Its funny how I said to myself back then, that she was only going to be my bestfriend, nothing else... Funny that I told her about my fantasies about other girls, while the best one was right under my nose. It took me graduation and the freshman year of college to realize that, yeah I crossed the thin red line. It was already different ever since, maybe I just didn't take notice of it since I was busy becoming the best bestfriend there ever was for her.... Only a select few know about this, about how much she really meant to me. About how much I will go out of my way just to protect her and keep her safe.. For me, no matter how much I do, I still know I give her something better. I always wanted to give my best.. Its just rather sad that, she doesn't see it.. Or maybe she sees it but doesn't tell it to me...
marami akong nagunita noong panahong iyon na nagbibisita kami. malaki na rin pala ang pinagbago ko simula noong nagtapos ako sa mataas na paaralan. naisip kong nakakatuwa sigurong magkita kami ng aking sarili noong mga panahon ng high school. ano kaya mapapag-usapan namin? parang tanga lang siguro yun na kausap ko ang sarili ko. pero sa tingin ko, kung nagkausap kami, marami akong ipapayo sa kanya. para matuwid yung mga kalokohan ko sa buhay. para maayos nya yung pag-aaral nya ng 3rd yr dahil dun pala nakasalalay yung UP application ko. haha sana nasa mabilis na daan ako tungo sa medisina. kaso mukhang hindi ganun ang gusto ng tadhana para sa akin. hindi ko naman sinisisi yun, dahil totoo namang marami akong natutunan, nakilala at nakita sa kakaibang daan na binigay sa akin ng tadhana.