Despite of the shocking abuse I suffered in the hands of the very loving shepherds, despite of the extreme persecution, abandonment and betrayal that I received from my own JW relatives and from the Organization itself, me and my husband (just got married at that time) decided to humble ourselves and transfer to a new congregation which eased all our worries away by promising us things that they all eventually failed to do. As you will read on my previous essay, the elders in the congregation where we transferred to betrayed us and treated us harshly when our powerful enemies, my abusers from Bethel and the other leading men in Bethel itself with the blessing of someone who is now a Governing Body member, pressured the elders in our congregation to persecute and blackmail us to drop the charges I filed against my abusers.
Kaya naman hindi ko na po makakayanan o magagawa na tiisin pa ang sunod sunod na panggigipit sa amin ng nilipatan naming kongregasyon na iyon at hindi na rin po kami mapapatibay at makikinabang kung paulit ulit lang nila kaming lilitising parang mga pusakal na kriminal tuwing matatapos ang mga pagpupulong, pariringgan sa mga pahayag at hindi na kakausapin ng mga kapatid. Kung tutuusin ano po ba ang kasalanan ko? Bakit ako pa ang nilalayuan, bakit kami pa?