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Date:         Sat, 15 Aug 1992 15:46:02 EDT
Reply-To:     Styliani Nikouli <nikouli@ACSU.BUFFALO.EDU>
From:         Styliani Nikouli <nikouli@ACSU.BUFFALO.EDU>
Subject:      KOMMATIA TIS ELLINIKHS PSYXHS
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AFIERWSH: Ston Dimitri Tzannini	(TZANNINIS@sscl.uwo.edu	).

0RASOS KASTANAKHS	(1901-1967)

MIA ALLH ISTORIA (Synexeia)

   H zwi mou ksanarxise, mono pou o geros eleipe. Twra eimastan ali0ino
antroguno. Eida kai tin kalosuni tis, tin imeri agapi. Pernousan wraia oi
vdomades, oi mines.
  Kserete, i Martigka einai enas topos perifimos. Ka0omastan to vradu sto
katwfli tou karvounadikou, legame gia tin patrida. "Mia mera 0a gurisoume!"
legame. Diavazame kapou-kapou kai kamia efimerida apo tin A0ina, pou mas tin
estelnan oi Marsegezoi. Pianomastan kai gia ta politika, ma etsi st' asteia
eixame tis diafores mas. Wraia, polu wraia itane sas lew. Monon ekeinos o
paralutos, ama erxotan stin parea mas mou ekove ta aimata.
  Ma to perissotero ka0omastan stin trapezaria, me kleismeni tin porta, me
kleismena ta para0ura ki ap' ekei akougame pou fwnaze tou anepsiou: " Monaxo,
pali monaxo m' afisate!", kati tsirixta sa na ton epnigan.  Ki etrexe o
Lamprinakis na ton imerwsei.
  "Alloi exoun gunaika, paidia, pe0erika kai ta voleuoun.  Toutos exei ton
paraluto ki einai sa deka famelies na tou strivoun to laruggi!", eipe ena
vradu i Soultana stin parea mas, ki oloi gelasan.  Etsi kamia fora elege to
logaki tis, stinontas to kefali, ta rousa mallia tis ki ekeino to metwpo pou
efegge sa filntesi. Suxna provelne etsi anamesa mas kai panta anave to kefi
stin parea mas. Ama eleipe, gia na sugirisei touto ki ekeino, gia na
mageirepsei, oloi ti gureuan. "Ti Soultana 0eloume!", fwnazan, a0wa pramata.
Opou na kai fainotan ekeini, sa sklava kai vasilissa, eferne kanena meze pou
eftiane krufa, kai vazan arxi ta palamakia kai ta "zitw". A0wa pramata.
   Egw kamarwna. Ekeina ta xronia de 0a ksanagurisoun. Edw pou vriskomai kai
douleuw, sto Elliniko, eimai xamenos an0rwpos. "Pane ekeina ta xronia", lew.
"Pane kai na ta klais!". Eixame kala paidia stin parea mas. Perifima palikaria,
pou kanane kefi, mesa stin agriada tis kseniteias. Twra, poios kanei kefi mesa
stin agriada tis patridas; Kanenas. Kanenas, egw sas lew. As einai. Mono
0umamai pou ksafnika mesa stin kaluteri wra mas akouontan ekeino to gunaikeio
strigglisma pisw apo ta kleista para0ura: "Monaxo, pali monaxo m' afisate!"
Oloi swpainan ki o Lamprinakis etrexe na kanei ta pikra gluka. To xeirotero
itan ama ton eferne ton paraluto anamesa mas.  De milouse autos. Etrive ta
xeria tou tona me t' allo, opws oi pe0amenoi pou katevainoun mesa sto vraxna
sou ki akous na trizoun ta kokkala. Kovotan to aima mou, sas to eipa. Emena
prwto kuttaze. Tezarizan ta matia tou ki anoige mazi ki o stomas tou, ta
kitrina ekeina dontia.  H nekrokefali, elega mesa mou...
   Ta matia tou, akomi twra pou sas milaw, den  einai ta matia tou pou
me tromazoun ma ta frixta tou ekeina dontia.  Gurnouse karfwne ti gunaika mou.
   Mia emena, mia ekeini. Ma i Soultana den tou dine simasia.  Erxomoun pio
