HDTenEightyP/NetNews huggingface dataset:
From: RSpitz@Anaesthesie.Medizin.Uni-Muenchen.DBP.DE (Richard Spitz)
Subject: Internet access in Ljubljana/Slovenia
Reply-To: rspitz@anaesthesie.medizin.uni-muenchen.dbp.de
Organization: Inst. f. Anaesthesiologie der LMU, Muenchen (Germany)
Date: Wed, 14 Oct 1992 14:07:47 GMT

Could anybody please give me a pointer towards internet access in Slovenia,
especially in Ljubljana?

Does the university have access, and if so, who is responsible for it there
and should be contacted about internet access?

Any help appreciated.

Richard
From: nacu@husc10.harvard.edu (Serban Nacu)
Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
Subject: East Germany access
Date: 12 Oct 92 17:21:09 GMT


I have a friend at Halle University in East Germany and I'm not able to
connect to their computers. There are two hosts listed in /etc/hosts.internet
but connection to them fails. Can anybody help me ? Thanks.
	Serban
From: denny.gentry@eng.sun.com (Denton Gentry)
Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
Subject: Email access in Nagoya, Japan
Date: 13 Oct 92 00:23:50 GMT
Reply-To: denny.gentry@eng.sun.com
Organization: Sun Microsystems, Inc.
NNTP-Posting-Host: cthulhu


  Is there a dialin email provider in Nagoya, Japan? Not a uucp feed, but somewhere 
one can get a mail account?

Denny Gentry
Sun Microsystems
From: aggedor@ccwf.cc.utexas.edu (The Monster of Peladon)
Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
Subject: ANY Internet access in 817 area code Wanted
Date: 7 Oct 92 13:52:46 GMT
Distribution: us
Organization: The University of Texas at Austin, Austin TX


I'm looking for local access to Internet in the 817 area code, covering the
Fort Worth Texas Metro area.  I'll take anything---even if it's just email.  

If some kind soul has any information, please email me.  Thanks.
Organization: Senior, Math/Computer Science, Carnegie Mellon, Pittsburgh, PA
Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
Date: Thu,  8 Oct 1992 20:55:02 -0400 
From: David Rothenberger <dr20+@andrew.cmu.edu>
Subject: Getting Access

I am working for a commercial software development company in the
Pittsburgh, PA area and they would like to obtain internet access.  How
is this done and who should I contact?

Thanks,
Dave Rothenberger
Healthcare Affiliated Services, Inc.
Pittsburgh, PA

Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
From: kknudsen@larson.helios.nd.edu (Keith Knudsen)
Subject: Olympia, WA
Followup-To: alt.internet.access.wanted
Organization: University of Notre Dame
Distribution: US
Date: Fri, 9 Oct 1992 04:40:06 GMT

I'm looking for local access to the internet for my parents.  If anyone
knows of an internet access site in Olympia
please send me email at kknudsen@darwin.cc.nd.edu

Thanks
Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
From: jwisdom@ais.org (Joseph Wisdom)
Subject: Re: Hope College Address?
Organization: UMCC
Distribution: usa
Date: Tue, 13 Oct 1992 20:25:03 GMT

zeller <zeller@mixcom.mixcom.com> writes:

>Does anyone know the address of Hope College (in Michagan)?  For that matter,
>is Hope connected to the internet?  Thanks.

Hope College is in Holland, MI.  Its main machine is smaug.cs.hope.edu
[35.197.146.1] so you can deduce that it is on the Internet.
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Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
From: svanbure@gucis.cit.gu.edu.au (Seth Van Buren)
Subject: Re: Internet/Email - Australia
Keywords: Access
Organization: Griffith University, Brisbane, Australia.
Date: Sat, 10 Oct 92 18:41:48 GMT

scholten@epg.nist.gov (Robert Scholten) writes:

>Is it possible to buy access to Internet, for Email purposes only, in Adelaide, Australia?  My father, an old-age pensioner, would like to gain email access but cost is a concern.

