And I realize, I think, the way I was feeling that way, is on a really deep gut level, I was feeling a lot of shame and embarrassed, frankly, that, in some respects, I had failed at delivering what I'm genetically engineered to do.
I shvaćam, mislim, način na koji sam se osjećala, je doista na razini instinkta, osjećala sam mnogo srama -- posramljena, iskreno -- da, sam u nekim pogledima, doživjela neuspjeh proizvesti ono za što sam genetski predispozirana proizvesti.