i believe that we only love once in our life. the belief of destiny, points only to one person we never stopped loving. they stay, like leeches in your brain. fighting for dear life to hold on. time passes and we move on, or so we thought. until you see him/her again. they start to wreck havoc on your mind, on your being. and you start asking yourself, what went wrong? what could have you done differently? then you brush them off. convincing yourself that you have moved on. so you date. you try to meet other people. but you end up comparing that person to your 1st. and with sadness, they compare miserably. you start to devise a plan to relive everything. to have one more chance. but at the last moment you back out. finally admitting to yourself that you've had your chance and blew it. you just can't take the risk. you know that it will destroy you, your dreams and everything you have. you end up unhappy.
gabi kami ng dumating sa hotel na pinagstayan namin sa siem reap. ako ang nag arrange ng trip na to so pati ang pick up ako na ang bahala. hindi nila alam na yung sa guest house at ako ay nagusap lang sa email. mga tipong 3 dyas before kaming dumating dun ang last conversation namin. so nung malapit na kami sa siem reap panic mode ang lola nyo as in! kse hindi ko alam kung nagkaintindihan kami or what. di ba? pagbaba namin ng bus galing HCMC ayan na moment of truth na. halos lahat ng kasama namin sa bus may pick up as in malalaking sign board parang sinlaki ng mga advert sa EDSA! ahahaha. at wala akong makita under my name her excellency beatriz. full blown panic attack ito! ng sa corner may nakasulat na ROXAS sa isang kapirasong papel. sashay agad agad sa kuyang may tangan ng papel sabay ask kung taga Victory sila. at tumpak sya na ang aming pick up! to be fair nainting-dihan nila ako I wanna cry! ahahahaha.