupid m amp m make my stomach hurt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "also i can t even look nobody in the eye because of it wtf do i do it s ruining the relationship i have with my family and parent it s just pissing me tf off i went to get a haircut today but walked tf out because i wa too anxious and my anxiety wa high so when i walked in i sat all the way in the back so my barber and other people wouldn t see me because of my dumbass anxiety but how else wa i gon na get a cut if he couldn t see me right so like i said i just walked tf out with my head down n cried when i got home",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "jdarter oh haha dude i dont really look at em unless someone say hey i added you sorry i m so terrible at that i need a pop up",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i f have a lot of personal challenge including depression anxiety ptsd and idiopathic hypersomnia always tired no solution i have been dating my boyfriend m for almost year now and even though he ha no personal experience with mental illness he doe his best to be understanding and helpful when i m falling apart however lately i ve been feeling very insecure in our relationship because i feel like i don t do even half a much for him a he doe for me he doe a majority of the cooking cleaning and laundry especially lately since my mental health ha been declining in the last few month i know that it seems simple for me to contribute more to these thing but it s hard for me to bring myself to do these thing when all i want to do is sleep and distract myself from my depression i have talked to him about how i ve been feeling and apologized for not doing more and while he say he understands i m so scared that he ll leave me because i m a wreck i m trying to budget for therapy but it s looking like i probably can t afford it until may i just don t know what i can do to feel better and start pulling my weight",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tiahn good coz you don t have to be there bad coz you don t get paid",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been feeling anxious and stressed out lately which usually cause me to have chest and pain in the middle of my back now i looked up my symptom on google i know i know big mistake and apparently my symptom mostly align with a condition called stable angina this condition can lead to unstable angina which can be fatal i ve gotten at least ekg done in the past month or so and they have all been normal but i m still scared that maybe my body just can t handle stress and is slowly shutting down i don t know ha anyone else here experienced anything like this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "weird feeling hi all i m on my th day is buspirone and i m doing really well though when i go to bed it s tough to sleep with this medicine when i fall asleep i m okay but trying too it make me feel like i jolt internally or like when you go over a hill or a rollercoaster and your belly drop and it doe it a lot until i fall asleep i don t know how else to explain it and my doctor this morning didn t seem to concerned i hope it stop soon wondering if anyone can relate",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i just cant stop thinking about my ex i loved her now that she doesnt want me in her life at all anymore i dont know how to cope and what to do im helpess i really dont see a future for myself",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hey everyone im currently taking wellbutrin and buspirone buspar for depression and anxiety they re both atypical med because i am afraid of the side effect of ssri like loss of libido just so happens that both the med im on currently are supposed to help with libido counteract negative sexual side effect of ssri the thing is i do have a high libido but my anxiety is off the chart and im still pretty depressed psychiatrist want to put me on lexapro along with sticking with my current med i know it would very likely help with depression anxiety but im still worried about the side effect my question i guess is if you have a high libido to begin with but anxiety and intrusive ruminating thought is the main problem what are the odds that lexapro wouldn t negatively impact my libido at all maybe even increase it because it lower my anxiety and depression especially given that my current med are supposed to help with that thanks for reading",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "looking at it i seem to be getting a completely different config finding shared hosting hard not having control",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "depression nap gt gt gt",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "susanstn opps still unable to dm you at the moment maybe twitter bug after the maintenance",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "getsmart u watching loser i wan na cry for sean",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i just can t seem to relax throughout the day every time i think about sitting down and reading watching a tv show meditating putting a face mask on etc i ve got 000 thing on my mind random stuff anxious thought thing i have to get done etcetc so i never get to truly relax i panic just thinking about reading cause it ll be calm and there s nothing to distract me from my thought until i m able to focus on the book which can take a while the only time i m able to actively relax is when i m tired after i ve worked out for h in the gym or late at night got ta find the sweet spot between anxious mess and falling asleep feel like walking a tightrope amp even when i manage to get there i have more important stuff to do than relaxing eg studying amp other stuff that my anxious self didn t manage to do",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "no matter what i do and how much i try i feel like noone will ever really care but thats fine i dont want to be alive anymore anyways i keep saying im doing better but im not im sorry i just dont want anyone to worry i just want to be normal i never asked for any of this i never fucking asked to be born into a shithole family i never asked for a potential personality disorder i never fucking asked to be alive this long ive tried so many time ive done so much stupid shit im just ruining my life and ruining everyones perception of me maybe if i make people hate me itll be easier for them to deal with my death i dont want to live anymore i cant eat anymore i can barely get up anymore i have incredibly shit hygiene it disgusting i know im sorry im sorry im like this im sorry im so fucking sorry im still alive it would be easier if i wasnt it would be itd be better it be better that way maybe id be happy maybe itd bring people peace to know im not ruining myself anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "jonathanrknight good knight hun looking forward to ur tweet again hate that i keep missing out on the fun cuz of the time difference",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it wa in hope someone would come over she ghosted 0 minute after telling me she wa on her way to hang out it s been maybe hour i wa going to shrug it off but it only added to my low mood the last couple day i don t even know why i keep my hope up anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "still up trying to finish a mix",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have been on prozac wellbutrin for a few month and other depression medication for over a year now i wa told from the beginning i need to go to therapy but wa just too exhausted to pick up the phone and try to find one i ve slowly started getting my energy and motivation back and gave my first session scheduled this month i want to hear other people s experience did you start with medication or therapy first i have heard people say start with therapy but in my case i would have never even made an appointment without the medicine to pull me out of my depression i m hoping therapy help me with coping mechanism and help me get back on track after being depressed for so many year",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wondering where the sunshine went",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "pmarnandus re daily gossip well the twitter gossip are mostly from e online which i can not access",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "shresthayash ouch i can just imagine a toothpic in the eye or something",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello i m having some trouble understanding my life rn i had a event that i would consider traumatic last year and i don t feel like i haven t been the same since i developed dissociation and depersonalization for a month i had trouble feeling like i and everything around me wa real i have self diagnosed depression and even then i could talk to my friend and have deep relationship with people now i don t feel talking to anyone and i have a hard time reaching out to my friend i have trouble concentrating and functioning a a student and i ignored basically all of my responsibility for the last two month for videogames i ve had episode where i have a lot of anger or i find it hard to breathe when i do something wrong and i ve also had a hard time sleeping i ve recently gone to therapy but i don t feel like it s helping my life feel like hell and my suicidal thought have been stronger",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "m i have been dealing with depression anxiety panic attack for 0 year and also have adhd i kind of suck at everything i am failing my rd university almost have no social life have no girlfriend for year no job no goal and no achievement i have been trying to get my life together for year i quit alcohol and cannabis completely i am working out regularly forcing myself to socialize and learn new skill and trying to date failing miserably i am only successful at quitting drug which i can relapse anytime i suffer month of a year have some good day so what is the point of living if i won t be happy and achieve anything what kind of man i am who can not attract a woman and never be able to and why do i bother to live if i am failing every job i took and every university i went to i always feel lonely hate myself and can t look at the mirror anymore i am about to give up but i can t decide please answer objectively thanks",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "boycotting work on facebook s fashion war",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i get so nervous every time my spouse leaf me he is in the military which happens often and it just spiral me i am so scared of losing him and it make no sense but i feel like we are safer together what can i do to assure myself nothing will happen and if i am just over obsessing over this for no reason",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "now i don t want this to turn into either a political debate or an echo chamber of fear but doe anyone else find it really hard to think about the future between covid climate change the far right and war i ve been feeling increasingly doomed since 0 and it s made it very difficult to live my life what is the point of setting goal or doing anything but spending time with your loved one when it seems like there might not be a tomorrow",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my depression ha been at it worst this year after suffering some significant loss i m going to college in the fall and i want to look forward to it but i cant i chose a state school so i wouldnt have debt and figured i d find a way to pay for it easily all my plan fell through and i only have a couple thousand in scholarship nowhere near enough to cover it i missed so many deadline and screwed up so much because i have no one to help me in my life no reliable adult or friend one of my best friend wa awarded a full tuition scholarship and i want to be overjoyed for her but i just feel so horrible about myself i tried so hard in high school with my grade and music and it amounted to nothing thousand dollar in scholarship is all i have to show for it i cant get any help from fafsa and i have a job but working is horrible when i can barely get out of bed how do i keep going when i have no one to support me and nothing to keep going for",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "citizensheep",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nobody will probably see this anyways nobody saw my last one i just wanted to vent my current thought so i can at least alleviate some form of pain that s going on internally at the moment ever since my ex left i ve had nobody to talk to i have no bond with anyone no friend or anything all i fricken do now is lay in bed all day go to work when it s time come back and go to sleep i don t live anymore then again what is living anyways if you have nobody to experience it with i just live a lonely existence and i m fricken tired of it i either want to be dead or just drugged up on pill so i can at least feel something beyond this emptiness inside i hate my fucking retarded existence anyways i wasn t meant to be born and i ve felt nothing but pain growing up what do i even have to feel happy about that i make decent money so fucking what money only buy me temporary happiness it isn t eternal i want to feel what true happiness feel like i m sick and tired of this life and i want to just be different or gone completely",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wa woken up by my mom now i cant get to sleep",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "doing my tax not in the best mood because of this",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "depression amp anxiety changed me 0 tried to take my own life 0 9 with therapy and time i turned it all around passing my trade test stabilizing myself becoming a dad and supporting my family now so clear that i don t take shit from anyone and they all hate me for it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "blooming great change of weather now i have a cold just my luck don t seem to be having much luck lately life suck at the mo",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "perruchee peteblacklab her dog had a phantom pregnancy and after her depression my auntie decided to breed her and only sell puppy to people she knew so the mumma dog will still see them http t co jvhtisc sf",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yayitsfoogie aww well i thought it wa a fun website anyway don t be lonely",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "miss rach already",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sitting in work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "need cuddling now",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s going to be a long year for a s fan",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m up way to late to be working for a client 0 am fb",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s something i feel multiple time a day i get even more anxious when i don t get reply or when someone leaf and drive some place else i always have to check my parent cctv camera they gave me access to it i can t help but think something bad might happen i ve been like this since i wa a child my first memory of this fear wa when i wa around or year old and my grandparent drove to a place i considered far i wa so worried i had to ask my mom if they ll be safe do you experience the same thing how s it like for you how did you get over it if you ever did",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i went to the psychiatrist and he recommended drop of clonazepam mg every day before i go to college the place my anxiety is the worst im really afraid because i never took any medicine any advice",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "aaaaaaaaaah still cold outside at least it s sunny for now that is",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "when the depression start feeling like ruining all your friendship",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m a year old guy and i ve been struggling with this problem for quite some time year every time my girlfriend who i trust more than anyone in this world go to a party without me and she get high or drunk i have strong anxiety attack just thinking about it is making me shaking in fear and i can t understand why i like to get drunk and high too i find it funny to spend a night messing around i don t think it s that bad or that make you a bad person but when my emotion my inner fear kick in i completely lose my mind and i start to think that i don t want a partner that indulge in those kind of behavior a if i had this image of purity of her that get broken by the thought of her enjoying a joint something bad people do i don t understand it s like some cognitive dissonance for some background i used to be quite bullied back in high school by those who went out the night to get drunk or that smoke weed maybe that could have led me to associate those behavior that have nothing to do with the moral integrity of a person with a certain type of people could it be please let me know what you think and if you have similar experience i ll gladly read all your suggestion and comment thank you",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am a freshman in high school young i get it but still have felt like shit for year this night wa terrible worse then the others and i don t even know why i decided that i wa gon na end it all i went to the cabinet and grabbed 0 pill and swallowed them all knowing what the outcome should have been i went to bed right away in hope that i wouldn t have to feel the pain but then something weird happened i heard my alarm clock go off in the morning meaning i wa still alive how i don t know but i should have been dead i can t focus on anything now and just think about the fact that i m still alive and thinking of way on how i am but still nothing i don t know what to do and am literally losing my shit",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "being border restricted victim day by day we getting engulfed in frustration depression suicidal attempt and much more that we can t express in word depression fmwangyisaveindianstudents takeusbacktochina 00",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello i have this issue that s been happening more and more frequently a of late starting off back in the office i wa extremely anxious but i found that when i got there i usually always got excited and talkative for about an hour after which i start crashing it feel a like i start sinking into emptiness i get self conscious my selfless esteem crumbles and i start feeling depressed this happens regularly and follows me back home i don t know what to do or how i can mitigate this any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i had one not to long ago im kinda feeling down rn but it all good these thing just make me stronger",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "finally fellow ninja logging into the forum if you ve done so recently can you redo again a it woz a bit broken before",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t want to walk home in this snow who want to pick me up",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so a couple month ago i finally had the courage to tell my girlfriend i wa cutting myself we ve since broken up but that doesn t matter too much she expressed her sympathy but then abruptly got up to go to the bathroom i wa concerned but she told me not to follow because this wa at school and i wouldn t be allowed so i trusted that her bladder just had terrible timing so i waited after a couple minute go by i start to get worried and that s when the teacher tell me that she found her cry in the bathroom and sent her to the counsellor office and i should go check on her i go to find her and she tell me that she had a panic attack because she ha trauma related to self harm i m obviously concerned for her but at the same time i m so angry she didn t even tell me anything wa wrong we talk for a bit and cry a lot but then the counsellor say they want to talk to her and i should get back to my class so i go back to class and i have to pretend that everything s ok that i haven t been experiencing the lowest point of my mental health ever and i have to go through it alone eventually she come back but only to grab her thing she tell me she s going home because she already had a bad morning and that it s not my fault all i wanted wa for someone to be there for me and the only person i could talk to just left i can t talk to counsellor because i m terrified of what would happen if my parent found out this happened month ago and i m still so angry at this i don t even talk to her anymore but i don t know how to deal with this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "good morning i have crippling depression http t co wpedw lez",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m done with life i can t cope year wa enough anyway will 00mg of amitriptyline 00mg of lyrica and 00mg of tramadol kill me if you re reading this i hope you re doing well",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "snow in april this suck",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "kaitlinmonroe aw that sound so fun i m so bummed that i missed it did you get to meet anyone",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is stressing out because my blackberry keep flashing a red alert status for no reason it faking me out and i hate it",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "what brand have worked for you guy and what brand should i avoid and what s your preferred method to take it gummy vape something different how ha it helped with your anxiety",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "morning all gave the cat his tablet this morning what a mission that is he know what we re up to now and prepares for battle",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i used to joke that he doesn t remember what my name is but it s not funny anymore it actually kind of hurt we ve been together for year and he never call me by my name or even a pet name ever if he need me to come he doesn t shout from the other room babe jill love etc please come here he come to me and just say i need you to come for a sec i ve expressed my hurt several time he just say he feel way too awkward using name on people directly and us an excuse that his parent never use their name between them either not true i told him he should make an effort at least for me but he just stay silent and never doe i thought of dropping this subject at some point because i love him bu then i got super pissed off like i m not asking him to do a headstand every time i enter the room i just want him to call me something nice i am also a severely anxious person but i go to therapy and he doesn t want to any idea",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "today all good is dead i feel a little funny",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my whole life i ve dealt with the trifecta of depression anxiety and ocd i wa always functional with all disorder clocking in at maybe a 0 depression always felt like more of a chemical thing it wa never situationally based anxiety amp ocd were usually health related hypochondria i guess anyways i never knew episode existed i always just hovered at the same baseline then in 0 i had a severe panic attack after smoking some potent weed it really shook me and it sent me into what i guess would be my first episode it wa my first time experiencing dissociation and it terrified me i wa in a constant state of panic for month at the time i had been on lexapro for year my gp wa ill equipped to deal with this so she recommended a new doc for med big mistake new doc decided i should quit taking lexapro and switch to zoloft which perhaps would have worked if she had done it correctly instead of cross tapering or weaning off lexapro she decided to have me stop taking lexapro cold turkey wait a month until it wa out of my system and then start zoloft going cold turkey off lex wa a nightmare of biblical proportion and sent me further into the most intense depression and anxiety i d ever experienced after a hospital visit they suggested an outpatient program i agreed and there they got me back on the lexapro after a few more long month thing evened out i returned to a manageable baseline although the depression wa a tad higher because i could no longer self medicate with weed the experience ruined weed for me would immediately send me into panic mode but still thing were going well fast forward to january 0 and suddenly out of the blue i wake up one day super depressed no appetite couldn t sleep at night i wa so confused my first episode had a clear and obvious trigger panic attack ill advised cold turkey med change i d never had something like this happen with no trigger that s when i started to dig deeper and found out that episode exist this time i had a doc i trust added remeron which wa awesome at first felt better than i had in year wa sleeping and eating great for about 0 day then splat all that went away back to square one and i even developed tinnitus from the remeron so i nixed the remeron and we decided to switch from lexapro a well but the right way this time i did a seamless cross taper to effexor i m on my th week of it went from 0 my last day on the lexapro wa last friday which wa the day i did the increase to 0 thing have improved slightly def not where i wan na be tho i now know that episode can last anywhere from day to month or longer so i m trying to be patient it s tough tho eventually i may have to decide whether to increase effexor again or augment with something else an aa perhaps not sure what i meant to accomplish with this wall of text but if you read it kudos to you i guess i just wanted to document this strange journey maybe you ve been through something similar or know someone who ha maybe you can offer advice which i d welcome either way i hope whoever is reading this is doing well and i wish you all the best of luck in this thing called life",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "at work and tired doing report fun no not really",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tried to download tweetdeck but it wont download",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have a serious question are anxitey med worth it i have paralysing anxitey sometimes i ll get better then i ll get worse it s pretty rough the people i ve asked half say it s not worth it it can make you worse and others say they are good i m so confuseeeeed",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve struggled with suicidal tendency and thought since i wa i m now the thought and action have only worsened with age i can t stop thinking about how the world would be so much better off without me my friend my family my work my partner in every aspect i m contributing nothing and burdening everyone i want so badly to achieve more amp stop being such a burden on everyone but lately it s been seeming damn near impossible to achieve anything worth a damn because i also have an open case against me amp wont pas a background check",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "gosh it is raining in summer cause of the global warming",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t think i m being irrational i know that nobody will ever want to be with me romantically im getting more depressed by the day and i already notice my few friend distancing themselves i can t blame them i m sure i m not fun to be around there s very few people with whom i feel like i can share how i m really feeling but doing so just push them away i need my life to be different not to be stuck in this worthless body i need optimism but there s none left in me i don t think i ll ever be able to kill myself so it s just going to be 0 0 0 maybe even 0 or 0 more year of this void maybe i ll be struck by lightning or something finger crossed",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i always feel like i dont matter",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "paperbag alcohol also work well on well being and depression i hear oh wait we weren t doing that",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wow the shout box ha kicked me out and i can t get back in i guess this mean good night",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "slept for about two hour woke up with my mind racing again couldn t eat dinner due to stomach pain from anxiety just want to quit work and start somewhere new again but it s not possible and will probably end up with the same issue i just wish i could restart everyday and fix every mistake of what i say and do can t keep living this way but i don t see how i can change the cycle i feel like i bring everyone around me down why am i like this i just want to turn my brain off",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i married my fianc from another nationality and moved to his country south korea i ve been here for almost three month and thing have been rough my husband work all day at least 0 hour a day and when he ha free time all we do is fight he s even violent sometimes i am an online teacher and he keep my money he doesn t allow me to get a real job until i learn korean but i am struggling with it i spent all my saving to move in here so literally i have no money we live with his parent and they are nice but at the same time overprotective i don t have freedom to go out they tell me what to eat what to wear they take all the decision in my life i feel controlled and my husband agrees with that also i don t have any friend i don t feel loved by my husband and i don t love him anymore even one of his friend treat me better i am completely alone i told my parent i want to go back home and they said i have to fight for my marriage so no support from them or another family member i think my only way to feel free is dying so i don t know if i can handle this situation anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hide depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is tired of flowchart ken",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hi i m just wondering if anyone is having the same issue and tip to cope i ve been in night club twice over the past couple of month both after i ve had a few drink with friend on both occasion i ve had to leave early because i get anxious about the number of people around resulting in a panic attack i never used to be like this before covid and i m generally ok in crowd sober anyone got any tip to cope",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it is really cold",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hey i posted a question here a while ago but no one answered i don t know if maybe my question got private it or something i don t think it broke any rule it s just that i m afraid death will leave you conciouss until you decompose or get cremated or that you ll suffocate due to not breathing do we know that being dead mean you re definitely unconscious",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "you can be rich asf and still suffer from depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have no one i m alone that s why abuser target me no one care about me if i had someone that wouldn t happen",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it happens a lot when i dissociate at least i have been all day and everything seems like it s moving at the speed of light my whole body feel dizzy and shaky too because i slept hour the main cause of me dissociating today and sometimes it ll randomly feel like everything is going super slow and it feel like i m like stuck in quick sand or something trying to move forward and do stuff but something keep pulling me back",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve come to the conclusion that i m always going to have to face racism and sexism constantly and that s an awful realisation it honestly make me want to die because why should i live in a world that s full of people who want to hurt me when i don t deserve it i have to work in order to live and unless i suddenly become wealthy and never have to take shit from racist manager then i m done my family life is awful i wa sa d by my sister boyfriend two summer ago and my family s response wa abysmal i went straight to my mum after it happened and called the sister that i love and trust dearly she told me that my mum said what doe she expect if she s staying in their house for free those word have never left me i hear them every time i look at my mum and i m still living with her i m too broke to find a place to live alone and no longer want to work because my racist manager bully me any chance she get everything is really overwhelming me i have 0 friend i used to be such a happy and bubbly person but now no one want to be around me i guess it show how conditional some of those friendship were right i reached out to a friend and told her that i wasn t doing well and neither is she unfortunately she cancelled on me twice and hasn t spoken to me since i feel like she doesn t like me anymore i truly wonder if anyone ever liked me i m naturally very extroverted but my anxiety and depression make me sheepish and untrusting of people i end up shutting down every friendship and i hate that about myself it s so fucking hard to stay afloat i no longer want to have kid with my bf because i don t want my kid to go through racism or me a a mother i realise that my depression and anxiety could be passed down to them but i could also ruin them with how unpredictable my emotion are i don t want them to go through what i went through emotionally honestly i do want to die i understand that there s part of my life i am grateful for but they could leave me at anytime i just want a reset button i don t like how my mind keep ruining everything for me i can t have nice thing",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "freddiesdouble glad i m not at work but fed up of being in pain permanent earache for almost a yr is not fun",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "well i ve made it in to college i may have little makeup on and comfy clothes and drank alcohol to fall asleep last night but at least i m out of bed i don t want this depression anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "paradisej cool i will their are all kind of complaint about this laptop online about overheating but no recall",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just did km on the tready and want to die i m not built for running",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it not enough to say that imiss u",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "m f we are currently dating for like month i mean we had sex timesim sure that i do love her a lot and she doe to but i don t want to get in a relationship now cuz i have trust issue it not about her i swear to god but