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From: bs584@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (Jeanne Leidy)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: autumn and love and sex
Date: 17 Oct 1992 01:52:43 GMT
Organization: Case Western Reserve University, Cleveland, OH (USA)
Reply-To: bs584@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (Jeanne Leidy)
NNTP-Posting-Host: slc10.ins.cwru.edu


It was autumn and I was 17 and we were in love, we were falling in love.
We were there at the football game, we shared hot chocolate and he held
the cup in his two gloved hands and I put my hands around his, I was
spilling the hot chocolate, he kept saying, you're getting it on my
gloves, and I kept laughing, when we stood so close there, at that
football game, and I was 17, and we were falling in love.

When I was 19 it was autumn and I had a green vinyl sofa and an attic
apartment and a beautiful tall man wanted me and I him and I came up
with a condom from somewhere and we made love there that night, on
that green sofa?  I can't remember, the first time I can barely 
remember it, we were in the bed, I guess, I don't remember this one
first time, but I remember how I used to wake up and see his boots
next to my bed, how previously despised cowboy boots were the sexiest
things to see first thing in the morning, how I thought cowboy
boots and blue flannel shirts that matched his eyes could be sexy.
We would eat breakfast at one of those chain restaurants, Big Boy,
Dennys, once you've eaten there late in the morning with your lover
you never want to be there alone again, or with someone you work with
or your sister-in-law.  

When I was 26 and it was fall, I finally called him and he said he'd
come over, what we did was have sex, that's what we did, and he was
late, called twice that night, still I talked him into coming, he
could've been on another date for all I knew, he came over late,
he was so gorgeous and he grabbed me so I knew it was really him,
only he did it that way and he held me and we talked for a while, this
time, we leaned together on the sofa and talked, my roommate asleep
already, not meeting him, and then we went to bed, and he fell asleep
in the middle of what I thought was lovemaking.  The next day I slump
over on the kitchen table and ask my roommate how could I, how could
I do this, accept him late like that, let him get away with anything,
and she said, I've matured beyond that, I don't do that sort
of thing anymore.

I was 31 and it was autumn and the trees were rustling and again I have
a beautiful setting and I fix my hair every day and shave my legs and
again the house is quiet save for the trees rustling, the high winds
of this season.  Again and again I think about sex, night after night
as I lay alone in my high bed in the attic, legs smooth, hair done, 
teeth brushed, thinking about sex.

Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: bena@yoyo.cc.monash.edu.au (Ben Aveling)
Subject: Re: public bleeding and angst (mine is bigger than yours)
Organization: Monash University General Access Unix
X-Newsreader: TIN [version 1.1 PL6]
Date: Sun, 11 Oct 1992 02:20:28 GMT

sine nomine (llama@pooh.cc.utexas.edu) wrote:
: Steven Chung (ssc@nwu.edu) wrote:
: it amazes me how many people i know have alcoholics in their families.
: i wonder if i just gravitate toward these kinds of people or if maybe
: it's just a lot more common than i'd thought.

Could be either.  Theory is, we are attracted to people like are
parents.  Scary thought.  What's worse is, as we get older, we slowly
turn into our parents.

Which could be worse.

	Ben
Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: kilroy@acme.gen.nz (earthbound misfit, I)
Subject: Friendship
Date: Wed, 14 Oct 92 06:15:09 GMT
Organization: ACME BBS - Public Access Usenet, Palmerston North, New Zealand

Today I made a new friend. Only, that wasn't quite what I had in mind.

LBJF again. That makes 2 for 2.