>If anyone can help, please reply to me at:
>   scholten@epg.nist.gov

>Thanks!

>-- 
>Rob Scholten
>(301) 975-3744  FAX (301) 926-2746
>scholten@epg.nist.gov
i	Somme universities Provide internet acces, for an upfront fee.  Although this fee is large ($500 per year), there are usually no other cost, other
than a local phone call to the server.  Try giving some uni's a buzz.  I know
my university provides this service, but I'm in brisbane and this wouldn't help.You might try getting an account on some other system, i.e. compuserve or fido-
net.  But these will probably cost to.
	Good luck!!!
Seth van Buren
email: svanbure@gucis.cit.gu.edu.au

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From: younus@iona.uk.sun.com (Younus Nabi - Sandwiche Student - Tse Edinburgh)
Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
Subject: Sony email address?
Date: 16 Oct 92 15:09:34 GMT
Reply-To: younus@iona.uk.sun.com
Organization: Sun Microsystems


Any one of an email address for Sony? 
Failing that a UK BBs or phone number please!
many thanks


Younus Nabi				younus.nabi@uk.sun.com
Edinurgh, Scotland
From: jpo@pfbs.philips.se (James Poole)
Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
Subject: Magnetic Island Australia !
Date: 13 Oct 92 17:29:16 GMT
Organization: Digital Equipment BCFI AB, Sweden

A friend of mine in sunny Australia asks :

Does any one know of any way to connect to Internet from
this far flung corner of the globe, or somewhere nearby.

Please reply to me if you can help

Thanks
James
Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
From: colinj@engin.umich.edu (Colin Johnson)
Subject: [REQUEST] Access in Deli, India
Date: Wed, 07 Oct 92 21:30:25 EDT
Organization: University of Michigan Engineering, Ann Arbor


	My friend is looking for interenet access when he returns to
Deli (India). If you know of any please let him know by email (he can't
read this group).

reply to Aditya.Sood@um.cc.umich.edu

Thanx

Colin J.
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Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
From: "greg cohen" <greg.cohen@canrem.com>
Subject: ftp sites
Reply-To: "greg cohen" <greg.cohen@canrem.com>
Organization: Canada Remote Systems
Distribution: alt
Date: 10 Oct 92 01:17:49 EST


Does anybody know of a list of FTP sites that can be obtained? Any
info is appreciated.

 Greg Cohen 
 Usenet-> greg.cohen@canrem.com 
      Fidonet -> 1:229/15       
 Member of CRS 
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Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
From: zeller <zeller@mixcom.mixcom.com>
Subject: Hope College Address?
Organization: Milwaukee Internet Xchange BBS, Milwaukee, WI U.S.A.
Distribution: usa
Date: Mon, 12 Oct 1992 22:21:57 GMT

Does anyone know the address of Hope College (in Michagan)?  For that matter,
is Hope connected to the internet?  Thanks.

	-Ben Zeller    zeller@mixcom.com

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From: cc458@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (George V. Chapek)
Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
Subject: Internet Access in 518 Area Code Wanted
Date: 7 Oct 1992 07:30:17 GMT
Organization: Case Western Reserve University, Cleveland, Ohio (USA)
NNTP-Posting-Host: thor.ins.cwru.edu


Looking for free Internet access in 518 area code, preferably in Albany,
Schenectady area.
Organization: Penn State University
Date: Wed, 14 Oct 1992 18:50:46 EDT
From: K-JAMZ <KPW104@psuvm.psu.edu>
Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
Subject: Edinboro U. P. Vax address

Does anyone happen to know the address for the Edinboro University of Penn.
vax? Please, help! I have asked nearly 500 people that same question!


