From: an330@anon.penet.fi (Dawn)
Newsgroups: alt.transgendered
Subject: Bio...
Date: 29 Dec 92 23:59:21 GMT
Organization: Anonymous contact service
X-Anonymously-To: alt.transgendered

Hi, all.

Well, I've been on CDFORUM for a while, and it asks for a biography.
Here's my biography and some random thoughts for alt.transgendered.

I'm married, 26 years old, an electrical engineer.  I live in Canada.

I first cross-dressed at the age of 6 when some cousins were staying
temporarily at our house.  A male cousin and I decided to try on
the female cousin's clothes just for kicks.  I had no idea why I liked
it, but I did!  My cousin wasn't so enthusiastic, so we dropped the game.

As a child, I often fantasized about wearing girls' clothes, especially
dresses and (for some reason) one-piece swimsuits.  But I didn't actually
do anything about it.

At 13, I found an old training bra that had belonged to my sister.  I
squirreled it away in my room.  Gradually, bras and panties began
"disappearing" from my mom and ending up hidden in my stash.  This
continued with periodic bouts of purging until I was 19.

At 19, I lived away from home in another city for the first time.  I
steeled myself and bought my first piece of women's clothing:  A silky
teddy.  I've always been partial to teddies ever since then.  As the
years passed, I became bolder and moved on to outer wear - I bought a skirt,
blouse and a dress.  No more raiding my mom's closet.  One day, I was
feeling very low, and I confessed to my mom what I'd been up to.  She was
quite shocked and upset at first.  Later on, she treated it almost as a
joke.  I could never tell my dad - he would never accept it.  The funny
thing is that after I told my mom, she would ask advice as to how she
looked!  Previously, I had been the typical male "fashion philistine", but
now she asked my opinion.

Then I met my future wife.  I kept things secret, but when it seemed that
our relationship was becoming serious, I revealed myself to her.  I could
never enter a marriage hiding something like that.

She was shocked.  Incredulous.  But luckily she didn't freak or leave me.
As it turned out, she became quite curious and has helped me tremendously.
She has given me tips on dressing, and gone with me to buy clothes, so I
now have a fully-equipped women's wardrobe.  And because my wife is a real
bargain hunter, it came fairly cheaply!

My wife has since lost most of her enthusiasm for my cross-dressing.  She
doesn't mind if I dress up around the house, but it's a real turn-off for
her sexually.  I guess that's a fair compromise.  She still helps me shop,
though.

As for my feelings - I definitely enjoy being a man, and have no desire
to have SRS.  As with others, I would enjoy being able to change back
and forth as in a SF world.  I'm not attracted to men, although when
I'm dressed, I do get a bit curious.

My name is a problem.  I chose "Dawn" at random, but I don't feel like
a "Dawn."  Choosing another name seems a bit like having a split
personality, and I can only think of myself as myself.  But, for
anonymity, I chose "Dawn."

I have never been out cross-dressed in public, although I would eventually
like to try it.  I think I have a fair chance of passing - although I'm
very hairy, I'm short and slim, and find it easier to get women's clothes
that fit me than men's!  I don't think my wife would go for a public outing,
though.  The closest I've come to it is a late-night walk with my wife while
I was wearing women's jeans (padded) and a bra with "breasts."  However,
living in Canada means wearing thick coats, so probably no-one could tell
what I had on under my coat.

I'm realy happy to have discovered alt.transgendered and cdforum.  I feel
that I have some company and I'm not some wierd pervert (or at least, not
the only wierd pervert! :-))  I also think it's important to have a sense
of humour, and I often joke with my wife about cross-dressing, or make fun
of my appearance while dressed.  I can't get involved with the intricate
debates about terminology -- "sex" vs "gender"; "TV" vs "TS -- as far as
I'm concerned, if what you do makes you happy and hurts no-one, don't try
to label it.

Well, sorry for the long and indulgent article.  But I hope that others who
may have self-doubt or self-loathing understand my point:  Be happy, even
if it's wierd.  Better to be happy and different than conformist and
miserable.

Regards to all,

Dawn.
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