						- k
-- 
Craig Harding            kilroy@acme.gen.nz             ACME BBS +64 6 3551342
"Jub'er lbh pnyyvat n obmb?"
Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: smyers@boi.hp.com (steven myers)
Subject: Re: the word
Date: Fri, 9 Oct 1992 05:21:02 GMT
Organization: Hewlett-Packard / Boise, Idaho
X-Newsreader: TIN [version 1.1.4 PL6]

Magnus Selhammar (magnus@solaris.astro.uu.se) wrote:
: In Swedish:
:                 o
:                 ANGEST

Tack skall du ha, Magnus! :)
From: rperkins@astro.as.arizona.edu (Rachel J. Perkins)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: Angst music
Date: 15 Oct 92 16:45:52 GMT
Organization: University of Arizona, Tucson, AZ

In article <1992Oct15.002759.5956@ccu.umanitoba.ca> umplato@ccu.umanitoba.ca (Howard Norman Plato) writes:
>
>How could anyone miss out the obvious the group with
>the most angst in the world...
>the cure.
>for that they certainly are.
>

sorry, i just don't find the cure's lyrics to be believable. they seem too
contrived to be real angst. but then, i guess most other groups are that way
too. ah well. everything is fake. no one shows you their real self. i hate 
that, all the packaged, processed, commercialized people there are today.

bah.


--
		-just give me what for,
	rachel perkins =  rperkins@astro.as.arizona.edu
      "Chastity..the most unnatural of all the sexual perversions...."
					-Aldous Huxley
Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: mesm@netcom.com (Mary E. S. Morris)
Subject: Re: mouths, hygiene, darkness in the middle of town
Organization: Netcom - Online Communication Services  (408 241-9760 guest) 
Date: Tue, 13 Oct 1992 01:27:36 GMT

: Yes, it's true, I have to Have Those Wisdoms Out. Probably. Oh christ,
: oh shit, omygod. When I went to see the fulla in Edinburgh he said
: something like "come back in 6 months and we'll whip those wisdoms out
: - thank goodness there's not pointing sideways, because then..."
: (horror story omitted for reasons of good taste, and 'cos I just ate).
: This guy just went straight for the horror story, personalising it to
: my jawbone, the degree of pain I would actually personally experience,
: the particular kind of pumpkin shape *my* head will become with all
: the swelling. Goddamn sadist! Or maybe he's just the more honest of
: the two. So whereas before I was thinking of it in terms of, say, a
: mild mugging, now I'll be really disappointed if I dont have a
: near-death experience. I guess I should be grateful.

It really isn't bad unless you get "dry sockets". From what they
described to me after the fact this is where the mangled skin doesn't
cover the bone completly after the tooth comes out. Dammed painful.
And the codine made me sick. Try being sick when you can't really 
open your mouth... Take heart though, most people resemble 
chipmunks rather than pumpkins.
: 
: -------------------------------------------------------------------

--
Mary E. S. Morris    |  The future exists first in imagination, then
mesm@netcom.COM      |  in will, then in reality. -- Galivan Burwell
=====================================================================
Netcom - Online Communication Services San Jose, CA
Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: schroede@bnlux1.bnl.gov (gary l. schroeder)
Subject: Re: tiredness.
Organization: Brookhaven National Laboratory, Upton, NY 11973
Date: Tue, 13 Oct 1992 15:42:30 GMT

In article <1992Oct5.052419.10050@linus.mitre.org> sokay@cyclone.mitre.org (Stephen J. Okay) writes:

>My aren't we in a cheery mood...whatever happened to being go at throttle up,
>110% on the main reactor, etc. ?

Well, I remember hearing "go at throttle-up" once.  Then a big explosion
occurred any everybody died.



-- 
------------------------------------------------------------------------
Gary L. Schroeder  		|  
schroede@bnlux1.bnl.gov         |             Boo. 
Brookhaven National Laboratory  | 
Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: ericm@microunity.com (Eric Murray)
Subject: Re: wallow wallow wallow
Organization: MicroUnity Systems Engineering Inc.
Date: Wed, 14 Oct 1992 01:48:12 GMT

In article <1992Oct13.012936.15008@linus.mitre.org> sokay@cyclone.mitre.org (Stephen J. Okay) writes:
[..]
>
>And when it isn't them, I seem to be surrounded by people who insist on telling
>me how wonderful their lives are going and how much fun they and their SO are
>having fucking each other...Bah!...
>
>---Steve
>...Go ahead...depress me further...tell me how much fun the Texas thing was...


