From: blowfish@carina.unm.edu (rON.)
Subject: I know, what is a personal ad doing in here...
Date: Mon, 12 Oct 92 09:44:27 GMT
Organization: University of New Mexico, Albuquerque

Hell, call me obnoxious, I don't care. This here is my .plan file.
If anything in it strikes you, feel free to write.
r.

Plan? To find and use the operating manual for the universe.
Note: This is the sum of rON. It makes up a lot of who I am, what I
believe in, and how I feel about things. In other words, its a big
summation of myself, done up in quotes, poems and song. Enjoy.
p.s.- hi chris!


                            \ | / |     o   |i waited for you to fall in love 
Have a day!               `,-------.'  o    |with someone else, to get tired of
rON.                     {\| '  ,' 0|-  o   |my difficult ways, to tell me 
blowfish@carina.unm.edu  { |  ' > ' |< o    |finally i'm leaving you, you're
'Your mother was         {/| '  '   |       |hopeless, but you didn't and now
  a blowfish!'             `-------',       |i'm faced with the biggest terror
                            \ | / |         |of my life, knowing i am enough
                                            |even at my worst for you to love
                          'a blowfish'      |me all your life...

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"I wanna be, ohh, your sledgehammer, this can be my testimony."
Peter Gabriel, "Sledgehammer"

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"It is only with the heart that one can see rightly;
 What is essential is invisible to the eye." 

"On ne voit bien qu'avec le coeur;
 L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." Saint-Exupery, "The Little Prince"

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"Bottle blondes and beach boys, they might marvel at the size,
 But honey, something that big- you know the best don't advertise"

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"I say, 'Look, I have no hands!', but the
people all around say: 'What are hands?'" -Dune

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Another monk asked Mummu, "Does that tree have Buddha nature?"
Mummu replied, "No, it does not."
The monk asked, "Does that rock have Buddha nature?"
Mummu replied, "No, it does not."
The monk asked, "Does the grass have Buddha nature?"
Mummu replied, "Yes, the grass does."
The monk asked, "Why?"
And Mummu replied, "What is that?"

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                                       __  _-==-=_,-.
                                      /--`' \_@-@.--<
                                      `--'\ \   <___/.   Tiggers can do
If Rabbit                                  \ \\   " /    Anything!
Was bigger                                  >=\\_/`<
And fatter                      ____       /= |  \_|/
And stronger,                 _'    `\   _/=== \___/
Or bigger                     `___/ //\./=/~\====\
Than Tigger,                      \   // /   | ===:
If Tigger was smaller,             |  ._/_,__|_ ==:        __
Then Tigger's bad habit             \/    \\ \\`--|       / \\
Of bouncing at Rabbit                |    _     \\:      /==:-\
Would matter no longer,              `.__' `-____/       |--|==:
If Rabbit                               \    \ ===\      :==:`-'
Was taller.                             _>    \ ===\    /==/
                                       /==\   |  ===\__/--/
                                      <=== \  /  ====\ \\/
(one of Pooh's songs)                 _`--  \/  === \/--'
                                     |       \ ==== |
                                      -`------/`--' /
                                              \___-'

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	"Love is a snowmobile racing across the tundra and
	then suddenly it flips over, pinning you underneath.
	At night, the ice weasels come."
		-- Nietzche
		(From _Life in Hell_, no. 200, by Matt Groening.)

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"Breathe, breathe in the air-
 Don't be afraid to care.
 Leave, but don't leave me-
 Look around, choose your own ground.
 For long you live, and high you fly,
 The smiles you give and tears you cry,
 And all you touch and all you see,
 Is all your life will ever be."-Pink Floyd

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I met a girl who sang the blues
And I asked her for some happy news,
But she just smiled, and turned away.
I went down to the sacred store
Where I'd heard the music, years before,
But the man there said the music wouldn't play.
And in the streets the children screamed,
The lovers cried and the poets dreamed
But not a word was spoken,
The church bells all were broken.
And the three men I admire most,
The Father, Son and the Holy Ghost-
They caught the last train for the coast-
The day, the music, died.
And they were singing-
Bye-bye miss american pie.
Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry.
And them good ol' boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye
Singing "This will be the day that I die,
This will be the day that I die..."

American Pie- Don McClean.

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a library of koans

The book of the Universe has no pages, no cover, no words.
The book of Enlightenment has many pages, all of them blank.
The book of Zen has an infinite number of one-sided pages.
The book of Life has an unknown number of pages in no particular order.
The book of Love has but one page, with an infinite number of words on it.
The book of the Eyes has a cover, but no pages.
The book of the Heart has no cover, only pages.
The book of the Mind has one chapter, with many different verses.
The book of the Body has many different chapters, all with the same verse.
The book of the Soul cannot exist.
You are always reading the book of God.

