HDTenEightyP/NetNews huggingface dataset:
From: secsu@ariel.lerc.nasa.gov (Ralph O. Clark)
Subject: Priam RLL drive, other newbie questions
News-Software: VAX/VMS VNEWS 1.41    
Organization: NASA Lewis Research Center
Date: 21 Jan 1993 14:30 EST  

I have just installed version 0.98 on my machine, using the bootdisk/rootdisk
combination from the Linux mirror at wuarchive.wustl.edu. My configuration is

20Mhz 386/387
8MB
Paradise VGA Professional (256K)
Priam ID100 (RLL), 103MB

The Priam drive has 1166 cylinders, 7 heads, and 25 sectors/track.

I have a 32MB DOS partition and a 32MB Linux primary partition. I set up
an extended partition to take up the remainder of the disk.

Several questions/problems arose during the process of setting all this up.

1) From the very beginning (during bootup), the screen goes into some sort
  of high-resolution text mode that I can't seem to change. The Paradise
  board has 800x600 modes, and my monitor has only a 12" diag. screen, so
  what comes out are all these little teeny-tiny characters (10 lines/inch
  at least!). If I can't use at least a 50-line or maybe a 25-line mode,
  I'll go blind.

2) Does everyone's definition of "boot from hard disk" differ from mine?
  Following the online instructions, I set up a Linux partition, mkfs'd
  it, and changed bytes 508-509 on the boot diskette. After rebooting,
  the installation software copied the system onto the Linux partition.
  But after rebooting the machine, I couldn't get Linux to run until I
  inserted the boot diskette again. Once I did, Linux ran just fine from
  the hard disk. But how can you call it "booting from the hard disk"
  if you need the floppy to start (boot) it? Did I miss something, or is
  there something else that should have been in the docs?

3) The most disconcerting problem is with the hard drive. I mentioned above
  that I set up an extended partition (using Linux fdisk). Within that,
  I set up two logical partitions, a Linux partition of ~20MB and a
  Linux swap partition of ~10MB. But neither mkfs nor mkswap could
  handle them. I kept getting messages like
		HD controller timeout
		HD reset
		HD intr <something>
  which would't stop until I ctrl-C'd out. (Actually, they went on for a
  few seconds after the ctrl-C).

  I should mention that fdisk warned me that 1166 cylinders > 1024, which
  may cause problems with "some software". What software? Linux? DOS?
  But the extended partition I set up was deliberately kept below the
  extra cylinders. What gives?

  You have no idea how aggravating it is to have a 103MB disk that can use
  only 64MB!

4) Now the real newbie stuff :).
  Is there any comm software available that does graphic terminal emulation?
  E.g. Tektronix or VT240/340.

  In addition, what is a good way to download software from a VAX/VMS system?
  Right now, I have to download using terminal software under DOS, rawrite
  to a floppy, reboot under Linux, and read the floppy. Is there a less
  back-assward way to do this? Please don't recommend Kermit---the Kermit
  running on our Vax has a packet size limit of 80bytes and is slow^2.

Thank you in advance for your assistance.

Ralph
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From: hank@informatik.uni-essen.de (Hendrik G. Seliger)
Subject: Re: Password problems!
Date: Sat, 23 Jan 1993 15:09:48 GMT
Distribution: usa
Organization: Uni-Essen
X-Newsreader: Tin 1.1 PL4

harryrow@sage.cc.purdue.edu (Harry Rowe) writes:
:        can not lock passwd file
:        can not lock /etc/shadow

This might be caused by some backup-files still lying around. I don't remember
which is the filename for the lock file, but I think it was passwd~ and
shadow~, which is also the backup from emacs. If you delete those files
the locking problem might disappear. However, I'm not sure whether the
normal adduser program will install shadow passwords. You should use the
program "useradd", which I think is included in the SLS release.
You might also try to correct the shadow-file, which should have an
entry for each user in the passwd-file (try "man shadow" for an
explanation of the format).

Hope this helps,

Hank.

