From: mkwan@esk.compserv.utas.edu.au (Michael C. KWAN)
Newsgroups: soc.culture.hongkong,soc.culture.china,soc.culture.taiwan
Subject: Weekly Love Story -- No. 1
Date: 15 Oct 92 02:35:48 GMT
Organization: University of Tasmania at Launceston


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	Stories in 'Weekly Love Story' are subscribed by netters and presented
by International Lonely Hearts Club.  It is opened for public.  Therefore,
you are welcome to send a story to us (please don't post it to news group
directly, we don't want to mess it up).  We would not expose the name of 
sender(s), it he/she/they are not willing to do so.  We are looking forward
to hear you.

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	Welcome to International Lonely Hearts Club, here is our first
'Weekly Love Story'.

	This story was sent from Sydney, Australia.  We don't know who is
the sender, so don't ask us (we would not tell even we know).  It is talking
a boy who is falling in love with a girl, but he has already a girl friend. 
The interesting thing is they have not started but finished their relationship
at last.  It is a bit confuse for you, so we better leave you to go through 
yourself, enjoy it. 

							Drs.

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                              Startless Love
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	This is my story.

	I am supposed to be a very happy man, because all my friends said that.
I have a very nice girl friend and we are planning to get married.  I am a
very outstanding student in University, a lot of friends are seeking for help 
from me in both studying and personal events.  I am not bad looking, sense of 
humor and clever.  I am a loyal friend, because I can keep secret, I will 
comfort my firends when they have problems and they like to talk to me.  I
have a perfect family.  Everything seem perfect for me.  Yes, I think 
sometime it is, but not always.

	However, my peaceful life was changed when she appeared.  She was just 
a very common friend and junior of mine.  She always asked me a lot of 
question in studying and we would also talk about something personal, but not
very often.  I didn't feel anything unusual at the very beginning, because
I usually help juniors to solve problems.  She is not very beautiful but 
clever, she gained a lot of attention from me because of this point.  I found
that she is very intelligence, every queries from her were not silly.  She
was not only desiring a answer, she wanted the facts.  She would not be 
satified if I just gave her a result without explaining, she must keep asking 
and arguing with me until we could settle a same point.  She is great !  We 
were getting closer day by day.  However, I could sure that I was not in love
with her, I just wanted to talk or argue with her.  It was fun and make me
feel comfortable. 

	I have made a good relationship with her friends, I was looked like a
part of them.  However, my instinct took me that something would be happened,
she loved me.  I only supected it at the very beginning.  After my 
investigation, I found that it was a truth, but I also found that I liked her
but not loved her.  I told myself that it could not happen, I have a girl
friend, a very good and nice girl friend.  Therefore, I introduced my girl 
friend to her and I tried to keep off from her.  I thought that these moves 
could make her undersatand my situation.  It seem work, but only a while.
Because we are studying in the same university, it is very hard to isolate
her and me.  We were still having our talks and argues as we used to do, but
it was not that often as before.  But I felt that our relationship was closer 
than anytime before.  I refused to accept it, in fact, I was falling in love
with her.  I wanted to talk to someone, but who ?  My girl friend, my parents
or my friends ?  None of them was suitable for me.  Because it was impossible
to tell my girl friend this event, it might influence out relationship, in
fact I love my girl friend more.  My parents and my friends, I think I already
know their responses and answers, furthermore, I didn't want them to know this.
Therefore, I pretended nothing happening.  I was looked as strong as usual.  I
left this event going on.  I didn't want to , but what could I do ?  Tell her 
that I didn't love her, we could not fall in love.... That was impossible, 
because he had never said that she loved me anyway, in fact, we did love each
others. Time was going, our event was getting 'better' (worse) everyday as well.
We did really look like a couple, we knew it, but we both didn't dare to 
confess.  My friends were noticed that, they asked what was going on.  I had 
to be strong, and I didn't want anyone know it, so I just replied that we were 
just a close friend, nothing unusual, and I even said that "Can't a boy
and girl be a close friend ?  Don't be too sensitivity, girl can be a loyal,
and not only a lover.".  What a good explaining !  What a big lie I made !
Actually, I was absoluately confused by what I was doing.  However, I was
still standing and looking as happy as I supposed to be.

	Fortunately, the result of my exams were still acceptable, they 
were not affected by the relationship between her and me.  Also, my chance
to clear the thing out was coming, because we would have a 3 weeks holiday,
so I had a excuse to keep off from her.  I spent my whole holiday with my
girl friend for travelling.  After the holiday, the event had a dramatically
change, she got a 'boy friend' !  Although they were just started, it was at 
least a solution of our affair.  I had even encouraged her to accept this boy,
though I was not willing to.  I was temporary comforted, at least I did no
longer feel guilty of my girl friend.  We were being a best friend again.
However, one thing made me very worry was that she didn't want to talk about
her boy friend, even I meant to mention him in front of her, she only replied
me that "Fine, not too bad" and stop.  Anyway, I had already assumed that
we were finished, but we were not in fact.  

	We had organized a big birthday party for her, but her so-called
boy friend did not turn up.  What the hell was going on !  I asked one of 
her best friend (I did not ask anyone about her boy friend before, because I
didn't want anyone to guest that I did care about it) and that friend told me
that they actually did not start, just the boy was keep chasing her, but she 
didn't like him.  Another surprise for me was, her best friend told me that 
"She loves you, and she doesn't know how to tell you, because you have girl
friend.".  Oh my godness, she really loved me, that was the worset news I had
even heard.  However I was not collapsed yet, I begged her best friend to keep
this secure and told no one that I knew she loved me.  I was still pretending
knowing nothing like a idiot.  I felt really sad, I didn't know what should
I do next.  I have no help I can seek for.  It is a big joke that a helper
for everyone doesn't how to help himself -- me.  I am facing with a biggest
challenge for my life, I am dealing with a stronger enemy I have ever met.

	Eventually, I won but I also lost.  "I won" because I had made a 
discussion that I would not give up my girl friend to love another person.
"I lost" because I do really love her, I can not forget her. 

	Now, there is only 2 months left for my studying, after that I will
leave the University and back to HK.  We are still a best friend, we are
still talking, playing and arguing, we are looked very happy.  However,
the more I see her, the more I hurt.  Time will clear everything out, I
hope.  I think to keep pretending knowing nothing will be the best answer.
Well, I am not seeking for any help from all Drs, I just want to tell you my
story, my startless love.  I feel better now.

	Thanks for all Drs to provide a chance for me to expose.

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Dr. Mike                                    Dr. Feelgood
mkwan@esk.compserv.utas.edu.au              stu_wclau@vax1.acs.jmu.edu
Dr. Sleeping Beauty                         Dr. Chilly-B
shsieh@esk.compserv.utas.edu.au             bhchan@soda.berkeley.edu
Dr. Ma                                      Dr. Dog 
u1040448@arch.unsw.edu.au                   bi_kin@stu.ust.hk
Dr. Lemon
scheng@unixg.ubc.ca
                                         
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