From: anon.30@pax.tpa.com.au
Newsgroups: alt.sexual.abuse.recovery
Subject: school & work & other things
Date: 27 Dec 1992 22:46:38 +1030
Organization: PAX - Public Access Unix (Adelaide,South Australia) - Anonymous Service
Reply-To: anon.30@pax.tpa.com.au
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Well, yeah, I think I understand what Nancy said & I think I agree with 
it.  Since I have taken time off & been part time & taken time off again -- 
I am realizing how full of bullshit this school is & how little it is set up 
so that the students actually learn something useful for their lives -- I 
think what a full time college student is expected to do is simply insane --
and not considered 'real' work....what?  take 14 hours of classes, spend 
several hours a week in various groups & organizations, if you play an 
instrument or do art or are in the theater add several hours a week for 
that, except for when you have a performance make it more like 20-30 
hours that week...work at a paid job 10-25 hours a week, never sleep 
enough, eat shitty dining hall food unless  you manage to get into a co-
op or off board which adds a bunch more hours a week to your 
schedule....don't forget about trying to have a social & dealing with 
parents who don't want you to be 'grown up' yet, trying to learn how to 
handle romantic relationships...and then when you try to tailor your 
course through school to fit YOUR needs, go through TONS of bullshit 
from obnoxious deans (like the one who told me that he is a practicing 
psychologist on the side & he would not recommend what I did -- 
taking time off from school to start FEELING the emotions I have been 
blocking so much for the past 20 years that I couldn't recognize a feeling 
it if hit me over the head -- allowing myself some time to fall apart 
when memories started surface -- then try starting school slowly again -- 
he thought that was a bad idea -- don't know what he expected me to do 
instead when I was in full fledged crisis most of the time).  
 
Most of my life school was my refuge, I got lots of personalized 
attention from teachers -- all the students hated me, but I got a lot from 
the teachers -- and I could work around the system when I needed to -- 
but I think I was an exception.  
 
School has stopped being what is best for me & I'm still caught some in 
thinking that I 'ought' to be able to stay in school -- but that isn't what I 
need right now.  and it isn't a place that is particularly conducive to 
meeting my needs.  So I'm not going to do it.  I may go back, in fact it is 
likely, I think I would like to get a college degree somewhere down the 
line.  But for right now, nope.  now I just need to figure out what to do 
instead.  I'll stay with my school connected job for a while, working 
with computers, but that can never be full time, and I can't make 
enough money off it to support myself.  I guess I;ll see what happens.
 
Also -- I have always been pretty clueless as to how people figure out 
what they are going to do job wise.  Like, how am I supposed to knw 
what I want to do and what I'm good at when I don't even know half 
the kinds of jobs available and I have no idea if they are something that 
I would be interested in because I've had no experience with them?
 
It is something that has always confused me.  I mean, I've worked 
dining halls, fast food (because they were easy jobs to get), camp 
counselor (because I went to summer camp forever) and school - related 


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