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From: lumpi@dobag.in-berlin.de (Joern Lubkoll)
Subject: Re: wimmin!
Organization: dobag Berlin 
Date: Sat, 3 Oct 1992 02:15:28 GMT

ABienek@acorn.co.uk (Alex Bienek) writes:

>In article <BuxDsx.7vp@midget.yps.saar.de> boerp@midget.saar.de (John Boerp) writes:

>>But what do you do when everywhere you go and with all
>>the people you meet you get the feeling that you don't belong to this
>>particular place or the people?
>>
[Options]
>c) Invent a fully functional cryogenic storage system, program it
>   to wake you some long time in the future and hope that when
>   you awake the planet will be a more bearable place to live,
>   or that you will have the opportunity to try another one.

could lead to the problem that you're the last human being on earth just 
because all the others have alreadydestroyed themself.

jl
-- 
The left being rich - trying to shut their guilt for knocking down dreams, befor'
they'r even build.	(Anne Clark)

lumpi@{dobag.in-berlin.de,fu-berlin.de], lubkoll@cs.tu-berlin.de
From: Bruce.Tindall@bbs.oit.unc.edu (Bruce Tindall)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Baaaaaaah (was Re: wimmin!)
Date: 3 Oct 92 20:42:05 GMT
Organization: Extended Bulletin Board Service

In article <ogorman.717871278@unix1.tcd.ie> ogorman@unix1.tcd.ie (Lucifuge) writes:
>Yah. And the women are only interested if you've got land. And cattle.
>Or maybe sheep. 

I've got land and goats, and nobody's interested in me.  Wouldn't you
know it, I'd go and pick the wrong ruminant.

"Quare hircum?  [Why a goat?]  No answer."  -- Joyce, Finnegans Wake, p. 89.

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From: cygnus@oahu.cs.ucla.edu (Marshall Robin)
Subject: Re: wow, does anyone else do this?
Organization: Bruins fer "Bob"
Date: Mon, 5 Oct 92 18:29:25 GMT

In article <BvnrLo.5ur@acsu.buffalo.edu> hennessy@acsu.buffalo.edu (DOG BASEBALL!!!) writes:
>	Another scary thing:  I've been given to random violent imaginations
>lately.. like building large bombs and going on a daytrip to washington,
>renting a car under an assumed name, and blowing up various houses of
>government.  Or randomly driving cars packed with explosives into police
>stations..  I think this stems from having absolutely no power (or the
>perception of no power, which is essentially the same thing) and wanting to
>just "Kill 'em all".  Of course my self control is holding me back (and my
>inherent laziness) but remember if the news reports acts of random terror in
>the Buffalo area, you heard it here first.

i hear ya. definitely. least i know now that there's someone else out there.
the problem is, that sometimes i think i could actually be capable of it.
not now, but as i have always held that the end of life for me would be
when i graduated from college, and as this happened in june and the first
month of grad school seems to bear this theory out, i can only see the slide
into hopelessness and despair growing swifter as time goes on. i haven't
felt like this since high school. least then i had a passion for programming.
now all i have a passion for is sleep. sleep, the little death, and i'm
even losing the ability to do that at will. sigh. but anyways, i get these
flashes of images of me popping a cap at <insert-random-public-figure-who-
doesnt-deserve-to-live-here> and raving like a lunatic. all that stands
between a disturbed person and a raving psychopath is that leap to action.
luckily for me i think expressing this supressed desire allows me to function
without carrying it out. and i really know nobody out here (i just moved
to LA a month ago) who could potentially deal with my more demented ravings
so that bottling-up thing is becoming a problem...

i was wondering if it's an odd thing to be, well not really suicidal, where
you realize that life is kinda pointless but just don't hate it enough to
try and stop it? so you do things that could possibly get you killed without
care for that fact? not things like slitting your wrist, rather things where
death would be incidental, like crossing 6 lane streets in los angeles without
looking or breaking your stride, and expecting cars to stop without caring
if they do? 

dunno, as they say, i'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees, just
because i don't see too much point in begging for life...

-marsh
From: adw3345@ultb.isc.rit.edu (A.D. Williams)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: OH THE HUMANITY
Keywords: rise from geekdom
Date: 6 Oct 92 01:59:53 GMT
Organization: Rochester Institute of Technology
Originator: adw3345@ultb


 I would like to inform all non interested parties here that I, Derrick
Williams, previously angst free, was rejected soundly for a date by a woman
who I had designs on for the last month.  

 Please, allow me a moment to symbolically vent my angst, in poetry:


 Why why why why why
 why why why why why
 why why why why why
 why why why why why?


 Thank you, thank you all. I now shall wail in dispair and then do my
programming lab.


