Maybe you love Talia more than she loves you, or maybe you're just tired of practically being a loner all the time and at least if you have Talia, you know you've got someone on your side. Whatever the reason, you tell Talia that you're willing to go to Delerg with her. Her reaction is a happy one though she admits she's a little surprised you agreed as quickly as you did.

Later that night you fall asleep wondering how the hell you got yourself into this.

Then a numbness washes over you…

"So, ready to come back to the fold eh?" you hear Dendrin say.
"Hardly." You reply.
"I didn't think so, but you always continue to intrigue me. I mean here you are supporting a woman that obviously places faith over love. Why would you do such a thing? The Empire's most fanatical soldiers have faith in their false Emperor and the shadows…what's left of them still have faith in me yet they have no real proof that their respective masters approve of them or feel anything back. Yet you have proof that Talia's faith in me is stronger than her love for you and you still stand by her."
"Because I'm an idiot obviously."
"That remains to be seen, but I don't think so. In fact you're being clever enough to avoid my question. Don't think I haven't noticed. Is it possible that you're heading to into Empire territory in the hope of getting into major battle again? Has been awhile and I know you do enjoy it so."

You don't answer, you just try to go back to waiting out this "dream", but Dendrin isn't letting you.

"Passive silence? That's not your usual tactic with me. You've always been a fighter, a warrior! But I'll take that silence as a sign that I was right."
"Take it however you want, but take it away from me."
"Hmm, not sure if I like this new approach to our talks, but if I had an opinion on your decision, it's that you've made the right one. I think that you'll find something else in my old temple too. Well now you will since I've just mentally transferred the position of a very hidden place in it. Hope the baby situation works out for you, I think fatherhood would suit you, and it'll give me a new follower! I'll be watching as usual."

In the next few weeks you and Talia make your preparations to leave Rask. When you tell her that Dendrin spoke to you and placed the image of a stone "button" to reveal a secret part of the temple, Talia is again overjoyed and remarks that this is a good sign that he cares for your well being and merely wants your worship in return. You don't bother saying what you really think, but instead just nod and tell Talia that perhaps she's right and that maybe one day your faith in him will be as strong as hers.

The journey is a long one, it probably wouldn't be if you could actually use shadow magic to speed yourself up without passing out anymore, but since you're not yet a "true believer" again, looks like ol' Dendrin's withholding the perks still. Doesn't seem to bother Talia, she's very positive during the whole trip. She talks about how you can both make your home in the temple and start your new lives there. She goes on about how you can also put out feelers on how the rebellion situation is going on in Delerg and how maybe you can get it split from the Empire like Rask did. You have to admit you don't mind that idea.

There are a few times on the trip through the Quala province you could've avoided combat with Empire patrols, but you deliberately engage them when the time is right. You make an effort to leave no survivors in these attacks; every dead soldier is a blow to the Empire right?

Eventually you make it to Delerg and the place is crawling with Empire troops, it looks like they've really been trying to clean up around here. You keep a lower profile here and it takes a lot of sneaking around, but eventually you make it to Dendrin's temple which have several rotten heads on pikes facing the temple along with several rotten bodies (partially eaten by the wildlife and insects) strewn around and even inside the temple.

"These are shadows." Talia says with a touch of sadness in her voice.
"I know…even with half her face covered in maggots I recognize that one. Sister Yvette. I always wondered what happened to her after I left her in charge of my cell when I went back to Gloom. (Sigh) I figured it would be something like this."
"Do you think these are all the shadows that we lost contact with south of Rask?"
"Most of them I suppose. I guess maybe they had the same idea and made a last stand here where they thought Dendrin would protect them. Looks like…" you stop yourself from saying something completely negative like "he didn't." so you think of something slightly less negative and say: "they fought so hard that the Empire tried to make some sort of example out of them."
"We need to take them down off the pikes." Talia says.
"No we need to leave them be, since I'm sure the Empire has patrols come around here, and if they see all the heads suddenly gone, they're going to correctly assume shadows are around. We need to keep a low profile if we're going to stick around here remember?"
"I…suppose discretion would be best right now."

You and Talia move past the pike heads and enter the temple, which is surprisingly in good condition though signs of battle obviously took place here. You waste no time in seeking out the stone "button" that will open up a secret place in the temple. Eventually you find it (which you doubt you would've been able to do if Dendrin hadn't told you) and descend down.

