i know him very well. so well that i always have a gut feel whenever something is not right with him. that night, i went to work not thinking what has happened. denial perhaps. or plain numbness. or i knew we will work it out after we have cooled down. of course we had countless of fights or petty quarrels. the only difference with this one was he declared break-up. which took me by surprise because all this time he kept on saying that i'm the vulnerable one and that i'll be the one to give up.
alam ko mali. na hindi nakakatulong sa relasyon namin lalo na pitong buwan pa lang kami pero ganun lang talaga siguro ako. at kahit ilang milyong beses niyang sabihin na walang magkakagusto sa matabang tulad niya, hindi ako naniniwala. kahit ipagpilitan niyang ang hanap ng majority ng mga becky ay gym fit, hindi ko maiiwasang mag-alala na may lumalandi sa kanya. oo, selfish talaga ako. madrama pa.