                                                           -K-Jamz
----
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 Those who don't, will never know!"                       kpw104@psuvm
                                                  kpw104@psuvm.psu.edu
From: cg113@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (David Silver)
Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
Subject: Looking for access number in Chicago (312/708) area
Date: 8 Oct 1992 16:55:51 GMT
Organization: Case Western Reserve University, Cleveland, Ohio (USA)
NNTP-Posting-Host: hela.ins.cwru.edu


I am looking for an access number to internet , telnet, or freenet in the 708 or 312 area. Can anyone help?
Newsgroups: alt.internet.access.wanted
Subject: BackLogs Of News?
From: ngsippel@miavx2.ham.muohio.edu
Date: 14 Oct 92 10:51:00 EDT
Expires: 29 Oct 92 10:51:09 EDT
Distribution: usa
Organization: Watch Ren And Stimpy or Else!

Hello,

I am a new user to this group and need some info.

I currently have a 3-day newsfeed, but I would like to have up to a week.  Is
there someplace in Ohio (513 Calling Area) where I can telnet to so I can get
backlogs of News?

Thanx!

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Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: kovarik@UTKUX1.UTK.EDU (StMeechTheThwacked)
Subject: Re: ground zero
Organization: University of Tennessee Computing Center
Date: Wed, 7 Oct 1992 20:11:03 GMT

In article <1992Oct7.161026.9027@organpipe.uug.arizona.edu> rperkins@astro.as.arizona.edu (Rachel J. Perkins) writes:
>
>this is a notice:
>
>i am leaving sunny t00son for austin texas, land of sine nomine. please do 
>not nuke arizona to glass during this time, since i have to return. i thank
>you for your cooperation. it would be nice t come back to a glass-bottomed
>lake, so that i could sail in it in opaque-bottomed boats, but i must ask you
>to hold back on this occasion.
>

Would you perhaps more appreciate a dark, coarse surface like asphalt
with an appropriately high melting point, with just the right coefficient
of fricktion for roller skating?

>thank you for your attention. i now return you to your regularly scheduled
>angst.

CMT

						Meech
From: hobbs_a@kosmos.wcc.govt.nz (Anthony 'SCHWAibo' Hobbs)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: Peanuts, 10-12-92
Date: 13 Oct 92 13:34:38 NZST
Organization: ACCGEK, New Zealand
NNTP-Posting-Host: kosmos.wcc.govt.nz

In article <DUKE.92Oct12125343@portal.paperboy.osf.org>, duke@portal.paperboy.osf.org (Duke Robillard) writes:
 
> In an article, klein@frith.egr.msu.edu (Jeffrey Klein) writes:
> 
>    (I nominate CHARLIE BROWN as leader of alt.angst)
> 
> Angst was a term invented for the sickening fear of existence
> described by Munch, Keirkegard, and Beckett, and this clown
> thinks some cutsey cartoon character is an appropriate
> representative.

Allright, smart-arse, name one (count 'em) one character, fictional or
otherwise, who has more angst than Mr. Brown. He's not "cutesy". He's extremely
depressing, and, I think, rather appropriate. 
	
> Xibo is right, this group has gone to hell.

Xibo was deposed in the recent coup. I declare myself new resident -ibo of
alt.angst.  As my first proclamation, I declare two alt.angst mascots -
Vladimir and Estragon from "Waiting for Godot" for you pseudo-intellectual
angst-snobs, and Charlie Brown for the rest of us.

ObAngst: Allright, that's three alt.angst mascots. I can't count.

Bah. [{c} R. Perkins 1992]

			- SCHWA.
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"I have everything I need to know - 'Bob' told me so!"

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Chief Lord High Priest, ACCGEK - Hail Frozen Yoghurt - Snuggles Loves You
DISCLAIMER: I am not Romanian and was not head of the Securitate for 15 years.
Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: Bruce.Tindall@bbs.oit.unc.edu (Bruce Tindall)
Subject: Re: Arrogant Idiots
Organization: Extended Bulletin Board Service
Date: Thu, 8 Oct 1992 02:17:02 GMT

In article <1aj4sjINNeil@usenet.INS.CWRU.Edu> bs584@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (Jeanne Leidy) writes:
>>Mea saurus, mea saurus. Mea maxima saurus.
>I have no idea what this means.
 Well, if you don't know what it *literally* means, I can help.  It's a
takeoff on the phrase from the Latin Mass, "Mea culpa (etc.)", which means
"by my fault, by my fault, by my most grievous fault."  The actual quote
in question is a macaronic of Latin and Greek meaning "My lizard, my lizard,
my very big lizard."

