# Pattern-botching: when you forget you understand

It’s all too easy to let a false understanding of something replace your actual understanding. Sometimes this is an oversimplification, but it can also take the form of an over_complication_. I have an illuminating story:

Years ago, when I was young and foolish, I found myself in a particular romantic relationship that would later end for [epistemic reasons](http://malcolmocean.com/2013/02/astrology-againstness-video/), when I was slightly less young and slightly less foolish. Anyway, this particular girlfriend of mine was very into healthy eating: raw, organic, home-cooked, etc. During her visits my diet would change substantially for a few days. At one point, we got in a tiny fight about something, and in a not-actually-desperate chance to placate her, I semi-jokingly offered: “I’ll go vegetarian!”

“I don’t care,” she said with a sneer.

…and she didn’t. She wasn’t a vegetarian. Duhhh... I knew that. We’d made some ground beef together the day before.

So what was I thinking? Why did I say “I’ll go vegetarian” as an attempt to appeal to her values?

(I’ll invite you to take a moment to come up with your own model of why that happened. You don't have to, but it can be helpful for evading hindsight bias of obviousness.)

(Got one?)

Here's my take: I pattern-matched a bunch of actual preferences she had with a general "healthy-eating" cluster, and then I went and pulled out something random that felt vaguely associated. It's telling, I think, that I don't even explicitly _believe_ that vegetarianism is healthy. But to my pattern-matcher, they go together nicely.

I'm going to call this **pattern-botching**.† Pattern-botching is when you pattern-match a thing "X", as following a certain model, but then implicit queries to that model return properties that aren't true about X. What makes this different from just having false beliefs is that you _know_ the truth, but you're forgetting to use it because there's a botched model that is easier to use.

†Maybe this already has a name, but I've read a lot of stuff and it feels like a distinct concept to me.

Examples of pattern-botching
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So, that's pattern-botching, in a nutshell. Now, examples! We'll start with some simple ones.

Calmness and pretending to be a zen master
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In my [Againstness Training video](http://malcolmocean.com/2013/02/astrology-againstness-video/), past!me tries a bunch of things to calm down. In the pursuit of "calm", I tried things like...

*   dissociating
*   trying to imitate a zen master
*   speaking really quietly and timidly

None of these are the desired state. The desired state is present, authentic, and can project well while speaking assertively.

But that would require actually being in a different state, which to my brain at the time seemed hard. So my brain constructed a pattern around the target state, and said "what's easy and looks vaguely like this?" and generated the list above. Not as a list, of course! That would be too easy. It generated each one individually as a plausible course of action, which I then tried, and which Val then called me out on.

Personality Types
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I'm quite gregarious, extraverted, and generally unflappable by noise and social situations. Many people I know describe themselves as HSPs (Highly Sensitive Persons) or as very introverted, or as "not having a lot of [spoons](http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/)". These concepts are related—or perhaps not related, but at least correlated—but they're not the same. And even if these three terms _did_ all mean the same thing, individual people would still vary in their needs and preferences.

Just this past week, I found myself talking with an HSP friend L, and noting that I didn't really know what her needs were. Like I knew that she was easily startled by loud noises and often found them painful, and that she found motion in her periphery distracting. But beyond that... yeah. So I told her this, in the context of a more general conversation about her HSPness, and I said that I'd like to learn more about her needs.

L responded positively, and suggested we talk about it at some point. I said, "Sure," then added, "though it would be helpful for me to know just this one thing: how would you feel about me asking you about a specific need in the middle of an interaction we're having?"

"I would love that!" she said.

"Great! Then I suspect our future interactions will go more smoothly," I responded. I realized what had happened was that I had conflated L's HSPness with... something else. I'm not exactly sure what, but a preference for indirect communication, perhaps? I have another friend, who is also sometimes short on spoons, who I model as finding that kind of question stressful because it would kind of put them on the spot.

I've only just recently been realizing this, so I suspect that I'm still doing a ton of this pattern-botching with people, that I haven't specifically noticed.

Of course, having clusters makes it easier to have heuristics about what people will do, without knowing them too well. A loose cluster is better than nothing. I think the issue is when we _do_ know the person well, but we're still relying on this cluster-based model of them. It's telling that I was **not actually surprised** when L said that she would like it if I asked about her needs. On some level I kind of already knew it. But my botched pattern was making me doubt what I knew.

False aversions
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CFAR teaches a technique called "Aversion Factoring", in which you try to break down the reasons why you don't do something, and then consider each reason. In some cases, the reasons are sound reasons, so you decide not to try to force yourself to do the thing. If not, then you want to make the reasons go away. There are three types of reasons, with different approaches.

One is for when you have a legitimate issue, and you have to redesign your plan to avert that issue. The second is where the thing you're averse to is real but isn't actually bad, and you can kind of ignore it, or maybe use exposure therapy to get yourself more comfortable with it. The third is... when the outcome _would_ be an issue, but _it's not actually a necessary outcome of the thing_. As in, it's a fear that's vaguely associated with the thing at hand, but the thing you're afraid of isn't real.