What you find is better than you could've hoped for when you first arrived and that's living quarters for what you presume would be for the old shadow high priests or whatever. It isn't fancy, but it's fairly clean. You imagine that this place hasn't been accessed in centuries. The walls are very solidly made so it doesn't even look like signs of any natural intrusion have occurred either. There is one "room" that sticks out which isn't man made and that's a small natural cavern, which seems to be an underground garden of some sort with a shallow stream of fresh water flowing through it. Blue glowing fungus lights up the place and there are no exits other than the small openings the water is flowing through.

With no suspicion whatsoever Talia immediately takes some purple berries off one of the bushes and pops them in her mouth and remarks how good they taste.
"Hey those could be poisonous!" you exclaim.
"Oh you doubter, Dendrin lead us here! We won't come to any harm!
"I'm being cautious. This cavern is strange; I mean wouldn't a garden like this have overgrown or decayed without regular care? I imagine the water stream is seeping into the soil and sustaining them, but some of these plants wouldn't survive without sunlight either."
"It's obviously magical and don't you see? Dendrin provides as usual. We now have a good supply have fresh sustenance and water. Why question it, for it is one less thing to worry about! With this place we could easily hide underneath the Empire's noses and strike from the shadows again." Talia says.
"As long as they don't call in their Derro buddies again, I agree that this will make a suitable hideout. I suppose you're probably right about the garden being magical. Sort of odd though, never known Dendrin to be into the whole nature thing."
"Well we cannot hope to know all of a god's interests and thoughts. As I've said, why question it? It is enough that it's something good and we could use that right now. Now come, we should thank Dendrin for this together."

As you join Talia in thanking Dendrin, you can't help but wonder if this is all some elaborate plan by Dendrin to actually get you to be a true believer, or if he doesn't really care if you believe, just as long as you're going through the motions.

Either way, you'll do this for Talia because that's who you're really faithful to.

You talia's Revelation (Year 33)

When you first got to Dendrin's sanctuary (As it came to be called), you basically stayed in your underground paradise a lot, since Talia was still pre-occupied with the idea of you both having a baby during that time. It was actually fun shutting out the world completely for a while. Even the prayers to Dendrin you faked didn't bother you.

As months went by, it was apparent nothing was happening and Talia began to get noticeably upset. She started blaming you, stating that because you had turned from Dendrin he was still punishing you and her by association. Naturally you argued back pointing out that you've been praying to Dendrin right along side her and the fact you traveled here should be proof that's you're trying to change. It doesn't help and ultimately she just gets more upset. Weeks pass by where you don't even speak to each other, and that's when you tried something voluntarily that you never thought you'd do.

You genuinely prayed to Dendrin. Not for yourself, but for Talia. You even bargained with him stating that you'd actually become a true believer if he just granted her prayers. Predictably he never answered. All this caused you to do is get angry and curse him like you have so many times in the past. In the meantime, Talia wasn't angry with you anymore so much as she had fallen into a depression.

With Talia in a depression, you found yourself getting angrier at the situation. At Talia, at Dendrin, at the shadows, at the Empire and at yourself. Naturally you had to get your mind off things and that's when you remembered what the hell you were there for in the first place. To stir up shit for the Empire here in Delerg again.

You began leaving the sanctuary on a regular basis and ambushing Empire troops. Pretty soon you were back to a routine like you were in Rask during your isolated years. Talia never helps you during this time and mostly remains in her depression, but it hardly matters since you're focused on Empire soldiers. This remains your routine for months.

But recently things take an odd turn, namely you feel your shadow magic getting stronger again. You don't know if was due to the temple or the prayers or Dendrin being a whimsical asshole as usual, but you try to focus on the positive and hope that maybe this will snap Talia out her general sadness as well.

"Talia, I know you've been feeling down for the past year or so, but I think I've got some good news for you. My shadow magic is coming back."
"Really?"
"Yes, so I imagine that this means Dendrin must be happy with me and if he's happy with me, he's gotta be happy with you right?"

You see Talia temporarily smile, but then this drops as quickly as it appears. In fact the expression on her face looks even sadder if that was possible.

"What the hell, I would've thought that this would've snapped you out of this long time depression you've been in."
"I wish it did (sob) but instead it only confirms what I think the problem has been all along. (sob)." Talia weeps.
"I don't understand."
"I should've told you before…"
"What?! What should you have told me?"
"You were never the problem, it was me! (sob) I wasn't good enough! (sob)"
"Talia, you need to calm yourself, and explain what you're going on about."
"Dendrin, he speaks to you. He always has, regardless of your thoughts and beliefs about him he obviously sees the greatness in you. You couldn't have been problem."
"Are…are you talking about getting pregnant? Talia, you don't know that. I mean I probably have pissed off Dendrin on some level, and just because I got some of my magic back doesn't mean he's going to suddenly…"

Talia interrupts you.
"No! You don't understand! I've tried this before and it didn't work! I betrayed our vow! Our bond! And Dendrin is punishing me for not being patient with you!"