If you don't know what it *means* means, ... well, yeah.


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From: brewer@eniac.seas.upenn.edu (marmoset)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: DAYBREAK!  I...survived!
Date: 11 Oct 92 16:38:21 GMT
Organization: University of Pennsylvania


Oh, glory of glories!  It's Sunday morning!  All of the angsters that I used 
to love to read are on planes and on Amtrack and in cars whizzing back to their
terminals where they shall become once again gloomy and fill my day with inter
esting reading for those (um) less than busy parts of my workday!  

Still, I'm awfully jealous.  I could have been relaxing at Sine's house, cooing
love poetry in her ear while sipping mimosas and nibbling on Nutter Butters...
Hmph.  Instead, I spent last night at with a college sophomore who "just
want[ed] to get stoned, man!" Eeeesh, I need new friends or some hobbies or
maybe just a good book to read...  "party at Pi-Lam, wanna go?"  Eeeesh!

I guess I'll say here (because it seems relevant) that whoever it was that
posted that all of the angst displayed on this board was not legitimate angst
at all, but really just frustration being vented by people who aren't in a 
social group that throws frequent parties is completely missing the point, as 
far I  understand it.  There are plenty of parties to go to.  But all those 
parties are full of the annoying, depressing, mindless twits that give me so 
much frustration every day when they're sober.  I have no desire to hang out
in a crowded area with those folks when they're drunk and talkative.  I think 
Austin sounds like bliss...





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marmoset
"green bottles!"
"BROWN BOTTLES!"
Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: sokay@cyclone.mitre.org (Stephen J. Okay)
Subject: Re: envy
Organization: Mitre Corporation, McLean, VA
Date: Sun, 11 Oct 1992 16:50:31 GMT

In article <92283.171022IDJMW@ASUACAD.BITNET> <IDJMW@ASUACAD.BITNET> writes:
>Envy! Austin! More Envy!
>
>left here in Arizona, questioning the meaning of life, wondering if it really
>doesn't DESERVE to be nuked this weekend, stranded in the desert with only red-
>necked cowboys and racists to talk to, and me a liberal democrat....

Cool!, Rachel left a replica persona in Az. while she's in Austin... :) :)

>my life is such a mess, while you people party hearty in texas, i'll drive
>up to sedona and find a psychic to explain everything to me while you guys are
>gone...
You don't have to go that far....just send me $20 and I'll explain it all to
you...(or kill me)

---Steve
-- 
Stephen Okay  sokay@mitre.org
"You see, I'm kind of this control freak who likes to create his own
personal hells before the real one can get to him. I like to beat hell
to hell so to speak".--Spalding Gray "Monster in a box"
From: bs584@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (Jeanne Leidy)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: I quit
Date: 8 Oct 92 01:59:53 GMT
Reply-To: bs584@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (Jeanne Leidy)
Organization: Case Western Reserve University, Cleveland, OH (USA)
NNTP-Posting-Host: slc10.ins.cwru.edu


In a previous article, dennis@alexia.lis.uiuc.edu (Thomas A. Dennis) says:

>In <1992Oct6.174617.25798@organpipe.uug.arizona.edu> 
>jlewis@astro.as.arizona.edu (Jeff Lewis) writes:

[hopelessness deleted...]


>So long, farewell, auf wiedersehn, goodbye.  Say hello to Mom and Dad
>when you get to the other side.

Show tunes, on alt.angst?  Some irony...



>Tom Dennis                    |  I looked into the abyss,
>dennis@alexia.uiuc.edu        |    and the abyss looked into me--
>tadg0614@uxa.cso.uiuc.edu     |      and we both winked.