Sorry.  Didn't go.  My SO and I were having too much fun fucking each other.



--
    ericm@microunity.com        tightening the screws of your existence
Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: amundsen@molbio.cbs.umn.edu (Craig Amundsen)
Subject: Calvin angst
Organization: College of Biological Sciences, U of MN
Date: Fri, 16 Oct 1992 13:32:28 GMT

So there I was studying for pre-lims, reading _Scientific Progress Goes Boink_,
when I stumbled across some Calvin angst.

Calvin - I wish I had more friends, but people are such jerks. If you can
	 just get most people to ignore you and leave you alone, you're
	 doing good. If you can find even one person you really like, you're
         lucky. ...And if that person can also stand you, you're really lucky.

Hobbes - What if you find someone you can talk to while you eat apples on
         on a bright Fall morning?

Calvin - Well, yeah... I suppose there's no point in getting greedy, is there?

-- 
----------------- Craig Amundsen (amundsen@molbio.cbs.umn.edu) -----------------
DILBERT - Sometimes I wonder if it's ethical to do these genetic experiments.
          But I rationalize it because it will improve the quality of life.
DOGBERT - What are making?    DILBERT - Skunkopotamus.     <STANDARD DISCLAIMER>
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Random conversation with myself
From: quirke_a@kosmos.wcc.govt.nz
Date: 7 Oct 92 19:36:58 NZST
Distribution: world
Organization: Welligton City Council, Public Access.
Summary: Ignore if you wish
NNTP-Posting-Host: kosmos.wcc.govt.nz

"What is normality ?"
   Normality is the pattern of behaviour society states will fufill your needs.
The opposite of normality is craziness, which society states is equivilant to
insanity.

"What is sanity ?"
   Sanity is a pattern of behaviour that fufills your needs, and allows
survival. The opposite of sanity is insanity, which is to be feared.

"Name one source of angst"
   The conflict arising from the recognition of the need to step outside
society's normal behaviour and embrace an amount of craziness in order to
fufill one's emotional needs, and the fear of doing so because you believe it
equates to insanity.

"How do I get over it ?"
   ...

"Why does it hurt so much ?"
   ...

"You have answered three questions, and passed on two. Do you wish me to repeat
the questions you passed on ?"
   ...

Tony Q.
From: machala@spdc.ti.com (Chuck Machala)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: What the Hell is this?
Date: 15 Oct 92 16:44:29 GMT
Organization: TI Semiconductor Process and Design Center

rperkins@astro.as.arizona.edu (Rachel J. Perkins) writes:

>In article <92288.163503JMK134@psuvm.psu.edu> JMK134@psuvm.psu.edu writes:
>>What the Hell is this group about?


>well, hell is a good start. and end, i suppose. 

>ObAngst: i have a dinner date, and i just KNOW he's going to think i'm THE
>most boring person on the face of this earth 'cause i'm so tired. 

>bah.

I'd be tired too if I drove to Austin, turned around and drove straight
back :) 
--

     Just because I'm paranoid doesn't mean they're not out to get me.

Chuck Machala-Semiconductor Process and Design Center-Texas Instruments/Dallas
From: amundsen@molbio.cbs.umn.edu (Craig Amundsen)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: What the Hell is this?
Date: 15 Oct 92 12:24:57 GMT
Organization: U of MN Herbarium

In article <92288.163503JMK134@psuvm.psu.edu> <JMK134@psuvm.psu.edu> writes:
>What the Hell is this group about?
angst
-- 
----------------- Craig Amundsen (amundsen@molbio.cbs.umn.edu) -----------------
DILBERT - Sometimes I wonder if it's ethical to do these genetic experiments.
          But I rationalize it because it will improve the quality of life.
DOGBERT - What are making?    DILBERT - Skunkopotamus.     <STANDARD DISCLAIMER>
From: zlsiida@fs1.mcc.ac.uk (dave budd)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: Peanuts, 10-12-92
Date: 14 Oct 92 10:29:28 GMT
Organization: Manchester Computing Centre

