From: anon-1280@twwells.com (MelancholyChild)
Newsgroups: alt.sexual.abuse.recovery
Subject: Re: Let it end soon, please
Date: 31 Dec 92 07:01:32 GMT
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doug@cdc.hp.com (Doug Sojourner) writes:

>MelancholyChild (anon-1280@twwells.com) wrote:
>:>In article <Bzy5qB.IyJ@twwells.com>, anon-1280@twwells.com (ReachingOut)
>:>writes:
>:>>I wish I could believe this for myself. I don't, not at all. It will
>:>>end when I die. Blah blah blah blah blah blah, lots of whiny bullshit
>:>>deleted
>: 
>:This should never have been posted. Apologies to all.

>You don't need to apologize to me, nor I think to most anyone here.
>I've felt exactly the same at times, and since you were very careful
>to say that this was about how you felt about your recovery, I can't
>see why anyone would take offense.  In fact, I appreciate your being
>able to share how you feel.  I didn't find it to be "whiny bullshit."

Thanks. I keep telling myself that I won't pour out my "whiny bullshit"
in public. It feels good to say it and get it out of my system, but it's
awfully embarrassing to read later.

A post like that can cause me days worth of cringing. Still, it
*is* comforting to even have a place where I can post something
like that, and know that I'm not the only one who has felt like that,
and know that people aren't automatically going to go "ewww, she's
*weird*!"

>:"I met a kind and gentle man who thinks the world of me
>: And when he looks my way it is a woman that he sees
>: But when I can't explain to him the tears that fill my eyes
>: He takes me in his arms and rocks his melancholy child"
>:                                                        (Pam Tillis)
>:

>Beautiful lyrics (and a fine new name)!  Thanks,

Thanks again. I've been obsessed with this kid in here, the one I don't
know. No, I'm not trying to find the "Inner Child" or anything buzzy
like that, I'm just...oh hell, I don't know what I'm doing. I'm just
in a complete state of confusion and depression and feeling very, *very*
melancholy. Though most of the lyrics to Pam's song don't have anything
to do with my feelings (it's an autobiographical song, she's the daughter
of Mel Tillis) I love it. First, I love the fact that someone even wrote
a song about, and called "Melancholy Child" and second, some of the lines
hit my heart upside the left ventricle. (I met Pam once. She's really
nice. I'm not much into country music, but I like her.)

Here's the whole song:

  ==============================================================

MELANCHOLY CHILD   Pam Tillis

A baby with a baby just barely seventeen
My mother mourned her innocence
While she bounced me on her knee
A daddy on the road added to her tears and trials
Like silver rain they fell upon this melancholy child

The sounds of my childhood still linger in my song
My mother's lullaby that train that ran behind our home
A whippoorwill on a window sill - it should have made me smile
But everything sounds lonesome to a melancholy child

Now a restless blood runs in our family
I thought I could outrun the emptiness inside me
So I went a little crazy, went a little wild
Trying to outdistance my own melancholy child

I met a kind and gentle man who thinks the world of me
And when he looks my way it is a woman that he sees
But when I can't explain to him the tears that fill my eyes
He takes me in his arms and rocks his melancholy child

You take a black Irish temper and some solemn Cherokee
A Southern sense of humor and you got someone like me
There are thorns on every rose to this I'm reconciled
They're just a little sharper to a melancholy child

And in my own babe's eyes I see the signs of a melancholy child

Heaven help us all, another melancholy child

  ====================================================


MelancholyChild
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