From: gregk@longs.LANCE.ColoState.Edu (Gregory Krueger)
Subject: Where do I go from here?
Date: Mon, 12 Oct 1992 02:35:11 GMT
Organization: Colorado State U. Engineering College

Greetings!
	I sent out a request last spring about what to do about this young
lady that I was totally in love with, but had no idea where she stood with 
me.  I recieved many replies, and I am grateful to all who replied.  Anyways,
she had me totally confused, and I am going to aviod most of the details 
because this could get very long, very fast, but just before we left for
our respective homes/jobs for the summer, things were going really well.
She got home well before I did, and she met a friend of mine and I as we were
driving through a city about 120 miles from her home.  I had to go back there
on business later that summer, and again she met me there.  Things seemed
like they were going really well.  I sent her flowers and a shirt for her 
birthday, and she really appreciated them.  I thought that things were
cool, and that we would be officially going out when we got back to school.

	Well, just the opposite happened.  Although we have some classes
together and see each other 5 times a week, things have been going miserably.
She has more or less rejected me almost every time that I ask her to go out
and do anything.  So, about 4 weeks ago, feeling really down on myself, I
decided to completely give up on her.  Well, almost imediately, as if she
noticed that I had lost all faith in her, things began to turn around,
and she began to once again act as if we were more than friends.  So, being
the idiot that I am, I jumped back in, thinking that things would turn out
alright.  Of course, they didn't.  Just last week, on Wednesday, we were
supposed to go to a concert, but when I found out that day that tickets were
sold out, I told her and asked if she wanted to go to a movie instead.  Her
reply was, "Call me later!"  We wound up not going to the movie, because she
was leaving on a short trip the next morning, and still had to finish packing.
So, I called her later to see if she wanted to go out and get something to
drink.  She said maybe, and that if she was going to go, she would meet me
at the bar.  She never showed up.  Well, I went to a different place to meet
some of my other friends and sit around and talk for a while.  After sitting
there for on hour or so, I noticed her at another table.  I had to leave
because my night had just been shot to hell.  On the way out, I noticed her
with TWO guys.  She didn't see me, fortunately, cuz I was damn near tears, and
I left.

	Once again I have decided to give up on her, and enter the race again.
I know that part of this mess is my fault, because I can't be completely 
honest with her for a number of reasons.  Mainly because we work together in 
the class we have together, and because she is my treasurer in College Council,
and I don't want to ruin either of those working relationships if she doesn't
feel the same way.

	Now that I have decided that a working realtionship is the only way
that I can survive with her, what do I do?  My head keeps telling me that I
am doing the right thing, but my heart keeps telling me that I souldn't just
let her go.  It's not in me to be an asshole to her either, because the last 
thing that I want to do is hurt her, but because I have to see her so often,
I can't just get up and walk away.  Unfortunately, I have never been this
"In love" with anyone else before, and I have no idea how to handle it.  I think
that the subject line in my first posting was "I'm so confused by all of this,"
which could probably be an appropiate one here too.  If anyone can offer me
any suggestions or comments, they would be greatly appreciated.  If you could
also email me anything that you post about this too, I would appreciate it,
as I don't get to check my news as often as I'd like, either.  

	Thanks, y'all!

Greg Krueger
gregk@longs.lance.colostate.edu


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