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Date:         Mon, 31 Aug 1992 08:31:15 EDT
Reply-To:     Styliani Nikouli <nikouli@ACSU.BUFFALO.EDU>
From:         Styliani Nikouli <nikouli@ACSU.BUFFALO.EDU>
Subject:      KOMATIA THS ELLINIKHS PSYXHS
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VASOS DASKALAKHS  (1900-1944)

ENA ASHMANTO EPISODEIO (APO: p. "N.Estia", 1943)


    De skopeua na gurisw apopse toso nwris sto dwmatio stin pansion, ka0e allo.
Opws eixa dwsei rantevou m' ena gnwsto mou apo tion Ameriki pou ir0e proxtes
sto Parisi perastikos gia katw,  elega pws 0a trwgame mazi ki epeita 0a i0ele
na ton paw se kanena apo ta megala kampare sti Monmarti, pou einai aparaitito
naxei dei kaneis, an einai na milaei argotera pws exei kanei kai sto Parisi.
Etsi 0a pernouse opws na'nai kai gia mena i vradua, 0a piname kai kanena potiri
me eu0umi gunaikeia parea, kai 0a pernouse. Perifima vevaia oxi, giati egw
apospe eimai arketa 0limmenos, oso den imoun apo kairo, kai kserw twra kala pws
polu duskola 0a'vgaina ap' auti tin katastasi.  Mia anupofori adeiosuni me
krataei apo to prw.i., ma anupofori -sa na'xw vre0ei ksafnika erimos ki
olomonaxos s' olo ton kosmo, kai na' xoun erimw0ei ola kai mesa mou. Ki oso to
vlepw auto, toso 0umwnw perissotero me ton eauto mou, giati kserw polu kala tin
aitia, ki i aitia einai entelws asimanti. Malista 0a elega kwmiki.
    Ena palio0uloko ekei pera, mia afimeri gnwrimia tou voulevartou, pou eixa
edw kai merikon kairo mazi mou spiti mou, ki efuge simera.  Spoudaia upo0esi
da! Kai na'xe pali fugei apo monaxi tis, na me 'xe egkataleipsei pou len, -kaka
kai psuxra. 0a ti dikaiologousa isws, isame ena simeio, ti stenoxwria mou: 0a
mporouse na 'nai to kataxtitiko antriko mou filotimo pou eixe peiraxtei. Omws
egw o idios, monaxos mou, tin ediwksa, xwris kamia apolutws idiaiteri aformi
apo meros tis, tis dilwsa ksera ksera kai katigorimatika oti prepei na fugei
amesws, ki auto oxi panw se tipota 0umous i' se neura, alla psuxraima kai
promeletimena apo meres. Malista eixa arxisei kai neuriaza ligaki me ton eauto
mou gia tin anapofasistikotita pou eixa arxisei ki edeixna mesa mou m' auto to
zitima-olo na anavallw apo mera se mera na tis pw tin apofasi mou, pws kairos
pia na pairnei ena telos touti i ano.i.ti istoria. Arketa eixe vastaksei.
     Ki oriste: enw egine ki apallaxtika epi telous, kai malista apallaxtika
toso eukola kai toso xwris fasaries, oso den to fantazomoun, -oriste oxi mono
na mi dokimazw ksegniasia ki alafrwma, alla na eimai se mia katastasi
aksiolupiti, pou ntrepomai ki egw o idios gia ton eauto mou. Afou wres wres,
oli ti mera simera, malista meta apo to gramma pou vrika, ta matia mou kanane
oloena na plimmurizoun dakrua mes' ti mesi stous dromous pou triguriza, na me
idei kai kanenas gnwstos na gelaei me memane. Auto isa isa einai pou me kanei
kai stenoxwriemai perissotero, ki arxizw n' amfivallw an eimai an0rwpos me
0elisi i' eimai kanenas eparxiwtis. Toulaxisto enas filos mou aksiwmatikos
stin Presveia, pou etuxe kai fagame to mesimeri mazi kai me anagkase sto telos
me tin epimoni tou na tou pw ti itan i akefia mou ka0ws den kataferna na
kruftw, auto mou dilwse ka0ara, ksekardismenos sta gelia, pws par' ol' auta
den eimai an0rwpos tou kosmou. Ki an skaw akoma pio polu, skaw pou exei dikio.
Akous ekei, leei, na 'xw valei maura me mia tetoia mpagkatela! Pws fenetai
par' ol' auta pws eksakolou0w na eimai eparxiwtis. Autos 0a tin eixe stripsei,
kai 0a tis edine apo panw kai mia klwtsa me ti mpota tou, na, etsi gia gousto.
Akous ekei!
    Exasa ki ekeino to rantevou mou me to gnwsto apo tin Ameriki, ksexastika
stous dromous kai piga kapoio tetarto argotera kai eixe fugei. Tetoio einai to
ligokardisma mou apopse, pou de legetai poso mou kostise ki auto, san na'xa
xasei ti moni elpida pou mou apomeine ston kosmo, kai stekomoun keida wra ki
wra kai perimena, kuttazontas gematos pikra apo dw ki apo kei, min tuxon kai
ksanafainotan. Alla pou. Den erxetai kaneis tzampa apo tin Ameriki, elega mesa
mou, me grammenes sto karne mexri deuterolepto tis wres tou kai tis stigmes
tou, kai me agwna oloena mi tuxon kai tou meinei kanena keno. Omws, an iksere
ti kako moukane, afinontas me etsi apopse, 0a perimene vevaia, 0a kane ligaki
upomoni, opws ki egw diavole ton perimena x0es toses wres or0os sto Louvro, gia
na stekei na 0aumazei amilitos ta pio xeirotera erga pou vriskontai sti
zwgrafiki. Duo wres Louvro eixe simeiwsei sto karne, opws tou orize o
Mpenteker tou gia touti tin imera, kai den ennoouse na to kounisei an den
ginotan duo wres swstes.

			(SYNEXIZETAI)

GIA TIN ANTIGRAFH
	STELLA NIKOULI
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