i mean i dont want to think of her in a bad way i dont want to think that she is sleeping with a random dude at this moment i think she is cheating on me for no reason d even though we are not in a relationship and we didn t talk about it actually i am just jealous or have trust issue and i dont want to to make her day bad i want her to feel happy but am not sure about her i mean i had the thought that she is playing with me at the same time i feel like she rly love me and of course i didnt say that to her cuz i am her friend or her lover i meant i don t think that is ok to say that when you re not in a relationship even if we were together i wont say that or think of her like that with how to deal with that how to make it work",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "depression and anxiety is a bitch i envy those people who don t have it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "school work talent cultural knowledge relationship health physical appearance there s always someone better than me and no matter how hard i try the result are mediocre nothin outstanding i shouldn t have existed everything i ve done amount to nothing",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i feel so trapped been through a divorce that s completely breaking me financially i have no friend and i work too much to make them i wa dating a lady fell hard for her and i can t move past her or get over her since we work directly with each other my job is a fairly uncommon one so i don t have much opportunity for another one that s pay a well i m completely stuck and i just want to be done with all of life s bullshit that s all i ever get handed is bullshit",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i literally feel empty and hollow i feel like i m slowly just losing touch of what it mean to be alive i had people to talk with for awhile and it wa great it made me smile knowing i wasn t lonely anymore but look like that disappeared from me the one i talk to just stopped no concern no care just treated a a stranger that really broke my heart i feel so sad and unmotivated about anything anymore it such bad timing because i figured what i wanted to do in life and this come to weigh me down i literally feel like ending it would give me a sense of peace for once i don t know what to do so much stress is on me i don t know how to deal with it anymore what am i supposed to do now",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "fanofbsb ever sorry you missed it",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "simple holding gun to head purposely overdosing and ending up in the hospital more complex standing in the kitchen holding a knife searching the house for anti nausea pill to keep down the rest of the pill writing contact info on a sticky note to keep on your person so the cop can identify the body when doe one cross that line what defines a crisis",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "in bed i suddenly feel i wish ma wa here w me goodnight twitterfam",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "could a man with depression own and operate an air fryer didn t think so",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "duskyazure least u got lie in i ve bn up way long mr woke up at am this morning amp dragd me out of slumberlnd the same time",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "adhd autism and depression are a real nasty combo",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i dont want to go to school tomorrow for an exam after having one and a half week off",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it turned into a fear of leaving the house or even driving a mile away from fear of having a panic attack it just getting terrible and it just so much to take like month ago i wa living in a big city walking mile to and from work by myself on a busy street no problem now im terrified of even driving a couple mile to a gas station without fear of a terrifying panic attack",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "while i do enjoy my job very much it always nicest outside when i m indoors",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s been year since i ve any kind of intimate relationship i ve tried over and over and over to get a girl of any kind and it always end the same they leave me on read or open within two day and honestly i m just a huge loser and i m ready to crash my car and die so if anyone would like to know why i did it there it is i m a fucking failure",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ugh i can t sleep because i m not feeling so great",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this always fucking happens i don t want to be sad i m a happy person this happens to me a few time a year and it s unbearable i don t want to die but this really hurt randomly and i hate it i promise i m not a sad person",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just came back from college assignment really pile up like shit so dead tired",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nmcgivney yeah ploughed around there last night but nothing happening",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ate so many cooky that i think i m hallucinating",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hi everyone my life s pretty difficult now i hate it i feel like i can t do nothing about it i ve been unemployed for about month i quit my job because it wa a hell hole literally a hell hole they treated me like shit it wa toxic i got physically and mentally sick but i kept pushing until the point were i physically couldn t get up in the morning so i quit i ve been battling health issue and depression ever since i quit my family and friend are shaming me and trying to force me to look for a job i m just not sure if i m ready i m too scared i think i wa traumatized from my past job i m just too scared to find a job and get hurt again like i said i ve still in physical pain and it s really hard to look for a job while you re hurting i ve been seeing a psychiatrist for the past month i ve gotten better but i m still too scared to look for a job any advice",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i havent left my house in week i quit my job i spend a good of my day cry i dont know what s happening to me my skin took a complete 0 this year and destroyed any little self confidence i had left ha anyone else felt like this before all i can think about is my skin it taking up my life not only is it unbearable to look at it s painful and itchy and i can not afford a dermatologist looking at myself in the mirror always result in a full blown panic attack i end up hyperventilating on the floor i have cried to the point of vomiting many time i hate that it ha this power over me it s such a silly thing to worry about and i know that but it is absolutely destroying me it is a continuous cycle this constant stress only result in more breakout i feel trapped in my own skin talking about this in real life make me sound vain i wish someone would understand the cry seems to never stop and i havent slept in day now edit this wa not a suggestion for skincare tip for me it is not a simple a diet or hydration it is genetics and hormonal unfortunately",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i miss the glass house but thankfully pretty much every moment of it ha been uploaded onto youtube",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "been a stressful few week dealing with my college that overcharged me and now won t help me with getting the money back bank lost the check i asked the college if they could cancel the check and refund the money to my bank account but the lady who answered the phone at the college blamed me for not knowing what a check is and said that s my problem hence i had to keep calling the bank again and again w no answer to rectify the situation when they did pick up the bank blamed me for not notifying them that the check wa from the college i showed the bank the letter from my college in person so they should know the full situation and even told her to track the check number and amount but she said it couldn t be done but when i called the hotline they were able to do it idk why but this stressful situation ha made my anxiety skyrocket to an all time high i keep thinking someone will blow up at me and call me stupid i grew up with a father with an explosive temper who would curse you out for 0 minute for spilling water and wouldn t hesitate with getting physical i know this doesn t make sense but i feel like someone is going to blow up at me and i would be powerless to stop it i feel like everyone who i dealt with actually hate me and my heart won t stop beating so fast and i feel nauseated all the time i wa cry in bed last night because of how stressful this whole situation wa i know other people have been through worse and i m sorry for posting this but this anxiety and all the bad thought is really taking a toll on me please i really hope someone know how to deal with this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sorry if this is the wrong place but i couldnt think where else to ask lol this is a uk based question i got prescribed med during a phone appointment the other day when they said they would send the prescription in the post i thought they might mean the medication itself and wa kind of surprised but now i think they just meant i d get sent the prescription form in an envelope bc that s what s arrived but they didn t say anything about what to do with it or where to take it i ve only ever been handed a prescription in person with instruction of which pharmacy to collect from and am kind of clueless right now ha anybody had this happen or know what to do can i just take it to any pharmacy",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just being so nervous around every person and my move and action i just have no idea it came back so strong i m so sad it s everyday is a battle if i have to leave the house idk how i ever got this maybe i always have",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "in this meta analysis their finding indicate that at a long follow up interval both positive effect such a a mild improvement in anxiety and depression and negative effect such a a decrease of long term memory verbal fluency and executive function are observed",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve had thought of not wanting to exist for a while but i ve been very much in denial to myself and when spoken to by others about my desire to stop existing i know i also make joke on occasion and yet when i vent it s like i m annoying the people around me or pushing them away because they don t want to hear about my problem they want me to be a happy strong pillar for them who always listens when they need not the other way around i spoilered this a nsfw because it s for one triggering and for two i d like for le people to see it on my profile i just vented about one of the aspect of these thought on a shared space in the channel for triggering topic but i think i want a new outlet just this once i don t like relying on reddit for anything nor putting sensitive information out there so there s a good chance i ll be deleting this post later i feel like this might be triggering but i just keep thinking of a sensory deprivation void that s just dark grey with no stimulus and how without the need for sustenance after a while i d start to fade and all brain activity would just shut off and that s the sort of isolation that i keep wanting no offending sound or smell no need to eat and no bodily function no pain of going without and no pain from my brain suffering the ill effect of my current lifestyle it s an interesting artistic vision but i see how it s too much to share and possibly triggering to some artistic vision it s interesting when viewed through that lens i should say i m le concerned with making sense anymore because i used to put so much effort into syntax and how i came across but i m sick of trying so hard for people i m good with the rambling writing style i ve been using lately i m tired of putting in effort to say thing that i m ashamed of only to have it weird out other people i m good i m alright i m just suffering these bad issue that don t go away and sometimes i have a hard time keeping up appearance i m ashamed of this i m much more neurotic than shared here but i m okay with it i m okay with it i m accepting it i m going to allow myself to feel it and not hate myself for having emotion like usual i m okay with it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have been trying to drop in on a ramp every time i do it in the last second i lean back and fall i can simulate it in my head but my fear or anxiety prevents me i literally went skydiving last week but i can not get myself to do a simple trick i ve fallen plenty of time so what s the worst thing that can happen it s weird how fear is relative i go skydiving one week and the next week i get nervous while driving or when talking to a girl one ha more fatal consequence while the other one just make me nervous i want to conquer all fear but trying new thing is always stressful",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "new podcast alert surreyscorchers guard cayraf9 join the mvp cast to reveal his retirement plan and how he dealt with depression by learning to speak up http t co s t9b dvs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "found a nice lake side park with a small beach but no grill oh well i ll have to keep looking another time",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "spring break is here at last but no one is here to celebrate",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "stephenkruiser i am so sorry to hear that take care",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "aahmddr gradyymk perso c est ce que j ai fais il m ont meme pa un irm apres examen il ont d clar que j avais rien j ai donc t contrainte de prendre une pillule qui m a fait tomber en d pression et an apr s avoir chang de pillule pour une plus soft avec un cycle de j",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "moony 9 i think i will be even more in denial after i watch",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "why oh why wa the red sox game rained out i wa so looking forward to opening day",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is still waiting for a dispatch and just got up about an hour ago after sleeping hour guess i ll go back to bed",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "running nose spinning head not a good combination for a meeting",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween it help with heart break trauma anxiety depression and pain of losing a loved one thelmasherbs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "can t believe cutner is dead on house sad day in santa rosa ca http loopt u orpl a",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "trying to extend reading the watchman by not reading it at all i dont want it to end",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "stupid arranged marriage i ll convert so you can marry me love you",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dweeman why aren t you a happy camper",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i totally have like four girl option and none of them seem viable",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "marge inovera i tried tweetdeck once and i hated it with a passion or it hated me i m not sure",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s so strange waking up everyday with this sense that you want thing to go back to the way they were like your brain ha it own lil trumpster lying to you telling you your childhood wa better before or you were happy before you started this job etc the truth is it s always sucked though lol there are brief moment now where you feel like thing are okay but it s more of a lack of feeling i ve always thought i wa broken because this ha been my constant state since i wa so small i thought i d grow out of it or i wouldn t but life only continues to throw curveballs to others i seem high functioning though kind of emotional but i can t get myself to focus on anything i can t wake up on time for work i work in insurance sale so i hate what i do i have to pretend to care about people and their problem but it just hurt so bad all of the time i know my boyfriend doesn t understand he s in medical school and ha his own struggle but i know he feel love he tell me he doe i don t and even if i do see briefly in his eye that he doe care for me i quickly forget depression ha made me into a terrible person i should be so lucky to have someone who love me so much to have my look my wit and the opportunity i ve been afforded but i can t help but feel so completely destitute he ha helped me find some confidence in myself with pursing going back to school but i m just so tired of it the sale call the application car issue bill health stuff and every other fucking thing when will i be able to do the thing i need to do like eat meal a day have the energy to learn new thing exercise also ha anyone had any luck with any online therapy medication consultation",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "living not downtown sure isn t much fun",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "if you have a computer which isn t doing much or a cpu core not doing much if you re technical get in touch i need processing power",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ughh can t find my red sox hat got ta wear this creepy nick pirro version",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my spouse say they are a highly sensitive person based on some reading that they have done they re also a mental health professional so they may not be jumping to conclusion too soon but i have some concern they have a lot of mood swing low self esteem and self confidence when they re not working they re almost always doom scrolling on instagram they have no interest in outdoor activity and they re also easily affected by the issue of client they see a a part of their job i see all this and tell them that they may need to see a therapist themselves because i had similar symptom and got mental health help myself but i m almost always met with a snappy response saying that they re just highly sensitive and don t see the need for therapy thought anyone",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have got work related anxiety and having a tough time to understand if i should leave this job project and join another company or project why this decision is to be made i am kinda the wiz kid in the project who know everything and everyone is kind of dependent on me which put me in a spot where i can fail alot i am trying to decide what is the right thing to do i am in therapy a well i get triggered whenever i think about work and now it ha become something that happens whenever i think of some big decision i have developed fear of stuff which i never had like height or crossing the road i do cross the road but it take a lot of time i hope the advice i get from this sub reddit will be helpful and help me decide because mental is first",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have no one to tell this so i want to throw it here maybe i will delete it my mind kill me but i just wanted to let some guy see what i struggle with my entire life i wa a disgrace i am not able to run like others to shitty reflex an ugly body a weak brain had a terrible social life that my entire life i dreamed about being noticed by the people smiling finding some people that can bear my voice what flow from my mouth but thats the long story i wanted to move out of my country to europe but i failed again just like i failed my entire life i am just a simple failure not successful at one simple thing i am just lost i am just late no where to go i have to leave the home i am losing my youth i don t remember laughing once for month i have nothing i am nothing it hurt so much watching your youth slipping away from your hand the only thing i have one and only now i want to end my life atleast it will al end i just want to escape i am just so weak i cant take it anymore i cant a weak sperm i wa not even able to compete in equal condition when were same age same class now i am just done it hurt so much i also have to leave the house stay with nothing again i cant take my abusive parent anymore i am also very ashamed that i waste their money too many people in worse condition were able to accomplish atleast simple task me who even i am i wish i just could move on think about something else but no even in that i am bad i am just a clown people remember me a someone hillarious i am planning to kill myself i cant take all that anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "megan equal murder",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "jonathanrknight you sure did do some tweet and i missed them glad to see you re enjoying urself always nice to hear from you x",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this is just a bad pain day but it s really hard not to sink into a deep depression again over how these day are just going to be part of my life for the foreseeable future because there s no cure for pot and the treatment is mainly eat more salty food",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "after over year of dealing with daily anxiety i feel like i need to heed my doc advice and get on medication i know a lot of people will say that it s not but i feel like a loser and a weak person for not having enough strength to overcome my anxiety alone i look in the mirror every day and hate myself for not being able to get past this for sickening year i ve been trying to deal with this on my own every night i go to sleep exhausted saying the next day will be different sometimes i have better day most day are just a grind to pull myself out of the anxiety i don t mind working hard but i spend hour upon hour obsessing about my health any little ache pain bump or bruise sends me into a panic i have heart palpitation on the regular i can t sleep at night i ve tried working out lost lb walk for hour on end listen to positive message stopped drinking and yet the anxiety won t let go of me i pray to god to help me to give me an answer on whether or not i should get on medication i think god might be telling me it s time instead of enjoying the movement with my family i m checking my pulse worrying about cancer is that palpitation a heart attack wa the doctor wrong when he said i m healthy it follows me every where it s become my closest evil little friend and yet i hate myself for not being able to kick it why am i so weak why can t i tell it to fuck off and never come back why if it s my own brain can i not control it i feel like if i just keep pushing i can defeat it without med but it s been year and i don t want another to go by living like a tortured animal just waiting for it to all end maybe i m just scared to go on med i don t know if anyone can see themselves in what i m saying can you please let me know what if any med have helped you i m not looking for medical advice but when i talk to my doc i d like to have some idea of what he might be recommending anyways long post thanks for listening",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve lost year of my life to the pandemic i became a slob i forgot how to care for basic hygiene and everything i own is tight and uncomfortable i have no job or any motivation to find one i waste away everyday but during all of the last two year i had supportive friend and i think i finally overdid it yesterday a friend of mine who i m closest to called me lazy she know about my depression my bad reaction to medication which made me stop taking them and how i m treated a a sub human at home and yet she called me lazy this is the first time i ve been called lazy and i m so heart broken my irl support system ha crumbled and now i have no one i can talk to about anything i hate how being burnt out is seen a laziness i m so tired",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "justgelo it sad knowing how they found her body what a crazy world we live in no child deserves that ya know",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sinktoswim hopefully it will be",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ugh back to 0 dollar fill ups at the pump",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yeah i know it s pretty weird but i ve been experiencing this one since last night i had trouble breathing but the right side seems fine felt like the left side wa the culprit had a tough time drifting to sleep",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i dont bother doing anything all day and im failing college yet im still tired and im constantly thinking about suicide",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i really struggle with depression and increadibly miserable thought about myself and what i do i also struggle with realising what i like or enjoy doing wearing watching etc in a few word i struggle with knowing my interest i feel no emotion for life at all i just see myself doing everyday stuff i need to survive a a human being do you have any suggestion on how i can help myself on speaking much better about myself and what i like sth to enjoy and be interested in like should i tell myself repetitively for instance i enjoy dancing rather than i just do it because i have to because some people say i do it beautifully but i m not sure about it or i don t feel good about it should i write down everyday sth like for instance i write well i read well i like writing i enjoy writing instead of i just write beacuse is needed at work because i have to people use to say i speak well in front of people but i just do it i don t feel anything it s known that depression steal u the joy of life and everyday existance it steal our curiosity in everything i leave everything because i feel no interest on it i just want to feel engaged in sth i m exhausted of not feeling anything good but i have no money for therapy atm can you help me thanks is advance",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just got back from picking up my parent goodbye house to myself",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m all snuffly and then hot and cold tired and bunged up woe is me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "aaaaand back to my literature review at least i have a friendly cup of coffee to keep me company",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "caitlinaudrey awww that suck are you going to the sydney one",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im fucking drunk at 9am even if im fucking with my life still ahead of me i don t wan na do this anymore i dont even have a house anymore i have nobodt y fck i cant even type noboidy i just want to end thing but im too scared to even kill myself hpw do i do it without failing i often imagine others doing it for me can someone help me do it where can i go to do it i think it will irresponsib e for me to just jump into traffic a i don t want others to suffer i just want to go quietly are there any service like that why is it so hard to log out of this life anybody wan na kill me no string attached we are the breath",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m alone m i feel like ending it all i just want a girlfriend but i always get rejected i don t want sex or nude i want someone who i can care for and someone who can care for me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "a serait cool si notre soci t s int ressait beaucoup plus sur la psychologie ex le cause de malady mentales d pression trouble bipolaires ect l anatomie du corp humain ex le diff rences du d veloppement sexuelle http t co b tvixyi d",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tried to get up earlier today didn t work out",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "watching who framed roger rabbit make me miss toon town",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "no travoradio this morning blipfm is down",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "alessandrod dude hope you guy are alright except the home car",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the negative emotion and thought neat study is recruiting adult age in canada and the u to participate in an online survey examining how people experience and manage negative thought and feeling including suicidal thought and emotion dysregulation eligible participant will be able to enter a gift card draw to complete the online survey see if you re eligible please click here http uwo eu qualtrics com jfe form sv lrjdolhgxajdcg http uwo eu qualtrics com jfe form sv lrjdolhgxajdcg thanks so much for giving u a chance to share our research study feel free to contact u if you have any question or concern",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s true i truly love jessicabardot she wa there for me during a dark time and i appreciate her so much for being there during my depression one of the most loveliest lady http t co tjstwmyr v",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "a year ago today i moved to a new city the city of opportunity growth and everything nice but i also learned this is the city of demise since i ve moved here itit s been hard to adapt to the culture the environment and pretty much anything else the store were different everyone talked differently people dressed differently and everyone had money so i thought i realized that my salary wa not enough to fund the normal lifestyle that i managed to survive off for year post undergrad in my home town and a new lifestyle i wa living paycheck to paycheck borrowing money getting loan and using credit to make end meet this made me depressed because it wa at the pandemic s peak and i spent 90 of my time inside with my thought i became more and more depressed and didn t know what to do i had suicidal thought but i tried to push through here s where thing take a turn i got a gig i earned more from my gig than my take home pay so my life wa sweet i wasn t depressed this lasted for six month then my health took a turn i couldn t keep up with life anymore i wa physically ill and had to let the gig go now i m here no gig and leaving the full time job so now i m in a new city no income following for a few week and ready to end it all i ve always thought money doesn t buy you happiness though they re right my journey prof that money can contribute to happiness doe money make you happy",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "we re here to help we are online therapy platform which essentially connects certified psychologist and people suffering from mental health issue such a depression stress and anxiety among dozen of other clinically defined disorder book your appointment now http t co pz vurvh0",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "depression ke",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "honestly im tired of everything especially myself im not good for anyone and been blocked by a friend who told me i wa toxic and manipulative im stupid and worthless why do i even deserve to live i wish there is a fast way to kill myself and end this peacefully",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "why do i feel worthless",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wtf are we doing here",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "been with o for month now in need of phone upgrade iphone come to 00 over contract life need smartphone with cheapo talk plan",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i know my problem arent a bad and probably much le important and im probably dramatic for feeling this way but please",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "not good munchkinster is not feeling well",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my boyfriend mean the world to me but he just doesn t seem to see it muchless understand",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lost my free copy of radioactive so can t put it on my ipod grr and i can t go out buy nother coz it came with that paper",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "currently struggling to deal with headache dizzy chest pain shortness of breath cough sore throat soon depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "edict just been announced no social networking using the office system ok tweet this then evening chap",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "danielhcwong taylor ce gt amp amp sweet mother of amp amp amp my livie is only 900",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "iphoneincanada no wait their 0 cheaper package ha 0 more voice minute it s cheaper and substantially better messsedd upppp",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nightwyrm no not yet",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween depression and anxiety thelmasherbs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "everything is still broken",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "even though i m sure they re slowly inching away whether or not it s my fault i just want a partner a best friend something to make me feel like a first choice instead of a second or third option i m just tired",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so this may be odd but ha anyone s sense of smell been really weird while on buspar maybe it s unrelated but i just get random smell sometimes and feel like my spence of smell is heightened",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "melamachinko now i feel bad for unfollowing",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "thastevieg but what i really want is my old bass back",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i already failed out of college once but i thought i might try again at a community college well i m about to fail out of this too and for some reason nothing in me care a a child i always kind of assumed my life would be in a great place at how na ve since i ve been miserable for a long a i can remember why would life magically get any easier i just recently pieced together that my earliest memory which i never really allowed myself to understand wa my narcissistic mother attempting to drown me when i wa about year old no wonder i m so fucked up i ve been planning on killing myself before my rd birthday for the past month or so i suppose she ll get what she wanted all along",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "have to update my picture co i look old and fat oh i am old and fat playing badminton is not working on weight",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i used to be someone who wa down with depression for a long time but this doesn t feel like it i wa working 0 hr since the beginning of this year due to my yearly busy season and i m suddenly asked to work jus 0hrs and honestly i feel so