konta tis.  Eniw0a to kormi tis. Mia zesti xara evgaine apo panw tis, ap to
xamogelo, apo to katsoufiasma tis, tetoia gunaika den ksanaginetai. Ki egw
ksexniomouna.
   Pernousan to loipon oi vdomades, persan ki oi mines. Kala ki wraia.
O geros, oute fwni oute akroasi.  Egw ena-duo voles, kati piga na pw gia tou
logou tou, ma ekeini esure to xeri empros mou, adiafora, san opws serneis to
spa0i panw apo to skotwmeno gia na to sfouggikseis. Kai den ksanamilisame. Ki
ir0e pali to kalokairaki.  Ma oi douleies stamatisane.  Kati diadilwseis, kati
apergeies allilegguis, olo kai xeirotera. Na mi sas ta polulogw, ekeinos o
ergodigos mou vrike douleia sti Luwna sto Saint-Etien, polemika ergostasia,
meromistia rezilikia, opou itan adunato na parw mazi kai ti gunaika.
Xwristikame, na paw na dw ti ginetai kai katopi vlepoume.
   Ekei sto Saint-Etien, itan ali0ini kolasi. De lew pws peinousame.  Ma mono
pou trwgame, koutsotrwgame, ki ola t'alla pera apo to fai, katara 0eou. Mas
katevazan tis Kuriakades se kati sunoikies gia tin ergatia...opou oute na
ftuseis sou erxotan gia tin gunaika. Poso etsi monomias allaksane ta pragmata;
   Kuttaza ton eauto mou sto ka0reftaki, mia pi0ami ena rimadi, milousa me ton
eauto mou: " Tosi katara, tosi ksepesoura!", elega.  0umomoun eleino to foititi
pou ir0an kai ton piran oi gonioi tou, tin prwti fora pou vrika ti gunaika na
me perimenei.  Ki arxiza twra na klaiw. Den imoun pia o idios an0rwpos. Kai
0umomoun ekeino to foititi, ta palia mou, to mesari pou mas xwrize. Hmoun egw
o idios an0rwpos pou ta zousa, auto to ereipio zouse ekeini tin epoxi; Mou
egrafe i gunaika. Opou ntrepomoun na diavasw ta grammata tis.  An provelna twra
ki egw empros tis, sta ksafnika, opws provelne ekeini, kratwntas to pioto,
legontas to logaki tis, an m' evlepe empros tis se tetoio xali pou imoun
simera, an m' evlepe o paralutos!
   Tis estelna o,ti mou perisseue. Ki ekeini mou apokrinontan.
" Mi stenaxwriesai, antrouli mou, 0a ksanagurisoun oi kales meres...". Den
taxw ta grammata tis nas sas ta deiksw, giati ola takapsa. Ma etsi mou egrafe,
kata leksi: "Antrouli mou, otan kserw pws eisai kala, tipote de mou leipei ki
olos o kosmos einai dikos mou. Kanw ki egw to kata dunami, kati tanteles pou
exoun twra megali zitisi.  Ta lefta de mou leipoun, xrusoxera m' eleges!...".
   Mia mono fora, ti Lampri, mporesa na paw konta tis duo meres.  Efuga,
sarantaoxtw wres adeia, ki ekeino giati gelasame ton epistati, kideia tou
eipame, klironomia.  Ki o Gallos m' afise.
   Oute katalava pws perasane oi sarantaoxtw wres, oute pws ksanagurisa, oute
pws ir0e to kalokairi pali kai pali arxise o xeimwnas, oute ki ekeino tis to
gramma: " Sou to ekruva, antrouli mou, to megalo mustiko mou, genni0ike to
paidi mas, ena agori, enas agoraros...". Ta katafera, pira ksana adeia.
  Ekeino to mwro itan allo prama. Loipon, lew, de 0a ksanafugw.!
  Emeina ekei. Frwxia kai twn paterwn. Enas minas, duo mines. " Twra ki oi
tanteles kopikan.." mou eipe.  Pou 0a pigaine auti i katastasi: " Mwre, tipote
den exei se touti ti Martigka!". " Tipote!", mou elege ki o Lamprinakis kai
gurize allou ta matia tou.
				(Synexizetai)

GIA TIN ANTIGRAFI
	STELLA NIKOULI
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