From: lovegod@wam.umd.edu (Donald Andrew Agarrat)
Subject: Re: WARNING: Stealth African Marauding soc.motss
Organization: Workstations at Maryland, University of Maryland, College Park
Date: Sun, 11 Oct 1992 21:08:38 GMT

In article <1992Oct11.071007.1674@spdcc.com> dyer@spdcc.com (Steve Dyer)  
writes:
} In article <1992Oct11.000827.22450@wam.umd.edu> lovegod@wam.umd.edu (Donald  
Andrew Agarrat) writes:
} >I sure wish soc.motss could be a more positive influence in my life ...
} 
} Whine.

Do you think belittling and diluting my comments helps the situation?  What the  
fuck are you doing about the problems I've addressed when I DON'T whine.  Do  
you think I'm supposed to be impressed just because you can roll off token  
Black names that you treat like mere accessories in your pocketbook?  And how  
can you compare me ranting and raving over serious problems between the races  
to trite comments about whether or not Madonna or Dietrich will be remembered  
in 60 years?  And that's only one example!

It's so obvious that you're not trying to understand.  I'm glad this is trivial  
to someone in the world with a name.


} OK, OK, a few of us might have been put off by your dumb logname "lovegod",
} but that's small potatoes compated to the guy with the name "picard"
} a year or so ago.

When I chose that name, I was such a different person.  So optimistic.   
Actually, that's a song ("Optimistic", by the Sounds of Blackness, a gospel  
choir).  I would just sing along:  "You can win/As long as you keep your head  
to the sky/Be Optimistic."  But it's such a lie!  I obviously can't win!  That  
fact is thrown up in my face everyday!  You have said that this is just  
self-pity on my part, and you are exactly right!  It's pity!  I feel pity  
because I feel that I, as a Black Gay man, have no future.  I feel that no  
matter how I try to be optimistic about race relations, I will still have to go  
the my local campus cafeteria where Blacks still serves Whites, where Blacks  
still must clean up after White snot-nosed kids while being ridiculed by not  
only the Whites, but also some Blacks that probably would not even be in school  
if not for their sacrifice!  But yet, I'm supposed to Be Optimistic and Keep  
Hope Alive.  Bullshit!

} Hey, Donald, what's your opinion of BWMT or MACT?

I think it's a mockery.

} Well, this sounds familiar in a gay context.  What constitutes "acceptance"
} by your standards?  As far as "acceptance" on soc.motss goes, what would you
} want?  What would change your opinion?  Or to be more frank, Donald, what
} would it take from us or any individual here for you to kwitchur whining
} and feel like a part of the contributors here?  Or is that even possible?

Don't try to satisfy me now that I have had to "whine."  It only proves my  
point.  

} You may have to be worried about more than being kicked out.  Beating
} someone with a baseball bat is a good way to be transferred into one of
} our institutes of lower education and cell rape.  Anybody who does this
} has more problems than anyone on the net can solve, regardless of the
} outrageousness of the catalytic event.  I think a good shrink is in order.
} Seriously.  _Not_ because you're fed up with white racism, but because
} you've got to do something more constructive and focussed in response
} than bash people with baseball bats.

Like what?  Go and vote?  Do little nice things so Whites like you won't feel  
threatened when Blacks like me get upset.  gee, that sounds so nice, and safe.

} >I warned the RA that this would happen, but he chose not to do  
} >anything.  He shouldn't have left it up to me ...
} 
} This is frightfully short on details.  Warned him of _what_?
} Were you being harassed previously and you took it up with the RA
} who did nothing?

That the long and short of it.  It all started at the beginning of the  
semester, when this White boy stood right there and threw a Frisbee at me while  
I'm standing in the hallway.  He didn't act like he want to apologize, so I  
stepped to him and I wanted to knock his teeth out.  His friend coaxed him into  
apologizing to me.  If it was an accident, I would have handled it differently.   
But it wasn't.  He stood there and stared at my face and then proceeded to  
throw that Frisbee, which hit me in my eye.  Word got around of the events, and  
I guess they found out that I was Gay, my roommate kept telling me of someone  
who continually would wait until I went to work to go to my room and so-call  
"look" for me, knowing I would not be there.  Supposedly, the whole floor  
(all-White) wanted to kick my ass, according to my Resident Advisor.  I then  
told him not to tell my anything if he wouldn't name names, and to get the  
problem straight because if someone had the audacity to step to me, I would  
kick ass first and ask questions later.  Three weeks went by and people where  
throwing shit in front of my door, writing shit (anonymously) on the RA's door  
about me, and giving me all kinds of dirty looks.  I went to the RA and he  
didn't see any problem if noone was physically hurting me.

} >while simultaneously wading through the usual White diatribes,
} 
} Snort.  White diatribes my white ass.

If the truth hurts, then you'll be in pain.

Donald - Nigger Stompin' African