                                                           Derrick

First things first.
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From: rperkins@astro.as.arizona.edu (Rachel J. Perkins)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: Star Trek Angst
Date: 2 Oct 92 16:14:13 GMT
Organization: University of Arizona, Tucson, AZ

In article <1992Oct01.094509.22232@acme.gen.nz> kilroy@acme.gen.nz (earthbound misfit, I) writes:
>meachem@acsu.buffalo.edu (The Meach) writes:
>
>> rperkins@astro.as.arizona.edu (Rachel J. Perkins) writes:
>> 
>> >bah.
>>
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>>                               .**** *@@@@* ****.
>>                            .*.* .*.*@ ** @*.*. *.*.
>>                       **   *  * * *@ *..* @* * *  *   **
>
>Looks like Rachel finally got her wish. Someone's nuked Arizona for her at
>last.
>

yes, the meach knows my heart's desire. and she has my undying gratitude.

bah.



--
		-just give me what for,
	rachel perkins =  rperkins@astro.as.arizona.edu
      "Chastity..the most unnatural of all the sexual perversions...."
					-Aldous Huxley
Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: ctrexp4@caa.mrs.umn.edu
Subject: angst
Summary: To look deeply into the mind of another
Keywords: This is Angst
Organization: University of Minnesota, Morris
Date: Fri, 2 Oct 1992 15:43:43 GMT

You wouldn't think that it would be such an enigma-->
	The mind of another.
==================================
OH IT'S YOU BOB !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
==================================
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: ObAngst, bah (allowable?)
From: kilroy@acme.gen.nz (earthbound misfit, I)
Date: Mon, 28 Sep 92 11:57:26 GMT
Organization: ACME BBS - Public Access Usenet, Palmerston North, New Zealand

IDJMW@ASUACAD.BITNET writes:

> One would gather from the criticisms of allowable angst that the following are
>  NOT permissable:

> [...6 rather peevesome things deleted...]

Well, erm, no, sort of. On their own they're kind of just peeves, and there's
a whole unique newsgroup for that (alt.peeves).

But I must admit, the kind of life situation where all these things are
happening to you (and presumably lots more) all the time could be described as
reasonably angstful. So I guess You're Allowed.

							- k
-- 
Craig Harding            kilroy@acme.gen.nz             ACME BBS +64 6 3551342
"Jub'f Xvob?"
From: kestanol@porgy.uucp (Keith C. Estanol)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: arghh
Followup-To: none
Date: 4 Oct 1992 22:23:22 GMT
Organization: UC San Diego
Distribution: world
NNTP-Posting-Host: porgy.ucsd.edu
Summary: ARGGHH

I got blasted last night 'cause I was depressed, and called 
various people while in an inebriated state.
One of them was this girl.. let's call her 'Bob'.

Bob is. heh. i guess you would call her an SO, although, I have
various juicy names I could mention.  Anyway, I call Bob, and
when bob finds out i'm in this situation, Bob is.. well, pissed.
I call Bob in the morning when the liquor has worn off, in a very 
cheery voice, and Bob says something like :  You just don't get it,
do you?  and I, in my great wisdom hung up on bob.

Soon after this, I do some other really brilliant things.
but i suuppose you wouldn't want to hear about those.

Anyway.. i'm in the process of buying a big bouquet of roses,
new clothes, writing up something nice for a card, etc, etc.
No sirreeee i haven't lost the war yet.

godamn i'm depressed. see you guys later. argghhhh.
is jason downs out there, someplace?


Keith C. Estanol	    	| storm@ucsd.edu
UCSD, Cognitive Science 	| storm@ucsd.bitnet
Institute of Geo and Planetary Physics : kestanol@bull.ucsd.edu
---------------------------------------------------------------
"We don't want to be victims, on that we all agree.
 So we lock up the killer instinct, and throw away the key.."
From: quirke_a@kosmos.wcc.govt.nz
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: thud.
Summary: Thud or blah ? take your choice
Date: 30 Sep 92 02:46:11 GMT
Organization: Welligton City Council, Public Access.
NNTP-Posting-Host: kosmos.wcc.govt.nz

llama@pooh.cc.utexas.edu (sine nomine) writes:

[Re: Unexpected love]

> i hate this. i feel alive for the first time in months, but i'm also
> (by turns) scared shitless, cynical, angry, resigned to the
> hopelessness of it all, frustrated, longing, exhilarated... it's like
> my blood is carrying helium, not oxygen. everything feels different,
> and i miss the old comfortableness.

   As opposed to the other state, that of wandering through your days, marking
time till you die. Nothing that grabs you, activities just to divert you from
the nothingness at the core of your life. Dead, unfeeling, a true zombie.
Until...

   I've been in both, and I prefer the feelings Debbie is going through. Enjoy
it, and live it to the full, even the bad times.

