From: krikket@meltdown.chi.il.us (D. 'krikket' Krick)
Newsgroups: alt.sexual.abuse.recovery
Subject: Day 5, Take 2
Date: 15 Sep 92 11:32:10 GMT
Organization: The Meltdown - A Team Star BBS

Today has been FUSTRATING in the extreme...  At least I haven't been
depressed...  :)  (Yes, the last of the depression seems to have dissapated, as
I have cought up on my sleep (avg. 14 hours per night!).)

At any rate, this is my second attempt to post this message...  Apparently my
first one failed (or most likely will fail, along with a bunch of Email I sent
out (Sorry folks!  I deleted the messages after I sent 'em, so I can't resend
them!  Crystal and BrandyWine, if you don't get Email by the time you read
this, please yell in my general direction!)

For some reason it seemed approperiate when I first wrote this message to
respond to PoohBear here, so I'm going to try to do it again...

>(poohbear) Writes:
>
>I have a plan again.  This is hell.  i will not break and tell anyone about
>it.  poohbear is leaving for real.  she cant stop it.  they have won and beat
>her and she doesn't care.  don't know why she made it through the weekend.
>its her birthday today too.  happy happy happy day.

Where are you going???  If you must leave, be aware that I'll miss you, for
your posts have shown...  I don't know, WHAT, but SOMETHING!  And if it's any
consolation, I get to deal with my Birthday this week as well.  (Friday the
18th)  Looks like I was wrong, and am going to end up seeing my 22nd B-Day
after all...

And onto the origional message...  (Well, I don't know what else to say! 
(Sorry poohbear, but I'm not a great fountian of ideas, thoughts, and other
assorted commentatries...)

Three thoughts are running through my head as I type this:

1>  I know that as often as I say that I wonder why people tolerate me, I get a
flood of responces that it's ok for me to be here, along with encouragement to
continue posting.  Thank you!  But, I also wonder if it's possible that... (And
here I'm afraid of stepping on an anonomous poster's toes!) that perhaps that
as a SO of a survivor and love-addict, rather than a survivor myself, if I
might be preventing someone else from using this place for support...

2>  A while back I made a joking comment to a friend of mine...  Someone on the
net should start "alt.lonely".  Essentially it would be a support group for
those people who are having problems with loneliness...  For some reason I have
a feeling there are a LOT of "ghosts" on the net who are going through this
sort of problem...  Any comments?  Good idea?  Bad idea?

3>  I don't know if I should post this here or not, but...  I got a piece of
Email today telling me that they would greive if I were to kill myself, but
there are better options than using a handgun.  Then the person offered to send
me directions for better, cleaner methods, but first stated that this person
would try to talk me out of it...

I don't know how the hell I should react to this.  Part of me wants this
information NOW.  Another part is scared shitless that I may do something once
I get that info.  Most of me is just indifferent.

(What can I say, the depression was replaced with apathy and a headache... ;)

Ahh well, I'll shuttup now, before I start putting other things that I want
responce from up on the Net...  (Big Grin while I say that!)

And thanks, again...

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