lost sometimes the anxiety is crippling like the smallest and most insignificant thing is anxiety inducing but other time i jus feel empty inside it s been a while i have talked to my friend and the only ppl i talk to are friend who keep reaching out despite me not texting them back it s not that i don t want to i jus don t have the energy i don t have the energy to get out of bed and i survived on one meal during a weekend i haven t listened to music or i do the thing i enjoy the most i jus don t know wat make me happy anymore and this is so not me i want to get back to the happier me sorry for the long rant but i can t go out and tell ppl that i miss work is there a diagnosis for this or is there anything that ha personally helped you to get out of this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "if you ever read my post on my profile you know that i have an obsession about being a cheater i ll worry and worry etc i read something very triggering on reddit and i decided that i don t want to be on earth knowing that i did that to someone or if i did",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "still doing my homework",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "even after year i still feel the hole that she made i m trying so hard but nothing work",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "robluketic love the french i tell people here in the south i m qtr french and they snarl at me french are beautiful people",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "idk who s going to read this but it doesn t matter i m only writing this for myself i always had friend growing up i wasn t the most popular kid but i had my small group recently some drama happened and i m no longer in the group i wa wronged and i will play the victim because i am i don t have any friend now i haven t got a few year i fell into a terrible life style the only thing i do with my life is go to college work then rot in my bed consuming medium it took a while but it hit me during one of my break away from school and work i realized that i have nothing making me happy i wake up and go on my phone watching random shit all day in my bed at night i m afraid to sleep so i just consume medium until i can t stay awake any longer i recently started think about what make me happy nothing i have no interest to pursue no friend to talk to no life to live i ve seen everywhere that in order to find yourself you should start a hobby based on your interest that s bullshit coming from people that don t have these problem i don t have interest no hobby appeal to me saying find a hobby that interest you is like me telling you to start a hobby that you don t like i don t like anything anymore i don t know who i am and i don t know how to find myself being betrayed by the people closest to you is a blessing and a curse i know they weren t real but i also know loneliness i can t crawl out of this state because i ve got nothing i want to do how do i become curious how do i start to desire thing again i m so lost i don t even know if i have depression or something all i know is i m constantly hurt unless i m consuming medium being idle just hurt i don t know where else to say this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "reeked of alcohol at the dentist this morning wa drunk when i put on my tshirt realised it had a huge stain dentist looked disgusted",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween it help with depression anxiety heartbreak and loss of a loved one thelmasherbs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am currently a senior at a prestigious college i worked really hard in high school to get there living a a lower middle class kid going to a high school that provided terrible education i never needed a pill or therapy or anything until my first breakup and my first year of college something shifted immediately suddenly i wa depressed i didn t have any plan for the future and i still don t over the year i used validation from sex with men social status and a crippling shopping addiction to deal and it ha been in and out but always there i started going on medication in college i am currently on anti depressant and vyvanse a i can no longer find any energy to do a single thing if i don t take it i hate it it make me even more miserable and my mood swing worse but hey at least i can get out of bed seeing my friend have the energy to go out on weekend them getting prestigious job being put together and looking at myself who ha no job lined up my partner is amazing but doesn t love me and i am in a shit ton of financial debt from personal debt like credit card to school loan i really lost any drive i had i ve been unhappy the whole time i ve been here for the past year it is absolutely fucking exhausting living like this my brain is always caught in negative thought loop i am so stressed that my neck and upper back are in pain i use kratom and other anxiety relief to cope my mood swing are horrible and even just fucking talking myself down every single day is so tiring i can t do this anymore i hate myself so much i hate my life i hate my diseased brain nothing help i m not even a good person a lot of the time knowing that i have to deal with this mental illness while working my entire life is too much to bear sometimes i am so angry i hit my head against the wall and hit myself with my hand i have so much anger and rage inside of me that never go away i don t even feel capable of learning anymore i am convinced my brain can no longer retain information and that i m just fucking stupid and worthless i want to die i really really can t take it much longer",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "last day in my nice little office dont wan na move",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "because you have depression love http t co cnbln ppkj",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "gfalcone 0 nawww fly me to london australia is boring",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "recently i just keeping feeling the void in my body and mind it s burning myself slowly i no longer have desire to anything or anyone like life itself ha lost it meaning to me i m angry a well been trying really hard to hide my emotion so i can continue my daily life a a person i m not cry for help but my situation is worse than i described i m thinking of ending thing hope that can make ppl happy thanks for reading my petty litter word have a good day folk",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the majority of society mix up depression with feeling sorrow or immense grief however we must understand that the sense of sadness is completely different from a mental illness rooted in depression http t co bfshs dmnc",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "m since covid started i haven t really been out at all and now i got my first date ever which i ve been tryna put off by excuse and now it s either i go or just loose out on the opportunity to go i ve got health anxiety and a bit of social anxiety i feel like i m not ready but i really don t want to loose the opportunity to take her out on a date i don t know what to do and i m just stressed out i m planning a easy date like bubble tea and a walk in the park probs see the sunset but i m still stressed out lol",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m at a very weird place in my life right now i m a year old male in college i m failing my college class a i have no motivation to do well in them i have a very poor relationship with my parent and family the one organization in my college that i m extremely involved with ha cut tie with me over accusation that are not true i have a leadership role in this organization and being a leader in the organization with no prior experience ha brought me a ton of hater and people that just want to see my downfall i literally have no future a i m supposed to graduate this semester and get a job but i am nowhere near both i can t pursue my real passion and to top it all of and what really might put me over the edge is problem with this woman in my life we met through this organization that i wa talking about earlier in this text a a captain i have my own committee of people that i oversee and she wa one of my committee member the first time we hung out in october she took me out to a bar after i turned it wa just me and her we quickly started to develop this really cool friendship where d we hangout and talk almost daily a a young man hopeless in love i started to develop feeling but nothing crazy because i almost always saw her a a best friend first and i m sure she felt the same way then we were at a bar about a month ago she wa talking to some guy at the bar and i wa having a funny conversation with my friend but i could see from the corner of my eye that she wa talking to this man and that s when i first started feeling these feeling of jealousy but i could tell she wa looking at me too talking to my friend and she came to me and we embraced and i hugged her almost all night had my arm around her and everything and she had her hand over mine too and we just kept feeling each other this wa the first time we ever moved into this phase of our friendship and i think we both felt something brewing in our heart for one another a few day went by and i wa out yet again talking to this other chick i met at the bar and we ended up almost hooking up back at my place but i couldn t go through with it because all i could think about wa my best friend who i really liked i m an introvert at heart and will always keep my feeling inside because i m scared to tell people how i feel and i suppress those feeling but literally the next day after this hookup that didn t happen i wa at a friend s st birthday party and got hammered myself and i had this urge of wanting to tell my best friend how i truly felt about her and that s exactly what i did it wa a thursday night she always go to this one specific club on thursday night so i ditched my friend and went to that club to see her and it literally played out like a romantic film she wa the first person i saw when i walked in and went up to her and for the first time in my life i poured my heart out to her and told her how i felt about her and how she make me feel and at first she wa shocked and then she said she felt the same way and we kissed for a long time at this moment i wa on cloud 9 i had never had a girlfriend before had never been in a relationship before but in this moment it wa just me and her against the world and i loved it we started to head back to my apartment but the alcohol wa kicking in for me and i passed out once i got back to my apartment i woke up the next day and saw her heel on the floor but she wa nowhere to be found so i texted her and told her that i wa sorry for passing out from the alcohol but i meant every word i told her last night she didn t text me back till later that day and she said that she wa thinking about it all day and night and she didn t want to fuck up our friendship a it s one of the few good thing in her life right now and i totally get that wa i disappointed hearing this yeah of course i wa but i texted her back saying that we can talk about this in person another time but for right now enjoy your weekend the next day we saw each other at a party and i talked to her outside and told her that i d rather say we tried to make it work and it didn t rather than not giving u a chance at all and she never gave me a clear answer she texted me later that night saying that she needed a break and some time to think so i said okay a few day later we had our last committee meeting and it wa so awkward cause we hadn t talked before and we were on this so called break and after the meeting ended she immediately left even though she usually wait for me i got a text from her later that night around am saying that this letter i wrote for everyone on my committee wa very sweet and cute and i asked her how long this break should last and she said she wasn t sure a she didn t want me to think that she wa leading me on which i thought she wa doing so we hopped on this facetime call and had a really nice long conversation about all the stuff we had to catch up on and then after an hour i switched the topic back to our relationship and she basically said that she didn t feel the same way i wa so hurt when she said this because all the sign pointed to her liking me too and i really felt like i knew what her heart wa saying we both went to sleep cry that night for each other the next day i sent her a text this time saying that i do need some space to figure thing out and we can talk after spring break so for the next week we didn t talk she didn t view my story like any of my social medium post and just simply didn t communicate with each other and it wa one of the worst thing for me to go through a she wa someone i really looked forward to talking to and to not be able to do that just sucked the sunday before we came back to college i texted her and asked if she d be down to hangout that first week we got back and she said she wa down to do so and i wa so happy because it felt like i wa getting my friend back again but then a few day later she angrily text me asking if i told anyone that we hooked up which isn t true and i told her that i didn t which is true there were rumor going around about u from people that saw u hangout a lot that saw u embrace at the bar that saw u kiss at the club and saw u walk back to my apartment together so people could only assume that we were a thing and i kept telling her that but she wasn t having it she facetimed me saying that she regretted ever kissing me she didn t want to be friend anymore and all this shit i wa extremely hurt hearing this and just wanted my friend back and wanted to forget ever opening up my feeling for her so i sent her a really long text explaining that i never said anything that i really cared about her and just wanted my best friend back she responded by saying that she appreciated me reaching out and that she wa over the situation and that she s not ready to move forward with me and doesn t think our friendship will ever be the same so i texted her this morning and i said i get it and if there wa any way we could meet in person and just talk she responded back by saying that she s potentially open to it but not now maybe next week so i said i just genuinely need someone to talk to but i understand her the last text she sent me wa i don t think i can be that person for you anymore i m sorry i am heartbroken devastated and hopeless angry at myself angry at this world and i just want to leave i have no direction in life no one to turn to anymore and i just want to end it all a soon a possible",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "julisa a seokjeng0 yes i needed them so much and when i wa at my worst that s when i saw them and i wa in total depression and i only wanted to kill myself but i can say that he really saved me with their music and their joy of living http t co tw g9ylqdh",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m waiting for a parcel and it s just not arriving argh hurry up hurry up",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m not depressed or in depression i think there is a lot to live for in life actually but lately i ve been having thought of suicide it s not every hour of every day but something will happen and i ll just casually think to myself what the hell f ck this and fast forward to when i m dead i have every reason to live i have a roof over my head food on the table and a small circle of friend a job so i m not planning on taking the plunge anytime soon but i just can t help but think after an event or something that ha happened to me involving me that maybe i should what if a opposed to when amp x 00b i m perfectly in sound mind body and health but what could this mean",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ha to wait a week to find out if her writing is any good sux",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i would like to know if anyone ha experienced the same thing a me or at least close to it and how ha he coped or even solved it to get you up to speed last summer i had to go meet my long distance girlfriend and thats when it all started a week prior to her coming to see me i wa gagging when eating and generally feeling sick because i wa afraid worried of meeting her which wa not normal of me but it happend during that period i did not think any of it a i thought it would stop happening after i meet her and leave again but it stayed i have it when i am going to school and when i eat from the time i leave my house and reach the school i gag all the way but when i step my foot there it stop when i eat after i finish i will start gagging and fight with my self not to puke january of this year came and i had almost removed it from my daily life maybe because i got used to the thing i wa doing so they did not give me anxiety but when i have to do something out of the ordinary it get me for example when i went to a car meet week ago the day where the car meet wa hosted i wa feeling a bit sick and right before i left my house i puked out of anxiety i dont know how to remove it completely from my life all i want it to just live freely with out having to worry if my gagging anxiety will kick in if someone can help me or give me a tip i would gladly appreciate it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "fell asleep really didn t mean too christina",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "really now time for sleep dreaming of my city more tattoo and other great thing waking up to early morning sociology",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wa texting my friend about something going on in life i wrote a fucking paragraph about it and how s it making me feel and what not and i got word back i m here for you the thing is i said i don t even think there s a point and she said whatever i can t help just go away i ficking hate people when they need me im always there but when i need them i m just a fucking burden but whatever i m a fucking idiot every time i need someone they are not here for me but anytime someone need me i am wtf did i do",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dropped car off to get exhaust replaced that s 0 i could do without spending",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "let me start by saying i am in the same boat a all of you i wish i could help you all but i can t sadly about me when i wa 9 something clicked and i started to view the world a a negative place the realization of not being able to form genuine friendship my friend dying and my father not really being there for u this sent me into a depression which i am still in today i won t lie i think about suicide quite often but i control myself by distracting myself with other activity instead of letting the thought get to me all they are are thought and they have become a coping mechanism i have gone through a few therapist and psychiatrist too although i stopped my ssri and adhd med when i wa i then became quite angry knowing there is no escape the day blended together day after day rotting away i became angry with myself and others and became very angry at others and closed minded in no way am i telling you to do anything i wa in a funk this winter and a friend of mine happened to have a gel tab of lsd and i asked to buy it later that night i took it and hopped on discord with a good friend of mine who also ha some of the same stuff going on a me and ha done mushroom so we relate well it wa unexplained the most beautiful feeling i have ever felt to explain it for someone who hasn t done psychedelics it the feeling that you are part of a bigger picture and that every moment ha lead up to this you are loved i am you and you are me i am still having a hard time putting it into word i laughed the hardest i had ever laughed and then realized what life is and started to get in my feeling and cry i cried for a while and hard too and then i thought the situation wa funny and started laughing again because i know wherever i end up i will make it and that life is such a beautiful thing not to be wasted or taken for granted i then went on to trip more time on lsd and twice on mushroom i am not saying go do psychedelics but for me they have done more than ssri ever did for me in the course of a night the feeling of having a clear place in the universe and being able to question with such a reduced sense of fear is amazing the feeling of going with the flow and seeing where life take you is a liberating feeling we were put here to love one another not kill ourselves and waste potential here are my final thought do your research before doing any psychedelic because if you take ssri it could mess you up real bad also i truly believe psychedelics are the way of the way of the future i still have depression yet it is a lot easier to cope with and feel a sense of calmness instead of absolute terror about whatever you are facing know that whatever is bringing you down i love you and the universe doe too you were put here to serve a a part of a much bigger picture just a small piece of a puzzle learn to love yourselves and others and peace will come to you in all aspect of life",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "oinker aida i agree",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s raining outside look like snow but it s raining",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "would anyone like to chat or maybe even voice chat i m just feeling like a total mess at the moment",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m a m recently diagnosed with autism and adhd i have a long struggled with mental health i have attempted suicide a numerous amount of time been addicted to drug several time and i have given up completely my mum ha cancer and is going into surgery next week to have half of her lung removed my youngest brother ha non verbal autism and i think about what he might be like if he wasn t autistic and all the thing i would ve done with him one of my brother died six hour after he wa born from heart failure and the only memory i have of him is having my photo taken beside his corpse dressed in pjamas before he wa buried a a result i constantly breakdown whenever i remember or see anything from my childhood i wa bullied by my only friend group when i wa because i wa anxious about talking to my crush at the time and it got to the point where they made me extremely suicidal i wa then in an abusive relationship during the pandemic where i wa constantly gaslighted verbally abused emotionally abused insulted threatened with suicide and self harm a a result my severe anxiety and depression ha been increased to a point where i can t even go into school from how overwhelming it is i haven t been in since early february and i m on different medication for my mental health adhd and sleeping problem my life is so fucking miserable and i hate myself my inability to do anything and how i look i just want to completely tear my body apart from how disgusted i am being in my own body and i just want to kill myself more than anything a i know nothing will improve in my life and i will always forever be like this just getting worse and going down a further spiral",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "everyone say talk to u we re here but when i tell them i want to order off of uber eats and leave my door open so when the delivery guy come he ll find me hanging and that way my family and friend won t have to find my rotting corpse day later they re like what the fuck i don t know if i ll do it but i feel like buying a rope practice tying a noose and planning it out i don t know if it s dangerous to do this because i ll finally have everything i need to actually kill myself or maybe doing it will actually make me chicken out and want to stay around a little bit longer also i don t want to leave my family saddled with my death so i sometimes think about crashing my car on the highway so it look like an accident and my insurance pay them out i want to be able to tell people that this is what i m thinking but when i even begin to let them in it s terrifying for them they want to tell my best friend or my mom or my doctor but nobody is actually there to just listen and not react so i m stuck with these thought on my own",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ojiaku9 make i save myself from depression first",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "aww man yet another party last night i miss new jersey so anyone up to anything today",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so the other day i wa playing a game and chatting on the phone with a friend let s call her bri and i have a friend staying with me this month let s call her anna so i told anna that i would be on the phone and she nodded and then later on i got on my call anna felt like this wa the perfect time to call all her friend and be super super loud on the phone with them i m letting anna stay with me a a courtesy because they didn t have a place in town to stay while they worked once i got off the phone with bri anna felt like using her inside voice finally and then basically ended her call around then too anna ha been freeloading and doesn t pay me any rent like she said she would and i think it s incredibly rude of her to act this way the one time in the past month that i had a phone call the thing i m anxious about is that me and bri were talking about some deep stuff on the phone and then we d hear anna in the background being super loud and i m anxious about whether bri is mad at me but i live in a studio so there s no privacy from anna i feel like i should apologize to bri and let her know that my earphone were in the whole time so she know that anna didn t hear any of it since it wa really personal stuff we were talking about while anna took her phone call there s a lot of other thing anna had done while freeloading that upset me but that s for another time since i actually started taking anti anxiety med because of the anxiety anna cause me and the med don t help a much a i wish they would",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i prepared everything to just end it all cause i no longer see a future for myself i literally lost all meaning in my life and i just have no idea why i live anymore everything just feel empty and i just want it to end i guess but idk why i m even writing this i guess i might want to be helped but it just feel so empty my family doesn t even have an idea that i sh i just want someone to notice to care please",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "seaf 009 i am strongly considering improvising i missed last year i wa so sick",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just microwaved a kashi chicken and spinach thing and put in the milk dvd anyone seen it i bet it s good i still havent seen slumdog",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "no body ever reply to me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i guess i m on here to get some thing off my chest maybe even get some advice i really just want someone to relate to what i m going through if you took the the time to read this thank you a little background i m 0 australian cisgender male i ve lived in the foster care system which come with a lot of different issue i couldn t possibly get into i work for the government i can t say what i do here i do some dangerous work that led to being assaulted in early january i ve since been on work cover for my mental health acute stress disorder every day get harder i wake up and i can t get out of bed i sleep horrible hour i smoke almost a pack a day and i play video game non stop i feel like an exposed nerve some day every interaction with another human make me nervous and the day i leave the house are becoming fewer when i moved to my current town i didn t really have friend i ve always struggled with social interaction i joined a dnd group at a local hobby store in the hope of making some friend they were all relatively younger than me all in their 0 i gave it a go nonetheless several session in they ve asked me not to come back i didn t see it coming tbh it disappoints me because the reason why wa unclear i had thought we were friend dnd wa the general highlight of my week it s not exactly a productive past time and most people probably think it s stupid or nerdy tbh it absolutely is but i felt accepted and it wa a group who s social behaviour didn t revolve around drug and alcohol i m trying so hard not to internalise it and just accept that maybe i just didn t mesh with the group in addition to this my problem are piling up my car is completely useless my back is causing issue and i m gaining so much weight right now everything feel exhausting my lifestyle is so toxic right now and i know something need to change i just don t know what to do i feel so overwhelmed with life the best advice i can find is to grow up take responsibility for my life but it rarely seems that simple i feel like i have nothing left",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "commit suicide or selfharm",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i hate it when i m having depression day and then something i wrote get published like i m sad but also happy but also guilty for being sad brain bitch what do u want",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "he s high energy and strong willed he s only he mind and respect me but sometimes his persistence becomes too overwhelming to handle he will argue his point like a lawyer with every simple task or question i ask him and it s exhausting he sends me into an anxiety attack on occasion such a yesterday how do i keep my cool i want him to keep being himself questioning thing sticking up for himself etc but sometimes just a simple yes mom would be so relieving to hear",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "am insomnia is a bitch",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i used to enjoy posting and just interacting with people but now i can t bring myself to open it up it s just awful seeing post and post of people just living while i m just existing stagnant it all feel so counterfeit",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i feel like i ve got no energy left to give or to keep up appearance like even responding to folk when they ask simple question feel like lifting a 00lb weight i m exhausted and can t handle the thought of any kind of interaction i m so lonely but so utterly worn out from being anxious to manage the effort can anyone relate",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m so sorry fernanda today i took different pill i don t know if it ll hit me in a few hour or when i close my eye and go to sleep maybe i ll survive i took what i have in the medication cabinet and today might be the day i give up fernanda my beloved i m so sorry i m dragging myself and my system to death some shout in my head saying they don t want to die that there ha to be another way but they aren t the host they can sit in the innerworld without a care but i live most of my life fronting my head hurt a i type this and i feel strangely calm with my heart slowing down to a normal pace something i wasn t used to anymore due to my sickness fernanda my love even if you don t read this i love you so much i mean everything i said in that message you make me the happiest man in the world and your support to be by my side made me feel a if i can continue just a tiny bit but i m so tired i can t continue studying and i can t do my passion you make everything so worth it i want you to live life with your fullest energy thank you for shining a light in my life i love you",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i have finally come to realize that i have had this fantasy that i have a family that care my mother ha her own issue bi polar my mom life partner just doesn t care and tell me to get over it my sperm donor of a bio dad remarried and ha his own family now and is ecstatic about his grand kid i feel like i wa the throw away tossed out with the garbage when it come to my parent it ha taken me 0 year to come to this conclusion why did it take me so long when my sister said f ck you when she wa hope is the only thing i can come up with to answer that question they say blood is thicker than water when it come to family i now disagree i have finally come to the conclusion that my parent can kick rock if they fell off of a cliff i would watch them fall some would say that is a heartless thing to say about your parent but i am done done placing myself in a situation that allows my heart to be trampled by one that claim to love me or one i would think should care all of these thought and outcome in life have lead me to being suicidal and depressed i am now working hard to manage my thought of suicide and depression first thing is to get my finance in check pay down my debt so i can become financially free to do what i want with my money second and really while i am working on my finance lose some weight and get my physical health back on track it is time for me to start living this life i have been gifted with and see were it take me all i ask of you is your support and prayer if interested check my profile from time to time a i make journal entry posting them to my personal profile god bless i love you all",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it never get easier no matter how many year i wait it s not getting better i never learn to cope properly i don t even feel the slightest bit more okay or hopeful even after three year of therapy i am so fucking miserable every single day everything is so exhausting and i dread the fact that i have to wake up tomorrow and do something i just want to be left alone i can t deal with all of this i already shut down because of the smallest thing i have depressive episode every single day after work i don t want to live a a human being i hate this stupid world and everything in it i don t want it i never wanted to live in the first place i m so angry that i am forced to just exist because otherwise i d make people feel sad the joy i might feel for a few second once in a while doesn t make up for how much pain i go through daily none of this is fucking worth it and everyone who say it is is either lying to themselves or incredibly stupid",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i get so confused sometimes i don t know whats real why i m being so dramatic if i can ever actually do this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it really annoys me when i m on msn on my 0 late at night watching a dvd and i fall asleep inadvertently damn it lukey",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this is what my main problem boil down to i feel like i live my life inside my head always checking in on how i feel and if i m okay is my vision blurry am i dizzy is my hand numb etc etc i also think i have pppd so the