From: scg@mentor.cc.purdue.edu (Kelly Martin)
Newsgroups: alt.transgendered
Subject: Re: Tough questions.
Date: 15 Nov 92 20:36:06 GMT
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Reply-To: scg@mentor.cc.purdue.edu
Organization: Gender Anarchists United

hackbod@xanth.CS.ORST.EDU (Dianne Hackborn) writes:

>scg@mentor.cc.purdue.edu (Kelly), in reply to me, writes:

>>My, this sounds familiar....

>.....

>>Oh, dear.  This is sounding even more familiar...

>You mean.... you mean......  I'm not totally weird and strange and
>atypical and unordinary and queer and odd and peculiar and
>bizarre????

Oh, definitely.  So am I.  I'm damn proud of being weird, strange,
atypical, unordinary, queer, odd, peculiar, and bizarre.  Must be my
Sun in Aquarius. :)

>Drat. ;)

>>>And I don't know if I can say that I _hate_ my genetalia...  But I
>>>know that I don't want them how they are, and _wanting_ to pay
>>>$10,000 to have them fixed probably requires quite a bit of dislike.
>>>:)
>>
>>Well, I don't really hate them; I just don't think they really belong
>>there.  It's not their fault, after all. :)

>Oh yeah, but what else am I going to blame it all on?  I don't
>believe in Ghod and haven't yet found a higher power who will answer
>for all of this.  Maybe there was a surplus of male genitals when I
>was born and they decided to try hooking on to me, thinking I
>wouldn't notice. ;)

Blame your father for making the wrong type of sperm that day.
Better yet, blame his Y sperm for beating out the X sperm in teh grand
battle for the egg.

>>Unfortuantely, the psychiatric establishment often makes you do so if
>>you want do anything about it. :(

>I haven't really encountered that.  I first started seeing a
>psychologist while I was home this summer, and I told her up front
>that the main reason I was seeing her was because that's what you
>need to do to get approval for hormones, etc.  She never made me feel
>like I had anthing to prove and allowed to me talk freely about all
>of the doubts and questions I had.  [And don't get the wrong
>impression about my saying that I was mostly seeing her to get
>approval -- I had a LOT of doubts and questions. :)]

I'm tempted to take this tack when I go in for counseling (Nov.
24th)....  at this point I have pretty much accepted the fact that I
am TS and nearly need to determine now what I am going to do about it.

>Actually, when I first started seeing her I told her I was planning
>on transitioning during Spring break... then we started talking about
>doing it at Christmas break.  However, I realized in a little while
>that it would just be too soon and told her that I would rather wait
>until spring.  She replied that that was fine, but if I later decided
>to wait until summer, "we would have to have a _serious_ talk." :)

I want to transition soon (the target I had was May of 1993), but my
wife is insisting on a gradual process... so it might be a few years
before I can.

>>*sigh* You and I sound almost exactly alike.... I'm also sub and
>>fetishistic (unfulfilled, for the most part, grumble; money reasons,
>>mostly), as well as bi.  And I am most probably TS.

>Darn money...  But one day, I promise, I will own a corset. ;)

Ooooh, don't tempt me.  :)

>>Oh well.  I just had to reply because I felt such a connection to
>>Dianne I couldn't let it go by unsaid.  Long lost sister, maybe?
>>*grin*

>Perhaps, sis. :)  *hug*

You too.  *hugs*  Too bad you're too far away for real ones. :(

Kelly
--
Intolerance is not a lion.  It's a weasel.
	-- Dean Kaflowitz (decay@cbnewsj.cb.att.com), talk.abortion