I invited him to talk because I felt like I needed the closure for me to start letting go and for me to be free from the guilt and the pain. Ironically, we did it during Valentine’s Day which I guess made things worse for me. The moment I saw him, my heartbeat accelerated and it felt like it’s gonna burst right out of my chest. I realized how much I missed him and it made me sad. I told him everything that I’ve been keeping in my heart and I got all the explanations that I needed from him. I must’ve looked like a complete idiot crying in the middle of a mall while there were lots of couples happily celebrating the special day but I wasn’t able to stop the tears from flowing because of the unimaginable pain and frustration.
Nakapila na ako para sa physical exam, napakatagal kaya’t nauna matapos si Ian na ibang doktor ang nagcheck-up. Sinabi niya sa akin na wala naman daw pinagawa sa kanya. Nakichismis lang daw ang doctor sa kanyang buhay at pinahinga siya ng ilang beses. Nakahinga ko ng maluwag dahil hindi pala totoo ang sabi-sabi na paghuhubarin ka sa physical exam sa Yupi. Nang tawagin ang aking numero ay dali-dali akong pumasok sa pintuan at doon ay nakita ko ang matandang doktora. Eto ang nangyari... Dra.: Lock the door! Take off your BLOUSE and your PANTS!