Tony Q. (While we live, let us LIVE !)
From: bs584@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (Jeanne Leidy)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Arrogant Idiots
Date: 30 Sep 1992 06:08:54 GMT
Organization: Case Western Reserve University, Cleveland, OH (USA)
Reply-To: bs584@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (Jeanne Leidy)
NNTP-Posting-Host: thor.ins.cwru.edu


Two days, I have to spend -- 48 hours -- with the 
ScreamingBitchBossLadyFromHell, at a totally useless conference,
powder paint finishing systems, or some such thing.  A five hour 
drive each way, in a trashy rental car, with this, this "person".

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I got a new supervisor this year.  She's the sort that knows nothing but loves
to lecture others.  I *hate* it when stupid people act superior to me.
I could easily beat her in any battle of wits, in fact I have, but that 
doesn't exempt me from having to listen to her drivel from time to time.
Or, in this case, for two days straight.
                                       
Suggestions for survival tactics welcome.  I have one week to prepare...

Jeanne :(

Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: ballms@ctrvx1.vanderbilt.edu (BALLMS)
Subject: tiredness also
News-Software: VAX/VMS VNEWS 1.41    
Keywords: door/wall/window/yuk
Organization: Vanderbilt University
Date: Mon, 5 Oct 1992 00:36:00 GMT

tiredness?/  a vampire lives next door to me, after I do my little 
energy meditations ,, I can hear her creep near the wall and try 
to suck the bloodyy chi right from mmy muladaracharkras,,,
she's a waitress, they're all psychic hungry, looking for some
thing tasty.. anyway.. if my grad class (i thought grads  would
be mature,) wasnt full of vampires also (80% women).(( they
all read anne rice, stupid lower level occultism with an ego
the size of a soap opera damsel drunk ofennui and proud of it
wishing they were framed on the set in situations of escapist filth
and noise.. )) backstabbing each other in lower net turmoil, when 
I had a blue collar job, people acted better than this.
Im about to believe all that spiritual war shit now. 
the currents muddy, turbid. beautiful on certain levels,
but its a 23 hour guard ..and theyre ready to soil it with
a big toothless weasel grin monster rot.
From: sokay@cyclone.mitre.org (Stephen J. Okay)
Subject: Re: tiredness.
Organization: Mitre Corporation, McLean, VA
Date: Mon, 5 Oct 1992 05:24:19 GMT

In article <80988@ut-emx.uucp> llama@pooh.cc.utexas.edu (sine nomine) writes:
>
>the things that get me down aren't global, really. they're things like
>being awake at 3 am and playing solitaire and wondering how long it
>would take them to figure out you were missing if you keeled over dead
>*right now*.

Probably only a day or so, maybe even as short as a few hours, as narcissistic
as it may sound. Part of being so depressed(like I'm feeling right now) is
I busy my life with a hundred different obligations to a hundred different
people or groups, so on any given night there's somebody or some group of
people expecting me somewhere. It keeps my mind off being depressed for
the most part, the downside being if I really wanted to truly disappear
I couldn't 'cause I'd be missed to easily. Sometimes I wish I could do like
my friend did ewhen he killed himself and just be forgotten about for a 
whole week and in the meantime just totally waste away into the carpet and
the floor, which have to get thrown out for sanitary reasons and there's
nothing left of you that anybody really wants to remember. Sometimes I
just wish I could disappear into the ether and just vanish and not have
anybody know where I was or care 'cause then that would at least be
consistent with what I get from the world the rest of the time...
You're only valuable to people when they risk losing something to torture
or gush all over...I'm really sick of getting to just be a placeholder in
other peoples lives....but I'm rambling beyond the real point of what I
was following up to...
And if his sister(who is on the net) is reading this, my apologies, but thats
just the way I feel right now...

>above it for a while sometimes. or wondering if you're the only person
>on your block (floor, street, in your organization, at work) who
>thinks about stuff like this, who thinks that most people are
>deliberately ignorant and sheeplike and boring. and wondering if you'd
>be happier as a sheep. i could go on forever.

I've thought about this too, but have found that lifequakes or waking up or
whatever have the same effect on your life that waking up out of a dream does.
Once you wake up, you can't go back to sleep, no matter how hard you try...

>this isn't meant as a flame, btw. just a different perspective. i
>think global angst is just as valid as personal.

My aren't we in a cheery mood...whatever happened to being go at throttle up,
110% on the main reactor, etc. ?

---Steve
-- 
Stephen Okay  sokay@mitre.org
"You see, I'm kind of this control freak who likes to create his own
personal hells before the real one can get to him. I like to beat hell
to hell so to speak".--Spalding Gray "Monster in a box"
From: hennessy@acsu.buffalo.edu (DOG BASEBALL!!!)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: Arrogant Idiots
Date: 30 Sep 92 16:43:47 GMT
Organization: Ministry of Information, Lower Volta.


