# On Resolving the Great Matter

It was July 30th, 2023. I had spent the last several days in sesshin with my sangha at [Bay Zen Center](https://www.bayzen.org/). Physically exhausted from the effort, I came home and collapsed on the couch. I spent a couple hours watching TV, catching up on Twitter, and then, at about three in the afternoon, I stood up, looked out the window, gazed deeply at a particular branch on a particular tree, and finally resolved the Great Matter.

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What’s the Great Matter? It’s the question you can’t answer. It’s the fear you feel when you contemplate your own death. It’s the void lurking at the center of your existence, and no matter how hard you try, you can’t see into it. You’ve lived with it for as long as you can remember, fighting against its friction with your every action. It can’t be pointed at directly, but you know it’s there because it’s in the place you can’t look.

That’s all rather mysterious, and thankfully some people have managed to grapple with the Great Matter enough to say a little more. They often talk about non-dual experience, of crossing the divide between the relative and the absolute. They say things like there’s no separate self and that all is impermanent. And if they’ve read the right [websites](https://www.lesswrong.com/), they [might](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/DvjJoxP6f79G9iAbE/enlightenment-ama) even describe the Great Matter as the contradiction inherent in the [intuitive self-model](https://www.lesswrong.com/s/qhdHbCJ3PYesL9dde/p/7tNq4hiSWW9GdKjY8), and say that to resolve the Great Matter is to have the [insights](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/tMhEv28KJYWsu6Wdo/kensh) that [transition](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/GvJe6WQ3jbynyhjxm/intuitive-self-models-6-awakening-enlightenment-pnse) you into a persistent, non-symbolic experience of existence (PNSE).

Or, in short, to resolve the Great Matter is to become enlightened.

But the longer it’s been since the Great Matter was resolved, the less I like the word “enlightened”. I did [a whole video essay about it](https://www.uncertainupdates.com/p/the-trouble-with-enlightenment), but in short, the main problem is that “enlightenment” implies a permanent state of attainment and carries misguided cultural connotations. Other words like “awakened” drop some of that cultural baggage, but unfortunately keep the attainment framing.

And you might be saying to yourself, why would an attainment framing be bad? Clearly something has been attained! But, the only thing attained is a resolution of the Great Matter itself, which is the act of having an insight and having that insight spread deeply through your entire being, nothing more. The rest has to come later. All that resolving the Great Matter does is remove the obstacle that was blocking the way on the path to freedom from suffering.

And if you want to be free of suffering, you have to put in the work. First, you have to put in the work to resolve the Great Matter, which often involves untraining many of your maladaptive habits. It requires grappling with your addictions, your traumas, your hangups, and your insecurities. And then, after the Great Matter is resolved, you have to continue that work, but now on a deeper, more subtle level than was possible before. It does feel easier, because you no longer have to deal with both the habituated mind and the Great Matter, but that feeling itself can become a trap that will ensnare you if you aren’t careful.

Now, some people who resolve the Great Matter do so while living in a monastery or hermitage, or move to one after such resolving. In such a place, one has the opportunity to minimize decision making and planning. And when there’s no decisions to make, there’s no need to model the self, and so the constructed self-model can be let go and forgotten, replaced by a mind that only concerns itself with this moment. That can be nice, especially if done for a limited time to strengthen one’s practice, but it comes at the cost of helping the world.

To help the world, you have to live in it, and that means constructing a self-model to make the [predictions](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/JYsSbtGd2MoGbHdat/book-review-being-you-by-anil-seth) necessary to plan and take actions. The best one who has resolved the Great Matter can do, if they are committed to benefitting all beings, is to find a way to live holding that self-model lightly. To see, in each moment, that the self and the not-self views are equally real, for both are needed to tackle the great many challenges facing our world.

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I’ve left out many details you’d probably like to know. That’s because I write this post with some hesitation. Although this is not the first time I’ve publicly admitted to being “enlightened”, it is the least obscure and most easily found. But I decided to take the risk, because I feel that it’s been long enough that I can speak confidently of my own experiences, however they are labeled, and because by speaking about those experiences, I may be able to help others.

When I had not yet resolved the Great Matter, I was very confused about it. Some people wrote some [straightforward things](https://www.mctb.org/) that were confusing. Other people wrote [confusing things](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sh%C5%8Db%C5%8Dgenz%C5%8D) that were straightforward. I needed all the help I could get from others pointing the way for me. Now it’s my turn to help others by pointing. This is one attempt, and I hope it proves useful.