# Leveling Up in Rationality: A Personal Journey

See also: [Reflections on rationality a year out](/lw/50p/reflections_on_rationality_a_year_out/)

My favorite part of _Lord of the Rings_ was [skipped](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Scouring_of_the_Shire#Adaptations) in both film adaptations. It occurs when our four hobbit heroes (Sam, Frodo, Merry and Pippin) return to the Shire and learn it has been taken over by a gang of ruffians. Merry assumes Gandalf will help them free their home, but Gandalf declines:

> I am not coming to the Shire. You must settle its affairs yourselves; that is what you have been trained for... My dear friends, you will need no help. You are grown up now. Grown indeed very high...

As it turns out, the hobbits _have_ acquired many powers along their journey — powers they use to lead a resistance and free the Shire.

That is how I felt when I flew home for the holidays this December. Minnesota wasn't ruled by ruffians, but the familiar faces and places reminded me of the person I had been [before](/lw/7dy/a_rationalists_tale/) I moved away, just a few years ago.

And I'm just _so_ much more powerful than I used to be.

And in _my_ case, at least, many of my newfound powers seem to come from having seriously leveled up in _rationality_.

####   

#### Power 0: Curiosity

I was always "curious," by which I mean I _felt_ like I wanted to know things. I read lots of books and asked lots of questions. But I didn't _really_ want to know the truth, [because](/lw/96j/what_curiosity_looks_like/) I didn't care enough about the truth to study, say, [probability theory](http://yudkowsky.net/rational/bayes) and the cognitive science of [how we deceive ourselves](/r/lesswrong/lw/7e5/the_cognitive_science_of_rationality/). I just studied different Christian theologies — and, when I was _really_ daring, different supernatural religions — and told myself _that_ was what honest truth-seeking [looked like](/lw/96j/what_curiosity_looks_like/).

It took _20 years_ for reality to pierce my comfortable, carefully cultivated bubble of Christian indoctrination. But when it finally popped, I realized I had (mostly) wasted my life thus far, and I was _angry_. Now I studied things not just for the pleasure of discovery and the gratifying _feeling_ of caring about truth, but because I _really_ wanted an accurate model of the world so I wouldn't do stupid things like waste two decades of life.

And it was this curiosity, more than anything else, that led to everything else. So long as I burned for reality, I was bound to level up.

#### Power 1: Belief Propagation

One factor that helped religion cling to me for so long was my ability to compartmentalize, to shield certain parts of my beliefs from attack, to apply different standards to different beliefs like [the scientist outside the laboratory](/lw/gv/outside_the_laboratory/). When genuine curiosity tore down those walls, it didn't take long for the implications of my atheism to propagate. I noticed that [contra-causal free will](http://www.naturalism.org/freewill.htm) made no sense for the same reasons God made no sense. I noticed that whatever value existed in the universe was made of atoms. I assumed [the basics of transhumanism](http://intelligence.org/blog/2007/06/16/transhumanism-as-simplified-humanism/) without knowing there was a thing called "transhumanism." I noticed that minds didn't need to be made of meat, and that machines could be made more moral than humans. (I called them "[artificial superbrains](http://commonsenseatheism.com/?p=1924)" at the time.) I [noticed](http://commonsenseatheism.com/?p=7124) that scientific progress could actually be _bad_, because it's easier to destroy the world than to protect it. I also noticed we should therefore "encourage scientific research that saves and protects lives, and discourage scientific research that may destroy us" — and this was _before_ I had read about existential risk and "[differential technological development](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Differential_technological_development)."

Somehow, I didn't notice that naturalism + scientific progress also implied [intelligence explosion](http://intelligenceexplosion.com/). I had to _read_ that one. But when I did, it set off [another round](/lw/8ib/connecting_your_beliefs_a_call_for_help/) of rapid belief updates. I noticed that the entire world could be lost, that moral theory was [an urgent engineering problem](http://commonsenseatheism.com/?p=14013), that technological utopia is actually possible (however unlikely), and more.

The power of belief propagation gives me clarity of thought and coherence of action. My actions are now less likely to be informed by multiple incompatible beliefs, though this still occurs _sometimes_ due to [cached thoughts](/lw/k5/cached_thoughts/).

#### Power 2: Scholarship

I was always one to look things up, but before my deconversion my scholarship heuristic seems to have been "Find something that shares most of my assumptions and tells me roughly what I want to hear, filled with lots of evidence to reassure me of my opinion." That's not what I _thought_ I was doing at the time, but looking back at my reading choices, that's what it _looks_ like I was doing.