unsteadiness and swaying rocking sensation affect me and freak me out the most if i wa free of this hyper awareness hyper vigilance element i really believe i d be fine but right now it really run my life ha anyone found way to reduce this or even get rid of it completely",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i went to the hospital yesterday after having an anxiety attack and i still do have anxiety a i m typing this i wa just wondering if the level rise in the blood during stress my wbc count wa at 0 and my neutrophil count wa at 9 i wa just wondering if anxiety and stress brings them up i also deal with costochondritis so you can see why i have anxiety because my chest is always tight",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tabuteaus come off it clearly not clinical depression if he s attributing it to playing under mourinho take a toll yeah but stop throwing around the word depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "still doing homework",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "amazon u top 000 reviewer compelling crime fiction this is very different unique kind of crime fiction several topic are explored mental illness depression feeling of rage a the book continues the suspense build http t co wr 9sjtg j http t co en0qpdxf9j",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "day have passed since i last posted nothing ha improved my friend just hang with me for my stuff my family see me a a liability and useless it s midnight again and i wish i wa dead",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i want ffxii really bad i never got a chance to play it",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m afraid i had bad code",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "what s the actual point of stopping me from doing this it will allow a person who is suffering to not suffer any more i don t want to do this any more it s a never ending battle and i m tired say i m a quitter i don t care why do you care about the life of a person on the internet who will never contact or see you who you for all mean should not have any personal connection to you yet people still care to tell me to stop when i m that close to stopping the pain at this point i could care le about most of my family most of them are why i want myself dead anyway my friend would read the note i d be leaving and understand why i did it i know these paragraph are completely intelligible but i just don t get why suicide is a bad thing to people why do people think it s a bad thing that s the one thing i don t get",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "on a diet woke up day hungry",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "metalgearobama people with depression should not",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve noticed that for a few glorious minute in the morning right after waking up i m great calm unbothered soft but then i can feel stress in my body and then i m not sure how to get rid of it and it build a anxiety doe how do you all get rid of body stress in the early morning",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nobody is talking to me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been having a few thought of sh si throughout yhe past week and came pretty close to actually doing it a couple day ago because my so and i got into an argument and he said some hurtful thing that other people have said to me through my life so i thought if everyone feel this way about me then why shouldn t i do it i know people will say to tell my psych but i don t think it will last that long so i don t want to waste her time and my time i also don t want her to say i should go to a hospital because i think that would be pointless too and a lot of money",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i want to preface this by stating that i haven t gone to anyone about this nor have i attempted to get help realistically it s just my mind actively stopping me because in some sick and twisted way it belief that i m okay i m and currently enrolled at georgia southern a a freshman while i have struggled with mild depression in the past it all really started going downhill when i lost my dog in june of last year my dog had to be put down and it wa heartbreaking i had to watch my parent and sister cry while i sat there trying to be strong i let myself fall into that typical stereotype that men aren t supposed to cry i regret it i wish i had shown some emotion then but it s neither here nor there at this point what matter is that she had been in my life since i wa a kid i grew up with her and it felt like my world crumbled beneath the weight of her loss my girlfriend at the time helped me through it a lot and wa an enormous amount of help when it came to my happiness at the time it didn t last however i had reluctantly enrolled into college and honestly felt forced to go the first two week honestly weren t too bad i enjoyed my time and thought i would get through pretty easy then me and my now ex broke up this absolutely crushed me having my dog put down being practically forced into college and now i just got out of the first major relationship i ve had all within the span of month it wa such a slow but inevitable spiral into the worst depression i would ever face my ex and i would continue having contact with each other for the rest of that semester she tried to help me feel better but i got so much worse i no longer had a grasp on who i wa and wa just trying to stitch myself back together again i never got better i struggled for the rest of the semester my grade were awful and my physical health had declined a good bit a well when halloween rolled around i attempted to commit suicide i took about half a bottle of melatonin which wa me trying to attempt but obviously that wouldn t work because it s melatonin i wa a dumbass who wa desperately trying to end it all with anything i could get my hand on well i lived then november passed and it wa finally december a month i enjoy because of it s stress free nature around this time my ex and i were actually recuperating we both still had feeling for each other while we never got back together december wa actually nice and i felt happy for the first time in a while then december ended and the new year came along i wanted to focus solely on bettering myself and although my ex and i were starting to somewhat get along again i wanted to cut off all contact i wasn t good for her and she wasn t good for me or that s what i believe to be true from then on i focused on myself i tried to be more sociable and tried to express my feeling more often to my friend it wa working kind of towards the end of january i attempted again at the time i felt like i had made no progress and i thought i wa stuck being a bad person forever so i used some strong prescription pain killer don t remember the name i made it pill in and vomited something must ve clicked inside me because this wa a turning point the entirety of february wa pretty good i felt happy and i enjoyed so much of life i talked to my parent about not wanting to do college and the fact that i broke up with my ex yes it took me month to tell my parent i wa scared to they were understanding and said they d let me live there a long a i had a job i also explained to them that i wanted to do something else in life then what i previously had said to them i wa majoring in computer science because i really wanted to be a programmer but realized that i didn t actually enjoy it i had tried to do some coding on the side and i just didn t have fun with it what i did have fun with though wa disc golf it wa something that helped me feel better about myself because i wa constantly improving in particular i had started to take it seriously around the beginning of january and by the time i talked to my parent i felt really confident and wa thinking of going pro in the future they shut it down because it s rare to succeed in sport and if anything it would be up to luck after that entire conversation about me not being able to be who i wanted i had signed a lease to live with my sister down near the college since we both go there i did not have any intention of going to school for a second year because it wa not good for my mental health i even told my parent that i didn t want to continue college but they said that i have to because the rent where my sister and i are going to be living is too high to pay without a student loan now i m here reluctantly signing up for class next semester all while feeling i have no purpose in life my parent won t support my actually dream and would rather me find some 9 that ll at least keep me living paycheck to paycheck so i m struggling to really know who i am still while slowing piecing myself together in an attempt to better myself i m having a shitty time in college due to several thing dragging me downwards into depression my parent won t support me in what i actually want to do and are instead forcing me to do a second year of school i just don t have the energy or motivation to keep going everything is so extremely stressful right now and it s just been all one slow build up my self image ha absolutely plummeted and i m ashamed to really even go outside anymore because i hate the way i look i feel like i have absolutely no purpose anymore because of all the mixed message i m getting from my family the only thing i don t have right now that i want is a way out i have ibuprofen that i could overdose with but i ve looked it up and it seems too painful and it probably won t kill me i have a car that i could crash of course but i don t want to drag anyone else into this nor do i feel like it s reliable enough of a way out i could try to drown myself in the lake on campus but i ve already tried drowning myself in 0 0 and that didn t pan out well i just want something simple and effective i don t have the money unfortunately i haven t found the courage motivation to get a job i want this feeling to be gone i ll still try to work on myself but a this tightening in my chest get stronger and stronger each day i m not sure i ll make it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ogbenidipo iwa were gba we see the reason you are deep in depression you can t speak this way to your parent and expect to be healed of depression in actual fact it will sink you deep into depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i hate myself right now because of my anxiety i hate the anxiety and i hate that it make me hate myself i hate that i didn t ask to have anxiety i hate that i didn t ask to be raised in a culty religion that wired my brain to have such a narrow view of the world i hate that i wa raised in that religion by a manipulative mother so now it is difficult to believe anyone i just freaking hate it all ultimately i hate myself for hating myself because i didn t cause this and i shouldn t have to suffer because of how other people treated me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "need s help with this anxiety crap",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have bipolar depression and succumb to nihilism a lot i m so thankful to the people who still talk to me when i feel low and check in mean more than you know love you all",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "your life your rule but why can t i finally make myself rest it s selfish but isn t making someone stay just for you to not feel bad also is they ll stop you but will only make you feel alone after a few week or so shouldn t we all ultimately live for ourselves why is suicide such a bad thing is it just because it s deemed morally wrong all of this ha probably been said a couple time i m sorry it s funny how the only thing that keep me going is that one musical group and my other hobby is this really it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just been given ma marching order got ta go do some work yay",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sheamus yep done that from the off just have all friend search my tweet panel hmm interesting maybe it will fix itself later",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "waiting for my cisco ip phone to load",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "why do other pet care people try to run others out of business or send suspicious e mail fishing for info",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nattnatt you doggie dazzler im trying to work a bit today if you want we coule pop ovr and say hi later",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "you exit the game when you re bored or if you don t like it or if it make you feel bad right you don t snoop around for literal year waiting for the stagnant and painful game to get better right so i don t understand why i m still here i guess i m just afraid to exit the game because i ve been playing it my whole life i don t know what i ll do when i leave it it s like my game is plagued with a virus no matter what i do it won t get better i ve tried my hardest and my best to fix it fix the root of it but i ve been cursed since birth and no matter what i do it won t get better it s why i m so depressed because it will never go away i either live with it or die i am so fucking over playing this game i m so over cry and feeling like shit every waking moment i have to play the game i don t want to play anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "can not sleep wide awake and i got ta go to work later too boy am i going to have a crappy day",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been diagnosed with anxiety for about year now and a far a i can remember i ve never had a full on panic attack before or after my diagnosis for a few day now i ve been having random panic attack multiple time every day i start to tremble and i get major butterfly in my stomach i also can t breathe dry easily and start to sweat a lot what s weird though is that i can think perfectly fine and i can keep doing whatever i m doing while all this happens i can t pin point anything specific that is going on in my life that could be causing this nothing that make me anxious is happening right now i ve never learned any proper coping mechanism to combat this kind of thing either i m not sure what to do",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "in which episode did house and cuddy hook up apo meeting this is all your fault",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is happy because i annihilated a baby huntsman in my kitchen with the cooking pan however this mean a mama one may be in hiding fuck",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dangerm0use i think maybe you should get a couple more hour of sleep hon how productive can you be right now if ur dog tired i worry",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "debating if i should just shower now so i can sleep a little later tomorrow",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "daniela 9 my english professor would be ashamed",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "all thats stapling chipped my nail",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m tired of seeing political shit all the time everybody is always making fun of someone or arguing with someone and it s everywhere i wan na fucking kill myself for the sole purpose of escaping it it s not just on reddit either it s youtube it s real life it s tv commercial and tv show i hate it so much it make me lose all hope for humanity i want to leave this country but i can t i fucking hate living on this god forsaken planet please if anyone who is hyper political is reading this fucking stop do something else",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "recently i anonymously posted on my uni facebook page just to vent about my constant self doubt and how i struggle to do well in the course i want to succeed in because it s a dream job you can post anything there a long a it s uni related most comment were nice but this one absolutely unnecessary comment told me i should give up and how it s unfair that i m taking up space for others who will do better in my course like huh i know what they said is so off track and i should 00 ignore it cu they re a fking loser who know nothing about everything but i can t help but have it repeated in my head because i already have such a lack of self confidence in my skill and i genuinely believe that i m not cut out for it but i know damn well that i m trying what i can to achieve a goal despite everything around me but yeah needed to let this out i can t believe people like him exist it wasn t even just my post he shat on everyone else who wa struggling with uni how sad can your life be to do that",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "look like rain today bet it bucket down a soon a i step outside front door always the way downhill all the way from today",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "razzberrie wha so now it gb yay haha no more laggy computer but my mba can not upgrade",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "people don t care unless it affect them i hate people",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is craving for some tantan nabe http plurk com p mzxcs",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "in my profile if you want to read it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween vhulivhadza help people forget unpleasant event such a depression anxiety loss of a loved one heartbreak and any traumatic event thelmasherbs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sometimes when i close my eye to try to sleep i get this crazy feeling that i can describe closest to be a zap it only last a second second and kind of feel like a sharp rush upwards and make me whole body tingle a little when it happens i thought it wa vertigo at first but since hearing about brain zap i think this might be closest i also described the feeling to my ent because i thought it wa vertigo and he looked confused taken aback but my description so i m guessing it really isn t vertigo it doesn t happen too often and only really happens at night when i close my eye to sleep i ve never been on any medication",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "should i go check into a hospital again i ve admitted myself more time than i can remember over the year for depression suicidal ideation not to mention the attempt where i should be dead i have some good friend amp family i know i m blessed in way but have endured so much sexual trauma a a kid amp later in life amp have ptsd borderline personality extreme anxiety sometimes amp addiction issue i don t think i want to go on much longer what s the point",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i can t i m so done i wa born female and i hate it being seen a a beta male suck nobody take me fucking serious and then the fact i m bisexual fucking hell i started forcing myself to only like woman because i hate being attracted to men it disgust me i can t anymore i just had the biggest panick attack imaginable i want to just rip out my female part and fucking unlive myself i m so uncomfortable with myself and i hate how people view me i will never be a real man i do not have male chromosome i don t have male genitalia this is all in my head and i m fuckinf mentally ill this shit ha made me depressed and desperate the worst people are the one telling me to be proud and embrace it fuck no this shit isnt normal and i wont pretend it is i cant fucking take this anymore i m only and i cant imagine living another day with this shit i m not a man nor a woman im some disgusting inbetween shit and i cant take it anymore being a fucking freak i already survived two suicide attempt and i regret still being alive",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i miss family guyyy",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "honeymunchkin my anger is getting bigger for every minute that go by i got some uglycomments on one of my video",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hey reddit family ive had seperate case of severe panic disorder for about year on and off i used to take lexapro on the smallest dose mg and then mg and it really helped me overcome my disorder completely the first time end of 0 9 into 0 0 but when i got panic disorder a second time end of 0 0 from smoking weed how i got panic first time i noticed not much of an impact on the same dose mg but i wa told multiple time to up my dose for it and i wa too scared to so i quit the medication cold turkey and got insane migraine headache thinking someting in my head wa gon na pop it wa so bad a a withdrawal i think and for the past year i ve been medicine free but i still get panic attack everyday heart race everyday nonstop evil bad thought and i m ready to get back on something my doc prescribed me celexa but i m very unsure about trying it bc i ve been so used to take lexapro and i ve been reading watching other ppl s experience on celexa and the side effect and they seem a little more extreme but i m just wondering what ur opinion would be thank u so much for the help god bless",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tombot never mind it didn t work anyway",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "blip fm is undergoing maintenance http blip fm",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "solanaplays k sol that s crazy i went on depression for month for sol",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "stupid year project feel like you ve conquered something then you realised it s only year down",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lilbucknuts not an option",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my sister s kitty eva had three baby kitten yesterday but something is wrong with her and need to go to the vet",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "no online class for upcoming class 0th there must be both option of both online and offline class whole year online class lead to stress depression and pressure incomplete course and offline exam this is not fair at all smeodisha",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i constantly have negative suicidal thought and i need it to stop",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "colbsi flickr s not letting me view it say it s private",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "playing pkr online poker and ha a headache",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "still more day until my internet get uncapped",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i suffer depression just hearing jose mourinho s name",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have anxiety and possibly depression too but i just wanted to ask if grief can be considered a depression i m not really capable of feeling grief i have only felt it in dream or about animal or something",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "seattle is in tent i miss my t o peepz tho",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wish i wa in sydney",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "why isn t there a quot fake quot verruca on twitter now i m sad",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "anyone who also went through a heavy depressive state not moving around eating or doing anything etc know how to get their appetite back most day i ll only have one meal and that ll be it but i went to the doctor today and they said i might actually contract an illness a a result of this and would like to get me tested so i kinda wan na start fixing up",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "therapy day again depression mentalhealth mentalhealthawareness momentum http t co teqvxekg",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "crummyasshole i don t like that they only had him in the first movie cillian murphy is hot",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "man im too fucked to be in work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ruthclayton oh i aint gon na be ur bitch but i will be his muwahaha",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "oh yes hb to one of the most intr movie in history let s tell each other the impression of our first viewing of electroma i remember it wa in the year 0 and then this film raised a lot of question for me cuz i wa not prepared to sit and watch robot die of depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "johnnybeane me too i ll see on amazon uk otherwise they make me pay custom tax if i order it from the u",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "last time i attempted i failed for like the th time and i m not going to mess up another one this time is going to be my last so i hope y all will stop worrying about me because i don t deserve it and i m not worth worrying about it s going to happen today or tomorrow most likely tomorrow though bye",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "skylineking connor it s me febi are you really really mad at me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "waiting waiting waiting for a phone call that may mean i can actually sleep at night but then again",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "whinging my client amp bos don t understand english well rewrote some text unreadable it s written by v good writer amp reviewed correctly",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my throat hurt i think i have a cold",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "going on holiday with my friend tomorrow exited but no twitter",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i ve been working steadily since i wa i m now i ve been dealing with anxiety panic disorder the entire time i used to have it mostly under control enough that it didn t usually affect my work social life etc but it ha gotten really bad i ve been calling in sick a lot i worked a five hour shift yesterday and i wa having a panic attack by the time my gf picked me up i just don t think i m physically or mentally capable of working right now but i have rent to pay and i can t afford to be unemployed so i m wondering if anybody here ha gotten disability assistance for their anxiety panic attack and how i might go about doing that",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i talk to myself for like minute sometimes this so intense that i my hand gesture too there is always a intervention from my brain asking what am i doing this happens when i am stressed with some hypothetical issue which probably will never occur for example what if i park my vehicle in a spot how will my neighbor react if i some what unknowingly encroach on his parking spot if this scenario play out then what would be my reaction this issue i just make some hypothetical scenario about my interaction with my neighbor and how would i react to this so called dispute there will be several different scenario playing my mind with realte to this example please help me if this related to adhd and if yes how severe is this if not adhd then what is this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "greggrunberg hey you said matt wa gon na go all ballistic i wa disappointed good ep tho mostly",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "thanks chaffie thousand apology please fogive me i have sinned",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "a few year ago there wa a pretty big hurricane that went straight through our city and i thought i wasn t affected by it until i started noticing that i get super anxious when it start to rain really hard or there s a lot of wind i noticed this bc i used to love the rain and now i start to shake when it happens anyway i m writing this because it s currently pretty windy maybe 0 mph my anxiety is already spiking because of that but i just checked the weather and saw that tornado were possible for the south aka where i live they kept saying possible not likely not low just possible so now i m terrified that the worst will happen our roof will blow off something my mom said she wa scared would happen during the hurricane and i ve remember that moment ever since our power will go out a tornado will end up forming etc the gust of wind alone are putting me on the verge of a panic attack and this weather wind cloud possible thunderstorm is supposed to go on for most of the week i feel like this is irrational but like i said i can t help but feel my heartbeat go up every time i hear the wind",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hi i m intense uncomfort in social setting worsening hygiene teeth pretty bad body pain from not eating properly anymore like almost fainting from the stair my body is really weak feeling too and like these fucking muscle twitching and joint pain no motivation just wanting to lay down fucked sleep and loneliness is making school suffocating i think body pain is the worst but even if i actually go to the doctor she ll just fucking tell me to eat better which i know that s the issue i m prob not going to do i m in charge of my meal and om mazy so i ve been eating frozen i just lay down everyday after coming home usually nap like usually my body feel like it s breaking down while i m there i always feel like cry at school which is fine but i have to keep dealing w this by myself is hard i m not realistically going whine about this to anyone i can t open up i tried to speak to the counselor but i only mentioned not eating properly so she just told me to eat and join a study group people don t like me generally esp adult so it s kinda no use fot me i have definitely thought about dying or getting beat up i prob won t but i m a bit stupid and hopeless at this point so my weekend i just lay in bed all day literally that s it my single parent father doesn t value thing like this it s just financial if i get hurt it s generally a burden which i m used to i just need to get my shit together",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "shystieuk wish me luck got ta go london ging great olmand street for a appointment really scared xxxx",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "shaksiyya what wa going on with you guy over the weekend shak wa not happy my cd collection is outdated",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i fucking hate everyone and everything i can t take another day fck everyone on this planet why tf do i have to feel so shit all the time fuck god he ain t shit he abandoned me why tf do i have to feel so shit all the time while everyone else get to enjoy their life and get everything they want i also hate people who take advantage of other people i can t wait to end it i wish no one wa around so i can do it idgaf about anything that s my rant",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hillydop oh no",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ha a math examen at o clock",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ginayates sorry to hear about maggie thought to your mum",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "can t sleep how frustrating",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nbensalem i m sitting at my house and i m sooo not looking forward to my one class tomorrow",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "getting real sick of constant wave of anxiety heart palpitation tremor intrusive thought and anxiety attack it s been three damn day since my random panic attack i get it body fight or flight wooooo now knock it the fuck off",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is alone downstairs working",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nicholasbraun aww no fair you didn t check the pic i sent you",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i got drugged and had to be resuscitated a little over a week ago i ve been casually suicidal for a while now the sound of my friend cry while giving me cpr is burned into my head forever i dont know if i ever lost my pulse but i wa barely breathing until the emts got to me it s scary that this experience didnt change anything about me when i think about it i laugh not in a laugh to hide the pain kind of way but like i actually had to get chest compression to keep me alive from my best friend and that s just so ridiculous like of course that would happen to me of all people idk it s just weird to me that this traumatic a fuck experience didnt change a thing about my outlook on life",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "damn it i still can t find a decent sized photo",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am listing more item on ebay to sell take forever meanwhile coleman is watching the hill season premier without me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ourcitylight that wa so sudden",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m so bored with life i know it s not worth living i don t have anyone to hang out with or do thing with so all i do is go to work and stay home i m an adventurous outdoorsy and outgoing person and love getting out there and doing thing but i have no transportation and don t know how to ride a bike i can barely afford to take lyft and uber to work and back home my life ha no excitement to it and there is nothing interesting about it everything is pointless like i work in a grocery store a an order picker for example and what s the point of helping people shop for grocery they are going to need again the next week it s the same thing day after day and week after week it s all pointless what we do today won t matter in a month or year i m just done with this whole life thing sometimes i get legitimately pissed off for the simple fact that i wa even born and not aborted i wish every day my birth mom aborted me now i m just a worthless sack of shit taking up space and sucking up air i have tried making my life worth living by moving to a warmer climate getting a better job and starting my own business but the excitement of it all wear off everything turned out to be a flop i can t do anything right since i don t belong here i firmly believe my existence is an accident not they type of accident of an unplanned pregnancy but like i wa never meant to exist type of accident i realized a long time ago i don t belong in this world and i honestly don t want to be a part of it anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ha anyone been prescribed mirtazapine or other alpha receptor antagonist to treat their anxiety i would prefer not to use start with ssri s what wa you experience",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m not liking that new itunes pricing at all i mean i ve seen several song at 9 but not only one at 0 9",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "every opportunity i have i always end up embarrassing myself no matter what thing like just communicating and anything that ha to do with the real world is so hard for me to get right i m so insecure and soft spoken and everyone probably know me a that weird shy kid thing i do when i m on my own like