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From: mchen@logo.cs.psu.edu (Michael Chen)
Subject: Downloading Tk+Tcl... >1.44 MB?
Distribution: alt
Date: Mon, 25 Jan 1993 23:51:39 GMT

  I have downloaded from sunsite the Tk+Tcl distribution for Linux.
  Now, how do I get it down to 1.44 MB disks?
  Help appreciated, e-mail preferred.

-- Mike
--
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|				| spring our fond hopes and pure desires... |
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From: riepe@ifwsn4.ifw.uni-hannover.de (Michael Riepe)
Subject: Re: SLS distribution question
Reply-To: riepe@ifwsn4.ifw.uni-hannover.de
Organization: University of Hannover (Germany), IFW
Date: Thu, 21 Jan 1993 03:14:01 GMT

In article 790@mec.ohio.gov, oecn_smith@mec.ohio.gov () writes:
|>Looking thru the SLS readme and faq, it appears that they (the SLS folks) just
|>sort of dumped everything into 1 partition.  I have a Maxtor 200M IDE drive
|>that I would like to set up as a couple of efs partitions
|>
|>    20M /
|>    13M /swap
|>    85M /usr
|>    85 /something-else (probably source)
|>
|>Has anyone done this with the SLS distribution?  Any major problems? etc??

It's possible. You have to get SLS 0.99+ (current release is 0.99.2, I
think) and call 'doinstall' with some additional parameters. Assuming
that your partitions are /dev/hda1 for /, /dev/hda2 for swap, /dev/hda3
for /usr and /dev/hda4 for /home, the command should read like

	doinstall /dev/hda1 /dev/hda3 /usr /dev/hda4 /home

I think you'll have to install the swap partition manually, but I'm not
sure. See the README for details.
-- 
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 Universit"at Hannover
 Institut f"ur Fertigungstechnik und Spanende Werkzeugmaschinen
 Schlosswender Str. 5               W-3000 Hannover 1 (Germany)
 ...so long, and thanks for all the fish!
From: SCS110@psuvm.psu.edu
Newsgroups: alt.sexual.abuse.recovery
Subject: questions
Date: 26 Jan 93 19:04:39 GMT
Organization: Penn State University


     I may be intruding and if I am please tell me.  I have a very close friend
 of mine who has gone through these nightmares since she was about 12, she is n
ow 21.  I am her boyfriend and need to know what to say about it and what not t
o say.  She told me some of what has happened to her but no specifics, we have
been together for some time now, but fear that I will damage her if I say the w
rong thing.  If someone out there can help, I would be greatly in your debt.

     She sees a therapist, but the problem is at home with her adoptive father
of 21 years.  Her mother doesn't know, and she is very close to her mother.  I
realize that her mother could know, and be dening it but....

thanks,
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From: anon-1394@twwells.com (darkangel)
Subject: yes but
Date: Fri, 22 Jan 1993 00:47:28 GMT
X-Email-Accepted: yes
Organization: Anonymous Posting Service at twwells.com

'scuse my last post..
on being non anon i mean
i wasn't exactly being clear (never mind thinking clearly)
and hope it didn't sound hostile..
wasn't meant to

anyway *i'm* not strong enough to post normally
and yes there are times i want(ed) to (and almost did)
just because i'm sick of hiding and want to be absolutely honest
but i just can't do it
too much shame too much hurt too much ugliness tainting me
sometimes there is comfort in being faceless (well you know what i mean)

who knows what will be next?
on the other hand i might as well get used to it
sooner or later there will be no choice
(but that's my problem..i'll jump off that bridge when i get to it)

maybe eventually
but for now i'm just
darkangel



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From: an2026@anon.penet.fi (TJ)
Subject: Making Progress
Organization: Anonymous contact service
X-Anonymously-To: alt.sexual.abuse.recovery
Date: Sun, 24 Jan 1993 13:08:00 GMT

Just a quick update. I'm feeling a lot better, and have resolved many of
my feelings regarding church. My Christian faith is still strong, but I've
come to realize that my fellow believers are not only imperfect, but that
many of them are in denial in major portions of their lives. This hampers
their ability to relate to other people, and leads to a surface living.