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'If I gave you everything that I owned,
 and asked for nothing in return,
 would you do the same for me as I would for you?
 Or take me for a ride,
 and strip me of everything, including my pride?
 But spirit is something that no one destroys.
 And the sound that I'm hearing is only the sound
 of the low spark of high heeled boys'. -Traffic

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Xn+1 = f(Xn) = Xn^2 + C, where -2.25< Re C < 0.75, -1.5 < Im C < 1.5

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Squid: Logic does not exist during sleep. Egro, if one is asleep, one cannot
       logically deduce that one is not awake. I, however, am awake, ergo, I
       can logically infer that you are not asleep, Q.E.D.
Ernie: Flawed logic, Mr. Squid! I am dreaming that I am asleep. Egro, you
       either a) do not exist or b) if you do exist, you are dreaming that you
       are awake.
Squid: Forget it, Ernie, it's obvious I'm smarter than you!
Ernie: Oh, yeah, how do you figure that?
Squid: For one thing, I'm not arguing logic with a squid.....

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"Find the Queen without a King,
 They say she plays guitar and cries, and sings,
 La la la la-
 Ride a white mare to the footsteps of her door,
 Tryin' to find a woman who's never never never been born.
 Standin' on a hill in the mountain of dreams
 Tellin' myself it's not as hard, hard, hard as it seems..."

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This section contains varied bits of songs- some relevant directly to me,
some relevant to my current existance and the people in it.....

"They think its very funny, everything I say-
 Get a load of him, he's so insane:
 Better get your coat, dear, it looks like rain.
 ...Is the nightmare black or are the windows painted?
 Is it in your conscious that you're after
 Another glimpse of the madman across the water?"

"If I'm not blind why can't I see-
 That a circle can't fit where a square should be..."

"Wild boys wonder- 
 'Where is glory? Where is all you angels?'
 Now the figureheads have fell...
 They tried to tame you, looks like they'll try again.
 Wild boys, never lose it- wild boys never chose this way-
 Wild boys, never close your eyes-
 Wild boys, always shine."

"...Let me skip the roads with you, I can dare myself...
 I'll put a pebble, in my shoe, and watch me walk. 
 I can walk!
 I shall call the pebble Dare, and we will talk, about walking.
 Dare shall be carried, and when we both have had enough,
 I will take him from my shoe singing, 'Meet your new road'..."

"While Mona Lisas and Mad Hatters...
 Turn around and say Good Morning to the night.
 For unless they see the sky,
 But they can't, and that is why,
 They know not if its dark outside, or light."

"Give me anything, even sympathy, there's a chance you could be right"

"Hey you- don't help them to bury the light,
 Don't give in without a fight."

"I've done a lot, God knows I've tried.
 To find the Truth, I've even lied.
 But all I know is down inside
 I'm bleeding.
 And Superheros come to feast,
 To taste the flesh- not yet deceased."

"What in the world ever became of sweet Jane? She lost her head and you know
 she isn't the same. Living on reds, vitamin C and cocaine, all her friends
 can say is ain't it a shame."

"This is the end, beautiful friend, the end...
 It hurts to set you free, 
 But you'll never follow me.
 The end of laughter and soft lies
 The end of nights we tried to die..."

"The principals of lust, are easy to understand...."

"Poor is the man whose pleasures depend on the permission of another."

"Lunatic Fringe, I know you're out there..."

"All I see turns to brown, as the sun burns the ground, and my eyes fill
 with sand, as I scale this wasted land, tryin' to find, tryin' to find,
 the way I feel."

"I'm so tall, and you're so cute, let's play wild like wildcats do.
 You're gonna rock your tall cool one, 
 I'm gonna say that, I'm gonna say that, I'm gonna say that ahhhhhhh.
 You stroll, you jump, your hot and you tease,
 Cuz I'm your tall cool one and I'm built to please"

"If you look at your reflection at the bottom of the well-
 What you see is only on the surface.
 If you try to see the meaning,
 Hidden underneath.
 The measure of the depth can be deceiving...
 On the bottom, words are shallow:
 On the surface, talk is cheap.
 You can always judge the distance by the company you keep."

"The Lords are here!"

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"I- I who fashioned myself an angel or a sorcerer, I, who dispensed with
 all morality, I have come back to earth." - Rimbaud.

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"...Since White's stone comes out badly positioned, this sequence is not
 completely unplayable, but it is a shame to start by giving White so
 much territory. That tends to make the game close." -Miyamoto.

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"You wouldn't recognize a subtle plan if it painted itself purple and 
 danced naked upon a harpsichord singing 'Subtle Plans are Here Again'"

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It is well known that what one believes will be what comes to pass. What is
seldom understood is when what comes to pass is not to be believed.

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Go placidly amid the noise and waste,
And remember what comfort there may be in owning a piece thereof.
Avoid quiet and passive persons, unless you are in need of sleep.
Rotate your tires.
Speak glowingly of those greater than yourself,
And heed well their advice -- even though they be turkeys.
Know what to kiss, and when.
Remember that two wrongs never make a right,
But that three do.
Wherever possible, put people on 'hold'.
Be comforted, that in the face of all ardity and disillusionment,
And despite the changing fortunes of time,
There is always a big future in computer instruction.

             You are a fluke of the universe...
             You have no right to be here.
             Whether you can hear it or not, the universe
             Is laughing behind your back.

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"I'll protect you from the hood and claw,
 Keep the Vampires from your door....."

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More to come later...
rON.
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