From: ulrike@gmd.de (Ulrike Bauer)
Subject: Re: I need HELP!!! (bingeing)
Organization: GMD, Sankt Augustin, Germany
Date: Tue, 17 Nov 1992 09:45:08 GMT

In <1992Nov17.050832.16322@spdcc.com> dyer@spdcc.com (Steve Dyer) writes:

>In article <97872@netnews.upenn.edu> crawford@ben.dev.upenn.edu (Lauren L. Crawford) writes:
>>I finally realized how ridiculous this was; if I was going to eat this
>>stuff anyway, I might as well have it at home and stop playing games with
>>myself.  So I gradually stocked my house with stuff I'd never allowed in
>>before.  Initially, I ate lots of it and gained weight.  But you know
>>what?  I don't do that anymore.  The stuff just sits around most of the
>>time, and I find I'm making healthier choices more often than not.  I know
>>if I want it, I can have it; I just don't want it most of the time anymore.  

>Hey, if it works for you.  I have no trust in the "eat what you want when
>you want it, think healthy thoughts, don't deprive yourself and everything
>will be OK" diet plan, because that's what got me posting here.  I won't
>ever not want it if it's too available.  Most of the things I don't allow
>myself in the house (e.g., peanut butter, cookies, whole milk, Haagen-Dasz)
>I'm not going to encounter outside the house in quite the same way.  All of
>these were great late night (or other time) snack foods, and what made them so
>nasty was that they were at hand, easy to snack on with little preparation, and
>were refilled more often than not.  Plus, they were terribly calorie-dense.

>Skim milk, fruit, lowfat yogurt, cottage cheese, beans, etc. just don't have
>the same reward value.  While I enjoy them as part of my daily diet, I'm
>not inclined to drool over them or overindulge.  And, I find that it's easy
>for me to avoid snack foods outside the house.  In general if they're not
>easily at hand, I have no trouble avoiding them.

>-- 
>Steve Dyer
>dyer@ursa-major.spdcc.com aka {ima,harvard,rayssd,linus,m2c}!spdcc!dyer

I think that is the difference of people. Some can avoid overindulging by
having no snacks or sweets at home. With others like me it doesn't work. If 
I have sweets at home, there are days, where the snacks are very save. 
I won't eat them or will eat a piece of chocolate or a biscuit but not 
more. On other days I eat a lot of them and or also 'allowed' food like 
bread or yoghurt, muesli - it makes no difference what I have at home. 
Or sometimes I plan binges, so I go and buy a lot of food to eat it 
at home and on the way home. Afterwards I vomit very often, as I'm very
afraid to get very huge. And I have put on weight 29 lbs. during the last 
3 years ( but since last year my weight is stable (with vomitting)). 
I weight 165 lbs. and I am 5'8'' tall. That is not so much, but I want to 
loose about 33 to 38 lbs. If I put myself on a diet, it will work longest 
for 3 to 5 days, and then I start binging again. Till now, I haven't found
out how to get rid of my eating habbits. I know why I eat, I have a lot of
phycho therapy. I know that it is wrong that I want to loose weight with 
all means (and especially with all my thoughts circling around this), but 
I can't put them away.

I have no control over me. I had it too long during my life, for about 10
years, when I first was anorectic for a short time and afterwards, when I put
on all the weight again, I restricted my food intake or ate to much (for a
day), but I think it was uncomplicated. Then after the little daughter of
my sister died and my boy friend and I left each other, it didn't work any 
longer.

But it really makes no difference which kind of food I have at home, as
when binging I eat anything, and when I started with 'good' food, I often
go to a fuel station (at night) or in a shop and buy snacks.

ulrike
ulrike@gmd.de

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