In article <XIBO.92Oct13035247@fido.fido.econ.arizona.edu> xibo@fido.econ.arizona.edu (Mr. Coates) writes:

>In article <DUKE.92Oct12125343@portal.paperboy.osf.org> duke@portal.paperboy.osf.org (Duke Robillard) writes:

>#   In an article, klein@frith.egr.msu.edu (Jeffrey Klein) writes:
>#
>#      (I nominate CHARLIE BROWN as leader of alt.angst)
>#
>I've always preferred Eeyore.  Charlie Brown is too wishy-washy.  He

I prefer Eeyore over CB, as long as I don't have to watch the Disney version.

How about Marvin?   
"Life?  Don't talk to me about life... Here I am, brain the size of a planet"
etc



              Have another day    [Armageddon, the musical] 
  Dave Budd, MCC, Oxford Rd, Manchester, England   (44|0)61-275-6033
From: bs584@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (Jeanne Leidy)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: tiredness.
Date: 8 Oct 1992 16:41:14 GMT
Organization: Case Western Reserve University, Cleveland, OH (USA)
Reply-To: bs584@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (Jeanne Leidy)
NNTP-Posting-Host: slc4.ins.cwru.edu


In a previous article, kovarik@UTKUX1.UTK.EDU (StMeechTheThwacked) says:

>Anxiety!!!!  ANXIETY!!!! I'm the one having the nightmare!!!!
>And watching Travis Tritt videos!!!!!!  And every once in a while I
>get Email about cottage brewery beer, Italian bakeries, hockey.....
>What's a guy to do?   
>
>					Meech


Go to Austin?

Jeanne


Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: kovarik@UTKUX1.UTK.EDU (StMeechTheThwacked)
Subject: Re: I quit
Organization: University of Tennessee Computing Center
Date: Thu, 8 Oct 1992 03:26:43 GMT

In article <DUKE.92Oct7125607@portal.paperboy.osf.org> duke@portal.paperboy.osf.org (Robert Robillard) writes:
>
>There is no home to go to, dude.  You're stuck here, cause if
>you kill yourself, you might find out the Catholics are right
>and you'll rot in Hell for all eternity.
>

On the other hand.... You might luck out and land in Nirvana, which
according to the Merriam Webster Dictionary (which does not have an
entry for anomie) is 1) the supreme happiness that according to Buddhism
comes when all passion, hatred and delusion die out, and the soul is
released from the necessity of further purification, or 2) oblivion,
paradise (which are rather interesting in combination).

Or you might land in Austin, Texas.

					Meech


Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: underdog@leland.Stanford.EDU (Dwight Joe)
Subject: Foreign Language Tape Angst
Summary: Nice guys finish last!
Keywords: crappy tape
Organization: Miners for a Heart of Gold
Date: Sat, 17 Oct 92 00:26:15 GMT

I purchase a $3.00 Sony Metal Digital Tape.  I submit it to the
Language Lab at the on-campus library for some person to do the
taping.

They lose the tape.  They offer to replace my loss with a $1.50
TDK tape.

I'm a nice guy, so I accept the offer.

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From: bs584@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (Jeanne Leidy)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: DAYBREAK!  I...survived!
Date: 11 Oct 1992 17:45:14 GMT
Organization: Case Western Reserve University, Cleveland, OH (USA)
Reply-To: bs584@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (Jeanne Leidy)
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In a previous article, brewer@eniac.seas.upenn.edu (marmoset) says:

>Oh, glory of glories!  It's Sunday morning!  All of the angsters that I used 
>to love to read are on planes and on Amtrack and in cars whizzing back to their
>terminals where they shall become once again gloomy and fill my day with inter
>esting reading for those (um) less than busy parts of my workday!  