	What I find myself doing in situations like that is SUPPRESS
EVERYTHING, and bring a walkman.  plug in, turn on, and drop out.  good stuff
to travel by:  novels on tape..  some libraries actually loan these out.  I
suggest hitchhikers, agatha christie, or john lecarre novels in partickler.  
avoid this person, if this is a business trip act professionally. and hint
that your relationship on this trip is purely and exclusively professional.  
	big thing I discovered early (and forget often):  unless you can be
killed for what you do, it's not as important as your life.  whatever shit
falls on you, unless you're dead, I mean REALLY NO PULSE dead, you can wipe it
off and keep going.  this is probably the eternal optimist trying to peek
through my shell of cynical pessimism, but what can I do?  for all the
problems I've had and continue to have, I still am far better off than many
people.  it's difficult to remember that when the shit is thick, but you have
to wipe it off and keep going.
	btw: no date for the 169th week in a row, still counting.  I think I'm
-- 
   /I\          Fuck 'em if they can't take a joke.
  /(*)\         hennessy@acsu.buffalo.edu                 
 /IIIII\        "Leave EVERYTHING to ME!" - Powdered Toast Man       
/IIIIIII\       Give me SLACK or give me food (or kill me).
From: rperkins@astro.as.arizona.edu (Rachel J. Perkins)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: death of
Date: 30 Sep 92 21:18:55 GMT
Organization: University of Arizona, Tucson, AZ



a friend of mine's father just died, and i received a postcard from him
(from ramsgate, england) telling me about it. this guy's getting up there,
(in his 50's i think) and he's all alone. but it seemed so odd getting
this news on a brightly colored postcard, complete with happy red double-
decker bus and colorized sea-scape. i can't deal with it. is everything
this fake? i know peter wasn't being fake, but it just threw things into
sharp relief. i'm feeling pretty ill about this. i can feel my face pale.
i'm getting cold. my lips are drying up, and sticking together, making my
face immobile. why? i know that people die, this isn't about that. it's 
just that the world continues to be so brash and insensitive. 

why can't things be peaceful and gray and white? why does all of culture
say that cheery vulgar primaries are superior? i don't know. i suppose this 
all sounds pretty silly, but i'm tired of looking at the bright colors. maybe
that's why i keep wanting to shut my eyes permanently.

--
		-just give me what for,
	rachel perkins =  rperkins@astro.as.arizona.edu
      "Chastity..the most unnatural of all the sexual perversions...."
					-Aldous Huxley
From: miner@kuhub.cc.ukans.edu
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: AngsTest
Date: 26 Sep 92 09:20:22 CDT
Organization: University of Kansas Academic Computing Services

In article <BuJBJ1.6FE@news.cso.uiuc.edu>, dennis@alexia.lis.uiuc.edu (Thomas A. Dennis) writes:

[...]

> Take heart in the deepening gloom
> That your dog is finally getting enough cheese.
> And reflect that whatever misfortune may be your lot
> It could only be worse
> In Milwaukee.

[...]

This posting was good stuff, but *how* in the blazes did Milwaukee
come to be eponymic for bad news?  (The folksingers treat it the same
way.)  I lived there three years; it's a reasonably good city with
great ethnic restaurants, real neighborhoods and a Summerfest.
What's so bad about Milwaukee? 

(If that isn't defensive enough, guess where I live now?  Right,
Kansas...) 
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From: ssc@nwu.edu (Steven Chung)
Subject: Re: adjective of choice
Originator: schung@casbah.acns.nwu.edu
Organization: Northwestern University, Evanston Illinois.
Date: Wed, 30 Sep 1992 23:55:48 GMT

In article <1992Sep30.235210.1568@news.acns.nwu.edu> ssc@nwu.edu (Steven Chung) writes:
[deleted]

Then again, it could've been an attempt at Italian, a language about which
I know nothing.




Newsgroups: alt.angst
From: ssc@nwu.edu (Steven Chung)
Subject: Re: adjective of choice
Originator: schung@casbah.acns.nwu.edu
Organization: Northwestern University, Evanston Illinois.
Date: Wed, 30 Sep 1992 23:52:10 GMT

In article <ogorman.717872051@unix1.tcd.ie> ogorman@unix1.tcd.ie (Lucifuge) writes:
# In <1aaqsrINNnn5@usenet.INS.CWRU.Edu> bs584@cleveland.Freenet.Edu (Jeanne Leidy) writes:
# 
# >I'm getting ready to do *anything* (lizards, this does not mean you)
# >just to feel *something*.
# 
# Oh well. Mea saurus, mea saurus. Mea maxima saurus. 

I'm not sure what this is supposed to mean.  It would say "my lizard,"
except that "saurus" isn't a Latin word and that the genders don't match
anyway.  Perhaps you mean

	mea lacerta

"my lizard," or perhaps

	lacerta sum

"I'm a lizard," emphasis on "lizard."  Who knows?

:/

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