From: cliffs@playroom.East.Sun.COM (Cliff Skolnick)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Re: I feel weird
Date: 22 Dec 1992 05:25:51 GMT
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[This is not me, but Julie using my account]

To the original poster, SO of bonk,

Speaking of angst, I'm approaching trying to figure out this thing. 
I'll be moving to the San Fransisco bay area in the next few weeks
with my (not) boyfriend (not so if something happens between us, i
will experience less angst and guilt--or theoretically)  Your
angst-filled message has made me both worried about my move, and
more sure of myself.  When I lived at home between college breaks
not so long ago, I sat around alot without a job,In a similar
predicament--no friends (all moved),parents giving me heat and
guilt and I sat around, but I didn't watch soaps--maybe that's a
large contributor.  Soaps can only make you feel worse, unless
you're shallow and think only of your nail color, and cute hunky
men.  That's what my high-school friends were like who watched
soaps.  But then, of late, when I've sat home on a weekend because
all my friends (the few, but close ones I have) were busy, I've
taken to watching Beverly Hills 90210, which is pretty scary, since
I consider myself a liteary person, and feel guilty for watching
vacant (yet moral) television shows when I should be reading great
classics instead.  All I can say is I don't walk down the street
and say hi to strangers. In fact, I'm afraid to say hi to people
I've met once, or who I've not seen in awhile,  because I'm afraid
they won't recognize me or won't say hi back, and then I'll feel
really stupid.  And now I'll have to find a job and interview with
my less than perfect interpersonal skills.  I just looked in a San
Francisco Sunday paper that I picked up at the corner bookstore,
and from the job listings, I think you'll be searching for a long
time for that perfect job if you rely on the papers.  Finding a
good job comes through luck and persistance, and you have to talk
to people.  Or, a better solution that I like, is find a person who
is really sociable, and have that person introduce you to all kinds
of people.  My friend Darryl introduced me to my current (not)
boyfriend, as well as to most of my current close friends.  You
need Darryl.  I'll see if he's willing to contract himself out
(just kidding).  But I'm anxious because now I'll have to find a
new Darryl, and I don't even remember how I came to strike up a
conversation with him more than once, so I can't even give you a
hint.  Maybe, if you have a balcony, you can through water balloons
at people as they walk by.  The one who knocks on your door in a
rage is your best bet, because he or she had the balls to yell at
a perfect stranger in her own home.  Also, have you tried asking
people on these networks if they know someone (who knows someone
who knows someone...) if they have a job opening somewhere?  I like
this medium, because I don't have to see or talk to the people, I
can just write and edit, so even if I come off stupid, I can
pretend I meant it that way with an authoritative tone that
wouldn't be possible in person or over the phone.  In fact, I was
going to suggest meeting you when I get out there in February, but
that would be a bad idea because the angst the fear of meeting an
unkown face would cause me would force me to buy an entire new
wardrobe because my deoderant would give out and the sweat pouring
down my armpits would stain all my shirts, giving me something new
to stress out about.  Not to mention the fear of being in an
elevator with body odor, like the commercials show.
--
Cliff Skolnick | "Different colors, different shades,
cliffs@sun.com | over each mistakes were made, I took the blame
(716) 385-5049 | Directionless, so plain to see. A loaded gun
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