Yes, apparently we've all (barely) survived.

>Still, I'm awfully jealous.  I could have been relaxing at Sine's house, cooing
>love poetry in her ear while sipping mimosas and nibbling on Nutter Butters...
 ^^^^^^^^^^^^                         ^^^^^^^^                ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

I just gotta say it, this is some weird kind of combination.

>Hmph.  Instead, I spent last night at with a college sophomore who "just
>want[ed] to get stoned, man!" Eeeesh, I need new friends or some hobbies or
>maybe just a good book to read...  "party at Pi-Lam, wanna go?"  Eeeesh!

Don't feel too bad.  I spent last night with an acquaintance who I enjoy
being with largely because he can really open up sometimes and hold a 
serious conversation, and who has plenty of personal angst, but who 
announced over coffee, after I told him about the 2 or 3 things that
are really chewing at my soul right now, that since he's become a born-
again Christian he can deal with situations like mine much better.

[place standard freedom-of-religion disclaimer here]

Needless to say, that really helped a lot.


>--

>marmoset

Jeanne
From: machala@spdc.ti.com (Chuck Machala)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: I quit
Date: 8 Oct 92 15:49:12 GMT
Organization: TI Semiconductor Process and Design Center

kovarik@UTKUX1.UTK.EDU (StMeechTheThwacked) writes:

>In article <DUKE.92Oct7125607@portal.paperboy.osf.org> duke@portal.paperboy.osf.org (Robert Robillard) writes:
>>
>>There is no home to go to, dude.  You're stuck here, cause if
>>you kill yourself, you might find out the Catholics are right
>>and you'll rot in Hell for all eternity.
>>

>On the other hand.... You might luck out and land in Nirvana, which
>according to the Merriam Webster Dictionary (which does not have an
>entry for anomie) is 1) the supreme happiness that according to Buddhism
>comes when all passion, hatred and delusion die out, and the soul is
>released from the necessity of further purification, or 2) oblivion,
>paradise (which are rather interesting in combination).

>Or you might land in Austin, Texas.

Or Tennessee AHHHHH!

Or maybe lovely tOOson.

--

     Just because I'm paranoid doesn't mean they're not out to get me.

Chuck Machala-Semiconductor Process and Design Center-Texas Instruments/Dallas
From: llama@pooh.cc.utexas.edu (sine nomine)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: DAYBREAK!  I...survived!
Date: 16 Oct 92 04:25:01 GMT
X-Newsreader: Tin 1.1 PL5


bs584@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (Jeanne Leidy) wrote:

In a previous article, brewer@eniac.seas.upenn.edu (marmoset) says:

:>I'm awfully jealous. I could have been relaxing at Sine's house, cooing
:>love poetry in her ear while sipping mimosas and nibbling on Nutter Butters..
: ^^^^^^^^^^^^                         ^^^^^^^^                ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
:
: I just gotta say it, this is some weird kind of combination.

this is some weird kind of love affair. 

i'm absurdly in love with someone i've never seen. in a week, he will
be here.

what if it doesn't work out?
waht if he doesn't show?
what if he doesn't like the way i look?
what if he doesn't like my friends, my cats, my apartment, etc?
waht if everything goes really well and i never want him to leave?
are we both just desperate and pathetic?

it's already insane that someone 've never laid eyes on can leave me
breathless just by picking up a phone and saying hello. that i can spend
4 hours talking to him online and never run out of things to say. that 
he understands the inside of my head.

something will go wrong. i know it.

:Don't feel too bad.  I spent last night with an acquaintance who I enjoy
:being with largely because he can really open up sometimes and hold a 
:serious conversation, and who has plenty of personal angst, but who 
:announced over coffee, after I told him about the 2 or 3 things that
:are really chewing at my soul right now, that since he's become a born-
:again Christian he can deal with situations like mine much better.

god, i ahte that, whether it's from an xtian or an atheist. dumping
your guts to someone and in resposne all you get is how they see
themselves in the mirror of your life. gah! and if you told them they
were being self-centered, they'd prolly get all hurt and insist they
were trying to relate to you.