You know what? I'm happy the way I am! All this suffering, but I appreciate
some things more than they do. I appreciate the blessing of peace of mind.
I am sensitive to other's suffering when many people I know aren't. I can
do some good that they can't. Of course, I can be in denial and "fake it"
in many areas too.

I always felt terrible about myself because I wasn't like the others. Well,
I don't want to be like them anymore. I want to be around healthy people,
people in touch with their feelings. I can live being around the others,
can even fake it around them if *I* (and God) think it's the right thing
to do, but I'm not going to live my life for them anymore.

Why can I do this? BECAUSE THERE ARE LOTS OF PEOPLE OUT THERE LIKE ME WHO
WANT TO BE REAL, and I can find them now. I don't have to waste my time
investing in bad relationships anymore.

TJ

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From: werner@dewey.soe.berkeley.edu (John Werner)
Newsgroups: alt.sexual.abuse.recovery
Subject: Re: myth of poohbear
Date: 22 Jan 93 22:17:33 GMT
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In article <C16JxF.IDB@twwells.com> anon-1160@twwells.com (poohbear) writes:

>i used to show the world perfect poohbear
>was good at it
>no one knew about the eating or the cutting or the touching or the rapes
>then my world exploded 
>and everyone found out
[...]
>so my point is now everyone knows about poohbear
>and they see me functioning well
>got through the semester, somehow,
>and so now everyone thinks she's fine hunky dorey peachy

I've had some similar things happen, although not as intensely.
Probably most of the people here have.  For years, I had all my
emotions turned off.  Depressed?  Lonely?  Nope, not me; I'm perfectly
normal.  Now I've admitted to myself that I have problems, but I still
pretend to be ok to the rest of the world sometimes.  I do it because
I'm afraid of rocking the boat, or even just out of habit.  And I feel
guilty about it.  It feels fake.

The hard part is that on those rare occasions when I really do feel
good, I feel guilty about that too.  "This isn't right; I should be
feeling depressed."  I'm worried that I won't be able to get better,
because now I feel like I _should_ be depressed.

My parents are coming to visit next month.  I'm not really too scared
of anything awful happening, but I'm wondering whether I'm going to
pretend to be ok or if I'll let myself be unhappy.  Sooner or later I
need to have a nice fight with them, but I'm afraid to for some
reason.

>sure, i'll just take a full course load this semsester
>sure, i'll cut therapy down to once a week
>sure, i'll start frequenting the dining hall at every meal
>      and not throw up
>sure, i'll stop cutting myself
>sure, i'll have an amazingly intense atypical relationship with a man
>      2.5 times older than me
>sure ill do it
>im perfect poohbear

To me, all of this doesn't mean that you're perfect, or even that
you're trying to be.  It just means that you're trying to get better,
and maybe even starting to succeed.

[Sorry for any typos; all the rain has made the phone lines very noisy]
-- 
John Werner                        werner@soe.berkeley.edu
UC Berkeley School of Education    (510) 596-5868 (new number)
From: anon-1564@twwells.com (synthesis)
Newsgroups: alt.sexual.abuse.recovery
Subject: to Ashley
Date: 26 Jan 93 18:35:44 GMT
Organization: Anonymous Posting Service at twwells.com
X-Email-Accepted: yes


Ashley writes:

>I'm not sure what to say....All I know, is that I'm HURTING...I'm filling with
>pain and anger inside. SOMEONE, PLEASE HELP ME! I feel like I'm DYING from all
>of the memories, all of the experiences, all the shit that I've been through..
>I feel like that I'm drowning in my own pain! IS ANYONE THERE?!?!? DOES ANYONE
>GIVE A SHIT?!?!? Someone..please talk to me! I can't stand this anymore! All
>I know is pain...And, something inside tells me that I didn't deserve it...
>Regardless of what others say. I have been molested and abused by my parents,
>raped and beaten by boyfriends....Is there really such a thing as love? Or God?
>I am sooo tired......someone..PLEASE write to me. I'm so confused...and scared
>...and angry....tears are coming out of my eyes as I type this. I don't want
>pity...I just want someone to truly care about me as an individual. Someone
>to listen to what I have to say. Someone who will BELIEVE WHAT I TELL THEM.
>I feel like I'm losing my mind...Help me...Please?