talking to myself or doing anything weird would never be okay in front of others i m never aware of what i do until somebody notice me and i get embarrassed instantly and i m so ashamed of myself i probably will never see anyone romantically or have any close friend because i m so immature and childish",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hey reddit this may be long and just me talking about random shit but i just feel like it would make me feel better so a you guy saw it wa my th birthday today and today wa probably one of the shittier day i have my best friend had a pretty bad panic attack today and i chilled with him to comfort him but it made me kinda realize how lonely i am i have friend and a loving family but i just feel deep and dark loneliness during most day i can kinda just ignore it and have mediocre day but most day like today i just think about it i don t want to make it a big deal because my friend is going through some tuff shit right now and i need to help him a much a i can but i just feel like laying down and doing nothing for a while obviously i can t do that with all the homework and exam coming up but i just don t know what to do like i wa saying earlier i just feel so empty when i m by myself and sometimes i feel like a have no personality i feel like people only like being around me when i m high because i m a lot more talkative and just more enjoyable to be around i don t know it s hard for me to talk to people about it because i feel like they might just blow it off or something and my friend deserves all the attention i just feel bad that i m feeling bad if that make sense like my friend is hurting and i feel bad that i feel so empty i m starting to think that life won t have a lot to offer for me i m not suicidal or anything but i wouldn t mind just like disappearing and just chilling on the top of a mountain or something like that i m sorry that this is so long i just feel really empty and it s my birthday i feel bad that i can t be happy for my parent i love them so much and i wish they knew how much i do but i m just feeling really exhausted all the time i don t know sorry if i selfish in this post i don t mean to i just feel really empty when i can think clearly almost like i built my personality around being with people thanks for listening whoever read this it really mean a lot to me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello everyone i m male and don t really know how to ass my current situation i ll start from scratch my grandpa wa a bully and abused my mother when she wa a child he also did this with my sister when she wa about year old my brother wa also completely influenced by him and also abused my sister at the time he wa around 0 year old i saw that live once too at that age about year old i couldn t ass and classify the situation had suppressed that very well until my sister came to a clinic for depression around 0 and completely unpacked during the stay from that point on thing really went down hill for me all the picture from back then came up again my sister and my brother have spoken out and get along well again i smoked pot a lot back then because it always distracted me my mother had already attempted suicide twice i am always completely unmotivated and unhappy although unhappy is the wrong word i m just happy about almost nothing anymore i also think about suicide from time to time but i m probably just too tired and scared to go through with it i always like to be alone but with a girlfriend it s a bit difficult from time to time because we live together the few friend i have thank god understand me and don t push me into anything my girlfriend is also very unstable mentally but we both support each other very well gaming on the pc ha helped me a lot for year i have occasional nervous breakdown where i just start cry i ve always hated my job but that s probably just because i hate work in general i loathe people in general and i don t like big gathering either apart from my sibling and parent i have very little or no contact with other relative had adhd a a child and have been taking medikinet for month a i still have the diagnosis i wonder how others see it and whether i should seek external help i think i m doing just fine but i d be interested in an independent opinion pls be kind english is not my native language",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween depression le anxiety thelmasherbs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i have a stutter and i ve always been insecure about it i wa with my best friend and his friend and his friend made fun of someone s stutter because he s not aware i stutter this made me realize how easy it is to make fun of people behind their back i felt really bad that night and started cry when i got home cause it made me realize i didn t know who wa being real with me and i felt a tho i wa devalued flash to today and it wa still bugging me but i realized something those people aren t exclusively making fun of people like me but making fun of a lot more than a stutter people are made fun of for stutter tic religion sexuality lisp appearance and more i realized it s not my problem to worry about them and most people that make fun of others will show themselves with time and real nice people will never do that this made me content and i wa happy i forgot about it for the most part and went about my business but i posted something to reddit about it and someone said they had a similar experience and it lead to going into psychosis and being paranoid about people talking badly about them this made me almost have a panic attack when i wa eating with my parent because going psychotic is one of my biggest fear ever since then i ve felt so anxious it took a good 0 0 minute to calm myself down and not be on the edge of a panic attack ever since then i can t shake this thought but now for a different reason instead of worrying who s judging me i m worrying if i believe it i ve had this fear before but when it s bad it get so bad it feel like i m already psychotic even tho i m not and today wa one of those day it feel like the thought you believe if fact and i have terrible depersonalization this ha happened time before this and normally after a good sleep my anxiety tone down a bit but since this is a little different and it started out without that anxiety doe that mean i am going crazy instead of thinking anyone is judging me i keep asking myself if i think these specific people at my work would judge me idk why once again that wa cause ocd started to ob on it now but since i had this thought before ocd doe it mean i m going crazy or am i sane since i m worrying so much about it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "about a year ago i started getting anxious when i heard people yelling it doesn t happen when i m being yelled at only when it s other people arguing or sometimes even just loud talking even if it s isn t fighting it s gotten much worse to the point of me shaking and cry when i hear yelling i don t understand it i don t have much of a past with yelling a far a i know so i m not sure why this could be happening especially so suddenly there isn t much i can do to stop people from yelling because no one listens when i say it make me anxious and my only way to really block it out is loud music which i can t always have but i feel like at least knowing what could be causing this would help me feel at least a bit more normal understood if anyone know what this could be caused by or anything that could ease it even in the slightest bit maybe a form of music or something else please share it with me i d be very grateful also i don t have access to a therapist currently a mine just moved and i didn t get much time to talk to her about it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my little pinky finger hurt so much",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "someone please take gossip girl away from me i m addicted",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wa strongly recommended by my therapist to return to a physical hobby for my mental health and did so to great positive effect i have severe anxiety and depression and this hobby help about a much a medication or talk therapy doe and both of those work decently well for me i need all three at this point it make me do better at work all week and help prevent long slump of mental health issue if i miss a session it affect me for day currently i do this three time a week and day a week is during normal working hour i either return to work after or make up the work other day of the week i have a very flexible schedule am exempt and have been at this job for over 9 year it s after most of team i manage is offline for the day but plenty of my other colleague are still online and would theoretically want to have meeting my office ha no issue with thing like a standing actual medical appointment including therapy the problem is it look like a fun thing and it is a fun thing it s just also essential for me continuing to function a a person and an employee for reference before i started this i wa considering taking intermittent fmla instead which i ve had to do in the past and now that s unlikely any tip for talking about it a recurring appointment is how i ve framed it to people and i do reschedule if it is in conflict with something essential my new manager just asked to see the detail of my calendar my previous manager did not and now i m feeling anxious about what it s titled and how to describe it honestly i m now feeling anxious about everything i ve put on my schedule that help me work better and is within office policy allowance but is atypical like 0 minute early afternoon break that i block off a tentative because i often turn into a non functional blob for a bit around pm",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my first appointment is on saturday but i can t fucking wait this out it s only two more day i need fucking help but it s over a fucking zoom call and i really can not keep going on anymore i need help so bad i don t feel comfortable talking to anybody else fuck this should i just die already i can t keep waking up anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "maya is being spayed today i m very nervous about it",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wish there wa a a little tunnel preferably a waterslide direct from dressing room to water so people don t see me in my togs",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wa prescribed 0mg paxil and am on my second day first day felt like nothing but the second my jaw began clenching and shaking headache and the topic of this post a weird feeling in my penis the best way i can describe it is the equivalent of going on a rollercoaster or something like that and your dick feel like it s trying to crawl back up inside of yourself that feeling but constant and le intense i can t find anyone with a similar experience despite my searching which is why i m posting here i still get off fine but the health anxiety still remains curious to know what that may be indicative of also the username wa meant a a joke never thought it d become reality lmao",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "been on escitalopram for about year worked great for the first or year wa prescribed either or 0mg honestly don t remember the exact dosage eventually it started making me feel complacent with sleeping long hour and not having any energy not meeting my goal or even making goal in the first place and not caring about thing i used to i didn t feel depressed but felt like i wa not where i wanted to be in life and that the antidepressant were part of the problem i should also mention that part of the reason i take them is for anxiety when this happened about year ago i decided to go off of them over a period of month it wa a very slow process because of all the side effect it wa terrible once i wa finally off them i felt worse i did have more energy but it wa like anxious energy i could function on hour of sleep just fine whereas with the antidepressant i feel like i have the flu if i get le than 9 hour normal on the pill is 9 0 hour well once i wa finally off the pill i wa getting anxious over every little thing including driving i had just gotten a new job and wa failing at it my inlaws came to visit in two seperate trip and after the first trip i decided i had to go back on the pill asap a i couldn t handle it anymore random outburst of cry and feeling very depressed along with near constant anxiety which is not great when my in law already don t seem to like me much long story short i went back on the pill about year ago probably about a month or of being off of them but i have kept the dosage low mg a i d like to try getting off them again i am worried to get off them completely again to try new antidepressant a i ve been promoted a few time since i went back on them and i can t risk screwing up my job i did ask my doctor if i could take the lowest dose of my current antidepressant 0 mg while i switch to new one but she told me i would have to be completely off the old one before starting anything new now i am also contemplating just upping my dosage to higher than it wa before and seeing if that help but i m also worried about having to try to get off a high dosage again it wa so terrible i m mostly just wondering if anyone ha any similar experience and what you decided to do and how it worked for you i know going to my doctor is best but it hasn t been super helpful for me so i m just curious about personal experience and i just feel like rambling a bit i guess",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "well that made me sad i sat down to watch tv and then remembered i dont have cable anymore lol",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have no will power to do anything i hate doing assignment and study all they do is blame me for not doing anything cuz everyone are doing the same thing and they say that i m not the only one who ha problem i don t know why i m really afraid to call it quits even my mom told me to kill my self i m not sure what i m waiting for",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "smugness gone my train also failed to turn up so i m heading for victoria followed by an unpleasant tube ride to the city",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "goal depression ain t feeling a bit sad bro",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just leavin work my foot hurt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "chaque jour le fc metz me plonge en d pression ce club ne m a pa rendu heureux depuis la victoire face a lyon an et demi sans me rendre heureux",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "three day since my last tweet and no concern i could have been dead peep the reality is i forgot my password",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "there s much depression in europe and the leading cause can be traced to psychological overload the peace and prosperity of europe come with boredom something nigerian will never understand or relate with cuz there s no loneliness in nigeria",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is it somewhat normal that i want to attempt suicide just to prove to myself that i m actually depressed and suicidal and that i m brave and not a coward sometimes i don t think i m even depressed and that i m just feeling very lonely and numb sometimes i feel like i need to do very dangerous thing so that i don t feel weak and like a failure since people much younger than me commit suicide all the time",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "henkuyinepu yeah apparently i have really bad taste",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "scarletjac but not good for me close to my current challenge",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lizhenry we haven t heard from her or sha",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mousenator cry",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "look like the nobel peace prize is simply a popularity contest http tinyurl com cffz h",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "inyoureyes 0 i reckon",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "how do you guy deal with depression other than avoiding it i can t keep this up lol sleeping is my only coping mechanism and it s not a good one i m so drained any advice also more important any advice for feeling le sad about unaccepting parent i m trans and can t really deal with my parent negative reaction i can t cope well is what i mean i have to wait several year to even transition to the gender i wa supposed to be born a bc i m too young to afford it all myself i hate this this body and this life sorry for bringing the mood down also school suck i wish it wa fun it suck the fun out of learning i m too tired to type anymore though so have fun reading this mess of word crunched together",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sherrigarrity sorry i missed responding yesterday rochester is in mn so we are not to far from each other dark chocolate rock",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sad that the foot of my macbook just fell off sad that the foot of my macbook just fell off",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "boredd colddd internet keep stuffing up",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t deserve to be alive i m a complete and total fuck up that deserves to die i just overdosed on my clonazepam so here s hoping that it kill me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i ve been taking mirtazapine for year for my depression sleep problem my doctor also prescribed me hydroxyzine for when i m feeling anxious panicky i just took a hydroxyzine and now i have to take a mirtazapine before i try and lay down is this harmful can i take these two pill at the same time please help",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "luxuryprgal hahaha suriously i feel like everyone know this show is a joke except lc",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween it s help with depression anxiety thelmasherbs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just going to cry myself to sleep after watching marley and me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im so confused this suck",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just been given ma marching order got ta go do some work yay",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "paulaabdul awww good luck paula please don t work too hard but i hope you have fun your new album is gon na be amazing xxx",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "blueeyedbomber excellent missed you saturday night",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im tempted to choose death not through a bullet through my head or a rope or some pill but through starvation to test and see if my desire to die really is stronger than my carnal will to live to finally feel alive in my body a i weaken day by day and feel myself shrivel and decay just like how this depression ha been eating away at my mind i want it to symbolically show to be eating away at my body and to die gracefully paper delicate skin and bone lay over the ground carelessly wrapped in a blanket to be kissed by death to know i have a set amount of day left to live the people around me will be alarmed a i visibly start to die before their eye then ill finally see who care for me to atleast experience what it would feel like to not be obese once in my life",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "and i am now a division of one",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wish the sun would shine more i have a cute yellow dress to wear come on sun come out and play stupid england",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "stark you don t follow me either and i work for you",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yes yes still trying to find a picture that will upload correclty",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "someone said this to me today he wasn t being serious it wa just banter his bros would probably be like yea you re right i do have great tit but it really opened up a healing wound for me being bullied growing up for my look i ve always been fat and people have used that against me for year these past few year i ve been healing feeling much better about myself and started to gain confidence i don t think i m ugly i m very much average and curve are much more appreciated nowadays but the feeling of inadequacy just never truly go away sometimes when i m really down i ll start self criticising and it ha crossed my mind that people who talk to me are just attracted to me physically i m not the most interesting person i m not funny i don t get joke sometimes and i take thing too seriously i ve been girlfriend zoned so many time it s tiring i just shut myself off from society men who were interested in me were never really interested in my hobby interest whatever they always complimented me on my look but that wa it if i ever tell them that i m not interested even if we talked every single day and were friend they d just ghost me it wa just something he said but wow wa it hurtful i cried for the first time after month of emotional numbness i cried because it wa probably true to a certain degree and i feel like shit",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello everyone i m a year old male with extreme anxiety i grew up in poverty amp wa very aware of that at a young age i started smoking weed around every weekend turned into everyday when i wa around i got introduced to xanax at which didn t last long due to me coming home blacked out amp realizing the pain amp disappointment i caused to my mother at i wa introduced to acid that turned into every weekend for about month in this same year my dad passed from a long time h use the beginning to my mental destruction we couldn t afford to bury my father one of the roughest time of my life i started selling drug which i got very money hungry amp would do anything if it made me a few dollar started out robbing kid at my school which turned into robbing older guy started partying amp got introduced to cocaine that didn t last long after my girlfriend told my mom because she knew that wa the only way i would stop around month later me amp my girlfriend got into a accident due to a lady not paying attention my girlfriend had a broken femur i had a broken ankle amp a tbi traumatic brian injury during are time of recovery i wa taking a shower while someone broke into my house amp stole my safe roughly k cash at this point i m amp mentally lost not going to school with no future in sight due to the broken ankle a well a the tbi i didn t get out much my best of friend not checking up on me wa rough at this point i realized i improved so much i stopped selling robbing using all at the cost of not leaving my house that lasted roughly year around this time covid hit my older brother became a extreme alcoholic a well a my mother i allowed everything around me to fully consume me reality hit one morning after daily regret amp suicidal thought everyday i came to the conclusion my only way out is to force myself me amp my girlfriend ended up moving a town over my first time on my own with extreme anxiety amp depression i started a landscaping company going door to door finding work something i could have never imagined i avoided human contact for year that lasted all summer one of the happiest time of my life i still have extreme anxiety my hand shake uncontrollably with a shakey voice amp due to my anxiety amp past i avoided going to the doctor for medicine a well a the dentist amp check ups i finally no longer let it control me or what i do all the dark day amp endless thought seeing a light at the end of the tunnel is unimaginable but i damn sure see it god is good time heals everything someone always ha it 0 time worse embrace the rainy day they won t last forever if you stick around kinda just rambling but i m sure this can help someone",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "for the most part my life is perfect in the grand scheme of thing i am probably in the of well off people on this planet globally speaking i have a home car no debt a family etc it is all there however i am so riddle with anxiety and depression that i feel i am just wasting my life away all i do is see red and fear the worst all day every day i just turned 0 in looking back i ve become very sad how ironic sigh realizing how i ve spent from the 0 to 0 being anxious and wasted away all this potential brain space i have no other way to describe it and a i look to the next 0 year ahead i fear i will do the same can you imagine laying on your death bed thinking i worried and anxiously walked through life i had all this pent up anxiety depression anger insert your ailment here and that is what defined my time here i could elaborate but almost every activity whether banal or extreme is met with a flood of negative thought worry emotion etc i sometimes feel like i am vibrating from so much anxiety it s fucking crushing every day is just a struggle to be normal",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "home mc bored missing him who him sigh im bored tadi exam amp wa okay thursday lagi exam gaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "alyssaspears i m sorry maybe walking around all goofy at the store would help hint hint lt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nickynocky i pay just over a hundred for me and occasional kid in a house but not metered yours doe sound high then",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "artistofcalcio amyisunited all of them will be i imagine i mean i have sympathy for him having depression but his performance haven t been good enough over the last year amp he wa quite happy to let raiola disrupt thing every month",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve suffered with anxiety all my life been on multiple medication from a young age just to try and make my life more manageable i ve grown up because an adult yet i still spend day in bed and cry because my anxiety is just so bad i wake up with the heavy feeling of dread all the time and find even the most minor inconvenience barely managable let alone the big one which entirely crush me i have no idea how to help it anymore i drink alcohol regularly because that s the only thing that help my mind to hush and stop beating me up about everything i do wrong for just a little while any tip from anyone would be most appreciated",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "being border restricted victim day by day we getting engulfed in frustration depression suicidal attempt and much more that we can t express in word depression fmwangyisaveindianstudents takeusbacktochina",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t know how can someone be this much of a failure i suck i have no social skill hell i have no skill in general people say everyone is good at something but not me i suck at everything why am i like this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "when it rain it pours i can never get ahead in this game of life it s all sort thing that pile on at the same time it seems like i start thinking that maybe it ll turn around wham something new newest one family ha a trip planned coming up and sure enough kid is sick i just don t understand why can t thing ever shift in my favor i know this sound petty compared to other people problem but i just needed to vent to someone",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "bradiewebbstack sway sway tour in julyyyyy exitedd muchh follow me pleaseeee i need more followers",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "currently at work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ugh 9 degree tomorrow",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "find her mom rly annoying i need to detox and do an h o day my skin is shitting",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "cassou post concert depression tu connais",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my teef hurt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i dont even know were to start i hope this reach the right people ive been suicidal all my life with shit ton trauma built on to it and a recent sa ive just been good at hiding it i feel a i dont have anyone to talk to about how i feel or have someone truly love and care for me rhe way i need it i need someone to hold me at night and tell me everything is gon na be okay i need reassurance constantly i need to be able to talk to someone and feel like they are listening giving advice or what they can do ive felt that if i die tomorrow it is what it is i didn t even think i d make it to 9 yr im gon na be 0 in month and god if i make it i d be shocked",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i fucking hate myself i deserve to die i should get run over by a train i deserve to fucking bleed until i die i need to die my mental health depends on my grade but my grade depend on my mental health i cant fucking take this im so tierd of all this i just wan na be normal i just want my family to understand that it hard it fucking hard but they dont understand i need to die i cant take this anymore im so exausted i cant take this i cant fucking take this why cant i be fucking normal",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "zerohedge depression is spelled with a d not r",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "how i love employer and how they love me too but most of these employer deserve a fucking sue and some fucker fuck with me they should never fuck with me and yes the last place i worked at it wa not a cup of tea living here is so stressful anyone can fucking see and the stress doe fucking suck you know it is not stress free and all i have is one damn buck that s why i might have to flee drive in a van or a damn truck and hope the stress will leave me be",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my last day i will pick a sunny day wake up and put on some of my best summer attire go get food from a good restaurant i would like a good last meal to be honest then i will go and xplore some place i have become fond of and reminisce of the few n far between happy day of my childhood and other time i might add to this later if i can find stuff i think is worth doing then for the night i have a nice bottle of whisky and some benzos i plan on consuming whilst listen to my favourite music i will try to enjoy a much time a possible between then and now i have a rope that is ready noosed and just need hooked up to a nice tree i have already sadly picked out one that is high enough but easy to climb then whilst i listen to music feeling chill and tranquil a the pill start to take effect i will sit in said tree with noose around my neck phone emergency service tell them where my body will be located then i will fall and asphyxiate myself in to the abyss i look forward to that day sorry for rambling i am terrible and language in general wish you all peace because i will find mine eventually",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i miss my life before this depressive episode idk if you can even call it an episode anymore it s been over year i don t think i ll ever be the same and that destroys me inside i miss 0 9 and 0 0 up until september i wa truly happy and just coasting through life so content i wa so happy and life wa so simple especially during the 0 0 lockdown all i had to do during the lockdown wa watch load of anime and random netflix show explore new music stay up all night and do nothing i even had time to explore my childlike side by doing load of painting and drawing using kiddie paint and colouring book my mental health wa great too i had no eating disorder no depression no school work my anxiety and ocd wa minimal and i wasn t so deeply lonely like i am now i can literally just hear a song smell a smell or taste a good that i experienced to during that period and i will burst out in tear because i miss not being depressed so much now even if i do try and enjoy life like i did back then and be carefree it ll never be the same because my anxiety and depression have quite literally destroyed me from the inside now i ll never be able to enjoy life like that again i had never been in a relationship and that didn t bother me at all now i ve still never been in a relationship and it make me feel unloveable and ugly i always hear people at school talking about their relationship and date and stuff and even though i don t want a boyfriend that bad i still feel like i m missing out on a key part of the teenage experience but still to be honest i m not that keen on a relationship i really just want to be happy anyway all that s left to do is die i have my plan in place and i have a date and method at least i can say that i experienced true happiness and one point in my life i guess",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "inamupwa ndati how do i get out of my depression and go live my life agh",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "rampantheart can do everything except add a twitter field in the comment",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wish my iphone would let me do the thing it would be so much easier",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mileycyrus ouch mine too",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "don t want to live anymore i m tired of this i m tired of being in society and having to be with people just want to be left alone forever fuck everything i m a failure",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "for context im a 0 year old over all physically healthy person i wa diagnosed with bipolar ii when i wa i have never been medicated other than the first month of my diagnosis i quit taking the medicine after that month now a day i am pretty confident in my ability to control my bipolar tendency i know my body warning sign for mania a well a for the low i know how to be proactive and aware of my situation despite all of this i have begun having panic attack i have made an appointment with my doctor so i can discus all of my medical worry and to hopefully weed out any physical issue i may be experiencing the first time i had what i think is a panic attack wa back in september i wa in nashville with some friend for the weekend and on one of our day i actually collapsed in a cafe after feeling extreme nausea dizziness and anxiety up until recently i thought it may have something to do with me being malnourished or dehydrated now im not too sure the second one that come to mind is when i wa snowboarding back in february and ended up almost collapsing in the middle of the day vision and nausea were terrible my most recent one wa yesterday simply sitting at a red light in an intersection what started with me feeling nervous about being nausea quickly spiraled into me feeling