From: an900@anon.penet.fi (Kelley)
Subject: RE: hating one's body
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Organization: Anonymous contact service
Date: Sun, 20 Dec 1992 00:47:56 GMT

Russ says:

>It's always interesting to see how much variation there is between
>people.  I don't get why being in a male body is horrible and you hate it.
>I believe you, and I certainly don't mean this as an attack.  But it's
>an alien concept to me.  I'm a male and am perfectly happy living in a
>male body, but I think if I were to wake up one day magically >transformed
>into a female body, I would not hate that.  (Well, the problem of
>social acceptance would be big, but...)  I mean, I think women's bodies
>are beautiful and they look like they'd be neat vessels in which to live,
>but I'm also quite happy living in a male body.  I've crossdressed on
>occasion and enjoyed looking female, but most of the time I dress as a
>male typically does.

>So I'm curious: would most people feel horrible living in the body of
>one given sex, or would you be happy in either sex (assuming you didn't
>get hassled by obnoxious society...).  I personally would like to live
>in the future when sex changes are easy, cheap and safe.  ("Gee, I think
>I'll go to the party in a female body tonight...")

>So is this transgendered, or am I intergendered? :-)

Russ


Ever since I was a small child, I was very sure that I was a woman, as a
child, I actually until about age 5 or 6 did not know that I was in a
male body, so the concept of disliking it(my body), did not occur. I
crossdressed, and in some cases I believe my mother condoned, and even
helped, but those memories are vague. Sorry I am rambling a bit, I tend
to do that from time to time. When I discovered that I was living in a
male body, I was horrified, the problem was  that my "shell"(no unix
jokes please ;^)  ) was wrong for how I felt. I remember at a young age
believing that one day I would grow up and bear children of my own. As I
got older, I began to hate my body more and more, there were times that
I just wanted to take a knife, and cut my penis off! I  was sure that I
had been born female and some cruel surgeon and my father(we didn't get
along much), had decide I should be a male person, and had surgically
altered me,after all isnt what that little seam on my testicles was all
about. Puberty was horrible too me, at a younger age,(<15 or 16) I was
pretty enough that folks thought I was a girl.
Most of this rambling has to do with, that while I am glad you are happy
in your body, that I do indeed, and possibly some others, want nothing
more than to be able to be comfortable in our physical homes. I have
waited almost all of my life to begin confrontning these issues...



Kelley 

"Be what you is, not what you is not, folks which do this have the
happiest lot"--Mr. Wizard,(from the cartoon series Tudor  the turtle)
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