we talked about so many things. somehow, napaisip din ako. is something that's too good to be true meant to last? that's what really bothers me about being in a relationship. narealize ko, kaya din ako takot magkarelasyon ay dahil natatakot ako na matapos un kagad. im just afraid to get hurt. pag may taong napapalapit sakin or nageexpress ng fondness para sakin, gusto ko na kagad malaman kung may intention tlga sha sakin kasi natatakot ako na baka mahulog ako sa kanya tapos di rin pala naman niya ako sasaluhin. it already happened several times and i think im the one who really has a problem with myself. i don't know. siguro yung susunod na guy na magugustuhan ko or mageexpress ng fondness para sakin, magbabakasakali nalang ako that things might turn out well if stop becoming paranoid. maybe it's time to take risks. im just going to let things happen....who knows... --- still not over the "dreaded thing".
naiinis ako kase hindi nabibili ang tiwala. kaya pag binabalewala lang ng ibang tao, di mo na mabibili ulet. i don't know if it's a gift or what, ang lakas talaga ng radar ko sa ganyan. ang weird kasi e. pwede naman itanong sakin kase sasabihin ko naman. ay ewan. bwisit.