From: machala@spdc.ti.com (Chuck Machala)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: wow, does anyone else do this?
Date: 5 Oct 92 22:13:34 GMT
Organization: TI Semiconductor Process and Design Center

cygnus@oahu.cs.ucla.edu (Marshall Robin) writes:

>In article <BvnrLo.5ur@acsu.buffalo.edu> hennessy@acsu.buffalo.edu (DOG BASEBALL!!!) writes:
>>	Another scary thing:  I've been given to random violent imaginations
>>lately.. like building large bombs and going on a daytrip to washington,
>>renting a car under an assumed name, and blowing up various houses of
>>government.  Or randomly driving cars packed with explosives into police
>>stations..  I think this stems from having absolutely no power (or the
>>perception of no power, which is essentially the same thing) and wanting to
>>just "Kill 'em all".  Of course my self control is holding me back (and my
>>inherent laziness) but remember if the news reports acts of random terror in
>>the Buffalo area, you heard it here first.

>i hear ya. definitely. least i know now that there's someone else out there.
>the problem is, that sometimes i think i could actually be capable of it.
>not now, but as i have always held that the end of life for me would be
>when i graduated from college, and as this happened in june and the first
>month of grad school seems to bear this theory out, i can only see the slide
>into hopelessness and despair growing swifter as time goes on. i haven't
>felt like this since high school. least then i had a passion for programming.
>now all i have a passion for is sleep. sleep, the little death, and i'm
>even losing the ability to do that at will. sigh. but anyways, i get these
>flashes of images of me popping a cap at <insert-random-public-figure-who-
>doesnt-deserve-to-live-here> and raving like a lunatic. all that stands
>between a disturbed person and a raving psychopath is that leap to action.
>luckily for me i think expressing this supressed desire allows me to function
>without carrying it out. and i really know nobody out here (i just moved
>to LA a month ago) who could potentially deal with my more demented ravings
>so that bottling-up thing is becoming a problem...

Oh, you did it now. Next week I can hear your angsts.
1) I hear this funny popping noise on my phone that was never there before.
2) This black sedan keeps following me.
3) There's this flower shop van parked outside my house ALL the time.
4) I want Jodie Foster. :)

Seriously, this seems to be quite common. Ocassionally when I hear about the 
cable TV bill or bounced checks or more special interests groups getting what 
they want at the expense of the common taxpayer or bizarre court cases where
a woman whose colleague asked her out on a date and was awarded 80 bazillion
dollars for sexual harrassment from the guy and the company he worked for and 
the guy's parents and his 8th grade football coach I want to nuke the Capitol 
building when the house and senate are in session. Voting doesn't seem to work:) 

Disclaimer: I'm NOT a raving lunatic, just another dissatisfied American. 
 
--
              Beer - It's not just for breakfast anymore.

Chuck Machala - Semiconductor Process and Design Center - Texas Instruments