Recently I kept glancing at the window a hundred times with the same scene and people I see everyday, getting my hopes up that soon I'd find the answer to all these questions. I feel disabled of many things in life. But somehow, I learned that it's not worth to ask the same question over and over. What we ask do not equate of what we need, and I clearly know how it's distinct from one another. There are no problems resolved without solutions as it would end the same way. If only someone could counterclaim every bit of my misdoubts and suspicions in this crucial world, I could have been less of a dread man. With those left unanswered, it made me strong in a way.
siguro ang pinakamaling nagawa ko eh hindi ako pumunta sa araw ng birthday niya. wala kasi akong pera nun tsaka hindi ko alam tinatamad ako nung araw yun. dinahilan ko na lang na hindi ako pinayagan umalis. tadtad ako ng sorry sa text at sabi niya na malungkot siya pero late kung magreply at halos wala. tinanong ko kung galit siya hindi daw. later that day nalaman ko na lang na pumunta pala si karibal nagsimba silang dalawa at nagkaron ng small party kasama dormmates.