Ashley,
 
  There are lots of us here, and we do care.  Listen to the part of yourself
that knows that you didn't deserve it.  *Nobody* *ever* deserves abuse.
Love and God? I think so, I think they really exist.  But I've had times
when I've wondered, too.  
  I would be more than happy to listen to you, and I do not doubt you.
People don't invent that kind of pain.  I don't know if I can help...
but I can sure listen.  
  I normally email anonymously, though I thought about making an exception
here ... I couldn't do it ... I'm sorry. If you don't mind getting an anonymous
id, I'd be more than happy to email you.  Otherwise, I'll be looking
out for your posts, and I will be listening, I promise.  And I'm sure
lots of other people will be, too.

take care,
synthesis



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From: anon-1159@twwells.com (Kristian)
Subject: Additional to missing mail
Date: Sun, 24 Jan 1993 09:41:20 GMT
X-Email-Accepted: yes
Organization: Anonymous Posting Service at twwells.com

I should have added one more thing to my question about missing mail, 
etc.  When twwells went down for a time a posting I made to ASAR 
bounced and I tried to send it another route through PENET.FI the 
Finnish service.  This posting NEVER made it through.  E-mail that I 
sent to three other people via the same route also did not get 
through.  In these cases I never got any return indication that the 
messages had bounced.

Kristian



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From: anon-1160@twwells.com (poohbear)
Newsgroups: alt.sexual.abuse.recovery
Subject: kudos to everybody
Date: 27 Jan 93 03:15:50 GMT
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hey yall i just wanted to say how stong it sounds asar is getting

congrats to melancholychild and synthesis (i thihnk) for trying out
therapy
you guys are so great and poohbear really hopes you find
helpful people

thanks to everyone who writes
yeats is really beautiful...looking for som,ething comparable
or at least responsive

also s.o. tonight spoke as if he had swallowed a book for s.o.s
hmmm interesting pun there
but really he said wonderful beautiful things to me and he meant them

i think i am gonna start that damn zoloft
of course everytime i decide that i dont do it
but we shall see

no crisis at the time being
nothing of great urgency 
just wanted to tell you all how much you
are a part of my life and i thank you so much
and wanted to say this now when i am not at all dissociated

silver tiger wont you join me in the light in the 100acre woods
no scary dark moss there
just hunny and friends

byebye
poohbear



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From: nancy@genie.slhs.udel.edu (Nancy Lebovitz)
Subject: Re: groups?
Organization: UDel, School of Life & Health Sciences
Date: Tue, 26 Jan 1993 17:29:32 GMT

In article <C1G52K.1x5@twwells.com> anon-1160@twwells.com (poohbear) writes:
>
>what do you do when the people who are supposed to know
>have the extreme misconception youre doing better

Tell them you aren't doing better, as loudly and firmly as you can.

You might like it better if they could just see how bad your situation is
(I think I would), but I'd recommend taking second best (having to tell
tell them) instead of letting them just mishandle you.

If they're at all competent, this will both improve your situation and
give them more information on how to tell when someone is being "perfect"
at them. If they don't want to hear what you're saying, is telling them
likely to make things worse? (This is a real question, and you have more
information about the odds than I do.)

>counselor said tonight she thought i should go to an
>eating disorders group
>and then she said, but if youre cutting and suicidal
>they wont want you in it because the groups need to be
>safe spaces and they dont want anyone who'll scare people
>and make them uncomfortable
>
>also she said i should se her maybe only once a week
>instead of twice now
>
>huh?
>what could possibly possess her to think i am getting it together
>she said we were past the crisis management stage
>oh really?
>hmmm.
>
>oh hell excuse the anger in this post
>how inappropriate

Sounds appropriate to me.