All of these share a structural similarity with pattern-botching, but the third one in particular is a great example. The aversion is generated from a property that the thing you're averse to doesn't actually have. Unlike a miscalibrated aversion (#2 above) it's usually pretty obvious under careful inspection that the fear itself is based on a botched model of the thing you're averse to.

Taking the training wheels off of your model
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One other place this structure shows up is in the difference between what something looks like when you're learning it versus what it looks like once you've learned it. Many people learn to ride a bike while actually riding a four-wheeled vehicle: training wheels. I don't think anyone makes the mistake of thinking that the ultimate bike will have training wheels, but in other contexts it's much less obvious.

The remaining three examples look at how pattern-botching shows up in learning contexts, where people implicitly forget that they're only partway there.

Rationality as a way of thinking
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CFAR runs 4-day rationality workshops, which currently are evenly split between specific techniques and how to approach things in general. Let's consider what kinds of behaviours spring to mind when someone encounters a problem and asks themselves: "what would be a rational approach to this problem?"

*   someone with a really naïve model, who hasn't actually learned much about applied rationality, might pattern-match "rational" to "hyper-logical", and think "What Would Spock Do?"
*   someone who is somewhat familiar with CFAR and its instructors but who still doesn't know any rationality techniques, might complete the pattern with something that they think of as being archetypal of CFAR-folk: "What Would Anna Salamon Do?"
*   CFAR alumni, especially new ones, might pattern-match "rational" as "using these rationality techniques" and conclude that they need to "goal factor" or "use trigger-action plans"
*   someone who _gets_ rationality would simply apply that particular structure of thinking to their problem

In the case of a bike, we see hundreds of people biking around without training wheels, and so that becomes the obvious example from which we generalize the pattern of "bike". In other learning contexts, though, most people—including, sometimes, the people at the leading edge—are still in the early learning phases, so the training wheels are the rule, not the exception.

So people start thinking that the figurative bikes are supposed to have training wheels.

Incidentally, this can also be the grounds for strawman arguments where detractors of the thing say, "Look at these bikes \[with training wheels\]! How are you supposed to get anywhere on them?!"

Effective Altruism
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We potentially see a similar effect with topics like Effective Altruism. It's a movement that is still in its infancy, which means that _nobody_ has it all figured out. So when trying to answer "How do I be an effective altruist?" our pattern-matchers might pull up a bunch of examples of things that EA-identified people have been commonly observed to do.

*   donating 10% of one's income to a strategically selected charity
*   going to a coding bootcamp and switching careers, in order to Earn to Give
*   starting a new organization to serve an unmet need, or to serve a need more efficiently
*   supporting the Against Malaria Fund

...and this generated list might be helpful for various things, but be wary of thinking that it represents what Effective Altruism _is_. It's possible—it's almost _inevitable_—that we don't actually know what the most effective interventions are yet. We will potentially never actually know, but we can expect that in the future we will generally know more than at present. Which means that **the current sampling of good EA behaviours likely does not actually even cluster around the ultimate set of behaviours we might expect.**

Creating a new (platform for) culture
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At my intentional community in Waterloo, we're building a new culture. But that's actually a by-product: our goal isn't to build this particular culture but to build a platform on which many cultures can be built. It's like how as a company you don't just want to be building the product but rather building the company itself, or "the machine that builds the product,” as Foursquare founder Dennis Crowley puts it.

What I started to notice though, is that we started to confused the particular, _transitionary_ culture that we have at our house, with either (a) the particular, target culture, that we're aiming for, or (b) the more abstract range of cultures that will be constructable on our platform.

So from a training wheels perspective, we might totally eradicate words like "should". I did this! It was really helpful. But once I had removed the word from my idiolect, it became unhelpful to still be treating it as being a touchy word. Then I heard my mentor use it, and I remembered that the point of removing the word _wasn't_ to not ever use it, but to train my brain to think without a particular structure that "should" represented.

This shows up on much larger scales too. Val from CFAR was talking about a particular kind of fierceness, "hellfire", that he sees as fundamental and important, and he noted that it seemed to be incompatible with the kind of culture my group is building. I initially agreed with him, which was kind of dissonant for my brain, but then I realized that hellfire was only incompatible with our _training_ culture, not _the entire set of cultures that could ultimately be built on our platform_. That is, engaging with hellfire would potentially interfere with the learning process, but it's not ultimately proscribed by our culture platform.

Conscious cargo-culting
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I think it might be helpful to repeat the definition:

> Pattern-botching is you pattern-match a thing "X", as following a certain model, but then but then implicit queries to that model return properties that aren't true about X. What makes this different from just having false beliefs is that you _know_ the truth, but you're forgetting to use it because there's a botched model that is easier to use.

It's kind of like if you were doing a cargo-cult, except you knew how airplanes worked.

_(Cross-posted from [malcolmocean.com](http://malcolmocean.com/2015/06/pattern-botching/))_