Jeanne
From: xibo@fido.econ.arizona.edu (Mr. Coates)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: Peanuts, 10-12-92
Date: 13 Oct 92 10:52:47 GMT
	<DUKE.92Oct12125343@portal.paperboy.osf.org>
Organization: Xibological Perimeter

In article <DUKE.92Oct12125343@portal.paperboy.osf.org> duke@portal.paperboy.osf.org (Duke Robillard) writes:

#   In an article, klein@frith.egr.msu.edu (Jeffrey Klein) writes:
#
#      (I nominate CHARLIE BROWN as leader of alt.angst)
#
#   Angst was a term invented for the sickening fear of existence
#   described by Munch, Keirkegard, and Beckett, and this clown
#   thinks some cutsey cartoon character is an appropriate
#   representative.
#
#   Xibo is right, this group has gone to hell.

I've always preferred Eeyore.  Charlie Brown is too wishy-washy.  He
tries to be a happy person, and he's even portrayed as a happy person
in much of the cartoons.


Xibo
Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: kovarik@UTKUX1.UTK.EDU (StMeechTheThwacked)
Subject: Re: Angst music
Organization: University of Tennessee Computing Center
Date: Wed, 7 Oct 1992 20:30:00 GMT

In article <mhr-071092121502@orcas.slac.stanford.edu> 
mhr@slacvm.slac.stanford.edu (Mary Ross) writes:

>P.S.  Meech is back!  Hooray!

Actually, I am moderately inebriated, and napping in a cafe in Spain, having
a horrible nightmare!!!!

						Meech
From: dfqfrby@shoes.BELL-ATL.COM (Connor)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: I quit
Date: 9 Oct 92 19:06:26 GMT
Organization: Bell Atlantic NSI

In article <1992Oct9.005024.6810@microunity.com>, ericm@microunity.com (Eric Murray) writes:
> In article <BvtrEC.BAF@bagate.BELL-ATL.COM> dfqfrby@shoes.BELL-ATL.COM (Connor) writes:
> >
> >I just decided to stumble into this group because I stumbled
> >onto the net last week and was enjoying talk.bizarre. Then I
> >noticed a not so silent conspiracy of theirs to try licker.store
> >
> ..
> >
> >But there is another step to go from the disposition that
> >comes from recognizing that life is pointless. The next step
> >is absolute insanity.  I am not joking here.  A genuine
> >psychotic halucination.  If you get that far in your spiritual
> >development you will not have heeded my warning (or is it goading)
> >It will be derived from meeting someone who has suffered more
> >than you can ever imagine.... not recognizing that this is
> >the case and so not recognizing that this person is in advanced
> >stages of psychosis.... the real Norman Bates stuff.
> >And this person will tell you their insanity is mysticism.
> 
> You mean K*nt Paul Dolan is BACK!!???  Aaargh!
> 
> 
> >If someone would tell me the answer!
> 
> Life is pointless and painful, then you die.  Enjoy it while you can.
> 
> 
> --
That's my point I stumbled around for years with the life is pointless
attitude.  Not because hope says so but because ... well ... I don't
have to go into that.
The next stage of your development is going insane as a possible answer.
Then you realize that you are broader for it. but who knows why.
Love is the answer, you better hope it comes before the summer.
The trick is to know that as small as your reality is that it is
bigger than you can imagine. Or something like that so that you lower
the intrusion of yourself into the picture. That way nirvana ... etc.
There is no scale for success, believing in such a thing will be the
first failure.
The guy starving in the gutter may be more at peace. (probably not)
From: rperkins@astro.as.arizona.edu (Rachel J. Perkins)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: What the Hell is this?
Date: 14 Oct 92 23:58:58 GMT
Organization: University of Arizona, Tucson, AZ

In article <92288.162849IDJMW@ASUACAD.BITNET> IDJMW@ASUACAD.BITNET writes:
>This group? It's about hell. On earth. Or maybe just in Arizona.....
>

definitely arizona. mostly sunny t00son, but also the phoenix area. especially
tempe. which always makes me think of the french phrase "tant pis".

