From: datasbld@bnr.ca (Datasbuild)
Subject: yes/no/yes/no/yes/no/yes/no
Organization: BNR Europe Ltd, Maidenhead, UK
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Date: Fri, 24 Jul 1992 10:11:26 GMT

So this woman rings me up to answer my personal ad I had left four months ago
on an 08xx number when I was contemplating wrist-slashing that I had forgotten
about....

Apart from the fact that she rang when I was in the middle of my mate's 
Birthday party and I was trying to figure out why my ex-wife was doing the 
stupid 'Not-Talking' act and I was happy about seeing my kids we had a GREAT
conversation.  I made a slight gaff, she had the sexiest voice I have ever 
heard and a non-English accent; I told her that I thought she was South-African
and this didn't seem to go down terribly well, later she told me she was from
Jamaica and was black!  I felt a complete dork needless to say!  I was having
problems with another woman and was not prepared or ready to start another 
thing with somebody else, I told her about me being divorced and my four kids
and generally tried to paint a black picture (no pun intended), she persisted 
and promised to ring me at home the next day.

Two weeks later (yesterday) she rang at about 11:40pm, I had almost forgotten 
about her and had to squeeze the facts about her from some obscure part of my
(mainly obscure) brain, she said that she had lost the number and had only 
just found it.  We had a good conversation for about 40 minutes, even though I
was very tired, but then she said that I obviously thought she wasn't 
'My Type', I asked why and she said that I hadn't asked to see her, I 
prevaricated for a short while while I tried to get my brain focussed on what 
was obviously a miscommunication on my behalf.  I managaed to convey to her 
that I would really like to see her so we arranged it, then, later on she said
that as I had not asked for her number that she would call me again when she 
was ready and I realised again that all was not right with my communication 
and comprehension of this situation.  Now, don't get me wrong, I really did 
want to see this woman and I don't think I was so tired as to be stupid (or 
more stupider than normal) it's just that I seemed to be talking but not 
conveying my feelings and not reading the information she was (or thought she 
was) giving out.  I hope she rings soon as I think I want to exchange photos'
before we meet, but of course I am at her mercy as she didn't give me her 
'phone number.

Angst1:  Am I really stupid, why can't I 'read' people (women)????

Angst2:  She sounds really nice, why am I hesitating?

Angst3:  Am I scared of meeting someone nice?

Angst4:  Will she find me attractive?  (That's why I want to exchange photos').

Angst5:  Is this really interesting?

Angst6:  Did she really 'lose' my number, why did she 'phone so late?

Angst7:  Why are tyres for my bike so bloody expensive?

Angst8:  Will she want sex?  I've almost forgotten how......

Angst9:  Why am I posting this, it makes me feel better but I am sure it is
         trite, whiny, irrelevant, obscure, very personal, pathetic, paranoid,
         and very very boring.

Several things have changed since my last post to make my life _that_ much 
happier, I hace got a six-month extension to my contract (I'll be posting here
for at least the next six months!!) and I got the Back-Space key to work 
properly in Emacs (this is the most important thing).


My housemate will be moving out soon when he, finally, gets a job.  I'll have 
to advertise for another person to share with me, I am NOT looking forward to 
that.  I had just started getting used to his selfish parking, not doing any
housework, littering the lounge with thousands of rejection letters, picking
bits of skin off his feet and eating them, splashing water all over the bloody
bathroom, never getting any milk in etc. Etc. Etc.   Sigh...


Nick                 DoD 1069

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"All we have to do now, is take these lies and make them true...."  GM

"Just another brick....."  -PF
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