>sorry

No apology required.

Dragon
(Nancy Lebovitz)
From: anon-1280@twwells.com (MelancholyChild)
Newsgroups: alt.sexual.abuse.recovery
Subject: Re: FEAR NO EVIL
Date: 23 Jan 93 07:21:49 GMT
Organization: Anonymous Posting Service at twwells.com
X-Email-Accepted: yes

rmr@acsu.buffalo.edu (Richard M. Romanowski) writes:


>	I ENCOURAGE EVERYONE TO POST PUBLICLY.  THERE IS (UNFORTUNATELY)
>NOTHING UNUSUAL ABOUT BEING A SURVIVOR.  MILLIONS OF HUMANS ARE
>GETTING RAPED EVERY DAY.  THERE'S NOT MUCH POINT IN TYING OURSELVES 
>UP IN KNOTS ABOUT IT.

>	You are strong enough, right now, to blow off your anon-address,
>to post from your regular account.  You are strong enough to tell anybody
>who might be interested that you are a survivor, but you frankly don't
>give a good God damn who knows or doesn't know.  You are strong enough,
>all by yourself.   

Maybe someday, but not now. It's strange too, because when I first
started posting to this group I was non-anon. It didn't seem to 
matter until I saw my name in the Header, then I totally fell apart
and got my anon ID. Part of my *problem* is that I don't want to
be me. I even run away from my anon self, having changed my nickname
a few times now.

I'm trying though. I'm posting my story elsewhere under my own name,
and lightning hasn't struck me dead yet. However, it's a mailing
list, so it's much more insular than asar. A lot of people like me
on the list and I've gotten nothing but support and encouragement,
but it's still *terrifying* as hell. I'm definitely not ready to
go non-anon on asar.

MelancholyChild



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From: anon-1554@twwells.com (Jazzman)
Newsgroups: alt.sexual.abuse.recovery
Subject: Early-morning self-hatred
Date: 24 Jan 93 20:59:56 GMT
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X-News: msus1 alt.sexual.abuse.recovery:9417

 [Familiar story of self-loathing cycle deleted]

>I guess it's easier to be angry at me <'cuz it implies that I have control
>over what's hurt me> than get angry and who/whatever's scaring me.
>
>Bleh.  Feh.
>
>Sorry for the brain spew.
>
>Sarah

Sarah, 

On the contrary, thanks for your "brain spew".  Do you suppose that's why
(or part of why) all the self hatred?  Control?

That early morning feeling is familiar, and I feel unable to control it, 
but I can (or should be able to) control my own actions, and I can't 
control the actions of those who hurt me.  

I think you're on to something here, but I'm not sure what exactly it is, 
or what I want to do about it for my own struggles against myself.  It's
sure something that hit a chord in my psyche, though.

Hmmmm . . . 

Ponderingly, 

Jazzman



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From: pglovera@cix.compulink.co.uk (Peter Glover)
Newsgroups: alt.sexual.abuse.recovery
Subject: Re: welcome to fru!
Date: 27 Jan 93 18:17:00 GMT
Reply-To: pglovera@cix.compulink.co.uk


Re: welcome to fru! and abuse by mothers


>block6694@iscsvacx.uni.edu
> >was sexually abused by my mother. Is there anyone else who was too?

I'm sorry I missed the post on abuse by mother as well.
For me it was mainly Emotional, physical, but I think there was some
sexual stuff as well. Some blank memory spots still exist ...
Dad hurt me as well, he was the only one who could have stopped it
but he didn't.

My sister was abused as well, she is stronger than me, but its hurt
her in lots of ways as well.

I HATE my mother sooo much, I dont think I will ever forgive.

Peter.


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From: an2026@anon.penet.fi (TJ)
Subject: Hello Again
Organization: Anonymous contact service
X-Anonymously-To: alt.sexual.abuse.recovery
Date: Fri, 22 Jan 1993 02:16:00 GMT

I'm back, and somewhat in need, but I need to get the hang of the
Finnish anon server. This is a test.

TJ
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