After being taken by genuine curiosity, my heuristic became something more like "Check what the mainstream scientific consensus is on the subject, along with the major alternative views and most common criticisms." Later, I added qualifications like "But watch out for [signs](/lw/4ba/some_heuristics_for_evaluating_the_soundness_of/) that an entire field of inquiry is fundamentally unsound."

The power of _looking shit up_ proved to have enormous practical value. How could I make _Common Sense Atheism_ popular, quickly? I studied how to build blog traffic, applied the major lessons, and within 6 months I had one of the most popular atheism blogs on the internet. How could I improve my success with women? I skim-read dozens of books on the subject, filtered out the best advice, applied it (after much trepidation), and eventually had enough success that I didn't need to worry about it anymore. What are values, and how do they work? My search lead me from [philosophy](http://www.amazon.com/Three-Faces-Desire-Philosophy-Mind/dp/019517237X/) to [affective neuroscience](http://www.amazon.com/Pleasures-Affective-Science-Morten-Kringelbach/dp/0195331028/) and finally to [neuroeconomics](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neuroeconomics), where I hit the jackpot and wrote [A Crash Course in the Neuroscience of Human Motivation](/lw/71x/a_crash_course_in_the_neuroscience_of_human/). How could I be happier? I studied [the science of happiness](/lw/4su/how_to_be_happy/), applied its lessons, and went from occasionally suicidal to stably happy. How could I make the Singularity Institute more effective?  I studied non-profit management and fundraising, and am currently (with lots of help) doing [quite a lot](http://intelligence.org/blog/2012/01/16/singularity-institute-progress-report-december-2011/) to make the organization more efficient and credible.

My most useful scholarship win had to do with beating akrasia. Eliezer wrote [a post](/lw/3kv/working_hurts_less_than_procrastinating_we_fear/) about procrastination that drew from personal anecdote but not a single experiment. This prompted me to write [my first post](/lw/3m3/the_neglected_virtue_of_scholarship/), which suggested he ought to have done a bit of research on procrastination, so he could stand on the shoulders of giants. A simple Google scholar search on "[procrastination](http://scholar.google.com/scholar?as_q=procrastination&num=10&as_epq=&as_oq=&as_eq=&as_occt=any&as_sauthors=&as_publication=&as_ylo=&as_yhi=&as_sdt=1&as_sdtf=&as_sdts=5&btnG=Search+Scholar&hl=en)" turned up a recent "meta-analytic and theoretical review" of the field as the 8th result, which pointed me to the resources I used to write [How to Beat Procrastination](/lw/3w3/how_to_beat_procrastination/). Mastering that post's algorithm for beating akrasia might be the most useful thing I've ever done, since it empowers everything else I try to do.

#### Power 3: Acting on Ideas

Another lesson from my religious deconversion was that _abstract ideas have consequences_. Because of my belief in the supernatural, I had spent 20 years (1) studying theology instead of math and science, (2) avoiding sexual relationships, and (3) training myself in fantasy-world "skills" like prayer and "sensing the Holy Spirit." If I wanted to benefit from having a more _accurate_ model of the world as much as I had been harmed by having a false model, I'd need to actually _act_ in response to the most probable models of the world I could construct.

Thus, when I realized I didn't like the Minnesota cold and could be happy without seeing my friends and family that often, I threw all my belongings in my car and moved to California. When I came to take intelligence explosion seriously, I quit my job in L.A., moved to Berkeley, interned with the Singularity Institute, worked hard, got hired as a researcher, and was later appointed Executive Director.

#### Winning with Rationality

These are just a few of my rationality-powers. Yes, I could have gotten these powers another way, but in my case they seemed to flow largely from that first [virtue of rationality](http://yudkowsky.net/rational/virtues): [genuine curiosity](/lw/96j/what_curiosity_looks_like/). Yes, I've compressed my story and made it sound less messy than it really was, but I do believe I've been gaining in rationalist power — [the power of agency](/lw/5i8/the_power_of_agency/), [systematized winning](/lw/7i/rationality_is_systematized_winning/) — and that my life is much better as a result. And yes, _most_ people won't get these results, due to [things like akrasia](/lw/9p/rationality_its_not_that_great/), but maybe if we [figure out](/lw/5x8/teachable_rationality_skills/) how to [teach the unteachable](/lw/l/teaching_the_unteachable/), [those chains won't hold us anymore](/lw/99t/can_the_chain_still_hold_you/).

What does a Level 60 rationalist look like? Maybe [Eliezer Yudkowsky](http://yudkowsky.net/) + [Tim Ferris](http://www.fourhourworkweek.com/blog/)? That sounds like a worthy goal! A few dozen people_ that_ powerful might be able to, like, [save the world](http://lukeprog.com/SaveTheWorld.html) or something.