From: anon-1281@twwells.com
Newsgroups: alt.sexual.abuse.recovery
Subject: Suicide
Date: 12 Nov 92 04:01:30 GMT
Organization: Anonymous Posting Service at twwells.com


I couldn't reply to the person who was asking about confidentiallity and
suicide,but I'd like to post MY opinion.
Whether you agree with me is not the point,I'd like to express my feelings
about this " taboo ". SO if you intend to flame me,don't bother.I don't need
the hassles.

I have posted on ocassions and am still trying to deal with my own abuse and
suicide brushes.


I once was confided in ,by a friend, an attepmted suicide.My first reaction
was to alert someone in authority about this matter.
My second reaction was to try and persuade the guy not to go through with it.

I tried the second but couldn't convince him of any reasons why he should
continue on.He answered EVERY reasoning I threw at him with logic.He
sincerely had no reason to fight back.So I 'panicked ' and told a friendly
teacher.Bill was forcibly restrained and referred to a shrink.
Two weeks later he asked me for some money to go home to see his parents.
I gladly gave him the $'s,expecting to see him back soon and much happier.
One day later I received a note,blaming me for the breach of confidentiallity
and the following day his mum rang to say that Bill had hung himself in
the house garage.
Bill left only a few lines on paper ,they were.
" I ask why my friends deserted me,I ask why I was betrayed "
" I didn't deserve that,what would you say (my name here) ?"

I still have the note.Bill's mum gave it to me at my request.

Suicide 2

I was told of a friend who had committed suicide,for no apparent reason.
I knew the reason,his abuse.His parents prevented anyone from seeing
him ,except for the shrink.His letter to his wife said...
" If only I could have spoken to ( my name ) "
I had made covert attepmts ,as well as public attempts to talk to him.
But everytime I tried I was stopped by someone.
I don't have that letter,his wife kept it.What I do have is a yearning to
stop feeling guilty.

I can honestly say that I have tried to end it all and still think about it
constantly.I have the method and all.If and when I do do it,I won't leave
any notes.I wouldn't want someone to feel guilty over something I'd
thought about rationally.
Advice for that poor unfortunate woman..... there is none.I'm sorry but
I believe that it's none of your business.My friends were going to do it
anyway,I tried and was left the guilt.Don't let them leave you feeling
guilty

I believe that people have the right to check out at any time,shit we
never had the right to choose our entry ,family or abusers.Surely the
exit time can be our own.
I suggest that anyone who offers advice of intervention,think deeply.
If it were you,would you want to " be betrayed,did you deserve that "


Don Quixote ( still tilting at windmills )



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