dizzy and panicky again and of course the cry is uncontrollable i guess im just now wondering if i am sick or if all of this is panic i am scared i am worried i have a trip coming up later this year where i will be flying and i do not want to panic at the airport or hour from home i think i need advice and insight sending my love to all of those struggling with this terrible terrible problem im very thankful for any advice anyone may have",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ollien and carousella i can t i have another doctor appointment at 9 and another one at suck",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have a tendency to ob over some thing that have occurred and replay the scenario over and over in my head i m not even trying to focus on it but the thought still come into my head and then i find myself focusing on them and it serf me no purpose how do i stop doing this i know the scenario are over so i don t know why i am still thinking about them so much",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wish we had a dunkin donut in holland today my mom back from japan can t wait to see her",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "oslinam lwala la depression hawu",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nicolerichie yes we had the vhs i cried when the old man died",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "only month ago around christmas my dad nearly died and wa in a coma for week my mum and brother were thrown into a depressive state whilst i tried so hard to get on with life and be strong for them only last month my relationship with my brother wa completely destroyed when my family confronted him after finding out he d stolen hundred from me and my parent i wa hurt and betrayed so badly but wa able to forgive him and try to move on even if he didn t feel the same way after fighting against all of the pain my life ha brought me through my family and relationship these past few month i finally started to feel like i wa making progress and becoming a better person for everyone in my life yesterday i woke up to a paragraph text message from my girlfriend of year telling me she didn t love me or want to be with me anymore and i ve finally caved in i m so sick of trying so hard to be strong every single time i resist another force come down on me i give up and i don t want to do this anymore she wa my comfort and best friend who i could go to for anything now i feel like i have nobody who understands me and nobody who want to listen which is why i m typing here because i m so lost and broken i will be so grateful for any kind word",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hillary00 i m sure everyone ha ruined my gift to you whitney ha my serious cell we doing easter a well",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "cronotriggers that s sad",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "had the worst dream abt some turd face i used to date ugh it wa awful",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "have to work on homework tmrw",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "equinux com just crashed safari tks you",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the after effect of this drama is a whole new level of depression how am i supposed to live my life after knowing all the thing happened to her omg whyyyy whyyyyyyy",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i totally just lied about going on a trip to get out of hanging out with someone airport wa the only excuse that came to mind",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "missed brent at praise band no fun to not have your lead guitarist lt pout gt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been having this thought that depression is very to addiction the harder you try to push away depression usually the harder it rip you back in additionally non adicts non depressed think they are strong enough to put down the pill or booze for good or just brighten up and snap out of depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "a bit under the weather the last coupla day workout have been low in energy",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the one day i really need to go into school and i m not well",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wasn t in a relationship but there wa this girl who i wa heavily attracted to for whatever reason nothing worked out well i ve tried throwing the kitchen sink at it for quite some time now but i ll never get any closure because she s hardly active on any social medium after much deliberation i actually realized that i still do have the same feeling for her now a i did back then but i can t do shit about it i ve started to accept that my pain probably won t ever go away unless my life doe and i ve been having an intention to act on that",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hey guy been lurking on here for a while but finally here to make my first post trigger warning talk of suicidal ideation ironically enough it s anxiety that prevented me from ever posting but we re doing it now i never struggled with anxiety very badly before the pandemic i wa in my first year of college and life ha always been good to me but last year after i went back to school for my second year thing never felt quite the same i now realize it wa general anxiety but it wa kind of scary i wa always stressed sometimes i wouldn t be able to fall asleep at night for a few day in a row everything i did or didn t do felt like a huge deal then i had my first panic attack and severe anxiety attack in the early spring and i finally looked into what wa going on i talked about it with friend and family and that ha helped me get through it then this fall came i wa working 0 hour a week while being a full time math student on the side the anxiety wa worse than it had ever been the level of generalized anxiety wa heightened and the anxiety attack on the side would sometimes push me to suicidal ideation i reached out to on campus treatment and had an appointment scheduled but it got pushed back due to the building that the mental health wa in being closed for a water pipe breaking and the second date didn t work in my busy schedule so i cancelled it it s been a few month since then and my anxiety ha gotten better but still not in a good place i ve gotten really good at normalizing my anxiety telling myself everyone deal with this like i do but after coming home for spring break and talking to my sister and a hometown friend i realize that this is not normal a they both reminded me that there are resource for me that i should pursue i m finally scheduled for counseling next week and am really looking forward to hopefully getting a treatment plan to work through this all",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im the last hour everything fell apart my wife is kow filing for divorce anyone got advice on how to live with yourself and the world if that happens",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "shannanstedman haha i got to be up at and sit through a hr mass umm like ish is that alright is that too late",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "a little over four month ago my relationship of over two year ended my partner left me for the person they told me they couldn t ever love more than me and that i had nothing to worry about i trusted them and they destroyed that i moved back home all the while they gaslit me into thinking it wa my choice once i got home almost a thousand mile away i began to spiral my family wa in the midst of drama between my aging parent one struggling with memory loss the other with alcoholism my dog from high school ha also begun declining and will be crossing the rainbow bridge any week now following the breakup i struggled with alcohol and substance abuse for several month which i ve only just begun to get control of i wa sexually assaulted twice in the span of two month my relative have died of covid i ve been unable to find a good job that actually us my degree in the time since moving home a well i find myself unable to form meaningful connection with friend or family i can t be open with anyone because i don t feel i can trust them i m worried that anyone and everyone could leave me at a moment notice i can t get my ex off my mind and the feeling of inadequacy and abandonment are staying strong i don t feel the ability to love i don t know where i m going with this but it s my first time posting here and i guess i just need to know that i m not alone and that i can stop spiraling and live a good fulfilling life i need to recover from the fallout of what s been my life for about month now i m sorry if this isn t the kind of post i should be making but at this point therapy and psychiatric treatment and medication are all failing me what can i do where do i go from here",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "happy for coach stringer hof c o 009 now if i can only finish my term paper on her",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t know how to push myself and adjust to schedule and adult life no one wa really around to teach me i play video game a lot before it wa because i enjoyed it but now it s because i have nothing else to do with myself or other people i don t have any friend but even now i can t fit in online it feel like no one my age play game anymore they re focused on their life college school work i don t fucking have a life the only other human being i talk to is my dad when he get home from work which is only small talk since we re not very close it s been like this for year now i ve felt completely isolated from the world my entire life which is why i don t fit in why can t talk to people and why i don t fit into society standard i want to fucking die so bad i ve fucked up my life so bad i wasted my highschool year even if i have a whole life ahead of me i don t have the knowledge or will to get anywhere fuck it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "breezyskies i did the pet course last time i wa in sf ok on theory which i knew not so good on tool what i wa after",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "omg it jst teusday",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i think i m happy i ve just went through a couple of month of sad dark feeling and thought best way i can explain it is a painful emptiness inside of me mentally for most of my life i ve always remember going through these phase it never a on or off switch it just kinda slowly engulf me one day i feel a little bit sad and it start this snowball effect after a couple of month of the constant painful emotionless feeling i keep getting the same thought of just ending myself but today i think i m happy it weird to explain but life seems a bit more vibrant music is touching me emotionally to the point i want to sing i hope today is the start of my happy phase and i really hope it last just a long i m so desperate to feel something again",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "photoshop i hate it when you crash",
    "output": "normal"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "bjr il fait bo je veux retrouver mon moi du premier confinement celle qui faisait du sport et qui tait pa en d pression hahahahahaha aled",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "retrochick uk oh probably pmt and thoughtless men a bit too",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my phone is broke too bad i could have been sending you exciting tweet today on how the city election are going election judge day",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello everyone i m 0 year old and a mom of four i got into a 9 month course for a new career in the health industry and i have month left these two month are currently my extern hour i found a great office to do my externship in i have no issue with the staff but mentally i have been dealing with a lot i cry the day before i go into work i don t enjoy my weekend because all i do is think about my job i just lay in my bed and shove my face with food which is a whole other freaking problem panic attack happen daily and i feel like it s affecting my family my energy is off and my kiddos can feel it i honestly could say that i hate this career it s not for me i have dealt with anxiety my whole life but managed to keep job and actually enjoy them what should i do",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "jonathanrknight i hate the limited letter too hope you and the guy are fine i pray for my dog she s not well",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am miserable when i wake up i am aware this due to more than just simply being mentally fucked up i live a shitty lifestyle however i feel a though most day are purely predetermined for me almost like it s always guaranteed to have me thinking about killing myself by the end of the day",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "everyday is just grey i can only rot in bed all day nothing and no one can help it s over it s just over i give up i can t handle this anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m sweating my forthcoming trip to e if i can t find someone to crash with while i m out there i may be screwed",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "former ohio st football player harry miller medically retires from football due to mentalhealth concern delivers powerful message to anyone struggling with depression http t co lkynhiiifj mentalhealthawareness mentalhealthmatters endthestigma health wellness",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "some people are so incredibly good at faking confidence and man it s hard to believe how charismatic and shit people who are anxious or depressed can be",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "heidimontag i wish we would get it the same time at the rest of world unfornately i am in cairo and have to wait for mtva to play it",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "riry is being a pain and nomming on my hand should not have sprayed her with that cat nip mist a a joke now she is craaaazy",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mellynisaki saki help i m being possessed by this thing called loneliness and depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i just finished it a few minute ago i got it from the local pubic library after waiting for it for several week i think it make for something very motivational and might be helpful to lessen depression too i won t give away the ending and don t stop listening until after the library if you re getting board once you get that far you ll continue",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "long story short i wa miserable at parent moved out for a year happiest time of my life still sometimes i found myself sad cry and still miserable had to move back in been month hate it here i m starting to think it s just me no matter what i do i still find myself sad amp wondering why i exist usually keep myself extra busy but any downtime i have i ll have these same thought what make you keep going why do you decide to get out of bed every morning what is the literal point of your existence",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "new article from obmneurobiology the potential impact of covid 9 on depression and suicide risk in older adult http t co brn i tcp http t co aw fkdqvzm covid 9 pandemic",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this is it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wish i were i sleeping",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "honeyortar the hinge broke it work just doesn t open smoothly and it s pissing me off i dunno i ll see if it can be fixed first",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "not sure if anyone else ha this issue it seems like notification and txts give me major anxiety i ll put off responding to anyone including family and then it just becomes this mountain in my mind to the point where it s been a month since my family texted me for my birthday and i still haven t responded to most of them this ha destroyed friendship for me too i feel like we all have to be available to text back with smartphones and social medium and i can not deal with that doe anyone have any suggestion to help i just feel lost",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "silverlines aaaah jadi tiba pingin butter sugar toast huhuu",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "phil hellmuth so sad",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im bored and my finger hurt from playing the guitar all day",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "someone alarm clock or a phone woke me up at am still got my headache from yesterday night",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hope all is well this is my first time posting but would like to first take the time to say that i have been actively reading in this sub for the better half of a year since my generalized anxiety started to take over my life a little backstory i am m 0 lb and went to texas tech throughout college i wa on a pretty strong dose of add med 0mg vyvanse which if none of you have taken add med is like the pinnacle of add med at the highest dose i literally felt like god when i wa on them i say this because i would drink a lot on them do cocaine i wa in a frat vyvanse wa amazing because you literally could never get drunk also i wa incredibly fit even though i drank so much i would work out all the time but never wanted to eat but i wa shredded i wa also super social and had this crazy fucking sex drive not lying i could stay rock hard for easy two hour and would be told to stop because the girl wa too worn out not tryna to sound cool but i am trying to paint this picture of how powerful this drug wa but after about year of that i graduated back in may and everything went downhill i started to have severe panic attack a rapid heartbeat crazy high blood pressure which sent me to the hospital finally went to the doctor and she said first that ny old doctor should lose her license forever prescribing me that high of a dose and that since i had taken the vyvanse for so long and binge drinking i have completely drained my brain of any serotonin diagnosis severe generalized anxiety disorder initially wa put on lexapro but that shit gave me really scary suicidal ideation especially coming from someone that had never once even considered that an idea i have moved to celexa mg then 0mg then 0mg finally now 0mg which is what i have been at for month and it ha been amazing i am perfectly fine i had discussed initially with my doctor that eventually i would want to get back on add med because i do have pretty bad add and wa about to enter nursing school she told me that once we get the anxiety under control then we can get add med so about month ago i wa anxiety free some minor episode of just feeling anxious but no panic attack and she had given me 0 mg xanax for emergency use which kill those few and far between episode immediately month ago i wa finally prescribed focalin mg ir x a day and wellbutrin sr 0mg x daily right when i wake up so i currently take 0mg celexa day focalin mg ir day welbutrin sr 0mg day everything is perfect except for one problem now i can not finish sexually and it is hard to keep an erection like i don t even think about sex anymore which suck because i am good looking have no issue with woman tinder bumble hinge but this is a serious issue because i am normally overly sexual sorry for the long rant but i wanted you all to have the best understanding possible of what is going on and if anyone can relate i am meeting with my doctor next week to discus but am just sad because in the past week different woman have asked me why i can t stay hard finish which hand down the most embarrassing thing because they all think it is because of them i would also like to say that i regularly work out am very fit lean build and do like to drink when i am with these woman the drinking just make it so much more fun for me so idk if the drinking ha any effect on this issue i haven t tried not drinking which i will test tonight when i see one of them thank you again for reading this far tl dr sex issue on celexa wellbutrin and focalin i do drink when i am having these issue but drinking make the sex so much more enjoyable lol",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just finished cooking spag bol from scratch in other word been cooking for the past hour i m not hungry anymore",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "got ta stop turning in homework late would be gettin an a in information system if it wasnt for the few late assigments",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have decided my room need to be more quirky so angel gave me a mirror and my a button isn t working too well either",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tonight episode of house wa sad i can t believe he left the show i can t stay awake anymore i m mad tired had a long day sleep time",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "balamurugan a longterm member of the team is leaving this month we ll miss working with him hope he doe well in his next venture",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "keongzai assign someone else to do it or eff it and do it yourself",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so basically we re getting evicted we have like a month or to move out and we found a house we wanted but we haven t gotten the application for the house i m for some context so i could obviously live with my dad for a while but i m scared thing won t workout and we won t get the house or our landlord will say something bad about u so we can t get the house or we ll lose money my anxiety and worry about this is really bad and i don t wan na talk to my mom about my worry because i feel like she s stressed enough",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is missing n ol frend amp is thinking bout her rite now",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i know they have good intention but lot of the time they make me feel worse i don t like it when they ask too many question when i withdraw yet when i go to tell them my actual problem they indirectly tell me to get over it and don t think im depressed sometimes it seems like my mood is an inconvenience for them so they want me to be happy so they can be happy it s draining i m tired of them being nosy when when i need to be alone stop asking me to who i m talking to stop asking me what i m doing when i m not doing anything stop looking at my stuff and asking me question stop getting upset with me for being in a bad mood or trying to force me to be happy again i can t this is why i hate socializing with anyone in general it take up too much energy that i don t have and i m tired of having to hide whatever this heaviness i m feeling inside to make others happy i m tired of being the caretaker and human note pad to vent at all day i m tired of putting on a mask and pretending to be happy when i feel like garbage i hate myself i m tired all the time i feel like a failure and a waste of space i just want to be alone i don t want anyone to look at me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "pauliwhirl omg whine whine whine whine housing lotery is over stfu i had to explain to qidong that he wa fucked",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i hate so much of my life i love being at school with my friend but i have to come home every fucking day i have to wake up to these fucking asshole everyday my older brother is fucking insane on good day he is simply the most annoying little shit that won t shut the fuck up and stop talking to me on bad day he just argues and scream and throw thing and take out his anger out on whoever is closest mostly me bc we share a room my perants are nice but my dad transphobic and i want to tell him that i want to transition but i m afraid he wont see me the same or love me my younger sister is the only thing keeping me here i love her she s so understanding and sweet i don t want to hurt her by dying but i can t stand living anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lounisdell stats feed i don t think a country s depression rate depends on world event people have their own personal problem too",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween depression and anxiety loss of loved one and heartbreak thelmasherbs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "body clock still up the chuffer note never ever stay up late again also afro is back",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m a college student who ha changed their major different time and am currently pre med although i have always struggled in my science course for about the last year i have had zero motivation my gpa is slowly slipping a i never study or go to class i used to smoke weed all day i wa high most of 0 but i quit and now i just go on my phone in my room or watch movie i have no friend here and don t socialize i usually only leave my room to get food or to study for a test usually the day before or day of i get jealous when i see everyone hanging out and enjoying their college experience while i go to the movie alone or find other way to distract myself i keep telling myself i have to change but i never do i feel like my advisor have given up on me i don t even know if i want to be a doctor but it s a clear cut path that will allow me to help people and provide job security although my real dream is going to hollywood and trying to make it a a screenwriter i have been depressed and have cycled through a lot of medication with my doctor none of them work she now think i may have adhd i just struggle to think long term and have been extremely burnt out since senior year of high school before then i wa always a good student i don t know what happened to me i often fantasize about suicide or dying and lately have just been wishing to stay in my room and just do drug all day i don t know where my drive ha gone",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "agh snow",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this is an embarrassing confession to make but i feel like this is the only place i can seriously get advice i m a year old guy who ha already had awful anxiety around year ago when i wa young my mum wa super supportive about it and took me to therapy which seriously helped me for a while and i still absolutely love her for that after my therapy session finished i wa having the best period of my life i wa seeing and meeting new people and getting close with others but year ago my anxiety started coming back and a big part of my anxiety that i didn t tell my mum wa the fact i needed to poop during my attack it sound silly i know haha now school is a nightmare because i m scared to go in school due to it s small size and the fact that there is a very small amount of bathroom in the school i always have the feeling of what if it finally happens for reference i have never had an accident in school but have sure a hell came close i will also cancel plan with friend outside of school if i couldn t get it all out before we leave i ve left job because of this fear a well and i just feel like an absolute loser my mum doesn t like me staying off from school in any way and i feel i cant tell her this reason because it is genuinely embarrassing and she would believe i m lying i also want to get back on therapy but i don t want to break her heart after she wa so proud of me the first time and even cried for me my mum is a god send and i love her with all that is in me so i can t tell her that it back again i think i need med but i ve never been diagnosed so i don t know this sound absolutely ridiculous i know but it s something i ve been seriously struggling with and am typing this right now with diarrhoea the night before school terrified if anyone ha any similar experience and how they overcame this it would help me in way you can t imagine thank you",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "really don t feel like getting up today but got to study to for tomorrow practical exam",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i fucking hate my life i hate everyone",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "gah comcast doubled our cable internet bill w out telling u so we are quitting can anyone suggest an affordable company in bay area",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "got my loan i m officially 90k in debt now i can t die with a clean conscience dying would put all that debt on my wife i mean i have life insurance and if it happens to be an accident i think it double so financially she should be fine assuming i don t get fired first but now my mood is just shitty before i wa okay with dying now i feel just a much a burden alive than i do dead i wrote this before but there is a certain freedom in coming to term with death a calm malaise that feel good like everything and everyone doesn t matter",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "trying to write dssertation",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "le plus dangereux au lyc e c est pa la d pression ou le suicide mais c est clairement se faire sucer dans le couloirs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "feel like i am comming down with something let s hope it s just a cold",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "your mama wear your sneaker you enter depression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "the muppet whatnot workshop site is temporarily down apparently totally sold out quot working hard to get it back asap quot hurry up y all",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "uh i feel so lonely i wish my bffwiamc best friend forever who is also my cousin ha a twitter",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hello all i ve been putting off getting my wisdom teeth out for year but i finally mustered up the courage to get a consult with an oral surgeon long story short i m getting one fully erupted tooth extracted with only local anesthesia i opted for this because the idea of being put under make me more anxious than the extraction itself he said because it s erupted he should be able to get it out within five minute ha anybody who ha undergone a similar situation shed some light on whether it s a simple painless quick a the doc led me to believe",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my camera spoil",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "jemcam well i have uni stuff and netball but after netbal if i ve done uni stuff we can",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ok i have social anxiety i m actually quiet smart however when i m in social situation the anxiety is so much my brain go to mush like simple thing like counting money etc is so hard because my heart is beating through my ear i also dissociate ha anyone else experienced this phenomenon when i m by myself i can do all these task easily but in front of people literally become an invalid like it hilarious how people dumb down thing for me sad but all you can do is laugh",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yay no work todayyy but working for the rest of the week lol",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mileycyrus i have the same problem but it s here let s see if counting work no z s for me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m year old diagnosed with gouty arthritis at and i ve been battling with myself for almost a year now and it ha gotten to the point where i m tired of living this tuesday morning at am i tried to commit suicide my second attempt on taking my own life in le than a year and yet i ve still managed to fail once more i wa able to get at least hour of sleep but nothing more and that s the best i can get from a day just sleep wishing and praying to god to take my life every night passing away in my sleep best way possible imho for the last few month i ve been starting all my day and ending in tear soaking my pillow i m constantly emotionally unstable i break down in the middle of my lecture and i m genuinely tired of feeling sad and having different type of emotion on a daily basis i m lacking enormously in motivation to keep on living my mind is a thinking machine and won t stop thinking about all the suicidal way i could end my pain most of the time i ask myself why me i used to be an energetic kid who enjoyed doing many thing in my free time mostly gaming all by myself since i never had an opportunity to make a solid friendship so most of the time i end up talking expressing to myself because in this world there is no one here for me no one ha ever cared for me or even shared the least tiny drop of affection towards my person that s why i just don t try to make friend any more because i feel like i m a failure at it and i don t want no one to invest time in me i currently have an absurd amount of hate rage towards myself for not being able to finish everything and not looking upon my flaw and imperfection and wasting the endless opportunity of improving myself now i ll just have to live with the consequence and i m just here in this world all alone thinking and knowing that some people are doing better than me and living their best life and i envy that and i m jealous of that i m writing this deep down from a part of me that ha just a millimeter of hope of recuperating but i highly doubt i ll be able to do it i won t lie a of writing this it feel like i m getting rid of an anchor that ha been pulling me back all this time",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have never experience anxiety like this before it feel like my chest is so heavy and i m holding in a puddle of tear at all time i can t eat or sleep i know the anticipation is the worst part but i just don t know what to do with myself my entire thought process ha changed and i just feel a huge cloud of depression following me wherever i am how do you guy cope with intense anxiety once i start having negative thought it just spiral out of control someone please tell me it get better",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sasii i know exactly how you feel",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yinkapost man fell into depression y all should relax",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just a head up site s being wonky so will like probably post late today flippin technical issue",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am trying so hard to survive but my mind is so much stronger than my body is all i m asking for is a break from this constant cycle it s just not worth fighting anymore",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "today i got do shopping easter lt malachi xx owww i m so sore too day",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im going bed nowww surprising not rly i have school morow thats right my spring break