ObAngst: my dinner date is growing ever closer. and i am in turn becoming
more tired and boring. 

bah.

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Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: Arrogant Idiots
From: smithy@kenyon.edu
Date: 10 Oct 92 16:49:50 -0500
Reply-To: smithy@kenyon.edu
Organization: Kenyon College

In article <1992Oct7.210145.1908@gacvx2.gac.edu>, emiddlec@mora.gac.edu (Eric Middlecamp) writes:
> In article <81086@ut-emx.uucp>  writes:
>>DOG BASEBALL!!! (hennessy@acsu.buffalo.edu) wrote:
>>
>>: 	big thing I discovered early (and forget often):  unless you can be
>>: killed for what you do, it's not as important as your life.  
> 
> Ha. hhahahahahaha. I laugh at Satan. I laugh at sloth. hahaha. shoo.
> And yet I remain inactive. I must laugh. I laugh a nervous laugh. 
> Someday it will be

I laugh at everything.  I think it's all funny, and that it's even more fun to
sit back and laugh at it all.  I found out I was co-dependent last week in a
training session to counsel battered children.  I just want to let other people
in the joke that nothing has to be taken seriously.  If you don't like it when
some one beating your ass, laugh in their face and walk right on out the door.
 If you do, then just smile, because, you know, you're getting what you want.
  I find that the people who really know how to laugh are the best at taking
care of themselves.  And them that can't take a joke, are doomed to the
slippery slope of level one thinking.
                                                   landa
From: dogbowl@dogbox.acme.gen.nz
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Peanuts, Eeyore, Angst and Suicide
Date: Wed, 14 Oct 92 21:19:22 +1300
Organization: The Dawghaus BBS, Palmerston North, New Zealand (+64 6 357 9245)

xibo@fido.econ.arizona.edu (Mr. Coates) writes:

> I've always preferred Eeyore.  Charlie Brown is too wishy-washy.  He
> tries to be a happy person, and he's even portrayed as a happy person
> in much of the cartoons.

I feel that it is far more angstful to try to be a happy person when
you're not. Eeyore *enjoys* being like that, wheras Charlie Brown
spends his whole life trying to be happy.

Sometimes I just lock myself into my bedroom and scream until I can't
make any more noise. Sometimes it helps, sometimes I just feel worse and
soemtimes I just end up with a sore throat.

I angst about having been unemployed for 12 months, about my arthritis
( Hey, I'm only 25! ), about whether I'll ever find a SO, or anything
more than a PIB every couple of years. Or if I'll end up like one of my
gay friends - middle aged, needing someone, but not knowing where to
look.

The thought of cruising singles bars makes my skin crawl, and I don't
move in the right circles to meet the people I want to.

I've been searching for something all my life which I can't really
define - something which would bring a sense of belonging - a feeling of
being in the 'right' place, with the 'right' people, doing something which
feels 'right'. Instead, I just sit and watch the world go by, afraid to
make a move in case I get stomped on again.

Times like this, I take the car or scooter and just drive around
aimlessly for hours at a time, just wanting the unhappy feelings to
go away, wanting to feel numb.

It goes on like this forever. Maybe I should go put on some Angstful
music. Perhaps Tom Dolby's "Weightless":

Some nights he's weightless
he has to travel
his mouth is gravel
and there's an empty feeling within his heart....
Eye on the fuelguage
Westchester Thruway
that triple octane
won't contain the empty feeling in Alan's heart....
Same old security straps him into his carseat
and a sump started leaking all over New Jersey
gas stations everywhere -
Not one drop to fill me.

ObAngst: An old friend committed suicide on Friday night. He drove into
         the countryside and put a hose into the car from the exhaust
         pipe.
         Nobody knows why - He seemed to have everything finally sorted
         out in life.



dogbowl@dogbox.acme.gen.nz
The Dawghaus BBS, Palmerston North, New Zealand (+64 6 357 9245)