From: arnett@unixg.ubc.ca (Bill Arnett)
Newsgroups: rec.nude
Subject: Implants
Date: 15 Oct 1992 09:15:52 GMT
Organization: University of British Columbia, Vancouver, B.C., Canada
NNTP-Posting-Host: unixg.ubc.ca


>To: arnett@unixg.ubc.ca
>Subject: Anon Post Request

       Hi Bill;

           You  mentioned  a willingness to post anonymously for someone.
       I wish to take you up on your offer.

           I am not asking because I am ashamed of being a nudist which I
       readly  admit to those who know me.  What I am trying to avoid are
       the people I work with who read rec.nude for laughs, from  finding
       out and laughing at me and my condition.

           Here  goes!  The  many messages about erections cover a normal
       condition that can  be  corrected.  I  due  to  being  an  Insulin
       dependant diabetic for many years became impotent.  This occurs in
       almost all males who take insulin for more than a couple of years.
       The  situation  starts  slowly and gradually gets worse.  When all
       of a sudden you realize you cannot  under  any  condition  get  an
       erection.  I  did not want my sex life to cease, so about 10 years
       ago I opted to have a penal implant.  The results of  the  surgery
       is noticeable even when the implant is not inflated.  Some are not
       the inflatable type those constantly stay semi-rigid.

           Now the problem.  I have only been trying to enjoy the  nudist
       lifestyle  for  a  few years.  I started on a visit to Hedonism II
       in Jamaica.  When I returned home I decided to look for  a  landed
       club.  The  "Pondarosa"  east of Dallas Texas was my first attempt
       to join in.  Being a single male I am already  at  a  disadavntage
       and  I  do  not  look  exactly like all the other males due to the
       implant.  I was approached by one man and as  he  walked  by  said
       "get  control  of  yourself"  I  replied  to  him that I was under
       control.  I heard him later say that he wished someone else  would
       complain.  By now I am very self conscious.  A little later one of
       the male staff told me "Watch your hardon" I told him that this is
       as normal as it gets and explained about being a insulin dependant
       diabetic and that getting an involuntary erection  is  impossible.
       By  now  I  felt totally out of place so I went back to my car and
       got dressed.  I returned to the office to try to inform the  owner
       that  I  was  not  what  they thought.  She would not consider any
       explanation and repeated a few times that I had a problem.  I  did
       not  ask  for  a  refund even though I had been there less than an
       hour.  I just wanted to get away from these people who preach body
       acceptance but do not practice it.

           Undaunted,  I  figured I would try another place this one N.W.
       of Dallas the "Bluebonnet."  I was treated better  but  still  was
       not  accepted.  The  cook/reception  crew greeted me and mentioned
       that I should take a stroll along the nature  trail.  Not  getting
       the  full  meaning  of  his message until I had decided to do just
       that.  When I returned I still looked the same.  I  did  notice  a
       few  looks of disapproval but tried to forget them.  While sitting
       in the hot tub one young woman turned to whisper to another  woman
       while her eyes returned to me a couple of times.  Gee I wonder who
       or what she was talking about?

           I vacation at foreign resorts that have nude beaches.  I get a
       lot less negative attention even though most people are Americans.
       I believe it is due to the  party  atmosphere  and  they  have  no
       close  circle  of friends to stick to, so they want to meet almost
       everyone.  There is the occasional remark,  from  the  person  who
       hasn't  taken  the time to as much as say hello, I try to reply to
       them politely and then ignore.  All those remarks stay with me and
       make me even more aware of my unacceptability.

           On  a  recent trip to California I stopped at the beach in San
       Diego.  Tom Middleton mentioned that he might  be  around.  I  was
       surprised  at  the  number of clothed people, mostly because I had
       not thought of it as an either or beach.  More on the lines of how
       many  beaches  are  segregated for CO and textile.  I did not find
       Tom and I did not stop to enjoy the beach.  I did not want  to  be
       a lone oddity.

           I  also  visited  "Lupin  Lodge" in Los Gatos, California.  In
       my letter to them with my  reservation  deposit  I  informed  them
       of  my  condition  and  told them that if they prefered that I not
       come, I would understand.  I was very  surprised  at  how  much  I
       felt welcomed.  No remarks, frowns, etc.  The visit was during the
       week so attendance was sparse.  A few families and no-one (that  I
       noticed)  acted  like  I was a freak.  I was much more at ease but
       still guarded.

           I do not want to offend so  I  have  given  up  trying  to  be
       accepted  at  any  local clubs.  I have resigned myself to being a
       backyard nudist.  I will miss the social aspect which  is  one  of
       the  major enjoyments of CO world.  Surgical procedures for breast
       augmentation, tummy tucks, and  liposuction  on  women  to  change
       thier  appearance  is  accepted  everywhere.  Surgery to correct a
       male malfunction is not.

           So one last comment.  When any of you out there in  nude  land
       see  someone  who  looks less than flacid.  It may not be what you
       have been PROGRAMMED to believe.  The surgical procedure is common
       and becoming more so.

           If the person you see is an old fart come say hello to me.

-- 
Bill Arnett                            Internet: arnett@unixg.ubc.ca