day r over",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "missymoouk oh no i know i haven t cried that much since wham split up",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "need a hug",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "kal penn i just watched house and got really sad i liked kutner",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i passed the part where the withdrawal made me feel crap i m slowly becoming the person i wa before med but i really didn t miss it my insecurity is the highest it s ever been in year i ve been ignoring school i ve gained weight there is always this sound in my head saying no one actually want me my usual cheerful self feel forced now it s weird how the feeling i had for year can feel so foreign i don t know a long a my family doesn t know about it it s okay i guess",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my dog passed away in the night full on gutted",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "friendlypharm too bad it s true for the most part",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "mitea is missing http apps facebook com catbook profile view 0 0 9",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween depression and anxiety thelmasherbs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "imperiusrex brahbrah ugh bed in a hour",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "amanorris wow that last tweet made me seem like a giant sexist sorry about that",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hi my bf and i are dating since year we love each other very much but i had my diagnosis anxiety and depressive disorder due tu my anxiety month ago and there ha been a lot of change my bf is very comprehensive but sometimes he say thing that i don t understand like since ish month he keep telling that i make no effort in our relationship that i am always sad or tired or angry or sick i often have ordinary cold etc i already had a discussion with him explaining that i can t help it that i ll try to change my behavior that sometimes my disorder affect me so much that i can t move and he seems to understand but it all start again week later besides when i have panic attack he help me well i don t understand why he keep saying thing like this it make me feel guilty i try really hard to make an effort but sometimes i just can t and for those asking yes i have already talked with him about this but nothing change i understand that it may be tough for him to have an anxious gf but his word cut deep sometimes i am currently in therapy and with a treatment ha nobody experienced a similar situation how did you guy manage relationship and disorder",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i cant see the only person keeping me here i cant listen to his voice i should be able to but my anxiety make it impossible for me to ask him to meet up or call i can only message him he doesn t respond for hour i need to speak to him i need to see him i need him i miss him i miss him so much im on the verge of attempting bc it feel like ill never see him again i havent seen him in month i havent spoken to him in person in 9 i know i need to talk to someone but im not getting therapy until june i tried sending him message over the last few day but he hasn t even seen them my heart is literally physically aching bc i miss him so much i cant do this anymore edit guy im ok he responded to my message and i wa able to calm down before i could try to end it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is piss off leg foot in load of pain running from a old man who tryed too trash our tent o",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "found my sana and ha realized that just like a white girl i eat my problem",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t know if this is the right place to write this but before quarantine 0 9 i just thought i wa an introvert and just a very organized and methodic person but then on quarantine i started to realize that i seem to get a lot more anxious than most people and always keep thinking about stuff that happened a second ago always think about what someone s thinking about me if i did or said something wrong always think about everything that can go wrong everywhere i go memorizing the menu a week before etc and i thought the problem for a big part of the anxiety wa online class and being stuck at home with my parent they re nice tho so when i finally got to go do an exchange semester abroad i get to be outside all the time i meet new people gt the freaking anxiety is still here and that make me think that nothing is gon na make it go away but i need it to go away cause i feel like i am an introvert but i make one wrong move i just go from quiet introvert to weird and lose all the people i met i mean met that s really the right word because i just can t seem to do the right thing i don t know some of my roommate that got here the same week a me go out every night with friend and i m just stuck at the same awkward convo phase and it s not like that i scared to talk to people or i don t like talking to people i do it s just when i come back home i start to rethink every single word that i said and blame myself for the smalled little mistake i m just really lost sometimes i think what i do how i think is normal but then it doesn t i didn t even know what anxiety wa until a year or so ago so",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "jennchambless me neither and nobody is awake nobody i m drunk and alone",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "we failed that song",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "idk if anyone else get this feeling but i do and it never really go away i get this feeling everywhere and all the time like i just don t belong i always feel like i don t belong anywhere like no one will ever get me i know that sound kinda childish but it s true i just never belong anywhere and any time i try to talk about something i m very interested in it seems like i m the only one interested in these thing and i m always the one they call weird and ostracised i m always the butt of a joke with my friend and family i never get to talk about the thing i wan na talk about even my closest friend don t get me i just feel so alone all the time and it often lead me to making terrible decision any time i think i m happy i just ruin it then that lead me to get paranoid any time i m happy which again lead to me ruining it again i feel like this sound like nonsense but idk how to properly put this feeling into a coherent sentence sorry if this wa too long too",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lovebscott absolutely not",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "after a year of unemployment i got positive news yesterday that i got the job it s the perfect position for me and it will be really interesting to start but a usual i can t be happy when i m supposed to be since the congratulation call i have been spiraling a bit heart raising intrusive thought it s always the same thing",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wow nw00 00 are now operated with a 0 we can get ac power cool but ticket price is hyper crazy expensive",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "juzley yaaaay maybe i should ve gone",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "michaeltao man america is so borez anyway lol i just realized you sent me msg on here i had no idea i have no flash",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hi there i am someone who suffers from health anxiety in the past month it started the day after two terrible thing happened to me my dog who i wa very close with passed away and i found out that i tested positive for covid so quite the shellshock to say the least the night after that i had a panic attack which really scared me since i had never previously had one that night i wa in the hospital for a few hour and aside from the fact i had covid the doctor told me i wa completely fine after that night i would go on to get a blood test and visit the doctor multiple time needle to say that everything came back fine nothing bad wa found in my blood and despite having multiple odd feeling the doctor said i wa fine and basically confirmed i wa suffering from a form of health anxiety meaning i would feel like something is wrong with me but in reality i wa just fine around the fourth visit he recommended i see a counselor and suggested getting a neurologist exam to remove all fear i have been seeing a counselor for a few week now and the earliest neurologist meeting is in may a for my physical symptom i currently have a pin and needle feeling in the back of my head and my neck ha been feeling a bit stiff over the course of the last month i ve had other feeling such a pin in my left hand rough skin emphasized feeling in all sort of part in my body and other feeling i probably forgot about i m posting here because it seems like a welcoming community and i want to share my experience with others who have suffered similarly and hopefully get some reassurance for my self from others i just need an outlet to cope to because i hate constantly bother others i live with for reassurance either way thank you for reading and for those out there that are suffering just know that you re not alone and you will all live long happy healthy and successful life and your pain will soon pas god bless you all p for those wondering yes i got over covid",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "another set of ipod earbuds dying left going quiet apple charge gbp 0 for replacement better option at around that price point",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "zappoman oh your tweet wa about weapon that s covered by pandora s box can t uninvent it leaving u all with mad",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i dont understand i didnt mean to break anyones heart",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "every time i get out the house i start to panic and shake my grandma just got into the hospital and i feel so overwhelmed by everything i feel like the world is putting everything on my shoulder right now and every breath i cave in it s like i don t have anyone to talk to about my problem like it doesn t seem like anyone want to hear me or listen to me so why bother i just feel like i should just close down and shut myself in",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i hate life today that s it that s the post",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m so done with everything i love my career but everyday is harder and harder to get up and go to class i get home and just sleep instead of studying because i feel like absolute trash i feel like nobody love me or even care about me i feel like my friend don t care that i am skipping class and that i have literally stopped talking to everyone i just stand there with them but don t engage with anything because if i do i m scared i ll bust into tear my best friend completely changed his behavior with me a few month ago and now i feel like he doesn t like me anymore i feel like the most unlovable unlikeable person ever nobody ha ever been in love with me i have never kissed anyone or even held hand i just want someone to care about me to ask me about my day to ask me how i m feeling it doesn t even have to be romantic i just want someone anyone to care i fear that my depression get so bad that i stop completely going to class and i fail this semester i don t know what to do",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "someone somewhere didn t like sheepish http www smartestgames com gotdhistory php id",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "finally updated oohh i sooo miss the internet sorry to say that woop x may not open apr 0 so how s it goin",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my heart is abused with so many hurtful lie and truth i hate being sappy about these kind of thing i hate it gold for syf k",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im trying to make a chicken soup like my mother but without a recipe this will be interesting and i cant find matzah",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "extremely jealous",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "having lunch on my desk while i work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this ha become a coping strategy for me i always did it to some extent i had many other ocd tendency a a teen but those went away pretty quickly after i tried to stop them but i ve become so anxious lately that i m starting to scar my face i know it s gross so please don t hate on me just wondering if this is something that anyone else with anxiety experience thank you",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "know i m severely depressed but it s been like this for year i can t do another 0 year of this i turn on monday and i just so tired of this life already i have friend but there s no one i m close to no one to tell my day about not that there would be anything to talk about i do fuck all just barely surviving the day getting out of bed in the morning is so difficult i watch my friend able to go out everyday talk passionately about the thing they re interested in make plan for the future and i just wish i could do that i genuinely don t enjoy anything i m doing a degree i hate but it s too late now to change it and not be able to get out of bed to attend my lecture doesn t help i m on a waiting list for therapy but i m number so that could be up to a year wait i ve tried different antidepressant and they have done fuck all i just can t stop thinking about how it would be best for everyone if i got hit by a truck i am draining to be around i wouldn t be my own friend so god know what anyone else think my first thought about anything is negative someone asked me the other day what i want to do after university and i told them i want to be dead because in all truth that s what i want i don t want to be alive someone wanted me to do something and the first thing out my mouth wa yeah well i want to chuck myself in front of a train but we can t always get what we want didn t even mean to say it but it just always at the front of my mind and i don t even know if it s true because i m not at risk of doing anything i ve absolutely no intention of chucking myself infront of a train but i want to no longer exist sometimes i think i need to reach out to someone but who and why bother what are they gon na do i went to my gp about it and spoke to a mental health nurse but all that s done is given me antidepressant that don t work and put me on a year long waiting list i m meeting up with family for my st my and brother aunt and uncle and cousin that i haven t seen in a while all travelling to see me i should be looking forward to it but i m not i m dreading it because they ve all got their life together have something to live for they re gon na ask me how i m doing and either i lie though they will know i m not telling the truth or i m honest and bring the whole mood down and what point would telling them they can t do anything when i say i want to chuck myself in front of a train i m not just doing it for attention i don t plan to do anything of the sort but i think it s the only way i know of saying how i really feel because no other way describes it just saying i m not doing great doesn t really cut it i m doing fucking awfully and don t know how to stop it",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hey everyone i recently moved to another country for work this seemed like the best option due to lack of option in my own country the move came just after various treatment facility to manage addiction which i believe wa a side affect of my depression my experience in this new country ha been hectic no one can speak english so making new friend and connection are so difficult i have found myself wallowing in this outside of work i pretty much just sit in my apartment feeling really sad last night i had a dream that pushed me to a new low this morning the dream pretty much had me in a group of friend having a good time i don t remember any of their face there wa even a girl that i remember making me feel loved i dont remember her face either but that connection left me feeling so so alone",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ezuiequotes it s a constant positive mental attitude a way of looking on the bright side of a situation to carry with you an ideal of helping others if possible to do one s best in not falling into doubt or depression a sunny disposition is a discipline",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is sooo proud with her bro huhu he s so talentfull i wish i could do best like him",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "nz the place to be miss my own bed a bit though",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i know i shouldn t because everyone experience anxiety differently but my social anxiety really hinders my ability to socialize and a a result i really can not currently build up the courage to have even basic social interaction sometimes i hear very popular people with ton of friend say that they have social anxiety or have no friend and it just make me angry inside or social medium influencers it s like i m mad because my social anxiety hinders me from doing what they do",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is missing playing my trumpet",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m am worried about potentially developing schizophrenia eventually my sister 0 is suffering from this disease right now of my mom aunt also had it my parent did not have it they both passed away and year ago i know the onset of symptom typically occurs in the 0 for male i smoked weed very often almost daily when i wa in a smoking mode but i also took a few tolerance break anywhere from month the past year but recently i decided to stop i also tripped on lsd 9 time within one year but the last trip i had wa almost year ago i know lsd weed and stressful situation can trigger dormant mental illness in people but i am wondering if schizophrenia would already have been triggered and active in me given my history i didn t know i had a family history of the disease until about year ago so please don t shame me for my ignorance i also just found out there wa a link between weed and schizophrenia in the past year and thankfully i have conquered my battle with weed even though it took some time do you think my previous drug usage will come back to haunt me if someone could provide some number for what my odds look like that would be nice a far a i can tell i am not in a prodromal phase but after leaving the weed behind i am worrying myself a lot thinking about all this thanks for any input",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ha no milk for a cup of tea",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "three cheer for fiber to the home now we only have to wait year for it",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i d love to just to die i dont have friend or family member that care about me haha no one will be sad when im gone which is good honestly but like i mentioned the possibility of religion being real scare me and it the only reason thats stopping me from ending it one day i wont care and i ll do it but it not today sadly",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "gulshan hinaaltaf cylinder ka rate badhane se depression se kaise bahar aate hain doctor saheb koi sir pair hai teri baat ka",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ranking of king me permet de pa tomb totalement en d pression et aujourd hui c est le dernier pisode",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i know i am not the thing my inner thought tell me i am but damn it hard to shut off the voice that tell me i m dumb fat will never succeed it s like my mind race telling me that i hate myself at worst i can even go towards thought of death and pointlessness",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am officially alone on my twitter",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "please tell me if this isn t the sub for this i ve been preparing an exam for a couple of month but everytime i try to revise it s like everything ive written down is wrong so i go over the material again and find bit that i didn t catch the first time and it s the same the next week it happens so much that i end up going over the same 0 page text like ten time even worse when i go to my note i don t get them i just recognize the word i m using when i find the passage in the source i took the note from i m really tired and almost feel like i have some kind of brain problem i assure you i m not a perfectionist i d be completely happy knowing only just enough to pas but it seems like i never even get the basic right i m assuming it s some sort of anxiety because it can t be explained by being a slow learner i ve been pretty constant with my study schedule just not assimilating anything i don t have any diagnosed learning disability i ve been to a psychologist a couple of year ago and she said so when i asked her so it can t be that either ha anybody got a similar experience did you manage to get through it i d appreciate any help",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "can t wait",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have no trauma or especially horrible experience it took me yr to even admit to myself that i m most likely depressed i thought that i would write down my feeling but my mind resonated that to writing a suicide not i m proud of myself for stopping when i realised that it made me feel worse i feel lonely i have friend who i trust care for and can talk to yet it s impossible for me to tell them about any of my true feeling because even i cant understand what s going on in my head i feel guilty for thinking that one of the main reason for my behaviour is my family they have always emotionally neglected me treated me a the dumb kid invalidated any feeling i expressed and my mother is physically and verbally abusive i barely share thing with them and nowadays they ve started scolding me for telling them anything because apparently i m too pessimistic my sister seems to be using me i have always been there for her and listened to her when she needed while she is there for me if i need help with study and shit she never even make an attempt to listen to me because apparently that s a therapist duty and she isn t my therapist i can t cry i can barely feel thing at this point i m like a zombie my mental state usually deteriorates in the summer and summer is here i can sense the decline my only friend who i can physically meet and am comfortable sharing deeper detail about myself to seems to understandably freak out when it come to suicide related topic if it involves known example basically joke and stuff are fine but he seems to get a bit perplexed if i mildly hint at my suicidal nature this is just a rant i have a terrible tendency to bottle thing up in such a way that i forget about it i will probably feel better by the end of this day",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "couldn t get shit done today i m so screwed",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "kal penn most confusing hour of my life",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my friend coco chris had a party this weekend and it seemed to have been awesome fail i wasnae there",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "need hug snuggle",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i am the definition of a failure i have mental diagnosis no job or education have money problem and poor health due to all the stress of life i have no idea at all how i can change my life so i become one quite normal person with normal success in life im 0 and feel so behind in life",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been very close yet i ve been postponing for a while on and off to cut thing short i believe i may end up leaving sometime next week there are a few reason why otherwise if i don t i am saving up for my mom to buy me a new ar it ll take about month to get sufficient fund but i am solely using it on myself i already have access to a firearm but i am choosing not to do it now unless i have to because the caliber might not be sufficient enough but yeah no one see the warning sign i may have potential but i can t live up to it i ll always fail i know many people that read this will skip over or not even care i am just putting my thought somewhere no one will probably read it oh well all i know is that i have tried my best my circumstance are holding me hostage from flourishing in this world i am only here to fulfill the need of specific people i am not loved i mean this with everything i m basically here surviving alone trying to keep myself sane under the condition i m under my own interest are impossible to achieve i am a batshit crazy piece of shit disguised a a well mannered average looking tall slim smart person according to them but yeah this is something i have extreme feeling for i truly believe i may end up going through with these plan sometime next week or sometime soon id love to talk to someone about this i ve tried to reach out to friend before about how i ve been feeling and everyone talk to me one time and never check on me again honestly im ready to fuckin get this shit overwith no one give me a fuckin chance literally i m getting fucking exhausted i m tired of this planet i just wish i could feel different at least i m tired help me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hypothetically if someone took 9 000mg fluvoxamine mg naltrexone and 0mg lorazepam what would happen all hypothetically of course",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "considering new business name which mean new logo and website finding it very difficult to pick a name though been week fail",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it s 0pm early day in a looooooong night at work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "everything and everyday is a struggle because i don t feel like nothing make sense i wake up on my way to work i just keep thinking why why eating why working why having a hobbie why do you guy feel it too and how to deal with that",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "we understand that most people who reply immediately to an op with an invitation to talk privately mean only to help but this type of response usually lead to either disappointment or disaster it usually work out quite differently here than when you say pm me anytime in a casual social context we have huge admiration and appreciation for the goodwill and good citizenship of so many of you who support others here and flag inappropriate content even more so because we know that so many of you are struggling yourselves we re hard at work behind the scene on more information and resource to make it easier to give and get quality help here this is just a small start our new wiki page explains in detail why it s much better to respond in public comment at least until you ve gotten to know someone it will be maintained at r depression wiki private contact and the full text of the current version is below summary anyone who while acting a a helper invite or accepts private contact i e pm chat or any kind of offsite communication early in the conversion is showing either bad intention or bad judgement either way it s unwise to trust them pm me anytime seems like a kind and generous offer and it might be perfectly well meaning but unless and until a solid rapport ha been established it s just not a wise idea here are some point to consider before you offer or accept an invitation to communicate privately by posting supportive reply publicly you ll help more people than just the op if your response are of good quality you ll educate and inspire other helper the 9 90 rule http en wikipedia org wiki rule internet culture applies here a much a it doe anywhere else on the internet people who are struggling with serious mental health issue often justifiably have a low tolerance for disappointment and a high level of ever changing emotional need unless the helper is able to make a 00 commitment to be there for them in every way for a long a necessary offering a personal inbox a a resource is likely to do more harm than good this is why mental health crisis line responder usually don t give their name and caller aren t allowed to request specific responder it s much healthier and safer for the caller to develop a relationship with the agency a a whole analogously it s much safer and healthier for our ops to develop a relationship with the community a a whole even trained responder are generally not allowed to work high intensity situation alone it s partly about availability but it s mostly about wider perspective and preventing compassion fatigue if a helper get in over their head with someone whose mental health issue including suicidality which is often comorbid with depression escalate in a pm conversation it s much harder for others including the r depression and r suicidewatch moderator to help contrary to common assumption moderator can t see or police pm in our observation over many year the people who say pm me the most are consistently the one with the least understanding of mental health issue and mental health support we all have gap in our knowledge and in our ability to communicate effectively community input mitigates these limitation there s no reason why someone who s truly here to help would want to hide their response from community scrutiny if helper are concerned about their own privacy keep in mind that self disclosure when used supportively is more about the feeling than the detail and that we have no problem here with the use of alt throwaway account and have no restriction on account age or karma we all know the internet is used by some people to exploit or abuse others these people do want to hide their deceptive and manipulative response from everyone except their victim there are many of them who specifically target those who are vulnerable because of mental health issue if a helper invite an op to talk privately and give them a good supportive experience they ve primed that person to be more vulnerable to abuser this sort of cognitive priming tends to be particularly effective when someone s in a state of mental health crisis when people rely more on heuristic than critical reasoning if ops want to talk privately posting on a wide open anonymous forum like reddit might not be the best option although we don t recommend it we do allow ops to request private contact when asking for support if you want to do this please keep your expectation realistic and to have a careful look at the history of anyone who offer to pm before opening up to them",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "tommcfly hey saw u guy play pushover didn t get meet u tho cuz of th huge line i wa very upset lol a msg would make up it",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yet you just want me alive for your conscious i pray everyday that something put me out and kill me this pain hurt a lot",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve always been this put together person in people s eye but in reality i m so close to the end i see no light at the end of the tunnel i have no passion motivation and anything that generates to being happy i don t know what to do i m in constant despair i don t really like opening up to anyone i know i just feel like there s nothing i can do to fix this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my father committed suicide day before my th birthday i still remember this day i don t really have any memory of him so i m not really sad but for a long time i wa kinda angry at him for letting u alone with a mother like that but i realized some time ago that himself didn t want to be with her anymore and he also had a difficult life i think i m pretty sure he also had depression i feel stupid for being angry at him for so long over something like that i m happy for him now he doesn t have to suffer anymore he s free from his sadness just needed to let these thought out",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "depression f in suck",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so first of all i know that this is all fucking messed up it is the way it is though i ve been depressed and suicidal for a while now and my ex know that aswell i promised him that i would never kill myself which i really regret but whatever i asked them a couple of time but they didn t want me to break my promise and they also said if i did they d commit suicide aswell however now my ex told me that if i told my younger brother i wa gon na do it how and why it would be okay to break the promise i just i can t i can t go to my younger brother tell him hey i m gon na km bc life suck and i m just gon na hang myself i know commiting suicide will hurt ppl around me but they will be fine except maybe my younger brother that s what i m scared for however it s so much worse though if i tell him i m gon na end my life before i do it he will feel so much more guilt and i just don t know what to do and everything hurt so much physically and mentally",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theblondetheory ditch in another parish some really sick people in this world",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "why doe it take so long to go through one lecture which only took min to give and it s sunny outside someone is mocking me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t know how to communicate all of my thought stay inside me instead of telling them to other people like i should my mind simply won t let me i try i really try sometimes and i have so many of them but they get lost my mind is a endless nightmare of thought of despair and hatred towards myself i feel numb and over emotional at the same time and i dont know what to do i feel like a horrible waste of human space stripped down to my bone by my past and my seemingly dim future",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "cherylthelibr n thanks for the rebuilders rebuilding tip she s trying to help her mom thru a divorce and herself thru a breakup",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "being border restricted victim day by day we getting engulfed in frustration depression suicidal attempt and much more that we can t express in word depression fmwangyisaveindianstudents takeusbacktochina",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ha anyone been on this for anxiety im currently on 0mg of lamictal and my anxiety s been getting worse my psych prescribed hydroxyzine but im only able to take it at night a it either knock me out or lead to more physical feeling of anxiety tightness in my chest and headache his only other option he talked about wa an anti anxiety