--
sine/deb
"sex with you and sometimes food and a movie or a play,
some sleep, a shower and a shampoo with you is all i really want.
really." -- king missile
From: rorschak@daimi.aau.dk (Jesper Lauridsen)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: random screams
Date: 15 Oct 92 22:25:49 GMT
Organization: depressed

In article <81037@ut-emx.uucp> llama@tramp.cc.utexas.edu (sine nomine) writes:

>i hate that you can't kiss someone through a telephone.

I see it as a feature - I don't miss anything.
-- 
 _______________________ _________________________________
| Jesper Lauridsen      |      Life is a spectator sport  | 
| rorschak@daimi.aau.dk |     I think, therefore I angst  |
|_______________________|_________________________________|
Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: ssc@nwu.edu (Steven Chung)
Subject: Re: Peanuts, 10-12-92
Originator: schung@casbah.acns.nwu.edu
Organization: Northwestern University, Evanston Illinois.
Date: Mon, 12 Oct 1992 22:50:40 GMT

In article <DUKE.92Oct12125343@portal.paperboy.osf.org> duke@portal.paperboy.osf.org (Duke Robillard) writes:

# Angst was a term invented for the sickening fear of existence
# described by Munch, Keirkegard, and Beckett, and this clown
# thinks some cutsey cartoon character is an appropriate
# representative.

I always thought Beckett stole it from the German to describe his sickening
fear of good writing.

# Xibo is right, this group has gone to hell.

There's always alt.angst.xibo.sex...

Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: kovarik@UTKUX1.UTK.EDU (StMeechTheThwacked)
Subject: Re: Relinquishing a Title
Organization: University of Tennessee Computing Center
Date: Thu, 15 Oct 1992 16:18:28 GMT

In article <1992Oct15.040706.15179@beaver.cs.washington.edu> boesch@cs.washington.edu (Eric Boesch) writes:
>kovarik@UTKUX1.UTK.EDU (StMeechTheThwacked) writes:
>>I hereby relinquish the title of Most Hellish Place to Work to
>>Manhattan, Kansas.  It hurts, I know, but I feel I must say it!!!!
>>
>Who gave you the title of Most Hellish Place to Work?  A tattoo artist?
>Your dentist?  A male prostitute?  Do you have any tumors or
>pus-extruding sores that we don't know about?  Are you completely wet?
>Is nobody there but molds, parasitic insects, and a wide variety of
>worms?

I feel that it is my right to claim that title given the National Lab
Angst thread of a while ago, and given my feeble attempt at keeping score
as my brains slowly leaked out the holes where my wisdom teeth used
to be, after they were extruded by a pus-extruding dentist, whose
massive folds of flesh verily fell from his body as he tormented
me with a pair of electrified pliers while saying:  "You don't need
any anesthetic, do you?"  After which he sent me out into the street
with pink radioactive steam emanating from the vast festering sores
on my body, and I went straight to the tattoo parlor to have a life-sized
picture of a Harley tattooed on my butt, after which I was 
run over by a monster truck driven by someone equally fecund, and thus
had my green blood leak out of all my squished appendages all over the 
pavement, not having made it to the redneck bar to consume massive quantities 
of Fighting Cock bourbon, and winding up being a feast for a herd
of rampaging golf-cart sized roaches who were later eaten by even
larger pustulating frogs with more tongues I than I could count,
had my eyeballs not fallen out of their sockets just as I had stepped 
into the street, and encountered the Monster Truck.

So I feel I have the right to claim the title, and pass it on to 
Manhattan, where even such activities as are part of my everyday life
are verboten.

>>Did sine invite you just so you could infect everyone else?  No wonder
>>she talks about being dead in three years.  It's cheaper than nuclear
>>weapons, I guess.

We're all doomed!  Doomed!  Yes, doomed!!!!!

						M
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