This revelation causes a dead silence from you. It certainly wasn't something you were expecting. You feel like you should be angry and you are, but you've got more questions first.

"Wait so you had sex with someone else? When? It can't have been recently unless you've been sneaking off to Sinkhole while I've been killing Empire soldiers."
"No, not recently. It was during the five years we weren't together. I don't know what sort of emotions you went through while we were apart, but I went through a lot. Kept them bottled up for the most part, but they were still there. I loved you, but after you left I saw all our future plans disappear. It was devastating. For the first couple of years I held out hope that maybe somehow you'd return, but then I realized you wouldn't. So I thought I had to move on in my life and alter my future plans with someone else."
"So…what then? You fucked an entire barrack of shadows?"
"Please! This is hard enough for me without you being judgmental and hostile!"
"You know what Talia, I'm mad, but I guess I'm not really surprised. I mean you placed your faith in Dendrin over me, so why not someone else?"
"I did not! Yes it is true that my faith in Dendrin will always be stronger, but I didn't place my love for you under anyone else. I've never loved any other person except you! (sob) And I wasn't fucking an entire barrack of shadows! I picked ONE. One that seemed strong and fairly intelligent. One that looked like he'd sire a strong child. One I thought might prove to be a suitable father even if he was a poor substitute for you. And I only did that, because I wanted the shadows to start preparing strong stock for the next generation of Dendrin worshippers, because I knew Cyrus wasn't going to be able to fucking do it!"

You rub your hand over your face. It always comes back to Dendrin. Why and how you fell in love with a religious fanatic is a mystery to you, but the fact is you are and despite this revelation, you really can't stay mad at her. And really for all intents and purposes you weren't a couple for those five years despite the fact that you might've pined over her a couple times. She probably did the same; she just did it in her own way.

You almost ask who guy was, but you don't bother. You probably don't know him or if you did, you probably don't remember him since all the shadows you knew from the old days in Gloom are pretty much a blur to you now. Besides it's not like you're going to travel all the way to Rask just to satisfy some macho need to kick his teeth in. The poor bastard is still living under Cyrus' rule anyway, not much more you could do to him, assuming he is still alive in the first place.

That just leaves you to deal with Talia, which you aren't sure what to do. Her sadness and depression isn't just a result of her perception of betraying you, it's also her overall perception that she believes she isn't worthy in Dendrin's eyes. Personally, you think if Dendrin is even paying attention to this little drama at all he's probably having a good laugh. Your own view here doesn't matter, so you do what you've been doing. Fake it.

"Talia, have you ever considered that maybe Dendrin has decided that now is not the time for you to have children?" you ask.
"What do you mean?" she replies sniffling.
"Well I mean wartime isn't exactly the best time to have children. The Empire is still out for our blood and we have to remain alert. Harder to fight if you're carrying a baby in your belly. You said Dendrin was the one who started the seeds of this rebellion, maybe he wants you…us to help finish it before blessing us with children which we can raise a lot better when we don't have arrows flying at our heads."

This explanation, this rationale, this excuse causes Talia to reassess her thoughts. You watch her for a moment mentally thinking about how she's going to fit this into her perception of the world.

"Do you really think that's the reason?" she asks.
"I think it could be, but then I don't presume to know Dendrin's grand plan."
"Oh no, nobody could… but still it makes sense. Yes, I can see the wisdom in that plan."
"It is a wise plan. So, are you starting to feel a bit better?"
"Yes, I suppose so. I really shouldn't have let myself get like this in the first place. I should've had more faith in Dendrin. If I had, I wouldn't have become weak like this!"
"Don't worry about it now, I'm sure this happened for a reason too. Everything is over and done with and whatever happened in the past is in the past."

This statement seems to be the last one that gets her out of her dark mood. As she hugs you, you breathe a sigh of relief that you managed to convince her. Actually you aren't really sure if you did convince her, so much as she took your offer of something to support her mental defenses on facing possible reality.

This problem might pop up again if you actually succeed in toppling the Empire, but given that you still have a lot to do before that's a reality, you won't have to worry about Talia's self-doubt again.