buspar taken everyday but i really want an a needed i take pill a day and ssri snris are not an option i also dont deal with anxiety daily but rather panic attack anxiety attack that occur randomly i guess im wondering how anyone here would describe hydroxyzine in comparison to benzos ha anyone been on both before and have an insight to which may be better i understand the risk i just want some honest info about your experience in what help thank you in advance",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "also still struggling to ask my parent to help me set up for an adhd diagnosis a well a for my mental health a much a i say i do have thing like adhd depression and anxiety i haven t officially confirmed that it suck that i do because i can t get the support i need",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sorry sf rescheduling my sf trip for this coming weekend to mid may bad circumstance",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "paul pogba reveals he s battled depression since split with jose mourinho at manchester united http t co ga st9nrdz",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "zurich doe not have smelly bag anymore",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "princessbuddha im having the same problem i never drive anymore",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "ha anyone been prescribed mirtazapine or other alpha receptor antagonist to treat their anxiety i would prefer not to use start with ssri s what wa you experience",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i like not caring about anything i m at work all day just going through the motion the long hour and annoying customer don t phase me because i m not even all there mentally emotionally failing uni doesn t phase me because eh i have to be numb because if not i ll just constantly feel unbearable emotional and physical pain i have to swallow every bit of emotion so i don t completely fall apart",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i miss you twitter my phone broke now i m using a stupid nokia phone ughhh i miss my advance phone",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "erre sc aaw i miss ya all too im leaving to bh tomorrow quot morning quot i think aww i wan na go to the beach w u girl",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i feel like sometimes i can t tell if it s anxiety or really a gut instinct",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "henkuyinepu it s overrated",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve been feeling a lot and going through a lot for the past few week i can t talk to anyone i m emotionally and mentally drained i m not even diagnosed with anything but i feel like i m having anxiety and just want to be done with everything i sometimes feel like i just want to jump off our building or drown myself in the pool so that i wouldn t feel anything i m really scared i know what happened to me wa careless and full of stupidity i guess this is my karma just letting out a little bit i don t know who else to talk to i feel like i m dying inside i m afraid to go to the beach with my friend because i might do something really stupid i ve been cry and cry every night so that i could hide all my feeling but it s really killing me i want to get out of this situation but i can t escape i know i have to help myself but i can t do it there s no one else to blame but me i m so sorry for this i just have no one to talk to i don t want to be a burden to the people around me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "okay bb lt doe anyone know where i can get info on how night club in l a cost i wan na rent one out next year please i ll invite yall",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "but i still look at them everyday and overthink for hour",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this person mean the world to me so this hurt more than i can ever describe from what they have told me they haven t really struggled with mental illness so how do i make them understand",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it wasn t to bad it s pretty easy but i wa still scared i ve lost over job due to my anxiety i hope this one stick plus it s only min from home i wa so proud that i got up early and i went to work i made myself do it but i did it my second day is tomorrow and i m nervous again i hope i can pull through and be able to do this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "absolutelybatty hug back thanks hon i can t believe he s gone",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "anybody willing to help me i ve been trying to make a sad tune on the piano for a new song but it always end up happy and bright",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "emperoremil yup i m at work i m on midshift na e",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "itschelseastaub goodnight chels and sorry about the major layout delay lt",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m a year old girl and my best friend took her own life a few month ago i rly tried to live without her honesty i mean ok i ve tried to die after that but then i put in a real effort to live without her she suffered before she died she wa just a little girl not even a teenager i just can t do it i tried but i don t want to live in such a unfair world without her i ve had nightmare nonstop my brain is torturing itself after what happened my brain want me to kill myself and end the torture so i need to do it feeling nothing is so much better than being tortured i think everyone would agree i m gon na do it rly soon cuz idk how much more torture i can take",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "no new csi tonight fml",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i don t see a stable future for myself i have a lot going for me right now and i don t even care i m and graduating highschool in june and alot of my friend will be moving away for college including my boyfriend of year i feel like everything is ending traveling and plane terrify me so i probably cant visit my friend unless they visit me i cant see myself every being stable enough to live a non anxious life what is wrong with me",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "lauredhel what happened",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "in bed finally long day tomorrow",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it still suck m that ha a job that a lot of people wish they had hr showed me that they received over 00 application for my position i moved to a new city for this job right before covid took over can t seem to make friend or meaningful connection with anyone in just over year i don t really have hobby and dread coming home to an empty house every night i ve always struggled with self esteem and this crushing loneliness ha me struggling yo get out of bed nobody call or even sends me text message i have no one that care about me i m already hiding so much including my emotion just desperately hoping someone i know reach out to me life is hard i get that and i know it s not easy for anyone but so many people i know have it so much easier their constant smile and laughter hurt but i hurt even more pretending to smile and laugh with them i ve ended up losing the passion and drive i once had got my career and am truly lost no friend no family no career no future fml",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i just let my everquest subscription lapse just don t play it anymore don t have the time",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "livinginfiction outdoors man can t get to the gym this week no time no time dinner soon babe early next week or brunch sunday",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is not looking forward to working today",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m a high school student f and i m not living in a country which speaks english so i m sorry if i m making grammatical mistake i m so exhausted i have did because of the s xual a ault i went thru a a child i can t deal with all these flashback and i have exam responsibility i can t even get out of bed but i have to study for exam i don t even know what i want in the future i don t want a future at this point i can t do this anymore so i decided to end it all tonight goodbye everyone",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yay sj will be on come to play kibum is of course missing and so is teuk",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hi i ve been focusing on my mental health recently and i think i have depression here are my symptom i am constantly irritated i do not like any human interaction whatsoever for some reason i just don t like dealing with other people this varies from day to day i don t know if it s from past experience but i can t stand other people physically i have no energy finding interest in anything is an arduous task for me i am happy for those close to me that achieve or accomplish something but i just can t express it i notice this because i don t smile or act happy when it happens i have no motivation i am financially confident but i don t see the value of my work i don t know that to do with the reward i have earned with work i sleep a lot i probably sleep around 0hrs a day if anyone can explain if i do from past experience or if you are a professional please reply thanks",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "geoffmartinez youre going to be in mexico on easter why",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "this post is regarding my father who relentlessly forced his own will upon me and made me choose my career and life choice based on that a a result it ha brought catastrophic consequence for me i wa an above average student at school but used to be excellent in creative pursuit like theatre writing story and poem english literature filmmaking etc but my father wa totally against all that he made me choose what subject i needed to take for my good future and it wa always what he think wa best that zi needed to do there wa actually no way i could protest because it would have led to physical violence so to cut the story short i graduated from school in the year 0 then because my father forced me to enroll in a wierd course i lost two more year until i couldn t and then in 0 i had to drop out because i wa failing in every exam it wa in those several month that i endured the worst mental agony of my life it wa a lot of mental burden placed upon me my father called me a failure and what not and compared me with a number of successful kid in the neighborhood and to the kid of his friend who were in good university and doing very well in 0 i cracked one of the toughest exam but unfortunately my rank wa not good and most of it wa due to the rampant corruption and lack of transparency and accountability in the examination conducting board what i mean to say is that i could have scored better if the result were not questionable in nature a court case went but nothing happened finally i take admission in one of the worst place i could imagine to spend another year of my life doing something i absolutely loathed again because of the pressure from my father then in 0 0 i finally graduated but then the covid pandemic broke out every one wa working from home and the nature of my degree wa such that for newbie like me working from home wa not possible and in hand office experience wa required so i went unemployed for a year also in my final year i contracted a terrible life long disease due to the mental stress i wa in and the crappy food that i had to eat the mess in the hostel where i lived for year wa horrendous to say the least now it is 0 and i am still unemployed my father somehow blame me entirely for this and never once accepted his mistake in life now not only him but i too view myself a a failure and have lost faith in myself the confidence that i once had the energy of youth that wa brimming to overflow when i graduated from school in thr summer of 0 is all exhausted and gone i could have done something really good with my life in the creative field that s what i think i have a knack for it i have a good power of imagination and an intuitive mind but now i feel it wa all a waste and all ha been for nothing i have wasted more than 0 year of my life in my higher study and doing something i not only loathe but detest in the highest possible way it would not be wrong to say that my father is responsible for screwing my life over but that s what i think am i making an excuse what do you think",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "innocentdrinks coke 0 minority stake really not april fool can you give it back so depressing you were a favourite brand sad",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "well this day i would like to go out in the sun instead of sitting here looking at excel",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m tired i feel like crap and the world feel all crummy make me happy usb disco mouse",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "doe depression destroy your brain cell like literally i feel like i can t connect with anyone and i think in certain situation",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my plan to have my eternal rest is starting to de rail starting today it frustrating that it is starting to de rail this late in the plan however i guess nothing go according to the plan even my back up plan are starting to de rail too i just want to have my eternal rest but why is the world too unfair that i feel like it keep saying that i should suffer more than what i have experienced",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so i have a friend that is showing warning sign of suicide what do i do to avoid a crisis situation and what do i do if it becomes a crisis and help is too far out i know every second matter and every action and word can mean the difference between life and death for my friend any and all help is appreciated",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i constantly have suicidal thought even if i m doing ok it s like it s always in the back of my mind i have my dark day where it s all i can think about but it s still back there during the good day too i feel like i m strange for constantly thinking about it even if i m happy",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "d pression",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
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    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "joynerlucas machinegunkelly nice toxic masculinity good to know your music about issue like suicide and depression were just fake shit for click if you had real mental health issue you wouldn t be perpetuating homophobia and toxic masculinity every cent you ve earned wa through coopting other s pain",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "yeah so i got an job interview tomorrow and im pretty anxious about it ha anyone got some advice on how to prepare for it it should be good tho it just that im not sure if i will like it and im afraid to have no small talk topic with the employer yk that it gon na be awkward and shit",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "woo for three page down and seven to go why in heck do i procrastinate goal for grad school do not wait",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "wow non work related i ve been doing the seo for a site i designed and it s now ranking on msn google and ask sadly not yahoo",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "im tired i m so tired a tiredness that i can t describe anymore i really can t believe that my life is really the one i have now when i see myself in the mirror or just at random time during the day i can t help but have tear running down my cheek hurting myself when i m wondering how i went from an innocent happy optimistic person to a destroyed and sad who just want to die i know others can have it harder but for me that s all i can bear i can t take it anymore i m unhappy but also angry angry because i wonder why all this happened to me why do i have to live all of this at only this question will never have an answer i just deserve it idk why im writing this so late even tho no one will see it in short i ve definitely given up and this message is therefore my last straw",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "when i wa i sa d a girl in her sleep why i don t know i feel like shit every day because of it it genuinely make me feel like shit when i think about it i just don t wan na live anymore i ve made so many drastic mistake that i don t see the point in life now the sa story ha gotten around school i know and understand i did this to myself but i can t help but feel like shit i really just want to go back and get my old life back but no one belief me when i say i m sorry or i feel like shit because of it i feel remorseful but there s no way to convey that",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "hoping i can get some decent sleep tonight since i didn t get any worth shittt last night goodnight world xoxo",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "updating my myspace profile i need more follower coz it a bit sad only to have one",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "you enter a store looking to buy a particular thing you browse around and realise that they do not the item you came in for so you buy something you don t really need because you are afraid that the staff at the store may suspect you of shoplifting",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i 0f already struggle with suicidal ideation i m just tired so tired this last six month ha been the toughest six month of my life i ve been with this guy 0m for five year he ha been a step up dad for my daughter 0f nearly from the beginning of our relationship very early had always plan to get married and have child together my feeling for him have always been so strong he always made me feel like he wa different like he understood my trauma and wanted to hold my hand through my healing not set mine and my daughter life on fire i moved to the other side of our country to be with him we have had ups and down i found out six month ago he ha a new girlfriend and she also a a you g child f long story short he s leaving me for her our lease is up at the end of april and my daughter and i have nowhere to go we will be homeless for a while until i can move back to my parent my ex husband m found out we won t have a stable place to live for a little while and is filing for custody of my daughter my ex husband is it ha been extremely abusive to me since i wa none of the abuse wa ever documented because i never wanted to call the police he always made me feel like i deserved it i ended up losing my well paying job due to my emotional state my daughter and i don t have family or friend here none that aren t deeply tied to my now ex bf i don t feel like i have deserved any of this shit im the go to person that always help everyone now i m going to have nothing and i have no one willing to show up for me and my kid we also have two dog i will have to rehome because he refuse to take them and i can t hardly care for myself and my daughter right now i m literally about to lose everything i ve been chewed up and spit out my whole life i suffered a lot of emotional and sexual abuse a a child too i don t genuinely want to die but i also don t want to feel anymore like i really don t know if i could survive losing my daughter that kid is my world please how do i make it stop i can t go out like this",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m gon na go through with it this time just got ta graduate and at least get this stupid degree first",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ll try to keep it a short a possible for the past year i have been struggling with frequent wave of deep depression lasting for day or week but at the same time i have time where im just ok dont have any self esteem issue self image issue and etc so in the end all im trying to figure out if this is normal or if it a type of depression though i couldnt find anything similar to it or bipolar disorder which also seems somewhat unlikely because i never have manic or extremly energetic episode i just want to know if what im dealing with so ill have a clearer idea about how to act further",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "cliche i know but my girlfriend left me we had been together for about and a half year our anniversary wa coming up in july when we met i wa depressed and had been planning suicide she pulled me out of that and gave me purpose and happiness now that she s gone i realize i ve been living my life for her and now that i m alone i don t know what to do with myself i have no other want than her and it feel like she s the only person or thing that can make me happy again i ve lost all interest in my hobby and i have no motivation for school which i only started so i could make money for the family i had dreamed we would have i feel like i m right back where i wa when she met me alone and depressed with no motivation and no desire to continue",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "thanks for bursting my bubble",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i ve had tinnitus for like year could it be somehow related to anxiety also neck pain for year tension mainly thanks for answer",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "david henrie i cant find it it say dtmafiaofficial doesnt exist there s jus dtmafia i found n u dun seem to b followin it wht to do",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "idk how or when maybe overdose on some pill but i don t wan na suffer or maybe hang myself but again i don t wan na suffer",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "sorry about message n such i have been stewing in my apartment depression napping tryna will myself to feel better though tomorrow i will try to be functional",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "got woken up this mornng at am damn lorry van and car accident just outside on our main road also causing car alarm to go off",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "feel a headache coming on",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m so behind in video game and everything for that matter i m yesterday s news",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "slept for hour had been awake since 0am yesterday and still i wa late for the exam got ta wake up at tomoro onwards",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "aiiane what s wrong with being an attention whore",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i have trouble falling asleep i need something to regulate my sleep cycle back in the day i took zopiclone which wa good at putting me to sleep but early awakening were somewhat annoying i would like to hear the experience of people who have taken zopiclone and other z drug amp benzodiazepine how did they compare which do you like the most",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my stress always culminates with physical pain",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "no southpark for me",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "gawd my laptop is fucked up now system error just using my lil brother s laptop",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "terryfree lol byeee time to go",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "omg revision revision revision i feel like i wasted an amazingly beautiful day today doing pointless work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "urghhhhhh tired i need a proper lie in",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "twiggassssssss i been out of range all day i m back now and hopefully for good",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "theekween help with depression anxiety thelmasherbs",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "misterrabbitt it influence people more than love kindness or friendship it will cause lover to quarrel people to be unkind and others to throw away friendship it brings about depression envy greed and a whole plethora of immoral and unethical behavior money truly rule all",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "inspiredwriting i love how i can could easily read and tweed while working with twitter com i m reloading all the time",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "graemearcher i am sad about innocent selling out too",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "it wa a sleepless night",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m an adult but i want to escape my family completely i don t know where to start i ve told my therapist that i hate my family and stuff he replied with well they are really wealthy maybe you should continue being provided since you have your need to be met with i highly believe he s saying because of my mental issue i m diagnosed with ptsd ed psychosis mdd major clinical depressive disorder satiety etc but i don t think it s that serious because i can stabilize myself i have okay coping mechanism it feel like my therapist doesn t think i can stand on my foot by myself without my family i live with my family but i bought a house with their money and my money from work yes i did tell my family i wanted to leave but they said okay but first give u our 00 thousand back they helped me buy a house and now because of a fight they want me to stay home and own up to my mistake ridiculous thing is that they offered to pay and said i didn t need to pay them back now they re blackmailing me i told them i would because i have good bank i m a banker for a reason they then said something like you have no right to be saying that a banker is nothing respected blah blah blah they went on about how i should ve continued the line in our family of becoming engineer or surgeon the hardest part isn t even dealing their expectation of me it s the fact some of my family member especially my older brother and mom are narcissist some of you are probably thinking well why don t you just move into your home and ignore them if i move into my home they said they will have the higher ups of my job fire me i don t know what my parent want from me i m just stressed and going crazy because of their existence i know i can legally cut my parent off but don t know where to start do i have to make a call first anyone have info i d greatly appreciate it i ve dealt with my parent from teen year to now but i ve had enough of it i thought i d be free from their grasp once i become an adult but i m still stuck and i hate myself for having mental issue it s bothersome",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i thought it wa an interesting way to look at it and wanted to share with you all",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "stuck inside poorly little people",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "life the rest are society pressure and those are partially playing a big role in causing depression hence the losing life of many men those thing actually depress",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "haven t written here in a long time let myself believe i wa getting better but seems like it s all just a scam i just wish i had my escape route open we shifted a few month ago and now my escape hatch is gone too",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just leaving the parking lot of work",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "waldodior teamkhabib i wa taught the same thing and wa bullied all through my high school year i have serious resentment because of it and depression which grew because i had to suffer in silence i will teach my kid to fight back if they feel threatened in anyway",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "edit i never really thought anyone would care but thank you so much for each of you for taking time out to console a random stranger it meant a lot and while i spent the night contemplating just ending it in the end reading this comment section again and again helped a lot i m still here and that s count for something i guess",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "so many channel yet so so boring lazy day again may have to find a hobby",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i just think about dying almost every god damn minute and it so annoying",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "one of the hardest thing with this schedule no one i can chat with at the end of my day usually",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "llordllama oh no i had an obadiah too name that start with e are generally good",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "just sitting waiting",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "bradhfh hello you stoped talking to me lol",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "somebody is selling the japan only release of my first album on e bay for damn thats it a classic is worth more than that",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "again with the fucked sleep ive decided to go do homework instead",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "stephenkruiser i m so sorry to hear that it s always sad when we lose those close to u a we loved them",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "because he s so sick of me saying it and not actually doing it hahahaha yeah no one care i hate my fcking life i have bpd avpd and c ptsd everyday is miserable i hate it here i want out can someone who is planning too please chat me i wan na talk about way to go",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "argh firefox ha just removed a bookmark folder my sharepoint folder including all link within no idea why how",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i m beyond worthless i will never be able to provide anything to anyone in any capacity i m no more than a worm i just want to break everything in my house smash everything in a complete rage and finish it off with a bullet to the brain i ve never been so furious in my entire year of living im in a perpetual state of anger lately i ve started burning myself with cigarette again i push them into myself until the pain fade i do it far up my arm so no one see them at work i don t need those stupid fuck questioning me i never liked cutting myself burning hurt a lot more in my opinion it s what i deserve me being alive is fucking crime i should just fucking end it now so nobody get hurt from me i m sure my family won t give a shit they ll probably be happier with the load off their shoulder and my friend will get over it quickly it s been over a year since i ve seen them in person we ve already drifted to far from each other in our life we re basically stranger",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "dang i m lazy i ve begun three short story in the last three week and never finished anything will have more focus",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "month on turned 0 month ago had mental breakdown anxiety attack followed by spiral of depression ended up resigning from job month ago a a result currently in therapy and on med sleep is slowly improving though i wake up early some morning overthinking and anxious i have day i feel good then i feel depressed and then i feel anxious still get strong feeling of dread negative thought and strong feeling of being unaccomplished im not sure if this is normal but i got told med will take some time to kick in still exercising started a new job day ago doing something different my goal for the next few year is to sort out and get this all under control and stabilise my career life also trying to remember and take note of all the positive thing in my life and achievement i have accomplished also looking into a potential career change",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i really wish i had not bought the camera le e that day when my 0 went dead i miss photographing little thing dslr is too bulky",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "my whole body feel itchy and like it on fire",
    "output": "normal"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i wish thing were different in life i m just a useless piece of shit that deserves to die i deserve all the pain i m about to receive that s just the way it is",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "i feel empty inside most of the time i am trying to find my purpose to live again but it kinda hard for the first time ever in my life i feel like i can t overcome the struggle i m facing right now i am telling myself im doing okay im doing better but at the end of the day i found myself drinking and smoking by myself again i stopped smoking for a year and a half until last month me right now is exactly the person im trying to get rid of year ago after year i found myself doing all the thing i hate and i know it is bad for me again my best friend s birthday day is today i asked her hey what do you want ask a thank you because she wa there for me when i am facing my first panic attack first time understand what s depressed she said i want you to live that s all i need for people out there who is having suicidal thought like me just remember that there will be a person who expects to see you in the future if you feel like there is no one next to you maybe they will show up in the future",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "if it add any kind of info m almost the thing is that ive always felt down kind of bad obsessed over a lot of stuff over time mainly school and once my grade obsession wore down started getting obsession nonstop this led to me having high anxiety even higher than before and eventually not recognizing myself in the mirror that and another bunch of stuff later i finally got into therapy and a psychiatrist they gave me sertraline for the ocd like symptom and intrusivity on my thought i have intrusive thought but those were way more maneagable than these so it worked great everything wa going fine and better everyday didnt stop getting better i had an episode of hipo mania caused by the sertraline i suppose so after going back to half the pill so mg now and a new psychiatrist my main one wa sick he told me thats what the episode wa called and recommended i get new medicine a people with bipolar disorder get that kind of stuff ive literally got no clue of what to do do i get tested for bipolar and get new medicine do i stick with sertraline a it solved my main issue bipolar somewhat make sense to me but i literally dont know what to do about it please forgive any grammar mistake a english isnt my main language",
    "output": "depressed"
  },
  {
    "instruction": "Find whether the text belongs to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal}",
    "input": "is sad she ha lost her hn arm band it just disappeared",
    "output": "normal"
  }
]